Sometimes I love watching TV while psychotic, because it seems like there are alot of meaningful messages for me in there. They are always comforting and make me feel safe.
@Lillettebitch619 Hallucination is part of the schizophrenia. Whether it be extreme paranoia to visual/audible hallucinations, they're all signs of Schizophrenia.
I don't know if I have hallucinations or if my mind just interprets things in a weird way, but to me it's always subtle messages that I see as signs that I'm walking on or thinking in the right path. It can be something I read or hear someone talk or sing about in a new song I've found (or youtube vid) throughout my day that I have recently been thinking about or pondering, and I really want to believe that something is reassuring me I'm on the right path or pointing me in the right direction.
@hjonpaprik But if I tell someone about this (I very seldom do) they of course think it sounds a but nutty, and it almost feels dangerous to believe what I do believe even though it doesn't really bother me to get these "messages". I guess I'm worried that it's illusions and I'm crazy and might eventually pop and do something bad :/
This is brilliant! The more emotionally healed and spiritually open I become, the more I am able to hear and see things that "are not there'. We are all waking up.
One day we will look back at these times and laugh at how primitive, fearful, superstitious, closed-minded and ignorant we once were.
rly disturbing like everyone i see at home ocusins house school everywhere i always see this girl though always the same one she appears behind me always and i dontl know what to do my mind is rly rly not normal i feel my thoughts r just extremelly disturbing n idk wat to have or wat to do im rly confused n im also rly suicidal n depressed anyone have an opinion of wat i should do plz ? i have no one to turn to please responde
@JayloveschuX Find someone who is open to simply listening to what you're seeing and hearing, or even thinking, who you can trust and know will be patient and won't judge you, but whose goal is to be by your side, so you don't have to go through this alone. Talk to me, if you like. I am very open-minded, and I'm a good listener. Or talk to a friend or family member about it. I know what it's like to have indescribably disturbing thoughts. Sometime they're triggers for repressed memories.
interasting video.with me idk wat i have i, not sure if its schizophrenia bipolar or i have a rlyyy disordered mind i use to feel before the need to kill people hurt myself n make everyone suffer and led me to getting possesed i had alot of anger and rage had voices in my head before n i feld i had osmeone else inside me use to talk instead of me and i use to feel my hand getting posessed n writing disturbing thins and different hadn writing but now everything passed but i still see things its
Thanks for postin these videos! if not of you i wouldn't have had a clue of what was goin on...it's expanded my awareness about these states...i see them as evolutionary process.. not as any diseace that cant be cured..
But who says all this is an illness?? i have had bipolar for ten years now and i dont see it as a "problem", It just means that i have a unique way of looking at the world and it makes me more of an individual. There is no such things as illness, you just need to find that one thing that makes life understandable to you in your own personal truth
Great video. Im a girl...When I'm feeling depressed I get easily scard n feel negative energy around me n see like dark faded shadows in walls and corners of my room idk unhuman...my mind plays tricks or something...those feelings go away when I'm normal again
Heck, I almost always hear a crowd of voices before going to sleep. Tho they are never direct messages, more like glimpses from conversations. Never had a problem with it, seems so natural that people I've talked to and say they don't hear anything before sleep make me think they just forgot about it, like we forget some dreams. Seems nothing more than an audio-only dream while still in a state of consciousness.
I have had what I would say was a good childhood.. I'm 19 now. I've never been sexually abused,badly beaten or other very very bad things.... Since I was about 5 till I was 18 I used to hear voices, sense some beings around me. Have what is called "night terrors"..but even during the day. I'd hear the voices and sense things around me and was really scary....
I have stopped seeing my mental health nurse as he is trying to make me find some explanation from when I was younger.
@bipolarwakingup I knew it, when I was a bit younger I smoked and it was all good but eventually it went way south and when I was high I started to hear this song playing or it was just random noise almost like the things you can't see around yourself were communicating to me in a rythmatic (if thats a world) pattern. Also it felt as if gravity had gone up and it was difficult to move plus I felt like I was saying my thoughts aloud. It was all very weird and I have never smoked since.
the european specialist docters tells us that God and angels dont exist,so they put people away for authentically experiencing things,i am native american and i know that natives dont tell you you need help,in fact i learned volumes from my own experiences,they are all warnings,europeans have been telling other peoples what is right running the world,its time for them to listen to us
@angelcomet1 Being spiritual certainly helps and even if I experience visions and voices, I know it will make me stronger... I now see it as a test of character.
Honestly, since turning to God, I have not had been hearing voices, feeling "demonic" figures around me, etc like I used to.
What lots of doctors want to do(for governments sake) is to "dumb" the people down... take out the spiritual side, and the good morals. They want people do be absorb in materialistic things.
@duces02 Absolutely. I need to make a video on this. Almost 100% of the people that contact me who are under the age of about 24 were using marijuana or some other mind altering substance in the months before their first acute psychosis.
@bipolarorwakingup ''or some other mind altering substance in the months before their first acute psychosis.'' there is no proof that smoking pot would cause bipolar but ppl with some mental disorders tend to use substances so it might be just vice versus... trying to escape what they feel and that kinda stuff more likely
i have kept (psychotic) diarys most of my adult life. I went into a full blown episode once and wrote a book during it. I was hopeing to study it after i came back to my mind. (man that was tough hubby was scared, cause i could only talk in rhyme) At the end of the vision i was told to giv eme book to a :friend: he and hubby burnt my book. i never saw it when my fever left. i still HATE them for that.
i have a question how do you know if you hear voices.. i feel like i have my own voices telling me things like a secretary for my inner conscious. they dont feel like other people would that still count as this?
@lamrimeater If you know its your inner voice, that´s not voices! Voices feel like they are trying to control you, hurt you or humiliate you in some way, usually. Some people get comforting voices, but they feel like they are a separate entity.
@lamrimeater theres the inner voice in the solar plexus area , that tells us not to trust other even when we dont know them , that voice is intuition it comes from the soul , through the solar plexus, then there are the voices in the head these voices are real , they are your past lives talking to you that came before you that are trapped in your souls consciousness, a schizophrenic is someone who has access to these voices, but cant shut them off, then there are spirit voices from ghosts
I have a doubt. See suppose One person creating other person from himself. Means he/she creating a duplications of his/her own character when they are alone. what is this disorder called? this person purposefully creating this other person.
I have a doubt. See suppose One person creating other person from himself. Means he/she creating a duplications of his/her own charector when they are alone. what is this disorder called? this person purposefully creating this other person.
I had the worst hallucinations when i was 16. Like, satanic hallucinations. One of them was this.. in my eyes, there was an knife in a hand, and an arrow pointing towards my mom. I went up stairs, and took the knife, and almost killed her. Then I went to the hospital and went through a very harsh psychosis where I began feeling things that weren't really there. But good thing I recovered quickly, and no harm was done to me or anyone.
