beautiful... i have an OCD about being late, we could be 20 minutes early getting somewhere but i'd still worry the whole time. If we ever are late, i'm almost at tears but like u i'm going to try to get use it because it's part of me :)
Hey, I just wanted to say this poem touched me sooo much that I cried. My mum runs a support group in our local area for OCD sufferers. I was wondering if you would be ok with me posting this on her site for others to see? I have posted it for now but one word from you and I will put it down.
@1mb0123d writing will help your OCD, the mind is a conveyor belt and when it gets stuck that's OCD. So if you keep rolling your worries out of your head this will be very thereputic. Writing is a very effective way of doing this.
I really like this poem.. Actually, my OCD isn't that bad as it used to be. A few weeks ago, my doctor said it was evolving into OCPD, a disorder which isn't as bad as OCD in my eyes..
glad it has helped you some x things always get better and nothing ever stays the same but OCD is tiring and requires a lot of effort to shake. It can be done xxx
hey guys how are you all x am doing okay new job means plenty of food for worry and doubt but staying on top. It's amazing how a persons judgement or how they phrase something can make me feel like I have done something wrong and like im a bad person, do any of you feel like this when with people you dont know very well?
People can be very judgemental in their ignorance. I've learned that one should never take a person's comments too seriously, especially when they know very little about you as a person. People play control games, especially in the work place, and it takes time to know who you can trust. Be true to yourself, and respect others, and you will shine outwardly, and those who are cruel & insensitive always get their due. Have faith, for the Lord sees all, but takes His time in judging hurtful people.
got offered another job, my dream job x so just wanted to let you all know that life has ups and downs and sometimes you feel like it will never get better but keep on trying and it does! don't give up x i got out of that bad situation and changed my environment to change my feelings x and am glad i did not give up x
hi guys have tried hard to stay positive and its working things are getting better my bf and me are really close and i have had some great job interviews x dont ever lose your hope or give up the fight x
Hi everyone. Have resigned from my job where I was being isolated by two members of staff. My manager was oblivious to it so this caused my depression. My OCD is under control and It is hard but not impossible. I am at rock bottom but I have been there before and there is only one direction left to go. UP. Am fighting the good fight. Thinking of you all xxxx I hope that my honesty will show it's up and it's down but in the end I will be okay and so will all of you.
thats where you have gone wrong straight away its not yours it should be cast out like a stranger otherwise it will never leave you i know this to well as i have been there and come out the other end
Everyone lives there life differently and thats how it should be. But perhaps you should open your mind to there being more than one way to have OCD. I am trying to say that if you pay attention to your OCD you can address the real issue that is bothering you and deal with your life in a non OCD way. A bit like listening to a baby when it cries. Work out what triggered your thoughts or behaviours. Behind something unreal there lies something real when it comes to the origin of OCD symptoms.
just to say hope you are all okay out there. Have been on anti deps now for 6 weeks and they have really helped. feel much more on top of the depression. feel like myself. don't feel numbed in anyway. it was definately depression not true ocd this time. was very different but there were simalarities. it has a been a confusing time.
So it turns out it is not OCD causing the probs this time, it's depression. Have not suffered with this before. The reason I mistook it for OCD was because it is caunsing dark obsessions. I am on an antidepressant and it is helping and I am learning to manage but it has been the toughest faze since my OCD was bad. I am putting together a video in the hopes some of you will relate and feel less alone.
One day you will require understanding from another human being and you may feel guilty about such stupid comments. Your name cheese burger fits perfectly as both you and your namesake are full of rubbish.
If that was a joke it wasn't succesful.. Insulting maybe. But if you really meant that you should sound an alarm, mostly to the women who suffer from this desease, because more men have the tendency to look their patients in a sexual manner, than women. A great psychiatrist once said; A phychiatrist must have his pockets full of money and he/she should have enjoyed all the sex they could get, meaning that when a patient goes in the room you mustn't look at him as money or as a sex object.
