I don't think she believes in god anymore because if that man... It's sad to see christians acting so stupid as to rape their children like that... Really screws with their mentality.... Btw this is coming from a victim of rape and a Christian. You people who call yourself so fucking godly......
This song... Just... It's sickeningly horrifying. With the crescendos, and the sudden panic in the chorus, I can feel the emotion and every twisted fucking thing that the song is talking about.
Why is Charlie Manson held in this wildly high - yes, macabre and nasty and hateful, but still high - regard as one of the worst cult leaders when you've got madmen like Jim Jones and the tragedy he caused to wrap your brain around? Sheerly because of Manson's victims' social status, no?
@Dante1255 Isn't it always the way? some man doesn't want to hear from the victim(s) of rape...just shut her up and send her on her way. Typical. Sure I'm assuming your a man...I'd take a VERY large bet on it...and if you are a woman...more's the pity.
@LostYourTime No she didn't actually. It's part of where the name comes from but other than the overall undertone of tragedy it hasn't a thing to do with the massacre.
Victims.....you have my support, for you are truly the victors. Do NOT let them drag you down. Stand up and fight back.....even if you have to stab them. I somewhat relate, and I'm a male. Common society never thinks and realises this happens to the other gender as well. Sick fucks in the world. I swear. This story in this song reminds me a lot of Sleep by Stabbing Westward. You all have my deepest sympathy and support. One Love and Respect!
just makes me remember sitttin in the bottom of the shower.. rubbin my self wit the soap over and over and over tryna get clean. tryna get clean but it wont go far enough it wont go deep enough it wont go that FAR i want to steralize but it just wont go far enough... u want to die. u want to die and forget everything. but you'll never forget. it happened to me less then 15 feet away from everyone. the music was loud they couldnt even hear me. and youl never forget. it will always be with you.
here's to a video that was as unsettling as the song itself. it was put together really well. this is art in one of its truest forms. thanks for uploading this.
side note: i would love to see otep perform live. she steps up to the plate and blows it out of the park. don't see many singers who can do that anymore. the rest of the band seems to have a lot of character too, it's rather impressive.
thank you, otep for being so brave to put your story out there....graphic video...i almost couldn't watch the whole thing....i cried....so sorry for what you've been thru...
the very first time i heard this song, i was in my multimedia class and i was drawing a flower pot. when i heard the song, i dropped my pen and sat completely still throughout the entire song. it was just so... real. and raw.
The part when she was crying... I started crying... This song makes my bones chill. It's one of those things that... You can't bear to listen to, but then again, it's so deep and so full of meaning, you feel like you have to.
It makes you want to kill all the fucks that do this to children.
i rotted in juvinal hall 2 years of my youth thanks to my father..he always hit my mother so one day i punched him giving him a concussion. apearantly you really shouldn't punch someone in the nose... oops. but it's fine he left my mother was safe and thats all i wanted.
i was raped and molested by my uncle from my fathers side and by my 1st cousin on my mothers side. it started when i was about 5. the creatures that do this to children or anyone are NOT humans. they dont even realize the damage they have done. how it affects us and ruins our lives. i remember he said to me to close my eyes and that it would be over soon. but its still not over for me. just for you. at that moment it had just begun for me.
Oh my god, I'm in tears. This song is so heartbreaking, I can't even listen without feeling sick to my stomach. I feel so bad... she's such a strong woman but it must have been awful to put in this kind of state of weakness ever in life. I love you, Otep.
there are no words for this...... you can hear them emotion in this.... the sound of her hitting herself in the head..... so many people out there have felt the exact same pain, and keep it to themselves.... it is amazing for someone to show this much raw emotion, and to speak out for so any people. otep is truly amazing
I really respect the way Otep has sang about the shit some of us have had to go through honestly, without shying away from what others would find too graphic or disturbing to listen to. Most bands or singers try to avoid the things people find hard to deal with, but Otep has really summed up perfectly the things that go through your head when sick fucks do this! It's good to know that you're not alone and that people, like Otep, can put it behind them and make something of their lives!
Otep is a survivor.. the demons she has conqured in her life are tremendous. She should be proud of the strong, intellegent woman she's become. Wow.. I honestly don't know how she did it but cudos for what she's made of herself. I hope that fucking bastard of a "dad" got what he had coming. Love otep... rock on ppl!!!! think of otep when bad things happen in your lives.. be a survivor not a victim!:)
I love this song. Though it was not my father it was a relative.... 9 years of hell and now I am fd up like this, horrible life dead inside. Ruining peoples lives that have to know me to keep me safe. Sometimes I just wish the fer had killed me when I turned him in. So young to be told to lie, save the person who killed you on the inside. I hurt many by telling the truth but f you to those who support abusers.
