Im trying so hard to get thru this, im taking baby steps, after so so long if being housebound, i took the first steps about two weeks ago. its hard but im trying cuase i feel we are worth it all of us suffers. HUGS.
It wasn't easy, it still kinda freaks me out to have it out there...exposed, yanno? But the fact that I've had such good feedback and the support of wonderful people like you does help a lot!
Thanks for doing this. These videos are helping me understand you guys, my friends, and to understand others I know or may encounter with similar problems. I have minor panic attacks once in a while, but kinda rare and nothing like you go through.
It is hard to understand it, I think mostly because we all don't like to talk about it. There is a lot of embarassment and fear associated with it. It really makes me feel weak. But I'm getting stronger!
You are so brave and wonderful for talking about panic attacks. I have had them too. They are awful, but it seems you know how to control them and telling about them gives you the power over them. Bravo for you!! xo
Wow, you had the same feeling about having people staring at you too? That's amazing. You are the one that started this whole thing. You're so brave and you made me feel so much better with your video. I love you right back Jessie!
Im just glad that I got people to talk about it, it really is a very deep subject to me, and It affected my life so negativly..i know I didn't go into alot of details in my video, and kinda made a goof ball joke here and there, but thats only because Its hard for me to really go into depth of the shear hell I went through without crying.....the wound is still very fresh, and I have much anxiety about Winter coming, ..cont.
I know how you feel. It was so hard for me to talk about without crying or just without getting all emotional about it in general. Hard enough to talk about it without embarassing myself further! LOL My family has always dealt with serious subjects with humor, so I totally get the making jokes here and there thing. You did perfectly. You got the point across and you were sincere and you really made me feel good!
because that is when it hits me the hardedest, and last winter I was house bound the enitre winter, I couldn't even go Christmas shopping..I cried all day everyday, and barely slept a wink...maybe I will try and do a video that were I tell just how horrific it can get...don't know If I can though, cause I don't like getting to emotional.
Yanno what I did? I just did the vlogs and told myself I didn't have to post em. If I would have gotten too emotional or not felt right about it I wouldn't have posted them, but I figured it might have made me feel better to talk about it even if I never posted it. You could try that and then decide later if you feel like it. I know it is hard, it feels like you're really exposed by putting it out there.
Well that sucks. I don't know why but I somehow a lot of my friends have panic attacks. I don't think I've ever had one where I thought I was going to die but I've had times where for no reason my heart will race, I can feel every heart beat, shortness of breath and super paranoia sets in. If I remove myself from the situation it will stop. Nothing compared to others I hear about.
Kudos to you for pushing through and making it to ST3.
That sounds like a milder form of panic attack. I get some like that, in fact, that's mostly what I get anymore and even those are becoming less and less frequent. The anxiety is still there, but I'm not sure it will ever go away, at least to some degree. Thanks! :)
I have small ones ocassionally, but fortunately they are shortlived and few and far between. Glad to hear that your's are less frequent now. So glad you were able to come to ST3 and really enjoy yourself!! Love ya, Ang
I too suffer from panic attack, though I have never really talked to anyone outside of a few close friends and my family about it. All I can say is that you are brave to talk about it and those of us who do have these problems we appreciate your talking about it. I think that I have to admit that the pressure that those of us who have the pantic attacks pur a lot of pressure on ourselves. Loves of hugs and love to you! xooxoxoxo
Wow Peggy, there are more people than I ever imagined that have these things. I really struggled with whether I could talk about it, but so far the feedback has been really good so I think I'll do it again today. It is really hard to talk about, that's for sure. Yes, I think we are definitely hard on ourselves and put a lot of pressure on ourselves. I am way harder on myself than I am anyone else.
Kim if you ever need someone to talk to about it you know where to find me. I am going to try to do another one today about what things helped/help me. Not sure it will be of use, but so far it has felt good to talk about it.
though. Like, "is this one we pre-purchased the tickets for?" I thought to myself "why is she asking this?" HAHAHAHAHA I think we prepurchased everything but the aquarium stuff and I can't remember why I never did that ahead of time. Probably the worrying about being able to fit it all in and such.
Yeah, that's the anxiety. Annoying isn't it? Most of the time I don't even realize I'm doing it. It is just because my mind is going so fast and maybe concentrating on questions helps slow it down, I don't know. Once I realize what I'm doing I stop, but soemtimes it is after I've gotten annoying, hehe. I probably should have told people about it, but I was hoping it wouldn't happen and didn't want to be "different." Yanno?