Hi, my ocd has been playing up in the last few weeks. Wondered if anyone out there gets obsessions about people they love harming them? Usually it's the other way around for me.
i constantly worry i may accidently hurt someone i love. and if i'm not worrying about that i worry something might harm them or me. unless i carry out my rittuals. my ocd has been on top of me lately. i know how you feel. good luck.
people suffering with OCD often obtain obsessions that loved ones are trying to harm them, or that they will somehow harm another person. It is not true though. This is a false message from your brain. It is not important, it is just your OCD lying to you. When you have these bizzarre thoughts, try talking to someone who knows what you are going through, they will be able to identify that you are just having an OCD attack
I like your poem :) Owning the ocd... I try to think of how absurd ocd is and laugh at it, distancing myself from it. Humor has helped alot. I have scrupulosity and aggression obsessions, so I try to remember that there are no good or bad thoughts, only good or bad actions. Even though I can't control my thoughts, I CAN control my actions. Then I know I won't hurt anyone. :) Also, it helps to remember that I'm not alone in this. Bless you OCDeeva, and stay strong my fellow ocd peeps!
Definately that is good advice and was part of my recovery and therapy, the process of recognising there are no good or bad thoughts only actions and that we all have all kinds of odd thoughts, it's human to think of all kinds of things. Some just pop in your head and some you ponder but that it's what you actually DO that counts. Thoughts harm no one. very helpful comment thank you for contributing xx
I'm having a very hard day, and it was nice to see a different side of OCD, it was nice to think of my owning it and it not owning me for a change. Thank you and bless you. You made an extremely tough OCD day more bearable.
wow what an amazing compliment! Thank you so much what you said makes what happened to me feel worth something if it has at all helped you x all the best, you're more than an illness. OCD is but a facet of who you are, there are so many wonderful aspects of your character that far outweigh the presence of your OCD. If you have an outlet such as writing poems, songs, painting or keeping a diary of your feelings this can be very therapeutic and productive. thank you so much & all the best xx
hey, remember me? Ha, I guess all you'd have to do is look at the comment I'm replying to. But anyway, I just wanted to let you know that in the last year I've gotten a lot of help with my OCD and I'm doing just great. It barely bothers me at all anymore, and if you're still struggling I hope you are staying strong. It doesn't have to last forever. Well, I guess I just wanted to let you know that you played a role in my recovery, so for that, many thanks.
I am doing really well thanks I just got a new job today but your comment is better news! I am more happy to hear you are getting on okay and that I helped someone x what an amazing day! your progress is all down to your incredible strength and effort but thanks so much for including me xxxx
good to hear that you are on top of it I do believe that therapy helps. It helped me a lot. Sometimes it gets hard still. It can be hard at work if there is stress and I am aware that not only am I under normal pressure but also the pressure of keeping my OCD from showing up at work. I am aware that it is hard for non ocds to understand truly how it works but hearing all these responses helps me also because I'm not the only one who struggles sometimes. And we are all doing okay xx
Made me cry, I feel better to know other people go through the same as me.
I had therapy for 2 years... but stopped last year, now it's getting worse, but I have God to help me through, and hopefully my faith will help me pull through.
Thank you very much, i hope it might give others hope that there is a way to manage. Prob many ways as there is more than one way to climb a mountain but this works for me most of the time x
Damn I hate being O.C.D sufferer. No one knows I have but me and I'm too afraid to tell anyone. It consumes my life and just destroys my spirtual life. Every almost 3 seconds I must pray because of a morally incorrect thought I had. I pray upto 80 times a day. I feel as if I'm going to die.
I used to feel this way. My obsessions made me think I was evil so I did not talk about what they were and I shut myself away and did not leave the house without my mum for 3 years. I made myself stay awake all night long and would only sleep when she was awake and in the house cos I was scared I would hurt someone even in my sleep. I was scared I could harm someone by hurting them whilst sleep waliking. I did not believe when I woke up that I had not left the house. It was terrible.
