I just want to tell my story after 25 yrs of marriage to a pastor!

[jsinnjaksin]

Has anyone of you actually read the Holy Bible??? Im not knocking u for going thru what u went thru. Im telling u God has the REAL answers to this problem that you have obviously been dealing with for a long while. The reason it is so personal for me is the very same reason it us so personal for you. I have experienced the what happens to those whom suffer these things without going to Christ... You want help???

[jsinnjaksin]

@Pastorsexwife, lady, i just came off of your blog page. Im am truly amazed that u believe u are helping women n children with this mess. U r tryin really hard to justify your selfish godless acts by quoting a scripture here and there in order to gain the graces of those whom have an elementary understanding at best.. I AM A TRUE MAN OF GOD..U r devil possessed! Period.. U want help? Stop posting this unholy mess!!

[knightdreamer1]

Just reading all these comments from "christians" is the very reason why I left the church. They are judgemental, critical, highminded, and self righteous. they have lost their own self identity and forgot how to look at themselves in the mirror, "for such as you once were"...Keep it up Sis. You have the freedom of speech, freedom of religion, freedom to express who you are as an individual. You have found yourself outside of that old past life you had and are living the abundant life.

[jsinnjaksin]

@ pastor's exwife... Pls know that as you post these videos, no matter what your intentions are, the end result is; you are hurt and in need of TRUE deliverance but i digress. What u are doing is not in any way shape form or fashion condusive to the healing and/or deliverance of others. U truley need to seek God on a whole other level because this right here is error at best witchcraft at worse. Please believe me when i say God will NOT be mocked... That so-called pastor has to answer to God.

[pastorsexwife]

@jsinnjaksin no u r completely wrong...this is not witchcraft and neither is it in error....there is no way a woman telling her story in an effort to help women and children is wrong...no way...i will no longer be a part of the shhhhhh shhhhhh crowd keep it on the down low. ....peace

[ice258man]

No disrespect intended, but you're still rockin it. Hope you find your happiness!

[302zman]

BIPOLAR

[uraniumnostrils]

@PaulGreen11, you're right. I'm not really understanding the need to put your "Diary Entires" on youtube but......to each his/her own right? I'm not sure God exists. Preachers Ex Wife is cool with me. I wish her fine tail the best.

[lmflowers84]

The thing about being a pastor's wife is that first of all you have to make sure your not unequally yoked together because if you are then this will be the result. God does things in order He will not give you somebody who will not compliment your call. For example I am called in many different areas including 1st lady and my husband operates in the same areas. Because we became one on the day of marriage not only are we one but our ministry is 1. Make sure the next man you marry is from God.

[uraniumnostrils]

What?!!! No big money? If that's the case, I'd have left his butt years ago!!!! Your beautiful PastorsExWife. Hope life's treating you well.

[uraniumnostrils]

Look at you now. Spreadin all these videos on "how you got done dirty", about "what church has become". lol. It's not rocket science to know that "Religon" is big biness!!! And I'll bet you weren't complaining when your husband, the pastor" was bringing home that "big money". Wake up people. Love God, not the person behind the pulpit!!!

[pastorsexwife]

@uraniumnostrils hun what big money? do u know something i dont know? hun?

[jehill1000]

@uraniumnostrils you know alot of time it's not te "Big Money" its the position.



[PaulGreen11]

@uraniumnostrils She has a right to tell her story without being judged by you. If YOU loved God YOU wouldnt throw stones at her. 

[bain5872]

Lets move own in God's name. Not your husband but GOD's name! This may be your mistake. Moses was not appointed leader for no reason???? Get on with it ....In Jesus name!! In his name...Amen!!!!!

[TheMRKRM]

No offense but what sort of pastor were you married to? You're dressed up like an old and retired stripper with kool-aid red hair, blue eye shadow and eye liner...taking ho pics of yourself with your pants below your waist to show your ass, like seriously? I'm not a Christian freak but is this real or what? Or are you really just trying to sell books? No offense but you look like an old bird...not a conservative woman.

[kanthonysimmons]

So or u still a christin?

[dawnmichelle29]

bitter......

[Tink71165]

CHURCHIANITY is not Christianity. Who and what we IDOLIZE makes a difference. Pastors are just men, but Jesus is perfect theology. We can't afford to let "other people's junk" cause us to "blow it" with God. It seems like there is an IDENTITY crisis in this, sister. WHO ARE YOU? Are you a Pastors wife, or former pastor's wife, or ae you ROYALTY...a daughter of the MOST HIGH KING?

[pdg1021]

Did it ever occur to you that just maybe you weren't called to be a pastors wife? It takes a special person to be her and every woman cannot handle that position. She has to set an example by being an example for every woman in the church. When her husband, who is the pastor, is doing things at church that isn't making sense to the first lady, her job is to talk to God about him simply because you might be interfering with what God told him to do...."

[pastorsexwife]

@pdg1021 oh shut up until you've been married for 25yrs and a pastors wife for 16 then u say something...otherwise go back to yo life

[IamDottieDandridge]

@pastorsexwife This is not a blow to you, U can do ur thang it's your life but I was just wondering did u have that nose ring when you were married and sitting on the church board? Just a question please nobody don't blow it up to something else

[melindasedwick]

@pastorsexwife I feel what you are saying. NOONE can even comment UNLESS they've walked in your shoes. What some people call church is a joke! I know for a fact that ministry is not easy. And the person who thinks small churches bring in big money...you are joking right? A person can feel like they give and give and give and get nothing in return....not even appreciation. Keep your head up PastorsExwife.

[Shellrudy1]

@pdg1021 A pastor's wife having to hold a position of submission to her husband and have an understanding of his call while also submitting herself to God, should not give him Carte Blanc to do whatever he wants. A person who holds a position of authority over others, does wrong, then hides behind scripture to prevent personal rebuke is a coward. A friend of mine just wrote an expose about abuse that she experienced at the hands of her pastor at 12 years old.

[bakersfieldmusicnow]

well put girl

[mrsmable100]

you kept quiet for 25 years....come on, that means you were part of the problem.. It's apparent you didn't reverence God either to allow this to go on for so long... and now you want sympanthy????????

[jahvon171]

well the truth is that most if not all mega churches have "new age" teachings in them and are controlled by the illuminati to lead christians away from the one true G-d, the smaller churches see this and copy them out of greed for money or power, and other small churches preach against them. most of the ones that go against them without having "new age" teachings in their church are set up and put in jail, killed, or somehow their church falls apart because of someone higher-up in the church.

[rosbrownsugar1]

Am glad you woke up. What ever happen you played a part in it.

[rosbrownsugar1]

What happen? You never told the story. Will I have something to say. If you been in church that long and you were a pastors wife what is the problem with you and God? It's about our lord and savior Jesus Christ. You lost the focus.What ever happen you play a part in it. That long in Church being a first lady you should have a relationship with God. Some kind of connection. You have let people take you outside of your self. What ever happen you letting it separate you from God. Let go. Be bless.

[MrPastor77]

You TELL your story ... I'm listening ....

[777BossTown]

God brought you threw it, so hopefully what you have to say will be a testimony to others regarding your pain! Jesus said, He would never leave you or forsake you, not that we wouldn`t have to endure the sin of a dying world! Nobody living on earth will escape the pain of sin and death! Hope the Lord has blessed you with a man who truly loves God and you! Hopefully, you found a good church ( body of people ) who will help you to continue to grow in the Lord Jesus the Christ not a false religion!

[777BossTown]

I peeped your vid "pastors wife" I said to myself, somebody hurt this sister really bad! Now unless I`m mistaking not just spiritually, but physically as well....and not just as a grown women? If what happened to you is what I think happened as a little girl, all I can say, is Lord have mercy! I have two little girls myself and real talk, I think someone would have to put me under not 6 feet but 12 if anyone touched my little girls! My grandma always said, the devil hangs out at church too!

[marigi93]

When you speak negatively about the church in almost all the videos, how can you deny that you are causing dissension in the church? Keep your comments about the church to yourself. You wanna know what is a wonder to me? That a grown woman wastes time to make these videos. You are obviously not over your ex husband because all you do is talk about him and the pain. Grow up and see a therapist. This is ridiculous. They say the young generation is lost, see where we get it from.

[deek77]

@marigi93 All due respect, there's truth to what she's saying. As a former deacon for 7 years, I've seen it up close and personal at my old church. I was part of the problem too, but thank God for straightening me out. But there's still whole heap a mess going on in our churches, and it needs to be addressed. True, no such thing as a perfect church, but God calls us to strive to live right, and some of our church family & leaders are living foul. There's anger here yes, but some truth too.

[ButterflyRose67]

@marigi93 ... "There can be NO unity where there is error. We are not to be unequally yoked and truth cannot be married to half-truths or lies. The fullness of the gospel has been so watered down in so many churches and so many people are living in unreality and delusion that we don't even recognise what the truth is anymore. Jesus came to heal the broken-hearted and anyone who FEELS & KNOWS His heart, is interested in the pain of people like this woman. God help us.

