A song about child sexual abuse 'I found the fear'_by Vanthea

[NinjaMarilyn]

I was sexually abused by my older brother... ages 6 and a half to 12 hes 4 years older than me. Ive never really been a kid.. It just sick that i have to live with this overbearing pain of the abuse for the rest of my life.

[ThePaulaswann]

@NinjaMarilyn hey i went through the same, I was about 9 /10 and he was 3 1/2 years older. He used to look after us when our parents went out becasue he was older and responsible for his age x It is hard...adn we have to do whatever we can to heal ourselves. please email me if you need 'thechildwithin@talktalk.net' xxx

[mindy350]

i was raped by my step dad for 5 years and i gave up on everything but you will get better just believe in yourself

[LucasMidkiff]

Reminds me of so many girls I know. The stuff that's happened to them breaks my heart. Beautiful song, though.

[purplecatt44]

this song is so sad...but i can relate to every word x

[kokopellifan1]

Sorry to hear about your pain.

[schoolgirl9078]

Well, obviously 3 people don't have a heart. Thank you for writing this song for the rest of us who do have hearts! It helped me to realize that I can't keep my story hidden, that i should tell others so they know and can help. Thank you so much!

[Nycookieee]

6 years.. I finally got help. And and a new home.

[TheBaybeekirst]

I was abused when i were 17 and blame myself x:( I'm 21 soon and ur still afects me nw x

[purplecatt44]

@TheBaybeekirst never blame urself was not ur fault x

[chico5494]

This song make me sad I just wish like people like me new how we felt being molested I was molested 4 times and I feel like I'm trapped only my grandma knows about this but she only know about two people who molested I'm 18 and this happened when I was 6 it seems like it messed me up every body thinks I'm happy and smiling but I think that's all I can do cause the pain is to hard for me to tell them

[purplecatt44]

@chico5494 u need to get some kind of help baby....u cant do this alone trust me on on this... xx

[Joannafan3]

Someone please, my little friend is 9, I used to baby sit her and she told my family that she is being touched by a sex offender that is her moms boyfriend. The town that this is happening in, the cops refuse to believe and they say that I the baby sitter put her up to say these horrible things, I did not.. She is being abused, sexually and noone is doing anything to help her and the registerd sex offender thinks its funny that he is getting away with useing this little 9 year old as his sex toy

[purplecatt44]

@Joannafan3 u have to fight for her she came to u becozs she trusts u...fight for her x

[ArtsyAshers]

Super amaising song

I work with a rape crisis center

You may never forget

But try to focus on the positive things in life

That always helps :)

[sweetbabe6098]

hurt always

[TheEmobabe94]

do you think that verbal abuse is bad also?

[crazykim17ily]

This song touched me, I Was sexually,physically and mentally abused like any other person on here,by my father,mom,uncle& another uncle. Not only me but as well my own twin sister. But mostly me! You may think no one knows how you feel,but trust me YOU ARE NOT ALONE:) keep hope.

[purplecatt44]

@crazykim17ily this is so sad to hear x like u say we r not alone x

[purplecatt44]

@purplecatt44 i know its sad...more people have to stand up but its hard x

[AliceIsabellaP]

This is killing me. I barely remember things but the feeling...I still have that feeling...it is too much for me

[imtiffduh]

I was sexually molested when I was 2, 4, 5, 9, & 11. by different guys, one of them being my own uncle, the other my sisters dad, my neighbor, foster dad, and a boy from a shelter, I still have flash backs, and I'm almost 21, my brother said the best way to forget is to forgive, I've tried but I can't, i've tried therapy and nothing, Will my flashbacks ever stop?

[7734alb]

@imtiffduh yes it wil i have been sexualy molested by my own dad and brothers i am 25 and the flash backs have finlly stop stay strong and i still have never forgave them for it

[Supergirl9909]

♥ beautiful.

[rainbowgansters]

Raped and molested by moms boyfriend for 3 years. 7=10 years old. attempted suicide, cut a lot, hated the world. it gets better. no matter how much you dont believe it.

[purplecatt44]

@rainbowgansters i understand alot x

[purplecatt44]

@purplecatt44 how ru doing x

[purplecatt44]

@rainbowgansters how u now x

[Rhondaspeedie]

The pain attatched to this is so deep, also the fear of not knowing who you can trust and who you cannot. I understand your words in this song, you think it's finally all in the past, only to stumble and discover i'ts still in the present. It's really sad when a lttle girls heart cannot know the genuine pure love they desperately desires from her Daddy. My prayers are with You all.