@EugeneSurguy - I'm curious if anything like this happened to you?,
I can point to the exact moment when my illness started as before this life was normal (well ...kinda,sorta),
But It was a calm, quiet night and I heard every dog in the neighborhood start to bark. Then a sudden, violent gust of wind blew in my bedroom curtains to the ceiling, then an over whelming feeling that something evil came into my room, I felt it was old, older then Earth and I felt it "touch me", or curse me.
@IronicallyVague - Then came the Demon voices, to say I was suffering from confusion and delusion would be an understatement ...Almost killed my mother and ...others.
But it was like that, snap your fingers and with a sudden gust of wind my life changed forever, when before I was normal now ever since then I'm someone else.
But can you point to an odd, perhaps paranormal type of experience that was a turning point in your life?
@IronicallyVague well you're going to have to describe how you felt. Because I felt like I was possessed by satan himself. Even all the mentally sick people and the doctors in the hospital were scared of me that I was possessed by demons or something. because I seemed like a normal, nice person when I didn't have the feelings. I felt like there was something living in me that wasn't actually me. Sometimes my body would turn extremely cold, and sometimes extremely hot, as if i was burning in hell
@EugeneSurguy - Well yes, but that's what the experience is like during what psychiatry would call a psychotic episode & that could be attributed to insanity but I'm asking about the before time? before this action packed fun filled adventure started?
Was there anything you experienced that leaves doubt in your mind that it wasn't only a schizophrenic/psychotic episode?
@IronicallyVague It all began when I began worshipping demons, hoping they would help me from my depression. Then I started seeing skulls and dead Jesus on the cross and different kinds of some sort of symbols that I've never seen before.
@EugeneSurguy - Thanks, that's what I wanted to know
You might say I wasn't a choir boy myself, not only an idiot atheist at the time but I've been shot at more times then most experienced police officers or military personnel have in their entire careers but I don't care what anyone says...it was something more then just an illness
I didn't know if I liked your video or not, but I am suffering from bipolar with psychotic symptoms that take a huge toll on me. I experience paranoia where it feels like people are monitering me all the time even inside my own home. I hear stupid voices...that seem like sounds and people talking mutate into another voice saying something different. When I'm outside in the public my perception on everything feels so bleak and dull. It feels like people think im worthless and nothing.
ask me if you want to know how worse hallucinations can get...i was almost dead....need not be anything to do with demons...it could even scare you when you feel someone next to you..your dad or mom is talking but they are not actually talking..and you start feeling and realizing every little thing thats happening to you..im completely treated and cured now but its spooky when i think about my past...i can remember every little thing that happened to me...
wholy fuck i didnt know small little hallucinations counted?? i have general anxiety disorder and sometimes i see blue or red berries on trees that dont have berries lol or i see black blobs in the corners of my eyes that go away when i look for them...are these signs ?
There seems to be a fine connection between spiritual encounters and schizophrenia, and in some cases some people could be getting medicated for all of the wrong reasons. It could be hard sometimes to distinguish hallucinations from simply a visit from a spirit, angel, or spirit guide.
What happens if you don't want the good voice to leave? I have been talking to my husband since he died. alot of the things that happen revolving him are also witnessed by other people... letting go of him would be like letting go of my heart
wow that was really interessting.what about the drugs? ive been wanting to try it? how should i feel to be able to try it? my brother said dont take it when your sad or mad cuz if your sad you'll see what made you sad & that will make you mad. mad i dont know what you'll see. scared you'll just see scary stuff. so wwhen would be the right time to take it?
I really enjoyed this vid. One thing you need to educate yourself and your followers on through is the nature of synthetic telepathy, HSS speakers and other implants that can simulate auditory halucinations. These are just as real as soul communications. Learning about these control methods is part of the waking up. Many here who are bipolar or SZ have been targeted in this way and so not all halucinations should be followed or listened to. We need discernment and empowerment.
Jani Schofield is being exploited as the posterchild for childhood schizophrenia by her parents and her drs. She is currently on high doses of thorazine, clozaril and lithium. These drugs will slowly kill her and many other children will suffer the same fate if we do not speak out. Please visit her vids and speak out, challenge the psychiatric model of what is considered sane and normal.
I got rid of my evil visions but my good visions stay with me and ended up some how controlling it through RPing and story writing. I'm not saying this is your cure, but what I am saying is that you must cope with yourself anyway you can. I made friends with my visions and that worked for myself.
@bipolarorwakingup also, have you ever read Szaz? He is a bit extreme but his writings touch on these ideas, particularly not seeing it as necessarily a negative or disease and learning how to integrate the hallucinating/delusional person into society...
Scratch that, half heaven and half hell for monnths, it wasn't all fun at all. It still isn't. PEACE and LOVE, that kept me sane ;) That and exercise and a good diet. oh yeah.
Adrenochrome IS NOT a psychoactive compound, to my knowledge. Sure, it's oxidized adreneline, but the only place I have even heard of anybody getting high from this stuff was in Hunter Thompson's "Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas." Hunter himself even said that part where Depp takes too much and sees Richard Nixon's face was all B.S.
Most of the time, the halluncinations have been rare and have helped me, but this stuff with purple light and angels protecting me from demons... this is scarying :/
wow man your story is a lot like mine except reversed.
I was walking through the mall calling people out because i thought they were poseures. i was pretty good at it.
I had the morphing phenomenon only it was a bunch of people i didn't know until one become my friend then it became he became the devil. dude kept smiling at me and shit
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i've hallucinated mirrors looking "wobbly", steam/smoke rising from my hands, "checkerboard" print stamped onto everything in my vision, and water dripping from the ceiling and my hands. this has all been due to insomnia i think.
I thought I was alone about photographs & paintings animating slightly & talking to me, many fun filled, action packed conversations there lol. Your correct it's not always a horror freakshow, bantering back & forth with them can often be funny & informative
& also I've never heard about the links between Abuse & Schizophrenia as well.
The path I took when my illness started & I realized I was ill was to keep my mouth shut, by becoming IronicallyVague & never telling anyone I of course avoided all the psychiatry & medications others have had to endure.
The topic of religion Is interesting to me though becouse the only relief I've ever known is becouse of a prayer asking God to stop the Demon voices.
@IronicallyVague Lol ditto... I finally told my father part of what's been up after a few months but I had the same experience. I was just laughing my ass off and having a ball for months when finally it got to a point that I was very scared and I didn't think I could take it anymore. I hear a voice outside saying "do you think he's hearing voices?" and "maybe he should pray or somethin'" I did and reality just completely flipped and became more bearable. I also thought, wow that was simple..
@IronicallyVague my dad has the same problem, and he needs some serious help, its breaks his family now. If you have the time, please hit me a mail or something, i would be really greatfull if u can help.
@IronicallyVague sounds like my story.,, i exsperianced peace and true quietness finally with prayer and God... but i still have episodes.. i wont take meds either they may be spiked by the government to control...
@WigsAndSwords1 I´ll look into this doctor, but considering that most people suffering from hallucinations have been sexually abused, physically abused, or otherwise highly traumatized, I find the diet explanation very questionable.
