~3 of 3~ Josephine Kay's Memorial her Baptism in Angel form

[Sternlein4USA]

I am so sorry for your loss, it is heartbreaking to go thru the pain and joy of giving birth to a new life only to find out that your child is very ill and immediately needs surgery to have a chance of survival...nothing worse for the mother...horrible for the father and the rest of the family, you did the right thing, may God bless the little one, and bless you with more babies, may they be healthy and bring you lots of joy...all my love and compassion

[RabekaJo]

@Sternlein4USA Thank you we had a son who was stillborn in March 2011...now I have had my right ovary and tube removed and a cyst removed from my right tube so maybe now we can successfully try again for one last baby...I have had a total of 6 but 2 are adopted out 2 boys are at home and 2 are in heaven...thank you for your blessings....it is hard to lose a child...I was 28 weeks with our son...when we lost him...so close...4 months after we lost our daughter I lost my mom to skin cancer too...

[RabekaJo]

@Sternlein4USA Thank you we had a son who was stillborn in March 2011...now I have had my right ovary and tube removed and a cyst removed from my right tube so maybe now we can successfully try again for one last baby...I have had a total of 6 but 2 are adopted out 2 boys are at home and 2 are in heaven...thank you for your blessings....it is hard to lose a child...I was 28 weeks with our son...when we lost him...so close...4 months after we lost our daughter I lost my mom to skin cancer too...

[RabekaJo]

@Sternlein4USA and Jan 26th 2012 we lost my husbands sister to add to our heartbreak...

[Sternlein4USA]

@RabekaJo Oh my god, I am so sorry, to hear this, losing your mom is so hard, I lost mine to cancer much to early too, it is so hard, in addition reading that you lost yet another baby is heartbreaking, but to read that you lost your husbands sister is simply putting the icing on the horrid cake...May the Lord bless you and your family may you conceive and give birth to a happy healthy baby, my sincerest blessings to you and your family, what happened to your husbands sister???So sorry

[RabekaJo]

@Sternlein4USA we don't know what happened to his sister yet...but we suspect an accidental overdose as she has had quite of few of these close calls in the past...but it may have been a drug interaction as we found she started a new med the day she died...but again we don't really know what happened to her...just may have been her time to go who knows...Thank you for your blessings and thoughts...I know its been rough but we will make it through as we always some how do...some how...God 4 sure

[PfaelzerOrganist]

WHAT?!?! He "baptised" the baby AFTER his death?!?!?! O.o

[RabekaJo]

@PfaelzerOrganist we didn't have time before she passed away...she had to be rushed in to surgery to have life saving surgery on her heart cause her heart didn't develop correctly which happens to 1 out of 100 births that is 40,000 children each year and 4,000 will not live to see their 1st birthday like our daughter didn't...I didn't know boys were named Josephine Kay...and baptizing after death isn't unheard of dear...I had my stillborn also baptized he was born dead

[RabekaJo]

@PfaelzerOrganist we didn't have time before she passed away...she had to be rushed in to surgery to have life saving surgery on her heart cause her heart didn't develop correctly which happens to 1 out of 100 births that is 40,000 children each year and 4,000 will not live to see their 1st birthday like our daughter didn't...I didn't know boys were named Josephine Kay...and baptizing after death isn't unheard of dear...I had my stillborn also baptized he was born dead

[RabekaJo]

@PfaelzerOrganist we didn't have time before she passed away...she had to be rushed in to surgery to have life saving surgery on her heart cause her heart didn't develop correctly which happens to 1 out of 100 births that is 40,000 children each year and 4,000 will not live to see their 1st birthday like our daughter didn't...I didn't know boys were named Josephine Kay...and baptizing after death isn't unheard of dear...I had my stillborn also baptized he was born dead

[RabekaJo]

@PfaelzerOrganist we didn't have time before she passed away...she had to be rushed in to surgery to have life saving surgery on her heart cause her heart didn't develop correctly which happens to 1 out of 100 births that is 40,000 children each year and 4,000 will not live to see their 1st birthday like our daughter didn't...I didn't know boys were named Josephine Kay...and baptizing after death isn't unheard of dear...I had my stillborn also baptized he was born dead

