I'm wasn't depressed or hate life either. But Fat Bastard (one of my names for God) was telling me he was going to torture me and that people were also going to torture and kill me. He (I call it he- but it is really an IT) will tell you some weird thing or another to get you to that point... Seemingly the repetitive threat is on the basis of life getting worse- for you no heaven- for me more torture and suffering.
One of the reasons I think it is God is because it follows a repetitive pattern. God was the worlds 1st terrorist. Threatening people with hell, telling them that it is going to get worse, making people believe that they are responsible for it being worse.... Same shit, different day.
Right now I am working landscaping type stuff in the summer and snow removal in the winter. And for the drinking part I drink once a week and the next morning I do feel kind of sketchy but it goes away in a couple of hours.
i can imagine what that was like, i overdosed on mushrooms and tripped so hard. the whole trip was about jesus and all that and im not one bit religous. i did end up in the ER, but only 4 a couple hours and had to hitchhike about 20 miles home at 3am in only a tshirt and sweatpants.
They say people with schizophrenia are more prone to it than others through genes and family history and stuff like that, but pot does increase your risk of deleloping schizophrenia.
@blackjack55551234 i dont buy it, and what gives you that Idea? im curious.... The part about Marijuana increasing your risk of developing schizophrenia
People who dont know God usually listen to demons or voices that tell them what they should do.If God ever did speak to someone he would tell them about his love and would not tell someone to kill themselves rather live for others whom you love.God is all about love.Peace and let your spirit rest in his presence which is good.Always test all things,if you know the voice of God he will tell you to help the poor and sick,rather than kill yourself.
very impressiv, really like the way u talk about your symptoms in a very personal way and how u tried to deal with it
psycarbo 1 year ago
I'm wasn't depressed or hate life either. But Fat Bastard (one of my names for God) was telling me he was going to torture me and that people were also going to torture and kill me. He (I call it he- but it is really an IT) will tell you some weird thing or another to get you to that point... Seemingly the repetitive threat is on the basis of life getting worse- for you no heaven- for me more torture and suffering.
Carex09 2 years ago
One of the reasons I think it is God is because it follows a repetitive pattern. God was the worlds 1st terrorist. Threatening people with hell, telling them that it is going to get worse, making people believe that they are responsible for it being worse.... Same shit, different day.
Carex09 2 years ago
also just wondering what kind of work do you do? and what happens when you drink on your med?
johnsondkf 3 years ago
Right now I am working landscaping type stuff in the summer and snow removal in the winter. And for the drinking part I drink once a week and the next morning I do feel kind of sketchy but it goes away in a couple of hours.
blackjack55551234 3 years ago
i can imagine what that was like, i overdosed on mushrooms and tripped so hard. the whole trip was about jesus and all that and im not one bit religous. i did end up in the ER, but only 4 a couple hours and had to hitchhike about 20 miles home at 3am in only a tshirt and sweatpants.
johnsondkf 3 years ago
That must have been quite a night.
blackjack55551234 3 years ago
do you think to was the pot that made you that way?
johnsondkf 3 years ago
They say people with schizophrenia are more prone to it than others through genes and family history and stuff like that, but pot does increase your risk of deleloping schizophrenia.
blackjack55551234 3 years ago
@blackjack55551234 i dont buy it, and what gives you that Idea? im curious.... The part about Marijuana increasing your risk of developing schizophrenia
theOnly187 1 year ago
i love this story. you should write a book about it to make people aware of this.
johnsondkf 3 years ago
Thanks, I'm glad you enjoyed it.
blackjack55551234 3 years ago
People who dont know God usually listen to demons or voices that tell them what they should do.If God ever did speak to someone he would tell them about his love and would not tell someone to kill themselves rather live for others whom you love.God is all about love.Peace and let your spirit rest in his presence which is good.Always test all things,if you know the voice of God he will tell you to help the poor and sick,rather than kill yourself.
6gording6 3 years ago
This guy wasn't listening to 'demons' he has a mental disease.
BSTCREW 3 years ago
Awesome videos. Thank you for sharing your experiences, that means a lot.
BrotherBabylon 3 years ago