@bipolarorwakingup What research states "most" people that suffer hallucinations have been sexually or physically abused or traumatized? I know PLENTY of patients with supportive families that suffer crises.
@keatsean See Dr John Read, the data is in his research. Other research can be found on the site, Intervoice, which helps people suffering from hallucinations by helping them related to the material as opposed to just medicating the problem and then ignoring it.
i spose it would be worth mentioning that before we called these "unknown" illnesses, they were widely accepted as proof of things like enlightenment,or in the negative sense, demonic possesion.. worth looking at, as the phsch. industry in particular despise religious belief and more importantly, profound spiritual experiences as nothing but drug induced fantasy at best, or absoloute "proof" of something they still, CANNOT PROVE THEMSELVES!! worth looking into, it is very eye opening.
why do u keep referring to god or jesus in ur vids? are u trying to recruit ppl to ur way of life through those that suffer mental illness? if u are, thats a poor effort man, and very low..
@123perrin Why should it bother you if he was, man? And what's so low about it? Here's a guy talking openly about something he's suffering from and all you have is criticism? YOU'RE the low one man.
@LockjawVideo no 'man'.. if hes offering help and claims to possibly have some answers which ppl are looking for, if hes going to mix religion in with them, then maybe he should state that. because lots of ppl arent looking for 'spiritual guidance' or anything like that. they just wanna get some answers. religious ppl have misguided and abused mentally ill ppl for hundreds of years, with little or no real help coming from it. thats why i asked him about religion here. a legitimate qstion 'man'.
@123perrin I leave up the debate. But it's clear you don't understand the difference between religion and spirituality. There is no relgion here. And my understanding of hallucinations is based on scientific research.
@bipolarorwakingup thats kool mate. i find it hard to seperate religion and spirituality. i dont want to seem like someone who's having a go at ur work, but i if i see something thats conflicting, or out of place so to speak, ill ask a qstion about it. i do find ur vids interesting and they provide 'food for thought'. cheers.
Wow!You have really hit the nail on the head with these videos.You have described and made sense of everything I went through as a teenager.I have never been able to express to others what it is like to go through a psychosis and yet you have expressed it so eloquently.
be careful of the voices and hallucinations you hear, if your christian, you know that demonic forces and powers of darkness, can manipulate you, don't listen to every voice you hear, or anything, it can destroy you and end up hurting you a lot, be careful what you do. god bless
lol the other day i was working in a supoermarket, then a client ask me something then i turned back. but at the half of my turn back, the guy began to laugh like a demon !!! it was crazy and then i turned back and he stopped =S i was really scared after !!! so can you say if it was real or not ? but yeah the way i explained it is very vast XD
@orkishiswithk I never said there weren't neurological connections. Of course there are, but there is no reason to beleive that these connections are brain malfuntions.. As video 21 explains, hallucinations (or visions and voices) have been commonly experiences by man for thousands of years. The bible is proof of that. Now, you may argue that they may or may not be of divine origin, and there is really now way to prove or disprove that.
@bipolarorwakingup oh there we go! 'the bible'... preaching to ppl who suffer mental illness - thats low man. pathetic actually! while some ppl are actually looking for real answers, ppl like you are out there misguiding them. geezus...
Llevo 15 años padeciendo Desorden Bipolar sin saberlo, es un infierno para uno, pero mucho más para las personas que amamos y lastimamos durante todo este tiempo sin darnos cuenta. Cientos de alertas y alarmas se suceden a lo largo del tiempo pero uno no tiene la capacidad ni el control para darse cuenta. Es una enfermedad muy cruel, desvastadora principalmente para las personas que mas cerca tenemos nuestro.
After being high I sometimes hear mind chatter when am in bed, I prefer to be efficient and only give attention to that which serves my set objectives.
I like the theory that the more you focus on something the more it will recurr and manifest, so better to ignore and know that you at have free will to perceive what you want , Law of attraction makes more sense then inviting demons or whatever to get rid of them
I always feel like I am enlightened when I am manic, but I don't know if it's true or not. The feeling of enlightenment within mania seems to go away as my brain slows down... if I have reached enlightenment, how can I hold on to that without being unable to function in the world? I like being manic, I admit it, I love the magic of it, but I don't know if that is good or not. I feel like I may be becoming a bit manic now and the magic is returning, should I be scared?
@bipolarorwakingup And you have succeeded. Your videos have given me great insight into my own bipolar/spiritual awakening experiences in '85, '89, '93. Although I was medicated back into normalcy and live a seemingly normal life with house, kid and responsible job, I was still trapped emotionally in those pysch wards. You have given me, and i am sure others, a chance to recover. Namaste
im bi polar skitzo and i would hear women scream and laughter in the dark i beliveed that vampires where real for awhile i had to face my fear to get over it.
i have Bi Polar and some paranoid Skitzo i was in mental hospital and i would hear screams of women and laughter from dark rooms i belive that vampires where real. I would even talk to people that i thought where people from my child hood even resembled them a bit and they go to there room and never show up the next day. i never saw them talk to the doctor and get discharged if they where illusiations they were pretty damn real to me. i also did some really crazy things i hate to think about now
As an artist few proclaim the natural visual hallications we experience that are very much part of our artwork. Many have known that ones of bipolar madness or episodes grasp to their artform to process the experience. That is why as a hypomanic, I am a fanstastic artist when cast into the insanity of the mind bent by the soul, that has been tainted by this world experience.
Well, sometimes emotional issues (like sex abuse) get passed on from generation to generation. So is it hereditary? Maybe. Is it a biological defect? No.
@jan2310 That's the reason I don't wanna have kids. I screwed my own lifebut there's no way in hell I'm gonna corrupt an innocent kid. I just wish my parents had the same judgment before I was conceived. Bipolar sucks and I want to tell the world I have it so they understand me but at the same time I don't want to be known as that kid with bipolar.
For as long as I can remember, I have always thought of "reality" as relatively subjective, almost like taste. I hate the popular idea that something isn't real unless most people agree that it is.
I would suggest to others dealing with bipolar and/or schizophrenia such as myself, that finding an art outlet is very helpful. Mine happens to be photography. Thank you Sean for your wonderful videos. I consider them a work of art in themselves.
In dealing with hallucinations, what about ones that make no sense? I often hear singing, different songs, and I have no idea what "message" that could be sending?
Also, have you looked into sleep paralysis and hallucinations? I experience both and the hallucinations are terrifying, most often involving a demonic figure attacking me (and the sleep paralysis will not let me move anything but my eyes). Just wonder if you've looked into that relation.
If they make 'no sense' trust the feeling that comes with them. You probably need to dig a little deeper. Write about the feeling, make connections, see where they take you. I've had sleep paralysis a few times, but I haven't taken a good look at it. You're right, it is scary.
These definitions of 'hallucination' made me wonder:
1) to sense something that is not there YET; hallucination or vision (like animal instinct)?