Things got better for me once I told my doctor.remember that your words will sound very familiar to a doctor & not weird, and they will notice that what you tell them is obviously symptoms of OCD. They will prob find you a councillor and suggest CBT which is very helpful though hard going. Well worth it though. It does not have to stay this hard, Try to talk to your doctor they WILL recognise the illness for what it is and not judge you. Best wishes x You are not a bad person you are not alone x
So true,,, I really like your poem,, I have OCD for a long time, and is really curious how many people share the same obsessions is like if they are written in our genes or something,, the thing with color black and red, pair and odd, hands cleaning, lines in the floor, several touchings, ways of walking or holding and repeating phrases that contradict something you have said in you mind. Thanks for the video
I know what you mean about similarities. I think personality has a big impact on the illness too and the kinds of obsessions and compulsions so I guess as much as there are so many things in common with another person at the same time there can be vast differences. I think a person's individual past effects the thoughts too. The thoughts are prob most different and the compulsions/rituals most similar. Different beginning/same ending. odd, I know.
thank you for your message. It is a quirky thing as I never knew of OCD til after I started showing symptoms so it just shows how we are all similar even when our brains don't work 100% healthily. it just begins of it's own accord with no outside influence. And then miles across the globe there is someone else with the same lifestyle. tis puzzling.
Well I can only comment from my own experience but I would definitely say yes. OCD is classed as an anxiety disorder. generally the thoughts cause anxiety that the rituals temporarily relieve. but I found that the compulsions/rituals resulted in just as much anxiety as the obsessions/thoughts by the time I was doing them 24hrs a day/7 days a week- it took over my life. I also get anxious without OCD symptoms. But as I am also very symptom free now, this lessens my anxiety anyway.
Well I'm glad you are symptom free,yet from your last comment you state your anxiety was lessoned.So is the anxiety from your OCD or visa versa?No I'm not doing a study as I suffer from Anxiety/Stress disorder and my friend is OCD so we make a great pair...LOL
thank you ever so much for the compliment. It is really great that your brother has your support because it will give him extra strength all the best x
good video. i am 24 and have had OCD since i was about 15 but was not properly diagnosed till i was 20.
remember all u OCD sufferers that no ritual or compulsion will properly relieve anxiety, it has to come down by itself. Once a fear is faced and the anxiety has gone, the compulsion to perform rituals will vanish. The more anxiety you can handle the sooner your OCD will lose its grip. Don't fight OCD, let it be part of you and remember you need to experience the anxiety to get better.
Read 2nd: As long as u have the goal in life to be compassionate and grow wiser from your experiences u should be proud of yourself always :)...it's neat to have people like u in this world
OCDeeva...what a neat poem...really...I have OCD and have been suffering from it since I was 6 years old. I finally discovered my obsessive ways when I was 18 years old...It's very true that a person w/ OCD has to welcome their intrusive acts or thoughts because that's what provides comfort and relief..."To want to forget is to think of it"
I came across this video while searching the topic of Panic Attacks. I used to have OCD/Anxiety/Panic Attacks since I was a child. After being COMPLETELY free for years the panic attacks have come back in full force. However, I'm baffled--but thankful--as to why the OCD has not come back. I'm starting to suspect all these things have some sort of physicality involved with them.
It's very interesting to read this point of view. I can only speak from my own experience but in my case my ocd came from surpressing emotional pain. It sort of processed through me in a self hatred way via the obsessions and also the compulsions 'reset' my thoughts at the time to shut it all out. I hope your panic attacks get better x
Thank you very much for your post. The more people post the better I feel about having OCD too so thank you because when mine plays up I feel less alone x
Hey there - I really like your poem and video - it's quite interesting to see others views on ocd - I have been suffering from ocd for quite some time - and I would just like to say to "Psalm 130" - she did not say that ocd was just about washing hands - it affects different people in different ways and this video is about ocdeeva's obsessions and compulsions not yours....
Like my child refers to not putting yourself down and being kinder to yourself. It doesn't help the symptoms to be attcking yourself as the obsessions damage your self esteem enough.
Don't read so much into my username it's not a case of showing off it's because I do videos about ocd and also I like music. I'm not ashamed of my illness and I am proud to have overcome so much.
Hi there, thanks for your comment. I would say that it is possible that you have a symptom of OCD.Generally, a person is not classed as having the disorder unless it is seriously taking over and effecting their quality of life. May I ask if you have any other rituals or patterned behaviours? If so then depending on how much they effect your life, you may have a mild case of OCD. Hope this helps :)
There is more to OCD then washing hands. Give me a break. Its a continuous mental nightmare and prison that is multi-dimensional. Many rituals and obsessive thoughts.
It is true I have had many more compulsions and obsessions than handwashing and checking but it has been a big feature and I wanted to be real. I understand everything you have said but this is only the first video about it I have made and I have many other aspects I wish to show over time. This video is a window showing a glimpse of my life and I am showing my life, yours will of course be different as we are all indiviuals.
