I have Social Anxiety!

[rigatonidanza]

If SA is the 3rd most common, then why is it so hard to get disability?

[ifromthepast]

Sucks ball don it

[pugs321]

You don't seem like you have social anixety.

[tonyfalca]

@pugs321 he is in his own home by himself or at least it appears that way..lol

[RosalieStreet]

w w w dealwithstresslabs com  has more serious info on "How to deal with stress"

[crazydiva23]

I have just discovered i have SA.. Not sure how to go about fixing this, i realise i might never cure it but with help i hope to get better. I Hate small talk too! Just cant socialize properly. I panick when the phone rings. Going to the shops or bank can be a real struggle. I think most people think when they meet me that i'm stuck up or just weird. I have never met anyone in real life with SA. Glad to kno i'm not alone thou

[odrwon]

DJAA1978

Sorry for my previous and obviously not approved comment. Its individual and it helps me. Just dont take it to seriously and dont get feared by how do you impress the people. Its your life you dont have to pretend.

[TvMeditation]

If you need any help with anxiety visit my channel I help myself and you can do same as well. :)

[sleepingtommy]

Good video, thanks and good luck in the future.

[cryingmushroom47]

I can't do anything but socialize with girls. I guess in that respect I'm lucky.

[flouflis1a]

I'm 39 and have had SA all my life. I now feel anxious about being too old to have this. I can't walk in front of a crowd or talk to people or eat in public or start a conversation with women without feeling I'll make a fool of myself. I managed to get a BA in psychology but that didn't help me. I drink too much to get confidence. So I do go out without fear or anxiety but at the expense of my liver. I admire your courage to make this video. I wonder if I was ever able to do the same.

[guzsaj]

@flouflis1a I am also trying to self-medicate (?) with booze and it works wonderfully, drinking puts my thinking right, but I'm so afraid alcoholism.... Alcohol seems to be a very effective way of dealing with this, but it can't be the only one...! I can't see your channel so I can't PM you but if you would like to talk, please send me a message, I would really appreciate it. You seem like an interesting person, maybe I could learn from you!

[greyndog1]

What I regret the most is dropping out

[socialanxietydisable]

Search my channel for a documentary on "Afraid of People: A Social Anxiety Disorder Documentary"

[johnnyolsen100]

Yea, it´s all about the fucking environment. But where are people like you in my life? I mean, I see this stuff now on YouTube, but I´ve never seen someone like all these people in my reality here. Where are they? Is this nothing but a fake world?

[DJAA1978]

@johnnyolsen100 There are lots of people that seem confident, but they are nervous inside. Never judge a book by it's cover!

[rextony22]

@johnnyolsen100

wow. nice words man.

[GSWarriors9]

I experience the exact same thing that you explained. My question is, do you take any medication to help you? Beta blockers? I am thinking about seeing a psychiatrist. 

[DJAA1978]

@GSWarriors9 at them moment I do not find medication works for me at this time in my life. However I took anti-depresents in 2003 for 6 months, and it did help a little bit.

[Jakeofjoy]

@GSWarriors9 You can try beta blockers in combination with xanax. Only a small dose of both, not everyday but when going to a social gathering, doing a presentation etc. Be careful that the xanax enhances the effect of alcohol.

[317anastar]

@GSWarriors9 i am certainly no expert but for me the best medicine has been building confidence...

i tell myself i am great and i will do great things even if its not til tomorrow..lol...i have tried the meds and they havent worked as well as being off of them...i am way more comfortable with a strong mind, i feel weak on meds...all my best

[01thrilla]

Having a job really got me more confident with people...you soon come to realise that everyone is not better than you !! , and that your just as fun and great to be with then who ever else you see..

when you do keep eye contact and just smile...people will find you more approachable. I feel like i suffer the same when im walking down the highstreet, i feel like im constantly being judged at times which annoys me...but im overcoming it more as i think more positive about myself ( Which helps)

[cartmanschick88]

That's really the truth of it -- I've been very gradually trying to get out of my comfort zone and that makes things better.

[MarijuanaSamadhi]

I have social anxiety that is rooted in the fear of Blushing.

Peace and One Love.

