A Life Beautiful - The Story of My Transition

[desireeT01]

Meaghan, your former male name, I too had that tag placed on me; I always hated to see the name written on my birthday cards, report cards and notes from school. I wonder if there are any more common threads we might share. Friend me on Face Book so we can chat privately!

[misstyfi]

can i ask you. when on hrt is it still possible to pull off being a man to fool work people and then be the woman at home? i am starting hrt very soon but i just cant go to work as a woman even though i am in the wrong flesh. i f i lose my job im done for but could i tape my breasts down and maybe keep stubble for work or ill it be too obvious to hide? i got baggy clothes. xx

[MeghansLife]

@thisrandomchannel Hi Sean, people need to remember that this video was made for family/friends. As such, I have a lot of "inside" jokes on here. That sequence with 'fraud rhymes with maud' was based on funny quotes we wrote down based on conference calls our competitors had w/Wall Street Banks and other people in the industry. These aren't my thoughts are feelings, these were stand out things that people said. That quote was when someone was questioned about fraud and they acted like (cont.)

[MeghansLife]

@MeghansLife their troubled company had no fraud. They eventually folded due to fraud so when the Wall Street Bank called into question their supposedly conservative delinquency forecasts, the company CEO said "fraud?" and then someone else said in the room "fraud, you know it rhymes with maude." So it wasn't like this devious thing that my company and I were planning to take down the US economy, it was in response to a CEO questioning the quality of his business. I hope that clears it up :)

[MrIzura]

i am a girl, but i want to be a boy. :D

[agntagnt1]

i worked for you back in 2002/2003. Now were are 3 or 4 years later, how has your life changed? Were all your expectations met?

[MeghansLife]

@agntagnt1 Wow, you worked for me, that's pretty awesome :) I hope you had a good experience and, more importantly, I hope you're doing well now. So many people weren't prepared for the abrupt end to the mortgage market. The quick answer would be "my life has changed in more ways than I can possibly express in words. I've exceeded my expectations of transition by a lot." But I'd like to get more detailed in a video. You should see some of my recent videos to see how I'm doing & also email me :)

[katiesuzzanneify]

hoe could you do this? i dont understand

[scaramouche16]

Seeing the photos of you when you finally began presenting as female made me so happy. You were smiling and happy and you're so incredibly beautiful. =)

[Mr69alltheway]

HOT GUY, I WOULD DATE HIM ! 4 SURE AWWWW

[AngelMarie1976]

Love this video, it's just so pure and simple. When you said you left a life, a rather profitable life, I had a pretty good idea of what you meant.. but seeing the price tags was pretty crazy. Considering I've watched most of your videos from the newest first, I admit I've not known the beginning until now. Perhaps, because, I'd like to get to know the Lisa/Meghan inside before I had a dose of what was 'before'. Kudos hun, great video. :-)

[taska247]

omg you had surgery on my birthday :) i was only 17.. im 19 now and starting my transition my self

[sjis007]

Hi Meghan. Thanks for sharing a bit of your life. I'm not the internet type but I'm starting transition now. I've my whole life ahead of me too. I like the Carl Bard quote. I'm looking forward to a brand new ending.

Valerie

Montreal

[jennjelly]

Meghan i just watched "a beautiful life" wow.... so amazing not only in your transition but in what you had and what you bow have ....boggles my mind. When will you doi a sequel to this ? and show all you have gained by becomming you? i think one thing you should hit on is how you feel...and how much further you intend to go and then to tie it all up asa 2 or 3 part story of Meghan. what do you think? no matter what you have made a friend and her name is Jenny takcre hugs Jenny

[MeghansLife]

@jennjelly Well, I think that the videos I make now kind of pick up where this one left off. This is my 'past life' video and once it ends, that's where my online vlogs pick up :)

[jennjelly]

@MeghansLife Well now i will have to watch them all.... But really thank you for sharing so much of you and i will be getting your movie myou will have to sign it for me ! haha take care .

[misshookedonchronic]

We are pretty sure my sibling's father was trans, but he never came out in life. He was one of many successful men living in Dana Point who had the cars, the houses, the clothes, he was an all around go getter, but from what I have heard he didn't seem to be that happy, and his relationships with his kids suffered. I wonder now had he been able to live in his own skin (assuming he was trans) maybe his life would have been more fulfilling. Its so clear in this vid that your in your own skin now.

[MissFaithLouise]

You lived in Baltimore or visited Baltimore?