Yanno, I had a panic attack for absolutely unknown reasons when I was around 19 years old. Same with the breathing. I couldn't catch my breath, thought I was having a heart attack. My boss rushed me to the E.R. and they couldn't figure out what it was. After IV fluids, heart rate returned to normal, etc., and I was released. Never had another one since, but yeah. Weird, huh?
I'm glad you don't get them often anymore. That would be way too much to deal with.
I didn't notice you having any anxiety at ST.. It was so great to meet you and talk to you! You were a little quiet at times but I think we all were a little bit sometimes. Now that you describe it, I think I may have had a few panic attacks myself over the years!
I am so very glad you shared this, my son has panic attacks, anxiety disorder is what the docs said. He also has clastraphobia, I have asked him many times what are you feeling etc. etc. but he has never been able to express with out feeling embarassed or panicec. When his jaw was wired shut, I was a little very little irrated with him even though i never said it. We spent day and night at that horrible hospital to have his jaw taken care of, only to have him "panic" and cut the wires.
He said he felt he was about to die. I really couldn't understand what he meant, but there was no need asking as his jaw was yet again hanging in three pieces. my chest got really heavy listening to you talk as the tears begain to flow I feel so horrible to think he felt that way. Thank you so much for sharing this Lori, I truly with all of my heart love you for it.
Oh my gosh you don't know how good this made me feel. This is why I went ahead and posted this, so that maybe it would help someone. I don't feel good about making you cry, but I'm glad I could help you understand what your son goes through. There are a lot of good books on panic attacks and they have helped me a lot too. Many big hugs to you and to your son.
thank you for sharing this. I too am "one of those" who do not want people seeing me having one. I saw the angst before you left in your vid about missing bella. That was the reason i told you to take one of her toys for comfort... wondering, did it work? I hope it did... I take meds to control mine.. hugz to you and bella //*u*\\ cecelia
I totally forgot to take something of hers. I had meant to as it was a great suggestion. I had pictures of her on my blackberry though and I would look at those sometimes when I missed her.
I know exactly how you feel because i have been there i feel like i am dieing...Honey been there thats exactly how it makes you feel...i am glad you shared this....Big Hugs xoxo Misty aka Mista
My first one was waiting for an AIDS test result when I was 23, you pegged it how it feels for me. I thought my heart was going to explode!
You did GRAEAT at ST, I am so proud of you. I sensed a bit of anxiety but not at the level you are talking about. Truth be told, I had a bit of anxiety myself.
Oh I feel so far from strong! But I really appreciate you saying that, it makes me feel good! It is hard to talk about, just hoping to help someone feel better about themselves like I felt when Jessie talked about it. Thank you so much!
I wanted to rate this 5 stars, but since ratings are disabled, I'm doing it here. Panic attacks are so scary. Thank you for being open and honest about your experiences.
You are great! I am happy that you shared your story because some people may not know what is going on with other people or even themselves. I commend you for being brave! Much Love and Aloha, Jason
Bless your heart Lori. You described panic attacks perfectly and it sounds like you really know yourself now, and have come to terms with how the sub-conscious works. Good for you at going to SouthTube! There are so many of us panic survivors out there. .. hugs, Chris
You do very well with coping Lori, you hide it very well. I was thrilled when Roc offered to travel with me, I was having major anxiety about travelling alone. Not that I was scared, but I was worried I'd screw up in an airport and get stuck there.
Exactly! I don't fear the flying itself, it is making the connections and getting to my final destination that give me anxiety. Once I'm on the plane I relax...until the next connection, hehe. Traveling alone sucks, but I've done it a lot. Much better with someone. It made me feel good when Jessie talked about it, less alone. So I am hoping this can make someone else feel better.
thank you from one anxiety suffer to another.
Im trying so hard to get thru this, im taking baby steps, after so so long if being housebound, i took the first steps about two weeks ago. its hard but im trying cuase i feel we are worth it all of us suffers. HUGS.
Lesli2 2 years ago
Baby steps good. We are really worth it. Bravo to you for taking the first steps and thank you so much for commenting!
