I am with ya man. I have been the psycho magnet and somewhere between a sucker and a codependent. I wish I could have those years back or smack myself in the head I let the last one go on and on and tried too long as well up to and including trying to maintain a friendship that still was depleting me. It held me back and hurt me. I hope you're hanging in there. Not alone..
Thanks for the words, Len. I need all the help I can get right now and you sharing your experience is so precious to me. Real talk. Appreciate you man.
Here's a secret : you will never find happiness in a girl. But it is very possible to find happiness with a girl. This might not seem 100% true but it's a good rule of thumb to follow. If you have a good group of friends, find a cool girl at a party, or with friends, or randomly. People forget that life is cumulative. when you are young, it seems like there will be endless chances. Every person is different. You simply cannot let past relationships get you down. It's a placebo.
It doesn't surprise me your girlfriend left you. Ive never seen an attractive girl or women homeless. They always find a way to get money out of the next sucker. Thats why I don't have much pity for women.
Good video. I had horrible high school experience. Actually college was a drag too I didn't live on campus so no sucky sucky for me. Doubt I would have gotten any anyways at the time. I was too nerdy. Your experience sounds much better.
Its probably a Godsend women avoid me like the plague even to this day. Women are trouble and I dont have the confidence to hold my ground of their bullshit.
BTW hows the economic situation? I hope your internet isn't cut off soon.
Well, thank you I needed this. I just turned 19 and I haven't had a single kiss, or had my first girl yet. It doesn't bother me, but it does get a bit scary every now and then, the thought of being a virgin forever is scary.
Hes actually right. I had sex with a porn star. No joke. She was an asian barely legal girl. Even then it wasn't that great, probably cause I payed her LOL. But moral of the story is when the cameras are on sex is way more interesting on a porn scene than it is for the AVERAGE girl. Now there is plenty of girls that Im sure are porno style, but not the average girl next door.
The world is a lie. Always has been. Always will be. It has a lot to offer, but always wants something back in return. There's only One who can fix us. We can't fix ourselves. It is the way of man that seems right, but that which leads to destruction. Your a cool dude. You have a lot to offer. I wish you nothing but the best.
I didn't really fit in during high school, but there's always other people who don't fit in either. They're usually the only ones worth getting to know. Needless to say, I basically just fucked around throughout my whole high school career. I did almost no work at all, and now I'm stuck in community college instead of being in university. I mean, I'm still young enough to be able to have a successful future, but I just wish that I would have worked harder as a younger teenager ( I'm 19).
I always enjoy your video's they are so eye opening and just real. Thank you. :) By taking charge of your life you have shown your Independence and strength.
I have a funny feeling that I'm going to be like that in a few years.
I'm having some trouble finding a job right now, im 19. I watch your videos whenever i see them up because there is always something to relate to. Father having night jobs most of my childhood, same here. Except i didn't learn to cook or clean or anything i just became a sloth. Thanks for the video man.
By the way most people will be losing there so called " Money " soon by inflation within the next 5 years don't let fiat money make you sad. I'm sure you have realized by rising food costs and energy costs.When China stops giving us credit shit will go down hill fast. hopefully you aren't a drug user because i stop smoking weed just so i could get my house back in order i can honestly say i feel good about the decision i made. Good luck man!
Balls of steel. I had the problem with acne I would hold my head down in class everyday as a child. i actually went to alternative school but i couldn't stand it at the Alternative school so i went back and just worked on myself, I.e learning and working out( There was a time i couldn't bench press 50lbs . I learned you have to make yourself happy and people will want to follow you. Don't ever expect anyone else to make you happy you can only do that yourself.
Len.... I take it your breaking up with cupcake. Well there's always a glass half empty full approach. You are free to get NEW pussy now. Me on the other hand and being strong armed by my little lady to get married by Spring. Love her and the sex to death, but ugghhhh. Consider yourself very lucky. I got a booty call the other day from a very pretty girl I've been friends with for many years. The booty call was a serious wake up call. I don't really need anyone, I could wank myself till death.