Hey, would just like to say that if anyone has any questions regarding OCD, I would be happy to give feedback regarding my own experiences and I would love to hear other people's experiences too as afterall, as the old saying goes: "A problem shared is a problem halved."
Great video--it made me cry! I have OCD too, and I think this is a great outlook to have about it.
subtlefighter 2 months ago
thank you
zdun776 4 months ago
this is amazing, thank you
OneTheOX 4 months ago
I love it! Thank you so much! I favorited your video!
itzjustsarah 1 year ago
@itzjustsarah thank u x
OCDeeva 1 year ago
beautiful... i have an OCD about being late, we could be 20 minutes early getting somewhere but i'd still worry the whole time. If we ever are late, i'm almost at tears but like u i'm going to try to get use it because it's part of me :)
SarraShepherd 1 year ago
@SarraShepherd yeah I get like that sometimes the night b4 a big meeting as I travel around a lot and it would be awful if I missed my train.
OCDeeva 1 year ago
This is amazing, you captured it so well.
cicimalone 1 year ago
@cicimalone thank you so much x
OCDeeva 1 year ago
Gave me shivers lol you do learn to live with it.
jameswil 1 year ago
@jameswil this is true, especially if you work out why you need to do the compulsions, this helps to reduce the obsessions too.
OCDeeva 1 year ago
beautiful
EltonAdduciBros 1 year ago
@EltonAdduciBros thank you for your compliment :)
OCDeeva 1 year ago
A great strategy and attitude towards OCD
EnglishTeacherSamast 1 year ago
@EnglishTeacherSamast it woeks for me :) I hope it will be of help to other sufferers and their loved ones
OCDeeva 1 year ago
@EnglishTeacherSamast it works for me :) I hope it will be of help to other sufferers and their loved ones
OCDeeva 1 year ago
this made me cry...i am in a crisis now...as i always am but this made me feel a little better going back to bed now..i just want sleep again!
fiokimon 1 year ago
@fiokimon hope that things are a bit better for you now x
OCDeeva 1 year ago
Hey, I just wanted to say this poem touched me sooo much that I cried. My mum runs a support group in our local area for OCD sufferers. I was wondering if you would be ok with me posting this on her site for others to see? I have posted it for now but one word from you and I will put it down.
Your poem really touched me it was beautiful.
x
Vixenspirit 1 year ago
@Vixenspirit that's fine am glad it is of help xx
OCDeeva 1 year ago
:')
CheRagazza 1 year ago
@CheRagazza :)
OCDeeva 1 year ago
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daewon07 2 years ago
Really nice. It definately captures the feelings that I deal with in accepting how OCD fits into my life. Thanks for posting and take care :)
WildflowerTree 2 years ago
@WildflowerTree thank you and you take care too
OCDeeva 1 year ago
Great video you have inspired me to start writing about my OCD and things like that, which I've always wanted to do just never started.
Beautiful poem, so much meaning and emotion in it. Thank you for the video it helped me and good luck to you
1mb0123d 2 years ago
@1mb0123d writing will help your OCD, the mind is a conveyor belt and when it gets stuck that's OCD. So if you keep rolling your worries out of your head this will be very thereputic. Writing is a very effective way of doing this.
OCDeeva 1 year ago
I really like this poem.. Actually, my OCD isn't that bad as it used to be. A few weeks ago, my doctor said it was evolving into OCPD, a disorder which isn't as bad as OCD in my eyes..
Fluffsel 2 years ago
@Fluffsel thank you for your compliment, am glad your OCD feels better
OCDeeva 1 year ago
hey this video kinda made me feel better :)
hopefully it will help me completely stop my OCD.
thankss
iHarout 2 years ago
glad it has helped you some x things always get better and nothing ever stays the same but OCD is tiring and requires a lot of effort to shake. It can be done xxx
OCDeeva 2 years ago
hey guys how are you all x am doing okay new job means plenty of food for worry and doubt but staying on top. It's amazing how a persons judgement or how they phrase something can make me feel like I have done something wrong and like im a bad person, do any of you feel like this when with people you dont know very well?