Otep said this is what should happen to men like her father: " Their abdomen is sliced open, an incision is made into their large intestine, one end is then pulled out and threaded into a rolling device and their intestine is then slowly pulled out and rolled up like a giant spool of thread. All while they are awake and can see their entrails leave their body, much like the spirit of the children they chose to destroy." and i agree. i love her♥
ALL sex offenders/pedifiles should be given labotomies!!! I can't even see them as a human being! They are MONSTERS! They have a sickness/disease that can NOT be treated! MOST offenders almost always end up offending again! Jail is no treatment! Then they are back out in society offending AGAIN!
It's sad that she was raped by her father, as a little girl/teen. She was confused about all that had happened in her family. If I lived in that kind of problem, I owuld feel that everything I was born for was just all bullshit, nothing else, but that.
This song has by far been one of the most...influential and intensely felt songs i've heard to this day. It hits me pretty hard every time still even though i've heard it countless times.
When I've heard how this woman can scream I had to listen to some other tracks. And this is the evilest song I've heard ever in my life. Chill ran through my spine. Very cathartic
i cant relate directly to what otep is talking about and went through but i know what its like to live in a "home", fearing your father every single fucking day. i hope that fucker gets his soon enough...i"ll be there to piss on his grave
Same here dude i seen that so called "father" do things. he went to jail finally after five yrs of what he was doing and im finally free but it still fucks with my head but im not the only one.Thanx OTEP again for this song
This song is a trip... the first time i heard. i droped a few tears. i can relate2 wat otep has2 go thru. & that past still fucks wit my head. sux bein corrupted by the dumbfucks that wud do this shyt2 dere own flesh & blood. but we gotta stand strong & fuck the putrid pricks that do shyt like this2 children.
@sekateh666 why do you spell 'shit' like 'shyt' and constantly misspell words. People don't take bad grammar and bad spelling seriously, so next time you try and make a point do some proof reading.
this song makes me remember what happened to me a little too well....and yet i can't even imagine the kind of pain she went through...this song is so sad and eerie and disturbing and completely amazing all at the same time.
Otep is my sound ov reality, as a similar thing happened to me before i became a metalhead, i watched my dad masturbating beside me & he wanted me to approve this, i was screaming like her, but after i listened to Otep especially, i felt that someone is singing my same shame, i wrote a poem about this called MASTURBATE THE MINDS
Wow ah i heard much bout the jonestown thing. Always wondered what it was bout but yes this song is up there with daddy, kill you & scissors & iowa. Very fucked up shit to hear but great display of art showin it. Shame to her havin to go through that. No woman or man should have to bear through any of that. just thought i speak my mind other then that i'm out peace.
Some of you don't even know what you're talking about. Over 900 men, women, and children were given Kool-aid laced with cyanide. It took place in Guyana on a compound they built and named it Jonestown.
Oh yes, their leader Jim Jones convinced his followers (The People's Temple) to move to Guyana. Kept them from their families. One day a group of concerned family members and some media people and Congressman Ryan flew there to make sure nobody was being held against their will. Once they tried to leave, Jones sent his guards to the plane and shot them all.Then convinced everyone to drink the Kool-aid. Children first in case the parents changed their minds..kids are dead..why should I live?
a place where a mass suicide happened they drank some tea - hence the name - jim jones and his cult set up some place in south america i think - called it jonestown - some gnarly shit back in the 70's ....
Jim Jones forced people to drink the tea and injected babies with poison and if people refused they were shot; and I think it was more of kool-aide than anything.
Is it possible that her father could have been a pastor or something along those lines? That's the impression this song always gave me, that her dad was some sort of 'holy man'. Just an idea.
This is one the only songs that makes me feel ashamed for liking, now i love Otep, and the reason im saying that is that the song is just so sad that i makes me feel bad for saying its my favorite, so raw and emotional dammit! it makes me cry
it was like a year ago when i saw this exact video. people were saying otep sux so she deserved to get raped. i would of said this then but i didnt have a youtube account yet. SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU HAVE NO RIGHT SAYING ANYONE IS ALLOWED TO BE RAPED. NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO HAVE RAPE WISHED APON THEM I DONT CARE HOW BAD OF A PERSON THEY ARE OTEP IS GREAT AND INTELLGENT AND STANDS OF FOR EQUAL RIGHTS FOR GAYS AND ABUSED CHILDREN. THAT is more talent then any of you can ever have.
