Trolls, Voices, Suicidal Thoughts, and KPFT (Eye Catching Title)

[MorpheusBride]

Your disenchantment with you tube sounds similar to the experience of a cult programmed zealot that has woken up from the high and is beginning to doubt the intentions of the dear leader.That is making me think twice about posting anymore videos.

[SwagJuiceBWC]

the voices in your head are trollin you loolololol

[SwagJuiceBWC]

are you a model?? you could definitelly be a model...for grocery bags

[HenryWinehard]

On the same token, the spiritual and Christian based material are a great way to lighten ones burden and achieve a new sense of hope. Good Luck! :)

[HenryWinehard]

Please take a break from Youtube. It is obviously and understandably, effecting you greatly. I understand that it is nice and often necessary to connect to other people, but there are much better places to do so. Try Facebook if you haven't. At least you can place a real name with a real face and receive some encouragement and get away from the juvenile and malicious types. I myself have learned that watching videos about atheism and such are sure to bring oneself down.

[WayneRockwood]

I wish I was still in Jackson to hangout and talk to you guys. I am broke but have lots of emotional support. I think Mel's suggestion of moving to the country is a great idea. I know that is easier said than done but she needs to be away from people so that she feels safe and ok.

[WayneRockwood]

I used to live in the same city you do. I moved to Canada last year. I wish I was still there to give you a hug and let you know that everything will be ok. I wish I was there to hangout with you and Rob, just to be a positive friend. You are a beautiful person and

Rob, if you are reading this, you stay strong too. I know it is hard but you guys are amazing.

[bettyjobiolowski]

You ARE a "beaut".... To me anyway. Even with your predicament (sorry, best word I could come up with this early) you are the most real person I know. Authenticity is what we all strive for, and you have it in spades! Take care Mel.

[debswildhoney]

YOGA-helps heal mental illness. Get healthy, feel well, embrace positive life. Eat lots of vegetables, fruits, drink plenty of water. Wringing out your muscles is like wringing out your emotional body leaving you lighter & more space in your mind. Suicide is selfish & destructive, Rob would not be fine (speaking from personal experience). Yoga helps regular purging too! :) We're responsible for life and loving - starting with our selves. Listen to nature's call (not bad voices) ;) Get moving!!!

[JusticeIsWhere]

The voices can not be recorded if they are in your head, so buy a recorder and you can check.

[Curas1]

sorry 7 min mark, I made it that far.

(oh my vids are longer n worse, no hypocrisy here)

I watch you when you come up on someone fav,liked or commenting now.

[EvBrand]

hey mel, is it possible to not pay attention to the voices? can ignoring them help? i wish i could know what you are going through... empathize... I'm not sure what you can do to distract from those thoughts., but don't surrender to them, you are in control, it is your mind. Please don't become their victim, you are strong and beautiful. On another note, I know what you mean about how youtube has changed. I'm wishing you all of the best during this difficult time. It'll get better.

[musicboxpizza]

Hello Mel. May I make a suggestion that comes from my heart. Go to your local Catholic Church and enroll in the RCIA program and join the Catholic Church. You will be able to have a spiritual director who is someone who will be there for you and you can trust; it can even be the priest sometimes. I think it would really change your life and bring you great happiness and peace. I have been through many things; without my faith it would be unbearable I do believe. Please feel free to message me.

[RileyNRA]

@musicboxpizza God Hates Priests

[fulishproductions]

Yes, bad states of mind can be very frustrating. But remember all the many times you've had similar states in the past, and how you always figured out a way to change it, or weather it until it passed. Heck, this video is a fine example; just talking it out was a good idea, no matter how long it took.

So good for you--you're doing good for yourself. A sleep schedule that feels better for you will come with the long-term. Whatever sleep hygiene tools helped in the past may help again. Peace.

[lambchopxoxo]

i'm with ya on the long vids (except for yours and very few others lol!!) i cant watch them anymore. frankly its usually the same ol same ol.

[lambchopxoxo]

oh mel you do so much more for people than you know. in watching your videos i came to realize what a phony i am in comparison. i used to think i was some kind of nervy gutsy person and i'm not. i'm a wimp that cares too much about what others think. you seriously inspire me. i wish i could be a "good voice" i would beat the living crap out of the bad voices for ya.

[raindog951]

I know how you feel to an extent Mel. Middle age sucks big time! I feel bits of me failing (currently a slipped disc!) and an expanding waistline. I try and do stuff I love, like listening to music and reading, and keep the suicide thought down to about once a day ;-) The only good troll is the big hairy Norwegian variety. The rest are wankers mainly.

[schoolmaster1945]

Hello Mel, Whatever you do do not let the voices convince you to shave your head....suicide is not cool...if this continues seek help from Rob or whatever....ya hear me?...regards...

[schoolmaster1945]

Hello Mel, Aaron was an interesting troll....I am beginning to believe that Whatheheck had some link to the Aaron troll. He may have been sent to a mental facility or rumors of prison or even death.. YT has morphed into a phony religious and philosophy debate room with a bunch of juvenile participants...add a touch of hate mongering and you have a big pile of feces...regards...

[danielerich]

Hi there! If i'm not mistaken, the Mr. Lemonholes I'm thinking of is Aaron Bastin from New Jersey who is now in State prison for rape in New Jersey. Hope thing are well with you, Rob & the kitty furbabies!

[danbit5]

i spew out alot mel when im drinking but i do like you even though im away somewere else in thought, i oplgise my drunken zones you cant ever be,i just like merry xmas give rob a hug as well

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