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  • Working with women makes me suicidal, no joke. Women are so fucking depressing.

  • Why does it mean anything to know that there are other suicidal depressed people out there? It doesn't surprise me there are other people out there that feel like that. What surprises me is that EVERYONE doesn't feel like that. Lets here from the ones that don't. They obviously have some miracle cure.

  • Thanks for sharing this. Your alcohol withdrawal reminds me of my own. I feel really tense and shaky while I'm trying to stop drinking so I really noticed how you feel. Hope you're doing well.

  • Thank-you for your truths. I can see this is difficult for you. Maybe if you took-up a light physical work-out routine....that might buy you some serotonin, thus lighten your load.

  • im depressed and use alcohol and had suicide atempts

  • thank u man i Admire your courage

  • I feel for you man. I am going through alcoholic depression too. You aren't alone mate.

  • Nice to hear from somone going through the same as me. Cant shake it at the min, if I had the money I would just either drink myself to death or try another overdose..Fucking hate life!

  • @Blayzer2002 feel the same

  • HEY I AM DOING A VIDEO JOURNAL ON GIVING UP ALCOHOL, SO CHECK IT OUT IF YOU DO ANOTHER VIDEO SOON. MUCH LOVE XX

  • the last time i didn't have a drink was 12-23-06, i was in rehab then. i started a new job but shake so back, everyone notices. it's really difficult to go anywhere, or be around anyone. today i missed work, not a day goes by i don't think about ending it. i'm stuck in this cycle, and i don't know how to get out of it. bobby

  • Keep going. You can do it. I Am three weeks sober now and with God's strength i am finally seeing the light. It is a tough battle but you can do it. I highly recommend AA meeting. They have saved my life.

  • trying ..................... tired of it!

  • One day we will find a place of eternal peace. ...

  • I am still strugling with this addiction. It is a horrible disease. I understand how you feel. There are days when I just want to jump off a bridge. I went to alcohol couselling. It failed. I was drinking a bottle of wine a day and am struggling to stay sober. My life is in shambles. I am barely holding on to my job doing what I don't want to be doing. Good luck brother. We are all in this together.

  • @progressive59 making tomorrow day 1 for me. dont drink all the time but need change

  • yeah alcohol and depression seem to go hand in hand I've been diagnosed with many different forms of anxiety, depression, and phobias. While I was in rehab. It sucks. I fell of the wagon and am 4 days sober from a crippling 2 week bender. The day I decided to stop drinking, it was like deja vu liquor bottles everywhere, house in shambles, hygene gone to hell. went through a terrible withdrawl period, for 4 days and am still dehydrated. I'm hoping tomorrow I'll be back to "normal."

  • Make some new friends, bro. Depression is contagious.

  • ther will be good comments and bad people who dont understand will never understand but you are in no way alone x

  • the strangest things happen in life and and i think a lot of u to do thisx

  • i dont khow u and i suffer bad but its just a way of thinking hang on pls xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  • I greatly appreciate your candid discussion. I, too have been dealing with depression from a young age, who has also been fighting substance abuse. You are not alone. I see my potential, but am fighting to realize it. We do not have to live with this. G-d bless you and your life. Anymore than a week and it becomes incredibly difficult for me. Hang in there, and please message me should you have a need to talk.

  • Good video. You seem like a good nice guy. People cant understand depression if they dont go through it. I certainly understand it myself being 31 and never having a girlfriend. I have feelings of hopeless and insecurities. I understand why people commit suicide because they want to be out of their misery and I am often in misery. But I think of the people who care about me which prevents me from doing so. Good luck. Hope your doing well.

  • Hi man , im really know how it feels having depression and nobody around you , help you, im alcoholic too, and porn addict. I was abused as a child too. The only thing we can do is tell the world depression is a real disease, and could lead people to addictions as a copy mechanism to deal with it.

  • atleast your getting help. fk you daddy.....

  • @gVoiceify03

    Hey man life is very hard. I am temporarily handicapped for another couple of months. I've suffered a lot throughout my life. I have no friends and I'm alone all day. I haven't talked to anyone outside my family for a couple months. Everything feels like shit. I had a horrible childhood and I had mental issues. I'm suffering right now but we have to keep pushing forward man don't give up. Don't start alcohol or anything. Keep going because I am. Education is what keeps me going.

