friday night knitting

[nightroses1]

Did the edmr help? It helped me with my PTSD sooo much :). Hope it helped

[LaPrima16]

SO THIN

[TheStreakfree]

I've never heard of dragon fruit before. I might try to see if I can find it sometime.

[PrincessDolce101]

omg i love that movie lols !

[flyaway3860]

love the knitting!!!!! that is such a good idea to knit while you eat. perfecto!!!! love ya doll!!!

xoxo

-amanda

[2fcd]

I'm pissed that fruit costs that much! And then the news goes on about how everyone is getting fat! Well HELL a lot of families can only afford cheap nasty shit.

But whatever, I love me some fruit! ^_^

[ira150]

I watched you for the first time in #1 & #2 ( truth about my body ) and I fell in love with your spirit! You really touched me. I am obese and yet can still relate to so much you said about your eating disorder. You really inspired me to be honest at least with my own self. I send your my thoughts and tons of positive energy :) I am going to keep watching you grow stronger and stronger! You are strong and you are a fighter - a fighter for life :)

[LuckyIrishGirl08]

I watched your videos on how to make organic dishes. Can we maybe one day see a video about dragon fruits? ; ) ♥

[Limabean120]

OMG the first scarf i knitted was for my mom! and i kept all the bumps and holes in it as well, b/c i knew she'd luv it knowing it was my first knitting project, i gave it to her last christmas :) fyi - i learned how to knit when i was in an ED program last year, it is very therapeutic...

[chillwaa]

anyone want to chat? i am bored and just got my new computer! it has a webcam!!! C

[esnutaliah]

i love you

[maya2222]

Dear Johnny ! (:

how are you? I see you're trying a new therapy and Im soo exctied for you !

sorry for dissapear for the last few weeks, I had a really bad time, and I hope things will be better.

and I didn't forget you though! (-: don't you think it just for one moment!

hope dante is ok too! ^^^

see you soon

kisses

*MAYA*

[BraveNewGirl07]

Hey, have u ever used a knifty knitter?

[grapessss]

u unravel the top thing then all the loops reappear and put the needle back thru them all

[MyOwnStickFigure]

thank you, unfortantly i wish it was that easy... i am embarressed to say that some loops aren't even loops as i messed up big time and then tried to just wrap it around and make fake loops LOLOLLOLOOLLOL it's so jacked up at this point but i just keep going!

[galaxycat3]

After i watched this vid i simply had to buy dragon fruit... i watched this a few days ago and i just picked up two... 10 dollars??? i paid about £1.29 - it stresses me out the expense :(

[MyOwnStickFigure]

organic, imported - go figure right... 10bucks a lb, 1 fruit is a lb here... ahhhh how did you like yours?!!?

[galaxycat3]

it was magnificent... especially drinking the lovely juices at tghe end

[justplainjill]

Johnny, I can NOT believe the fact EMDR was not already tried for you.

I owe you an apology.

EMDR. Wow... how it changed my life. There is NOTHING supernatural or a "quick-fix" about EMDR. It's actually pretty stupid in the sense that the simplicity is right there. NO ONE could talk me into EMDR becaue... SOME who have not gone thru the process are totally clueless. what ashame... anyway, if you want to ask a former EMDR gal - ANYTHING. you know how to reach me.

*muah*

Jill

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Jill, darling, it was not tried due to money issues. I would of tried it before but I did not have the money and my Mom was not aware of how impactful it can be... then she researched it and we worked something out. I actually took the responsibility and maturity to set all of this up, Mom didn't wipe my ass this time. We are both very proud of me! I expect it to be a course of healing for me, there are never quick fixes. Healing is ongoing! My first appointment is Monday/tomorrow!

[lilhg111]

misery. She kidnapped him lol

[lilhg111]

You have such great insight. I think it is so awesome that you are sharing what you are going through with all of us here. And I think that is so sweet of you to knit a scarf for your mom booboos and all.

[lilhg111]

mmm that looks yummy

[galaxycat3]

okay so thats how you eat a dragon fruit...

[fasting32]

aww youre so sweet to knit a scarf for your mom, i hope you show it to us when you finish it :)

Good Luck on your treatment!

[eacorpe88]

I think the movie is called "Misery"

[eifosnosslo]

Youre watching "Misery"! That is one sick and scary movie, i love it:)

Knitting is the coolest!

[guitarlovenjc]

Please keep us updated on how EMDR goes! I've studied it and it's become a very useful technique! Sand tray therapy is also helpful! :) <3

[happipill]

What kind of doggie do you have?

Do you have any videos showing him?