Damn, I shiver when she screams "Leave me alone". I can't relate to what happened to her, but I can feel her pain when I listen to this song. This is probably her deepest song. I love it.
i know exactly what she went through...except that that i went through even more. i love her, ilove this song....this is my song....this is hers and all the others that went through rape, assult, molestation. :(
wow. ive never actually heard a song that has made such a great impact on me as this one has. she has been through some pretty fucked up shit and that made her the person she is today. shes so strong and so brilliant
if you would understand the completeness that she speaks in this song from the standpoint of a survivor of sexual assault... you would understand that this is a veryyyy powerful song ... much respect to her ... im shuttering and crying shuttering and canting to break someones face ...
Wow, it takes a really strong individual to come out and express something like this. In all honesty, this song makes me feel so shitty, angry, and sad. She's a beautiful person and I hate knowing stuff like this happens in the world and not knowing how to do anything about it. I'm so fortunate to have never had to experience such a horrible, disgusting thing in my life. I pray for this girl and all of those in the world who suffer in the same way.
This tune displays sadness, tragedy and so utterly beautifully horrendeousness. The performance makes me cry inside, it gives me goosebumps and fills me with rage all at once.
i love saying inapropriate things.. but i'd like anyone here that is desensitized toward the subject .. to get molested/raped by someone they call dad.
then you probably wont be such a desensitized moron.
I just loved it when she screams i don't care if i'm a girl ok, it sounds sexy, but thats besides the point, to make a song about your father raping you, you have to stare it in the face, and face it, and i praise you for that otep, and you put all your emotions into the song i can feel your anger,and sadness,and innocence every time i listen to it
Otep's early family hystory is missing, but it's highly known that she was molested by her father.
In an interview she, herself, said that two girls told their mother that their father was molesting by using this song to explain.
Obviously, with their other songs, they are a religious, political and actively against sexual harassment. They've created a new movement using all of their songs on the Ascension album, each going to a different foundation.
I don't think she believes in god anymore because if that man... It's sad to see christians acting so stupid as to rape their children like that... Really screws with their mentality.... Btw this is coming from a victim of rape and a Christian. You people who call yourself so fucking godly......
aliceghostlover 1 month ago
@aliceghostlover u speak as if all christians rape
Justin559Smith 2 weeks ago
@Justin559Smith Sorry if I portrayed that, didn't mean to. I should have said some christians. I didn't mean to offend anyone.
aliceghostlover 2 weeks ago
This song... Just... It's sickeningly horrifying. With the crescendos, and the sudden panic in the chorus, I can feel the emotion and every twisted fucking thing that the song is talking about.
Absolutely fucking Brilliant.
FoedusEx 4 months ago
This is brilliant. Love it.
Anophis 4 months ago
Okay, so only addressing this song's title:
Why is Charlie Manson held in this wildly high - yes, macabre and nasty and hateful, but still high - regard as one of the worst cult leaders when you've got madmen like Jim Jones and the tragedy he caused to wrap your brain around? Sheerly because of Manson's victims' social status, no?
Yes.
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This is not gross Its a fucking message. Have you ever been through anything like that? No? This song is amazing and she did it for a good reason
CaityRS89 4 months ago
This is not gross Its a fucking message. Have you ever been through anything like that? No? This song is amazing and she did it for a good reason
CaityRS89 4 months ago
I don't know.....This is real story or not? Give me just an answer, dear OTEP fans
SkinnyLoveIndustrial 5 months ago
@SkinnyLoveIndustrial
Yeah, she was sexually abused.
MissArielMarie 4 months ago
This is gross, no pity from me, its just sic
Dante1255 5 months ago
@Dante1255 Isn't it always the way? some man doesn't want to hear from the victim(s) of rape...just shut her up and send her on her way. Typical. Sure I'm assuming your a man...I'd take a VERY large bet on it...and if you are a woman...more's the pity.
christophermorrison2 2 months ago in playlist OTEP....Battle Ready
I Never In My Life Heard A Song This Powerfull..
Forget How Awesome The Guitar Sounds..
Dude.. This Song Is Jusst Extreemly Powerfull...
The Fact That It Makes Me Feel Something..
No Other Band.. No Other Fucking Band But Otep!!
I Love Otep..
zupercrazy123 5 months ago 3
Otep did this song to the Jonestown massacre. you all know that right?
LostYourTime 6 months ago
@LostYourTime No she didn't actually. It's part of where the name comes from but other than the overall undertone of tragedy it hasn't a thing to do with the massacre.
urbanr0cker 5 months ago
@urbanr0cker ooooooh okay, i was told otherwise. thanks for the info =3
LostYourTime 5 months ago
This song sends shivers down my spine my god.
