I hate this 'she is in a happier place' rubbish WHEN people use it to numb themselves against the reality of the fact that a life has been LOST. Feel it, feel the loss! I am saddened that the C. died but I guess better dead than living a life of bare existance. However, I firmly believe that death is not the only release from anorexia, there is also recovery.
Oh my god what a sad and horrible tale. She was getting one on one treatment with the head therapist but she should also have had group treatment and lifeskills coaching. To go and talk about your abuse + troubles once a week only to return to an empty miserable lonely life for the rest of it = a recipe for ongoing pain and problems. She needed to be forgetting her pain sometimes with just normal fun, social activities - today's therapists should help organize that for the clients as well.
RIP Sweet Caraline. I hope you are finally at peace, free from all the pain, abuse and loneliness you suffered here. I wish I had known you, been your friend. I hope you have found the happiness and love you sought so much here sweetheart. <3 Rose
@bloodymaryholic I work with girls/boys who suffer from eating disorders, some of then end stage, you have no idea what her story is and for you to call her pathetic and whiny when she has been sexually abused since childhood and was starved and abused in various other ways is shortsighted and emotionless. Yes, most anorexics are intelligent high achievers but the majority all have stages where they are crying messes. You don't need to have an ED to understand her story, all you need is a heart.
I really wanted to watch this for the subject matter, but I can't. She is pathetic and pathologically whiny, and not as a result of her ilness (i have it too). It sickens me that whiny ones like her with the disease are always the image portrayed of an anorexic, when we are usually over-achievers that will do anything to not need your help, pity, or attention. I am not going to glorify her because she is dead. I wish this documentary would be taken down.
I really wanted to watch this for the subject matter, but I can't. She is pathetic and pathologically whiny, and not as a result of her ilness (i have it too). It sickens me that whiny ones like her with the disease are always the image portrayed of an anorexic, when we are usually over-achievers that will do anything to not need your help, pity, or attention. I am not going to glorify her because she is dead. I wish this documentary would be taken down.
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I really wanted to watch this for the subject matter, but I can't. She is pathetic and pathologically whiny, and not as a result of her ilness (i have it too). It sickens me that whiny ones like her with the disease are always the image portrayed of an anorexic, when we are usually over-achievers that will do anything to not need your help, pity, or attention. I am not going to glorify her because she is dead. I wish this documentary would be taken down.
This broke my heart. The pain and agony that she lived through was hell on earth. As sad as it is, I am happy for her to finally be free. Now she is being taken care of and is in a peaceful place where she feels loved. RIP
@curlye93 it's very evident, her weight, or lack thereof. Christie Henrich was down to 47 pounds at her lowest. Rudine Howard was down to 32 pounds at her lowest. Any questions?
Apologies if this had been answered elsewhere...too many comments to sort through them all... but does anyone know if this Caraline is the inspiration for the charity Caraline set up by Claire Beeken? Just that the spelling's so unusual.
Just finished watching part 1, and this is as far as I'll go.
I don't see the point of making a documentary about a person if only 10% of what that person says is intelligible. Really bad call on the part of whoever made this; it should have been subtitled.
It's a shame, I'm sure there is a lot to learn from this lady. Hopefully someone will remake this, or at least, subtitle it.
Just a clarification about the word "remake": I obviously don't meant that in the "Hollywood" sense but in the technical sense. Remix the sound, add a voice-over, or simply subtitles. I'm sure this story is worth hearing, but the very poor sound quality makes it near impossible.
That said, may she rest in peace and hopefully, her experience will help others escape the same same sad ending she met.
anyone who thinks that they need to "earn" their passage way to Heaven, all you do is accept that you're a sinner, ask God for His forgiveness and start living with your relationship with Him. It's so simple. My heart breaks for her if no one told her that before her passing
my heart just breaks watching this... you just want to help her... take the pain away somehow... i hope she has found peace at last... no one deserves this!
Does anyone else find it ironic that the same system that was supposed to be "helping" her,was actually enabling her self-destruction? I mean,if they didn't give her that money,she wouldn't have been able to do this....killing herself little by little..You know?
@wiseoldlady77 If they didn't give her the money she'd have died anyway. At that point just walking around bruises you. You're too fatigued to work. She would have starved to death anyway.
That video broke my heart. I've never been more moved before. I know that i don't know her, some people might think it is stupid to feel that way for someone i don't even know, but seriously... I couldn't do anything but crying. i wanted to close that video but i couldn't !! it's so hard to look at, but also so hard to look away from. That made me understand that ED is a really complicated disease. May she rest in peace, it's too sad to see lives being ruined, she derserved to be happy
What is wrong with men? Why do they find children as sexual attraction and have sex with them. This is the outcome of some of the damage done to sexually abused children. Others can become abusers.Sick. Caraline has internalized a lot. I'd bet she did not tell all of the horrors that have happened to this poor woman.She seems still childlike in her mannerims. I hope her father and mother(monsters) were punished.Caraline you RIP now your pain is over. Bless her siblings
@N330AA PTSD as a result of abuse from men would be THAT man's fault. eating disorders are NO ONES fault. When someone is diagnosed as schizophrenic, do you go pointing fingers blaming people for causing it? Not all people with PTSD end up with eating disorders. This is coming from an anorexic rape survivor, i know the territory well
This is going to sound harsh, but I think she should have been sectioned and fed through an ng or peg tube. (Preferably peg, as that could not be removed). Too many anorexics have died because people haven't helped them, and so many more are at deaths door before they recieve treatment. I myself had a heart rate of 40 beats per minute before I was finally addmitted to an ed ward. There is simply not enough help for anorexics, especially anorexics over the age of 18 ... :/
@Leatherlyy I agree! An extreme case Like Caraline, therapy is there for her, but its obvious it hasnt worked. I thought it was mandatory that if an ED patient got down to a certain & unhealthy weight, a physician HAS to admit you to hospital for re-feeding, regardless of age-its just general common sense. Like in Nancy's story-her parents took her to court, made her sign over her medical care to them.
it's a shame for people like this and our society today is so focused on skinny people and being skinny that this is usually the end result, it's great to want to be healthy, lose a few unwanted pounds,etc. but the way Hollywood perceives women today is utterly disgusting, if you are not thin your not wanted...just watch American Idol, next top model, etc. and when do you see someone with meat on their bones on a show unless they are being made fun of??