OCDeeva 2 years ago
People can be very judgemental in their ignorance. I've learned that one should never take a person's comments too seriously, especially when they know very little about you as a person. People play control games, especially in the work place, and it takes time to know who you can trust. Be true to yourself, and respect others, and you will shine outwardly, and those who are cruel & insensitive always get their due. Have faith, for the Lord sees all, but takes His time in judging hurtful people.
exposfan77 2 years ago
Touching. thanx and good luck to u:)
Nuitdejour 2 years ago
still thinking of you all and hoping your okay x am really busy but never too busy to check in with you all 'family'.
can every one try to deliberately do one kind thing for someone else this week?
the more compassion in the world the beta x
OCDeeva 2 years ago
got offered another job, my dream job x so just wanted to let you all know that life has ups and downs and sometimes you feel like it will never get better but keep on trying and it does! don't give up x i got out of that bad situation and changed my environment to change my feelings x and am glad i did not give up x
OCDeeva 2 years ago
fab poem, thanx
da2ma2 2 years ago
thank you xxx
OCDeeva 2 years ago
hi guys have tried hard to stay positive and its working things are getting better my bf and me are really close and i have had some great job interviews x dont ever lose your hope or give up the fight x
OCDeeva 2 years ago
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OCDeeva 2 years ago
Hi everyone. Have resigned from my job where I was being isolated by two members of staff. My manager was oblivious to it so this caused my depression. My OCD is under control and It is hard but not impossible. I am at rock bottom but I have been there before and there is only one direction left to go. UP. Am fighting the good fight. Thinking of you all xxxx I hope that my honesty will show it's up and it's down but in the end I will be okay and so will all of you.
OCDeeva 2 years ago
thats where you have gone wrong straight away its not yours it should be cast out like a stranger otherwise it will never leave you i know this to well as i have been there and come out the other end
yahwahslilgirl 2 years ago
Everyone lives there life differently and thats how it should be. But perhaps you should open your mind to there being more than one way to have OCD. I am trying to say that if you pay attention to your OCD you can address the real issue that is bothering you and deal with your life in a non OCD way. A bit like listening to a baby when it cries. Work out what triggered your thoughts or behaviours. Behind something unreal there lies something real when it comes to the origin of OCD symptoms.
OCDeeva 2 years ago
wtf???
Roflcoptinator 3 years ago
well there's a thought provoking comment.
OCDeeva 2 years ago
just to say hope you are all okay out there. Have been on anti deps now for 6 weeks and they have really helped. feel much more on top of the depression. feel like myself. don't feel numbed in anyway. it was definately depression not true ocd this time. was very different but there were simalarities. it has a been a confusing time.
OCDeeva 3 years ago
So it turns out it is not OCD causing the probs this time, it's depression. Have not suffered with this before. The reason I mistook it for OCD was because it is caunsing dark obsessions. I am on an antidepressant and it is helping and I am learning to manage but it has been the toughest faze since my OCD was bad. I am putting together a video in the hopes some of you will relate and feel less alone.
OCDeeva 3 years ago
do you have a boyfriend because i think you are pretty smart and good-looking
tantockseng90 3 years ago
bless you for your compliment you have put a big smile on my face but yes, I am seeing someone special :)
OCDeeva 3 years ago
that being your psychiatrist?
cheeseburger1990 3 years ago
One day you will require understanding from another human being and you may feel guilty about such stupid comments. Your name cheese burger fits perfectly as both you and your namesake are full of rubbish.
OCDeeva 3 years ago
If that was a joke it wasn't succesful.. Insulting maybe. But if you really meant that you should sound an alarm, mostly to the women who suffer from this desease, because more men have the tendency to look their patients in a sexual manner, than women. A great psychiatrist once said; A phychiatrist must have his pockets full of money and he/she should have enjoyed all the sex they could get, meaning that when a patient goes in the room you mustn't look at him as money or as a sex object.
douskara 3 years ago
Hi, my ocd has been playing up in the last few weeks. Wondered if anyone out there gets obsessions about people they love harming them? Usually it's the other way around for me.
OCDeeva 3 years ago
i constantly worry i may accidently hurt someone i love. and if i'm not worrying about that i worry something might harm them or me. unless i carry out my rittuals. my ocd has been on top of me lately. i know how you feel. good luck.
bobdigi88 3 years ago
thanks so much for your honesty and support it helps when I have my glitches.
