I don't even know what addiction you are talking about but this video has helped me think about what I need to do next in my own addiction. Thank you!
you are so brave to document your experience ... it doesn't matter what kind of addiction it is ... it all comes down to the same basics ... I am trying to reach out but it is hard ... thank you for sharing I know it will help me ...
@sobrietyable - I get a lot of crap for leaving this video up. Apparently this video, along with the rest of my channel has become a source of entertainment and mockery from my cowokers. But because of people like you, I will not delete it. Thanks for your comment.
This video is so real. This is such a sad addiction because it is open day and night here in Vegas & there are many days that I cry and ask God to help me but the next day the pain fades & I kinda forget the horror and try one more time to "win" again to get that euphoric feeling. Gambling is a lie & Casinos should not be in neighborhoods. It is like having a crack house around the corner that sends you free stuff to hook you, would the police allow that? No. I feel your pain & hope to be free.
i just want to say, i can totally relate to this kind of exacpeism, im noi an attention seeker, just saying, i can relate to this vicious circle of gambling, esp on line bingo addiction, and also what ruined it for me, was the girl finger video, why?
@bingocrown - i'm human like everyone else. i made the 2 girls video and thought it was funny so i left it up. it wasn't about attention seeking or anything. it was just for fun.
i will always be a compulsive gambler, just like an alcoholic will always be an alcoholic. but the good news is i am no longer "using". i haven't been to a casino to gamble in a year and a half. i did slip up in an airport in nevada but that was it. is this something u've dealt with before?
no, but both of my parent's were alcoholics. And, I'm a christian, I'm just trying to offer any advice that might help; but I geuss you already have that covered :)
It took courage to put this up on youtube. I hope your getting help i.e friend support or counseling - gambling is as bad as ciggerates - I'm still working on this
thank u and yes, it is. i've been "clean" since march. it's hard and it almost killed me. i leave it up in case someone else like me needs it. thanks for watching and subbing!
I work in the field as an addictions therapist, and have learned that relapse can be a part of recovery. Also, change usually happens when a person moves out of their comfort zone (either by choice or force). Adding very personal videos like this is certainly one way to move out of a comfort zone! You're very brave.
thank u so much. ur opinion means a lot to me. right now, the hardest part is dealing with the consequences of my actions. now that i actually want to get better is when the walls r crashing in and that life is catching up with me. now that i am trying, i'm out of chances. makes it almost impossible to keep going.
That's actually a very common experience - not trying to minimize here, just normalize it. Any form of addiction is like a devil trying to lure you back, and it's a sneaky thing because it makes good decisions seem like the worse thing in the world. On the basis of what you said, and as odd as this may sound now, you actually appear to be making progress! As someone giving up heroin (for example) might say, withdrawal is the most painful process... but is passes eventually.
it's not the withdrawal. for so long i played the shell game with money. no matter how badly i screwed up, i was always able to find a way out of the whole i put myself in. now that i want to get better and make something of myself, the shell game came after me with a vengeance and i may not be able to get out. it's frustrating. why when i was screwing up so bad did i get other chances and not now when it would really make a difference? sorry, i'm having a hard time right now.
Sometimes there are no satifactory answers to those 'why' questions - they can be very torturous! Frustration, depression and confusion are unfortunately a part of the recovery process. It is important to just at least be mindful of the tendency to jeopardize good progress. Do you really need to 'make' something of yourself? Actually, your strengths of insight, honesty and courage 'are' yourself!!!
hey i know how it feels to go through addiction. I have gone through it too. Your video was very touching. If you want to see my addiction story i posted it as a responce
this touched me. wow. that must have been hard for you to do. it takes great strength to face a situation like that, and you did. i would like to ask of you a personal favor...will you keep me informed of your progress? changes? anything? i would like to help in anyway i can even if it's being just another IM box to type profanities in, whatever. could you do that for me?
i will and u have no idea how much that helps. having someone keep me accountable would do wonders. i've been doing well for the most part, but now, i'm reaping what i've sown and it's killing me. that's really awesome of u to offer!