[4962AD]

sad! really sad that this had to happen to you I pray for your heaIing I have been in church all my life and I have seen some hairy situations....bUT I was healed at 2 from cerbreal palsy as a two year God healed my leg and arm they were shorter than the other now they are the same length...I said that to say this I have seen a lot in church, that was wrong...I knew God was healer,it was them not God,praying for u b ncourage....

[ada627]

stop blaming the church for the actions of people that were not saved no way....the devil goes to church but he can live holy....period....you don't have to go crazy, keep questioning situation...some things are just not God...that's all...

[pastorsexwife]

@ada627 u need to shut up and get off this page how dare you come at me like this and talk to me about what the devil can do...obviously you should know because you are letting him use you real good...before you say anything to me you hear my whole story..........

[jessrockker]

read the bible. build a relationship with God. love the Church (ephesians 5:25). forgive others. write your book but dont be bitter.

[pastorsexwife]

@jessrockker i have a relationship with God...ive been saved for 39yrs and i am writing a book...i have forgiven and im not bitter

[Kazuya3000]

Maam I do agree with you that the church has changed ALOT, but not all churches are the same ya know?

[doctorw2]

there are no true christians they died out in the 3rd century, im nazarani.

[chocolatediamonds14]

Please be careful how you speak about the church some people or very impressionable, and they may misunderstand some of what you are saying and interpret it as you are saying to keep away from the church no 2 churches or the same and no 2 men or the same either, what you can do is to talk more of what has done for you and less of what man did to you and win some souls to glorify the glory of GOD. Have a blessed day.

[pastorsexwife]

@chocolatediamonds14 sorry im no longer a part of keep it on the downlow crowd what i talk about is simply my life story and reality of what ive experienced.

[untoldtruth27]

@pastorsexwife You must admit to the fact that you are causing dissension in the church.

I also believe you need to stop glorifying your years of being a church member.

[pastorsexwife]

@untoldtruth27 u need to be quiet...im am not causing dissention in the church.....it is the truth that i speak and they tell me the TRUTH will make u say ouch

[untoldtruth27]

@pastorsexwife The issue here is not whether or not it is the truth or not. Who am i to tell you that your experiences are false. What i am saying and what i believe many people are trying to say is your method or approach to this is wrong.

[pastorsexwife]

@untoldtruth27 how can u tell me that my approach is wrong when im simply sharing my experience altho sordid it is.

[danielhrajan777]

Oh lady, pls don say that you were a wife for a pastor, which you should have been an actress who can act in blue movies, I really wonder how did benny being a pastor married a whore..I think he doesn't know word of god, I wonder the possesion of his.

[pastorsexwife]

@danielhrajan777 u stupid

[kevantewhite]

I think i agree with your vids because a small church hides alot of corruption and basically some "fucked up shit" (excuse my french) Its like pedofiles, thiefs, cheaters, and closet bisexuals. Its so mindboggling i swore id never go to a small church let alone any church,!!! imsorry u went thru ur shit keep goin strong...amen

[pastorsexwife]

@kevantewhite its alright to go to church to maintain the control of your life. ok

[knicks1fan]

@kevantewhite how is stuff in a small church hidden? if it's hidden it'd b hidden in a big church. common sense bc if there r not that many ppl everybody knows everyone else's business

[pastorsexwife]

@knicks1fan your point is?

[knicks1fan]

@pastorsexwife my point is that stuff would b hidden in a big church not a small church that's my point. idk wat u point is all of this learn from ur past so it can better ur future.

[kevantewhite]

@knicks1fan whats stopping the cops from coming in and going gung ho on the false prophets. Discretion. Playin mind games and god complexes "hide" and yes i do mean "hide" these acts from the bigger picture by using acts of cult secrecy. A pastor can start a church and a molest a child but a child molester can start up his own service.. there hasnt been a pact made yet my freind.. that's what i meant to say my bad..

[MsJ4L]

pRAY SISTER.....PRAY A LOT AND DONT FORSAKE OUR GOD....COZ SATAN IS A LIAR AND A DECEIVER....THATS WAT HE IS TRYING TO DO NOW....WORK THRU THA FAMILY OF GOD....HIS DAYS ARE NUMBERED.......U LISTEN HERE SATAN...WE WILL NOT BE MOVED...COZ JESUS IS CUMIN BACK ANY DAY SOONER!...AMEN!