Wow, talk about poetic. The video ended, you said goodnight. And then at that very instant the power went out in the neighborhood. Good job Len, you heated up the discussion so much our ACs caused a reflection moment. :)
My fiance is the opposite. She was shitty at first and turned out to be amazing. Her shell was very hard to crack. I come home and she's voluntarily ironing my clothes.
Man you area cool dude. REAL. I LOVE how you open up in your videos! They ARE very important because it allows people to feel realness in others and thats healing.
I like you hated school. it was a fukin blight on my young life. On the front page of our city paper last night was about how the authorities are terorizing parents (the paper dont say that--it will be for it) who have kids who chhose not to attend school. Threatening them with BIG fines and even jail.
@zezt (2) Blitzing tousands of their doors with oppressive questions why their kids aint inschool. THIS is this fukin shit culture in action.
over half MY 20s was wasdted in a series of factories with me as cog in a machine. I worked hard and played hard. I dug after deep regret that it was ME who'd chosen to get up every fukin mornin and do that shit.
@zezt 3---say you'd CHOSEN to get married and had kids. does that mean you'd be cool? Thousnads here with safe little morgages on homes are gonna lose them when these cuts from the rich happen real soon.
I am not trying to say 'theres always someone worse then you' i HATE that lol---I just mean that errrrm ...................
@zezt 4---what i try and do. what i am doing now is tryin to see a bigger pic of the overall shit going on. the propaganda that has parents sending their kids to war to get thier faces blown off etc and made dead. etc. So having a passion that is not just focusing on personal problems is cool in that it stops you just blaming yourself. All this propaganda about 'winners' and 'losers' for instance that many people really believe. it is a pile of CRAP and utterly ironic when ...
@zezt 5---you take the blindfolds off and look what is happening to planet earth. Are we supposed to believe that the rich fuckers (the errr 'winners'???) are winners? Feel me. its a fukin madhouse, and one thing we real need is a surreal sense of humous LOL
I think society frowns on unsettled males in their 30's. I got the you are not going to stay here since you are not tied down speech. Tomorrow is a different day and I wish you the best.
I'm still learning the hard way about women myself...But I have another perspective on life, I tend to compartmentalize my Personal, Business and Social life... I never mix them up.
You did far better in your approach in those years than I did. Between an abusive home and apathetic classmates, I would literally pray to die everyday (back when I was a wuss christian; Never had the balls to take my own life ). lol, now I'm atheist and I'm still "alone" (without female companionship that is) nonetheless I got a new lease on life (the only one we got) and just trying to enjoy it as my funds allow me to.
I am with ya man. I have been the psycho magnet and somewhere between a sucker and a codependent. I wish I could have those years back or smack myself in the head I let the last one go on and on and tried too long as well up to and including trying to maintain a friendship that still was depleting me. It held me back and hurt me. I hope you're hanging in there. Not alone..
bleumonday 1 year ago
Thanks for the words, Len. I need all the help I can get right now and you sharing your experience is so precious to me. Real talk. Appreciate you man.
vaughnaiono 1 year ago
How were you able to upload a video over the 10 - 11 min max for non-partners?
Did YouTube extend the time limit?
nathanforst 1 year ago
@nathanforst They extended it to 15 minutes, but somebody (nathanforst) might have know this if they were MAKING VIDEOS! ;-)
BayAreaLen 1 year ago
@BayAreaLen Cool. :)
nathanforst 1 year ago
Happiness controls you.
Don't let the social norm convince you how to live your life.
If you don't break free from your emotions,
Then you will become a slave to love.
zombiemouse 1 year ago
Here's a secret : you will never find happiness in a girl. But it is very possible to find happiness with a girl. This might not seem 100% true but it's a good rule of thumb to follow. If you have a good group of friends, find a cool girl at a party, or with friends, or randomly. People forget that life is cumulative. when you are young, it seems like there will be endless chances. Every person is different. You simply cannot let past relationships get you down. It's a placebo.