@amyntut you can't blame everything on hollywood. you just need to read the comments on youtube. if people aren't perfect or "hot" as i often read you get picked on. people need to turn that around not hollywood.
well, they probably didnt hospitalize her because theres a point where you just go to far for too long and you're past the point of no return.In and out of treatment centers for years, constant hospitalizations, constant relapses. Some people just cant break through the mental barrier and reclaim their mind again. All thats left is the anorexia she IS anorexia now. shes also dead. She could be you, she could be me. all it takes is to curl up with the disorder instead of fighting it.
What a terrible mental illness. All the sufferers of this disease have to do recover is EAT. Eat normally. And they can't do it! This film should really have subtitles. It's hard to understand her, her voice is so small and weak.
Classic result of bad parenting, I dont mean that for all anorexic people but in caralines case this was the cause unfortunately, poor girl she deserved much more I'm sure, R.I.P.....
It's almost ridiculous that people sympathize with someone who they see on TV but bully people at school, work or their neighbood with the same problem. Get a grip people. Everybody has a story and deserves to be treated with respect. (I don't want to be mean to anybody who said something nice about her though)
I dont think you should hate that you recognise that. It's a classic song that highlighted a problem that most people, even today shy away from or ignore. There should be more Art made to tackle issues like this I think
hate - because this poor girl died and she was so young and had her whole life ahead of her . may she rest in peace.
love- because this shows ignorant ppl who don't understand anorexia and think its "stupid" or funny that annorexia is a mental illness and it goes in depth with a lot of things. usually it connects to very painful things or other things. annorexia is a serious problem and should be treated right away.
with 10 hours of exercise a day, can you change you body in 2 weeks..only eating eggs and greens and fruits?what exercise is the best to drop weight fast?
azurelikeit1 ...maybe you dont like the sound of it, but imo she may be mentally ill... listen to her....look at her.... maybe we just differently intepret mental illnes, but as much as i feel sorry i dont feel wrong saying its mental illnes, a true one...
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No, Realorshee, Caraline restrained the feelings that abuse brought until she got an insincere apology & only then could she release the anguish. Everything she says is disproportionate:
"I eat too much to die & not enough to stay alive"
"I did everything...it was never enough"
"Sometimes I want her (mum) sometimes I hate her"
Her ability to judge, temper & moderate is broken so it's all or nothing.
this story has changed my thought of anorexia. my brother told me to watch it and i just blew it off thinking it was some joke like usual, and i started watching it, and it just makes you want to turn out the lights and grab a bowl of popcorn and just to love yourself
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pffff so fake! of course it makes you think that you're hurting yourself, and maybe you think about stoping, but definitively if you have anorexia it doesn't makes you feel like eating! like i always say "everyone wants to get better, but nobody wants to gain weight" every time i try to "get better" from anorexia i just turn to bulimia, and i hate bulimia, and i rather have anorexia than bulimia...
Hey! "I eat too much to die, and not enough to stay alive, I'm just stuck in the middle waiting"-that's sampled at the beginning of a Manic Street Preacher's track. 4st 7lb. I couldn't think why it sounded so familiar!
i used to think that it was only about looks, maybe to you it seemed like that... sorry if i offended you in any way... but after long talks with my psychiatrist i came to the conclutions that in MY case it has nothing to do with looks, for me it's more about control and being able to "function" without the food, but i guess that it's only in my case... of course i want to be thinner but not only to be perfect on the outside but to be perfect and pure on the inside.
mmmm you should probably read more about Eating disorders, because it has nothing to do with look, at the beginning it may look like that, but it has nothing to do with looks. It's a disease and it sucks.
I've suffered from ED myself - so I know VERY well how it's like. Don't tell me that I don't know what I'm talking about, because I do!
And I managed to get well again. An experience I want to share with other. I just want to help others who suffered from the same thing as me.
BESIDES - Don't lie to yourself and say it got nothing to do with looks. It's not just about looks, but saying it got nothing to do with is not true. But - yes - it is a disease!
This is going to sound terrible - but I wish I had the will-power that a person with an eating disorder has. If I could instead keep food out of my mouth like they do, instead of shoving it in, I would be much happier, I think.
the greatest will power needed by these people is the will power to eat and enjoy food for what it is, nourishment for our bodies. it's easy to let this disease overtake your mind and brainwash you, so in that context its far easier to start then stop the disorder.
don't ever wish for anything like that, unless you like falling into holes which prove significantly harder to get out of than you think .
if you, LindslnNY can't see how horribly sick and miserable these people are, then I hope that you never go through this, because in this case, ignorance is bliss.
you are so wrong you don't know how it feels to have an Eating Disorder, specially anorexia, of course you start losing weight, but you will never be satisfied with the way you look, you may think that you hate your body, but has it ever happen to you that you actually want to die because you feel like a f*cking whale and think that nobody will love you just because you're so f*cking fat!