[RabekaJo]

@PfaelzerOrganist we didn't have time before she passed away...she had to be rushed in to surgery to have life saving surgery on her heart cause her heart didn't develop correctly which happens to 1 out of 100 births that is 40,000 children each year and 4,000 will not live to see their 1st birthday like our daughter didn't...I didn't know boys were named Josephine Kay...and baptizing after death isn't unheard of dear...I had my stillborn also baptized he was born dead

[RabekaJo]

@PfaelzerOrganist we didn't have time before SHE passed away...SHE had to be rushed in to surgery to have life saving surgery on HER heart cause HER heart didn't develop correctly which happens to 1 out of 100 births that is 40,000 children each year and 4,000 will not live to see their 1st birthday like our DAUGHTER didn't...I didn't know boys were named Josephine Kay...and baptizing after death isn't unheard of dear...I had my stillborn son also baptized HE was born dead

[Sternlein4USA]

@PfaelzerOrganist apparently you are very IGNORANT and very STUPID...and you come from my former home country and suppose you come from my former homearea Rheinland-Pfalz, so shame on you, it is totally NORMAL that a newborn or a baby who has just passed away or a stillborn immediately after being born, are baptised especially if the parents want this..most hospitals will offer this, it was very RUDE and INCONSIDERATE of you to be so "IGNORANT"!

[evanecence291]

i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo­ooooooooo sorry for ur loss im pregnant with my 3rd child and i hope this one will actually lives to see his/her mummy and daddy im really frightened may the lord hold you in his arms forever more and you can play with my little angels josheph lee and tyler wright and may your little angel josephine kay R.I.P with them xx

[RabekaJo]

@evanecence291 I too am sorry for your loss I lost two too but still am trying...we had a still born son River Lyric March of 2011 he was 28weeks along....agreed may they all play together in heaven and RIP XOXOXO I pray this one is here to stay for you also...and I too can have one more that lives too...I have 2 girls adopted out and 2 boys at home with me...I just wanted one more baby and I hope to have one to keep this time

[amberlbrowning]

@RabekaJo you have lost 2 babies! oh you are one strong woman! im glad you have children at home im sure they help you through tough times!

[RabekaJo]

@amberlbrowning oh hun I ain't strong...and sometimes the kids do make it through...but other times just add to my chaos...thanks though...I am trying to be strong...all I can say I am still breathing and I get up out of bed now...so thats a start right?

[MsPwog]

So sorry for your loss. My niece was born with Hypoplastic left heart & lived 16 days. it was a horrible time for our family. But it's been almost 10 yrs & my brother & his wife went on to have 2 more children. We'll never forget little Elizabeth though, she was one "tough Cookie"

[RabekaJo]

@MsPwog thank you and so sorry for your loss too :-( its not easy but it gets a little lighter when I find others who have suffered same as I...thats why I put it out here it brings me comfort to know I am not alone...some people its not that way with them...but for me it is...so thank you for telling me about Elizabeth...such a beautiful name for I am sure such a beautiful fighter :-) have you heard of tripplet butterfly wings? I think thats what its called...its neat program going for us

[RabekaJo]

@MsPwog us being grieving family members they release monarch butterflies in memory of our lost loved children. I feel selfish for asking for another one for Josie's brother River Lyric who was stillborn March 18, 2011, so I haven't and probably won't, so that way some other family could have one released for their angel baby. I want another, but right now I guess isn't the time.

[JOHNNYwxw]

pff...i am so sorry :(

[RabekaJo]

@JOHNNYwxw thanks...its just part of a plan I don't understand right now

[JOHNNYwxw]

@RabekaJo what to you mean?