Big hugs to you!!!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
It wasn't easy, it still kinda freaks me out to have it out there...exposed, yanno? But the fact that I've had such good feedback and the support of wonderful people like you does help a lot!
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
Thanks for doing this. These videos are helping me understand you guys, my friends, and to understand others I know or may encounter with similar problems. I have minor panic attacks once in a while, but kinda rare and nothing like you go through.
TheBlueFlamingo 2 years ago
It is hard to understand it, I think mostly because we all don't like to talk about it. There is a lot of embarassment and fear associated with it. It really makes me feel weak. But I'm getting stronger!
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
You are so brave and wonderful for talking about panic attacks. I have had them too. They are awful, but it seems you know how to control them and telling about them gives you the power over them. Bravo for you!! xo
wildheart5 2 years ago
Oh I like to think of it that way, that talking about it gives me power over it. That's great Barb! Thanks so much!
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
You really are very brave for talking about this here. Hope you continue improving & know that you always have your wonderful YT friends to help.
Pam
WillowBranchDesigns 2 years ago
Thank you so much! It really is so much better than it was. There are so many wonderful people here on YT!
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
OMG LORI I love you for sharing this.
They feel the same way to me, except I swore I was going to have a heart attack, and was SURE I was about to die.
Its so horrible to feel that.
And I to worried I'd be on the floor and have people staring at me...
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH for sharing your story..
ninjajessie1 2 years ago
Wow, you had the same feeling about having people staring at you too? That's amazing. You are the one that started this whole thing. You're so brave and you made me feel so much better with your video. I love you right back Jessie!
Hugs!!!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
Im just glad that I got people to talk about it, it really is a very deep subject to me, and It affected my life so negativly..i know I didn't go into alot of details in my video, and kinda made a goof ball joke here and there, but thats only because Its hard for me to really go into depth of the shear hell I went through without crying.....the wound is still very fresh, and I have much anxiety about Winter coming, ..cont.
ninjajessie1 2 years ago
I know how you feel. It was so hard for me to talk about without crying or just without getting all emotional about it in general. Hard enough to talk about it without embarassing myself further! LOL My family has always dealt with serious subjects with humor, so I totally get the making jokes here and there thing. You did perfectly. You got the point across and you were sincere and you really made me feel good!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
because that is when it hits me the hardedest, and last winter I was house bound the enitre winter, I couldn't even go Christmas shopping..I cried all day everyday, and barely slept a wink...maybe I will try and do a video that were I tell just how horrific it can get...don't know If I can though, cause I don't like getting to emotional.
Love you
ninjajessie1 2 years ago
Yanno what I did? I just did the vlogs and told myself I didn't have to post em. If I would have gotten too emotional or not felt right about it I wouldn't have posted them, but I figured it might have made me feel better to talk about it even if I never posted it. You could try that and then decide later if you feel like it. I know it is hard, it feels like you're really exposed by putting it out there.
Love you!!!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
Awwe ((((Lori))))..... Bless your heart! I'm right there with you. Been suffering since I was a kid.
So brave of you,Jessie and Chris to share like that! Thx soooo much!
You go girl!
HugZ sugar. JoJo
kismet0717 2 years ago
It is hard to talk about, but everyone has been so kind so I'm not too freaked out. hehe
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
Well that sucks. I don't know why but I somehow a lot of my friends have panic attacks. I don't think I've ever had one where I thought I was going to die but I've had times where for no reason my heart will race, I can feel every heart beat, shortness of breath and super paranoia sets in. If I remove myself from the situation it will stop. Nothing compared to others I hear about.
Kudos to you for pushing through and making it to ST3.
2TheLeftOfNoWhere 2 years ago
That sounds like a milder form of panic attack. I get some like that, in fact, that's mostly what I get anymore and even those are becoming less and less frequent. The anxiety is still there, but I'm not sure it will ever go away, at least to some degree. Thanks! :)
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
I have small ones ocassionally, but fortunately they are shortlived and few and far between. Glad to hear that your's are less frequent now. So glad you were able to come to ST3 and really enjoy yourself!! Love ya, Ang
GramsandPapi 2 years ago
I am so glad I went to ST3 and I will be at ST4. Probably with less anxiety! LOL
Love ya back!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
I too suffer from panic attack, though I have never really talked to anyone outside of a few close friends and my family about it. All I can say is that you are brave to talk about it and those of us who do have these problems we appreciate your talking about it. I think that I have to admit that the pressure that those of us who have the pantic attacks pur a lot of pressure on ourselves. Loves of hugs and love to you! xooxoxoxo
WackaDoodleFreeZone 2 years ago
Wow Peggy, there are more people than I ever imagined that have these things. I really struggled with whether I could talk about it, but so far the feedback has been really good so I think I'll do it again today. It is really hard to talk about, that's for sure. Yes, I think we are definitely hard on ourselves and put a lot of pressure on ourselves. I am way harder on myself than I am anyone else.