  • Hey buddy just seeing how ur currently doing?

  • Thanks for sharing this

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  • Right now is hard. Thanks for this man. 

  • Republicunts are greedy bastards!

  • To be afraid of death is to be araid of life! In death you feel nothing and in life you feel all!

  • Alcohol and drug abuse is caused by extreme stress in some cases and heredity in others!

    People must have an outlet to battle this problem! God bless all of you going through this! I love each and every one of you!

  • Stay strong always.x

  • Such a touching video. So sorry to hear about the dull grey over everything, sounded bleak. I understand the drinking, a very socially acceptable coping strategy which only makes depression worse, since alcohol is a depressant. Sounds like Mum dealt with it as best she could then went to hospital, Dad dealt with her depression and maybe his (linked) feelings of inadequacy and helplessness by drinking. Makes sense - lose yourself. Confusing for a child maybe? Wishing you all the best

  • How you going now buddy? hope your on the mend. I never use to drink till I was about 21 then found it gave me release from my depression and anxiety ( social) plus I'm gay so that didn't help with my drinking, and I'm 43 now so its a wonder I'm not dead as I have been drinking a six pack a day also on average, sometimes a lot more, I have not gone more then a week in the last 22 years without drinking, I get postive about stopping then when something goes wrong I go for a drink :(

  • I wish you the best. I've been dealing with depression/anxiety/anger issues my entire life, so I can relate to some of what you're going through. Alcohol is the absolute worst thing you can do...get some benzos, weed, but please don't drink. You seem like a genuinely nice guy, so I'm definitely pulling for you.

  • Listen we are all afucked. Look to the universe and you see that we cling to a speck of dust inside of an explosion. Looking to the past and projecting the future odds say its impossible to think that this rock we cling to will survive very long in the intergalactic game of frogger. We will collide and like throwing dust on a beach the slate is wiped clean. How will we escape? were gunna blast off into the ......yea ok..and for what. Just quite taking this so seriously thats all there is 2it

  • It's a hell of a thing isn't it (depression). I've suffered much but there are still good times. I doubt I could handle making a video like this so I thank you for doing it. It helps to hear your story.

  • youll be alright :) cheer up!

  • I am thankful to you for posting this.I'm a lot like yourself.I really hope all is working out for you.You are helping me survive at this moment.Thanks again!

  • Is that a beer in the back left of this video?

  • I just wanted to say that

    you are waaaaay cute. ;-)~

  • hey man. i just ran across your videos. I know this comment is years late, but I wanted to tell you I appreciate what you are saying. Yes, indeed there are others out here walking through the firestorm of drinking and depression. I just wanted to tell you I hope you are well and your videos have definately helped me. Thanks man.

  • in my 50s suffering from depression due to family reasons... iv nearly lost my apatite, i think all negative, i want to be alone.. i slowly going down a black hole that iv seen before... i cry allot, i think of death (but not to kill myself) i rarely laugh and things i used to.. i drink ... alcohol kills the pain for awhile... i get panic attacks.. my hands shake.. at times i want to snuggle under blankets and block the light and everyone out. that's my depression... and no one cares..

  • I know some years have passed since this video was posted

    But I know as well that it is painful to struggle and i'm holding on..

    I am myself a person who was struggling against s.h. and depression

    Now I breakdowns everyday, broken self esteem and insecurities.

    I can relate to some of your words, and some of them I must say they're wise.

    Anyways I do hope you're feeling better now

    Take care *

  • Hi mate dont worry im in the same boat 2

  • Left bottom screen....put it back.

  • RUInternational There is hope for the Hopeless that are struggling with depression. Reformers Unanimous is a faith-based addictions program. We maintain an 82% percent success rate! Check us out @Ruinternational.

  • I am one the of the worst alcoholics I have ever met. I do not drink everyday but when I do it is very scary. I completly blackout get violet. I am current going to head to my first treatment center next week. I am 19 years old alcholism runs through my family. My uncle killed him self when he was drunk. my untie died from her alcoholism and I am on the same path. I really hope this treatment works I want to better..