[JOHNNYwxw]

@RabekaJo oh..i got you..you are right..its ALL a plan for something

[RabekaJo]

@JOHNNYwxw at least she isn't alone anymore my mother joined her 4 months after we lost her and then we just had a stillborn son March 18, 2011 so she isn't alone :-) and those were also apart of the big plan too...I can't wait till God reviles it to me cause I am ready to Glorify Him for all this

[JOHNNYwxw]

@RabekaJo look..in my opinion there is no god,heaven,hell etc..but everyone has theyre believes!!!its better for you and for the baby now.your baby is free now..and you too.i hope it is getting better as the time goes :)..did you gave another birth?

[RabekaJo]

@JOHNNYwxw and that is your choice not mine...I am not here to convert anyone...I just know I don't like that world without God and Heaven...there just isn't a point to living or dying without something to look forward to....I did give birth to another baby but he was stillborn...we are trying again to have another baby and praying that we get to keep this one...

[JOHNNYwxw]

@RabekaJo i wish you have another sweet healthy baby to see him/she growing!!!! :D :D

[RabekaJo]

@JOHNNYwxw thanks

[JOHNNYwxw]

@RabekaJo :)

[Ash2Dust87]

the worse part about Death is living afterward. Things just don't feel the same. You can be having the best day ever, and still feel like an empty shell. You feel like you are on autopilot. The only blessing is the memories and faith that they are safe and they feel your love.

[RabekaJo]

@Ash2Dust87 thats exactly it...autopilot and empty shell...I keep waiting for my break down...but it still hasn't happened even after having a stillborn son back in March this year...I really feel like there is something wrong with me but this is the way that everyone expects me to be (at least my best friends did expect, not sure about now but pretty sure its the same even with all the hardships I have faced they are sick of the "pity party" as they call it)

[SBGull88]

She is beautiful. I stumbled pun this by accident but watched anyway. Thank you for sharing this with us, it really brought tears to my eyes. I will pray for you and your family that you will be given peace throughout this difficult time.

[RabekaJo]

@SBGull88 Thank you...she now has a baby brother to help grandma take care of...we will be trying for another one in 2 months 

[WhimsyNinja]

Your baby is beautiful, very sorry for your loss. May she rest lovely until you see her again one day <3

[RabekaJo]

@WhimsyNinja Thank you...she is taking care of her baby brother now too...he was stillborn March18,2011....I am looking forward to reuniting with them both someday for sure and their grandma (my mom) she passed 4 months after my daughter from skin cancer...

[WhimsyNinja]

@RabekaJo I cannot possibly imagine what your going through, but you have an amazing strength in you. Very sorry to hear of your Son, your beautiful children are looking down on you everyday with your Mom. I am sure they are so proud of you, you brought love in to the world when they came in to it, and you kept it going after. Many of my thoughts are with you and your family, it's an honor to be able to see such a wonderful memorial to your children. Your strong, and my prayers are with you.

[RabekaJo]

@WhimsyNinja Thanks those prayers are whats getting me through so thank you!

[arijacfaith530]

Im so sorry for your loss she was so precious... My daughter was born sleeping on May 30th 2010

[RabekaJo]

@arijacfaith530 thanks...my daughter lived 19hrs and 34mins and my most recent loss was a son born March 18, 2011 born sleeping...what helped you through it? I been here done this before 2 yrs ago but seems this one is different and its starting to effect me (the numbness the denial part is wearing off I guess)...I posted the blessing for our son a while ago...

[lowlandsaway]

My first baby, Meghan, died suddenly. We had no idea anything was wrong. The autopsy revealed Turners and hypoplastic left heart. I was lucky to have had her for 15 days. Her 16th birthday was this year. I have two more daughters, ages 14 and 8. I will always miss and love Meghan but she is a part of me and the pain is softer now, although I'm in tears at the moment. Thinking of you both and and your beautiful little girl, Josephine Kay.

