She Died in My Arms,,,Rated R for language

[TheClentex]

good acting :)

[CastleOfButterflies]

Why is this guy topless? lol

[katchkittie]

I come from alcoholic parents,it was difficult to watch this video...my parents addiction destroyed my childhood because of their choices to turn to the bottle,I have not forgave them...they don't deserve it. My father passed away a year ago and my mother is alone,I haven't talked to her for 16 yrs and refuse to start now.I am a mother of a 16 yr old daughter and she has not seen alcohol in my home..ever!!!!.. Am I cold and harsh? Yes I am towards them.

[itzahazylife]

@katchkittie

i can't judge your resentment, because i didn't go thru the experience u had with your parents..but, i can also say that u cannot judge them for their addiction, because u were never addicted to alcohol. u can easily tell yourself that they SHOULD have gotten their act together, but the real question is, could they?..were they strong enough?..would u have been strong enough if u were enslaved by alcohol? (cont..)

[itzahazylife]

@katchkittie

it comes down to this: is she truly sorry?..if she is, u should forgive her..but, can u forgive her?..do u have the strength to forgive her?..if u don't have the strength to forgive someone for their mistakes, why should u expect them to have the strength to refrain from making those mistakes?..u need to know if she is truly sorry. but, u cannot know that if u haven't talked to her in 16 years..u need to talk to her and decide for yourself if u think she's truly sorry.

[Midnightryder7]

is this for real? or a joke?

[TheMrSkaterboy14]

U should get arrested for putting this video up on utube if ur reall drunk.

[misskitty2good4u]

you look like travis tritt

[ito148]

GREAT ACTING BUT ILL TELL YOU SOMETHING THE PAIN WAS REAL.........HE HAS BEEN THROUGH A LOT

[firelilly08]

wow that was brilliant!!

[jjac31456287]

aww so sad. :(

[SargentBo]

i cant belive it

[Szach0]

Man, at the beggining i thought its something like interview, where man lose his nerves. I read the description and i can hardly belive. Brilliant work.

[CaliforniaGirlsRock1]

Wait a minute. This guy is acting. Oh my goodness.

[jermeal385]

lol

[torontomapleleafsrul]

wow very great video once again gil!!!! amazing keep up the good work honestly very good good acting 5 stars

[PirateKing1256]

LOL. Nice acting.

[brunobb1]

you should enter movie and all :)

[youmakemecutmyself]

good acting, i could almost smell the alcohol! (means it felt very real lol)

[Taroodle]

Damn!

It's like im watching a movie!

Very good acting!!!

[juvinile2213]

this is REALLY good acting keep up the good work!!

[hillbillygill99]

juvinile2213: i really do appreciate it

[ScenicVideos]

great acting

[hillbillygill99]

Scenicvideos: thank you so much

[kevzzon]

its sad

[kevzzon]

thats not entertaining..

its good

[hillbillygill99]

Kevzzon: sorry i have not responded sooner, but i want to thank you for watching

[jessicaannacole1991]

k man forgetting about ur pain and everything thats not a good way u will kill ur self if u do or get drunk or whatever beer plays tricks on u man i dont konw if this is a lie that u lost ur wife but if u did im really truly sorry if u need to talk im here

my name is jessica

[hillbillygill99]

jessicaannacole1991, thanks for watching jessica

[ShadyLady2007]

i thought the acting was awesome. i began to wonder if it didn't really happen to you. bravo! i like the message i got from it also. nice work, love to see more vids like that!

[hillbillygill99]

Shadylady2007: thank you so much, i appreciate your comment

[MexicanoINC]

sad but entertaining

[hillbillygill99]

MexicanoInc: thank you very much

[guitarhero30]

lol, nice video man

[hillbillygill99]

guitarhero30: thank you very much

[AngeLonerOner]

Are you acting, or did she really die in your arms?

[hillbillygill99]

AngeLonerOner: acting, but i really poured myself into this one, i felt the pain

[Randy06600]

Really good, good video.