Jennifer1717 6 months ago
and i thought my childhood sucked, oh fuck i just threw up
Shengch1 6 months ago
she is in so much pain in this song. no child should have to go through what she did
TheMetalnut 6 months ago
Gives me goosebumps everytime I hear it. No matter how many times I have heard it. Powerful shit.
Rocketman2396 7 months ago
nice
ImOteps1Fan 8 months ago
Victims.....you have my support, for you are truly the victors. Do NOT let them drag you down. Stand up and fight back.....even if you have to stab them. I somewhat relate, and I'm a male. Common society never thinks and realises this happens to the other gender as well. Sick fucks in the world. I swear. This story in this song reminds me a lot of Sleep by Stabbing Westward. You all have my deepest sympathy and support. One Love and Respect!
ja0401 8 months ago 2
I'd love to see her live. Please come to Alaska. You deserve to be more popular.
eggwich22 8 months ago
girls never underestimate anyone... be prepared for anything.. cuz it just isnt worth it. may all u goofs burn in hell.
NlcEpAnTs 9 months ago
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NlcEpAnTs 9 months ago
just makes me remember sitttin in the bottom of the shower.. rubbin my self wit the soap over and over and over tryna get clean. tryna get clean but it wont go far enough it wont go deep enough it wont go that FAR i want to steralize but it just wont go far enough... u want to die. u want to die and forget everything. but you'll never forget. it happened to me less then 15 feet away from everyone. the music was loud they couldnt even hear me. and youl never forget. it will always be with you.
NlcEpAnTs 9 months ago
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NlcEpAnTs 9 months ago
here's to a video that was as unsettling as the song itself. it was put together really well. this is art in one of its truest forms. thanks for uploading this.
side note: i would love to see otep perform live. she steps up to the plate and blows it out of the park. don't see many singers who can do that anymore. the rest of the band seems to have a lot of character too, it's rather impressive.
ohmybikinimodels 9 months ago
So sad and emotional..:(...:/
NenX11 9 months ago
thank you, otep for being so brave to put your story out there....graphic video...i almost couldn't watch the whole thing....i cried....so sorry for what you've been thru...
nichols2aten 9 months ago
@ornelasdeon ya dude thts messed up
RiDdLeBoXViDs7 9 months ago
So damned sad, but so powerful.
MizSerpentina 10 months ago
wasnt the dad a priest?? and he still raped her for her sins?? thats fucked up!!
ornelasdeon 10 months ago
I hate the fact that the singer of otep had a father who believed that raping her was the only way to punish her of her sins.
LadyWolfOfDarkness1 10 months ago
I thought it was my fault too.. OTEP IS MY FOREVER <3 <3 <3
XxAnaixX 11 months ago 2
her suffer is my suffer. OT3P IS MY FOREVER <3
XxAnaixX 11 months ago
the very first time i heard this song, i was in my multimedia class and i was drawing a flower pot. when i heard the song, i dropped my pen and sat completely still throughout the entire song. it was just so... real. and raw.
xbridesxmaidx 11 months ago
This song makes me horney.
stevilremon1 11 months ago
@stevilremon1 whathefuckk?? your sickk...
juicystickynstuff 10 months ago
@juicystickynstuff I know.
stevilremon1 10 months ago
The part when she was crying... I started crying... This song makes my bones chill. It's one of those things that... You can't bear to listen to, but then again, it's so deep and so full of meaning, you feel like you have to.
It makes you want to kill all the fucks that do this to children.
Autumnazing94 1 year ago 14
sweetheart , would you like a tampon?
SatanBabyDollx 1 year ago
This is beyond intense!
MrAlexrawwwr 1 year ago
i rotted in juvinal hall 2 years of my youth thanks to my father..he always hit my mother so one day i punched him giving him a concussion. apearantly you really shouldn't punch someone in the nose... oops. but it's fine he left my mother was safe and thats all i wanted.
MrSunshineinthesky 1 year ago 4
ever the dope
ikdsjOFFICIAL 1 year ago
i was raped and molested by my uncle from my fathers side and by my 1st cousin on my mothers side. it started when i was about 5. the creatures that do this to children or anyone are NOT humans. they dont even realize the damage they have done. how it affects us and ruins our lives. i remember he said to me to close my eyes and that it would be over soon. but its still not over for me. just for you. at that moment it had just begun for me.
hidsecretworld 1 year ago 25
@hidsecretworld I Agree. stay strong! there are more than one justice in this world and the next...