2) to sense things that others don't sense; in a society that is full of lies (in education, religion, marketing, politics); the first ones to feel that things are not what they seem may actually be the brightest rather than "mentally ill".
3) I guess I have incorporated my psychotic hallucinations in my daily life in a way it's no longer a problem.
I think, if something is somehow 'there' then I wouldn't call it a hallucination. MInd you, I would expect that at least one other person in the world should be able to sense it as well. Working on your vid today!
I've always felt that my bipolar had something to do with past lives. As I can see nothing in this life with a painful connection. It is the only way I can accept my condition because I know I'm not crazy. Persecution and martyrdom lie close to my inner soul. I'm ever ready to defend myself.
Yes, not all trauma is from our childhood. Sometimes its from adulthood or the peri-natal stage, and sometimes it certainly looks like the traumas are more related to karmic issues, past lives, etc...
...and then there's a lot of trauma that isn't recognized as such. That is seen as perfectly normal conditions for human beings to live under and cope with.
Yeah, people tend to forget that its not objective facts and events that determine trauma and degree of trauma. Its the subjective experience of the person being traumatized.
Sometimes I love watching TV while psychotic, because it seems like there are alot of meaningful messages for me in there. They are always comforting and make me feel safe.
ErkkiEno 2 days ago
smelling something is also a sign of petitmal a seizure disorder
SinderEiderdown 3 weeks ago
Do all schizophrenics hallucinate
Lillettebitch619 3 weeks ago
@Lillettebitch619 Hallucination is part of the schizophrenia. Whether it be extreme paranoia to visual/audible hallucinations, they're all signs of Schizophrenia.
MrLoadingscreen 1 week ago
Do all schizophrenics have adioble hallicionations?
Lillettebitch619 3 weeks ago
I don't know if I have hallucinations or if my mind just interprets things in a weird way, but to me it's always subtle messages that I see as signs that I'm walking on or thinking in the right path. It can be something I read or hear someone talk or sing about in a new song I've found (or youtube vid) throughout my day that I have recently been thinking about or pondering, and I really want to believe that something is reassuring me I'm on the right path or pointing me in the right direction.
hjonpaprik 1 month ago
@hjonpaprik But if I tell someone about this (I very seldom do) they of course think it sounds a but nutty, and it almost feels dangerous to believe what I do believe even though it doesn't really bother me to get these "messages". I guess I'm worried that it's illusions and I'm crazy and might eventually pop and do something bad :/
hjonpaprik 1 month ago
This is brilliant! The more emotionally healed and spiritually open I become, the more I am able to hear and see things that "are not there'. We are all waking up.
One day we will look back at these times and laugh at how primitive, fearful, superstitious, closed-minded and ignorant we once were.
kozychik 1 month ago 4
@kozychik Bingo! Nice Butterfly...I have the same one on the cover of my book!
bipolarorwakingup 1 month ago
rly disturbing like everyone i see at home ocusins house school everywhere i always see this girl though always the same one she appears behind me always and i dontl know what to do my mind is rly rly not normal i feel my thoughts r just extremelly disturbing n idk wat to have or wat to do im rly confused n im also rly suicidal n depressed anyone have an opinion of wat i should do plz ? i have no one to turn to please responde
JayloveschuX 1 month ago
@JayloveschuX It sounds to me like you should consult a psychologist immediately. And, if you smoke marijuana or do other illegal substances, stop.
bipolarorwakingup 1 month ago
@bipolarorwakingup
i dont do any illegal stuff but i use to abuse alcohol but i kinda stopped now
but idk if i should get help :/ like idk wat i have its hard to describe my feelings rlly
JayloveschuX 1 month ago
@JayloveschuX chill and think positive, youll be str8.
BryanCordova324 1 month ago
@JayloveschuX Find someone who is open to simply listening to what you're seeing and hearing, or even thinking, who you can trust and know will be patient and won't judge you, but whose goal is to be by your side, so you don't have to go through this alone. Talk to me, if you like. I am very open-minded, and I'm a good listener. Or talk to a friend or family member about it. I know what it's like to have indescribably disturbing thoughts. Sometime they're triggers for repressed memories.
LanceHertford 1 month ago
@LanceHertford thx :) whenever u can talk let me know
JayloveschuX 3 weeks ago
@JayloveschuX Any time, man. Feel free.
LanceHertford 3 weeks ago
interasting video.with me idk wat i have i, not sure if its schizophrenia bipolar or i have a rlyyy disordered mind i use to feel before the need to kill people hurt myself n make everyone suffer and led me to getting possesed i had alot of anger and rage had voices in my head before n i feld i had osmeone else inside me use to talk instead of me and i use to feel my hand getting posessed n writing disturbing thins and different hadn writing but now everything passed but i still see things its
JayloveschuX 1 month ago
Thanks for postin these videos! if not of you i wouldn't have had a clue of what was goin on...it's expanded my awareness about these states...i see them as evolutionary process.. not as any diseace that cant be cured..
whey80 1 month ago
ive been reading your replies and i believe you know what your talking about
emo182kidd 1 month ago
@emo182kidd I hope it helps! :D
bipolarorwakingup 1 month ago
every single time i see someone talking or wispering i think its about me or even laughing is that schizophrenia
Jerseyboi98 1 month ago
@Jerseyboi98 It sounds a little like paranoia...but it may not be too serious. Lot`s of teenagers think like that!
bipolarorwakingup 1 month ago
But who says all this is an illness?? i have had bipolar for ten years now and i dont see it as a "problem", It just means that i have a unique way of looking at the world and it makes me more of an individual. There is no such things as illness, you just need to find that one thing that makes life understandable to you in your own personal truth
MrBranfinbar 1 month ago
...as if someone is watching me while I'm alone
cjsherrera 1 month ago
Great video. Im a girl...When I'm feeling depressed I get easily scard n feel negative energy around me n see like dark faded shadows in walls and corners of my room idk unhuman...my mind plays tricks or something...those feelings go away when I'm normal again
cjsherrera 1 month ago
Now this is a interesting explanation....
QuasiTJ 1 month ago
Heck, I almost always hear a crowd of voices before going to sleep. Tho they are never direct messages, more like glimpses from conversations. Never had a problem with it, seems so natural that people I've talked to and say they don't hear anything before sleep make me think they just forgot about it, like we forget some dreams. Seems nothing more than an audio-only dream while still in a state of consciousness.
lake7less 2 months ago
i hallucinate most of the time it seems lately,i get strong visions and voices
alientrail 2 months ago
yah, umm invite demons into my life yah...
jarlexel 2 months ago
@jarlexel There's nothing to fear.
bipolarorwakingup 2 months ago
i try to get away from team fortress 2 for awhile and blu spy comes up.....
Xfrimz 2 months ago
hallucinations.....caused my girlfriend to kiss my sister.it was fucked up
Xfrimz 2 months ago
I have had what I would say was a good childhood.. I'm 19 now. I've never been sexually abused,badly beaten or other very very bad things.... Since I was about 5 till I was 18 I used to hear voices, sense some beings around me. Have what is called "night terrors"..but even during the day. I'd hear the voices and sense things around me and was really scary....
