I wish that nobody ever has to feel that alone due to what this process is like because of culture, family, and religion. I wish that nobody has to lose their friend, confidant, and soul mate because of others. I wish that children like R (protected for his family) and I would never be raised hating and fearing what and who they were. I wish I still had R to go through this with me. I wish I had a friend that understood and loved me again.
I am so sorry that this happened in Ryan's and his family's lives. About one year ago my best friend and I were working through the concept of being gay and becoming okay with it. Unfortunately my friend couldn't do it and hung himself in his dorm room and I wasn't quick enough to catch it or fully even realize that we were journeying together through this process. He was my only friend and continuing on has seemed almost impossible.
Why is LGBT suicide so high? I don't understand. I am gay, and I don't get it. I am not trying to be dramatic, I just want to understand why the suicide rate is so high in the LGBT community. My mind cannot wrap around it. Please help me to understand in any way that you can.
@LetsStartOverNow Some people are in worse situations than others. Some people cannot handle the fact that it's not a walk in the park at times to be different. For some, it is nearly impossible to see past the bad in their lives. It's not always their fault. We have to be careful when we question people's motives.
@LetsStartOverNow Well, in my old town (in a more urban area) LGBT people are more accepted. They're actually really popular.
But when I moved to a more rural area it was VERY different. There are so many closeted kids. And I don't blame them. The kids at my school are ruthless. They will be nice to your face and turn around and call people things like "nigger" and "fag". There is only one guy that I know who is open about it and he gets picked on even if he just says one thing. I don't get it.
@LetsStartOverNow My point is, that it depends on the environment these people are in. If they are accepted because people are more cultured, then I'm sure they are less likely to end their own lives. But in more close knit, bible belt towns, they are more than likely going to get bullied because there is a stereotype of what they should be. Some people just can't take it. Imagine being bullied day after day with no end. It would get old after a while.
@LetsStartOverNow Some people, such as myself, don't want to be gay. I've came to terms with the fact that I am, and that the chances of that changing are so very low. I seriously don't know what to look forward to in life. I can't see myself with a partner, and some people aren't as lucky as davey, to be fit and healthy, and amazingly good looking. Sometimes taking your life seems to be an easier way out. Life can be so cruel
tbh it frustrates me thats he killed himself its a selfish act he was given a second chance in live and he threw it away imagine how many people would love a second chance in life
HELP US: President Obama is visiting Holland, MI on Aug. 11 to spotlight the region's forward-thinking tech. Sadly Pres. Obama doesn't know Holland's 6/15/11 message to the LGBT community: Holland's prosperity is not for gay Americans. Holland City Council made that clear 6/15/11 when they affirmed businesses could legally fire LGBT people (for being LGBT.) Same for landlords: Holland City Council on 6/15/11 affirmed their right to deny housing to LGBT Americans.
I have thought about taking my life for the past three years and I was picked on alot for being a lesbian. I have to say that without my family and friends, I wouldn't be here.
@ShinigamiRukia17 Please dont do it. It get better. I know its awkward but talk to someone. Skype with Davey. Just plz dont do it. Think of all the people you would harm by harming yourself. Im only 11 and I have thought only once bout killing myself cause i was gay. but I knew it wasnt the right option. PLease dont kill yourself. I love you, even though I dont know you.
@gaskleronts Thank you very much. I know that it wouldn't be the right thing to do but I have had the thoughts. I am a strong enough person to stop myself. To all my GLBT memember, I love you all, even if I don't know you.
OMG his poor parents!! Suicide is NOT the answer, folks!!! One of my closest friends Mother killed herself. He is 32 and it still completely devistates him at times. Please talk to a friend, call The Trevor foundation, come on twitter and talk. It does get better.. and you will devistate those left behind
@mediarulestheworld not all religious people think of being gay as wrong, i'm religious and don't think it's wrong - but i can see it's a majority that do
I felt like the whole mood was ruined because your shirt was off. Its a serious topic and i feel like your shirt of been on just for this one video.. sorry
I love all of you, all of US. I WISH that human beings could look past labels, colors, and everything else, and see themselves, before we lose another person to carelessness and hate. I say this as the Mother of a GBLT teen. All I know is: that is my child and I love her. You, everyone is someone's baby, and deserve's loving care. Ryan, I wish you were here. I wish ........we valued each other more.
Threat we can embody that wish is to try to be nice to people make them feel like there is someone out there for me it may be difficult to reach everyone but try it does make a difference
This is one of the most moving stories I have heard...no words can take away the pain of Ryan's passing....however the work that you do to constantly raise the issues that affect young gay men is beyond doubt way above the call of duty.
Thank you Davey you are a man with a beautiful soul
I myself am not gay but i stumbled across your videos and ive been watchign them for an hour, my father is gay and several of my bestfriends are gay and i love what you do and i support you. thank you for being the beautiful person you are and keep being him :)
just another of the 3000 or so gay kids who commit suicide every year, thanks to the "anything but " christians. The same type of people who gave us slavery, the kkk and segregation.
We went to war over 3000 killed on 9-11. When are we going to do something drastic about the hate groups that give us a 9-11 every single year.
This has been incredibly difficult for us but it has also lead us on a journey towards a more spiritual path. We have been buoyed by the outpouring of the love & light from people like Davey & others from all around the world.
Ryan was very special; he touched so very many lives while he was here. He helped so many LGBT kids find the strength and courage to be who they really are in a place that is filled with intolerance, ignorance & fear.
@Jordanlewisw Hi Jordan, I'm Ryan's mom and I wanted to say that reading what you've written here somehow makes what happened with my son make some sense. If his story helps to keep other LGBT kids alive, then it won't have been such a tragic waste.
I was in tears during this. You truly are a beautiful human being. I will totally be signing up for the wish. I really wish more people were like you davey.
@molz1231 Welcome to christianity. civilization's curse. those who believe If you tell a lie often enough and outrageous enough, it will be seen as the truth.
