Please don't take this the wrong way, but ya don't need to apologize for how you look. I've never seen you look any way other than very pretty in all of your videos.
Aww Bea! I can sort of connect with you on some level. Junior year was my hardest year too. School wise, socially, and depression/ED wise. It's hard it's really hard. I had the support of a few friends and a teacher which got me through it. I believe in you hun, you're a strong and beautiful girl. Have faith and surround yourself with the people who love you. You will overcome this obsticle I promise.
AHH BEA, you're so beautiful and strong. you've been doing so good. Keep up the good work, don't let the littest things bring you down. I'm always here for you. MUAHHH :D
WHY? DID YOU HAVE TO SHARE THIS?...ITS PATHETIC. AND IMMATURE!! Its to bad that you have no life, and think you can hurt people by hiding behind a computer...truth is, BEA is a STRONG girl...even though she is having a hard time, i KNOW that some stupid PATHETIC person isn't going to get her down!!
Hunn. i'm so sorryy!! Anything i can do, tell me!! I will keep you in my prayers, i love you!!
also,i was just wondering, have you had any absences at school? and awkward, but what time do you get up to get ready for school? I wish you could relax girl!! this is all going to catch up with you, and EXPLODE!!! its happening to me...and i'm about to LOSE ITT!!
noooooooooooooo bea pleaase don't cut!!! everyone feels stress during school, you are not alone. keep making the videos, they work muchhh better than cutting.
Thank you for this update -- your FB statuses were worrying me.
Stay strong...I know that school can be overwhelming and often, can put you over the edge but.. reminds yourself to breathe sometimes, as silly as that sounds. Take a moment, breathe, remind yourself to be strong and wise, and go on with whatever you're doing.
A few years ago I was doing a drama course and it was about 6 months since I was discharged from psych hospital (not for my anorexia but for O.C.D.) we were meant to be studying 'One flew over the Cuckoo's Nest' but after like 5 minutes apparently my face just kinda glazed over and my tutor person told me to leave...
...then we changed film anyhow but she was real good and could see how it affected me.
Hey Bea... HUGS to you. You are VERY right when u say that we are NOT alone. Whether we like it or not, we ALWAYS have someone! I want to say that I do NOT envy you (or any "Teen") in this day & age! Life was complicated when I was in H.S. back in the mid-90's...& that was before cell phones, youtube, facebook, twitter...easy internet access!!! Plus, I think that parents/teachers seems to be putting too much pressure on teens today. We def. had it a lot easier! (remind ur dad that!LOL....
..... as for the missing pills.... are you certain that you didn't put them somewhere else? Chances are they did find them, have spoken with Dr. Mead and are waiting to speak with you at your next appointment. I know the fear you are feeling all too well though. Is there someone that you can talk to about the stresses? Different then the norm. ppl? Maybe there is someone @ school in a higher grade that can support u & give time management ideas? I don't know...Just, hang in. Stay Strong! xo~a
Hey hunni, it only gets worse at university and then full-time work....It seems the more responsibility one has the worse the depressions gets. I miss being at high school and being in the same boat as my peers cos at 24yrs its all work and mortgages and no friends keep in touch xxx best of luck
wow, seems like me and you are both having a hard time. All the social problems and what not. Not being able to cry, etc. It's strange, I ended up cutting myself pretty badly also after such a long time...sigh.
OMG!!! House was awesome last night! That quote hit me hard too. I am obsessed with that show lol. It was so funny last night, but also had great meaning.
Well hun, I hope you are dong better. Good luck on ur AP exam. Those can be touch. Damn, life is tough!!! lol. Stay strong. <3
ekk sounds like a tough episode to watch of that show, i wouldn't be able to watch something triggering lyk that :/. but thats an awesome quote! =]. i love you Bea and your amazing, just know that so many people love and care about you. just keep hanging on. one day and one meal at a time. <3
thats really good that you were able tocrysounds like a relief:]. alwaysgoodto get it out. often when i want to cry i just can't. i have such a hard time w/emotions. i really fuckn hate them. cutting=not good! :[ but i can't really say anything on that bec well i'm always doing self damaging things via over exercise, but all i can say is that its not good, the damaging. :/. you don't want to end up really hurting yourself Bea its truly not good!.. continued...