[CtaytayW]

This is a really meaningful song and the word needs to get out their that is ring what they have to go through

[Meghanandjudayah123]

i respect u :) ur my hero

[EpicWolfCutie]

Let's just hope one day I don't get raped or something like that :( and to who all of those others out there who are being sexually abused, remember. God will always be there, never forget that. Even in tough times

[EpicWolfCutie]

I am eleven years old and I am not sexually abused neither by my father or mother, but my uncle. Twice, I believe, my Uncle Kevin(the redneck in the family) made me wrap my cold finger around his p*nis at night, while i am asleep. I wonder, if I should tell the police. I can't go through one day without think about," What if he does it again?" He thinks I don't remember about what tat bastard has done to me, but I do. He should have charges pressed against him. Keep in mind I am 11 right now. :(

[sophielav118]

iwas abused as a kid.. and tbh its killed me on the inside what i got put through, no kid deserves.. iused to blame myself, apart of me still does the things he done to me,iwsa so young, im going to do all i can against child abuse, cause i know how much it hurts..

[wolfchicgalpal]

i was physically and sexually abused as a child, i was a victim of attempted murder twice and no one ever did anything to help me, i was just the clumsy mute at number 38.

i still dont speak to tall men. ever.

im here for anyone if they need me, i can offer you a hand in your hour of need

[OMFGitzAdriana]

Awh how sad :c i wish I could beat the crap out of every pedophile who abuses their own kids

[HarryPotterObessor]

Sexual abuse isn't right, and I know that and I'm just a kid. I do know that whatever happens to me or anyone else like that is wrong I still can't fight back. And telling is really hard as most of you know. But it's the only way out, but like other people I too am too scared to tell.

[chels89liz]

Im with Elsiebelse. I didnt kno any bettr wen i was abusd

[DonnaSmith1988]

IT NEVER GOSE AWAY BUT U LURN TO LIVE WITH IT OVER TIME ......TO LIVE AS ACHILD SCARD XX

[Elsiebelse]

@hay2011ful

You think children want to be sexually abused? They don't know any better! In an ideal world, everyone would wait to 20, but in an ideal world, everyone would have a choice. Please don't spout off on things you don't know about. It was incredibly offensive.

[hay2011ful]

why parents allow thier kids to get sexualy active when they are only a child? i mean i dunt understand how a child who should be playing and living her/ his child hood even start thinking about sex? in my openion 20 , 21 is the age one should start thinking about these things.

[MissyKayBay555]

@hay2011ful Elsiebelse is right.. There's a difference between being sexually active and being sexually abused. I was abused for five years, and am just now dealing with it. It fucks up your emotions. It wasn't "allowed" to happen. No one knew. When you're four, you don't know it's wrong, and you can't exactly fight back against a grown man who's holding you down....

[goodboytobi9003]

I was molested by a member of my family. I held the secret all these years to protect the unity of my family. I finally decided I love myself more than anything and im now 18. Im telling my story and putting that bastard in jail. Kids dont wait as long as I did! I almost commited suicide cuz of this pressure. Don't hold it in or take the blame! Adults are meant to protect you, dont worry for anyone but yourself! Know that you are loved.

[itslyssababy1816]

Everyone on here you are so strong ! If this has happened to you make sure you tell someone, it will benefit you in the end. They need help, they are sick ass people. Im actually going through a court case right now, because i was sexually abused by my moms ex boyfriend.. i know alot about it and how much it hurts.. if anyone wants to talk about im here for you.. be brave do the right thing, you dont deserve this and neither did i.

[issyisrael]

You are so courageous and fabulous. You are a great person and a great soul! You shower others in pain with hope and courage!  You are beautiful and those who take adavantage of the innocent are vile! Sending you only more love and courage! Don't ever stop or give up! Those who go through such great trials are greater souls!

[threegirlsstar]

my fav song of all time <3 :) lolz thanks so much vanessa!

[TheCurry1988]

love this song i kno alot of girls that been raped and to scared to tell there mom or the cops so they hurt and hurt so i tell them this my song to em to many dads uncles step dads anyone out here raping young women and get away with it or do less then 5 years systems fucked up killing a womens dream and hopes should take a persons life if you a victim stand strong nothing you did was wrong just a fucked up world always kno somebody loves you coming from a male i respect women

[randomgirlb3]

i was raped and sexualy abused by my dad till my early teens and then i met my fiance damien and one day i just blurted it all out to him and my dad has been arrested i and 23 now and happily married with 2 twin girls (destiny and sapphire) if u dont tell sum 1 ur gettin abused it wont stop till its to late and ur dead x

[ninjagoalie92]

I've been victim to multiple abuse situations specially sexual i'm now 19 years old and from my first encounter with sexual abuse when i was 4 i am now just starting to come out about it to others and starting the healing process i love this song i love that you had the courage to do something i never did until and many others don't or haven't had to come out and share your story thank you <3

[x0xunderstandmex0x]

@Vanthea1 thanks xx i thing yr verry brave and i love your song it makes things clearer

[LucasMidkiff]

Vanthea, I absolutely love your song. It's so sad, yet hopeful at the same time. You have a beautiful voice. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

[WriterGurl07]

I love this song and i encourage u to make more and i will contine to listen.i love this song!!very powerful song!!i am not a victim of sexual abuse mhy self but i definately feel ur pain!!everyone who has suffered from this abuse i encourage u to keep ur heads up!!it gets better..keep expressing ur self...and to the 12 yr.old pray..when u get on ur knees it can only get better!!!Take it to Jesus!!