Its quite possible that chowbinbin is one of the people of that nut case Westboro baptist church. they often troll the web looking to throw out their hate. Anotehr of their names was "mary Waterton"
we need someone who is dying of cancer no hope and doesns't have a family, who will solve the problem of the religious creeps.
@MrChowbinbin wow your so badass you can talk shit on the internet..... turns out you cant even put up a video yourself or even put up a picture of youself i think i see a fail troll here
This truly saved my life, just moments before I watched this I was about to take a handful of pills and I decided to just get on facebook real quick and saw this and decided to watch it. Thank you
@jordanlewisw Don't you dare do that Jordan! Life is so precious and no matter how bad things are now, to use an old cliche that really is true, it's always darkest just before the dawn of a new day! Hang in there and the best part of your life may be just around the next corner!!
I am a mom of a gay son. I know it sometimes is very difficult to be gay but please don't take your own life.
I don't know your situation, how old you are, where you live but believe me, there are people who love for who you are. Try not to listen tp those who say being gay is a sin, that you will go to hell etc. They are ignorant and stupid. You are not, you are a wonderful guy!
@jordanlewisw Please don't take your life. Stay strong. I may not know you, but I do love you. I value your life. So please, PLEASE stay with with us. <3
@jordanlewisw That's too close for comfort, sir. Please know that there are many people out here who will listen to you and respect you. Please give us the chance to help you if you need it. Also please repeat same to any you might know in a similar situation. You're never really alone....
@jordanlewisw Hey buddy, I know I'm not in any position to say anything, as I am a stranger and am not in this video, but thank you for not taking your own life. You're a beautiful human being, regardless of who you are right now. You serve a purpose in this life, whatever purpose you want that to be. Stay strong, and rejoice in the fact you have your whole life to love yourself! I bet you're smart, funny, and have incredible attributes; you could do so much. Also, I do care. <3
thats tragic :( i would have loved to make a video but i dont have a video camera so all i can do is post my wish on here. I wish that everyone who is it ryans situation or generaly feels that they can not go on, boy girl straight gay everyone can find the streangth to make it through. Trust me you make think it wont get better but it does the sadness only lasts a short time before you can over come it i should know i tried to take my own life and im so happy i didnt so please reconsider. xxxxxx
If I could have a super power, I'd want to be able to teleport to people who were about to take their own lives, just so I could hold them and let them know that other people genuinely do care.
I love you. You are amazing, beautiful, and very special. You care for everyone, and we care for you. You will go to Heaven when it'd your time of death. I hope your life will be filled with joy and peace. I love you, but I am a girl. You think of everyone. You are amazing. You are generous. You are special. Thank you so much for caring. I wish that everyone would follow in your footsteps; generous, caring, amazing, and just plain special. RIP Ryan. <3
I am, in a way, a "double survivor" of suicide. I survived my own suicide attempt in my late 20s, and I lived through my step-brother's death from suicide when I was 30. Both devastated family & friends of both of us. I could spend hours describing what I was thinking, and I'm not sure if that's what Troy was, too, as far as hopelessness goes (different reasons, same feelings). No one ever "heals" from that kind of death in their life. I am lucky to say I'm sorry. Most don't get to do that.
OMG. I cannot believe another gay man has killed himself. It tears me apart everytime I hear about a person killing themselves because they did not get help that they needed. It tears me apart everytime I hear another gay person being harassed because of their orientation. It needs to stop. There needs to be more educaters out there edcating the community about our community.
Hi... My 18 year old son killed himself last year on May 5th... His name was Austin Mueller and he was also gay.... i can completely relate to this story and the devastation that comes along with it... Thank you for sharing Ryan's story... Love and Blessings to you!!! <3 <3
@misscoulter8 Hi there...I know I am a complete stranger to you and didn't know your son, but your story touched a nerve. Thank you for being so brave to tell us his story...I hope and pray that Austin is at peace and that you are able to come to terms with the loss of your beautiful boy...cyber hugs from the UK...Richard
My first name is Nick and i recently sent you an email on your blog! Please check your emails to give me advice! or even a video! ;) It broke my heart when i watched this video and saw the faint sadness in your eyes, thank you for all you help, keep up your inspiring work! Love You!
Thank you for sharing Ryan's story. His story is very sad and I am certain it was not easy to tell. A young gay man I know took his life about two years ago. I felt a bit down for months after he died.
The mass that Ryan had in his brain turned out to be non-malignant after we had been told that it was. This was the miracle that Davey is referring to as all of us in Ryan's family felt it to be truly that.
Ryan had several very serious medical conditions in addition to the mass that they found in his head. He had active rheumatic fever, which caused damage to his heart valves and joints by the very young age of 18. He was type I diabetic & had rapid cycling bipolar disorder
It was a combination of all of those things that led Ryan to the side of that mountain that night to shoot himself and it was also VERY MUCH that he felt that he didn't belong here in the community that we live it. The community is VERY intolerant of homosexuality; gay kids are shunned, beaten, judged and made to feel that they are somehow defective by their parents, teachers, "friends" and the community in general.
In the six months prior to his death, Ryan had one friend be literally almost beaten to death by his step-father just for coming out and another that was left to die completely alone by his parents and other family because he was dying of AIDS related pneumonia. The family told the nurses to call them when this boy died...that they would come and collect his belongings afterward but they would not spend one minute comforting their son as he lay dying. It's just beyond tragic
@Jewelz1105 I am honestly sorry for the loss of your son, if my comment offended you in any way, i apologize. It is just that i had been a cancer patient 5 years ago and in the time i was there i met a 16 year old boy with pancreatic cancer, we shared stories in the chemo therapy ward for a while and became friends, he was supposedly cured of his tumor, then 2 years later i found out that he took his life when his tumor came back thats why i Ryan's story seemed familiar too me.
Oh no, you didn't offend me at all! I appreciated your thoughtful comment and wanted to take the chance to clarify what happened.
