Oops .. I am out of the youtube closet... yikes!

[Reverseflush]

Women are getting into the porn biz and let so many men inside of their bodies on video, so it makes me think how many men is normal for a 24 year old girl not doing porn?

[nOtThAtEviL666]

@Reverseflush HOW IS THIS COMMENT RELATED TO THE VIDEO PARDON MY IGNORANCE?

[TheTamraw]

Just be who you are and don't worry about it. If someone's not nice about what you post then just walk away. Don't give 'em the satisfaction of an argument.

[agegirl5]

I just discovered you today in the hopes of getting more into raw. The few weeks I did it was such a success from a weight loss and energy standpoint. How much weight have you lost since you started 100% raw? You are so gorgeous, by the way. Beatuful features (not a come on hehe)!

[bowlingballout]

I try to get my family to watch my stuff, and it's like pulling teeth to get them to.

I have one of those accounts you mentioned 3:25 that is not vlog based.

I suggest pushing through the obstacles and make your vids anyway. Too bad for those in your real life that "don't get it". The facts are they are jealous of you and what you do.

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I bet if my daughters had an account like yours they wouldn't want me to watch either. I also do not visit their facebook/myspace pages out of respect.

[CircleSun]

i understand. i'm new here but i went through the same kinda thing with my online journal. pretty much i dont even write in it anymore, and if i do, i tend to keep it on an impersonal level. i found after a while i was writing for the audience and censoring myself & that's not really what i wanted to do so i stopped cuz the fun went out of it.

youtube is a fresh experience for me and i'm not really sure how it will ultimately manifest itself, but your sharing this vid is helpful. thanks! :)

[mississa11]

I totally understand. We, are your annonomous audience and when you express yourself to us, we are not real in a sense, but those who know you and that you deal with on a daily basis can affect the way you express yourself. Just know that we appreciate your candor. Thank you.

[TheBeautyofVanity]

Yeh...I have totally withdrawn any personal imagery from the internet. Not only because of what you talked about...but picture theft scum and haters..those people suck to deal with.

[Flblackbutterfly]

It's not easy to make yourself vulnerable. I went through that when I started blogging.

[poppycedes]

Why is it that we'll lay out our feelings for all strangers to see, but we get self conscious if our loved ones, the people who mean the very most to us, see our feelings?

[meghandsheamas]

even when we have moments of stupidity in our behavior, etc. they often wind up not wanting us in their self righteous lives...whether it be they are born agains, have sobriety, even people i know using the law of attraction in their lives-it is unbelievable. my personal stuff is often taken wrong and like i said people get judgemental and yeah. i get it. totally get you. i think the people that sub to our blogs, vlogs. they GET it. IRL don't truly love our hearts, mostly r pretentious! hugs

[xDrinkingxPerfumex]

Thats one of the reasons I never started vlogging and i just have a blog.

[crystalandchris]

I COMPLEEEETLY understand what you mean about not wanting people in your real life not knowing/seeing certain things. Realy sux.... sorry hun! :)

[Mbeebeelove]

Damn they found out! I totally know what you mean! You are so down to earth and I love your vids if you stay I will be sooooooooo happy, but if you decide to go then I understand (^__^)

[feralfoods]

you have probably just spoken for tens of thousands of people. i think many people live double/triple lives, and when they overlap or collide, who knows what will happen...

[slushpuppy777]

Totally understand since my mom found my acount I don't post alot of blogs or I watch what I put up because everytime I put something up she disagrees with I hear bout it..

[Alexandrine151515]

I love u so much christina and i totally understand your situation....!!

[yardsnacker]

Hey girlie! I go back and forth. My facebook acct is completely separate from my youtube stuff. I figure that most of the people that are on facebook aren't necessarily interested in raw foodism and think it is extreme, so why would I want that scrutiny? When I'm on point, I don't care who sees my stuff because I feel so good. When I'm not doing as well as I can, I do get more aware of other's criticisms. totally internally that is.. Oh well! ;)

[TheStarvingSoprano]

Hey :-) Should should post this as a response to my youtube in / out video! It's featured on my page :-) x

[charmgirl34]

Hi there! You are an inspiration to me! Where can I find you in Facebook?

[fastinggurl31]

Christina Newman ~ Denver

[kanga888]

iran

[0caloriegirl]

hey I do understand, because Ive had a time where one of my best friend saw my youtube. the wasnt pretty, we arent friends anymore because she found out about my ED. I really love your vids, especially the one thats called " they want you fat" tc jenna

[katarina214]

Maybe it is about time you let people in your 'real life' in on this reality!!

Darling Fastinggurl, Part II:

I hope you find a way to stop caring about what other people think of you and just to love yourself for the beautiful and fabulous fastinggurl that you are!!

[katarina214]

Darling Fastinggurl!! Part I:

You are soo awesome.. your 30 day challenge last year started me on my raw foods journey where I have lost weight, experienced boundless energy, no longer get sick!! WOW!! Fantasitic ! I owe this all to you for taking the time to create your videos! I would say that this is a probably fundemental part of who you are... a caring and compassionate person,full of passiona and enthusiasm - this is your reality!! ... yes??

[wavepsychic]

I don't make videos. The only way I can think 2 help u is by telling u why I am subscribed 2 u.

Vegetarian Diet, Fasting & Breatharianism r very important things 2 me & r goals of mine.

I don't struggle with being over weight but I am a little under. Lets just say my current body isn't ideal. U talk about ur personal goals & where u want to be in life. It isn't something I'd want people in my life to know either. Its personal because u don't want the people in ur life to know ur insecurities.