I'm sorry you have to go through this. Please realize that there is help available out there for you, for anyone going through a painful addiction. I honestly hope you can get help and beat this thing. Til then, stay strong.
hey..if you feel like shit..stop doing it...do it for your self...for your future....I know people that have lost their house, cars...even his family...quit doing that shit....
good luckk.
and alsoo...i love the reation of 2 girls 1 finger
good for u!!!! jan 5th will be my 1 year anniversary of not smoking. it gets real hard between 2-3 months but after that, u can totally do it! withdrawls suck, but u can fight thru it! it's hard but oh so worth it.
thank u. i think about taking this vid down all the time, because it's so personal and hard, but i think if i leave it up and it helps some one see their self destruction, then it's worth it.
it's really great that u're in the recovering stage, that's awesome! thanks for taking the time to watch and comment.
I have tussled with beer and wine since my mid 20s. Usually I don't put myself in a bad situation but then there are those times.... Narrow escapes if you now what I mean. My problem was that I would drink myself to sleep then feel like crap the next day. Early August I decided I didn't like it and haven't since.
Beer is as close as the corner store, but so far I'm not interested.
I admire your honesty. Everyone has something in their life that they've had to face or deal with. You certainly are not alone. I hope this video helped you even in a small way. ((HUGS))
actually, it did help. u have no idea how frightening it was to see myself, i mean really see myself from the outside. one day at a time. hopefully, i will get better. thanks for watching and subscribing!
You my dear, are a wonderful person, and if someone tries to say that something like this has never happened to them, in some sort of fashion or another, then they are liars.
Hi honey, we are glad to see that you are back! You know that we are here for you always! Just pick up the phone if ever you want or need us doesnt matter the time of day or night! Hugs xoxo
I don't even know what addiction you are talking about but this video has helped me think about what I need to do next in my own addiction. Thank you!
mcer111 1 year ago
@mcer111 well i'm glad u got something out of it. btw, i was talking about gambling in this video.
BandwagonBabe 1 year ago
you are so brave to document your experience ... it doesn't matter what kind of addiction it is ... it all comes down to the same basics ... I am trying to reach out but it is hard ... thank you for sharing I know it will help me ...
sobrietyable 2 years ago
@sobrietyable - I get a lot of crap for leaving this video up. Apparently this video, along with the rest of my channel has become a source of entertainment and mockery from my cowokers. But because of people like you, I will not delete it. Thanks for your comment.
BandwagonBabe 1 year ago
@BandwagonBabe I am glad you decided to keep the video up. This took a lot of courage (in my eyes) to post it. I wish you all the best in the future.
steelydanbowler 1 year ago
This video is so real. This is such a sad addiction because it is open day and night here in Vegas & there are many days that I cry and ask God to help me but the next day the pain fades & I kinda forget the horror and try one more time to "win" again to get that euphoric feeling. Gambling is a lie & Casinos should not be in neighborhoods. It is like having a crack house around the corner that sends you free stuff to hook you, would the police allow that? No. I feel your pain & hope to be free.
CRAPSLV 2 years ago
@CRAPSLV - I appreciate your honesty. How have you been doing?
BandwagonBabe 1 year ago
i just want to say, i can totally relate to this kind of exacpeism, im noi an attention seeker, just saying, i can relate to this vicious circle of gambling, esp on line bingo addiction, and also what ruined it for me, was the girl finger video, why?
bingocrown 2 years ago
@bingocrown - i'm human like everyone else. i made the 2 girls video and thought it was funny so i left it up. it wasn't about attention seeking or anything. it was just for fun.
BandwagonBabe 1 year ago
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bingocrown 2 years ago
This video really helped me.
I have just arrived from a casino and lost everything, I am a compulsive gambler.
I have been like this for 4 years, however I have been gambling for 20 years socially. But in the last 4 years I have been going daily.
I WANT TO STOP!!! HELP!
LuisManNa 2 years ago
i know exactly how u feel.
BandwagonBabe 2 years ago
It is hard to describe this ugly feeling.
Right now I can´t think very well, I only have memories from lighting machines, rulets, crazy sounds, etc...
I am unable to concentrate.