MrJoeyhoek 2 months ago in playlist YouTube Mix for Otep
DAUGHTER!!!!! HAHAHAHA
BrutalCadaverRape 1 year ago
@metalmusic4life666 look up Jonestown and you'll know.
ariisadork 1 year ago
This my freinds.. is what music is about. Raw emotion! put to some amazing music.. Freakin increadible band... An amazing screamer/growler.
deathsonlyson 1 year ago
Oh my god, I'm in tears. This song is so heartbreaking, I can't even listen without feeling sick to my stomach. I feel so bad... she's such a strong woman but it must have been awful to put in this kind of state of weakness ever in life. I love you, Otep.
mixedchick55 1 year ago
3:35 Period blood lol
FranK43BratT 1 year ago
11 people are douchebags
gothtart13 1 year ago
there are no words for this...... you can hear them emotion in this.... the sound of her hitting herself in the head..... so many people out there have felt the exact same pain, and keep it to themselves.... it is amazing for someone to show this much raw emotion, and to speak out for so any people. otep is truly amazing
TheNewDiabolic18 1 year ago
otherworld womyn. well thats what she called me (destroyer).. the one... who sets you. free.
oteps wurdz have set me free from the bondage of my pain. truly she is 'otherworld womyn'..
cantkeeptitshut 1 year ago
I really respect the way Otep has sang about the shit some of us have had to go through honestly, without shying away from what others would find too graphic or disturbing to listen to. Most bands or singers try to avoid the things people find hard to deal with, but Otep has really summed up perfectly the things that go through your head when sick fucks do this! It's good to know that you're not alone and that people, like Otep, can put it behind them and make something of their lives!
DevilsLittleLunatic 1 year ago
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KickinShadows 1 year ago
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KickinShadows 1 year ago
Otep is a survivor.. the demons she has conqured in her life are tremendous. She should be proud of the strong, intellegent woman she's become. Wow.. I honestly don't know how she did it but cudos for what she's made of herself. I hope that fucking bastard of a "dad" got what he had coming. Love otep... rock on ppl!!!! think of otep when bad things happen in your lives.. be a survivor not a victim!:)
beckab0b 1 year ago 5
this is fucked. i feel sorry for her. :(
youloveelindsey 1 year ago
Otep has Been the Inspiration to Speak up & Out about Everything.
There's more than Admiration for Someone like her to Have the Guts to So Explicitly and Out-right Say to the Public What she Sings about <3
BlackShineRaven 1 year ago 2
"Not for the squeamish"
LOL
Bedonzela 1 year ago 3
My first victim finally speaks out.
JDQuantum 1 year ago
@JDQuantum your a dick
taylorandtodd420 1 year ago
anyone with "420" in their name is obviously a douche. YAY! WEED! I love Otep. Been listening longer than you've been smoking boy.
JDQuantum 1 year ago 5
@JDQuantum yeah im sure, how old are you 12?
taylorandtodd420 9 months ago
@taylorandtodd420 :Clique....I'm actually 12 and a half thank you very much.
JDQuantum 9 months ago
@JDQuantum im twelve too, and i love this band
gabbz311 7 months ago
@JDQuantum
<3
KleinJewden 1 year ago
@JDQuantum lol that was fucked up
AUSROTTENY2K 1 year ago
The pain in the words. :(
MAMqu 1 year ago
Too bad the band "Side Project" parodies these kinds of rants in their song "Princess".
Kriftonucci 1 year ago
I love this song. Though it was not my father it was a relative.... 9 years of hell and now I am fd up like this, horrible life dead inside. Ruining peoples lives that have to know me to keep me safe. Sometimes I just wish the fer had killed me when I turned him in. So young to be told to lie, save the person who killed you on the inside. I hurt many by telling the truth but f you to those who support abusers.
DarkPoet3390 1 year ago
Otep said this is what should happen to men like her father: " Their abdomen is sliced open, an incision is made into their large intestine, one end is then pulled out and threaded into a rolling device and their intestine is then slowly pulled out and rolled up like a giant spool of thread. All while they are awake and can see their entrails leave their body, much like the spirit of the children they chose to destroy." and i agree. i love her♥
Veronicarae08 1 year ago 7
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KickinShadows 1 year ago
ALL sex offenders/pedifiles should be given labotomies!!! I can't even see them as a human being! They are MONSTERS! They have a sickness/disease that can NOT be treated! MOST offenders almost always end up offending again! Jail is no treatment! Then they are back out in society offending AGAIN!
madamecobalt 1 year ago 4
It's sad that she was raped by her father, as a little girl/teen. She was confused about all that had happened in her family. If I lived in that kind of problem, I owuld feel that everything I was born for was just all bullshit, nothing else, but that.
TheBlackrose2545 1 year ago
This song reminds me of my asshole uncle.
MidKnight421 1 year ago 2
this is fucking more brutal than anything i've ever listened and if you are disagree i would kick your ass!
zoque999 1 year ago 4
This song has by far been one of the most...influential and intensely felt songs i've heard to this day. It hits me pretty hard every time still even though i've heard it countless times.