I have stopped seeing my mental health nurse as he is trying to make me find some explanation from when I was younger.
2ExistIstoResist 3 months ago
@bipolarwakingup I knew it, when I was a bit younger I smoked and it was all good but eventually it went way south and when I was high I started to hear this song playing or it was just random noise almost like the things you can't see around yourself were communicating to me in a rythmatic (if thats a world) pattern. Also it felt as if gravity had gone up and it was difficult to move plus I felt like I was saying my thoughts aloud. It was all very weird and I have never smoked since.
duces02 3 months ago
the european specialist docters tells us that God and angels dont exist,so they put people away for authentically experiencing things,i am native american and i know that natives dont tell you you need help,in fact i learned volumes from my own experiences,they are all warnings,europeans have been telling other peoples what is right running the world,its time for them to listen to us
angelcomet1 3 months ago
@angelcomet1 Being spiritual certainly helps and even if I experience visions and voices, I know it will make me stronger... I now see it as a test of character.
Honestly, since turning to God, I have not had been hearing voices, feeling "demonic" figures around me, etc like I used to.
What lots of doctors want to do(for governments sake) is to "dumb" the people down... take out the spiritual side, and the good morals. They want people do be absorb in materialistic things.
2ExistIstoResist 3 months ago
Can smoking pot lead to becoming bipolar
duces02 3 months ago
@duces02 Absolutely. I need to make a video on this. Almost 100% of the people that contact me who are under the age of about 24 were using marijuana or some other mind altering substance in the months before their first acute psychosis.
bipolarorwakingup 3 months ago
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@bipolarorwakingup ''or some other mind altering substance in the months before their first acute psychosis.'' there is no proof that smoking pot would cause bipolar but ppl with some mental disorders tend to use substances so it might be just vice versus... trying to escape what they feel and that kinda stuff more likely
jokurandomnimi 1 month ago
I can use telepathy all the time up to few kilometer and it works 100% correct.
VinkoRajic 3 months ago
i have kept (psychotic) diarys most of my adult life. I went into a full blown episode once and wrote a book during it. I was hopeing to study it after i came back to my mind. (man that was tough hubby was scared, cause i could only talk in rhyme) At the end of the vision i was told to giv eme book to a :friend: he and hubby burnt my book. i never saw it when my fever left. i still HATE them for that.
insanezenmistress 3 months ago
0:27 lol i know its not real and its an illusion but it looks like a face of a woman although its not haha
nascarsforlosers10 4 months ago
i have a question how do you know if you hear voices.. i feel like i have my own voices telling me things like a secretary for my inner conscious. they dont feel like other people would that still count as this?
lamrimeater 4 months ago
@lamrimeater If you know its your inner voice, that´s not voices! Voices feel like they are trying to control you, hurt you or humiliate you in some way, usually. Some people get comforting voices, but they feel like they are a separate entity.
bipolarorwakingup 4 months ago
@lamrimeater theres the inner voice in the solar plexus area , that tells us not to trust other even when we dont know them , that voice is intuition it comes from the soul , through the solar plexus, then there are the voices in the head these voices are real , they are your past lives talking to you that came before you that are trapped in your souls consciousness, a schizophrenic is someone who has access to these voices, but cant shut them off, then there are spirit voices from ghosts
WINDTALKER300 3 months ago
mind control, this
who is the "us" you speak of?
hermeschbird 4 months ago
mind control, this
hermeschbird 4 months ago
Its only demons--
I know this field very well...
freecounselingonline 4 months ago
@freecounselingonline Thank you!!!! I totally agree with you!
drroberson4 4 months ago
I liked it :) very informative.
TheePlaceboEffect 4 months ago
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i actually wont be able to sleep because of the photo at 4:12
prettylilstarable 5 months ago
i actually wont be able to sleep because of the photo at 4:14
prettylilstarable 5 months ago
Yeah did you tell her you were having hallucinations? Did she know about it?
Miikoong904 5 months ago
I have a doubt. See suppose One person creating other person from himself. Means he/she creating a duplications of his/her own character when they are alone. what is this disorder called? this person purposefully creating this other person.
anjacy 5 months ago
I have a doubt. See suppose One person creating other person from himself. Means he/she creating a duplications of his/her own charector when they are alone. what is this disorder called? this person purposefully creating this other person.
anjacy 5 months ago
I had the worst hallucinations when i was 16. Like, satanic hallucinations. One of them was this.. in my eyes, there was an knife in a hand, and an arrow pointing towards my mom. I went up stairs, and took the knife, and almost killed her. Then I went to the hospital and went through a very harsh psychosis where I began feeling things that weren't really there. But good thing I recovered quickly, and no harm was done to me or anyone.
EugeneSurguy 5 months ago
@EugeneSurguy what did your mom say about it?
Miikoong904 5 months ago
@Miikoong904 Nothing, but she was scared.
EugeneSurguy 5 months ago
@EugeneSurguy - I'm curious if anything like this happened to you?,
I can point to the exact moment when my illness started as before this life was normal (well ...kinda,sorta),
But It was a calm, quiet night and I heard every dog in the neighborhood start to bark. Then a sudden, violent gust of wind blew in my bedroom curtains to the ceiling, then an over whelming feeling that something evil came into my room, I felt it was old, older then Earth and I felt it "touch me", or curse me.
IronicallyVague 5 months ago in playlist Paranoid Schizophrenia
@IronicallyVague - Then came the Demon voices, to say I was suffering from confusion and delusion would be an understatement ...Almost killed my mother and ...others.
But it was like that, snap your fingers and with a sudden gust of wind my life changed forever, when before I was normal now ever since then I'm someone else.
But can you point to an odd, perhaps paranormal type of experience that was a turning point in your life?
IronicallyVague 5 months ago in playlist Paranoid Schizophrenia
@IronicallyVague well you're going to have to describe how you felt. Because I felt like I was possessed by satan himself. Even all the mentally sick people and the doctors in the hospital were scared of me that I was possessed by demons or something. because I seemed like a normal, nice person when I didn't have the feelings. I felt like there was something living in me that wasn't actually me. Sometimes my body would turn extremely cold, and sometimes extremely hot, as if i was burning in hell
EugeneSurguy 5 months ago
@EugeneSurguy - Well yes, but that's what the experience is like during what psychiatry would call a psychotic episode & that could be attributed to insanity but I'm asking about the before time? before this action packed fun filled adventure started?
Was there anything you experienced that leaves doubt in your mind that it wasn't only a schizophrenic/psychotic episode?
IronicallyVague 5 months ago
@IronicallyVague It all began when I began worshipping demons, hoping they would help me from my depression. Then I started seeing skulls and dead Jesus on the cross and different kinds of some sort of symbols that I've never seen before.