What a beautiful girl. She just needed someone to love her truly and deeply. There's too many people like this in the world and it should not be that way.
I had always been (untill later years) been what I regarded as a natural runt - didn't matter what I ate - I always was a skinny bitch - and I didn't vomit and I certainly didn't avoid food - my teenage years was bad co's I worried co's my hip bones stuck out - I ate more than most but never put the weight on - now I'm 45 and still I have to worry co's sometimes no matter what I eat my weight drops . Being skinny isn't nice - bones sticking out isn't nice.
Eat something! People are struck down with afflictions and terminal illness everyday.You make me sick! An ilness born of vanity, you are pathetic. My son will die fron lukemia yet you gain sympathy from an intentional illness..I hope you rot in hell.
right-you're completely fucked in the ead. You know nothing about this disease. If you knew ANYTHING about ED's, you'd know its NOT about vanity. Did Caraline say ANYTHING, anywhere in this documentary about wanting to be pretty or beautiful? No. She was brutally abused as a child. the cause for ED's is lined in childhood trauma, NOT vanity. You would have made more sense if you brayed like a fucking donkey, then ate your keyboard. Jackass
But having a sick child is no excuse for wishing this poor girl "rots in hell".
Caraline's illness is not born from vanity, it is born from a desire to fade away because of the extreme abuse she suffered as a child. She was beaten by her mother and raped by her father, and that's just a bit of what she went through. Caraline did not inflict this upon herself, the people who should love her did.
I dont know what to say. *********!!!! Do you think people REALLY intentionally KILL themselves?!? Starve to death for attention?!?! NO! You have got NO F*ING idea what kind of a hell can an eating disorder be! Im living through it and slowly getting over the fear of eating! I know these things make no sense but do you blame schitzofrenic people for their hallucinations?!?
EATING DISORDERS KILL. They are NOT anything you can just forget and start eating and living like nothing.
It really sucks you girls gained weight due to being on lithium, especially those with body image issues. My sister is bipolar and was on it breifly. She used to be tiny but is now unhappy with her weight and is still trying to get it off. She's not quite as strict with her eating as she could be which is why she's having trouble, but still. I'm kind of annoyed at doctors for putting people on lithium, it's unhealthy to be overweight, yet they knowingly pescribe medication that causes this.
Kate's Secret is on TrueMovies on Monday 5th January 6am, 12ish, 6pm and later on!!! i can't find it anywhere on youtube and came across it by accident ... ment to be good so check it out :) and some1 mite be able to get it up on youtube. :)
As harshly as you worded that, in essence, I think you do have a point. Anorexia and bulimia are frequently reported on in magazines and documentaries, to a mainly sympathetic audience, shocked at images of starvation and bones. Compulsive Overeating is often ignored, it seems, as society has such an inbuilt "fat = your own stupid fault" mentality that it's simply brushed away as an excuse for being slobbish and greedy.
I'd love to see documentary makers redressing the balance.
Yeah, everyone can give me thumbs down, but the struggle for a compulsive over eater is even worse. If you get skinny everyone is like wow I want to be as skinny as her (obviously). If you get so obese that you take two seats on the bus, you get ridiculed by everyone. No one understands the stigma.
I am on Psychiatric meds for Bipolar disorder. Lithium has made me gain 5 stone! I feel horrific! When I was bulimic & skinny everyone praised me for my figure, my pain was v private. Since gaining weight on the Lithium EVERYONE sees ur disease so it becomes public. I can't tell strangers why I'm so big but I get degrading looks from them on a daily basis. I eat v little, healthily but the drugs are strong. I do think that people think fat=lazy=over eats=persons fault. Not true all the time.
It's so crap only my family and boyfriend really believe me because they see exactly what I eat! My friends think that the drugs make you eat more and that causes the weight gain. I can understand but people really need to be educated about weight gain. I am now borderline obese so I'm changing my meds but hey! I don't care I've a good support and I trust my Pdoc! Good luck! Add me as a friend if you want ritsukaxkelly! I'd love to chat to you about what we're going thu...it SUX x
Anyone who goes through this much suffering in life deserves a place in heaven. I'm not sure what happens after we die but if there is a heaven I'm sure Caraline is there. Life on this plane has been hell for her and many others. I am sure she is at peace now where ever she is. R.I.P Caraline xxx
I agree with you there she is a sweet girl and I hope she has her place in Heaven. She tries to do good things and she has gone through things I could never imagine. I too hope she is at peace now.
cases like that and so many more just makes me think ....that it's really fucking hard to commit yourselfe with someone or even get married ,because you never know when that person might be abusing your'e own child or like those mothers hwo hurt theyre own children to get some attention from doctors.And i know that all man/woman are not the same ,but cases like that leave a really bad mark in general..:(poor woman
Caraline is dying of anorexia/bulimia. As a child she was forced to perform oral sex on her father. She feels that if she was slim enough nobody would be able to hurt her any more. This powerful and disturbing documentary looks at the devastating physical toll taken by the disease and how the treatments she has received ha
I hate this 'she is in a happier place' rubbish WHEN people use it to numb themselves against the reality of the fact that a life has been LOST. Feel it, feel the loss! I am saddened that the C. died but I guess better dead than living a life of bare existance. However, I firmly believe that death is not the only release from anorexia, there is also recovery.
beyondtherapy001 4 weeks ago
Oh my god what a sad and horrible tale. She was getting one on one treatment with the head therapist but she should also have had group treatment and lifeskills coaching. To go and talk about your abuse + troubles once a week only to return to an empty miserable lonely life for the rest of it = a recipe for ongoing pain and problems. She needed to be forgetting her pain sometimes with just normal fun, social activities - today's therapists should help organize that for the clients as well.
otherbrain 2 months ago
I just realized something. I blame this 100 percent on the media.