[bradloves2sk8]

my problem is eye contact. i have trouble making eye contact. i also get paranoid that people are staring at me. it led me into severe depression, which im slowly overcoming. it dramatically affects my grades in school and I sit with head down most of the time. its hard because teachers think you arent trying in school but im smart enough, i have an IQ of around 150 and im in 9th grade so i guess thats average IQ. im going to try relaxation in the morning before school while listening to pink f

[AimeebabyUK]

socialphobiaplanetdotcom :)

[StuartDanielBaker]

i feel your pain ): im in high school and i been bullied me mentally and physically im scared of everyone and i get so nervous i break out in a hot flash and sweat like crazy and its tearing my life apart i hope one day i become brave as you ):

[nintendaholic]

hell, you got more than i got dude, but yeah i feel you, it's not easy.

[villeppi]

When I was in highschool, my math teacher made the stupidest mistake when he tried to demonstrate how to solve a geometry problem. He couldn't finish the problem because of the mistake and decided to moved on. I knew exactly what went wrong but I couldn't open my mouth.

[xSliinkzZ]

In a public place I have a fear of being on my own, yet I don't want to actually be with anyone. Screws me over.

[cobrachoppergirl]

Do what I do, hate all people and get hostile towards them. When you finally accept most people are scum of the earth, your defenses are raised on terminate with extreme prejudice mode, and you're ready for combat, and when you're meeting any new people, if they try to reject you or humiliate you or tear you down, you are read to shred them to pieces. People are shy, because the world and other people are so f**king cruel. So grow some teeth and suit up in armor and smash their face in back

[ripsimca]

Everyone has some certain social anxiety at times. The fact that you have a good attitide towards work in general, then you're normal.Shyness is a good attribute, as long as it isn't extreme. Police or cops respect and appreciate those who are well mannered and or on the shy side because they are more easier to communicate with rather than the rude boisterous types-I could be wrong.

[saturnballet]

I have or had a lot of the same experiences. The big one you mentioned is the one about talking on the phone. I've gotten better at it with having a receptionist job in the past. I do understand and know others have the same feelings out there and that does help. The best for me is a desensitization. Facing my fears and forcing myself to do things socially.

[AnimeShineChihiro]

I've never wanted to fit in... I just want people not to stare at or talk to me! There's nothing I can do to make em' stop either. It's not like I can tell them to not stare at me or talk to me because they would be like "What the heck are you talking about?"

It's so hard to explain these kinds of things... they're too vague to people that don't have SA. It's annoying and stupid.

[coolwet]

That's so cool you've been able to DJ despite your disorder. I have never been officially diagnosed with any psychiatric disorder but I do think I'm overly shy and I get nervous a lot. School was an absolute bitch to say the least and I'm so glad it is in my past. I'm a DJ myself and I have found that it has helped my confidence making me look at situations differently. I still get very nervous though and I got a feeling that's not really going away completely.

[sophabgurl]

I experience practically everything you mentioned. The dreaded small talk (i avoid the staff kitchen in case another staff member comes in there to make coffee and then i'd hav to think of wat to say). I can small talk for a minute, 2 mins at most but after that i am mentally exhausted so i'd hav to make a quick exit! at work i replay in my head wat i said earlier to some1, worryin dat i may have been rude, annoyin or wierd. I cant end phone conversations without worryin if i said bye properly

[DJAA1978]

@sophabgurl I always try to be the last one to say bye, cheers, see ya ... incase they think I am rude. I then worry I sound like a right moron!

[coolins112]

I never heard of social Anxiety. I just thought I was shy, to the extreme. But from reading others comments its what I'm going through. I can't go into a room full of people it terrifies me. But the worst for me is meeting new people, I try but I just can't do it. and it is affecting my social life. When I get told I'm going to meet a friends friend, or a group of other people. I start sweating and worrying. And I look for a way out. Its sad for me because I don't have any friends really.

[elismycat]

Thanks for sharing. I wonder where I could find a group in my city so I could train social interaction. One of my problems is being in a group.....

[galdur666]

Very good. Thanks for posting. You come a across as a very nice person.

[Megera85]

I've been suffering from SA for over 12 years without trying to get help (I just recently discovered there a name for this), but now that I am trying to find a different job and having a really hard time with interviews, I'm considering seeking out a professional to help me with this.