EugeneSurguy 5 months ago
@EugeneSurguy - Thanks, that's what I wanted to know
You might say I wasn't a choir boy myself, not only an idiot atheist at the time but I've been shot at more times then most experienced police officers or military personnel have in their entire careers but I don't care what anyone says...it was something more then just an illness
IronicallyVague 5 months ago
@IronicallyVague - That or we share the same symptoms :)
IronicallyVague 5 months ago
if u stare at light it can change colour because your eyes cant cope with the brightness
TheDEATHSTARIII 5 months ago
I didn't know if I liked your video or not, but I am suffering from bipolar with psychotic symptoms that take a huge toll on me. I experience paranoia where it feels like people are monitering me all the time even inside my own home. I hear stupid voices...that seem like sounds and people talking mutate into another voice saying something different. When I'm outside in the public my perception on everything feels so bleak and dull. It feels like people think im worthless and nothing.
andrewman1988 5 months ago in playlist Paranoid Schizophrenia
psychiatry is the antichrist's religion..
RepeaterMan 5 months ago
ask me if you want to know how worse hallucinations can get...i was almost dead....need not be anything to do with demons...it could even scare you when you feel someone next to you..your dad or mom is talking but they are not actually talking..and you start feeling and realizing every little thing thats happening to you..im completely treated and cured now but its spooky when i think about my past...i can remember every little thing that happened to me...
chennaifox1 5 months ago
those virtual schizophrenia simulators make me cry because it reminds me of the bad hallucinations i had as a small child
SerenaSchizophrenic 5 months ago
Wow! Insightful . ^_^
mickhawk911 5 months ago
wholy fuck i didnt know small little hallucinations counted?? i have general anxiety disorder and sometimes i see blue or red berries on trees that dont have berries lol or i see black blobs in the corners of my eyes that go away when i look for them...are these signs ?
TheBrradsullivan 5 months ago
my frend..make sure they are hallucination and not floaters....visit an eye doctor soon
chennaifox1 5 months ago
@chennaifox1 i do get alot of floaters but these are definitly not them
TheBrradsullivan 5 months ago
Grandiosity is a symptom of bipolar or schizophrenia, you know that right?
RawrGurr 6 months ago
There seems to be a fine connection between spiritual encounters and schizophrenia, and in some cases some people could be getting medicated for all of the wrong reasons. It could be hard sometimes to distinguish hallucinations from simply a visit from a spirit, angel, or spirit guide.
DanielJamesHoughton 6 months ago 2
What happens if you don't want the good voice to leave? I have been talking to my husband since he died. alot of the things that happen revolving him are also witnessed by other people... letting go of him would be like letting go of my heart
TheLADYBUGBOO 6 months ago
some of these pictures are scaring me already........
pandabears6 6 months ago
"Sign of God" LOL.
Haseeebo 7 months ago
wow that was really interessting.what about the drugs? ive been wanting to try it? how should i feel to be able to try it? my brother said dont take it when your sad or mad cuz if your sad you'll see what made you sad & that will make you mad. mad i dont know what you'll see. scared you'll just see scary stuff. so wwhen would be the right time to take it?
bluebird778 7 months ago
Oh that's what the Red Book from C.G.Jung is about^^ Interessting.
EnergyOM 7 months ago
I really enjoyed this vid. One thing you need to educate yourself and your followers on through is the nature of synthetic telepathy, HSS speakers and other implants that can simulate auditory halucinations. These are just as real as soul communications. Learning about these control methods is part of the waking up. Many here who are bipolar or SZ have been targeted in this way and so not all halucinations should be followed or listened to. We need discernment and empowerment.
beautifulmind546 8 months ago
Jani Schofield is being exploited as the posterchild for childhood schizophrenia by her parents and her drs. She is currently on high doses of thorazine, clozaril and lithium. These drugs will slowly kill her and many other children will suffer the same fate if we do not speak out. Please visit her vids and speak out, challenge the psychiatric model of what is considered sane and normal.
beautifulmind546 8 months ago 2
Great video man! I'll deifnitely check out that Red Book! Sounds very interesting.
Cosbilla 8 months ago
Your smart, this video is brilliant. superb!
MissySchitz 9 months ago
he's very smart
chells1991 9 months ago
I got rid of my evil visions but my good visions stay with me and ended up some how controlling it through RPing and story writing. I'm not saying this is your cure, but what I am saying is that you must cope with yourself anyway you can. I made friends with my visions and that worked for myself.
WolfBendFrank 9 months ago
Try LSD and hallucinations are fantastic :D
Cech9393 9 months ago
@bipolarorwakingup also, have you ever read Szaz? He is a bit extreme but his writings touch on these ideas, particularly not seeing it as necessarily a negative or disease and learning how to integrate the hallucinating/delusional person into society...
HKTeeVee 10 months ago
hey this was great, thanks for posting!
HKTeeVee 10 months ago
Scratch that, half heaven and half hell for monnths, it wasn't all fun at all. It still isn't. PEACE and LOVE, that kept me sane ;) That and exercise and a good diet. oh yeah.
Mritsonlyaname 11 months ago
that's an amazing video. got to learn so much with being bored even for a split of a second, very creative!
astronautrocks 11 months ago
Adrenochrome IS NOT a psychoactive compound, to my knowledge. Sure, it's oxidized adreneline, but the only place I have even heard of anybody getting high from this stuff was in Hunter Thompson's "Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas." Hunter himself even said that part where Depp takes too much and sees Richard Nixon's face was all B.S.
Illeagle98 11 months ago
ok night time . its pitch black in my room besides the light from the ipod. the pics scared the crap otta me for some reason.
AlexMelchortv 11 months ago
Most of the time, the halluncinations have been rare and have helped me, but this stuff with purple light and angels protecting me from demons... this is scarying :/
sk220691 11 months ago
wow man your story is a lot like mine except reversed.
I was walking through the mall calling people out because i thought they were poseures. i was pretty good at it.
I had the morphing phenomenon only it was a bunch of people i didn't know until one become my friend then it became he became the devil. dude kept smiling at me and shit
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dj02tc5 1 year ago
Thank you thank you for your work. Brilliant!
aprilmalone1 1 year ago
i've hallucinated mirrors looking "wobbly", steam/smoke rising from my hands, "checkerboard" print stamped onto everything in my vision, and water dripping from the ceiling and my hands. this has all been due to insomnia i think.
NihilisticSliceshow 1 year ago
it's probably just an acid flashback lol
aniivialplanet 1 year ago
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krystallamar 1 year ago
Hey neat :-)
I thought I was alone about photographs & paintings animating slightly & talking to me, many fun filled, action packed conversations there lol. Your correct it's not always a horror freakshow, bantering back & forth with them can often be funny & informative
& also I've never heard about the links between Abuse & Schizophrenia as well.
IronicallyVague 1 year ago
Liked your video a lot, very informative..
The path I took when my illness started & I realized I was ill was to keep my mouth shut, by becoming IronicallyVague & never telling anyone I of course avoided all the psychiatry & medications others have had to endure.