5 stars

[hillbillygill99]

Randy06600: thanks so much

[4DRY4N]

Hey Gilly! This one is still awesome. A.D. :))

[hillbillygill99]

4DRY4n: thank your so much my friend

[DGRQ]

The acting was so good it almost hurt!

[hillbillygill99]

DGRQ: thank you very much, great comment

[stagecurtains]

Great acting there gilly, In was quite moved by it.David, beach 5

[dogpatchdebbie]

wow Gilly,

really good!! you have this one down!!

great video Gilly;)

[Estina54]

Very good acting as always. Great job! Thanks for sharing.

[allansfriend]

Oh, and another thing...((Hugs))

[hillbillygill99]

Allansfriend: thank you so much, i really appreciate your comment, have a great weekend, ==GILLY

[allansfriend]

God knows...And one of the hardest things to do is to forgive YOURSELF. They say God forgives. But learning to forgive yourself, well that's the tough part. If you want it bad enough, you can raise yourself up and just be the best that you can be. I've been there, done that. I'm sober now since Dec.6th,1999. Sometimes you just have to pull yourself up by the bootstraps. One step at a time. I'm here for you if you ever need to vent. Your friend, Tammi

[Willowthebluefairy]

:( hugs for you x

[RPG7V]

Iam sorry for your lost.

[hillbillygill99]

rpg7v: thanks for watching, your very kind,

==GILLY

[xxuselessbulletsxx]

wow....I applaud you greatly.

You are an amazing...extraordinary actor! You got me in tears as I watched...and I'm astounded at your talent.

I myself am an aspiring actress/director, and I would love to have someone like you show me the ropes. =]

Good luck for the future, and I will be looking at your channel eagerly.

xx

[hillbillygill99]

xxuselessbulletsxx: thanks so much, i left you a personal message, ==GILLY

[shrsandy]

Wow, I thought that was real! Great Acting!

I shouldn't admit that I was sitting here drinking my coke and vodka watching this.

All I could think was that you now need to get your act together to take care of your kids. They are the most important think now.

[hillbillygill99]

shrsandy: thanks for watching, really do appreciate it==GILLY

[chassaid]

At first I wasn't buying your emotions, but when you said: "I am a God damned drunk. I'm a sorry piece of shit" I almost teared up serioulsy...out of nowhere, considering that I wasn't emotionally connected at first. All the "help me understand" lines were really touching. Overall, that was pretty good.

[aman4trulove]

I can feel your pain and I hope in time that you find your way back from where you are at because eveyone that goes down your road always find their way back. My mom was on drugs when I was little and gave up my sister for an abortion and it hurt me very bad, I have faith that your life will head in the right direction and I also know how you feel about looseing the only one you love the one I love is behind me I would be where you are if I lost her. I pray in time that find what yur looking 4

[hillbillygill99]

thank you very much, aman4trulove, thank you very much,

==GILLY

[dustiesheets]

Just wow...if one didnt know this was a short movie, then one would thank this was a personal experience. Great acting! 5 stars

[hillbillygill99]

thank you very much, dustiesheets

[purebluepunk]

from the heart...

[hillbillygill99]

pure bluepunk : really do appreciate it sub to me and i'll sub back

[puissse]

awesome acting!!!

[hillbillygill99]

puisse: thank you so much

[TheAngryFishermen]

Do u like fishing old mate?

[hillbillygill99]

The angryfisherman: thanks for watching, and yes i like to fish

[trm2962]

awesome acting,you are a star!

[hillbillygill99]

trm2962; thank you very much

[trm2962]

your welcome!

[Switchplaytv]

Wow!!! That was awsome! I mean really awsome...

[KatyMayBee]

You go Gill!

[hillbillygill99]

thank you Katy

[pbjtoast]

nice one dude ... Im sorry

[deborahdcook]

u tricked me! and i was wondering how she died, great video

[hillbillygill99]

deborahdcook: thank you for watching

[SwedishDirector]

If your not an actor, then you should become one! :) Well done.

- Robert

[hillbillygill99]

thanks S-Director, i'm trying to be an actor,

==GILLY

[loverbug6]

wow pretty good! Good acting!