[ashleyjuddstwin]

I feel the same way! Most of the time, I won't let myself watch videos before or after I've uploaded them. Sometimes I can, and it's ok. But other times I do a lot of self-bashing. It's terrible! Some friends of mine found my channel and I had to muster up the strength not to make everything private. Keep doing what you're doing. Your videos help so many. That's what you have to remind yourself :) It takes a brave person to let it all out on youtube!!!

[tiggerbear3]

I can relate. I have a regular blog that I don't want certain people in my real life to see. I use my privacy settings on facebook so that THEY don't see it.

[rawvegan35]

I totally know how you feel. I am exactly like you. You are brave. I was going to upload a video but I am afraid of that happen.

[notroubleatall]

I totally understand. I would have freaked out and deleted everything. Good for you for keeping it going.

[cutechoclatechip]

i know exactly how you feel!

[kittybookitty]

Also, I understand you altering yourself or feeling self conscious. You feel like you can't really be yourself, and that's what you made this channel for in the first place!

I completely understand but i think you will get over it in a while. I and you won't even think about them.

[kittybookitty]

I TOTALLY understand you feeling uneasy when people in your real life are watching your videos. They have TOTAL access to ALL of your videos WHENEVER they want. That's crazy.

[SanctifiedHeart]

I am still in the YouTube closet. I came out on my livingsacrifice channel to a couple of my church friends, but didn't tell them about my new one. Knowing others in my personal life were aware of my channel and that totally weirded me out. Glad you're back. You were heavy on my mind yesterday. Love ya chica!! You're da best and one of my all time favorite vloggers.

[cutechoclatechip]

none one knows about my youtube account but, my husband either! lol!

[Nicsaprincess]

People in my RL dont know about Chronicles of a FAT GIRL Either...

I Dont think they need too?LOL!

I Had to delete my FB Account, because I Was getting people from YT requesting to be freinds on FB!

I Dont like people in RL Knowing, I Dont think they need too! Most people in my RL Dont *Get It*=)

[robkim55]

Be funny and as impersonal as you want be!!

[PaulaMaeTaylor]

I know exactly where you're coming from. I would freak out if people in my real life knew I made videos.

I've been added on FB by a couple subscribers, but I make sure and tell them not to mention my YT videos.

[Liwlig123]

You just go on girl! we all love you here and best thing for YOU is to be honest. You know those of your friends who cannot deal with it are not your real friends anyway so f*** them. Love

[TheStarvingSoprano]

How are people in your real life dealing with it? I hope positively!

I have a video I'm putting up shortly about this: about whether we tell people or not. You could attach as a video response if you wanted to or do one! x

[TheStarvingSoprano]

Hey, my suggestion: just say what you want babe. People like that. The "real" you. I stopped doing re-takes of mine and just keep it as it is. I'm going to set up a separate facebook for my subscribers because a lot are following my on my regular facebook and I'd hate them to find out.

[dedrawilliams]

you mean we know you more then you'r friends ?

[fastinggurl31]

Yes.... I can honestly answer that with YES!!!

[TheLostDiet]

I know how you feel! I could tell you stories.

[rickvanman]

We all get that little doubting voice from within now and again.

I deal with it by telling myself...

1. Life is too short to worry.

2. I'm really not that important!

3. Nobody really gives a fig about what I think anyway.

4. Just keep smiling and nobody will know!

Works for me anyway!

[peevishpear]

Yeah, telling people in real life is a big no no... totally defeats the purpose and point of my youtube. it's the main reason i stopped making videos, and probably never will again. Some people are able to share it with those they know, but it was my deardiary. A part of my psychological core that is not generally exposed in my typical social roles.

[TheHonestGuys]

Hey Christina.

We hear yer! We've been in exactly the same situation as you...

Now Both Rick Rick and I have multiple accounts. The THG and CB channels are our 'FUN' channels and we also have our more personal channels which are purely for blogging and other personal stuff.

All the best

THG (Kev & Rick)

[itsLaurenLee]

believe me i know exactly what you're talking about.. i mostly think I feel that way because i used to talk about weight and stuff in my videos and i've stopped now because of real life friends and family found out because #1 - my friends can use what i say in my videos against me and #2 - because my family brings my videos up at occasions and it can get embarrassing, kind of, i mean I like people talking about me but not negatively lol :P

[blumac81]

Hiya Christina, totally know how ya feel.

I'm on facebook too, what's your account there? Would like to see ya there

[TruthCeeker333]

Christina, Your right on. Don't worry. I've felt the same way at times. You will adjust. We all adjust.

Peace be with you.

[rayme4raw]

We all present different faces to our friends and family than we do to complete strangers. So when you show your friends and family a side of yourself that you have kept reserved for people who are more like minded (supporters) or inconsequential (haters), you begin to worry about their possible criticism, opinions or even support. Don't worry, you are a Raw Fooder, I think that you can handle any criticism. "You eat what, what that, a vegetable, EWW:) Aren't you going to cook it?" :)

[Suzanne42]

Well, you may be surprised because this could add a positive spin to your friendships. Maybe more of your friends will want to be raw now, as well as diet themselves!

[theheadsgirl]

I told me whole fam about my youtube channel, and they are all pretty good, and not giving me grief about it, but yeah if any of my cousins get a hold of this channel, OMG! I will be the talk of the next family reunion. LOL " why are u telling total strangers about u blah, blah, blah! SO yeah I can relate!

[120togo]

You have the most beautiful eyes! They are so big! :)