Replying to your comment also gave me a good opportunity to vent about how horrid the vast majority of people living here are to members of the LGBT community...and Ryan's death has really been a catalyst for me when it comes to speaking out against that type of ignorance, hatred and intolerance.
Great Idea :) This video definitely touched me, and I wish I could apply, but I don't think I'll have the time. I can't wait, though, to see everyone else's videos!
I hope Ryan is at peace now. I can barely handle being gay, nevermind being gay and a Cancer survivor.
I know his family is likely in turmoil, but I hope they can find solace in knowing that he's not suffering anymore nor will he ever have to again. No matter which way one looks at it, I still think Ryan's a warrior. He did the best he could. RIP Ryan from Utah...... xox
i sowwie :( and my wish is for bullying to stop and for ppl to love life and love themselves especially ppl like like my self who has attempted so many times then pretty much saw my friend do it
Davey , Sadly Ryan's Story is and has been one over many year. I had gone through just about the same thing about 18 yrs ago where a younger internet friend on the west coast had helped me through my lowest and prevented me from taking my life ,when just a few months later (after planning to meet up with him in the near future) took his own life .Still breaks my heart and will never be forgotten. Since and for ever after i have and will do what i can to help those that i can . peace to all !
My wish is for all who feel despair to find their inner spark, no matter how dim, and open up to let more light in to bring that ember to a roaring fire worthy of who they are and to be whole again. My other wish is for those who have done this and can help others to find the spark and share their fire with them and be joyful together... We are all siblings and owe it to our Family to help Us All be Whole! So let it be! Amen. Love You Too Davey! Mwah!
crying here. i feel for Ryans family!.....i feel for all family's who lost people over suicide....i lost a friend to over suicide. Davey you're so kind to do this. you're heart is so pure it shines. i love you! thank you for all the kind words you speak.
well i don't think i could do a video thing for it, but i really hope that someone who can will make a wish about loneliness. like to end loneliness. for everyone to feel unconditional support, and above all just to feel happy about themselves. or better yet to end the emptyness that depressed and suicidal people feel.... i hope the video thing works out
Thank you Davey for taking this to a whole new level. I wish I could be involved, but alas I have just started my blog channel and have a crappy built in web cam. I grew up in a small town in Texas where I had no loyalty from family or friends. No teachers who would help me. I was shot at a party and literally set on fire at a bonfire. Growing up gay is no easy task. i only hope and wish that Ryan has found peace after all his struggle. I love you, Davey and i love all the LGBT kids out there.
I wish that every single time someone is feeling down there will be something to pick them back up. Hopelessness is one of the worst feelings and there should always be a better form of relief than leaving this world forever.
This is a sad story, but let him not die in vein, let his life show you that if you want something to happen strongly enough, it can happen. That no matter how low you feel, there is always a better bit of life for you around the corner.
I wish people understand that being LGBT is not a choice, but hating, being spiteful, being hurtful and ignorant is a choice. I wish people choose not to be hateful, spiteful or ignorant. The unknown causes all sorts of fear in people, always have always will, but you can change that by educating yourself.
*Hugs*** Try not to be discouraged. You've given so much love to us through your post, videos, and blogs. Now it's our turn to return some of that love to you however we can. <3 <3 <3 I love you.
I am a little late with my reply and I do hope you are still here to get it...please, please, please do not end your life. Suicide is such a permanent solution to a temporary situation~ I feel I have the right to say this being Ryan's mom. You wouldn't believe the carnage that his death has left behind! and sadly, there were literally 100"s of people who loved him and would have been there for him and odds are very good that there are many people who would be there for you too
Thank you so much for your concern! It really means a lot to me. Obviously you weren't to late. I still haven't come out to my parents and friends. I've only come out to my sister and to one of my friends. They were both fine with it, but my parents; Closed-minded, right-wing, conservatives who think that all gay people are going to hell, would not accept me. I know it. It really breaks my heart. I don't think I could ever commit suicide. But it doesn't stop me from wanting to.
@violetsinger1 wanting to is dangerous, it would be terrible to end your life, the joyous wonder of life just because some people don't see the beauty of love, no matter what orientation. death will alway find you if you call it, people can't
Thank you for doing this Davey. Your compassion is a wonderful thing and touches us all. You remind us we are a community and we need to reach out and create a world where all know they are loved.
I wish people will have the strength to get help with suicidal thoughts. Not only now or the near future but in the days to come in our distant future. SO many of my friends I have been able to talk out of suicide because they talked to me. Any others have rarely in any case communicated with anyone. It makes me cry to know they could have been helped.
I applaud your efforts and contributions to the LGBT community. But trying to make a serious point while sitting there shirtless, tends to cheapen the message. Sexy and shirtless works for some of your blogs; not for all.
@bac9339 it's just being shirtless. and he's not trying to be sexy to get his message out, he is naturally sexy. wearing a tux, and looking and acting the way you wouldn't normally would look or act sure changes the meaning of the message, wouldn't it?
i lost an uncle to suiced i was very close to him. to feel so low to put a rope round you neck must be so devastating i luv u davie keep up the video's xxx
Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.
I asked god why are you such an ass hole for giving kind people such pain and suffering, he never answered. So I guess even he does not have the answers to all questions, that or he does not exists.
Your story was so sad, if only he had the strength to last until you met him,
I know you Davey, would have made such a difference in his life.
His dad came to my school it was so sad..
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thomp777 4 months ago
I wish that nobody ever has to feel that alone due to what this process is like because of culture, family, and religion. I wish that nobody has to lose their friend, confidant, and soul mate because of others. I wish that children like R (protected for his family) and I would never be raised hating and fearing what and who they were. I wish I still had R to go through this with me. I wish I had a friend that understood and loved me again.
thomp777 4 months ago
I am so sorry that this happened in Ryan's and his family's lives. About one year ago my best friend and I were working through the concept of being gay and becoming okay with it. Unfortunately my friend couldn't do it and hung himself in his dorm room and I wasn't quick enough to catch it or fully even realize that we were journeying together through this process. He was my only friend and continuing on has seemed almost impossible.
thomp777 4 months ago
its hard to be different
vannikyo 6 months ago
Why is LGBT suicide so high? I don't understand. I am gay, and I don't get it. I am not trying to be dramatic, I just want to understand why the suicide rate is so high in the LGBT community. My mind cannot wrap around it. Please help me to understand in any way that you can.