  • you know what some peole dont have a reason for livimg as some people wouldnt give a crap if they were gone. as well as having a disorder that prevents them from aceiveing their goals fas is somethimg i got from my mother and because of her i have limiations that i cant surpass thanks a lot fuckin drunk and addict

  • some people get fas and other problems from there mom thats one of the reasons why they want to die omg

  • alchol is bullshit i sufer from alcholism i have stop since 1 day i can tell you it feels beter when im not drunk i feel beter dont give up

  • just use marijuana to overcome your adiction its a medcine when you dont abuse trust me use marijuana even if its ilegal its still a medcine

  • @dumbtrooper I agree that pot is good medicine to overcome addiction. But the only reason it is bad is because it still connects you with a using lifestyle. I am a chronic pot smoker but sometimes when I cant find weed. I just deside to go to the liquor store because its right down the street, and i dont have to go through trouble to get it. That is societys fualt tho if pot was legal i wouldnt have that problem.

  • Have you ever thought that weed is illegal for a reason???

  • I feel your struggle and Im with you 100%. STAY STRONG! I struggle with everything you have talked about and I appreciate your video. Just remember what doesnt kill you..MAKES YOU STRONGER!!!!!

  • I just went to your channel and saw your last sign in was 4 months ago. I will keep my hopes up that you sign in soon and see all the latest comments since then. You made an impact on some people including me.

  • I"m not a self guru. I'm simply someone who wrote a book about my struggles with alcoholism and the underlying reason for it. My fears and insecurities. I've learned our thoughts can make a difference for the better in our lives, but I still use people, prayer, and hope to help me when needed. I'm not religious. I've just come to believe in a creator that gave us the ability to be happy. Helping others is one of the best ways to achieve it and your doing that with this video. I hope to see more.

  • God bless you.

  • "styxrockers2 your comments are truly ridiculous and you are just as vulnerable to alcoholism as anyone else on this planet,it is not being "lame",it is an addiction that is the truth plane and simple whether it happens that you drink every day or once a week it is still addiction and your comments are not valid at all.

  • You got balls, hang in there.

  • Sober since Oct 28, 2008. Never went to AA but I wont knock it either. Different strokes for different folks guys. Anyone with half a brain should realise this. Putting faith in a higher power works for some. Leave them be.

  • very wise

  • I am 46, and have been diagnosed with PTSD and severe depression. I can't seem to hang on to anyone. My boyfriend, once again stood me up and then gets angry at me because I am distant or sad. I have tried to kill myself at least 12 times, other higher power wants me to be around. So here I am depressed and still frightening the people who try to love me. The embarassment and guilt of being depressed never ends

  • I have been there - it's Hell. Please, please see your doctor - they can help. If anybody suggests that you do not take prescribed medication, turn and walk away from them immediately. They are perfectly safe and non-addictive, and in no way interfere with your sobriety. Depression happens when your serotonin levels become depleted, which happens to 1 in 4 people at some time in their live, and it is nothing to be ashamed of.

  • @godlessweasel I agree that it can help in the short run. My brother tried it long term and it did some damage. So by all means if your have too much on your plate, medicine can help you. But it should never be thought of as a cure. The cure is cognitive therapy and learning the power of thought and its influence on your life. I know this from personal experience

  • absolutely! short term meds for 6-9 months coupled with CT worked best for me, and there is a lot to be said for excercise too

  • a objective psichologist does a difference.

  • You have a lot of courage.

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  • my story is the same. depression has been around for all my life and i also started at 22. am drunk as we speak. just celebrated my 23rd brirthday and i still hate my life. uggh.

  • AA is a joke huh? I went from being a drunk bum who had nothing to being a sober person who has a home, a college education, a great job, a great family with a lot of responsibilities. I've known Christians as well as Buddhists, atheists and Satanists who are members of AA. Mickcrackers doesn't know anything about AA- nothing. I am 6 years sober by the way. What do you recommend mick?

  • you dumb ass. my dad was a alcoholic for 30 fucking years and is know sober why AA helped you know nothing dude im telling you

  • truth - there is a way out . yeshua mashiach. all these godless antichrist bum's are liar's. don't listen to them . Enter into your closet with true repentance and you will feel his presence . The word is all you need. and before you know it .you will be helping others. or you can keep on feeling sorry for yourself and die .Your choice.( Boy!! )God doesn't require human documentation he can read your mind (mind) ... And all thing's will be possible that fall in his will !! drunk man talking....

