PART 1: CLOTHING SHOPPING, ANOREXIC ATTACKS, EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER, PROCESSING

[LadyBludgeon]

I'm a Transformers binge shopper. LOL I'm currently going crazy shopping for Robot Heroes (they're tiny non-transformable Transformers figures). Anyways I love your clothes. LOL @ the fart joke. OMG!!! LOL I couldn't stop laughing at that part. Thanks for sharing your buys. Peace with you and those around you.

[amazingrace89]

so I'm thinking the word is rouched, since bouche is the french word for mouth, and I love the clothes you picked! <3

[lhsdixiedoll]

bouche isn't pernounced the way he said it.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

I am aware of that, someone corrected me in a previous comment.

[amazingrace89]

"pernounced" isn't the correct spelling

[lhsdixiedoll]

pff I'm french..can't expect my english to be perfect.

[minny82]

The lipstick shirt that you are wearing in the video is just too great! I pretty much love it. The erd sweater you got is also very nice. good find!

[candiceshea]

I love thrift stores this video is great. Its on my favorites list.

[Limabean120]

OMG love ur clothes, the sweater - love the color, and that neck line is so flattering - and the slightly belled sleeves? LOVE IT :) the red sweater is adorable, SO you, and the "boush" sleeves LOL are fabulous! congrats on purging your closet, that's a big step! mine are kinda on their way out (in boxes :) kudos to you - oh...and the scarf is an adorable accessory, and functional with winter coming! LOVE <333

[avril8myhw]

johnny, that red sweater with the buttons is amazing! i love it so much, and am soooo jealous! do you happen to remember the name of the thrift store?

&&& great job on getting some good clothes and stifling the "anorexia shit fit"

haha fart ina jar

[pinksealight]

im a new subscriber, and i have to say i was intentionally looking for thinsperation, and came across your page.though i didntnt subscribe to you for this and dont think im following your story i think your the funniest, sweetest guy and i just think your so charming i love your clothes :) you did a great job, hope we can chat some time :) im a nice girl really hehe... hope your ok and having a fun day, kelly x

[xLIPSlikeMORPHINExxx]

I really really love the way you put things together. Everything you found is really cute!

[dayamsta]

oh my gosh i thought it was just me who binged on water. i never told anyone coz i was ashamed they wouldnt understand why i was binging on water (of all things!) and it was the feeling of fullness i wanted i wanted that binge feeling of fullness but with out the guilt but also to cleanse or something. not sure they phsycology behind it at the time tho just despiration for feeling satisfied.

[myNAMEisKIRSTY]

I really need a friend like you to go shopping with! Thoses are some wicked finds and they are so cheap!

[MyOwnStickFigure]

okay the truth comes out... after monday i thrifted tuesday and then again on wednesday and now tomorrow with mom on sat. let's just say i have collected a ton of stuff for cheap this week and my fall shopping is almost complete!!! and i did this all mindfully and controlled my addictive shopping urges. a job well done!

[AnaGreatestAsset]

Love the jeans :D

And that jumper looks sooo cozy.

Here in britain, i can never find clothes that fit me anymore >:( annoyying!!

And love that top your wearing now too :D

P.S....take me shopping!! ;O lol

xxmuch love x

[skeltorrr0305]

Tres chic! Work it, Johnny!!!

[fruitycrumble]

a little over one glass of water is NOT a binge! I don't care if you felt out of control, you were drinking a cup of water! Gees Johnny u think too much. So do I x

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Sweetie, please do not start here. A binge is something different to everyone. Please dont get me started on this one, I will go off. I know what my limits are. I know what is abusive for me and what is not. I know what my intentions are or arent and I damn well know what it feels like to feel like shit after doing something. Anything can be a binge, my usual 30,000 junk of the trunk shit or 1 glass of water. The psychology is in the mind and behavior not in the content of the binge.

[beegirl988]

way cute jeans!!

[beegirl988]

u should write a book!

[Travisevian]

Johnny, those jeans are cute and you're working that scarf. I bet it would be fun to go shopping with you.

~Travis~

[AnaGreatestAsset]

Totally aggreed...i would anyday!! :D

x

[arrowheadaisy]

Cute stuff Johnny! "I farted in your purse"-Baby Mama- LOL...........on to part 2

[joyisaware]

ha you look like someone else with those glasses, really funny though..

binging on water.. yes i do that all the time :P its true we can binge on anything, just notice the eyes in a binge mood, they never seem content with what they see, always looking for more, so we could say even the eyes are "binging" on images in a way..

i love that tint of green in your new sweater. looks warm..

enjoy the new looks

thanks 4 sharing!

[scarletmist00]

i love watching your videos! youre very entertaining and too cute : )

[mcehoffman]

Love that green sweater! It will look so splendid on you! Gosh, I need to find a place that will take money for my clothes, seriously. I have TONS of stuff!

[MyOwnStickFigure]

We would so chop up the cute vintage ones!

[lilkel86]

Hey!

I'm sure you know having loads of water is really dangerous. Seems harmless...but its not!

I have a pale pink one of that earthy green sweater you bought!!

[MyOwnStickFigure]

I am fully aware of that, over or under hydration is dangerous. I drank a little over 1 glass of water, 10 oz at the most. That is not dangerous. That is just a tab bit over 1/8th of the daily requirement... The point is the way I was drinking it, the thoughts and intentions in my head - started off innocent and then got compulsive and wanted to numb - so I kept going, that's a binge... and it was self punishing and hurt, that's not fun or fair. PS, thank you!! i cant wait to wear them

[lilkel86]

I know! I wasnt having a go... i just worry...coz i think your an amazing person :)

[beyonceknows]

I have such a shopping problem too! If I see something I feel as though I just have to have it. Espescially through times of need.Its like I think its gonna help complete me or something. I also seem to get an amazing high from it. lol. Its a shame Im not in sex and the city lol! x

[PrettiestPinkGun]

I love your style! Ugh I miss thrifting SO much! I just moved to Cali from MI & haven't had the $ yet to really go have fun thrifting like I did back home..however I also have major issues when it comes to spending, shopping & over buying things I never actually wear but just have to have....so maybe it's for the best for the time being that I'm not shopping. Anyways I hope you feel better honey = )

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Aw.. I understand. Hey, where in CA are you now?