LetsStartOverNow 6 months ago
@LetsStartOverNow Some people are in worse situations than others. Some people cannot handle the fact that it's not a walk in the park at times to be different. For some, it is nearly impossible to see past the bad in their lives. It's not always their fault. We have to be careful when we question people's motives.
JordmanKNOWS 6 months ago
@LetsStartOverNow Well, in my old town (in a more urban area) LGBT people are more accepted. They're actually really popular.
But when I moved to a more rural area it was VERY different. There are so many closeted kids. And I don't blame them. The kids at my school are ruthless. They will be nice to your face and turn around and call people things like "nigger" and "fag". There is only one guy that I know who is open about it and he gets picked on even if he just says one thing. I don't get it.
bonezillion 6 months ago
@LetsStartOverNow My point is, that it depends on the environment these people are in. If they are accepted because people are more cultured, then I'm sure they are less likely to end their own lives. But in more close knit, bible belt towns, they are more than likely going to get bullied because there is a stereotype of what they should be. Some people just can't take it. Imagine being bullied day after day with no end. It would get old after a while.
bonezillion 6 months ago
@LetsStartOverNow Some people, such as myself, don't want to be gay. I've came to terms with the fact that I am, and that the chances of that changing are so very low. I seriously don't know what to look forward to in life. I can't see myself with a partner, and some people aren't as lucky as davey, to be fit and healthy, and amazingly good looking. Sometimes taking your life seems to be an easier way out. Life can be so cruel
skipskops 5 months ago
tbh it frustrates me thats he killed himself its a selfish act he was given a second chance in live and he threw it away imagine how many people would love a second chance in life
123joshuac456 6 months ago
so, did he commit suicide because he was being bullied, or because he had been through hell and back from having cancer for so long?
lieutenantshinysides 7 months ago
HELP US: President Obama is visiting Holland, MI on Aug. 11 to spotlight the region's forward-thinking tech. Sadly Pres. Obama doesn't know Holland's 6/15/11 message to the LGBT community: Holland's prosperity is not for gay Americans. Holland City Council made that clear 6/15/11 when they affirmed businesses could legally fire LGBT people (for being LGBT.) Same for landlords: Holland City Council on 6/15/11 affirmed their right to deny housing to LGBT Americans.
aeroxjt 7 months ago
put on your shirt
downupsidefrown 7 months ago
My sisters friend shot himself in the head well that's what evryone thinks because there were no witnesses
kidZ108 7 months ago
I have thought about taking my life for the past three years and I was picked on alot for being a lesbian. I have to say that without my family and friends, I wouldn't be here.
ShinigamiRukia17 7 months ago
@ShinigamiRukia17 Please dont do it. It get better. I know its awkward but talk to someone. Skype with Davey. Just plz dont do it. Think of all the people you would harm by harming yourself. Im only 11 and I have thought only once bout killing myself cause i was gay. but I knew it wasnt the right option. PLease dont kill yourself. I love you, even though I dont know you.
gaskleronts 7 months ago
@gaskleronts Thank you very much. I know that it wouldn't be the right thing to do but I have had the thoughts. I am a strong enough person to stop myself. To all my GLBT memember, I love you all, even if I don't know you.
ShinigamiRukia17 7 months ago
@ShinigamiRukia17 ah forget the other people. being a lesbian is awesome. if you ever think about stuff like that have a you day
xAinonaix 7 months ago
@xAinonaix It's hard to have time to myself because i've been working to pay off college. Being a lesbian is awesome! :)
ShinigamiRukia17 7 months ago
@ShinigamiRukia17 Live can be full of pain... but also full of beauty. Stay strong, you never know what the future holds.
JordmanKNOWS 6 months ago
@JordmanKNOWS I know that now. I was in a car accident and it made me see how much I want to live.
ShinigamiRukia17 6 months ago
awww davey i wish i could hug you. i can hear the heartbreak in your voice...
mishisume 7 months ago
davey its ok to cry.
kittywittykat 7 months ago 3
the ppl who say tht being gay is a sin can go FUCK THEMSELVES!!!!
kittywittykat 7 months ago 3
OMG his poor parents!! Suicide is NOT the answer, folks!!! One of my closest friends Mother killed herself. He is 32 and it still completely devistates him at times. Please talk to a friend, call The Trevor foundation, come on twitter and talk. It does get better.. and you will devistate those left behind
marcirpal 7 months ago
I cried . 3:
purpledinosaur32542 7 months ago
From Utah. Why am I not surprised?
God damned religous people. -_-
mediarulestheworld 7 months ago 2
@mediarulestheworld not all religious people think of being gay as wrong, i'm religious and don't think it's wrong - but i can see it's a majority that do
karan2310 7 months ago
wow. actually crying now :'(
Rucky0927 7 months ago
Wait, who disliked the video, West Burough Baptist Church?! ...fuckers.
jorgebasaure22 8 months ago 11
I felt like the whole mood was ruined because your shirt was off. Its a serious topic and i feel like your shirt of been on just for this one video.. sorry
nwood1025 8 months ago 2
I wish that this sort of thing would NEVER happen again!