[marisabellas]

Very good acting, very convincing too

[smileyousee]

that was wonderful. awesome acting (?).. are you acting ?

[hillbillygill99]

thank you, yes i'm acting, hugs to you

[cindyva65]

My friend its a part of life cause none of us are getting outta here alive!

I'm a widow also. what don't kill us makes us stronger right?

peace my friend~

[hillbillygill99]

cindyva65: well as an actor i try to portray life, i'm acting, so yes i know what your saying but i still like to express my thoughts in film,like a painter paints, i act and write. i'm not a widow. but i feel for you, thanks for watching

[dicom]

Gill do you have any idea how accurate this is? Its on the mark 100%, trust me I know first hand!

[hillbillygill99]

Dicom: hello Terry, i looked at your comment, then i had to read your channel info, i see you are a widower, so now your comment makes sense, love you man, sorry for your loss, take care, your bud -GIL

[DawndeeDALLAS]

You are a really good actor.The music made it more dramatic.

[hillbillygill99]

DawndeeDallas: hi Dawn , Thank you so much, i really do appreciate this comment,hugs

[BattlefieldDoktor]

Gill, this video is so moving and so serious ... it is really a great video! You put so much into of it! 5 stars - I would give more but YouTube don't let me

[hillbillygill99]

BattlefieldDoktor: Sven thank you so much, your the best in the west, thank you. Has that one special girl come around yet?

[BattlefieldDoktor]

no, she refused me again ... well, young girls, hahaha ... but another Sarah contacted me right after she saw the video ;o)

[hillbillygill99]

oh that makes me happy for you, hope she is good for you, brotherly love i send you,

-GILLY

[jasminmommy]

OMG...isn't that a song of *Rocky* with the italian stallion or something? I haven't heard it for a while !! BTW...great acting...and sexy disguise ;) high 5...

[hillbillygill99]

jasminmommy: Jasmin, thank you so much,hugs

[R2kittykats]

that was a hardest video I've seen on you...

you let me cried, I hate you!hehe...

YouTube's Best Actor!:D

[hillbillygill99]

thanks you so much Kitty, your the best, and your melting my heart, best actor, yahoo

[DelisaProductions]

OMG Gil, delete those comments except for one...I look like a god damn idiot. Youtube wasn't posting my comments so I had to repeat them over and over.

[DelisaProductions]

Top notch acting, Gil! What was going thru your mind to prepare you for such a role? Tears are so hard to do.

[hillbillygill99]

When i was young my dad from time to time would get really drunk, and he would call me to the table, as he drank, and he would tell me sad stories, he would begin to cry and i would begin to cry, i'll never forget that, and even today i get urges to cry, when i filmed this i was in one of those urges, thanks for watching

[DelisaProductions]

Top notch acting,Gil! What was going thru your mind to prepare you for such a role? Tears are so hard to do. Bravo!

[hillbillygill99]

oh and btw if you have rated this video already then disregard, but if you havn't, please give me lots of stars,hehehehe

[devlynandlink]

wow! dude. that was kind of scary.

[hillbillygill99]

you'll be making vids like this real soon with your new camera, take care

[DieselBodine]

A slice of what happens to real people in real life. Fine portrayal of a troubled Ben Stevens.

[hillbillygill99]

thank you Diesel, i appreciate the fine comments, can you please rate 5 stars, again thank you

[DieselBodine]

Sorry Gil, YouTube in its profound wisdom, unfortunately, doesn't allow multiple "5 star" ratings from its minions of glassy-eyed zombies like me. LOL & 8-)

[OakgroveProductions]

Hi, hillbillygil, EXCELLENT PERFORMANCE! It did make me think about somethings from the past that really saddens me, but that's a good thing, because once you remember the tragedy and loss you also find and remember the good things!

[ShadowedAngel87]

O.O ... well... you got me crying!

[keasbey44]

ADRIEEENNNEEEEEEEE

[batatakley]

WOW GReat performance!!! GREAT!

5 stars.... and an OSCAR.