The topic of religion Is interesting to me though becouse the only relief I've ever known is becouse of a prayer asking God to stop the Demon voices.
Simple as that .
IronicallyVague 1 year ago
@IronicallyVague Asking God to stop the Demons. VERY pragmatic. I like it.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago 4
@IronicallyVague Lol ditto... I finally told my father part of what's been up after a few months but I had the same experience. I was just laughing my ass off and having a ball for months when finally it got to a point that I was very scared and I didn't think I could take it anymore. I hear a voice outside saying "do you think he's hearing voices?" and "maybe he should pray or somethin'" I did and reality just completely flipped and became more bearable. I also thought, wow that was simple..
Mritsonlyaname 11 months ago
@Mritsonlyaname - Yes, not 100% cured by any means lol...But the torment of the Demons are gone
Good luck to you ~
IronicallyVague 11 months ago
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@IronicallyVague my dad has the same problem, and he needs some serious help, its breaks his family now. If you have the time, please hit me a mail or something, i would be really greatfull if u can help.
Shelpete@gmail.com
shel161090 6 months ago
@IronicallyVague sounds like my story.,, i exsperianced peace and true quietness finally with prayer and God... but i still have episodes.. i wont take meds either they may be spiked by the government to control...
rustydusty40 3 months ago
@WigsAndSwords1 I´ll look into this doctor, but considering that most people suffering from hallucinations have been sexually abused, physically abused, or otherwise highly traumatized, I find the diet explanation very questionable.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup What research states "most" people that suffer hallucinations have been sexually or physically abused or traumatized? I know PLENTY of patients with supportive families that suffer crises.
keatsean 9 months ago
@keatsean See Dr John Read, the data is in his research. Other research can be found on the site, Intervoice, which helps people suffering from hallucinations by helping them related to the material as opposed to just medicating the problem and then ignoring it.
bipolarorwakingup 9 months ago
Kali. I went into the eternal night. There was a person trying to grab me last night. I spent the whole night in fear.
returnoftheramble3 1 year ago
i spose it would be worth mentioning that before we called these "unknown" illnesses, they were widely accepted as proof of things like enlightenment,or in the negative sense, demonic possesion.. worth looking at, as the phsch. industry in particular despise religious belief and more importantly, profound spiritual experiences as nothing but drug induced fantasy at best, or absoloute "proof" of something they still, CANNOT PROVE THEMSELVES!! worth looking into, it is very eye opening.
boazandjiacinth 1 year ago
@boazandjiacinth See video 21, I touch on what you are saying in that one.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
why do u keep referring to god or jesus in ur vids? are u trying to recruit ppl to ur way of life through those that suffer mental illness? if u are, thats a poor effort man, and very low..
123perrin 1 year ago
@123perrin I refer to a lot of different religions and philosophies in my videos. I´m not selling anything.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago 7
@123perrin Why should it bother you if he was, man? And what's so low about it? Here's a guy talking openly about something he's suffering from and all you have is criticism? YOU'RE the low one man.
LockjawVideo 1 year ago
@LockjawVideo no 'man'.. if hes offering help and claims to possibly have some answers which ppl are looking for, if hes going to mix religion in with them, then maybe he should state that. because lots of ppl arent looking for 'spiritual guidance' or anything like that. they just wanna get some answers. religious ppl have misguided and abused mentally ill ppl for hundreds of years, with little or no real help coming from it. thats why i asked him about religion here. a legitimate qstion 'man'.
123perrin 1 year ago
@123perrin I leave up the debate. But it's clear you don't understand the difference between religion and spirituality. There is no relgion here. And my understanding of hallucinations is based on scientific research.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup thats kool mate. i find it hard to seperate religion and spirituality. i dont want to seem like someone who's having a go at ur work, but i if i see something thats conflicting, or out of place so to speak, ill ask a qstion about it. i do find ur vids interesting and they provide 'food for thought'. cheers.
123perrin 1 year ago
No one I know would help me with this. They'd just think I was crazy if I asked. Everyone I know thinks I am crazy.
modustheoperandi 1 year ago
Wow!You have really hit the nail on the head with these videos.You have described and made sense of everything I went through as a teenager.I have never been able to express to others what it is like to go through a psychosis and yet you have expressed it so eloquently.
Many thanks to you!
apway 1 year ago
Great Edu
empowerment101 1 year ago
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undigestedsponge 1 year ago
be careful of the voices and hallucinations you hear, if your christian, you know that demonic forces and powers of darkness, can manipulate you, don't listen to every voice you hear, or anything, it can destroy you and end up hurting you a lot, be careful what you do. god bless
Terrybob123 1 year ago
Give evil nothing to oppose. And it will disappear by itself.- Twilight of the Dark Master. (an Anime movie in the ending scene.)
But, all this was very instructive.
lem0n2lime 1 year ago
lol the other day i was working in a supoermarket, then a client ask me something then i turned back. but at the half of my turn back, the guy began to laugh like a demon !!! it was crazy and then i turned back and he stopped =S i was really scared after !!! so can you say if it was real or not ? but yeah the way i explained it is very vast XD
blattepop 1 year ago
doesnt it sound like some one else is breathing in the background?
kalashnikov662 1 year ago
Ok according to this video
ive been hullucinationing sense i was very little.
XxMissJohnaTuesdayxX 1 year ago
i think i agree with everything you say but not the part about inviting them into you that's not correct
MIKEJF20 1 year ago
this is so informational! Thank you for uploading it :-)
prisonshadows 1 year ago
@prisonshadows Hey man, I'm glad you checked it out!
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
The face in the trees is an amazing picture.
Fuliginosus 1 year ago
@Fuliginosus its of sandra bullock, its to the film premonitions
Libertinedreamful 1 year ago
how can there be hallucinations without associations between neurons in brain?
wandering in the mall might have had an association with the thematic song.
the hallucinations you get depends on what your attention goes to.
when you pay attention to warmth, you will probably see fire.
normally a threshold would block those associations, but in the case of psychosis the signal might be strong enough to pass the threshold.
attributing a metaphysical meaning to everything might just stroke ego.
orkishiswithk 1 year ago
@orkishiswithk I never said there weren't neurological connections. Of course there are, but there is no reason to beleive that these connections are brain malfuntions.. As video 21 explains, hallucinations (or visions and voices) have been commonly experiences by man for thousands of years. The bible is proof of that. Now, you may argue that they may or may not be of divine origin, and there is really now way to prove or disprove that.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup i was more like trying to emphasize the word 'threshold'.
as for divine or not divine, that debate was not my intention.
well, i had been interested in fighting spirit in the past, and that involves some cruelty.
maybe that is why my attitude has been:
1) is it dangerous?
if no, then
2) is it "it's ok really"?
if yes, then
3) is it an interesting phenomenon?
and this is where i prefer to stop (notice that i did not get to the question "is it divine?").
orkishiswithk 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup oh there we go! 'the bible'... preaching to ppl who suffer mental illness - thats low man. pathetic actually! while some ppl are actually looking for real answers, ppl like you are out there misguiding them. geezus...
