You're heart is in the right place gurl. You put your family and friends before your own regretful moves. You are very smart. Just remember that you have gotten this far and you can make it farther than you already have. You are an incredibly strong girl, a very strong person all together. You know there is something in life good for you and you forcing yourself to get there so you can help others.
suicide is the most selfish thing u could ever do. if u have the heart to leave ur mom with out a daughter and ur friends and family with out u..then yah sumthin is wrong with u..and ul NEVER be happy if u rely on stupid ppl like onision to be happy. the internet isnt a real social life. get out more and realize theres ppl with much worse problems than u..theres ppl with bad deseases...no money no food...no water abusive familys..bein tortured..and they still push on. so grow up.
@blllueyedblonde maybe you should rewatch my video. i was in a horrible depression at the time and could NOT be happy nomatter what any of my friends did. they just tried to "be there". didn't really do anything funny or be silly to make me laugh and feel better like i needed. just "being there" and making me talk about it made me sadder because i was forced to think about it! onision, ryan cyr, and shane are hilarious. i laugh and get really happy for a little bit. whats so wrong about that?
@blllueyedblonde and i didn't want to leave my friends with out me, they tell me i pretty much make their lives. everyone needs ME but i too need someone and i dont have anyone that makes my life like i do theirs. its not that i didn't rethink it cuz of them cuz i did. but i just got to the point in my life and my depression that i lost care of all things, i just didn't care about ANYTHING! not one bit. so when there's someone or somthing out there that makes you better for a lil bit. take it.
@blllueyedblonde If you actually watched the video you would realise that she clearly said, that she couldn't do it because of all the people that would suffer her loss, and while she may not know these people from youtube they bring joy into her life and when living with depression small sources of joy can make a big impact. and meg I hope life is treating you well I was diagnosed with depression two years ago though It's getting better, you sound optimistic which you should be :D
@blllueyedblonde You obviously have no idea what depression is like. Maybe go experience it yourself then you might be entitled to an opinion on a subject you have no knowledge on. As long as your happy you dont need anything else. So before you start talking about poor people and how you recken their worse off, think about the fact that they dont actually have depression. Douchebag.
sometimes i look at it as "why should i live unhappily so you can be happy. why cant i just do something that would make me alright" but then its like hey theres so much to live for. and so many things i'll miss out on. just gotta take it day by day. thats all.
You're beautiful hun, stay strong!
TheJessicaTalks 4 months ago
You're heart is in the right place gurl. You put your family and friends before your own regretful moves. You are very smart. Just remember that you have gotten this far and you can make it farther than you already have. You are an incredibly strong girl, a very strong person all together. You know there is something in life good for you and you forcing yourself to get there so you can help others.
ShiGirlK 8 months ago
I have depression and it's just so overwhelming each day...
I know it and feel free to msg me...I hope things get better soon for you
God bless**
Sy0592 1 year ago
suicide is the most selfish thing u could ever do. if u have the heart to leave ur mom with out a daughter and ur friends and family with out u..then yah sumthin is wrong with u..and ul NEVER be happy if u rely on stupid ppl like onision to be happy. the internet isnt a real social life. get out more and realize theres ppl with much worse problems than u..theres ppl with bad deseases...no money no food...no water abusive familys..bein tortured..and they still push on. so grow up.
blllueyedblonde 1 year ago
@blllueyedblonde maybe you should rewatch my video. i was in a horrible depression at the time and could NOT be happy nomatter what any of my friends did. they just tried to "be there". didn't really do anything funny or be silly to make me laugh and feel better like i needed. just "being there" and making me talk about it made me sadder because i was forced to think about it! onision, ryan cyr, and shane are hilarious. i laugh and get really happy for a little bit. whats so wrong about that?
megimetal 1 year ago
@blllueyedblonde and i didn't want to leave my friends with out me, they tell me i pretty much make their lives. everyone needs ME but i too need someone and i dont have anyone that makes my life like i do theirs. its not that i didn't rethink it cuz of them cuz i did. but i just got to the point in my life and my depression that i lost care of all things, i just didn't care about ANYTHING! not one bit. so when there's someone or somthing out there that makes you better for a lil bit. take it.
megimetal 1 year ago
@blllueyedblonde If you actually watched the video you would realise that she clearly said, that she couldn't do it because of all the people that would suffer her loss, and while she may not know these people from youtube they bring joy into her life and when living with depression small sources of joy can make a big impact. and meg I hope life is treating you well I was diagnosed with depression two years ago though It's getting better, you sound optimistic which you should be :D
MarkusFontaine 10 months ago
@blllueyedblonde You obviously have no idea what depression is like. Maybe go experience it yourself then you might be entitled to an opinion on a subject you have no knowledge on. As long as your happy you dont need anything else. So before you start talking about poor people and how you recken their worse off, think about the fact that they dont actually have depression. Douchebag.
0black0attack0 4 months ago
Your video is great and genuine. Thankyou for posting this. I don't wanna be cheesy and say hold on but please do you seem like a pretty good person!
MadeCapatin 1 year ago
that is the biggest emo i have ever seen
jqlzp 2 years ago
Life is tough, stay strong sweetheart, there is plenty to live for. <3
WTFKENZIE 2 years ago
thanks :)
sometimes i look at it as "why should i live unhappily so you can be happy. why cant i just do something that would make me alright" but then its like hey theres so much to live for. and so many things i'll miss out on. just gotta take it day by day. thats all.
megimetal 2 years ago
@megimetal we'll keep thinking like that, there is a lot to live for, maybe you just havn't found it yet, don't give up, best wishes :3♥
WTFKENZIE 2 years ago
i have depression, scitzophrenia, and psychosis....so it makes things harder...but i figure it out :) thnxx :)
megimetal 2 years ago
@megimetal awe, i'm sorry about that. things will get better, and you will figure it out :)
WTFKENZIE 2 years ago
Strange how the internet helped me better than my psychologist...
HTFAmvs 2 years ago
I KNOW RIGHT!
megimetal 2 years ago
Scary world we all live in. But I guess we all gotta get used to it.
HTFAmvs 2 years ago
agreed. it's ridiculous.
megimetal 2 years ago