[hillbillygill99]

thank you batatakley, i appreciate the comment, your the best, and i accept the oscar and the 5 stars,hehehehe :) -GIL

[kalacaw]

Very powerful, Gil.  5*****

[hillbillygill99]

thank you Betty, I appreciate you watching this video, thank you for the 5 stars, please don't hesitate to send me a fav. vid of yours so i can see it, big crazy hugs :)

-GIL

[kalacaw]

I think probably my traveling shoes project is the most important thing I'm doing here, and my sisterhood video, which is the feature video on my page. I think we should all be building each other up as much as possible. I implied that about women, but I mean everyone.  :)

[hillbillygill99]

hello Betty, i'm an amatuer:actor,writer, director some of my stuff is a little harsh, i know the language here was harsh, but here in this role i'm not playing a saint, i'm playing a worldly washed up drunk, from your comment i can't tell if you liked it or not, or what the point is in relation to the video, sorry i'm not too bright either :)

-GIL

[kalacaw]

Oh, Gil, I loved your vid! I was just answering you when you said I could send you whichever video that might be important to me. The ones that I mentioned are that, so I was just telling you. Cussing doesn't offend me. Most of my work environments were rough, and I don't think twice sbout language.

[hillbillygill99]

Hi Betty, i feel so stupid, i was buried in emails and work yesterday, and when i saw your comment, i did not even think nor did it dawn on me that you had already commented on the video, and i had asked you for information, my bad, thanks for your patience, big hugs :) -GIL

[hillbillygill99]

oh ok, i think this is a comment in response to my comments,not aimed at this video, ok I get it, you have already commented on the video, man i'm off kilter today, my apologies, luv ya Betty :) -GIL

[kalacaw]

Yeah, you got it. Luv ya too babe! :)

[Muzaloth]

either your the greatest actor in the world or you are really tapping into sincere emotions.. either way this was a good video, thanks for posting. 5/5

[hillbillygill99]

omg, thank you for your comments, i really do appreciate your kind words, and thanks for the 5 stars, do you need a slave-cuz keep talking,hehehehe, :) -GIL

[filteany]

This is not acting, its actually baring your soul. Great video and good editing. Youtube needs more videos like this, brutal honesty. I had to look away for a second when you started crying. --- reminds me of a relative.

[hillbillygill99]

thank you so much, for watching this one, it is very emotional, your the best, and i love your vid about girl power :) -gIL

[1butterflykiss]

WOW! This is acting? You are GREAT. I cried. I was you 3 times now...

Thanks so much for sharing to the world the ugly part behind losing someone you love. I definitely have had that ANGER!

*kisses*

Therese

[hillbillygill99]

Ahhh, Therese, thank you for your kind comment, i wasn't sure how you would react, cause of the strong language, but i'm glad you were still able to see past that, and get the deeper part of the video, your the best :) -Gil

[tinybebediane]

wow...you should think about acting...that was pretty good..im a talent scout so i should know.

[hillbillygill99]

thank you for your kind commnents, i am hoping to get into acting and would love to be discovered, and do commercials and films, just waiting for a break :)

[AskaRedneck]

Great video, very dramatic and gut wrenching. well done

[hillbillygill99]

thank you very much, i appreciat that, i like the gut wrenching part, wow, haven't heard that in a while, i appreciate it, yours truly :) -Gil

[marywinmusic]

Woohoo! Just turned 18 today so I can *officially* view your video hehe! Great video! Cheers, ~Mary : )

[hillbillygill99]

Thanks for watching Mary, and happy birthday, have a great day today on your b.d., take it easy on the celebration part, don't want you to wake up with a hangover,heheheh :) your bud -Gil

[marywinmusic]

I've never had a hangover nor do I plan on it as I see my friends in college around me experiencing god awful looking headaches on the occasion they really decide to party lol. Coca cola's perfect for me :D Cheers, ~Mary

[hillbillygill99]

thanks for stopping by, i'm trying to see what you thought of the video, :) -Gil

[1butterflykiss]

It is about as real (emotions) as I have ever seen (experienced!) and this is acting?!!! 5 stars again!