Problems exhibited due to media
skin bleaching by many melanin races
hair color bleaching
anorexia
superficiality
cosmetic surgery addictions
suicides
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chaayanowut 3 months ago
dreadfully tragic story
im glad she is in a happier place, she deserves an eternity of bliss and more.
so sad, rip.
Masychefx2 4 months ago
RIP Sweet Caraline. I hope you are finally at peace, free from all the pain, abuse and loneliness you suffered here. I wish I had known you, been your friend. I hope you have found the happiness and love you sought so much here sweetheart. <3 Rose
0RoseRed 4 months ago
@bloodymaryholic I work with girls/boys who suffer from eating disorders, some of then end stage, you have no idea what her story is and for you to call her pathetic and whiny when she has been sexually abused since childhood and was starved and abused in various other ways is shortsighted and emotionless. Yes, most anorexics are intelligent high achievers but the majority all have stages where they are crying messes. You don't need to have an ED to understand her story, all you need is a heart.
RileyVify 4 months ago
@RileyVify Blessings on you in the work that you do. See my other comment above.
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I really wanted to watch this for the subject matter, but I can't. She is pathetic and pathologically whiny, and not as a result of her ilness (i have it too). It sickens me that whiny ones like her with the disease are always the image portrayed of an anorexic, when we are usually over-achievers that will do anything to not need your help, pity, or attention. I am not going to glorify her because she is dead. I wish this documentary would be taken down.
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I really wanted to watch this for the subject matter, but I can't. She is pathetic and pathologically whiny, and not as a result of her ilness (i have it too). It sickens me that whiny ones like her with the disease are always the image portrayed of an anorexic, when we are usually over-achievers that will do anything to not need your help, pity, or attention. I am not going to glorify her because she is dead. I wish this documentary would be taken down.
bloodymaryholic 5 months ago
I have a problem hearing all she's saying..it's not a clear sound..I wanted to watch this so bad.... :\
BodyartCat 5 months ago 2
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I really wanted to watch this for the subject matter, but I can't. She is pathetic and pathologically whiny, and not as a result of her ilness (i have it too). It sickens me that whiny ones like her with the disease are always the image portrayed of an anorexic, when we are usually over-achievers that will do anything to not need your help, pity, or attention. I am not going to glorify her because she is dead. I wish this documentary would be taken down.
bloodymaryholic 6 months ago
@bloodymaryholic That was incredibly rude.
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@HannahBananaHate i'm not going to glorify her just cuz she's dead
bloodymaryholic 6 months ago
@HannahBananaHate get over yourself
bloodymaryholic 5 months ago
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bloodymaryholic 6 months ago
@bloodymaryholic grow up.
herointoast 5 months ago
This broke my heart. The pain and agony that she lived through was hell on earth. As sad as it is, I am happy for her to finally be free. Now she is being taken care of and is in a peaceful place where she feels loved. RIP
MFCLgurl 6 months ago
i can understand how she felt
unevercalled 8 months ago
1:56 the beginning of 4St.7Lb by Manic Street Preachers <3
sebway23 8 months ago 4
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I looked up this documentary just to hear that part
Yokonono99 5 months ago
damnit. even with headphones i cant hear. :P
novideosforme123 10 months ago
if you can't hear, listen with headphones
smurfieboo 10 months ago
Can hardly understand a thing she's saying most of the time! :l
xiolian22 11 months ago
her inaudible utterances are drowned out by the sickening, loud swallowing sounds....
TrustorBust716 11 months ago
this woman is really weird and i can't hear a word she is saying, she talks like a 4 year old
curlye93 1 year ago
@curlye93 well youre not gonna project your voice like pavarotti when you weigh so little. shes extremely ill for christ sake.
StevieWondersWhy24 11 months ago 3
49 POunDS, i don't believe that, i think this vid got the weight messed up
curlye93 1 year ago
@curlye93 it's very evident, her weight, or lack thereof. Christie Henrich was down to 47 pounds at her lowest. Rudine Howard was down to 32 pounds at her lowest. Any questions?
TrustorBust716 11 months ago
Apologies if this had been answered elsewhere...too many comments to sort through them all... but does anyone know if this Caraline is the inspiration for the charity Caraline set up by Claire Beeken? Just that the spelling's so unusual.
LadyJulz83 1 year ago
Just finished watching part 1, and this is as far as I'll go.
I don't see the point of making a documentary about a person if only 10% of what that person says is intelligible. Really bad call on the part of whoever made this; it should have been subtitled.
It's a shame, I'm sure there is a lot to learn from this lady. Hopefully someone will remake this, or at least, subtitle it.
salomey5 1 year ago 2
Just a clarification about the word "remake": I obviously don't meant that in the "Hollywood" sense but in the technical sense. Remix the sound, add a voice-over, or simply subtitles. I'm sure this story is worth hearing, but the very poor sound quality makes it near impossible.
That said, may she rest in peace and hopefully, her experience will help others escape the same same sad ending she met.
salomey5 1 year ago
i wish this was texted
some of her words r to faint to hear
queenbie3 1 year ago
anyone who thinks that they need to "earn" their passage way to Heaven, all you do is accept that you're a sinner, ask God for His forgiveness and start living with your relationship with Him. It's so simple. My heart breaks for her if no one told her that before her passing
ohxsoxunique 1 year ago
my heart just breaks watching this... you just want to help her... take the pain away somehow... i hope she has found peace at last... no one deserves this!
oOEwtgthbnwtdOo 1 year ago
Does anyone else find it ironic that the same system that was supposed to be "helping" her,was actually enabling her self-destruction? I mean,if they didn't give her that money,she wouldn't have been able to do this....killing herself little by little..You know?
wiseoldlady77 1 year ago
@wiseoldlady77 If they didn't give her the money she'd have died anyway. At that point just walking around bruises you. You're too fatigued to work. She would have starved to death anyway.
weirdeared 1 year ago
@wiseoldlady77 not ironic at all. Money doesnt mean anything when you're this sick. Shoplifting is very common.