I'm wanting to get a toy poodle, I've heard they were really sweet. I want to dye it pink!

&knitting really does help. But for some reason it makes me really nauseous if I watch what I'm doing for too long. It's really weird. =/

I'm in a knitting club at my school, and we're planning on making things for homeless people. I feel really bad when I see them, and I'm glad I will be doing a little something to help.

[CREATIVERAIN]

You look great Johnny. Good luck with that scarf for your mom :0)

Sounds like you were watching Misery. Great movie! Though the book was even better...Isn't that always the case..hehehe.

Hope your having a great weekend. GOD BLESS!

[wsjulz]

You only get small dragon fruits in the uk, that taste of nothing.

[PringlesMinis]

Are you talking about the movie Misery??? Omg you never seen that?? That movie is awesome!! You gotta watch it from the beginning!!!

Super Scary!

[skeltorrr0305]

Omg, that dragonfruit made my mouth water! I couldn't stop staring at it throughout this whole video! Hehe. I'm going to have to go to the store and buy some. YUM!!!!

[divastarr21]

Misery freaked me out when I saw it. Even more than the Shining.

[HelloImTeens]

wow! I STARTED KNITTING TOO! And crocheting - which i personally like more.

I got those same free needles! And thank you for sharing with us!

I've never seen/had dragon fruit before. That thing looks really yummy.

[fruitgrrl]

this is my fav of all your videos!!! your strong spirit (and absolute cuteness!!! helloooooo!!!) but the colors ohmydog you are such an artist the needles yarn dragonfruit the pillow, your plaid shorts a gorgeous composition if you ever come over to berkeley i'll take you to the berkeley bowl yesterday ripe dragonfruit on the bargain shelf, $.59 holy crap anyway can i pay you to knit a little sweater for my chiwowwow?

[fruitgrrl]

your willingness to jump into such deep emotional work

is very inspiring

may this chapter of your healing

propel you forward

may it be smooth and completely cleansing

please keep breathing through every minute of it

[MyOwnStickFigure]

aw you are so sweet. omg that is dirt cheap, rainbow is selling them for 10 bucks a lb with 1 being 1 lb = 10 bucks a fruit!!! organic, that must be why... thank you for the comment below too, i am going to see how it goes and be very aware of what is healthy and stable for me along the way... set my boundaries and stick to it but be very open for change in the process. hugs

[fruitgrrl]

im pissed my ed / ocd of locavorism

prevented my buying those dragonfruit yesterday

they always put ripe tropical fruit on the bargain shelf

practically free

i think im gonna bend my "rule" from now on

and buy non local food from that shelf

it prob gets trashed if its not bought after all.

healing happens. little by little.

and sometimes in big swoops. ; )

[fruitgrrl]

oh btw,

10 cents or 10 dollars...

its worth it

AND you totally deserve it

[MyOwnStickFigure]

PS I totally tried commenting on your dog vids the other day but YT was under care and kept saying comments were disabled on the vids I watched of your. You've got some WELL trained pups!!! My Dante is RAW too. Do you buy prepared raw or make it yourself?

[fruitgrrl]

i saw dante in one of your vids. what a sweetiepie.

you prob know this, but as are there a million ways people do raw, same in the raw dog/cat world. i first bought Primal raw frozen nuggets from whole foods, and then went to the prey model. let me know if you want specifics. they also get a portion of my fruit and veggies.

i'd love to share dragonfruit, but i rarely (parade, yay!!!) go to sf. let me ponder it....xo

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Dante has been raw for awhile now. I balance all his meals out myself. He was on Primal but prefers it fresh so I buy everything myself and make it. He eats like a KING! Raw meat, spirulina, cod liver oil, fresh fruit and veggies, pulp from the juicer, coconut meat, seaweed... each meal is different for balance. He's in great health!

[fruitgrrl]

ohmydog what lucky pups we have to be living with ocd purists! hehe. really, dante's diet sounds great.kudos to you for all the labor involved.

the prey model is a vegetarians worst nightmare but i really honor it as being close to how dogs would eat if they were in the wild....at the risk of being all controlling and all self righteous over yet someone elses food!! so just for ed healing purposes, neither bella or i are 100% raw. we have "treats" w/in reason.

omd, i gotta get us a coconut.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

You deserve it too my dear. I have issues with the same and make exceptions for the occasional treat. Do you ever drive or bart to sf? If so, I'd love to get together and split one at a park bfore the weather goes downhill! I drive into SF every Thursday afternoon...

[bipolarbeer1]

My daughter and I took a knitting class at Michael's craft store. We've made a lot of scarves....the yarns out these days are soooo pretty and it's a nice thing to do for others. Try the really thick needles, too. The knit is looser and looks kewl.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

awesome! omg, the colors... what a beautiful trip across the rainbow!