[RabekaJo]

@lowlandsaway I am so sorry to hear of your loss...I find it odd that they require hearing screenings before you leave the hospital but not the heart a vital organ to LIVE...if they were required back then to check the heart out so many children would have a better chance at life...1 out of 100 are born with a Congenital Heart Defect 1 out of 4,000 are born with Turner's....40,000 children each year is born with CHD and 4,000 wont live to see their 1st birthday...chd kills more than all cancer

[RabekaJo]

@lowlandsaway again I am sorry to hear of your loss...I am glad to hear that the pain softens...sorry this made you cry...I just wanted to share my angel with the world...and to help raise awareness on the two diseases that took her from us...we opted out not to transplant a new heart...so the good heart could go to a healthy child not a child as sick as her...and we donated her to science so they can understand her diseases better so they can help other babies like her. Anyway ty for watchin GB

[tonik116]

i love you princess josie, ill carry you in my heart. lots of love to mommy and daddy. i feel love from your family and thank you for allowing me to witness your most intimate moment- in life..peace ..

[RabekaJo]

@tonik116 Thanks...and your welcome...thanks for watching God Bless and May God keep your heart Light and your feet firmly planted on the ground :-) and only on your knees when thankful :-)

[loreesp]

rabeka.... im really sorry for all im praying for you and your family .. recive many many hugs !!

[RabekaJo]

@loreesp Thank you....you are sweet...do I know you? or are you just a kind stranger who I also enjoy getting hugs from :-)

[loreesp]

@RabekaJo no dear you dont know me .. yes im only a stranger :) hugs

[RabekaJo]

@loreesp hugs :-) cant get enough of them

[loreesp]

hugsssssssssssssssssssssssssss­sssssss and love for you Rebeka

[RabekaJo]

@loreesp thanks but its RAbeka but thats ok a typical miss spelling and typo ;-) Love ya tough for sending the hugs :-) I need them...2 yr mark was the 2nd of Sept on her birth and 3rd for her death...so I really appreciate the hugs sweety thanks :-)

[mlopez512]

SHE IS IN A BETTER PLACE AND SHE WILL NEVER HURT SHE WILL NEVER FEEL AND KIND OF PAIN SHE IS AT PEACE AND WILL FOR ALWAYS BE WITH GOD AND IN YOUR HEARTS FOREVER AND YOU WILL SOON SEE HER IN THE NEXT LIFE R.I.P BABY JOSIE AND GOD BLESS THE FAMILY STAY STRONG

[RabekaJo]

@mlopez512 I thought I commented to all the comments on my video but I fear I have over looked this one I am so sorry...but Thank you so much for your kind words...I can't wait for that Reunion in Heaven :-) I just lost another baby March 18th, 2011...it was a baby boy...no explanation yet as to why it happened...sometimes it just happens without cause...anyways...I posted a blessing video of him and will post a music picture slide show soon...I just waitin for more pics to get here

[mylovesofmylife]

gorgeous girl, she looks peaceful

[RabekaJo]

@mylovesofmylife Thanks and yes very peaceful she continues to be

[idreamofangels]

My daughter was stillborn due to complications of turners syndrome she had hydrops, edema, etc. Everyone deals with loss differently so I can't say I know how u feel but I can say my life is forever changed by my baby girl I still cry and yearn for her to this day and she was stillborn 11-12-05 I will definately keep you in prayer. And may both of our babies rest peacefully.

R.I.P. to my daughter Trinity Breyelle Smith

[RabekaJo]

@idreamofangels I am so sorry to hear of your loss...I am actually surviving and yes I long for her...but leaves as soon as it comes on type deal...she had the Cystic hygroma on her neck and the fluid on/around her heart on and off throughout the pregnancy...again I am so sorry for your loss...thank you for the prayers...I will be praying for you also RIP Trinity Breyelle Smith and Josephine Kay Drew...they are keeping each other company I am sure and being cared for by Jesus himself :-)

[ladybug19791]

if u gave her body to science then how did u spread her ashes? I guess i don't understand.

[RabekaJo]

I wasn't supposed to receive her cremated remains but shortly before Christmas they informed me they changed standard procedure and were going to be sending them to us...I was very blessed by this and had her home with us before Christmas...though she remained in the box she came in for several months till we could buy an urn for her...and was mentally ready for such a thing...plus finances...You didn't hurt me just the way you worded things caught me off guard is all

[ladybug19791]

So scientists were done with her body and you got her ashes when they were done? It was kinda like a christmas gift. You are so strong. How did u lose your other girls? I am so sorry if i sound rude or anything i'm just trying to understand.