TrustorBust716 11 months ago
i cant understand a word shes saying!!
seven2heaven 1 year ago 5
she *deserved to be happy
jujuRNR 1 year ago
That video broke my heart. I've never been more moved before. I know that i don't know her, some people might think it is stupid to feel that way for someone i don't even know, but seriously... I couldn't do anything but crying. i wanted to close that video but i couldn't !! it's so hard to look at, but also so hard to look away from. That made me understand that ED is a really complicated disease. May she rest in peace, it's too sad to see lives being ruined, she derserved to be happy
jujuRNR 1 year ago 2
What is wrong with men? Why do they find children as sexual attraction and have sex with them. This is the outcome of some of the damage done to sexually abused children. Others can become abusers.Sick. Caraline has internalized a lot. I'd bet she did not tell all of the horrors that have happened to this poor woman.She seems still childlike in her mannerims. I hope her father and mother(monsters) were punished.Caraline you RIP now your pain is over. Bless her siblings
paranrm 1 year ago 2
@paranrm Yes this is all men's fault.
N330AA 8 months ago
@N330AA PTSD as a result of abuse from men would be THAT man's fault. eating disorders are NO ONES fault. When someone is diagnosed as schizophrenic, do you go pointing fingers blaming people for causing it? Not all people with PTSD end up with eating disorders. This is coming from an anorexic rape survivor, i know the territory well
bloodymaryholic 6 months ago
This is going to sound harsh, but I think she should have been sectioned and fed through an ng or peg tube. (Preferably peg, as that could not be removed). Too many anorexics have died because people haven't helped them, and so many more are at deaths door before they recieve treatment. I myself had a heart rate of 40 beats per minute before I was finally addmitted to an ed ward. There is simply not enough help for anorexics, especially anorexics over the age of 18 ... :/
Leatherlyy 1 year ago
@Leatherlyy I agree! An extreme case Like Caraline, therapy is there for her, but its obvious it hasnt worked. I thought it was mandatory that if an ED patient got down to a certain & unhealthy weight, a physician HAS to admit you to hospital for re-feeding, regardless of age-its just general common sense. Like in Nancy's story-her parents took her to court, made her sign over her medical care to them.
TrustorBust716 1 year ago
the first minute or so broke my heart.
fremikeard 1 year ago
it's a shame for people like this and our society today is so focused on skinny people and being skinny that this is usually the end result, it's great to want to be healthy, lose a few unwanted pounds,etc. but the way Hollywood perceives women today is utterly disgusting, if you are not thin your not wanted...just watch American Idol, next top model, etc. and when do you see someone with meat on their bones on a show unless they are being made fun of??
amyntut 1 year ago 3
@amyntut you can't blame everything on hollywood. you just need to read the comments on youtube. if people aren't perfect or "hot" as i often read you get picked on. people need to turn that around not hollywood.
RoteFedern 1 year ago 4
every single time i hear that 4st 7 quote it gives me shivers up my spine
makes you thankful if you have a great family :(
jennytot86 1 year ago 3
@emma3189
well, they probably didnt hospitalize her because theres a point where you just go to far for too long and you're past the point of no return.In and out of treatment centers for years, constant hospitalizations, constant relapses. Some people just cant break through the mental barrier and reclaim their mind again. All thats left is the anorexia she IS anorexia now. shes also dead. She could be you, she could be me. all it takes is to curl up with the disorder instead of fighting it.
bijouxmiu 1 year ago
Please put subtitles on this, it inspired a song by one of the worlds biggest bands but half of it is inaudible.
azurelikeit1 1 year ago 14
God bless her. xx
kaitykaitykaitykaity 1 year ago
i feel for you, god bless you love :(
elina2010 1 year ago
What a terrible mental illness. All the sufferers of this disease have to do recover is EAT. Eat normally. And they can't do it! This film should really have subtitles. It's hard to understand her, her voice is so small and weak.
cynthiacher 1 year ago
salad fingers
zaidealmanacerruiz 1 year ago
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I'm here to inquire about your spoons
looool
DEADASHLEY 1 year ago
gawd this is soooooooooo sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bubbles10193 1 year ago
I can barely understand her, she speaks so softly. She must have been so weak.
Muirin007 1 year ago 2
Classic result of bad parenting, I dont mean that for all anorexic people but in caralines case this was the cause unfortunately, poor girl she deserved much more I'm sure, R.I.P.....
bzylizzy 1 year ago
Pitiful. :(
jo123phoebe 2 years ago 3
whats 3 and a half stone in weights
krystlegirl30 2 years ago
49 pounds
jayinbold 2 years ago
It's almost ridiculous that people sympathize with someone who they see on TV but bully people at school, work or their neighbood with the same problem. Get a grip people. Everybody has a story and deserves to be treated with respect. (I don't want to be mean to anybody who said something nice about her though)
RoteFedern 2 years ago 39
when was this aired
funney61303349 2 years ago
@funney61303349 like 1994
Bubbles10193 1 year ago
manic street preachers........i remember
503408 2 years ago 4
Caraline most definately went to heaven. She was a pure soul <3
babyblues104 2 years ago 4
She seems very sweet and it is sad... sexually abused as a child - just horrible. Hard to understand due to very poor sound quality on the video.
chocolatechickenpie 2 years ago 7
i think she really is the voice in the song by the manic street preachers !! rip lovelly <3
xxzarahh 2 years ago 5
i hate that i recognize this but what she says from to 1:56 - 2:03 is used in the song "4st7lbs" by Manic Street Preachers.