Wizzcan 8 months ago
I love all of you, all of US. I WISH that human beings could look past labels, colors, and everything else, and see themselves, before we lose another person to carelessness and hate. I say this as the Mother of a GBLT teen. All I know is: that is my child and I love her. You, everyone is someone's baby, and deserve's loving care. Ryan, I wish you were here. I wish ........we valued each other more.
dontyoucallmethat 8 months ago 3
I ment the way at the beginning darn autocorrect
MHN8 8 months ago
Threat we can embody that wish is to try to be nice to people make them feel like there is someone out there for me it may be difficult to reach everyone but try it does make a difference
MHN8 8 months ago
one question is he gay?
juliusmonkey11 8 months ago
This is one of the most moving stories I have heard...no words can take away the pain of Ryan's passing....however the work that you do to constantly raise the issues that affect young gay men is beyond doubt way above the call of duty.
Thank you Davey you are a man with a beautiful soul
Richard. UK :-)
rmberry7 8 months ago
Davey, when are you gonna send the packages?
jaangs 8 months ago
monuments bearing the names of the fallen from two world wars, black equality campaigners and women's rights activists are found across the globe,
one of the few hopes I have left is that our list of those who fell in the face of intolerance does not yet grow to rival them, in seize or horror.
zodiac822 8 months ago
please warn others about this - it is too heavy - it ruined my evening!
sensidee 9 months ago
I myself am not gay but i stumbled across your videos and ive been watchign them for an hour, my father is gay and several of my bestfriends are gay and i love what you do and i support you. thank you for being the beautiful person you are and keep being him :)
cassandrajoanne 9 months ago 4
<3
RebbelReb 9 months ago
So, this is incredibly touching. I can't say what I feel, words can't.
elizabethlelaa 9 months ago 2
I wish that one day we can all live in harmony, without fear, regret or worry; I wish ...
MySimpleMacTV 9 months ago 3
just another of the 3000 or so gay kids who commit suicide every year, thanks to the "anything but " christians. The same type of people who gave us slavery, the kkk and segregation.
We went to war over 3000 killed on 9-11. When are we going to do something drastic about the hate groups that give us a 9-11 every single year.
butteye02 9 months ago 2
"Before you echo Amen in your home or place of worship, think and remember I child is listening." -Mary Griffith
noklio12 9 months ago
i am touched :) xxxxx
smivy7799 9 months ago
@TheNella1961
thank you for your kind words <3
This has been incredibly difficult for us but it has also lead us on a journey towards a more spiritual path. We have been buoyed by the outpouring of the love & light from people like Davey & others from all around the world.
Ryan was very special; he touched so very many lives while he was here. He helped so many LGBT kids find the strength and courage to be who they really are in a place that is filled with intolerance, ignorance & fear.
Jewelz1105 9 months ago 2
@Jordanlewisw Hi Jordan, I'm Ryan's mom and I wanted to say that reading what you've written here somehow makes what happened with my son make some sense. If his story helps to keep other LGBT kids alive, then it won't have been such a tragic waste.
Jewelz1105 9 months ago 2
@Jewelz1105
Dear Jewelz,
I am so sorry about the loss of your son.
I have no words to comfort you but I do wish you and your family all the strenght you need.
Love from the Netherlands .
Nella.
TheNella1961 9 months ago
I was in tears during this. You truly are a beautiful human being. I will totally be signing up for the wish. I really wish more people were like you davey.
ptg35 9 months ago 3
PLEASE PUT ON A SHIRT.
TheDarklord0211 9 months ago
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i wish all gay people do the same thing like ryan. peace!!!
MrChowbinbin 9 months ago
@MrChowbinbin are you saying that all gay people should kill themselves? thats honestly a terrible thing to say...
molz1231 9 months ago 3
@molz1231 Welcome to christianity. civilization's curse. those who believe If you tell a lie often enough and outrageous enough, it will be seen as the truth.
Its quite possible that chowbinbin is one of the people of that nut case Westboro baptist church. they often troll the web looking to throw out their hate. Anotehr of their names was "mary Waterton"
we need someone who is dying of cancer no hope and doesns't have a family, who will solve the problem of the religious creeps.
butteye02 9 months ago
@MrChowbinbin wow your so badass you can talk shit on the internet..... turns out you cant even put up a video yourself or even put up a picture of youself i think i see a fail troll here
LifeOfAGay 9 months ago
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@LifeOfAGay do i have to upload videos or a picture to be able to leave comments? no? stfu then. dumb gay kid. please go say hi to ryan.
MrChowbinbin 9 months ago
@MrChowbinbin big words for someone talking on the internet little boy
LifeOfAGay 9 months ago
This truly saved my life, just moments before I watched this I was about to take a handful of pills and I decided to just get on facebook real quick and saw this and decided to watch it. Thank you
jordanlewisw 9 months ago 27
@jordanlewisw Don't you dare do that Jordan! Life is so precious and no matter how bad things are now, to use an old cliche that really is true, it's always darkest just before the dawn of a new day! Hang in there and the best part of your life may be just around the next corner!!
bearchub4u 9 months ago
@jordanlewisw
Dear Jordan,
I am a mom of a gay son. I know it sometimes is very difficult to be gay but please don't take your own life.
I don't know your situation, how old you are, where you live but believe me, there are people who love for who you are. Try not to listen tp those who say being gay is a sin, that you will go to hell etc. They are ignorant and stupid. You are not, you are a wonderful guy!
There is nothing wrong with you!
Nella
TheNella1961 9 months ago 2
@jordanlewisw Please don't take your life. Stay strong. I may not know you, but I do love you. I value your life. So please, PLEASE stay with with us. <3
kissmequick07 9 months ago 3
@jordanlewisw That's too close for comfort, sir. Please know that there are many people out here who will listen to you and respect you. Please give us the chance to help you if you need it. Also please repeat same to any you might know in a similar situation. You're never really alone....
deimos540 6 months ago
@jordanlewisw Hey buddy, I know I'm not in any position to say anything, as I am a stranger and am not in this video, but thank you for not taking your own life. You're a beautiful human being, regardless of who you are right now. You serve a purpose in this life, whatever purpose you want that to be. Stay strong, and rejoice in the fact you have your whole life to love yourself! I bet you're smart, funny, and have incredible attributes; you could do so much. Also, I do care. <3
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KittyboxGynie 9 months ago
awe davey! I can sense the sadness. I empathize with you. I hope we all can and wish that too!