I'm so glad I decided to look up "Social Anxiety" on Youtube because it's comforting to see so many people that I can identify with. This helped me a lot and made me feel less alone, thank you.

[rahulg510]

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[tiffanyrp]

Yes, this is actually a very helpful audio series. I've been using it as well.

[aouani]

I first encountered Social Anxiety in High School also.. im 18 now and i still have it.. What you said about Being alone with 1 person and there being a silence, that you would blame it on yourself... thats EXACTLY what i do still, i basically cannot get a girlfriend, and i dont speak to girls at all really, i even get embarassed infront of my mum... so yh it sucks... i go college and i dread the days in which i do classroom work or when we have long breaks in the canteen... i dno wt to do!

[rockklimber24]

No, being blinded is accepting religion. And thinking some invisible guy loves you would certainly help your confidence. Key is stopping your mind from going toward fear and redirecting to something else. In Social anxiety, it's that of people judging you. They are not judging you until your fear of them is noticed. Nobody else needs god to not have Social Anxiety.. they just don't think about it like we do. So try to DO THE SAME. You don't need to believe in fairy tales to feel better.

[Chriomuz]

Pills, therapy, books about the subconcious mind etc you name it. In my experience I can truly testify that only The Living GOD has healed me. Medications from doctors helped me a little and it was temporary. God's healing power is ETERNAL! Now Im not an antidepressant pill dependent. The cure for fear is FAITH! Fear limits you. FAITH ENABLES YOU! People, THE ALMIGHTY GOD IS YOUR ONLY HOPE. READ THE WORD OF GOD, HAVE FAITH AND OBEY! God loves you and He wants you to LET HIM...

[swecks]

man all i want to do is move to canada and have a new life

[capricious71]

I know all about this. My idea of hell is a noisy night club and being around drunk people in town.

My conversational skills are very good these days. It's practice.

For some reason I can't bring myself to meet a partner for fear of losing my independence.

[bigbitchification]

you are describing my life experiences here!

[arzoo82]

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[arzoo82]

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[0valo01]

drink kava

[capricious71]

Unfortunately in the UK, kava is banned.

[MrTomc23]

you can still get it though

[veggiewarriors]

Why do u hesitate to smile? You have such a warm genuine smile....

[Chriomuz]

Jesus was the cure to all DISORDERS, I dont have social anxiety anymore because God taught me everything I needed to know to fight the Devil!

Read the bible! Believe in it! God will heal you all just like how he has healed me!

Praise The True Living God!

[cyngaray]

@Chriomuz Bullshit. =\

[KarmaDebt]

@Chriomuz r u seious? how did god help you beat sa? if u are serious then answer me

[Chriomuz]

@KarmaDebt

He revealed to me how FOOLISH I was and how much HE LOVES ME.

By His word and Spirit he revealed all this to me.

The only ones who are able to understand what im saying are only those who have faith.

People who are blinded by the darkness of this world will never see the truth...

[ahawhatever19]

Like he said, he has faith. God's message about peace with others and most importantly, with himself, is his motivator. If it worked for him, why quit believing? :/ I have not followed my religion (Catholic) in YEARS but I'm starting to consider its usefulness. I have tried therapy and medicine and I'm sick, SICK of it. Sometimes you've just gotta go with what you've been ignoring and consider giving it a try. That's personal choice of course, whatever works for them.

[HaveLucidDreamz]

Don't lose faith in your ability to get through whatever you are going through, find strength and make the most of the days you have to live.

Never get down on yourself, every negative experience you have is only there as a barrier to those that are unworthy.

The meaning is in the struggle you go through to reach your goals.

When life sucks, remember this and look to the future. All it takes is endurance.

Hopefully this helps (don't mean to sound like a fotune cookie)

[potheadNZ]

man SAD sucks, being around people is just intence, walking through a mall is worst, its like everyones watching me, id rather be alone,

[tagliavini]

hi

I just wanted to say that I am now 47 and have suffered from this since about the age of 25ish. I have given up so much, like university, jobs, opportunities for personal growth, all because of SA. And I am, believe it or not, only recently realising that his is at the centre of my problems with alcohol, which ruined my first marraige. And listening to you and your brave video has given me REAL strength to find some help. Thanks.

