I thought it was interesting how you said people binge on things that remind them of the past. It made me think of my recent binges and its all been things me and my husband like to eat when we go out or stay in and watch a movie or whatever. This video really makes me think.
i realize who i am now- a messed up girl, something completely different from what i thought i'd turn out to be. it hurts so much when i realize that, and i look in my bathroom mirror and i can't see any trace of ME in those eyes. so, i bend over the toilet and purge away the food, and (psychologically speaking) purge away the little girl i was so it doesn't hurt as much.
yea, i always analyze my binges before and after (because i have a lot of time before, like, i plan the trip to the grocery store and spend a lot of money on food) and i've finally figured it out.
It makes me feel like a child again. It makes me feel like I'm that little girl, before i was broken. I eat foods i ate when i was a kid- mac 'n cheese, kool-aid, lunchables, etc. etc. then when i'm done bingeing (continued)
Yes, I do! It's called distractions! Replacing old behaviors with new ones. Your first distraction can be to go watch my video "Replacing OCD rituals" - it's called something like that... it will really help
Overeating... appreciating a nice big meal with all the fixings... is a cultural phenomenon where I live for a lot of people. Eating out, lots of booze, etc, are all also very common in college life. So I do often feel bombarded a lot of the time to eat eat eat.
My ED is VERY much related to the idea of becoming undesriable and thats led me to over eat an get slightly 'podgy' an then become anorexic in the hope of finding a body i felt safe in...it worries me in my anorexia recovery that il swing the other way again.
Johhny, so far what I've seen of this series is impressive. You know your stuff (for better or worse.)
There was a big focus on food in my family, but no abuse, substance (incl. food) abuse by family members, no real reason for my bingeing reasons. "Eating to numb... I've got that one. I'll have to check out the second part later. Love you, and your wisdom. :)
My sweet Cinderella, there is always a reason. If there wasn't a reason or reasons my dear - you wouldn't be doing it. Think about it. These are the things you need to be processing in therapy or you will remain stagnent... love you
1. I am sorry you have a history of sexual abuse. I feel your pain.
Eating raw is a great way to connect with your inner being/self and body. Chewing is important in general, raw or cooked, it's what starts the digestive process and aids it.
What really defines an outcast, you know? We are all rebels in one way or another. Rebel on!
i wish more people could see this. you're awesome. thank you!
vikiwozeya 11 months ago
i use diet pills and fast after a binge usually
losingweightroyce 1 year ago
This is very helpful and it explains a lot!
Melanie62389 1 year ago
you've made me realize that when i binge, it's when my family fights. i know how to control it now. thank you.
you know what you're talking about, and you speak the truth. you're my knight in shining armor [:
misschic007 1 year ago
Thank you for sharing. Very enlightening.
50hellkat2 2 years ago
I thought it was interesting how you said people binge on things that remind them of the past. It made me think of my recent binges and its all been things me and my husband like to eat when we go out or stay in and watch a movie or whatever. This video really makes me think.
sratrat78 2 years ago
why is there so much sadness in your eyes...
todumb4 3 years ago
i realize who i am now- a messed up girl, something completely different from what i thought i'd turn out to be. it hurts so much when i realize that, and i look in my bathroom mirror and i can't see any trace of ME in those eyes. so, i bend over the toilet and purge away the food, and (psychologically speaking) purge away the little girl i was so it doesn't hurt as much.
thanks again for your videos Johnny :)
xxanaselfdestructxx 3 years ago
yea, i always analyze my binges before and after (because i have a lot of time before, like, i plan the trip to the grocery store and spend a lot of money on food) and i've finally figured it out.
It makes me feel like a child again. It makes me feel like I'm that little girl, before i was broken. I eat foods i ate when i was a kid- mac 'n cheese, kool-aid, lunchables, etc. etc. then when i'm done bingeing (continued)
xxanaselfdestructxx 3 years ago
Yes, I do! It's called distractions! Replacing old behaviors with new ones. Your first distraction can be to go watch my video "Replacing OCD rituals" - it's called something like that... it will really help
hugs and thank u
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Overeating... appreciating a nice big meal with all the fixings... is a cultural phenomenon where I live for a lot of people. Eating out, lots of booze, etc, are all also very common in college life. So I do often feel bombarded a lot of the time to eat eat eat.
shrinerspark 3 years ago
you have a great personality! i feel so attatched to you. I could listen to you for hours! keep being you xoxo
surrenderluv 3 years ago 2
You have such great insight.
My ED is VERY much related to the idea of becoming undesriable and thats led me to over eat an get slightly 'podgy' an then become anorexic in the hope of finding a body i felt safe in...it worries me in my anorexia recovery that il swing the other way again.
lilkel86 3 years ago
Johhny, so far what I've seen of this series is impressive. You know your stuff (for better or worse.)
There was a big focus on food in my family, but no abuse, substance (incl. food) abuse by family members, no real reason for my bingeing reasons. "Eating to numb... I've got that one. I'll have to check out the second part later. Love you, and your wisdom. :)
peppernme 3 years ago
My sweet Cinderella, there is always a reason. If there wasn't a reason or reasons my dear - you wouldn't be doing it. Think about it. These are the things you need to be processing in therapy or you will remain stagnent... love you
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Thank you. I am very proud of myself for this piece as I really use my logical mind here. I'm so glad I posted it after months ago of making it!!!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
1. I am sorry you have a history of sexual abuse. I feel your pain.
Eating raw is a great way to connect with your inner being/self and body. Chewing is important in general, raw or cooked, it's what starts the digestive process and aids it.
What really defines an outcast, you know? We are all rebels in one way or another. Rebel on!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago