The Light Vol 17: Where Do I Fit In? (in HD)

[TeehpodT]

Here's my two cent: It's never enough for a person to be "a shiny beacon" for anything. A symbol - even a strong one - is in some way always a dead thing, like a scaffold for others to paint on that only comes alive through these others. People, though, need to have their own private space to 'paint on'. People who tend to identify too much w/ others neglect that 'own space', live only vicariously through others, or are 'being lived' rather than living. And that's always frustrating to the ego.

[catey62]

A good way of looking at it is this..when we are children,we do childrens things..when we are teens,we do teenager things..then we become adult's,and do adult things..and for us in the tg community..its the same..its simply a process of growth and maturing as the person we are..ego,etc,has nothing to do with it..

[catey62]

Hi again,I relate exactly to what your'e saying..after 4yrs,I 'm doing the same..just getting on with life,and blending in..and a couple other girlfriends of mine are the same..we dont advertise who we are..and to all the people I know,I'm Cate,simple as that...and yes.i've found myself spending less time in the trans community..like you said..you move on,and your'e in a different place to them..and one day,they will be in the same place too.

[hannlmnop]

i get it, you don't want to draw attention to the fact that you're a trans, you just want to be who you are. I think thats so awesome (:

[MaraMystery26]

While I know I'm somewhat late on this, I figured I might as well throw in my two cents. While it's certainly understandable that you want to go "stealth," I think that the community would suffer a lot because of it. As you said in a previous video, where will the next generation of trans-people look for hope when all of the people like you have gone into the shadows? I know that everyone in your position doesn't want to be constantly reminded of what once was, I'd say it's a worthy cause.

[CHICONATIVE]

You look frickin great. I love your hair

[CRAIGVY]

be the way the u like sweety'

avoid the cliques of it all ' you will be much happier for it '

craig

[annamariatv]

sei bellissima i love you

[glamourdaze]

i feel its cause you've moved on.

and why not, thats life.

You're a woman, not a woman in waiting.

Glam on !!

[sliphorns]

Just go your path............ignore any criticisms.........and I wish you peace of mind. And happiness. I feel that you WILL achieve both. Sonia

[smlaurieanne]

sis ur so true and grand thats why i luv u sister and friend

[FaceForRadio63]

The more videos I watch the more certain I'm becoming that transitioning is about more than trans-people joining their minds to their bodies but also about merging into a group identity, ending lifelong isolation. "Going stealth" is often portrayed as a denial or a running away from. Maybe it should be seen as a running toward, instead.

[NoNameTransWoman]

the number one advantage you have is youth. and being a skinny thing LOL

[rm2965]

Hi Brianna , Jenny and I were talking about this very subject just last weekend . Thank you for posting it . Hugs Rich

[jackcage83]

Hi Brianna, I was just wondering what type of camera that you are using. Any info would be great cause I would love to start doing HD vids also. Thanks bunches, by the way you look simply smashing!!! :)

[arin4fun]

Great video, I agree with your comments about the divide in the TG community as well as the community can be petty and argue a lot.

Anyways, great video, please keep them coming.

April

[Eopyk]

No matter what you choose dull stealth or not I will be very happy for you :)

All love from me Jasmine.

[Bronwyn031]

Bre,

Alot Like You, I Don't Identify Mostly With Alot Of The Other TSs That Vlog Here On YouTube Neither. I Think I Will Still Encompass Some Of My Transitioning Into My Entries But I Think I Will Take More Of A Creative Route and Just Have Fun. OBTW- Love Your New Video. I Think You Have A Awesome Camera Charisma That Is Unique, and Regardless Of Transitioning or SRS, You Should Continue To Create Awesome Creative Videos Showcasing Your Imagination and Creativity:) Kudos:)

[dmmtoo]

I think there's a place for everything. I'm glad there are "vocal" activists for the transgender community; we need that. But, we also need people who set a good example simply by being "good people" - that is an equally important form of activism - whether transgender or not. I agree that the "T" community can be a bit more like the conservatives than we'd like to think - there is too much judgment on how all of "us" should conduct ourselves. It's not a "one size fits all thing.

[LadyInWaiting714]

From what I know, you have given a lot to the T community for several years. No one can say that you haven't done more than your share. So if it's time to step back from that and live your life, hopefully no one will give you grief. I won't. I tend to keep up a certain amount of activism, but mostly I just want to live as me, a woman, not a trans anything. Some people embrace their transness, but I think most of us are happy to get through it to the other side.

[Jennylovemiller]

Welcome back Brianna :)

I was just thinking the same Thoughts last week that I don't feel like a transgendered Girl anymore, but as a Woman . I am still pre-op and in Transition but am living alomost Fulltime as Jenny for 1 year .

I totally can understand and relate to what you are saying :)

Thanks for sharing

Hugs

Jenny

[Bronwyn031]

FUCK YEAH!!!! :) YOU GO GIRL!!!!

[NaomiClareNL]

I guess your social transition already is finished (more or less) now that you feel a need for stealth or less of a connection with those still in the process. Good for you!

It seems then that being T is simply a temporary state, unlike LGB and Q. Which is why it is forever difficult to have an effective lobby, people keep disappearing. Can't really blame all those that have gone before.

There will be others that will take over your role as torchbearer. Thanks for the good time!

[amginena]

I think it's another passage. We learn to walk, We learn to read. We learn to drive. We don't spend a lot of time on it once the goal has been achieved. There are (one hopes) always new goals to be addressed. I don't think that implies lack of empathy for those who are going through things we went through. Life is (again one hopes) growth. All communities bicker. It's what people do :-) If 2 people agree on everything, one of them is redundant. ;-) I hope you keep sharing your story here.

[NicholeDreams]

Yes I DO know what you mean. Oh god do I ever. You are looking wonderful, BTW. I understand... you are just moving on with your life. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that. And you should be proud of that. It is a logical progression I think. Life is full of transitions big and small. You are finding your place in this world and that is most important.

[cp7932]

I have been thinking of this stuff for a little while now. So far all I can come up with is that trans issues bring a group of different people together with one thing in common. After all of the hurdles are overcome we then see how different we are and commonalities fade away. I hope that makes sense. I'm tyring to keep it short for the comment field.

I do enjoy your vlogs and thanks.

CP

[ininkplease]

this has tacked some thoughts on what I have been going through

[Paige9900]

I've followed you from day one. You didn't look like much of a girl then, but your feelings were sincere. That made me care about you. It's nice that you have such confidence now. I'm very happy for you. But to "out grow" those who are like you were ... it seems to be an egoism not befitting what I believed to be your character. This made me very sad indeed.

[briannarose99]

Its not egoism. Really it isn't. I just don't seem to identify with many of the other trans-people so much anymore. Or they don't identify with me. It makes me feel very out of place and uncomfortable, thus I feel its time to move on in someways.

//B

[NicholeDreams]

It is not egoism. Just because we have something like being trans in common does not mean we have anything else in common with other trans people we know. And in particular with the trans community as a whole. I think is is sad and unfair that many trans people think that once you ID as trans you are required to join the club and stay there. Why? It is not how life is in the first place why force it in this community? Can we not have our own lives and live it as we choose?

[rumplefun]

good vid !