My brain is so confused.
LuisManNa 2 years ago
Gambling is like a drug, casinos should be illegal.
FiveStarsPerShoulder 2 years ago
i'm glad u can see that FireStarsPerShoulder. some people don't consider it a real addiction and think u're making a big deal out of nothing.
BandwagonBabe 2 years ago
are you still strugling with this?
FiveStarsPerShoulder 2 years ago
i will always be a compulsive gambler, just like an alcoholic will always be an alcoholic. but the good news is i am no longer "using". i haven't been to a casino to gamble in a year and a half. i did slip up in an airport in nevada but that was it. is this something u've dealt with before?
BandwagonBabe 2 years ago
no, but both of my parent's were alcoholics. And, I'm a christian, I'm just trying to offer any advice that might help; but I geuss you already have that covered :)
FiveStarsPerShoulder 2 years ago
i think im in love....
dairyguy812000 2 years ago
why is that?
BandwagonBabe 2 years ago
cuz your just cute...i love the cuteness on ur face...!!!
dairyguy812000 2 years ago
It took courage to put this up on youtube. I hope your getting help i.e friend support or counseling - gambling is as bad as ciggerates - I'm still working on this
vampchika 3 years ago
thank u and yes, it is. i've been "clean" since march. it's hard and it almost killed me. i leave it up in case someone else like me needs it. thanks for watching and subbing!
BandwagonBabe 3 years ago
well basicly wake up one moring and stop i stop everything i was ever wanting to give up that way
pumpylumpy 4 years ago
i wish i was half as strong as u pumplylumpy
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
Gosh, what a courageous video.
I work in the field as an addictions therapist, and have learned that relapse can be a part of recovery. Also, change usually happens when a person moves out of their comfort zone (either by choice or force). Adding very personal videos like this is certainly one way to move out of a comfort zone! You're very brave.
courageousjohnny 4 years ago
thank u so much. ur opinion means a lot to me. right now, the hardest part is dealing with the consequences of my actions. now that i actually want to get better is when the walls r crashing in and that life is catching up with me. now that i am trying, i'm out of chances. makes it almost impossible to keep going.
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
That's actually a very common experience - not trying to minimize here, just normalize it. Any form of addiction is like a devil trying to lure you back, and it's a sneaky thing because it makes good decisions seem like the worse thing in the world. On the basis of what you said, and as odd as this may sound now, you actually appear to be making progress! As someone giving up heroin (for example) might say, withdrawal is the most painful process... but is passes eventually.
courageousjohnny 4 years ago
it's not the withdrawal. for so long i played the shell game with money. no matter how badly i screwed up, i was always able to find a way out of the whole i put myself in. now that i want to get better and make something of myself, the shell game came after me with a vengeance and i may not be able to get out. it's frustrating. why when i was screwing up so bad did i get other chances and not now when it would really make a difference? sorry, i'm having a hard time right now.
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
Sometimes there are no satifactory answers to those 'why' questions - they can be very torturous! Frustration, depression and confusion are unfortunately a part of the recovery process. It is important to just at least be mindful of the tendency to jeopardize good progress. Do you really need to 'make' something of yourself? Actually, your strengths of insight, honesty and courage 'are' yourself!!!
courageousjohnny 4 years ago
i feel your pain.
amythedinosaurrr 4 years ago
thank u.
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
hey i know how it feels to go through addiction. I have gone through it too. Your video was very touching. If you want to see my addiction story i posted it as a responce
youareuglyx44 4 years ago
this touched me. wow. that must have been hard for you to do. it takes great strength to face a situation like that, and you did. i would like to ask of you a personal favor...will you keep me informed of your progress? changes? anything? i would like to help in anyway i can even if it's being just another IM box to type profanities in, whatever. could you do that for me?
heartlessjedi77 4 years ago
i will and u have no idea how much that helps. having someone keep me accountable would do wonders. i've been doing well for the most part, but now, i'm reaping what i've sown and it's killing me. that's really awesome of u to offer!
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
I'm sorry you have to go through this. Please realize that there is help available out there for you, for anyone going through a painful addiction. I honestly hope you can get help and beat this thing. Til then, stay strong.