OCDeeva 3 years ago
people suffering with OCD often obtain obsessions that loved ones are trying to harm them, or that they will somehow harm another person. It is not true though. This is a false message from your brain. It is not important, it is just your OCD lying to you. When you have these bizzarre thoughts, try talking to someone who knows what you are going through, they will be able to identify that you are just having an OCD attack
good luck
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LargoWii 3 years ago
thankyou for sharing your poem, it means deeper, to others, than you know. courage, determination, strength mixed in with a bit of love. find peace
pianokarl 3 years ago
thank you for such a heartfelt message to us all x
OCDeeva 3 years ago
Thank you very much for your words, the kindness means so much.
OCDeeva 3 years ago
I like your poem :) Owning the ocd... I try to think of how absurd ocd is and laugh at it, distancing myself from it. Humor has helped alot. I have scrupulosity and aggression obsessions, so I try to remember that there are no good or bad thoughts, only good or bad actions. Even though I can't control my thoughts, I CAN control my actions. Then I know I won't hurt anyone. :) Also, it helps to remember that I'm not alone in this. Bless you OCDeeva, and stay strong my fellow ocd peeps!
TwitchDoctorP 3 years ago 2
Definately that is good advice and was part of my recovery and therapy, the process of recognising there are no good or bad thoughts only actions and that we all have all kinds of odd thoughts, it's human to think of all kinds of things. Some just pop in your head and some you ponder but that it's what you actually DO that counts. Thoughts harm no one. very helpful comment thank you for contributing xx
OCDeeva 3 years ago
i luve this video it me cry i have ond and absolutely agree ith you thx so much!
bball7chick7779 3 years ago
thank you very much that is a really sweet comment x
OCDeeva 3 years ago
I'm having a very hard day, and it was nice to see a different side of OCD, it was nice to think of my owning it and it not owning me for a change. Thank you and bless you. You made an extremely tough OCD day more bearable.
pdlbean 3 years ago 2
wow what an amazing compliment! Thank you so much what you said makes what happened to me feel worth something if it has at all helped you x all the best, you're more than an illness. OCD is but a facet of who you are, there are so many wonderful aspects of your character that far outweigh the presence of your OCD. If you have an outlet such as writing poems, songs, painting or keeping a diary of your feelings this can be very therapeutic and productive. thank you so much & all the best xx
OCDeeva 3 years ago
hey, remember me? Ha, I guess all you'd have to do is look at the comment I'm replying to. But anyway, I just wanted to let you know that in the last year I've gotten a lot of help with my OCD and I'm doing just great. It barely bothers me at all anymore, and if you're still struggling I hope you are staying strong. It doesn't have to last forever. Well, I guess I just wanted to let you know that you played a role in my recovery, so for that, many thanks.
pdlbean 2 years ago
I am doing really well thanks I just got a new job today but your comment is better news! I am more happy to hear you are getting on okay and that I helped someone x what an amazing day! your progress is all down to your incredible strength and effort but thanks so much for including me xxxx
OCDeeva 2 years ago
this is beautiful...thanks for the support
I suffer from it too :(..in a milder form, but I do, and thanks to therapy I stopped its developpment
Lichtderholle666 3 years ago
good to hear that you are on top of it I do believe that therapy helps. It helped me a lot. Sometimes it gets hard still. It can be hard at work if there is stress and I am aware that not only am I under normal pressure but also the pressure of keeping my OCD from showing up at work. I am aware that it is hard for non ocds to understand truly how it works but hearing all these responses helps me also because I'm not the only one who struggles sometimes. And we are all doing okay xx
OCDeeva 3 years ago
That was beautiful.
Made me cry, I feel better to know other people go through the same as me.
I had therapy for 2 years... but stopped last year, now it's getting worse, but I have God to help me through, and hopefully my faith will help me pull through.
Best of luck to everyone. <33
HeartRAWR 3 years ago
that is so helpful thankyou, it's brilliant for me to be able to see how other people control this.
pinkAndromada 3 years ago
Thank you very much, i hope it might give others hope that there is a way to manage. Prob many ways as there is more than one way to climb a mountain but this works for me most of the time x
OCDeeva 3 years ago
Great poem..
