Toast And Tea ~ Kai Williams - Original song about Social Phobia

[SakiJune]

Here I am again XD I can totally understand you, really. I've been suffering these disorders since I was fourteen. After three years I've began taking meds, but in the meantime I had to quit high school. All I could do was writing, reading, listening to music and crying over myself.

I am almost thirty now and I feel a little better, but anxiety is still part of me.

About the line "facing the crowds with this mess of a face": your face is not a mess, you are absolutely beautiful. And gifted.

[DIVAKaiWilliams]

@SakiJune I was 14 when my troubles really escalated as well. I left school and like you listened to music.. Made the mistake of not doing any reading or writing. I was in what felt like this safe little bubble for many years although it was extremely suffocating & damaging.

Thank you soo much SakiJune. You've made me soo happy. Ive always had very low self esteem because of how others have treated me. That line in the song relates to how I felt at my worst moments.

[Samblix]

Great song Kai. Next time you want to talk, I'm here. I know I'm a drag queen but I can listen. X

[DIVAKaiWilliams]

@Samblix Thank you dear Sam!! x

[singingkid]

Absolutely brilliant, Kai! 5 stars, and favourited! :)

[DIVAKaiWilliams]

@singingkid Thank you soo much Greg :~)

[otacon7522]

This is amazing.... just amazing. I applaud your honesty. I know it's not easy to share something like this but I'm so happy you have. This is beautiful and very emotional/

[DIVAKaiWilliams]

@otacon7522 Thank you Cara! It was kinda scary sharing this but my subscribers are soo lovely I know they wouldnt judge or mind haha :~) You are soo kind to me, thank you Cara!!

[splicer45]

Wow! Its not often that I'm speechless Kai! "Facing the crowds with this mess of a face" is a truly brilliant line,there is something hauntingly beautiful about this song,and in my humble opinion this is where I believe your true strength lies,as a singer/songwriter.

Its tough suffering from any kind of social disorder,but I think you are to be commended for turning it into something creative..sometimes we can only face our harshest demons in our music! Check out my song halo,on my channel :)

[DIVAKaiWilliams]

@splicer45 Songwriting is what ive always wanted to do. For the longest time, I felt hopeless and that id never be able to write songs because id left it too late but thanks to your encouragment and others, im actually doing it now!

Thank you soo, soo much Splicer! It's true what you say. Music is such an easy way to face demons. I found it such a release writing this song. If I didnt have my problems then I wouldnt have my passion for song and music now.