[PrettiestPinkGun]

I just moved to Chula Vista = )

[alexandraleighh]

those jeans are sooo cute.

you look really nice today, you're hair looks great.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

: ) How sweet, thank you! I felt I looked really burnt out, this happens everytime I back away from the webcam, the light makes me look really tired for some reason... so that's very nice of you to say!

[hollisterco217]

"go fart in a jar" lmao you crack me up.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

I could sell them on ebay to fart fetishists... I've met a few in my kinky days.

[narcissiste84]

omg, i'm sooooo jealous of that gorgeous sweater! Five bucks? That's absolutely INSANE!

[MyOwnStickFigure]

You know I'd totally share if I could!

[guitarlovenjc]

I am wondering, as you get become healthier, if it will be easier or more difficult to get rid of clothes and purchase new ones. Yay for journaling! Oh, by the way, I know I don't know you, but you were in my dream the other night.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

can you tell me about the dream? i think things get easier the more logical we stay, so getting better is a challenge but can be done.

[sexitaliana629]

i love all of those colors...we have the same taste!! but i do love pink haha i have to confess. and your beautiful dont let anyone tell u different

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Thanks dear! Pink, my all time favorite. I have so much of it though and am trying to expand my colors based on emotional health, intuition, energy exchange, etc.

[mwilson05]

I have a love/hate relationship with clothe shopping.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

I feel ya... it's such a lovely feeling when you can find things you need, that fit and be happy with them after.

[grossrolls]

KEEP the glasses on there SO cute !!! That sweater is sooooooooooo nice,i been looking around for a few weeks just like that one!luucky,and i love your attitude,you make me laugh ;D

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Thank you! Lenscrafters lol I have 2 black thick rimmed glasses that are of option to wear too. The pink ones though, shown here, are by VOGUE... great frames!

[beckels16]

heheheh shit fit!! love that saying

[MyOwnStickFigure]

lol

[MyOwnStickFigure]

ATTENTION this is a 2 part video, part 2 is uploading now... things get really EXCITING in part 2 HAHAHAH trust me, wait and watch

[beckels16]

what bargins!+ such good condition.never had courage to go into thrift stores but think i might. yay. i think ur attitude it hillarous.know its probably not meant to be funny + u were having a difficult day. but the way u stay stuff, u always make me laugh+ feel positive. u make a difference to my day. The way u process ur thoughts in constructive ways really helps me begin 2 understand and process my own. At the moment I am resisting a binge and ur helping me. love it. love u. keep it up!

[MyOwnStickFigure]

This really helped me. I came here before I even unloaded my car or went pee. I had to process. I could of gone and barfed up all the water and emotions but I processed and channeled the energy here. Thank you all for putting up with me LOLOLOL Ps I would so love to go to the thrift with you but I am proud that you will try going on your own and that is amazing processing of your own. BRAVO

[beckels16]

Putting up with you....You make my day Johnny - and when i go to america i'll diffinately go thrift shopping with you. heheheh

Have a good day. hope it improves. Have some raw goodness and thank god for the flowers and sunshine.

love it. love you =)

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Thank you honey bunny! I had my maca smoothie today and I have realized that EVERY time I take maca, bad day or not, I am more logical and chose better things to do than addict,,, before I wouldn't even try to process, I'd just straight up addict. Anyhow, thrifiting is really healing and controlled for me right now. I am mapping out all the local shops and fitting them into my days this month. I am learning I can walk out empty handed and still be happy, so it's very good for me.

[galaxycat3]

i hate shopping for pants/ trousers...

thats a nice top

ive never binged on water before

its brave to keep a journal; i used to keep one

[MyOwnStickFigure]

writing and driving is dangerous. im sick of writing on napkins LOL i need to get a journal in that car, thank heaven for crazy artists right. bulimia will binge on anything in my case, i am less likely to purge in public on the side of the road when it's water... i guess i drank about 10oz but that is a lot to fit in my stomach and when it feels like a binge it is a binge. regardless, i came here to process and i'm proud i did that instead of played im a little tea pot and puked in public : )

[theskinnypig]

I love your attitude! LOL!!!!!!!!

Go fart in a jar and can it...... I'm SO gonna use that on somebody within the next few days. Boo-shay - that how it's pronounced isn't it?

And I love that green colour

[MyOwnStickFigure]

I actually had a farting attack in part 2, it's uploading now... to fart or not to fart. I tried to fart on cam but was afraid I would piss myself so I held it in. Then I pissed and the fart came out...

[silverlom60]

cant say i like the attitude lol

but i love the red sweater lol

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Watch part 2, it's uploading now, the attitude changes, trust me. I processed this before going to addictive behaviors. It was a step but I had to be honest, attitude and all. Thanks! the red sweater is hella cute!

[luvhaggis]

I'm loving the green sweater. I hate trying on clothes now too because of all the extra weight I've packed on. I just shop for other things :)I buy alot of used books

[MyOwnStickFigure]

oooohhhh i got 2 green sweaters! thank you, i love the cowl neck one, i show the other stuff i bought in part 2! used books are awesome. i love thrifting, omg

[Tearsonmypillow87]

The hardest part of the disease is that we do it to ourselves...

I understand

[MyOwnStickFigure]

hugs, i understand too.