BloodPigsIX 1 year ago 4
Wow.
This is horrible and beautifull at the same time
FistFuckGod 1 year ago 2
cried. cant really... idk. i need a cup of tea. clear my thoughts. liberate my mind. relax out of the line. turn darkness into wine.
menryry 1 year ago 5
When I've heard how this woman can scream I had to listen to some other tracks. And this is the evilest song I've heard ever in my life. Chill ran through my spine. Very cathartic
pornyhony 1 year ago 2
not a bad video, although the girl with the blood is sick
generau666 1 year ago
i can relate fully to what Otep is saying.. Thxx Otep. Rest in Hell babysitter !
Athenadora9467 1 year ago
i cant relate directly to what otep is talking about and went through but i know what its like to live in a "home", fearing your father every single fucking day. i hope that fucker gets his soon enough...i"ll be there to piss on his grave
Daemon3589 1 year ago
Same here dude i seen that so called "father" do things. he went to jail finally after five yrs of what he was doing and im finally free but it still fucks with my head but im not the only one.Thanx OTEP again for this song
SS130T3P 1 year ago
OH it's so good!
TheKorpin 1 year ago
So scary....can't believe it's actual music.
KurdtKobain09 1 year ago
da miedo pero aun asi salio perfecto
FEMALEJOCKER 2 years ago
This song is a trip... the first time i heard. i droped a few tears. i can relate2 wat otep has2 go thru. & that past still fucks wit my head. sux bein corrupted by the dumbfucks that wud do this shyt2 dere own flesh & blood. but we gotta stand strong & fuck the putrid pricks that do shyt like this2 children.
sekateh666 2 years ago 77
@sekateh666 i am sorry but can you please spell correctly?
freebird887 1 year ago
@sekateh666 why do you spell 'shit' like 'shyt' and constantly misspell words. People don't take bad grammar and bad spelling seriously, so next time you try and make a point do some proof reading.
gyankee17 11 months ago
@sekateh666 Coolstorybro Maybe if you did'nt spell like a retard it would'nt have happened to you, Just saying.
RiotSpike 9 months ago
nice song..metal forever and ever..
SleepingSun9 2 years ago 7
omg this is scary lol!!
Mido547 2 years ago
So, chilling...I want otep more and more with each song.
ilkidot 2 years ago 4
omfg this song is so fucked up..... I like it.....
ThePsychoSister 2 years ago 4
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Truely the most fucked up song iv ever hard ..this song is wrong on SO MANY LEVELS
MrFreshy78 2 years ago
not for the faint hearted fuck
JosiahSCooper 2 years ago 4
Some songs just makes you go silent and makes you doubt if you can even bare to listen it all the way through.
Wow.
The kind of people who do this to childen.. to anyone.. they should just die. It's so fucked up. Shit.
Lol0930 2 years ago 98
@Lol0930 Oh, no... They should be really unhappy before their death, you know... Dying is just dying, this isn't really painful most of the times...
WolfOfRage333 1 year ago
its scary .. its fucked up ..
but its so well written, without to much of a censor..its scary because that just are the thought , the manipulitive game played with you..
Hey, I'm sorry baby...
please come back inside...we can laugh a little... and live and die,
no wait. see, i got this hot pot of Jonestown tea
And it's been brewing for you and me,
d I remember the smell, and the pain, and the shame...
And I remember being afraid and thinking everyday,
Every single day.. that it was my fault..
MissCensor1 2 years ago 2
joder que fuerte lo de jonestown no tenia ni idea..
LhyJ 2 years ago
i normally dont like songs like this but i could totally understand it and can relate
Clemt0wnsBabiiGoon 2 years ago
this song makes me remember what happened to me a little too well....and yet i can't even imagine the kind of pain she went through...this song is so sad and eerie and disturbing and completely amazing all at the same time.
Jifcrunch79 2 years ago
Otep is my sound ov reality, as a similar thing happened to me before i became a metalhead, i watched my dad masturbating beside me & he wanted me to approve this, i was screaming like her, but after i listened to Otep especially, i felt that someone is singing my same shame, i wrote a poem about this called MASTURBATE THE MINDS
mockablackarts 2 years ago 4
i love this song, and everytime i listen to it, makes me crawl...she sings this in a very...touching way
krohavokpugetmurder 2 years ago
this is like a scarier version of daddy.
katieburak93 2 years ago
Wow ah i heard much bout the jonestown thing. Always wondered what it was bout but yes this song is up there with daddy, kill you & scissors & iowa. Very fucked up shit to hear but great display of art showin it. Shame to her havin to go through that. No woman or man should have to bear through any of that. just thought i speak my mind other then that i'm out peace.