TheBluePistol 4 years ago
i'm fighting like hell and doing my best to stay strong. i apprecaite ur comment
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
hey..if you feel like shit..stop doing it...do it for your self...for your future....I know people that have lost their house, cars...even his family...quit doing that shit....
good luckk.
and alsoo...i love the reation of 2 girls 1 finger
hahah
littlejohn17 4 years ago
thanks, i'm working on it.
glad u liked the finger thing!
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
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bingocrown 2 years ago
I've quit smokign for 2 months now and still go though withdraws time to time i feel yea :( fighting addiction there all really hard
chrishayden82 4 years ago
good for u!!!! jan 5th will be my 1 year anniversary of not smoking. it gets real hard between 2-3 months but after that, u can totally do it! withdrawls suck, but u can fight thru it! it's hard but oh so worth it.
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
I want you to know that I commend you for being brave and honest with yourself -
I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict -
Love Thyself - There is Help
Kemorphosis 4 years ago
thank u. i think about taking this vid down all the time, because it's so personal and hard, but i think if i leave it up and it helps some one see their self destruction, then it's worth it.
it's really great that u're in the recovering stage, that's awesome! thanks for taking the time to watch and comment.
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
have you had any luck stopping yet?
daviddragon64 4 years ago
i don't gamble now, but i will always be a gambler
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
I love You
HiddenFromView 4 years ago
thank u, i know u mean it and that makes it really important to me!
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
OMG that video was so sad:(
I almost started bawling!
I hope you get some help my dear.
MissToxicLove 4 years ago
thanks xoxo
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
Serious.
I have tussled with beer and wine since my mid 20s. Usually I don't put myself in a bad situation but then there are those times.... Narrow escapes if you now what I mean. My problem was that I would drink myself to sleep then feel like crap the next day. Early August I decided I didn't like it and haven't since.
Beer is as close as the corner store, but so far I'm not interested.
Hopefully you won't be interested too. :^)
bowlingballout 4 years ago
thanks, i'm working on it. and that's great u're staying away. it takes strong will power and it sounds like u have that!
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
Very brave of you to share..I am sure this will help others. I will pray for your recovery. xoxox
SerenityFair 4 years ago
thank u. it's a long road, hopefully one day i'll get there.
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
as always, i admire your honesty. no where to go but up from here.
latesongliv 4 years ago
Hope today was a better day.
glenna667 4 years ago
You are so honest about it. I like that. I found you on The Borg Show.
A new subscriber. ~ Loves, Moomay
moomay11649 4 years ago
honesty isn't always comfortable, but it's necessary. thanks for subscribing!
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
I admire your honesty. Everyone has something in their life that they've had to face or deal with. You certainly are not alone. I hope this video helped you even in a small way. ((HUGS))
shortbuddy 4 years ago
actually, it did help. u have no idea how frightening it was to see myself, i mean really see myself from the outside. one day at a time. hopefully, i will get better. thanks for watching and subscribing!
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
Strong message! Wishing you the very best.
whatsnext 4 years ago
hope it helps someone. thanks.
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
You my dear, are a wonderful person, and if someone tries to say that something like this has never happened to them, in some sort of fashion or another, then they are liars.
We are all human.
SquiggMonster 4 years ago
thank u, u made me smile.
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
Hi honey, we are glad to see that you are back! You know that we are here for you always! Just pick up the phone if ever you want or need us doesnt matter the time of day or night! Hugs xoxo
TJsMomma 4 years ago
i know u r and i appreciate it. and yes, i'm back. i'll do an explanation later.
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
HUGS take your time! Just happy to see you back! xoxo
TJsMomma 4 years ago
This was a very powerful video. I hope you find the love and support you need. YouTubers are really good at helping each other!
maryann712 4 years ago
thank u. i hope so too.
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
You need me I'm here for you.
glenna667 4 years ago
thank u. i know u mean it.
BandwagonBabe 4 years ago
When ever you wanna talk just call.
glenna667 4 years ago
I love you sweetheart..I'm really sorry, big hug
glenna667 4 years ago