Duo1 9 months ago
May the Divine Mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ encompass Ryan's soul and embrace him. Rev. Eric Fraize, D.D.; OSB
OperationPhoenix2010 9 months ago
it just dose not make sense why he would take his on life after finding out he beat cancer :/ well atleast he is a piece R.I.P Ryan xxx
gayrichy1993 9 months ago
thats tragic :( i would have loved to make a video but i dont have a video camera so all i can do is post my wish on here. I wish that everyone who is it ryans situation or generaly feels that they can not go on, boy girl straight gay everyone can find the streangth to make it through. Trust me you make think it wont get better but it does the sadness only lasts a short time before you can over come it i should know i tried to take my own life and im so happy i didnt so please reconsider. xxxxxx
gayrichy1993 9 months ago
If I could have a super power, I'd want to be able to teleport to people who were about to take their own lives, just so I could hold them and let them know that other people genuinely do care.
daltonsilver 9 months ago
RIP Ryan
<3
cheuini 9 months ago
you are very caring and inspiring. i would love to try and help in any way to lessen the hurt people are feeling. I want to join you.. what can i do?
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buddahisfatlol 9 months ago
I love you. You are amazing, beautiful, and very special. You care for everyone, and we care for you. You will go to Heaven when it'd your time of death. I hope your life will be filled with joy and peace. I love you, but I am a girl. You think of everyone. You are amazing. You are generous. You are special. Thank you so much for caring. I wish that everyone would follow in your footsteps; generous, caring, amazing, and just plain special. RIP Ryan. <3
-Sammi
xepicxsammix 9 months ago 3
I am, in a way, a "double survivor" of suicide. I survived my own suicide attempt in my late 20s, and I lived through my step-brother's death from suicide when I was 30. Both devastated family & friends of both of us. I could spend hours describing what I was thinking, and I'm not sure if that's what Troy was, too, as far as hopelessness goes (different reasons, same feelings). No one ever "heals" from that kind of death in their life. I am lucky to say I'm sorry. Most don't get to do that.
robbkcmo 9 months ago
omg R.I.P Ryan. God will keep your soul and keep away the negativity. anyone else crying?
Johnny90M 9 months ago
have no camera, but I wish and I pray for Ryan's quick way straight to the light, to God. Thanks for sharing your heart with us.
tangobuenosaires 9 months ago
OMG. I cannot believe another gay man has killed himself. It tears me apart everytime I hear about a person killing themselves because they did not get help that they needed. It tears me apart everytime I hear another gay person being harassed because of their orientation. It needs to stop. There needs to be more educaters out there edcating the community about our community.
HMTOlympic 9 months ago
Hi... My 18 year old son killed himself last year on May 5th... His name was Austin Mueller and he was also gay.... i can completely relate to this story and the devastation that comes along with it... Thank you for sharing Ryan's story... Love and Blessings to you!!! <3 <3
misscoulter8 9 months ago
@misscoulter8 Hi there...I know I am a complete stranger to you and didn't know your son, but your story touched a nerve. Thank you for being so brave to tell us his story...I hope and pray that Austin is at peace and that you are able to come to terms with the loss of your beautiful boy...cyber hugs from the UK...Richard
rmberry7 8 months ago 2
God is so good.
joel43160 9 months ago
@joel43160 god doesnt exist :/
Mrcaliberz 9 months ago
Hi davey,
My first name is Nick and i recently sent you an email on your blog! Please check your emails to give me advice! or even a video! ;) It broke my heart when i watched this video and saw the faint sadness in your eyes, thank you for all you help, keep up your inspiring work! Love You!
DerpzUnited 9 months ago
sad stuff, but on the bright side your hair looks greaat!
thomashbreed 9 months ago
Thank you for sharing Ryan's story. His story is very sad and I am certain it was not easy to tell. A young gay man I know took his life about two years ago. I felt a bit down for months after he died.
garysdeskcom 9 months ago
I cried soooo hard because ... that is my friends like cousin r something :(
Cedrick201 9 months ago
@Cedrick201
Awwww. I'm so sorry. I know it seems really insincere but i'm not being. I mean you knew the boy. Were yall like friends or something.
TheFreckledBoyWonder 9 months ago
@TheFreckledBoyWonder well it was my friends cousin so i didnt really know him, but it still made me really sad!
Cedrick201 9 months ago
less suicide talk more BIG SEXY CHEST!
ando1135 9 months ago
omg thats soo sad! ;(
kevin6004 9 months ago
May the soul of Ryan and all of the souls of our GLBT communities, our faithfully departed, rest in peace. Amen. +Patrick, OSB
ma72301 9 months ago 68
What a shame about Ryan. I can only assume that his Cancer came back harder, and that's why he did it.
Cancer treatment is hard enough one time, but to have to repeat it, his act is understandable, but unnecessary.
May he Rest in Peace.
whambamram 9 months ago
@whambamram
The mass that Ryan had in his brain turned out to be non-malignant after we had been told that it was. This was the miracle that Davey is referring to as all of us in Ryan's family felt it to be truly that.
Ryan had several very serious medical conditions in addition to the mass that they found in his head. He had active rheumatic fever, which caused damage to his heart valves and joints by the very young age of 18. He was type I diabetic & had rapid cycling bipolar disorder
Jewelz1105 9 months ago
@whambamram
It was a combination of all of those things that led Ryan to the side of that mountain that night to shoot himself and it was also VERY MUCH that he felt that he didn't belong here in the community that we live it. The community is VERY intolerant of homosexuality; gay kids are shunned, beaten, judged and made to feel that they are somehow defective by their parents, teachers, "friends" and the community in general.