[MeghansLife]

@MissFaithLouise I used to live in Baltimore :)

[xilixnicexilix]

u look waaaaay better as a male . i always thought that maby a guy was small down there and thats why theyd want to change there gender but i never asked . Im so concerned and its like theres no do overs u cant go back well at least not the exact same way. So i find that careless. You dont wonder if you would regret it?

[MeghansLife]

@xilixnicexilix Hi Cat! First, thank you for taking the time to view a video of mine. Transitioning gender can be a really scary thing to people, I know. This video was made before I even transitioned and right before I got surgery and went full-time living as a woman. I am very happy now. If you get a chance, watch a recent video (any of them) and I think you'll see for yourself how happy I am and that I don't regret anything :)

[Whitedoggy24]

@xilixnicexilix If a person is female, born in the wrong body, she transitions, not because she may or may not have a small penis, but because she is a female. It is not helpful to comment to a woman that she looked better as a man. This is your opinion, and is quite void of any compassion and understanding as to her true identity. Just as you have the freedom to be who you are in your own skin, she has that right, too. Would you like someone telling you that you'd look better as a woman?

[fhofho00]

Wow Meghan! Just now I noticed how your voice changed. Was the change due to hormones or are you working on your voice. Plz let us know. Hugs.

[tbear2327]

Sorry Meghan. I've watched many of your videos, but for some reason this one I've totally missed. But gee, am I glad I watched it. What an absolutely wonderful salute to your life so far - the changes, challenges, losses, gains, happiness, sadness. I can see that it was all so worth it.

My journey? It's just about to start and this video allows me to see that it will all be worth it in the end - which will be my beginning (as you so aptly put it). ***hugs***

[ZKing2880]

lol you gave thanks to the 360 what a true gamer. good luck on your new life.

[ThatPunkBrent]

very inspirational video..made my eyes water...nice porshe too haha

[debbiesouth]

5 Stars! Love the video, hope your family did as well!!!

Wow, expensive taste. Do you mind sharing your expsnse account with me? Or a VISA card please? LOL

[iruhsa]

Meghan

I think that your video and story are amazing. I teach social work students who will be graduating soon and I used this video to illustrate how you can't judge a book by its cover.

Your story is inspirational strong and alive...You might enjoy knowing that your story and video helped to enlighten students who will work in helping others

Kudos

[kimberlyannofgeorgia]

What a beautiful video. As a woman who is looking at transitioning soon this video gives me courage.

[Janine27012010]

I really like the video, it gives other people who also want to transition so much energy and hope. I so happy that you've found your way in life.

[Naren789]

holly shit i love your voice well done did hormone does that or you working on it

keep going i do understand where u cuming from be who u r

[Indianmodel1]

Hi Meghan

What did you work as before you transitioned? And what do you work as now?

[MeghansLife]

I was in the mortgage industry before and now I'm in the health care industry :)

[templlp1]

Thank you.

[bynddrvn5]

Thank you for sharing this part of your life, Meghan. Your story is amazing; it is almost as if you have been reincarnated during one lifetime. You have to wonder, if reincarnation is possible who you were in the past and who you will be in your next lifetime. So many possibilities, you have to wonder if we are not here simply to be judged, but to learn and what we learn, is how we will be judged.

[doorcodad]

i was going to leave a comment about what a great video this is, but I think the comment here by TruthJunkieMikael said it a lot better than I could. You are a good example of the fact that one's sexual identity is a lot more than just the hardware you are born with.

[MissRavensmiles]

You are truely amazing! It's wonderful how you have managed to embrace your whole life and all of your experiences to become the person you are today.

Thank you for sharing with the rest of us.

(((HUGS)))

[kotekotekitty]

4:22 made me realize that my belief that i could have been wrong about myself because i like to do sport is less valid than i thaught

[TruthJunkieMikael]

This is a great video!!! I think the greatest and most important works of art are those that reflect life and the human condition. This was very moving =)

[fabulouslove]

I love your video. Your body you were born into grew to be a gorgeous man and now your growing into being a gorgeous women! Keep us posted hun...I'd love to see what the future holds in every way.

You inspire me because of what I go through on a daily basis...I feel like listening to things you have to say might help me in the long run.

[DownsA530]

Simply an awesome video. It obviously helped having such a strong support system in place, and the end result was the blooming of a beautiful woman. Congrats, and may God continue to bless you in the future!

[NakedBYdesign]

excuse me what hormones are you taking ? Please!!! type and dosage.