JapanUSACoalition 1 year ago
It doesn't surprise me your girlfriend left you. Ive never seen an attractive girl or women homeless. They always find a way to get money out of the next sucker. Thats why I don't have much pity for women.
skyding8962 1 year ago
Good video. I had horrible high school experience. Actually college was a drag too I didn't live on campus so no sucky sucky for me. Doubt I would have gotten any anyways at the time. I was too nerdy. Your experience sounds much better.
Its probably a Godsend women avoid me like the plague even to this day. Women are trouble and I dont have the confidence to hold my ground of their bullshit.
BTW hows the economic situation? I hope your internet isn't cut off soon.
skyding8962 1 year ago
Well, thank you I needed this. I just turned 19 and I haven't had a single kiss, or had my first girl yet. It doesn't bother me, but it does get a bit scary every now and then, the thought of being a virgin forever is scary.
TheBiggestWolf 1 year ago
@TheBiggestWolf fyi sex is like %05 as awesome as porn makes it out to be. It's mostly stink and squishy.
Although head IS all it's cracked up to be.
So last resort, get a dog and some peanut butter.
Trust me you're not missing much.
zombiemouse 1 year ago
@zombiemouse
Mmm, is it really not that interesting?
TheBiggestWolf 1 year ago
@TheBiggestWolf
Hes actually right. I had sex with a porn star. No joke. She was an asian barely legal girl. Even then it wasn't that great, probably cause I payed her LOL. But moral of the story is when the cameras are on sex is way more interesting on a porn scene than it is for the AVERAGE girl. Now there is plenty of girls that Im sure are porno style, but not the average girl next door.
skyding8962 1 year ago
The world is a lie. Always has been. Always will be. It has a lot to offer, but always wants something back in return. There's only One who can fix us. We can't fix ourselves. It is the way of man that seems right, but that which leads to destruction. Your a cool dude. You have a lot to offer. I wish you nothing but the best.
Joe
jlweather1 1 year ago
this will be my lesson of the day, and i took something form it(: .
shannyloveyou 1 year ago
I didn't really fit in during high school, but there's always other people who don't fit in either. They're usually the only ones worth getting to know. Needless to say, I basically just fucked around throughout my whole high school career. I did almost no work at all, and now I'm stuck in community college instead of being in university. I mean, I'm still young enough to be able to have a successful future, but I just wish that I would have worked harder as a younger teenager ( I'm 19).
matt22mccarthy 1 year ago
love you man.
wakeup089 1 year ago
thx for the info I appreciate it
TheSandman628 1 year ago
I always enjoy your video's they are so eye opening and just real. Thank you. :) By taking charge of your life you have shown your Independence and strength.
Thevoicedwoman 1 year ago
Man, that's some serious shit.
I have a funny feeling that I'm going to be like that in a few years.
I'm having some trouble finding a job right now, im 19. I watch your videos whenever i see them up because there is always something to relate to. Father having night jobs most of my childhood, same here. Except i didn't learn to cook or clean or anything i just became a sloth. Thanks for the video man.
offsideandy 1 year ago
By the way most people will be losing there so called " Money " soon by inflation within the next 5 years don't let fiat money make you sad. I'm sure you have realized by rising food costs and energy costs.When China stops giving us credit shit will go down hill fast. hopefully you aren't a drug user because i stop smoking weed just so i could get my house back in order i can honestly say i feel good about the decision i made. Good luck man!
AllTheSame711 1 year ago
Balls of steel. I had the problem with acne I would hold my head down in class everyday as a child. i actually went to alternative school but i couldn't stand it at the Alternative school so i went back and just worked on myself, I.e learning and working out( There was a time i couldn't bench press 50lbs . I learned you have to make yourself happy and people will want to follow you. Don't ever expect anyone else to make you happy you can only do that yourself.
