The Price of Awareness - an essay by Michelle Belanger

[lilpayaso662010]

my parents took me to the doctor one time for this 2, n da doctor said there was nothing rong.so my mom just said they were panik attacks. i dnt think they r real panik attacks bcuz wen i feel like dat, i hav the need touch them or hold their shoulder or sumthing; i bcum 2 feel better wen i do dat; i begin to hav mor energy

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[lilpayaso662010]

everything she said about the kid, was everything i had!about the crowds, the feelings, the false panic ataks EVERYTHING. i did tel da schoo but dey just sent me 2 a psychiatrist. dey sA im jus always anxious but i no its not bcuz most of da tim it jus hapens out of nowhere, n i cnt control it n i hav 2 leav da crowd;i hav an energy overlod. usually at nite, n almost everynite i bcum drained 2, i becum frustrated, pains all over ma body ad up n my hole body bcums num or sum tims just my hans.

[renarknem]

the poem  the price of awareness sounds like thas what she went through

[stillwaterguy04]

Does anyone know why "Paranormal State" has changed the 5th season format so that Michelle is just a cast member, rather than the resident psychic who is brought in "blind" without investigating the location previously? I'm just thankful she's still on the show; I also miss Chip as a resident psychic, but hopefully, that horribly fake Chad Calek is gone for good; I wish he would've taken that blonde bombshell Eilfie (LOL LOL LOL) with him.

[PerianArdocyl]

What an interesting essay. I got a bit frustrated with psychic energy when I picked up one of those 'idiot's guides', and I guess I thought it was all bunk. But this doesn't sound made up at all; it sounds very genuine.

[KateDANMIT]

<<<< Looking for REAL VAMPIRES that haunt the pages of youtube secretly.

[skelitonking117]

This is a good essay and your a good reader but even tho she is a psi vamp she could have added some things on sang vamps i mean i know being a psi vamp is a pain in the ass ( well i actuall dont know because im not one) but being a sang is just as much of a bitch...just saying not trying to be an ass

[Persephonetoo]

@skelitonking117

This essay is more about being sensitive to psychic perceptions, and not only about being a psychic vampire. Some sangs are sensitve to psychic perceptions, so this essay would apply to them in that regard. It would also apply to people who are empathic or who see ghosts, but who are not vampiric.

[SableTwilight]

@skelitonking117 I think Michelle limits what she says about sanguine vampires because of the limits of her own experiences. It is difficult talk about growing up as a sanguine vampire when one is not one. You might check out "Vampires in Their Own Words" which Michelle collected the stories from people with a wider range of vampire experiences. Additionally, consider writing essays yourself. What are the things you wish you had been told? What could have really made a difference to you?

[SurvivalZombie]

Great job! Thanks for taking the time and effort to make this.

[mysticjason05]

Thanks for reading this. You sound a bit choked up but I think that added such a wonderful personal touch. Again, thanks for reading this.

[Persephonetoo]

Thanks. Actually I was just nervous & tried from doing multiple re-recordings. Trying to get a recording to sound right & fit into a 10 minute slot can be very tedious.

[RadiatedZombie]

Psychic Vamp since I was about 13 (or at least since I realized it), 24 years old now, still hiding from crowds. Although this is a nice essay, I wish it could help in controlling it.

[Persephonetoo]

Try PsychicVampire (dot) org. They have good articles, practical guides, and a helpful forum.

[zyphoid666]

Obviously not "awakening" to reality or sanity though.

[sexysoulreaper]

This is really insperational and deep. Thanks for posting it!

[FUNCLEJ0E]

Too bad you posted this on the day shown. Likely to cause problems of credibility and more likely to show lack of support based on it.

[Persephonetoo]

Nah. Nobody has cared about the day it was posted. Besides, I'm not looking for credibillity with this video. It is intended for those who are going through an awakening, and they know from their soul that this is real for them.

[FUNCLEJ0E]

Well, actually, "Nobody" would be no one that you know of, (except me). Though I do not wish any conflict or argument, I felt strongly enough to mention it not for a means of ridicule, but as a note of awareness when also taking into account synchronization.

[Persephonetoo]

No problem. I appreciate the interest and advice. I thought of that issue too after I uploaded the video, but didn't think it was a big deal, so I let it go.

[FUNCLEJ0E]

The price of awareness, seems affordable, dismissing it, could be expensive. It's not a big deal, it's just enough to seed doubt, gently for a moment. Perhaps these comments will remove that. Peace to you, and thanks.

[lady9belisama]

wow this hits the heart, I have two blogs if you want to check them on, one of them is occult based

[Traumatose]

So true...

Made me cry.

[Persephonetoo]

I'm glad you liked it. Thank you.

[Persephonetoo]

I'm glad you liked it.

I thought it was worth sharing with a wider audience than it was probably getting at Sphynx Cat's site.

- P.

[obayifo54822]

wow how that essay hits the heart

[Persephonetoo]

Thanks. :-)

I think you'd commented on the previous version of this video that I uploaded. I wanted to have you watch and rate this one, mostly because the insight stats for it didn't reflect the previous ratings and comments. That probably an egotistical reason, but I think my reading on this version is a little better. I didn't want to be mangling Michelle's essey.

[exetergray]

Hey P, good job!