[MeghansLife]

I don't really like to comment on dosages, but I am taking injectable estrdiol valerate, Yasmin (progesterone birth control), spiro (i will tell you it's 200 mg day) amd finasteride and a daily vitamin. that is the prescriptions i have from my endocrinologist and i always recommend that people see one to get regular blood tests done :)

[NakedBYdesign]

Thanks I guess estradiol valerate is the most common hormone. take care girl!

[knana81]

I wish you the best and your video is great.

[mexlep101]

wow i just watched this and i must say i am amazed you look so great now and you really inspired me, that no i may look decent one day you are really amazing thank you :)

[MeghansLife]

Oops, sorry NowherePoet, I accidentally deleted your question:

"in the beginning, at the start, you're still male right?"

[MeghansLife]

So, the answer to your question, Poet, is that I was definitely living my life being seen by society as male in this video. Actually, this whole entire video is of me in "guy-mode" and presenting as male. There was a lot of androgeneous dressing and stuff, but I didn't gradually change, it was more of a 3 or 4 months transition from what you see in this video to where I am now. It's the importance of preparation for transition I think. It's a long process though, I'm getting there :) Thanks!

[MeghansLife]

Lol, I don't mind when people say the 'hot as a guy part' but um, 'why didn't i stay as a gay man?' um, i wasn't gay, i was in relationships with women. those guys in that video werent gay either. trust me, i messed around with guys, i can't explain it to you, but a lot of transpeople understand...i'm not a guy, inside i wasn't a guy before. men would have no interest in me. they would have desired me for being a man, which made me want to throw up. i hope that helps explain.

[cassiehemingway]

I want to say you are such an inspiration to me....I have gone from actor to model to then actress and female model, and never considered myself gay, and I really didnt understand this, as I tried fitting into the society description of who I was on the outside, ie..dating guys which made me very uncomfortable, now today seeing your video, I cried I really do understand, and reading your words makes things so clear for me, I thank you so much for sharing this part of your life

Thank You

Cassie

[MeghansLife]

LOL, no, it doesn't bother me at all. That was me before, this is me now. I never had a problems getting girls OR guys attention before transition. And if you don't think you are a good looking guy, I'd have to debate you on that! That porsche, lol, could I be anymore suggestive about trying to be someone else :)

[ccox1968]

Hey this is Charles "Chuck" from the days at work 2001 . I just want you to know how much you touched my life and made me a better person. I am behind you 100%. You really taught me so much and I will never forget that, and I will never forget the opportunities you gave me in our professional life together. I will always consider you a true friend and mentor. I remember the lacross interview. Anyways keep on keeping on. Love your friend Chuck

[sammylust]

omg its meghan :D

[rhaina1977]

wow u were a hot guy

[blaire57]

i'm just starting on this journey at 51. it's been a year now, 5 months on hormones. this video is an inspiration to me. to see the physical changes was exciting, but to see what i can see in your eyes is truly wonderful. to see someone who has "found" themself and are happy only makes me know i too am on the right path.

thank you for this video

Blaire Ruth

[oldertrans2003]

I caught your story several years ago on tv (changing sexes)I think maybe hbo.I so happy for you and your success in life.Btw your story prompted me and I went to therapy and started to transition,next yearI'm getting ffs with dr. suporn in thailand...luv and hugs Brenda

[stokes9802]

I don't know you but you look good as a woman! good luck with finishing your transition!

[ellendegeneres26]

you look so much happier as your true self :)

[msjamielynn1]

Great familiar story. Good luck with your life and happiness.

[heavenlyeve]

hi, if you're still there i have a couple questions. why did you wait until your late thirties to do this? what do those poems mean, and why do you keep them all? why did you conform to the masculine role as much as you did, and doesn't it pain you to see yourself like that in a past life?

[MeghansLife]

Hi Eve!

Of course I'm still here.

Why did I wait? Because I thought that transitioning was something that I didn't have to do. I thought that I would be able to be someone that I wasn't, to be a different person on the outside than I was on the inside.

I wrote the poems from 14 - 25, very abstract about feelings and emotions. I kept them because they meant a lot to me when I wrote them and I don't like throwing things like that out.

[MeghansLife]

I conformed to the masculine role when I was young so I didn't get beat up every day. As I got older, I continued it and overcompensated so that people didn't see through me. It's a scary thing to live a life always on edge that people are going to know that you aren't who they think you are.

Does it pain me to see myself like that? No Eve, I'm at peace with my life. I'm 39, I have been fortunate to have great loving friends and family and i wouldn't change much at this point. Take care, Meghan

[jeremyud]

Man, you were a frickin' hot guy, especially in that lacrosse uniform.