Hang in there girly. You are SO much stronger than that! I'm here for you in ANY way I can help! I know everything is crazy but you have so much to live for. I totally get the cutting and crying thing! I am/was the same way. Love you! ♥ Things will look up for you!
oh gosh, i relate so much to the crying thing. whenever i want to cry, i try to make myself but i can't! i wish i could! house had some great quotes tonight, awesome premiere :)
You're so beautiful and strong.
I know how you feel - i've had an eating disorder for a few years now. If you ever need to talk you can messege me xox
MaryMoo755 2 years ago
Please don't take this the wrong way, but ya don't need to apologize for how you look. I've never seen you look any way other than very pretty in all of your videos.
CatchFlipsidE 2 years ago 3
aww, thank you so much <3 i really do appreciate it.
OSnapski 2 years ago
Aww Bea! I can sort of connect with you on some level. Junior year was my hardest year too. School wise, socially, and depression/ED wise. It's hard it's really hard. I had the support of a few friends and a teacher which got me through it. I believe in you hun, you're a strong and beautiful girl. Have faith and surround yourself with the people who love you. You will overcome this obsticle I promise.
All my love,
-Aislinn
Broadwayx3Love 2 years ago 2
AHH BEA, you're so beautiful and strong. you've been doing so good. Keep up the good work, don't let the littest things bring you down. I'm always here for you. MUAHHH :D
iblinkforblink182 2 years ago
WHY? DID YOU HAVE TO SHARE THIS?...ITS PATHETIC. AND IMMATURE!! Its to bad that you have no life, and think you can hurt people by hiding behind a computer...truth is, BEA is a STRONG girl...even though she is having a hard time, i KNOW that some stupid PATHETIC person isn't going to get her down!!
sdloser45 2 years ago
Hunn. i'm so sorryy!! Anything i can do, tell me!! I will keep you in my prayers, i love you!!
also,i was just wondering, have you had any absences at school? and awkward, but what time do you get up to get ready for school? I wish you could relax girl!! this is all going to catch up with you, and EXPLODE!!! its happening to me...and i'm about to LOSE ITT!!
I LOVE YOU BEA!
sdloser45 2 years ago
thanks girl! xD i love your comments. always.
i haven't had any absences yet.
and i get up around 5, 5.15.
OSnapski 2 years ago
SuperiorSioux... GO TO HELL!!
dauntlessdreams 2 years ago
noooooooooooooo bea pleaase don't cut!!! everyone feels stress during school, you are not alone. keep making the videos, they work muchhh better than cutting.
LOVE the quote!
-molly
dauntlessdreams 2 years ago 2
I LOOOVE YOU BEA!!!! social probs ALWAYS blow over. dont blame anything on yourself. life will have obstacles that you can't control. <3<3<3
-molly
dauntlessdreams 2 years ago
Thank you for this update -- your FB statuses were worrying me.
Stay strong...I know that school can be overwhelming and often, can put you over the edge but.. reminds yourself to breathe sometimes, as silly as that sounds. Take a moment, breathe, remind yourself to be strong and wise, and go on with whatever you're doing.
<3 (I like that quote from House btw)
Ree03 2 years ago
hey girl i am sorry you are not doing well sending love. good luck with everythiingg. fb message me anytimee. siraan t.
you are beautifull <3
canadiangirl2468 2 years ago
Hi
Sorry your not doing well
A few years ago I was doing a drama course and it was about 6 months since I was discharged from psych hospital (not for my anorexia but for O.C.D.) we were meant to be studying 'One flew over the Cuckoo's Nest' but after like 5 minutes apparently my face just kinda glazed over and my tutor person told me to leave...