R.I.P Caraline
casanasie 2 years ago 14
I dont think you should hate that you recognise that. It's a classic song that highlighted a problem that most people, even today shy away from or ignore. There should be more Art made to tackle issues like this I think
simonpenum 2 years ago 3
your absolutely right. i hate how ppl shy away from the topic. an eating disorder is not taboo.
casanasie 2 years ago 4
@casanasie
Although it's very sad, everything that is created to indicate the seriousness, and even fatality of the illness... Is just triggering.
NightimeNecrosis 1 year ago
poor woman, she felt all alone, i know your in a better place now!!!
Edwardlover222 2 years ago 7
subtitles would be nice
amicusnemini 2 years ago 5
...its not only harmful to the body but to your mental health and soul too.
FiestaSam12 2 years ago 5
i love and hate this video .
hate - because this poor girl died and she was so young and had her whole life ahead of her . may she rest in peace.
love- because this shows ignorant ppl who don't understand anorexia and think its "stupid" or funny that annorexia is a mental illness and it goes in depth with a lot of things. usually it connects to very painful things or other things. annorexia is a serious problem and should be treated right away.
FiestaSam12 2 years ago 9
Well put!
SWEETAPACHE1030 2 years ago
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with 10 hours of exercise a day, can you change you body in 2 weeks..only eating eggs and greens and fruits?what exercise is the best to drop weight fast?
aipyor 2 years ago
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wow she so thin my 7"cher would not fit in her!
willbot7000 2 years ago
caraline i truly hope your in a better place now...ie heaven..x
steve2863 2 years ago 6
this is so sad
kdoy306 2 years ago 3
azurelikeit1 ...maybe you dont like the sound of it, but imo she may be mentally ill... listen to her....look at her.... maybe we just differently intepret mental illnes, but as much as i feel sorry i dont feel wrong saying its mental illnes, a true one...
realorshee 2 years ago
:'( at least the pain is gone now and she's free
TrishyxLou 2 years ago 7
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No, Realorshee, Caraline restrained the feelings that abuse brought until she got an insincere apology & only then could she release the anguish. Everything she says is disproportionate:
"I eat too much to die & not enough to stay alive"
"I did everything...it was never enough"
"Sometimes I want her (mum) sometimes I hate her"
Her ability to judge, temper & moderate is broken so it's all or nothing.
azurelikeit1 2 years ago
half of what she was saying i could not hear. this sucks
pinapplemangobananna 2 years ago 10
susan boyle
js53092 2 years ago
She weighed 49lbs? How can that be?
anazlyfestyle 2 years ago
maybe she was declared anorexic by doctors, but she was mentally ill ?
realorshee 2 years ago
Well, anorexia IS a mental illness.
IShitIce 2 years ago 42
this story has changed my thought of anorexia. my brother told me to watch it and i just blew it off thinking it was some joke like usual, and i started watching it, and it just makes you want to turn out the lights and grab a bowl of popcorn and just to love yourself
brookejennifer7 2 years ago 2
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pffff so fake! of course it makes you think that you're hurting yourself, and maybe you think about stoping, but definitively if you have anorexia it doesn't makes you feel like eating! like i always say "everyone wants to get better, but nobody wants to gain weight" every time i try to "get better" from anorexia i just turn to bulimia, and i hate bulimia, and i rather have anorexia than bulimia...
tzitzidoll 2 years ago
Hey! "I eat too much to die, and not enough to stay alive, I'm just stuck in the middle waiting"-that's sampled at the beginning of a Manic Street Preacher's track. 4st 7lb. I couldn't think why it sounded so familiar!
thesanantoniokid 2 years ago
her voice is so sweet
LexiyLollitah 2 years ago 4
i cant understand anyting that is being said in the video. is there a way to fix the sound quality?
thisismycoolname 2 years ago
exkild
do u think that people with ED wants to live like that??
do u know how addictive is that?
and its not just about how u look like&how much u weight!
you will never know how is it....
ukaq 2 years ago 5
Actually I DO KNOW!
I've suffered from ED myself - so I know VERY well how it's like. Don't tell me that I don't know what I'm talking about, because I do!
And I managed to get well again. An experience I want to share with other. I just want to help others who suffered from the same thing as me.
Exkild 2 years ago
i used to think that it was only about looks, maybe to you it seemed like that... sorry if i offended you in any way... but after long talks with my psychiatrist i came to the conclutions that in MY case it has nothing to do with looks, for me it's more about control and being able to "function" without the food, but i guess that it's only in my case... of course i want to be thinner but not only to be perfect on the outside but to be perfect and pure on the inside.
tzitzidoll 2 years ago
well if is like that,than Im very sorry for those
words that i wrote 2u.
hopefully you ll never start again with that sad (ED) life.
good luck!!
ukaq 2 years ago
It´s sad that so many people believe in these LIES? Especially girls.
I´m a guy - and can say that a healthy, confident, normal looking girl is BY FAR more beautiful then a skinny, anorectic skeleton.
And all of my buddies agree to this! But the most important thing is the personality!
Please don´t starve yourself! The only thing you do is ruining your own body. You may feel healthy, but your´e actually destroying yourselfs!