Wickedblackjuggalo19 2 years ago 3
song's so fucked up. I love it and I love the way she writes her music
Hollowgrover 2 years ago 4
she has a beautiful, sad sickness
xaydnpa 2 years ago 4
She is a maniac with madness in her brain !
DegenerikSlogirani 2 years ago
wow! good.....bad....addictive....hmmm
branpuff7 2 years ago
Some of you don't even know what you're talking about. Over 900 men, women, and children were given Kool-aid laced with cyanide. It took place in Guyana on a compound they built and named it Jonestown.
crystalette 2 years ago 4
No Shit?Thats fukt up
duriostejr 2 years ago
Oh yes, their leader Jim Jones convinced his followers (The People's Temple) to move to Guyana. Kept them from their families. One day a group of concerned family members and some media people and Congressman Ryan flew there to make sure nobody was being held against their will. Once they tried to leave, Jones sent his guards to the plane and shot them all.Then convinced everyone to drink the Kool-aid. Children first in case the parents changed their minds..kids are dead..why should I live?
crystalette 2 years ago
omg.... she sounds like she is no longer human. she is now a demon
shadowoftheday45 2 years ago 3
shit! i feel like..i dont know! but it's deep whenever i hear this song!! what is jonestown btw? sorry i sound stupid but..yeah
campanime 2 years ago
damn u -,-
dragonhunter94 2 years ago
Look it up.
MexicansAreLazy 2 years ago
a place where a mass suicide happened they drank some tea - hence the name - jim jones and his cult set up some place in south america i think - called it jonestown - some gnarly shit back in the 70's ....
lfaktore 2 years ago
Jim Jones forced people to drink the tea and injected babies with poison and if people refused they were shot; and I think it was more of kool-aide than anything.
mudvayne317 2 years ago
That's one hell of a song!!
MadMadamMarlin 2 years ago
only someone who's been through it could sing it like this.
tanyalani 2 years ago 9
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this video is full of douche bag camera whores
KittayJ0 2 years ago
Do you guys not know what Jonestown was?
psychokillerburgers 2 years ago
jamiephelan: you're right it is somewhat about religion....but when she was a child she was raped by a priest
i'm 86% sure it was a priest
either that or her father
drunkonpunk013 2 years ago
Is it possible that her father could have been a pastor or something along those lines? That's the impression this song always gave me, that her dad was some sort of 'holy man'. Just an idea.
jaydahsxcreator 2 years ago 5
I got that distinct impression, too.
yamiko193 2 years ago
its about her father, who may or may not have been a priest
yamiko193 2 years ago
This is one the only songs that makes me feel ashamed for liking, now i love Otep, and the reason im saying that is that the song is just so sad that i makes me feel bad for saying its my favorite, so raw and emotional dammit! it makes me cry
emptybliss2 2 years ago 5
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This song is about religion. The usage of rape imagery is a metaphor.
jamiephelan 2 years ago
I highly doubt she uses such graphic and detailed "imagery" as a metaphor in this song.
livingxdeadxrainy 2 years ago 4
She was raped as a child...
HappytreeeeFISH 2 years ago 6
hmmm reminds me of korn a bit. not comparing just saying what i think. lol great band by the way =]
acidbath7 2 years ago
This song makes me shiver,sick and hurt for the people that have to ever go through this terrible living death. MAY YOU ALL BE AVENGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
madamecobalt 2 years ago 7
it was like a year ago when i saw this exact video. people were saying otep sux so she deserved to get raped. i would of said this then but i didnt have a youtube account yet. SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU HAVE NO RIGHT SAYING ANYONE IS ALLOWED TO BE RAPED. NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO HAVE RAPE WISHED APON THEM I DONT CARE HOW BAD OF A PERSON THEY ARE OTEP IS GREAT AND INTELLGENT AND STANDS OF FOR EQUAL RIGHTS FOR GAYS AND ABUSED CHILDREN. THAT is more talent then any of you can ever have.
WRATH4214721125150 2 years ago 12
agreed
shadowoftheday45 2 years ago
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i dont like the emo girls in the video -.-
hapibth0pel3ss 2 years ago
Damn, I shiver when she screams "Leave me alone". I can't relate to what happened to her, but I can feel her pain when I listen to this song. This is probably her deepest song. I love it.
StephanieMichele1992 2 years ago 5
this song is so intense
iamyourjesus 2 years ago 6
The anger in this song is so real. The first time she screams "leave me alone" it makes me shiver, I can feel her pain and her anger.
337ttyl 2 years ago 5
Damn, I LOVE this song.. Otep rules!!