James

[1melinafan]

great listen thank you

[blushmemucho93]

I am so glad to hear that I am not alone. It is truly comforting. One thing I wanted to mention is that I truly believe social anxiety is a great quality to have regardless of how others may perceive it to be. I much rather be around someone that is quiet and considerate of others opinions rather than be around those that are insensitive and egotistical within their actions. You are a blessing to this world with your supposed 'flaw'.

I am a social anxiety sufferer.

[MrPhon1984]

@blushmemucho93 maybe all of us social anxiety people should create a group and become friends since we fit in among ourselves lol

[Diazt3r]

i feel exactly the same man.

[sedonaguy1818]

Thanks for sharing so personally about yourself. It amazing to hear others talk about the ways I have felt for so many years of my life. I thought I was uniquely plagued by similar fears and anxieties. It's also nice to hear a man's perspective, although I do very much relate to women's anxieties as well.

[tonymontana2012]

thanks for coming out and making this video public. people need to know about this disease. Many feel that we are just stupid or weird when really we are smart and normal people just like everyone else but have a crippling emotional frailty. I have been suffering with this disorder for about 9 years and it makes life really hard for me especially at work and dating.

Thanks for breaking the silence and good luck.

[ahawhatever19]

"Crippling emotional frailty". Very well-put.

[jooker28]

Thank you for sharing your experience. Helps us all to feel less alone and weird.

[EinkOLED]

Social situations make me anxious, my control to supress my emotions and body language results in me becoming angry and annoyed. When this becomes noticeable this further increases that anxiety. Security in shops intimidate that feeling too.

I think that my bad experience with people in the past is the result of this. I misunderstand people's intentions and as a result of I isolate myself from them. I feel uncomfortable being around these people, they are very alien to me.

[Metsada007]

I don't like to talk much because it exhausts me. I feel much better if I keep my mouth shut.

[lasse88]

Thanks for you story.

[satanchiken]

you're hot

[AutisticWhoLives4God]

I hate stuttering too. I do it rarely, but I fear it often.

[pratinus]

If you suffer from panic attacks or anxiety you should check out the website at panic-attack(dot) powerful-solution (dot)com . It will help you get rid of them for good, no joke. I personally used it and I'm a completely new person.

btw, I'm not trying to spam, I just want to help as many people as possible because I know how horrible panic attacks and anxiety are.

[chrislegend06]

also i find ignoring the problem and looking for alternatives in dealing with certain situations helps in the end id just advise people to relax because everyone surrounding you probably feels the same in one way or another

sorry if this offends people with this serious problem

[chrislegend06]

to be honest im being well outspoken here but i actually believe we all have it, just at different extents. im not realy that bad i dont think but talk to my close friends and even tho we all seem normal to each other and everyone else, we do recognise certain things. my best way of dealing with it is just relaxing and pay attention to people when theyre speaking to you because the most common way we know were anxious is because were not paying attention.

[HowAboutSomeTruth1]

Haha I can totally relate to being alone thing. I always feared of saying the wrong thing... which made me seem like an awkward person.

[pigeonz1000]

i used to be fine in primary school i did get bullied but i had plenty of freinds and never used to think anything of it, i left primary in year 4 due to getting into a fight after 2 years i went back finished year 5 and 6 it was hard to deal with going back i guess thats where it started after i finished primary i went to secondary for 2 weeks i left because of the fear of being disliked im now 16 with no education my life is basicly going downhill, im trying to get help but feel trapped

[VOYAGINGMONKEY]

I'm the same way. I wanted to be in the popluar crowd. What I realized when I got tired of trying to fit in was how much fun I had as a kid being myself and not caring about what other people thought about me. I have bad social anxiety. Had it since 5th grade. I have gotten so tired of it that I contemplated suicide. But since I went to the doctor I now know that I'm not the only one with this illness. Which makes me feel really good.

[todopor]

I totally respect you,saying how you feel,and putting a face.You deserved the best,because you are helping other people.God luck!!!

[Metsada007]

Can people who have severe social anxiety enjoy being in relationships with the opposite sex? I know I wouldn't, that's why I'm 33 and still single.

[mintsauce83]

any groups in bristol ??!?!?

as am just starting to study there

[rome877]

Im also the same.

[Ryanbabes]

Good to put a face to the name buddy, saw your link posted on a certain forum. Good video too, thanks for sharing your experiences.