[ladybug19791]

Did they donate her body to science?

[RabekaJo]

Yes we donated her body to Science to help other babies like her....she had Turner Syndrome and Hypoplastic Left heart syndrome and it was the right thing to do

[ladybug19791]

I think it is a very noble thing you did by donating her body but isn't it hard not being able to go to her grave to visit on burthdays or holidays? I would not be able to do that

[RabekaJo]

There are places for me to go visit...her tree we planted in memory of her courtesy of the Knitting in public group I was attending...and having her urn here at home I can hold her when ever I want to but she isn't here in the ashes she is in Heaven with our Father and Savior...and my Mom and thats more comforting to know than to think of the gory details you associate with the noble thing of donating to science...I struggle I am human...but its fine and I will work through it in my time

[ladybug19791]

I'm sorry if i upset you! I did not mean to. I have 3 kids of my own and a stepson and i could not go a day without them.

[RabekaJo]

I have to be away from two daughters ontop of this one...the others are adopted out...and its very hard...but you get through some how...Losing my daughter this way was easier than losing my two daughters the way I did cause it was wrong on so many levels...but I manage I have two boys at home with me who are healthy and ornery than I will get out...but they keep me on my toes and thats good...no one can fully understand what I went through without facing it themselves but I dont want that

[MyFreedomChannel]

RabekaJo ... I am also a birthmother who placed her only child for adoption nine years ago January 1st. She was born December 27th, 2000. Although my circumstances were most likely very different from yours, I totally understand the pain you felt with your situation. Adoption is not easy, regardless of the circumstances.

As for your little one, Josephine Kay - I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time ... (continued)

[MyFreedomChannel]

(continued ... Pt 2)

You did a wonderful thing with donating her body to science for a time. I will pray that you find peace, comfort and support with your friends and family - knowing that Josephine is your little angel watching over you every day from above. God be with you. xoxo

[RabekaJo]

Thanks sweetheart and yes adoption is very hard...circumstances were I was 20 with 2 kids under the age of 2 without a clue suddenly single cause of domestic violence and then an acquaintance who met me twice turned me in on bogus claims and well nothing was true but they ran with it and some how won...grass was greener on the other side of the fence no doubt...but thats what took me to my knees and has kept me down still...but I do have two boys now and thats what counts right? ttyl

[ladybug19791]

I guess just knowing my childs body is going to be disected and cut up would realy bug me and hurt alot

[RabekaJo]

no it doesn't bug me cause our bodies are not our heavenly bodies we leave these ones behind...I felt it was her purpose to be sent here for that exact reason and felt it was the right thing to do since CHDs are the number one birth defect in the world but no one knows about it til it happens to them. I wasn't supposed to get her cremated remains but I did we put some in a heart shaped urn and have it here with us and the rest of the ashes are sprinkled in the roots of the tree we planted

[nancysseven]

What a beautiful tribute to your daughter. She was so pretty. I watched all 3 videos and want you to know that I will keep your family and Josie in my prayers.

Nancy from Niles, Michigan

[RabekaJo]

Thank you sweety I appreciate all the kind comments and all the prayers...God Bless you and yours...tell a friend that 1 out of 100 births have a form of congenital heart defects thats 40,000 children each year and its growing rapidly with each passing year...the more awareness there is...I think we can get more help for these children the funds to research these deformities is lack there of...and I did a big part in donating her to science but found funds aren't there anyway to do anything with

[keenandwhat009]

Thats so sad that there saying theres no funds to even do research, thats terrible.