MadMadamMarlin 2 years ago 3
I love this song...
victoriangoth666 2 years ago 2
my friend said this was the most disturbing song he ever heard.. I dint believe him.... and now i know im damn wrong......
newyou 2 years ago 4
very powerfull song.. I can relate to it 100% of the way.. even though im a guy............... had the same shit happen to me......>>
pepsi2pepsi 2 years ago 2
i know exactly what she went through...except that that i went through even more. i love her, ilove this song....this is my song....this is hers and all the others that went through rape, assult, molestation. :(
0bong0bunny0 2 years ago 3
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AsiAn7Underground 2 years ago
im a big fan of her work this song reminds me
the song "Daddy" but anyways awesome song really dark and intense !!
AsiAn7Underground 2 years ago
wow. ive never actually heard a song that has made such a great impact on me as this one has. she has been through some pretty fucked up shit and that made her the person she is today. shes so strong and so brilliant
MandaLovesTexting 2 years ago 7
aoh damm otep im doing a what i can i feel the song but im afraid to come foward scared
myhorror303 2 years ago
did she kill her dad? cause she said she cut out his tongue.
hapibth0pel3ss 2 years ago
no she didnt mean literally
babyshoe7 2 years ago
sick...demented...crazy...i luv it...
7474chucc 2 years ago
Otep is a goddess
corriecrow21 3 years ago
I like the concert footage, and I love the song, but why the pictures of goth girls?
nosenipples 3 years ago 3
Reminds me so much of my life .
aleashamaggot666 3 years ago
if you would understand the completeness that she speaks in this song from the standpoint of a survivor of sexual assault... you would understand that this is a veryyyy powerful song ... much respect to her ... im shuttering and crying shuttering and canting to break someones face ...
froggerbiotch 3 years ago 7
Wow, it takes a really strong individual to come out and express something like this. In all honesty, this song makes me feel so shitty, angry, and sad. She's a beautiful person and I hate knowing stuff like this happens in the world and not knowing how to do anything about it. I'm so fortunate to have never had to experience such a horrible, disgusting thing in my life. I pray for this girl and all of those in the world who suffer in the same way.
8Jared7 3 years ago 17
This tune displays sadness, tragedy and so utterly beautifully horrendeousness. The performance makes me cry inside, it gives me goosebumps and fills me with rage all at once.
FallenShamsiel 3 years ago 4
disturbing video, painfull song, great band.
999TheHairDk666 3 years ago
i think this is their best song!! i love it... so much pain!
theeyesofthedead 3 years ago
God this video is sick. Can i buy this on iTunes for actually 9 minutes long?
platypus46 3 years ago
Today...my name..is..PAIN.
KoKaneZombie 3 years ago
After singing the same song hundreds of times I'm sure she realizes it's just beating a dead horse. Its a sick situation.
This shit isn't ever going to end for anyone. People basicly suck.
dizzaztergirl 3 years ago
from 5:50 so fucking awsome mosh pitting part OMG OMG OMG
michael1400pizdec 3 years ago
i love saying inapropriate things.. but i'd like anyone here that is desensitized toward the subject .. to get molested/raped by someone they call dad.
then you probably wont be such a desensitized moron.
im not anymore, anyways.
theANTIparis 3 years ago
Everyone shut up and respect the voice of this godly woman.
maddehmoofin 3 years ago 7
i wasnt raped,but i was touched by my dad when he was drunk a year ago
but for some reason, this song speaks out for me..
mah1125 3 years ago
Me like :D
.. but it`s fucking sick :D
kaos542 3 years ago
amazing. intense. you can actually feel her pain. and if you're someone similar to me or her, you can relate...
fersurex44 3 years ago
I just loved it when she screams i don't care if i'm a girl ok, it sounds sexy, but thats besides the point, to make a song about your father raping you, you have to stare it in the face, and face it, and i praise you for that otep, and you put all your emotions into the song i can feel your anger,and sadness,and innocence every time i listen to it
purpleemochick 3 years ago 2
Otep's early family hystory is missing, but it's highly known that she was molested by her father.
In an interview she, herself, said that two girls told their mother that their father was molesting by using this song to explain.
Obviously, with their other songs, they are a religious, political and actively against sexual harassment. They've created a new movement using all of their songs on the Ascension album, each going to a different foundation.
I know my Otep facts.
RosetteCullen 3 years ago 4
why do all of the songs start off this way?
Rockoss 3 years ago
when i knew this song was in fact dedicated to his father because when she was little he rape her
i was like "shit!"
poor of her
krohavokpugetmurder 3 years ago
japan
ok
vaxz66 3 years ago