[seemeinHD]

i never make eye contact =/ i get really awkward too when im around people. my girlfriend just broke up with me because to her ive gotten "shy", its getting worse.

[Zanarkland19]

i get nervous wen ppl look at me.

[awesome248]

me 2

[awesome248]

me 2

[Zanarkland19]

yea im just self consios and worry what others will think about me wen i talk

[lendmeurears]

I have a mild case of SA, I have friends, but yeah I hate silence, but that's about it. I am just think negatively, that's the heart of it, Imo 'fake it till you make it' and like this guy, you got to face your fears, you might have to take it slowly, but always move forward. Just ignore negative thoughts, everyone has them, dont worry, eventually u will get better. Like i've dyed my hair and theres a girl who likes me :) And I am also not going to ask her out cause im not interested haha

[cindy21clg]

Unless someone actually has social anxiety, I don't think they can relate to us. I have a family and a great career but also deal with the same issues. Hopefully one of us can get rid of this:)

[Shanez84]

Thank you for putting a name on what i now know i have!

[rothschild94]

You present yourself well, if you were on a different topic I would never suspect you have SA.

I am absolutely terrified of socializing, and am paralyzed when confronted, which then makes me twice as self conscious and I start stuttering and get so concerned about how I am being viewed by others that I just fog up and zone out it, then stumble through the conversation until the other person is weired out and escapes at first chance.

I used to be completely careless and was a class clown!

[SAGEBUS]

dude i am EXACLY the same way.i hat to socialize and avoid ANY large groups of people.i have no friends at all and this makes me depressed.i used to cut myself and all that crap and i still hate to socialize

[caesiume]

I'm not sure whether I have SA or not. I haven't had any friends for the past three years, and the last time I had a conversation with someone my own age (in real life) was in January. Social interactions frighten me.

[laurenmadrid]

nice i have too

[Raokenx]

Thanks for this video, I struggle with social anxiety as well, at work, everyone thinks I'm wierd and creepy because I can't make eye contact or small talk. I'm glad you talked about social anxiety groups, I'll have to try one sometime.

[tomahawk368]

I went to a ballgame yesterday! Breakthrough!!!

[lukeddj]

Thank you for sharing this video.

[devarsi]

one of the best things to do is learning deep relaxation before forth coming events, and the best relaxation technique to do so is Yoga Nidra, it helps with all sorts of nervousness, fear and stress related issues by way of balancing and harmonising both brain hemispheres as well as relaxing the body perfectly. Its always available on ebay, look for the title

"Yoga Nidra total relaxation no more tension"

[jondorotin]

For the record, your teeth aren't yellow. As long as you keep doing what you're doing right with your teeth, you can stop worrying about that. Smile more it makes other people comfortable with you. (I'm not saying you smile too little-don't worry :) ) Nice vid. I am trying to sort out my problems in this area too : one good bit of advice I've had is whenever I'm talking to someone I should focus on how I can make them more comfortable because everyone gets nervous when talking to a stranger.

[MRah92]

have a look at my video its very interesting and helps! its about the link between social anxiety and body language.

[MRah92]

have a look at my video its very interesting and helps! its about the link between social anxiety and body language

[LittleMonster18]

wow I share so many of the thoughts and feelings and experiences that you had, and at the same ages as you. Its amazing!

[TechnoFreek16]

i didnt even know this was a disorder until i looked up the syptoms i used to be outgoing and didnt care what no one thought now i panic in font of everyone good to no im not the only one now i nver speak

[unaminousjd]

I know what you mean mate, my confidance fluctuates all the time... i think it could be influanced by dreams, its interesting...some days (like you said) im briming with confidance, then the next im blushing with everyone i speek too.. (at work)...

[DonJuanDeMarco2]

Sounds like you need a hug :))

[sorathekey555]

I need a hug too.... :(

[ubs16]

i thot i was the only one with this problem.thank you for making this vid.:)

[TheParanoid]

hi alex..thanks for doing this and getting it all out there...pretty much everything you go through is the same for me...except I believe I've been falsely diagnosed with Asperger's instead of just SA. one thing I want to mention though about not budding in on conversations and seeming rude...I like to take pride in that part rather than see it as a hindrance. I just want to be as nice as I can to everyone and that's part of it. i hate phones too though....

cheers

[deandavo]

..I then quit my job because of SAD and I believe I'm at my worst point yet. I find it hard to even leave the house when it's light out because I fear if I blush (which is my main problem) it's more visible for people to think bad of me. I feel depressed when I think one day I'm going to have my own house and have to do things myself (I rely on parents a lot).