[LindziiW85]

yay thats so exciting, I love knitting

[MyOwnStickFigure]

:) join our party!

[thedrunkenhippy]

You're watching Misery! I love that movie!

I'm glad you're making great strides in your treatment!

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Ew omg it was so twisted. I thought my mind was f'cked up lol When she beats his broke legs... omg... cruel. That woman plays those parts well.

[thedrunkenhippy]

Cathy Bates, I love her!

She did a nude scene with Jack Nicholson in some movie, I forget the title. She's the most body-positive person I've ever seen.

[thedrunkenhippy]

I love knitting!

[MyOwnStickFigure]

i wish i could have raw juice and knitting parties with my yt friend. what kinds of things do you knit!?

[thedrunkenhippy]

I knit scarves, mostly. I find that the simple action of knitting is so much more important than the actual product. I also made a rug for my kitchen and I'm building up the courage to crochet a poncho.

mmmmm.....raw juice!

[MyOwnStickFigure]

wow, awesome! a ponco would be sooo awesome. for this week's party i will host a classic carrot/beet/celery/green apple/ginger... watermelon and mint... and tangerine, lime and fresh coconut water - grab a glass and take your pick! or try all three!

[thedrunkenhippy]

That sounds delicious! I wish I lived closer so I could come! Maybe I'll start putting my projects up on my channel...its the next best thing, right?

[MyOwnStickFigure]

please do! make sure to send me the video when you do. i have already asked 1 other person to do a show and tell, i'd love to see your creations too!

[liftsifter]

I love Cross Stitching! I've never tried Knitting though.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

total craft party at my house one friday night, we can all teach each other new trades!

[liftsifter]

hah. That would be fun

[aj32384]

The most expensive and beautiful Persian rugs have tons of mistakes in them if you look closely. But that's the beauty in them. It shows that they were hand-crafted by people and not run through a machine to come out perfect. :) Take care!

[MyOwnStickFigure]

hi little miss saloon girl! this is a beautiful comment with a great message, thank you. persian rugs are amazing and now you have encouraged me to take a close up look. i find honesty in the mistakes to be remarkable, especially for how much those things sell for. talk about flaunting what one may consider to be flaws!

[MyOwnStickFigure]

hhahhaha i got your user name mixed up with my friends - diregard the saloon girl comment LOLOLOl keep the rest

[xamia]

Hi there! That's great to hear you've decided to try EMDR - I can tell you're doing everything in your power to beat the eating disorders. From what I've heard EMDR can be quite tough, but can also be very effective. I'll pray that it works for you. ps. that dragon fruit looked delish!:)

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Thank you! YES, omg it is INTENSE but I know in my heart right now that I will not recover the way I want to unless I dig even deeper... and will have 2 therapist to assist me in the process and if it gets too intense, we slow down or stop and return when safe to do so. I believe in healing the brain before expecting any dramatic changes in reducing behaviors and being mentally okay with healing the body and right now I REALLY want to moveonward with my recovery and get on with life.

[Sjappelientje]

You look so cute when you are knitting :P

[MyOwnStickFigure]

aw thank you! i took it upstairs after that horrid movie and watched a jail one with my Mom... she said the same thing but included that i looked like a lil old lady knitting, love it. granny fights back.

[theskinnypig]

lol @ the end!!!!!!!! I LOVE this video!!!!  I love you Johnny dear! I love your pillows! I can't wait to hear about how your EDMR treatments go, and I can't wait to see your finished scarf!!

[MyOwnStickFigure]

lol i love you beet of my heart!

[faete31]

Yay knitting! :) Super cute. I haven't been able to figure out knitting yet, but my mum taught me to crochet.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

I would love to learn that one too! and sewing and quiltmaking! Ahhh, thank heaven for us crafty ones! I want to make cute animals hats with matching scarves and mittens! leg warmers! arm warmers! sweaters with hella cute mixed buttons! big blankets and quilts lol don't get me started. What creations have you crocheted?

[faete31]

scarves are a favorite of mine. I've gotten to the point now where I've figured out how to switch colours and make stripes. OK, so I am not very advanced, but I LOVE it anyway. *laughs*. I've also been known to make soap cozies, afghans, and little pouches for just about everything in the house! lol. :-)

[MyOwnStickFigure]

I'd love to see a show and tell on cam sometime of your creations! especially the pouches, they sound so cute and handy!!!

[faete31]

Hey honey! :)) Ooh, that sounds like fun. Maybe I will make one. :)