=D
dalejrfan12 3 years ago
Thank you so much :)
OCDeeva 3 years ago
Damn I hate being O.C.D sufferer. No one knows I have but me and I'm too afraid to tell anyone. It consumes my life and just destroys my spirtual life. Every almost 3 seconds I must pray because of a morally incorrect thought I had. I pray upto 80 times a day. I feel as if I'm going to die.
rahulpaley2 3 years ago
I used to feel this way. My obsessions made me think I was evil so I did not talk about what they were and I shut myself away and did not leave the house without my mum for 3 years. I made myself stay awake all night long and would only sleep when she was awake and in the house cos I was scared I would hurt someone even in my sleep. I was scared I could harm someone by hurting them whilst sleep waliking. I did not believe when I woke up that I had not left the house. It was terrible.
OCDeeva 3 years ago
Things got better for me once I told my doctor.remember that your words will sound very familiar to a doctor & not weird, and they will notice that what you tell them is obviously symptoms of OCD. They will prob find you a councillor and suggest CBT which is very helpful though hard going. Well worth it though. It does not have to stay this hard, Try to talk to your doctor they WILL recognise the illness for what it is and not judge you. Best wishes x You are not a bad person you are not alone x
OCDeeva 3 years ago
So true,,, I really like your poem,, I have OCD for a long time, and is really curious how many people share the same obsessions is like if they are written in our genes or something,, the thing with color black and red, pair and odd, hands cleaning, lines in the floor, several touchings, ways of walking or holding and repeating phrases that contradict something you have said in you mind. Thanks for the video
Jhonythepolish 3 years ago
I know what you mean about similarities. I think personality has a big impact on the illness too and the kinds of obsessions and compulsions so I guess as much as there are so many things in common with another person at the same time there can be vast differences. I think a person's individual past effects the thoughts too. The thoughts are prob most different and the compulsions/rituals most similar. Different beginning/same ending. odd, I know.
OCDeeva 3 years ago
thank you for your message. It is a quirky thing as I never knew of OCD til after I started showing symptoms so it just shows how we are all similar even when our brains don't work 100% healthily. it just begins of it's own accord with no outside influence. And then miles across the globe there is someone else with the same lifestyle. tis puzzling.
OCDeeva 3 years ago
This is amazing...I have OCD too.
really touching =]
x
KittyKat1359 3 years ago
Thank you very much that is very sweet, best wishes am glad it was of use x
OCDeeva 3 years ago
ok I have a question. Do OCD sufferers also suffer from anxiety?
SonofBrighid 3 years ago
Well I can only comment from my own experience but I would definitely say yes. OCD is classed as an anxiety disorder. generally the thoughts cause anxiety that the rituals temporarily relieve. but I found that the compulsions/rituals resulted in just as much anxiety as the obsessions/thoughts by the time I was doing them 24hrs a day/7 days a week- it took over my life. I also get anxious without OCD symptoms. But as I am also very symptom free now, this lessens my anxiety anyway.
OCDeeva 3 years ago
Well I'm glad you are symptom free,yet from your last comment you state your anxiety was lessoned.So is the anxiety from your OCD or visa versa?No I'm not doing a study as I suffer from Anxiety/Stress disorder and my friend is OCD so we make a great pair...LOL
SonofBrighid 3 years ago
yes they do...at least i sure do. So much so that sometimes i go off and bawl...:(
Emilyheartshim 3 years ago
This is a brilliant video my brother has ocd this is well, put. all the best to you
lizzyjane1988 3 years ago
thank you ever so much for the compliment. It is really great that your brother has your support because it will give him extra strength all the best x
OCDeeva 3 years ago
I have OCD also, I really like this..
=D
dalejrfan12 3 years ago
thank you very much and all the best x
OCDeeva 3 years ago
Lovely. Thanks.
crismalcolm 3 years ago
Thank you for watching my vid and for commenting :)
OCDeeva 3 years ago
Very Touching A REAL and Heartfelt Poem!
DreamweaverJames2008 4 years ago
Thank you very much for your words I am glad you liked it :)
OCDeeva 3 years ago
good video. i am 24 and have had OCD since i was about 15 but was not properly diagnosed till i was 20.
remember all u OCD sufferers that no ritual or compulsion will properly relieve anxiety, it has to come down by itself. Once a fear is faced and the anxiety has gone, the compulsion to perform rituals will vanish. The more anxiety you can handle the sooner your OCD will lose its grip. Don't fight OCD, let it be part of you and remember you need to experience the anxiety to get better.
pete45764576 4 years ago
Thank you for your post. I would agree 100% with what you said as this is how I have managed to relieve 95% of my compulsive behaviours.