Exkild 2 years ago
mmmm you should probably read more about Eating disorders, because it has nothing to do with look, at the beginning it may look like that, but it has nothing to do with looks. It's a disease and it sucks.
tzitzidoll 2 years ago 2
Actually I DO KNOW!
I've suffered from ED myself - so I know VERY well how it's like. Don't tell me that I don't know what I'm talking about, because I do!
And I managed to get well again. An experience I want to share with other. I just want to help others who suffered from the same thing as me.
BESIDES - Don't lie to yourself and say it got nothing to do with looks. It's not just about looks, but saying it got nothing to do with is not true. But - yes - it is a disease!
Exkild 2 years ago
@Exkild
It isn't about that at all.
NightimeNecrosis 1 year ago
@NightimeNecrosis - it isn't about what?
Exkild 1 year ago
"i don't know what to do to earn my passage way to heaven. i'd really like to go and i reckon i've paid the price'
that broke my heart into a million pieces
biorhythmicc 2 years ago 12
why? why?
melaher 2 years ago
poor girl. bless her. xx
dollywasher 2 years ago 7
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This is going to sound terrible - but I wish I had the will-power that a person with an eating disorder has. If I could instead keep food out of my mouth like they do, instead of shoving it in, I would be much happier, I think.
LindsInNY 2 years ago
the greatest will power needed by these people is the will power to eat and enjoy food for what it is, nourishment for our bodies. it's easy to let this disease overtake your mind and brainwash you, so in that context its far easier to start then stop the disorder.
don't ever wish for anything like that, unless you like falling into holes which prove significantly harder to get out of than you think .
subtlelights 2 years ago 2
if you, LindslnNY can't see how horribly sick and miserable these people are, then I hope that you never go through this, because in this case, ignorance is bliss.
blustarr09 2 years ago 2
you are so wrong you don't know how it feels to have an Eating Disorder, specially anorexia, of course you start losing weight, but you will never be satisfied with the way you look, you may think that you hate your body, but has it ever happen to you that you actually want to die because you feel like a f*cking whale and think that nobody will love you just because you're so f*cking fat!
tzitzidoll 2 years ago 3
rip,she is in heaven now <3
crosturphobic 2 years ago 10
That was in the beginning of 4st 7lb
Ilurvebroccoli 2 years ago
That poor woman, my heart truly breaks for her..
cariad81 2 years ago 49
This is so so sad. No one deserves anything remotely like what this poor woman had to go through. R.I.P. Caraline xxx
thenameaintjim 2 years ago 15
Thanks for taking the time to post the videos. I am having great difficulty hearing it, and find it frustating to carry on watching it.
Any way to fix the sound quality ?
debe1965 2 years ago 2
This Was My Aunty Love You Forever Aunty Caraline! x
shivnayy 2 years ago
What a beautiful girl. She just needed someone to love her truly and deeply. There's too many people like this in the world and it should not be that way.
sbyrne1 2 years ago 6
sad she wanted to die :(
AVALONFANINVA 2 years ago 2
oh my this is horrible poor girl
torking82 3 years ago
what is she saying at the end ??
i can t hear most of it :(
queenbie3 3 years ago 2
poor thing omg why did those things happen to her in her past
juskillmysoulbitch 3 years ago 7
:'((((
AmyLouiseFrench 3 years ago 4
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<3
r.i.p...
lovesserenade 3 years ago
that poor woman. her life was takin from her.... her mam has severe problems
missb9871 3 years ago 4
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the year i was born.1994
the month she died,my friend was born..
namezryan 3 years ago
Such a tragedy. Rest In Peace Caraline may you find happiness.
QueenOfTheKelpies 3 years ago 5
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I had always been (untill later years) been what I regarded as a natural runt - didn't matter what I ate - I always was a skinny bitch - and I didn't vomit and I certainly didn't avoid food - my teenage years was bad co's I worried co's my hip bones stuck out - I ate more than most but never put the weight on - now I'm 45 and still I have to worry co's sometimes no matter what I eat my weight drops . Being skinny isn't nice - bones sticking out isn't nice.
Tilly0910 3 years ago
O.O she died two days after my first birthday
candie00gurlie 3 years ago
oh dear god she was only 21...that is my age..
brea87 3 years ago
she was 29
DesertSerenade 3 years ago 3
That thing she says in the beginning, about eating too much to die, isn't that the quote at the opening of 4st 7lbs by Manic Street Preachers?
josie421 3 years ago 2
yeah... and if I got it right then it is her voice in the song.
thinBillyBoy 3 years ago 2
God her mother was nuts!
KateM91 3 years ago 2
oh my god she only ways 48 pounds.
oishitomoro 3 years ago
*weighs pardon my english
oishitomoro 3 years ago
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Eat something! People are struck down with afflictions and terminal illness everyday.You make me sick! An ilness born of vanity, you are pathetic. My son will die fron lukemia yet you gain sympathy from an intentional illness..I hope you rot in hell.
rightwinggelfling 3 years ago
right-you're completely fucked in the ead. You know nothing about this disease. If you knew ANYTHING about ED's, you'd know its NOT about vanity. Did Caraline say ANYTHING, anywhere in this documentary about wanting to be pretty or beautiful? No. She was brutally abused as a child. the cause for ED's is lined in childhood trauma, NOT vanity. You would have made more sense if you brayed like a fucking donkey, then ate your keyboard. Jackass
WeRFreEDomFighters 3 years ago 10
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Fuck off you stupid turd eating retard..
rightwinggelfling 3 years ago
ahhh.... The ignorance that exists in the world. Aparently the video didnt teach you anything....sooooo maybe stop watching them?
amindofmyownhere 3 years ago 3
I am sincerely sorry about your son.