AllTheSame711 1 year ago
@AllTheSame711 yea i know wat its like trying to hide your face from everyone cause of acne i actually became introverted because of it too
TheSandman628 1 year ago
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AllTheSame711 1 year ago
@TheSandman628 Te He, Go Chiefs
AllTheSame711 1 year ago
Hey man thanks for sharing I'm sure it as helped someone. I'm feeling your pain my wife just lost her job and my life is about to get real tricky.
DoubleODude 1 year ago
"The years... I don't know where the hell they went. They went by way too fast."
Amen to that. My thoughts exactly.
LEV1ATHYN 1 year ago
Len.... I take it your breaking up with cupcake. Well there's always a glass half empty full approach. You are free to get NEW pussy now. Me on the other hand and being strong armed by my little lady to get married by Spring. Love her and the sex to death, but ugghhhh. Consider yourself very lucky. I got a booty call the other day from a very pretty girl I've been friends with for many years. The booty call was a serious wake up call. I don't really need anyone, I could wank myself till death.
judutchinski 1 year ago
@judutchinski
Youll be bitching about your girl in a year. Mark my words.
skyding8962 1 year ago
Wow, talk about poetic. The video ended, you said goodnight. And then at that very instant the power went out in the neighborhood. Good job Len, you heated up the discussion so much our ACs caused a reflection moment. :)
judutchinski 1 year ago
My fiance is the opposite. She was shitty at first and turned out to be amazing. Her shell was very hard to crack. I come home and she's voluntarily ironing my clothes.
judutchinski 1 year ago
Man you area cool dude. REAL. I LOVE how you open up in your videos! They ARE very important because it allows people to feel realness in others and thats healing.
I like you hated school. it was a fukin blight on my young life. On the front page of our city paper last night was about how the authorities are terorizing parents (the paper dont say that--it will be for it) who have kids who chhose not to attend school. Threatening them with BIG fines and even jail.
zezt 1 year ago
@zezt (2) Blitzing tousands of their doors with oppressive questions why their kids aint inschool. THIS is this fukin shit culture in action.
over half MY 20s was wasdted in a series of factories with me as cog in a machine. I worked hard and played hard. I dug after deep regret that it was ME who'd chosen to get up every fukin mornin and do that shit.
zezt 1 year ago
@zezt 3---say you'd CHOSEN to get married and had kids. does that mean you'd be cool? Thousnads here with safe little morgages on homes are gonna lose them when these cuts from the rich happen real soon.
I am not trying to say 'theres always someone worse then you' i HATE that lol---I just mean that errrrm ...................
zezt 1 year ago
@zezt 4---what i try and do. what i am doing now is tryin to see a bigger pic of the overall shit going on. the propaganda that has parents sending their kids to war to get thier faces blown off etc and made dead. etc. So having a passion that is not just focusing on personal problems is cool in that it stops you just blaming yourself. All this propaganda about 'winners' and 'losers' for instance that many people really believe. it is a pile of CRAP and utterly ironic when ...
zezt 1 year ago
@zezt 5---you take the blindfolds off and look what is happening to planet earth. Are we supposed to believe that the rich fuckers (the errr 'winners'???) are winners? Feel me. its a fukin madhouse, and one thing we real need is a surreal sense of humous LOL
zezt 1 year ago
@zezt *humus AND humour ;)
zezt 1 year ago
I think society frowns on unsettled males in their 30's. I got the you are not going to stay here since you are not tied down speech. Tomorrow is a different day and I wish you the best.
jrnault77 1 year ago
I see you still can't sleep either :p nice vid good as always
iTzst33zy 1 year ago
So cup cake has packet up her shit and left you?
I'm still learning the hard way about women myself...But I have another perspective on life, I tend to compartmentalize my Personal, Business and Social life... I never mix them up.
XXTheRealMcCoyXX 1 year ago
You did far better in your approach in those years than I did. Between an abusive home and apathetic classmates, I would literally pray to die everyday (back when I was a wuss christian; Never had the balls to take my own life ). lol, now I'm atheist and I'm still "alone" (without female companionship that is) nonetheless I got a new lease on life (the only one we got) and just trying to enjoy it as my funds allow me to.
Nagneto 1 year ago