[WriterGurl07]

I love this song and i encourage u to make more and i will contine to listen.i love this song!!very powerful song!!i am not a victim of sexual abuse mhy self but i definately feel ur pain!!everyone who has suffered from this abuse i encourage u to keep ur heads up!!it gets better..keep expressing ur self...and to the 12 yr.old pray..when u get on ur knees it can only get better!!!Take it to Jesus!!

[x0xunderstandmex0x]

@Vanthea1 would u mind if i put this up on facebook i know some1 that it will help please

[x0xunderstandmex0x]

vanthea1 you r verry brave i admire u alot 

[DSW809]

would you mind if I sang this song to my class? I LUV IT! it makes sense and it.. jus omgg i wish i wrote that.. <3 luved it..

[cmrLovesASL]

beautiful

[THECASSIEBEATTIETV]

im 12 year old girl. im the class clown and the happiest kid in my middle school. , fun to be around.but inside my heart is shattered from all the pain ive suffered...ive gone throu every type of abuse, emotinal, phisical, neglect and sexual abuse. i go to both of my parents homes.. switching when the other one feels like having me. im left home for days or two weeks alone at a time, skipping school and eating milk and chips. i feel sad and alone.i want a family i never had, i feel scared ,alone

[wjquily]

Wow...I am a Counselor and the strongest kids and teens that I have ever met are survivors of sexual abuse. This is for all of you saying this happen to you... NO MATTER WHAT IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT!!! YOU WERE A CHILD OR TEEN AND THE PERP KNEW BETTER!!! Stay strong, do not keep it to yourselves. Tell and adult, if they don't do anything tell the next one until someone does something about it. You CAN get through this and there are people that are willing to help...SPEAK UP YOU DESRVE BETTER!!! <3

[ilovesoccer0829]

I really like this, i hope it's alright if I use this for a school project, thank you <3

[xXRandomKjaXx]

This is beautiful. im speechless <3

[o0omaryo0o]

Wow... :( *speechless* beautiful song!!

[elizabethnaruto]

yeah i know what its like my dad sexual abused me from age 3 till 17 he still attacks me emotionly 

[mcgrath527]

I have gone through the same stuff all the way tell i was 29 i am 30 now i was sooo scared. Plz keep in contact with me i wld like to talk to you email me mcgrath_09@hotmail.com

[purplecatt44]

@mcgrath527 how u doing now x

[purplecatt44]

@purplecatt44 honestly shit...18 years off therapy..but think its becoz my family didnt believe me hard to move on x

[ThePaulaswann]

@purplecatt44 Hi, parents dont know what to do...specially in other generations. Mine tried to make reason out of what happened..but there is none x

it is SHIT

[danykacooldog]

i am 15, i have been sexualy abused too, and its not the easyest thing ever, its been a couple months since then, the trouble of sleeping, the blame, school, people, change of appetite, suicidal toughts, got myself in drugs again, i just wish there could be away to get trough things easyer and get help and supporte

[kkkkarie]

@danykacooldog heey dan lol c moe karie :P ya that sucks..and u didnt tell me ur in drugs...anyway...and the guy that rape u ( my fucking ex lol) is just a pain in the ass that why at school they where so mutch drama...and u know im on ur side no mather what happen even if u where wrong im always on ur side...cuz i dont what to go bk with him....but u know im ALWAYS there for u

[Midnightlovers2018]

@danykacooldog ive gone through sex abuse....im here for u if u need someone to talk to even though im not 100% stable yet.....you have my support

[danykacooldog]

its getting worst and worst by the day. im at a point where i dont know wat to do, it feels like im going true it alone and theres no hope of getting out of this, sometimes i wish i could of just kept it inside and not tell the cops but maybe its gonna be worth it in the futur. WHEN WILL EVERYTHING STOP!!!! :'(

[TheUntappedGenius]

@danykacooldog I'm sorry these things are happening to you. I know what you mean with the no hope and the pain. It will eventually get better. I'm still going through the things, the guy my mom is with is very abusive and hateful toward us both but eventually I'll be able to get out and move away from all these things. All I want is just peace in my mind and heart and I truly hope you find the same. Peace and love. - Mariah

[Kelseysmyangel]

@danykacooldog It will stop when the punishment starts to fit the crime! Well honestly, it wont end all. But it wont ever begin to stop if these abusers aare able to get off so easily!