Rest In Peace, little one

[RabekaJo]

I agree there are foundations who need donations to help them do the research there is the children's heart foundation and there is "It's My Heart" foundation where they help fund the research...you can google them and find out how you can help...and tell your friends and family about them so that way we can make a difference in the lives of these children...Thanks for helping me raise awareness. God Bless

[Dbuyaki]

You are very brave and strong parents. I don't know how I could deal with this. God bless you all and Jo Kay is among the smartest and sweetest angels in heaven. You will sure see her at the other side of the river. Know this, she is happy and peaceful at the feet of Jesus and watching over you. I'm chokin on my tears. God bless you. She is adorable.

[RabekaJo]

thank you...she was donated to science so other parents wont have to go through what I went through...I hope it helped...there are some cruel people here on youtube but Im finding more encouraging ones on here and thats encouraging, its not for pitty I posted it, it was for family and friends who missed it cause they couldn't be there and it just blosumed into an awareness theme I had going for a while. but lack of encouragement from family and common dwelling comments from family I stopped it.

[raquelhenriquez1]

oh my god i can't imagine holding my baby dead, god take care of your pain

[RabekaJo]

oh and he has...

[THETHERAINY1010]

I thank for sharing your lovely angels baptism with me an so many others. She was just to beautiful for this earth,the lord will hold her an for ever watch over you & your family till you all meet agan. Its never good by,Till then. May the lord bless you an yours.

[RabekaJo]

Thank you for your kind words and yes I believe in this...and am counting on this...life is so busy right now...I have been neglecting my youtube and email and stuff...but busy is a good thing ttyl

[indigostars1]

My prayers go out to you and your hubby .. you will see her again.. and my your next baby shine and bring joy into you life and you better love her with all of your might and tell him or her about their bg sister in heaven watching there every move .. love you girl.

[RabekaJo]

Thanks sweetheart their two big brothers know their little sister is watching their every move...my two daughters who are adopted out will know when they come home to me when they turn 18 only 10 more years at least to go...anyway. I appreciate your kind words as with everyone's comments...I don't know if we are going to try again or not...so far no go from the husband...but hopefully he will change his mind. ttyl

[mullamouse]

Thank you for sharing your precious little angel with us. She was here with you for a short time but left a wonderful footprint. She is now with God and Smiling down upon you and your family. Our thoughts and Prayers are with you....

[RabekaJo]

Thanks and yes I have to agree with you on the footprint and I wanted to share her with the world so I put this video together and placed it on youtube for them to see it cause she has been sent here for a reason and thats to raise awareness

[RabekaJo]

I don't understand why its 4 stars and only 4 stars? Could someone explain to me the star system and why people would vote anything less than a 5 for this?

[fluffyfairy321]

RIP sweet angel x

[RabekaJo]

Thank you for watching my baby girls baptism, may God keep everyone's hearts light, and it really means alot to me to be able to share her with the world.

Sincerely,

Rabeka Jo

[DFGHGN]

Thank you so much for sharing your daughters baptism, it was beautiful! My God always be with her no and forever

[RabekaJo]

Thank you for watching my baby girls baptism, it means the world to me to be able to share her with everyone.

Sincerely,

Rabeka Jo

[jspyzz]

Thank you for sharing Josies Baptism. It was beautiful and I loved what the pastor spoke. I feel your pain as I watch this video and I wish I could just wrap my arms around you, give you a hug and we could cry together over both of our losses. Lil Fred was Baptized before he got his wings and my daughter holds onto to the Holy Water used in his Baptism for dear life. It breaks my heart. Our little angels served a VERY special purpose on this earth that some day we will fully understand.

[RabekaJo]

thank you for allowing me to share her baptism with you...May God keep everyones hearts light when viewing it.

Sincerely,

Rabeka Jo

[abayouth09]

She looks very peaceful, and I am sure that you know that, and that she is in a place that we do not understand right now, but we will one day. Beka you are truly a great friend, and I cannot fathom your loss, for it was different than mine. In time you will get past the pain, but not the memories of her beautiful place, just remember one day you will see her again, but in the best place ever, HEAVEN.

Love you my friend, Love your friends Terry and Kimm Call me if you need me I will be here

[RabekaJo]

thanks sweety you know I will...ttyl

Sincerely,

Rabeka Jo