OCDeeva 4 years ago
Read 2nd: As long as u have the goal in life to be compassionate and grow wiser from your experiences u should be proud of yourself always :)...it's neat to have people like u in this world
yourgrandma2 4 years ago
OCDeeva...what a neat poem...really...I have OCD and have been suffering from it since I was 6 years old. I finally discovered my obsessive ways when I was 18 years old...It's very true that a person w/ OCD has to welcome their intrusive acts or thoughts because that's what provides comfort and relief..."To want to forget is to think of it"
yourgrandma2 4 years ago
nice work, by owning not hating our mental unhealth many of us cope with our condition. ocd sucks but it is the companion of those who have it.
ocvj 4 years ago
That's very well put, that's certainly how I feel about it x
OCDeeva 4 years ago
I came across this video while searching the topic of Panic Attacks. I used to have OCD/Anxiety/Panic Attacks since I was a child. After being COMPLETELY free for years the panic attacks have come back in full force. However, I'm baffled--but thankful--as to why the OCD has not come back. I'm starting to suspect all these things have some sort of physicality involved with them.
TheMoney28 4 years ago
It's very interesting to read this point of view. I can only speak from my own experience but in my case my ocd came from surpressing emotional pain. It sort of processed through me in a self hatred way via the obsessions and also the compulsions 'reset' my thoughts at the time to shut it all out. I hope your panic attacks get better x
OCDeeva 4 years ago
this is beautiful i have ocd to thank you for letting me know I AM NOT ALONE
crikeysteverules 4 years ago
Thank you very much for your post. The more people post the better I feel about having OCD too so thank you because when mine plays up I feel less alone x
OCDeeva 4 years ago
Hey there - I really like your poem and video - it's quite interesting to see others views on ocd - I have been suffering from ocd for quite some time - and I would just like to say to "Psalm 130" - she did not say that ocd was just about washing hands - it affects different people in different ways and this video is about ocdeeva's obsessions and compulsions not yours....
ebionii 4 years ago
Thank you very much for your words they are very kind and for your support it means so much to me :)
OCDeeva 4 years ago
I think your totally giving out the wrong message.
''Like my child'' WTF? Your meant to be getting rid of the disorder, not 'looking after it'
OCDeeva
Its like your trying to show off your illness by having this username?
FrostedLlama 4 years ago
Like my child refers to not putting yourself down and being kinder to yourself. It doesn't help the symptoms to be attcking yourself as the obsessions damage your self esteem enough.
Don't read so much into my username it's not a case of showing off it's because I do videos about ocd and also I like music. I'm not ashamed of my illness and I am proud to have overcome so much.
OCDeeva 4 years ago
Hi there, thanks for your comment. I would say that it is possible that you have a symptom of OCD.Generally, a person is not classed as having the disorder unless it is seriously taking over and effecting their quality of life. May I ask if you have any other rituals or patterned behaviours? If so then depending on how much they effect your life, you may have a mild case of OCD. Hope this helps :)
OCDeeva 4 years ago
There is more to OCD then washing hands. Give me a break. Its a continuous mental nightmare and prison that is multi-dimensional. Many rituals and obsessive thoughts.
Psalm130 4 years ago
It is true I have had many more compulsions and obsessions than handwashing and checking but it has been a big feature and I wanted to be real. I understand everything you have said but this is only the first video about it I have made and I have many other aspects I wish to show over time. This video is a window showing a glimpse of my life and I am showing my life, yours will of course be different as we are all indiviuals.
OCDeeva 4 years ago
Hi, um i think i have it, everytime i turn my computer off i click the mouse about 4 times then i go away then come back again, do i have it?
Mazza4Azza 4 years ago
Hey, would just like to say that if anyone has any questions regarding OCD, I would be happy to give feedback regarding my own experiences and I would love to hear other people's experiences too as afterall, as the old saying goes: "A problem shared is a problem halved."
OCDeeva 4 years ago