ANYWAY, I admire you for your courage to face these things, an inspiration, and I like the dog idea enough to try it myself.

Thank you.

[deandavo]

"throwing yourself out there" is a bad piece of advice to give, I know this because being a 'victim' should I say.. to this horrible condition I've tried that before, the result of doing so made me A LOT worse.

I developed mine at high school as well as Alex and I've had it ever since, I'm still only 18 which is not as long as others but it's still been 3-4 years or so of torture for me. I got a full time job which helped me temporarily but.. just one bad day at work made me 10x worse..

[72293]

i can relate im tired of feeling this way i want to be albe to stop being scared of other people and making friends

[fredrikpedersen]

The best thing to do might be to just throw yourself out there, without worrying too much about what other people think of you. It might be hard for some (myself included), but trying new things will lead to new friend, maybe friend that suit you better. I had that bully problem too, the exact same. It seems to be a common issue in schools.

[debi2cutensweet4u]

It's tougher than you think. No matter how hard you try, no amount of effort seems to be enough to get you to open your mouth, to say hello, to smile.

[realslimshaddyy]

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[bobby1000000]

ive always wanted to give djing a go

[cdover7890]

a :)

[cdover7890]

i can relate to almost everything you talk about, all the stuff you worry about. it is 10 times worse when it's anyone older than me (i'm 18 now...), i am petrified to talk to teachers yet they always love to make small talk with me and i freeze up, and my face goes red. it's the same with anyone i don't know, e.g., saying good morning to a stranger on the street. i cannot do it, i can't even smile back i just freeze.

[DJAA1978]

Talking to teachers ..... I have a problem with people in authority!

Overcoming social anxiety does take time, try and take yourself out of your comfort zome. Reward yourself even if you only make small steps.

I still get days where I find it hard to smile back at people, I think it depends on how I feel on the day.

[morleyrox]

@cdover7890 I have the same problem only I smile and my face goes so red its ridiculous I haven/t seen one person on here that's face goes redder them mine. If someone asks me a question (especially a really hot chick) my face just goes so red and i cant hold a conversation at all.

[Sandbox222]

Alex i got to ask you this. Why haven't you tried NLP yet? Because it cures most psychological "illnesses" including Social anxiety Disorder. I don't get it, I've been on that site about SA and people actually tell their stories and stuff like that and it seems like a big issue. But it's not, it can be cured but most people don't know and don't try it and the day they day, many years after they still have it. which in my opinion is ridiculous.

[DJAA1978]

I have sort of tried it but stopped because it was too expensive.

[Dankydooodle]

i could relate to you so much when you said how it was akward to be alon with a friend, and to think that its your fault that there is an akward silence. i feel that all the time... i want to be able to do normal things and scialize like normal people. thak you for this video

[Dankydooodle]

thankyou for this video, i need a way to get around my social anxiety

[MonsterMo44]

hey my SAD is a lot like yours.

I am completely confident one day.. and completely not the next day, like i can't even keep eye contact.

i don't know of any support groups in my city.. but i hope that i can find one

great video :)

[Metsada007]

Thanks, I'd be happy if you did that.

[fromben]

Alex ... this was a *great* video ... thanks for touching base yesterday ... just emailed you my skype ... get in touch.

( ... and please share a vid of you DJing :)

[DJAA1978]

video to follow, for the time being I have added a DJ website with my mixes. check out my channel info front page on the left side for link. hope you enjoy

[DJAA1978]

Thanks for the comment, I might put another video on and explain how I met my partner.

[Metsada007]

Nice video, I feel your pain. However, I do not understand how you have been able to meet your partner. I'm 32 and have never had a girlfriend in my life. I can't imagine having a partner and kids. That's just not possible in my case, I have resigned myself to my fate.

[breadandbuddha]

It's not your fate mate, really it's not, there is help out there. Please email me if you need to chat.

Steve