Jewelz1105 9 months ago
@whambamram
In the six months prior to his death, Ryan had one friend be literally almost beaten to death by his step-father just for coming out and another that was left to die completely alone by his parents and other family because he was dying of AIDS related pneumonia. The family told the nurses to call them when this boy died...that they would come and collect his belongings afterward but they would not spend one minute comforting their son as he lay dying. It's just beyond tragic
Jewelz1105 9 months ago
@Jewelz1105 I am honestly sorry for the loss of your son, if my comment offended you in any way, i apologize. It is just that i had been a cancer patient 5 years ago and in the time i was there i met a 16 year old boy with pancreatic cancer, we shared stories in the chemo therapy ward for a while and became friends, he was supposedly cured of his tumor, then 2 years later i found out that he took his life when his tumor came back thats why i Ryan's story seemed familiar too me.
whambamram 9 months ago
@whambamram
Oh no, you didn't offend me at all! I appreciated your thoughtful comment and wanted to take the chance to clarify what happened.
Replying to your comment also gave me a good opportunity to vent about how horrid the vast majority of people living here are to members of the LGBT community...and Ryan's death has really been a catalyst for me when it comes to speaking out against that type of ignorance, hatred and intolerance.
Jewelz1105 9 months ago
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im assuming the cancer came back and thats why he did it?
iamcruelty 9 months ago
im assuming the cancer came back and thats why he did it?
iamcruelty 9 months ago
Amazing. this video gave me chills
vspinkluvsmoney 9 months ago
You are such an inspiring person. Thanks for being there for so many.
orlndtheme 9 months ago
That is so sad ... all that positive vibe just got drowned in a tsunami of disappointment and sadness :(
MiAkount 9 months ago
Great Idea :) This video definitely touched me, and I wish I could apply, but I don't think I'll have the time. I can't wait, though, to see everyone else's videos!
thisismyreallife 9 months ago
@TheHappyLittleBee I'll do my best I promise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LaSenoraG 9 months ago
I hope Ryan is at peace now. I can barely handle being gay, nevermind being gay and a Cancer survivor.
I know his family is likely in turmoil, but I hope they can find solace in knowing that he's not suffering anymore nor will he ever have to again. No matter which way one looks at it, I still think Ryan's a warrior. He did the best he could. RIP Ryan from Utah...... xox
oxforddictonary 9 months ago 2
I'm sorry about your friend. :( Good luck...
Kingofbling1 9 months ago
the 7 people who disliked this video clearly have no heart...
lee8lee8 9 months ago 54
I was afraid to click this video when I saw the title, but I did click it and things got worse :(
alyster206 9 months ago
i sowwie :( and my wish is for bullying to stop and for ppl to love life and love themselves especially ppl like like my self who has attempted so many times then pretty much saw my friend do it
misshellokitty2010 9 months ago
Davey , Sadly Ryan's Story is and has been one over many year. I had gone through just about the same thing about 18 yrs ago where a younger internet friend on the west coast had helped me through my lowest and prevented me from taking my life ,when just a few months later (after planning to meet up with him in the near future) took his own life .Still breaks my heart and will never be forgotten. Since and for ever after i have and will do what i can to help those that i can . peace to all !
Oblio68 9 months ago 3
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CHuckLIiveONDEck 9 months ago
I can hear you start crying. :/ i sowwy that it happend.
shadowfire03222 9 months ago
My wish is for all who feel despair to find their inner spark, no matter how dim, and open up to let more light in to bring that ember to a roaring fire worthy of who they are and to be whole again. My other wish is for those who have done this and can help others to find the spark and share their fire with them and be joyful together... We are all siblings and owe it to our Family to help Us All be Whole! So let it be! Amen. Love You Too Davey! Mwah!
blooboy70 9 months ago
I wish: we can always be there for people who are in pain and suffering.
GraemeHull 9 months ago
Moving...... I'll do it Davey
MRLuluMart 9 months ago
I think suicide is a right.
Why do we feel it appropriate to lament someone else's decision?
Of course it is sad to think someone took their life who might have felt differently had they waited to act.
As a young gay male, I was often suicidal, but I always applied my "24 hour" rule; I promised myself to wait for one day and see how I felt then.
It kept me alive.
But for someone who is in physical pain, or just can't find joy in life, why deny them release?
Who are we to judge their choice?
oldclown 9 months ago
crying here. i feel for Ryans family!.....i feel for all family's who lost people over suicide....i lost a friend to over suicide. Davey you're so kind to do this. you're heart is so pure it shines. i love you! thank you for all the kind words you speak.
insect31 9 months ago
R.I.P Ryan -3
There's tears rolling down my cheeks
lovetravon 9 months ago
Davey you are such a nice person with a big heart <3 R.I.P. Ryan. My heart go out to his family and friends.
MickyBlackett 9 months ago
your strength is so amazing <3
MadiRich 9 months ago
I'd love to send one from new zealand! We're such a non discriminative country and i'd like to show how happy you can be here :)
itbeErica 9 months ago
well i don't think i could do a video thing for it, but i really hope that someone who can will make a wish about loneliness. like to end loneliness. for everyone to feel unconditional support, and above all just to feel happy about themselves. or better yet to end the emptyness that depressed and suicidal people feel.... i hope the video thing works out
hon3y865 9 months ago
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cutewitch772 9 months ago
Thank you Davey for taking this to a whole new level. I wish I could be involved, but alas I have just started my blog channel and have a crappy built in web cam. I grew up in a small town in Texas where I had no loyalty from family or friends. No teachers who would help me. I was shot at a party and literally set on fire at a bonfire. Growing up gay is no easy task. i only hope and wish that Ryan has found peace after all his struggle. I love you, Davey and i love all the LGBT kids out there.
Remy365 9 months ago
keep fighting, no matter how hard life can get we can make it through if we try.
makemegood5two 9 months ago
Sorry to hear about Ryan,it is sad how someone can take his/her life when LIFE is such a gift. Peace and Love to all
choro1981 9 months ago
@MDkid1 thanks!
Queencaresalot 9 months ago
This video was crazy because my name is Ryan.
lolhayhijinx 9 months ago
omg that is sad :( i am sorry
mattdawnbrandon 9 months ago
Have i seen an Garden Angels .. at this point in time .. i can say yes i have ... its Davey Wavey
chuckspjr 9 months ago
I wish that every single time someone is feeling down there will be something to pick them back up. Hopelessness is one of the worst feelings and there should always be a better form of relief than leaving this world forever.
Incanxgold 9 months ago
This is a sad story, but let him not die in vein, let his life show you that if you want something to happen strongly enough, it can happen. That no matter how low you feel, there is always a better bit of life for you around the corner.
FANNYLEROUX 9 months ago
oh Ryan....
MDkid1 9 months ago
i know theres wish but also a stronge faith of prayer life is so sweet and carein so yea i big prayer goes far
power1980 9 months ago
This story is amazing! Soo touching and it was soo cute that you almost cried about it. xoxox
ToxicWareProductions 9 months ago
I wish people understand that being LGBT is not a choice, but hating, being spiteful, being hurtful and ignorant is a choice. I wish people choose not to be hateful, spiteful or ignorant. The unknown causes all sorts of fear in people, always have always will, but you can change that by educating yourself.
roblou62 9 months ago 2
*Hugs*** Try not to be discouraged. You've given so much love to us through your post, videos, and blogs. Now it's our turn to return some of that love to you however we can. <3 <3 <3 I love you.
Dancerboy86 9 months ago
I wish that when I come out, my parents accept my being pansexual. And that I can stop having suicidal thoughts like I am right now.
violetsinger1 9 months ago
@violetsinger1
I am a little late with my reply and I do hope you are still here to get it...please, please, please do not end your life. Suicide is such a permanent solution to a temporary situation~ I feel I have the right to say this being Ryan's mom. You wouldn't believe the carnage that his death has left behind! and sadly, there were literally 100"s of people who loved him and would have been there for him and odds are very good that there are many people who would be there for you too
Jewelz1105 7 months ago
@Jewelz1105
Thank you so much for your concern! It really means a lot to me. Obviously you weren't to late. I still haven't come out to my parents and friends. I've only come out to my sister and to one of my friends. They were both fine with it, but my parents; Closed-minded, right-wing, conservatives who think that all gay people are going to hell, would not accept me. I know it. It really breaks my heart. I don't think I could ever commit suicide. But it doesn't stop me from wanting to.
violetsinger1 7 months ago
@violetsinger1 wanting to is dangerous, it would be terrible to end your life, the joyous wonder of life just because some people don't see the beauty of love, no matter what orientation. death will alway find you if you call it, people can't
trekie210 7 months ago
I also wish this to others who feels the same way :)
cgyguy86 9 months ago
I wish for me to build more confidence and love myself to enough to share it with the world :)
cgyguy86 9 months ago
Davey, you look tired ;-( such a sad message you have shared with us, peace out xx
seanbone007 9 months ago
@seanbone007 I think he's just sad :(
MDkid1 9 months ago
could someone please post the link to the original video that he is talking about?
Queencaresalot 9 months ago
@Queencaresalot if you go to the link that he posted in the description box, and go to the sign up page, it is listed right at the top. :)
MDkid1 9 months ago
Thank you for doing this Davey. Your compassion is a wonderful thing and touches us all. You remind us we are a community and we need to reach out and create a world where all know they are loved.
screaminggay5 9 months ago
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I wish that all younger gay people will realize that "It will get better"
TheSoundExperience83 9 months ago
I cried watching this video...Ryan...you'll find happiness wherever you are now =) You deserve it!
chronoszejing 9 months ago
I wish I could participate. Too bad I can't, but all my prayers go out to Ryan's family. ,<3
deztinyjwalker 9 months ago
Antartica... Australia... ya know, the random places on earth. just kidding :)
I'll see if I can help with this project Davey :)
jcmendezify 9 months ago
This sounds like a great plan. A great memorial for Ryan.
onyxman8 9 months ago
i wish i was tumor free
ilovemusicWIKA 9 months ago
i wish tolerances was something that every one would use.
deadsillyrabbit 9 months ago
poor Ryan, RIP
ecupaulac666 9 months ago
i literally chocked up and started crying. you're an incredible person davey <3
norlack89 9 months ago
I wish people will have the strength to get help with suicidal thoughts. Not only now or the near future but in the days to come in our distant future. SO many of my friends I have been able to talk out of suicide because they talked to me. Any others have rarely in any case communicated with anyone. It makes me cry to know they could have been helped.
Mathew9648 9 months ago
We can do more than wish davey, we (you :p) could start a community, or promote one that helps people in these situation.
Leadman1989 9 months ago
HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LaSenoraG 9 months ago
@LAXisMEANT4NATIVES75 I can count myself as one. I;m an unofficial Hag. lol
LaSenoraG 9 months ago
I applaud your efforts and contributions to the LGBT community. But trying to make a serious point while sitting there shirtless, tends to cheapen the message. Sexy and shirtless works for some of your blogs; not for all.
bac9339 9 months ago
@bac9339 it's just being shirtless. and he's not trying to be sexy to get his message out, he is naturally sexy. wearing a tux, and looking and acting the way you wouldn't normally would look or act sure changes the meaning of the message, wouldn't it?
5icenfire5 9 months ago
i lost an uncle to suiced i was very close to him. to feel so low to put a rope round you neck must be so devastating i luv u davie keep up the video's xxx
mrSCOTT698 9 months ago
OMG :(
hectorsxvideo 9 months ago
*cyber huggs*
RoyalJME 9 months ago
I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.
I asked god why are you such an ass hole for giving kind people such pain and suffering, he never answered. So I guess even he does not have the answers to all questions, that or he does not exists.
Your story was so sad, if only he had the strength to last until you met him,
I know you Davey, would have made such a difference in his life.
As you say davey Peace out x x
firefightermeath 9 months ago