*kisses*

Therese

[hillbillygill99]

aahhh Therese your the best, thank you so much,love you :) -Gil

[marywinmusic]

I thought the video was very emotional and sad especially towards the end. Your delivery is excellent! 5* Again ;)

[hillbillygill99]

thank you so much Mary, your the best,keep the singing up, if you get rich and you need a butler let me know :) -Gil

[kiwickie]

:'(

[hillbillygill99]

thanks for watching, your cool :) -gil

[1summersweet]

very well done

[hillbillygill99]

thank you very much, i appreciate your kind comment, your awesome :) -Gil

[TheWoodcreekFaction]

awesome video

[hillbillygill99]

thank you so much :) -gil

[zephrah]

That video was so sad.  Don't know if it was acting or not, but made me cry big time.. Sniff, Sniff. Oh Lord.

[hillbillygill99]

thank you so much, sometimes we have to endure sadness before we get the joy, yours truly :) -Gil

[1966Nicole1966]

Your a great actor hillbilly...soon we wil see you on tv, never know might be someone looking at this videos....

Brilliant

[hillbillygill99]

aahh Nicole, your melting my heart, rarely am i called brilliant, i thank you so much, i am trying to get discovered as an actor/director, i shall dream on, and make more monkey movies,lol :) -Gil

[Brazilady]

applause!

[hillbillygill99]

thank you my dear friend :) -gil

[MrsAtomicUs5000]

Great acting! 5 stars!

[hillbillygill99]

Ahhh MrsAtomic, i am humbled that you have viewed my video, and i'm glad you like it, 5 stars, will get you vip entrance,lol, your the best , :) -Gil

[MrsAtomicUs5000]

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[els666]

that was damn good babe wow really great actor

[hillbillygill99]

oh you just touched the core of my heart, thank you, and i hope you get the judgeship, xoxoxo ;)

[HickfromtheSticks]

That was awsome You are a great actor I wouldn't be supprized to see you on tv someday,

[hillbillygill99]

wow thank you so much, your the best, great comment, gives me encouragement, have a great week :)

[yourlittleslave]

Hey hillbillygill,that was awesome!

[hillbillygill99]

well thank you so much, i am glad you liked it, have a great week , your bud :)

[iseehaters]

and i vloged this.. fucking genius

[hillbillygill99]

wow, when does the vlog come out, or is it already posted cuz i gotta see it, thanks :)

[iseehaters]

your a god dam genius

[hillbillygill99]

your melting me like butter, thanks :)

[iseehaters]

your a fucking genius..30 stars... and vloged... fucking genius

[hillbillygill99]

Thank you very much, i appreciate this, i must say i am rarely called a genius, but coming from you, i am honored, thanks :)

[joey0028]

you have a real connection with all your video's you, that was unreal, the emotions.....was really great!! xjoeyx

[hillbillygill99]

oh Joey, your awesome, you say just the right words to make me melt like butter in your hands, xoxoxo :)

yours truly -Gil

[LilCav68]

gawd... i need a drink now...:0)

[hillbillygill99]

thank you for watching :) -Gil

[hillbillygill99]

I released this video when i did not have alot of subscribers or friends, and now that i have alot more of both, i wanted to share this video with my now larger family of subs and friends, and i want to thank each and every one of you, your real special to me, your hillbilly in Dallas -Gil :)

[moomay11649]

OMG hillbillygill ~ That was so awesome and so real.  GREAT acting!

Moomay

[hillbillygill99]

when i went to share this video, you were one of the people i had hoped would see this video, and now that you have, and i see your great comment, it really touches my heart that you liked it, i think your just awesome, have a great week Moomay, :) -Gil

[josette54]

wow I thought this was real..are you acting?

[hillbillygill99]

yes i'm acting, but i really felt emotional and i was crying real tears, i was really feeling a connection to this character, thank you for watching, do you live in Germany now? your buddy -Gil

[josette54]

yes I live in Germany..have been here for 2 years now

[hillbillygill99]

wow, that is awesome, i bet you get homesick for Australia :) -Gil

[geno1960]

Your really good!!! Very sad video