  • Yes, AA is a front for wacky religious bullshit...

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  • You have good insight into your illness. Im so glad you recognize alcoholism as a problem..that by itself shows you will do well in life. Have faith in life and good luck.

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  • the easy part is stopping, the hard part is staying stopped.

  • hmmm.. I'm reading these comments and there is a lot about God. Is AA a front for whacky religious bullshit?

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  • keep it up I am in the same place you are every day and besides the depression I have panic attacks not to down play anyone that doesnt have thosee at all they just suck wish I could find help I want to be here for my family but it gets hard at times. Hey thanks again for your honesty!!

  • hi there,

    I am 25 been a closet alcoholic for 6 years now. Finally gave in and admitted myself to rehab yesterday, am feeling positive right now for the first time in a long time. Will be hard but strength and courage will pull me through i know. We can beat this together. god bless

  • aa will help set you free Dramus. the rest is up to god if you ask humbly for help. i would be dead without AA and GOD. best

  • Dont go to AA. Its full of sick control freaks called sponsors, and they want you to hand your life over to their loony God. AA doesnt work - 95% failure rate.

    Try the other methods - they are more successful. Nicer people too.

  • nice one kid i,m going thru the same thing one day at a time

  • AA has a failure rating of 95 percent

  • @padude64 which makes it 5% more effective than everything else

  • @padude64 Those who dont try at all have a 100 percent failure rate.

  • Thanks for the upload man, it helps alot.

    Congradulation of 6 days sober btw :)

  • Vilift it really gave me what i need with my pill. i never thought it will be this great.

  • Thanks for this=)

  • It'd be good to hear from Dramus and see how he's doing.

  • You are not alone man....I am an alcoholic myself. The most horrible thing when you are addicted to alcohol is that you feel totally shit as fast you are sobering up. You cant enjoy the every-day things that other people do without have that little drink...

    The one thing that I have learn when i lived through the day-after abstinence is that God really do excist and that Jesus is the truth, the way and life....People may laugh when they read this but i dont give a shit.

  • You are a really beautiful, handsome and intelligent man and I hope you are doing better now because the world would be worse off without you x

  • When you come to the end of yourself and feel you don't know where to go, you gotta go to God. See, he gave you life and your life is not your own to take, that's a sin. God wants you to have a full abundant life and He loves you. Read His Word, it'll comfort you.

    I'll pray for you!

    God will get you through.

    God bless you!

  • Fuck god he dosen't exist.

  • Hope all gets better for you!

  • god bless you,its tough but with jesus things are possible.

  • Dramus00 i hope it gets better for you.

    please don't listen to rosa79106 because you will never be free

  • Say i have 8 beers,i hide an extra 6 beers without anybody knowing,so i know i can reach my level! if i run out i drink anything i can get my hands on ,even if i dont like it,i used to smoke marijuana 24/7 for about 9 years morniong till night,but now i drink,and ALOT! i live with depresseion major depression and a psychotic disorder every single day and it kills me!! i used to have friends ,but i havent had any friends or any female /sexual contact for about 5 years

  • Surrender, check into rehab, and get into AA immediately. It saved my life, and the nightmares will go away, I promise.

  • im 27! been very depressed for many years,and im pschotic at times paranoid,delusions,im on Antidepressants and Anti psychotics,i chain smoke have done for years! life is a struggle i feel so guilty beeing me,everyday kills me when i wake up!the only piece i have is when im wasted or asleep! even then i have nightmares,im drunk right now,i have had 11 cans of beer,just had an argument over my drinking ,but i still want more and i will drink more if i can which i will! i gave up marijuana.

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  • Its amazing how our own perceptions can differ from other peoples. I can see so much good and honestly in you. You can tell when someone is a champ. i hope you realise this

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  • You poor poor man, I know exactly how you feel mate, take care. S

  • Thank you for your experience, strength and hope. I have been diagnosed with bipolar II disorder and can relate to your experience. I understand.

  • I hope you are doing better now, anyone who talks shit is an asshole.