123perrin 1 year ago
I think hallucinating is fine as long as you're not driving and you see a green light instead of a red one. That's bad news right there.
theboombody 1 year ago
I keep hearing the word schizophrenia in the videos I can relate to most of the time... gotta love the stigma...
appostollo 1 year ago
Agradezco enormemente esta informacion,
Llevo 15 años padeciendo Desorden Bipolar sin saberlo, es un infierno para uno, pero mucho más para las personas que amamos y lastimamos durante todo este tiempo sin darnos cuenta. Cientos de alertas y alarmas se suceden a lo largo del tiempo pero uno no tiene la capacidad ni el control para darse cuenta. Es una enfermedad muy cruel, desvastadora principalmente para las personas que mas cerca tenemos nuestro.
LuxVitriolum 1 year ago
After being high I sometimes hear mind chatter when am in bed, I prefer to be efficient and only give attention to that which serves my set objectives.
I like the theory that the more you focus on something the more it will recurr and manifest, so better to ignore and know that you at have free will to perceive what you want , Law of attraction makes more sense then inviting demons or whatever to get rid of them
BPMa14n 1 year ago
i c a pretty nice girl neat
littlearmageddon 1 year ago
wow to think this may have led to the belief in gods and demons thousands of years ago and then you have religion out of mental illness
connecttro 1 year ago
I always feel like I am enlightened when I am manic, but I don't know if it's true or not. The feeling of enlightenment within mania seems to go away as my brain slows down... if I have reached enlightenment, how can I hold on to that without being unable to function in the world? I like being manic, I admit it, I love the magic of it, but I don't know if that is good or not. I feel like I may be becoming a bit manic now and the magic is returning, should I be scared?
fallenrose19 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup And you have succeeded. Your videos have given me great insight into my own bipolar/spiritual awakening experiences in '85, '89, '93. Although I was medicated back into normalcy and live a seemingly normal life with house, kid and responsible job, I was still trapped emotionally in those pysch wards. You have given me, and i am sure others, a chance to recover. Namaste
reginox3 1 year ago
im bi polar skitzo and i would hear women scream and laughter in the dark i beliveed that vampires where real for awhile i had to face my fear to get over it.
Xcom704 2 years ago
i have Bi Polar and some paranoid Skitzo i was in mental hospital and i would hear screams of women and laughter from dark rooms i belive that vampires where real. I would even talk to people that i thought where people from my child hood even resembled them a bit and they go to there room and never show up the next day. i never saw them talk to the doctor and get discharged if they where illusiations they were pretty damn real to me. i also did some really crazy things i hate to think about now
Xcom704 2 years ago
Good video.
torakkafarmi 2 years ago
As an artist few proclaim the natural visual hallications we experience that are very much part of our artwork. Many have known that ones of bipolar madness or episodes grasp to their artform to process the experience. That is why as a hypomanic, I am a fanstastic artist when cast into the insanity of the mind bent by the soul, that has been tainted by this world experience.
TAZjohannahMarie 2 years ago
Is this hereditary ?? I have a family member just diagnoised???
jan2310 2 years ago
Well, sometimes emotional issues (like sex abuse) get passed on from generation to generation. So is it hereditary? Maybe. Is it a biological defect? No.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
@jan2310 That's the reason I don't wanna have kids. I screwed my own lifebut there's no way in hell I'm gonna corrupt an innocent kid. I just wish my parents had the same judgment before I was conceived. Bipolar sucks and I want to tell the world I have it so they understand me but at the same time I don't want to be known as that kid with bipolar.
replytoomyass 1 year ago
For as long as I can remember, I have always thought of "reality" as relatively subjective, almost like taste. I hate the popular idea that something isn't real unless most people agree that it is.
sheepburn 2 years ago
these videos are definitely works of art
jdbrms 2 years ago
Thank you!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
I would suggest to others dealing with bipolar and/or schizophrenia such as myself, that finding an art outlet is very helpful. Mine happens to be photography. Thank you Sean for your wonderful videos. I consider them a work of art in themselves.
potatowishes 2 years ago
In dealing with hallucinations, what about ones that make no sense? I often hear singing, different songs, and I have no idea what "message" that could be sending?
Also, have you looked into sleep paralysis and hallucinations? I experience both and the hallucinations are terrifying, most often involving a demonic figure attacking me (and the sleep paralysis will not let me move anything but my eyes). Just wonder if you've looked into that relation.
Love your videos!
Octophobia 2 years ago
If they make 'no sense' trust the feeling that comes with them. You probably need to dig a little deeper. Write about the feeling, make connections, see where they take you. I've had sleep paralysis a few times, but I haven't taken a good look at it. You're right, it is scary.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Thanks for the kind sharing*
dracentsparkle 2 years ago
These definitions of 'hallucination' made me wonder:
1) to sense something that is not there YET; hallucination or vision (like animal instinct)?
2) to sense things that others don't sense; in a society that is full of lies (in education, religion, marketing, politics); the first ones to feel that things are not what they seem may actually be the brightest rather than "mentally ill".
3) I guess I have incorporated my psychotic hallucinations in my daily life in a way it's no longer a problem.
odddom4 2 years ago 11
I think, if something is somehow 'there' then I wouldn't call it a hallucination. MInd you, I would expect that at least one other person in the world should be able to sense it as well. Working on your vid today!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Wow, I really want to read that book.
DanTheDamnManDan 2 years ago 2
Thanks again Sean! :-)
PeaceLoveEternity 2 years ago 2
im from singapore and our ms world contestant had bipolar disorder and everybody made fun of her. its quite horrible
bubblebud89 2 years ago
Unfortunately, that doesn't only happen in Singapore. People are ignorant and fearful all around the world.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Since church killed our holy men, we don't know ways to cope with such sensations in Western civilizations.
Tressco 2 years ago
I absolutely agree even in the US u still have ignorant people
coronaqueen221 2 years ago
Fantastic. Thanks.
etherealrhythm 2 years ago
Thank you for bringing "The Red Book" to our attention. I find your story about Carl Jung very interesting.
LindaKay1948 2 years ago
Your welcome!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
I've always felt that my bipolar had something to do with past lives. As I can see nothing in this life with a painful connection. It is the only way I can accept my condition because I know I'm not crazy. Persecution and martyrdom lie close to my inner soul. I'm ever ready to defend myself.
DaughterofJerusalem 2 years ago
Yes, not all trauma is from our childhood. Sometimes its from adulthood or the peri-natal stage, and sometimes it certainly looks like the traumas are more related to karmic issues, past lives, etc...
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
...and then there's a lot of trauma that isn't recognized as such. That is seen as perfectly normal conditions for human beings to live under and cope with.
shadeofteal 2 years ago
Yeah, people tend to forget that its not objective facts and events that determine trauma and degree of trauma. Its the subjective experience of the person being traumatized.