I have Borderline Personality Disorder - My 1st Video

[OreCst]

I was diag as child with (sp)petty mals .I was given Phenobarbital till my adult life. I dont remember when they took me off it,but docs havent noticed any seizure history in my adult life.However I struggle now with BPD traits not diag,that was not mentioned till my adult life.

[DazedandBemused]

Hi Orecast:

Are you on medication?

[Culadra]

yeah you and your fuckin what a quarter of seroquel and now your borderline. you must be in so much pain bu hu hu. blah blah blah oh the cliches

Go fuck yourself

[DazedandBemused]

Damn! I could almost swear you sound jealous. BTW........The Seroquel was given to me AFTER I was diagnosed. And if you pay attention to the rest of my videos, you will read that I cannot take that medication anymore.......now take that and chew on it!!!

[mastud]

From this day forth, every time you get up in the morning, look into the mirror, realise you are human and you are loved. No matter what you may feel and you really should feel the way those who love you most feel about you. See yourself through theyr'e eyes.

[popup999]

sweety

that i dident knew

i didnot mean to offend

sorry  :(

[popup999]

I am praying for you...

no matter what part of world you are in you always have some thing to worry about...

i suggest try to play online games when you are free like counterstrike or ragnarok(of your country)it is really interesting..

you will like it a lot

[DazedandBemused]

Are you TRYING to be funny?........playing the games and shit! That makes people seize. I have Epilepsy.

[goddessamy01]

Awesome video-I just made my first one on my BPD as well.

Thanks for sharing

[ontologic7]

have you tried depakote. controls mood as well. Try switching to all vegan diet you will notice a huge change. otherwise they do have brain surgery to help reduce seizures

[gcalvanetten]

Hello Lisa,

This is a very good and brave video. Just wanted to thank you for sharing this. I've been diagnosed BPD about a year ago, and i have to say i wouldn't have the nerve to share what you've the shared. Thank you so much, and i wish you all the best.

- Gerben

[jackgl93]

i just think that people shouldnt be labeled like this unless they're obviously dangerous some people are just different from the norm and its always been like that, look at Van Gogh he was completely fucked but he was an amazing painter, labels are always negative.

[spershall]

Do you know who R.R. Llinas is? He's done a lot of research in the past few years about the relationship of BPD to epilepsy and autism. You might be interested in researching his work!

[wildhearteddesperado]

great video. thanks for sharing; it helps more than you know.

[thomasrowe25]

nice video i also have bpd i know how you feel and you dont look like your 38 you look around 20

[lelainemc]

Hi there. Thanks for taking the time to post your video. Have you had a videotaped EEG while you were in the hospital to fully evaluate the source of your seizure activity? Is Keppra the first anticonvulsant that you have tried? I would feel so frustrated if I were in your position. I admire your tenacity.

[DazedandBemused]

Hi lelainemc!

I have had a few eeg's. I have tried many many anti-seizure meds. I'm a "work in progress"...lol

[missashley313]

i understand girl,

epilepsy and bpd.

maybe they go together.

ohh and you don't look 38!!

[DazedandBemused]

Thanks sweetie. I look horrible in that video......lol

Some of my others aren't so bad.

[ichyEars]

ur voice is really nice. ( random but true).

i will pray 4 u x-x-x

[DazedandBemused]

Hey itchyEars! Thanks for the comment. Most people think I sound like a young girl. And I'm almost over the hill - 39 years old!!!!!!!!!!!!

[phreakmac]

We are all being controlled by the illuminati and the NEW WORLD ORDER!!!

[SexiiCanadianShorti3]

i used to cut myself too .. a lot.. for years.. since i was 12.. but then recently my living arrangement changed completely!!! and longstory short, i realized a long time ago how unhealthy it was.. but when i moved into OMG MY CRAZYPARENTS!! they are nnuts.. and that was 3 weeks ago i moved in.. and i coudlnt deal with it, and i didnt wanna cut.. so i started biting. myself. hard.. im scared one day i will chew my arm right off. well its not as mess as cutting!! one step at a time??

[SexiiCanadianShorti3]

omg you are 38 .. wtf!!!?? i didnt believe it.. but i have no reason to believe you would LIE.. thats just stupid.. hahaha.. im so retarded.. BUT.. anywhoo I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL.. i have bdp too, and it feels like shyt.. every day is so scary becuase you dont know how tomorow will feel, either really amazing, or really dreadful.. i can only imagine how much harder it must be, having the fear of abandonment, with EPILEPSY!! GOD WILL CURE THAT, BCUZ BDP IS BAD ENUF ON ITS OWN! =)

[DazedandBemused]

Thanks for the age compliment you guys. That's sweet!

[aperfectingangel]

Thanks for posting your experience! Yes you don't look 38 I thought maybe 20!

[PersephoneSwimming]

thank you so much for sharing these things! and you look much younger than 38...!! sweet face. glad you have a wonderful beau and wishing you lots of happiness...