[MrBenjaminaustin69]

keep going 

[ThePowerPlaya007]

you need help lady! lots of it! this shit is really dumb! people leave their spouses everyday so what makes your different? you seem to have just wanted to fuck someone else.....you are dumb to think that the cat ur fucking now aint gonna find him a young piece of ass to fuck and you will look more like a fool! just do porn cuz thats what this story is about! Pimpin'

[ThePowerPlaya007]

Have you ever thought that your ex pastor got tired of fucking you!

[glencoe6305]

I know a Pastor of a tiny Church, and his old lady, snuck drugs into Prisons, at younger male prisoners,request. She was about 60. She eventually got busted. She was the laughing stock of the Communitty, and an embarrassment to her Church,and her husband,the Pastor. He stuck by her side,while she claimed,she was framed,and she was innocent,though she was caught red-handed,set up, by one of the Prisoner's she was doing dirty deeds for.

[pastorsexwife]

@glencoe6305 sorry for her....thats not my story....take a listen

[evtuck1]

GET BACK TO CHRIST AND FORGET ABOUT THE CHURCH..meaning, when we stop following Jesus, and start following man, then we are hurt, disappointed, and scarred. i learned early in my salvation walk, the building is where i go to worship and be strengthened, but i know who my REDEEMER is. no matter what goes on in the church, ima still strive to be like Christ. U DO THE SAME. AMEN. BE ENCOURAGED AND LET GOD HEAL U. AMEN.

[pastorsexwife]

@evtuck1 thank u that is true the purpose of telling my story is to show how badly a person that gets saved at the age of 10 can be taken advantaged of through brainwashing and manipulation as i look back i get what u r saying now..but then...that wasnt the case...and I AM HEALED AND LOVE GOD AND IM KEEPING IT MOVING

[loveugirl7]

WOW! It sounds like you really could preach up a storm...

[diang42]

She looks like she is on drugs but who am I to judge I'm Not God

[pastorsexwife]

@diang42 u just did....and no im not on drugs.......stupid to say that...now tell me what part of this video made u come up with this conclusion

[littlemsgodly]

YOU REMIND ME OF DORTHY YOUR LOST FIND YOUR WAY BACK TO KANSAS QUICK

[pastorsexwife]

@littlemsgodly lol that was funny and stupid....but keep it coming....how dare you by the way

[littlemsgodly]

dONT LET A MAN DRAW YOU AWAY FROM THE CALLING THAT GOD PLACED ON YOUR LIFE TO PREACH

[pastorsexwife]

@littlemsgodly never will that happen

[littlemsgodly]

NO MAN PUTTING HIS HAND TO THE PLOW AND LOOKING BACK IS FIT FOR THE KINGDOM

[pastorsexwife]

@littlemsgodly look at you ....go with it....you validate my story...u r a typical church judge

[littlemsgodly]

YOUR WIERD

[pastorsexwife]

@littlemsgodly no im not

[Labagooshio]

this is so stupid...

[carmelavarnell]

You woke up someone woke you up it has to be the old foe that you had a long time ago..divorce was never the answer anad stop balming it on the church ...you need to get saved again and wash by the blood of Jesus Christ you are one lOST SOUL you have sold back and turn your way back to the old foes ..well God give you grace for your own actions...

[pastorsexwife]

@carmelavarnell u r a typical church goer that feel that God has saved u to sit and judge me and say the slanderous things u just said in your comment...yes divorced im remarried thank God for His Grace although u say im a lost soul ....it matters not u r misinformed. and u went on to say ive sold back.....please seek God to show u how to encourage one that u feel have sold back with words that would edify and not hurt..understand u cant hurt me with yo words. so try something else

[ShoutingSissy]

Don't be discouraged by the ignorant, negative comments.

[pastorsexwife]

@ShoutingSissy thank u

[NYTNinAmerica]

1:35 - "The Church has gotten WAY FAR from the ABC's of The Gospel" Preach!!!

[dbrunsonsr]

This is my 1st vid of u. I subbed 'cause I want to hear what u have to say. U have been thru a lot and have much to offer. Happy to meet u.

[lit26]

Every thing you say is true! People dont want the mirror turned on them and you sure have turned that mirror around. You keep on doing your thing!

[1onetheone]

Thankyou for sharing your story, Its important to expose the falsness of the church and those who lead people astray into evil. Only those who follow jesus and live holy lives are the church. No religeous organisation is, nor any man doctins. jesus is coming and god is sending jugement on the false church, jesus will keep you safe and all those who follow him. This is little time left for repentance of hte worldy babylon churches