  • omg I was just looking through random youtube videos and yours just came up and I had to watch it. and I just feel for you and I want to cry and I hope that you are gettin better.. keep working at it....

  • Still at it and doing very well. Good woman and loving support from ones who know and love me are what is helping me . People like mr Head & Sholders Guy try to make others look smaller to look bigger to themselves. Bright side he wont have dandruff of the mouth ????? Laugh and keep sober people!

  • Thank you for your vid.. I think it helps others to know that they are not the only person going though this. Great advise; 'One day at a time'

  • dude post or log in, his site says no recent activity. come on man

  • ur so rite.u seem lik some1 i could talk 2

  • thank you very much for sharing

  • melanchony , ironie , sarkasm , masochism

  • im with you my frend im drinking rite now i have depresion to this medication ose not work id love to kill my self but i cant iv got 3 kids and wife and my home to and a nice as car i still have this crapion of deprsion you have got the same as me my frend

  • im dying from alcohol right now..

  • I think this video is a touching and real cry for the help that all us Alcoholics and Depressed people suffer everyday. I admire and agree with you man truly!!!! I suffer the same if not worse but fight to live everyday. I am fixing to attend my first AA meeting in yrs just to do all I can do to help myself before I let it take all I have left. Thanks for doing this for me and the others who suffer. KEEP AT IT !!!!!!!!!!

  • You are a COCK!! Someone puts a Video on here talking about their feelings and experiences with something that is everywhere and claiming lots of lives a year and all you have to say is that?! Shame on YOU! You are PATHETIC! Grow up and in future don't watch videos that obviously don't affect you.

  • Depression=dishonesty,stinking thinking etc etc,get to AA

  • sidecrank - your ignorant as hell. Maybe when someone you love kills themselves you will not be so troll-y.

  • me story is the same ive been drinkin every day for the past 3 months im 20, about 12 large cans of beer but my sides are beginin to hurt so i might stop. i went to the doctor last month and got a blood test and i have the liver of a 50 year old man

  • my mother passed it down to me aswell those fuckin cursed genes

  • every one can tell you "i know what your going through" i can tell you i still. am it is hard you dont want to think of nothing. no work no family not even of your self all you want to do is drink 15+ enough beer a day or anything to go to lala land. so i know. not to many like to go to church because they feel guilty or ashamed but ill tell you what. nobody is perfect,dont think im preaching because im no saint.but it does help you focus a little more. good luck you are not alone.

  • Nobody should judge any addict unless they have been there themselves or are close to someone who has been or is addicted... Its easy judge and label addicts when you have no clue of the hell it is for the addict and for the families ..No addict chooses to be one ..People drink to escape for example then get addicted ...once addicted its harder to break out of the cycle ...Each person is unique ..some are stronger willed than others ..

  • alcoholism is a disease which we all know..u have to fight fight fight thats wat life is about dont ever and i repeat ever give up the universe has a pull on all of us and we battle it... its a fight all i can tell u is continue ur fight against the universe..its not a fight for nothing there is long term rewards for keeping your head up even when life throws at u all it has take the blow and keep rolling homie much love

  • Your video really touched me.I've struggled with depression basically my entire life, but was just recently diagnosed about a year ago.I've been on and off prescriptions for it, and as of now am off medication.I've been having a really hard time lately, just stuck in my low thoughts, and your video is really helpful.I really appreciate your words, and advice to take it one day at a time.I hope tomorrow is better than today and I'm still here.I hope you're doing well, good luck, thanx again <3

  • this book is really good to overcome depresion you can get in the library

    Clinician's Guide to Mind Over Mood

    by Christine A. Padesky (Author), Dennis Greenberger (Author)

  • stay strong..keep your mind on the goal..

  • im drunk right now and yes im thinking of suicide. no medical insurance no reason to care. plenty of booze plenty of drugs the end looks good.

  • Its been nice of you to share youre experiences about depression and alcohol cause my boyfriend have been struggling with it..and sometimes it does affect me in away,and i was just lengthening my patience and was trying to so much to understand him.I have tried not to be affected because i had to be strong for him....ure experiences made me realize that he needs more than the care,understanding and the patience i have been doing right now..

  • Don't worry your a G in my book.

    That means you stressing over something that's not in your bloodstream.