[x0xunderstandmex0x]

@danykacooldog it dose help it will get better just belive in yourself you done the right thing

[randomgirlb3]

@danykacooldog u should always tell sum 1!! i was 5 wen my dad started and it got worse until my 17th b-day when he triend to rape me again and he told me he had killed my boyfriend at the time i told my mum and i am now 23 and i am SOOO pleased i told sum 1 it ALWAYS helps!!!

[issyisrael]

@danykacooldog

I pray for you!  You did the right thing! Sending you love! I hope you are okay!

[ignite1132]

@danykacooldog i know wxxactly how you feel. im going through the same thing, but you just have to keep strong and stand tall. you will come through this hard time. i know everything seems so bad and that things will never get better but they will some day. im sure they will. if you ever need anyhelp you can message me on here or find me on facebook. (stephanie lynn martin). dont be afraid to cryout for help. i will do everyting in my power to help you without calling the cops. i promise

[ilove01986]

@danykacooldog your not alone, your survived your abuse, you can survive your memories. I was at a point and time where nothing could stop it and rain down me every day. But there is power in being abused. The power to be free. let it flow out

[meangummibear]

I can relate too. I have had all types happen to me. so my heart goes out to you guys and thank you so much for this song.

[meangummibear]

I have been sexually abused and phiscally abused. I have not gotten over that. I suffer fron post dermatic stress dissorder and sever dipression. It happed to me a few years ago. I was raped by me step brother and his two cousins and i got raped by my ex boyfriends dad and my ex boyfriend sat there and watch he also abused me. I am doing really good for myself now. I am getting married and I am having a baby. I am 19 years old and i am here for any one how wants to talk.

[RachelDoesntknow]

@meangummibear You don't ever get over it.

[wrappedunderhismercy]

@meangummibear

Hi so im 16 and im in a wonderful relationship with my boyfriend but day by day im reminded about my abuse and i get so sad and idk what to do. The great thing about it though is that my bf knows and he doesnt see me differently and he still is with me but i still struggle with not letting it effect me :/ can u give me some advice ?

[purplecatt44]

@wrappedunderhismercy as wonderful as things are babe get some councelling...coz it will help u in the future...experince taught me deal with it ...i lost realionships becoz i thought i was ok ...u have nice bf he will help u x

[wrappedunderhismercy]

@purplecatt44 Thanks for the advice :)

[ThePaulaswann]

wrappedunderhismercy Hey hun, I told family at 21 about my brother. They all went into their shells adn i was left alone. scary but Last year at 44years old, I final faced him and now my parents are starting to really listen to me. You have to heal your pain. Your partner sounds caring and supportive, i dont know what I would do without mine x counselling babe as painful as it is..start to be more positive and move forward xx

thechildwithin@talktalk.net xxx

[omgbarneyfuckinelmo]

i can relate to this song i was raped and beaten 24/7 from when i was 3-18 by my father when i was 18 i moved out im a cutter,drug user,vodka drinker,and sucidal 24/7 i have been in and out of mental hospitals because of my dad

[emolover29100]

i also can relate to this song. but i have been sexually abuse by 3 ppl. 2 when i was 4 and not long ago by my best friends father who i called dad... i havent cried.

[djwhatthe]

this is a great song...

[InpainItrust]

this is really close 2 me now ty 4 this song and video!!!

[InpainItrust]

I can relate I was beaten abused molested and raped by a family member!!! I am now going crAzy wit cutting and suicidal thoughts I hear him all the time talking 2 me! I have no hope I just live day by day in the dark just waiting 4 the darkest day when I wont exsist any more! just so he can happily with his life ugggggggghhhhhhhhh

[earthgurl125]

@InpainItrust You shouldnt harm yourself. It wasnt your fault. Trust me. DiD you ever tell anyone? your in my prayers :)

[angelizme14]

Thankyou for your video, i can really relate to you. in all honesty, i cried. i'm honestly glad i'm not alone and there are people who survive and keep strong <33

[LucasMidkiff]

My heart hurts for all who have ever felt the sting of abuse. Many of my friends have experienced this horrible pain, and I hope that I can be a bright spot in their lives, and I hope that they all will know that I love them, and the Lord loves them. This is a beautiful song. Thank you for posting.

[zafrinashadow]

i creid and creid as i let my pain go. i can identify with this song and this story. it really hits home. thank you. i hope this can help others like it helped me. i was raped when i was 15 by a black guy and i never told any1 till i was in the mental hospital.

[cloconandaimees2k8]

I went through this too. This song is lovely, I was crying cuz I identified with it, thankyou xx