...then we changed film anyhow but she was real good and could see how it affected me.
whimsical2tree 2 years ago 2
Hey Bea... HUGS to you. You are VERY right when u say that we are NOT alone. Whether we like it or not, we ALWAYS have someone! I want to say that I do NOT envy you (or any "Teen") in this day & age! Life was complicated when I was in H.S. back in the mid-90's...& that was before cell phones, youtube, facebook, twitter...easy internet access!!! Plus, I think that parents/teachers seems to be putting too much pressure on teens today. We def. had it a lot easier! (remind ur dad that!LOL....
weaveamyweave08 2 years ago
..... as for the missing pills.... are you certain that you didn't put them somewhere else? Chances are they did find them, have spoken with Dr. Mead and are waiting to speak with you at your next appointment. I know the fear you are feeling all too well though. Is there someone that you can talk to about the stresses? Different then the norm. ppl? Maybe there is someone @ school in a higher grade that can support u & give time management ideas? I don't know...Just, hang in. Stay Strong! xo~a
weaveamyweave08 2 years ago
Hey hunni, it only gets worse at university and then full-time work....It seems the more responsibility one has the worse the depressions gets. I miss being at high school and being in the same boat as my peers cos at 24yrs its all work and mortgages and no friends keep in touch xxx best of luck
JaimeeLauren 2 years ago
wow, seems like me and you are both having a hard time. All the social problems and what not. Not being able to cry, etc. It's strange, I ended up cutting myself pretty badly also after such a long time...sigh.
OMG!!! House was awesome last night! That quote hit me hard too. I am obsessed with that show lol. It was so funny last night, but also had great meaning.
Well hun, I hope you are dong better. Good luck on ur AP exam. Those can be touch. Damn, life is tough!!! lol. Stay strong. <3
TooHard2FakeItt 2 years ago
hey bea....stay strong and no we are not alone thats for sure...! god bless!
sammerthebammer 2 years ago
Hi Bea, Hang in there. You are such an insprational & intelligent girl!
weasalw 2 years ago
ekk sounds like a tough episode to watch of that show, i wouldn't be able to watch something triggering lyk that :/. but thats an awesome quote! =]. i love you Bea and your amazing, just know that so many people love and care about you. just keep hanging on. one day and one meal at a time. <3
AMFlover 2 years ago
thats really good that you were able tocrysounds like a relief:]. alwaysgoodto get it out. often when i want to cry i just can't. i have such a hard time w/emotions. i really fuckn hate them. cutting=not good! :[ but i can't really say anything on that bec well i'm always doing self damaging things via over exercise, but all i can say is that its not good, the damaging. :/. you don't want to end up really hurting yourself Bea its truly not good!.. continued...
AMFlover 2 years ago
*hugs bea* cutting isn't the answer ♥
message me if you ever want to cut, please?? it might not be an ED but its STILL self-harm, stay strong hun.
bandmonkey08 2 years ago
i sometimes feel that way
MultiHartley 2 years ago
i feel this way too, sometimes,
its good to write down. i have blog/poems
and i have a small following, but they are really depressing , some i deleted because they were that bad
wordsbreakmybones.wordpress
sexlessparents 2 years ago
just wanted to say, i think i am over my ed.
i stopped counting calories.
i just don't eat certain things
sexlessparents 2 years ago
Bea,
Hang in there girly. You are SO much stronger than that! I'm here for you in ANY way I can help! I know everything is crazy but you have so much to live for. I totally get the cutting and crying thing! I am/was the same way. Love you! ♥ Things will look up for you!
Soccerwin785 2 years ago
oh gosh, i relate so much to the crying thing. whenever i want to cry, i try to make myself but i can't! i wish i could! house had some great quotes tonight, awesome premiere :)
chocolatekiss608 2 years ago
I hope T.T ---> ^_^ soon.
p25p20 2 years ago
Thank you!
Even thought the smart side of me knows I'm not the only one in a rut, I still can't whole heartedly believe it.
I hope your situations get better.
p.s. I liked Algebra 2... I hate pre-cal
I think Jr year is going to kill me :S
xXMistyXx
Innergoth333 2 years ago
i like it too, i just don't like how i can't do well on the tests haha
OSnapski 2 years ago
i have audio
Innergoth333 2 years ago
no audio
BayAreaKang 2 years ago
there is audio...
zinnieluvsyou 2 years ago