  • i suffer from depression. i cure my depression with alcohol. its a really vicious cycle. im also thinking about killing myself right now. im a failure.

    so if anyone reads this, hey you might have just witnessed my last words.

  • why won't it stop?

  • fuck

  • you can do it men

  • Dramus

    Just came across this.

    I wanted to say how much I appreciated you sharing your situation.

    I agree we need to talk about depression honestly and organise to fight it together.

    Hope you are making it day to day.

  • good video, right now well for years i been dealing with depression its so hard. the way i been dealing here lately is sleeping alot, i know that if allowed if i could drink everyday i probably would. i understand so where you are coming from.

  • Okay, the problem is our society praises drinking. It has to do with self-esteem, for example, if someone doesnt drink that person most probably would be looked down upon. I drink in some ways to gain people's respect because in some ways people say you are a man if you do and if you dont, your a p*ssy, Does anyone share the same feelings, I had 10 beers two days ago, threw up, but I dont know if I should stop altogether.

  • Anyways, I truely understand what your saying here. Sorry for the bad engllish, I'm finnish and I left school at early stage (maybe not too difficult to see why :D)

    You added your video a year ago, I'd like to hear how your doing right now. I see you've signed in a month ago, so I know you're kind of "active" .

  • But anyway I used alot of drugs too. The main thing was to be messed up everyday, it didn't actually make any difference what it was, just something to "get out". I guess I wass messed up everyday for about 2 and a half years approx. As I recall those days I guess I was also suffering paranoia and panic attacks and alot of other weird symptoms.

  • Sounds pretty much like my life :D

    I lived like that for maybe 2 or 3 years, when I was 16 or 17 then I went to army and it was good (in a way)

  • suicide is the newest fad

  • Is it?! Man I hate fads.

  • hey man i can relate to you is there a place like a meeting place on the net for people like us?

  • Hi Dramus. I hope you're doing ok. I suffered from depression from my teens onwards.

    I have a different view of alcoholism than a lot of people. I believe it is a metabolic disorder... LOW BLOOD SUGAR (reactive hypoglycemia. Drinking is self-medication.

    I quit booze this year. I have to eat protein and complex carbs to keep my blood sugar up. I feel a lot better than I did.

  • It's wonderful that you're contribuating, but really? You think an alcoholic can't put the bottle down because of Low blood Sugar? Hypoglycemia can lead to many things, namely binging endlessly on chocolate cake...which has nothing to do with feigning for a scotch of the rocks...the alcoholic feels they HAVE TO HAVE A DRINK at all costs... Don't you notice your craving for sugar during a low blood sugar? I'm not saying you're not craving booze, but since hard-liquor is sugar fee...you know.

  • Hi Vividcranberry. I don't doubt there's a psychological aspect but my understanding is that it's the same mechanism. That alcohol is a very simple carbohydrate and the pancreas deals with it as it would with sugar. It doesn't have to taste sweet. Hypoglycemics are often found to be addicted to other things like caffeine, not just booze.

  • No, that's not true. Alcohol is metabolized at Fat. Empty calories. Try it yourself...Take your blood sugar, do a shot or two of liquor. Wait twenty to forty minutes. Your sugar does not change. If you drink beer it will change because beer is barley and wheat AKA liquid bread...and one average 12 ounce beer does have about as much carbohydrate as a piece of bread. :0)

  • Whiskey, vodka, and most hard liquors...(except Rum) are Sugar-Free and it blows my mind how people don't know this and straight up believe that hard-liquor has carbohydrate(sugar). Maybe we've confused too many mixed drinks like sugary Long Island Ice Teas with straight hard-liquor...

  • But this guy's drinking beer, not hard liquor. Who drinks straight hard liquor yuck?! Lol

  • Well, sure thing, just as long as we're talkin' about beer. Many people drink hard-liquor straight. And there's Whiskey and Diet coke (personal fav)...Whiskey and Diet 7up...

  • i do bitch!

  • Good for you. Or rather not, bitch.

  • My sister is going to die soon as she is so swelled around her ankles and legs!

    She resembles a water baloon and her liver profiles have come up abnormal! My co-workers sister has just pased from alcoholic disease! HORRIBLE disease!