Got any single gay brothers or cousins, by any chance?

[Nextstopearth]

You were actually a pretty good looking guy.

[ericbstlouis1]

All I can say is that you're becoming a beautiful woman!

[fishybuiziness]

I trust you consulted with other leadsing ff surgeons in you're country - Dr zukowski, Dr speigal , before jumping in feet first with dr o, im guessing not. As i said im totally bemused ,that you have not even lived as female and attempted to function in society ie not friends and family, yet you have gone ahead and had facial feministation surgery. You have rushed everything, you are working from the outside in, rather than the inside out!Transition is a one way street.I wish you all the best.

[MeghansLife]

Thank you so much for at least wishing me the best. The thing you haven't seen was the year and half of transition before I got FFS. When you have an extremely masculine face and need to correct that to pass, you consider your options. I kind of chuckled with your email because it made me realize that people only see a small fraction of my transition, since FFS, online. Ok, that's it, I agree to your point that transition is a one way street and thanks for wishing me the best.

[fishybuiziness]

I just wanted to double check you have only lived as female for 1 week. As that is correct im utterly gob smacked that you have lived in your desired female role for only 1 week and you have already had ff surgery! Soul searching is one thing and thats great , but i can personally tell you living as female is another matter! you have tottaly disregarded the harry benjamin guide lines,also i see by watching your video again you have some what of an impulsive personality,that would explain alot.

[ritesofspr]

I followed HBSOC to the tee and believe in them strongly. Some people just know what is right for them and they follow that. I rewatched my video and maybe it comes off like I made the decision to have FFS a week after deciding to transition and that is DEFINITELY not the case. I started transition 11/06. Again, SOC is what I've followed and believe in. There's no impulsiveness here, everything in its own sweet time.

[fiddlejamie]

Hey there! Having just gone through FFS May 20th myself, I know what you're goin through. Hope all is well and that you're healing fast!

Lotsa love,

Jamie

[MeghansLife]

Hey Jamie,

Of course I know who you are, I watch your videos :) Thank you, seems to be healing fast. I was expecting a lot more pain. I'm happy and moving forward with my life, that's the important thing now, as you know :)

[fishybuiziness]

"I really hope you all understand that"

Firstly no one has to understand your transition appart from you and i truly hope you do understand....

your having ffs thats great, So How long have you been living full time? socialising and working as female?

[MeghansLife]

I'm guessing these were directed to me so I'll answer them.

I know that no one has to understand my transition. This video was an attempt to give people in my life a glimpse of my past and where I am. I'd rather have people try to understand where I'm coming from than not, that's just me though.

Let's see...been living full time, a week or so. Socializing as a female? I don't know, a lot of people have seen me that way for a while. Working, not yet.

Stay tuned. I'm a positive person.

[fishybuiziness]

I certainly will stay tuned, however i dont want to be disrespectful but you are joking right?..you have been living as female for 'one week or so' , and you have already had ffs?? is that correct? I understand wanting to transtion before going into the work place , but one week living as female? surely you mean 1 year?

[MeghansLife]

I'm not really sure I'm getting where you are coming from, but it doesn't matter. I'll answer you and then that will be that, we'll just agree to disagree I guess.

I know many people who have transitioned the way I have and it has worked out fine for them. I did a lot of soul searching before I did this. It doesn't take a year of FT to figure out if I'm going to transition.

I did all that figuring out before I ever put a hormone in my body. Good luck to you, I'll be fine, don't worry.

[jgoode7777]

Great video. We are really happy for you and, as always, wish you the best.

The Goodes

[scrbldrems]

Awesome vid. Thanks for sharing. I'm so excited for your facial surgery. Don't forget to stop into chat now and again to keep us all updated.

-Garnet

[incognito6526]

Wow! You look so much happier!

Hugs,

Sheia

[donri07]

wowie girl that was soo moving too watch like seeing my self too in your reflection on grown up and turn in tooo this beautyfull butterfly in the end ;) job well done on this vid all the stars for you;) be well be safe and see you soon again okeebybybyb peace8love alana :D

[MIMMM]

Your smile is much better now.

[MarcImmeker]

Hi Lisa,

Hope the surgery turns out well. Wish you the best in your life. Nice video.

[ShaneWednesday]

I am amazed. That *was* beautiful and very well done.

[BriarRoseTv]

Hi Lisa.

Welcome home.

[louise2bsoon]

I just wanted to wish you all the best for your forthcoming surgery - I'll be thinking of you on the 10th. This is a lovely video by the way. xx