But having a sick child is no excuse for wishing this poor girl "rots in hell".
Caraline's illness is not born from vanity, it is born from a desire to fade away because of the extreme abuse she suffered as a child. She was beaten by her mother and raped by her father, and that's just a bit of what she went through. Caraline did not inflict this upon herself, the people who should love her did.
Tuntenut 3 years ago 8
I dont know what to say. *********!!!! Do you think people REALLY intentionally KILL themselves?!? Starve to death for attention?!?! NO! You have got NO F*ING idea what kind of a hell can an eating disorder be! Im living through it and slowly getting over the fear of eating! I know these things make no sense but do you blame schitzofrenic people for their hallucinations?!?
EATING DISORDERS KILL. They are NOT anything you can just forget and start eating and living like nothing.
Luovahullu 3 years ago 5
if your son would die from anorexia, would you tell him to rot in hell?
helenasophie 3 years ago 4
one of my best friends has anorexica and it has nothing to do with vanity! you don't have a clue! you think these people want to starve to death?
chloedice 3 years ago 13
And I know lithium has a purpose, but my sister is now on prozac and another anti-depressant and she's doing well.
jessicastunden87 3 years ago
It really sucks you girls gained weight due to being on lithium, especially those with body image issues. My sister is bipolar and was on it breifly. She used to be tiny but is now unhappy with her weight and is still trying to get it off. She's not quite as strict with her eating as she could be which is why she's having trouble, but still. I'm kind of annoyed at doctors for putting people on lithium, it's unhealthy to be overweight, yet they knowingly pescribe medication that causes this.
jessicastunden87 3 years ago
She was in so much pain!
teardropformality 3 years ago
OMG :( is sad she couldn't recover! :( I hope she finally find the peace she never find! :( and was just 29! :(
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RoGuE16RoX 3 years ago
I can't hear what she's saying.
Maybe it's my speakers but everything else is clear.
Lisa13245 3 years ago
The most disgusting part of all of this is that some people are PRO anorexia. How disgusting. WTF is glamorous about dying at 29?
Tracy3686 3 years ago 2
ooh wow i really aggree with you, i have an eating disorder and i cannot imagine how someone would "want" to have an ED!! i never wanted this!!!
StickFigureXO 3 years ago
Could someone tell what accent that is? Isn't it an Essex accent...??? I'm curious.
Ealasaid17 3 years ago
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Why is there never a documentary on overeating and fat people? It's so special cause someone dies from starving themselves. GTFO.
Hadarslover 3 years ago
As harshly as you worded that, in essence, I think you do have a point. Anorexia and bulimia are frequently reported on in magazines and documentaries, to a mainly sympathetic audience, shocked at images of starvation and bones. Compulsive Overeating is often ignored, it seems, as society has such an inbuilt "fat = your own stupid fault" mentality that it's simply brushed away as an excuse for being slobbish and greedy.
I'd love to see documentary makers redressing the balance.
EffingAndJeffing 3 years ago 8
Yeah, everyone can give me thumbs down, but the struggle for a compulsive over eater is even worse. If you get skinny everyone is like wow I want to be as skinny as her (obviously). If you get so obese that you take two seats on the bus, you get ridiculed by everyone. No one understands the stigma.
Hadarslover 3 years ago 4
I am on Psychiatric meds for Bipolar disorder. Lithium has made me gain 5 stone! I feel horrific! When I was bulimic & skinny everyone praised me for my figure, my pain was v private. Since gaining weight on the Lithium EVERYONE sees ur disease so it becomes public. I can't tell strangers why I'm so big but I get degrading looks from them on a daily basis. I eat v little, healthily but the drugs are strong. I do think that people think fat=lazy=over eats=persons fault. Not true all the time.
shoegalsho 3 years ago
I got put on psychatric meds too. But they have no idea what's my disorder and I gained 4 stone.
ritsukaxkelly 3 years ago
It's so crap only my family and boyfriend really believe me because they see exactly what I eat! My friends think that the drugs make you eat more and that causes the weight gain. I can understand but people really need to be educated about weight gain. I am now borderline obese so I'm changing my meds but hey! I don't care I've a good support and I trust my Pdoc! Good luck! Add me as a friend if you want ritsukaxkelly! I'd love to chat to you about what we're going thu...it SUX x
shoegalsho 3 years ago
hadar-spot on! :)
DesertSerenade 3 years ago
Anyone who goes through this much suffering in life deserves a place in heaven. I'm not sure what happens after we die but if there is a heaven I'm sure Caraline is there. Life on this plane has been hell for her and many others. I am sure she is at peace now where ever she is. R.I.P Caraline xxx
shoegalsho 3 years ago 4
I agree with you there she is a sweet girl and I hope she has her place in Heaven. She tries to do good things and she has gone through things I could never imagine. I too hope she is at peace now.
Lisa13245 3 years ago 2
wow, I really dont know how to relate this young girl, but i definately can feel her pain with the words she is saying,
Im actually crying right now!
Its so sad !
jess15xo 3 years ago 2
cases like that and so many more just makes me think ....that it's really fucking hard to commit yourselfe with someone or even get married ,because you never know when that person might be abusing your'e own child or like those mothers hwo hurt theyre own children to get some attention from doctors.And i know that all man/woman are not the same ,but cases like that leave a really bad mark in general..:(poor woman
LeeliaL 3 years ago
Now I found this on BBCactive.
Caraline is dying of anorexia/bulimia. As a child she was forced to perform oral sex on her father. She feels that if she was slim enough nobody would be able to hurt her any more. This powerful and disturbing documentary looks at the devastating physical toll taken by the disease and how the treatments she has received ha