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
Soft hugs you so know that I have them. Unfortunately I am going thru a rather bad time with them currently.
cozzyk 2 years ago
Kim if you ever need someone to talk to about it you know where to find me. I am going to try to do another one today about what things helped/help me. Not sure it will be of use, but so far it has felt good to talk about it.
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
though. Like, "is this one we pre-purchased the tickets for?" I thought to myself "why is she asking this?" HAHAHAHAHA I think we prepurchased everything but the aquarium stuff and I can't remember why I never did that ahead of time. Probably the worrying about being able to fit it all in and such.
silverscreamgrl 2 years ago
Yeah, that's the anxiety. Annoying isn't it? Most of the time I don't even realize I'm doing it. It is just because my mind is going so fast and maybe concentrating on questions helps slow it down, I don't know. Once I realize what I'm doing I stop, but soemtimes it is after I've gotten annoying, hehe. I probably should have told people about it, but I was hoping it wouldn't happen and didn't want to be "different." Yanno?
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
Yanno, I had a panic attack for absolutely unknown reasons when I was around 19 years old. Same with the breathing. I couldn't catch my breath, thought I was having a heart attack. My boss rushed me to the E.R. and they couldn't figure out what it was. After IV fluids, heart rate returned to normal, etc., and I was released. Never had another one since, but yeah. Weird, huh?
I'm glad you don't get them often anymore. That would be way too much to deal with.
I did notice the question asking
silverscreamgrl 2 years ago
I didn't notice you having any anxiety at ST.. It was so great to meet you and talk to you! You were a little quiet at times but I think we all were a little bit sometimes. Now that you describe it, I think I may have had a few panic attacks myself over the years!
mysteryglo 2 years ago
I am so glad I got to meet you too Judy. I am so glad I went. It was worth it. I think a lot of people have them, more than I ever thought.
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
I am so very glad you shared this, my son has panic attacks, anxiety disorder is what the docs said. He also has clastraphobia, I have asked him many times what are you feeling etc. etc. but he has never been able to express with out feeling embarassed or panicec. When his jaw was wired shut, I was a little very little irrated with him even though i never said it. We spent day and night at that horrible hospital to have his jaw taken care of, only to have him "panic" and cut the wires.
darlynn12 2 years ago
He said he felt he was about to die. I really couldn't understand what he meant, but there was no need asking as his jaw was yet again hanging in three pieces. my chest got really heavy listening to you talk as the tears begain to flow I feel so horrible to think he felt that way. Thank you so much for sharing this Lori, I truly with all of my heart love you for it.
darlynn12 2 years ago
Oh my gosh you don't know how good this made me feel. This is why I went ahead and posted this, so that maybe it would help someone. I don't feel good about making you cry, but I'm glad I could help you understand what your son goes through. There are a lot of good books on panic attacks and they have helped me a lot too. Many big hugs to you and to your son.
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
thank you for sharing this. I too am "one of those" who do not want people seeing me having one. I saw the angst before you left in your vid about missing bella. That was the reason i told you to take one of her toys for comfort... wondering, did it work? I hope it did... I take meds to control mine.. hugz to you and bella //*u*\\ cecelia
finnjolly 2 years ago
I totally forgot to take something of hers. I had meant to as it was a great suggestion. I had pictures of her on my blackberry though and I would look at those sometimes when I missed her.
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
I know exactly how you feel because i have been there i feel like i am dieing...Honey been there thats exactly how it makes you feel...i am glad you shared this....Big Hugs xoxo Misty aka Mista
mistyneal28 2 years ago
Thanks, it wasn't easy to talk about. The feedback has been really great!
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
My first one was waiting for an AIDS test result when I was 23, you pegged it how it feels for me. I thought my heart was going to explode!
You did GRAEAT at ST, I am so proud of you. I sensed a bit of anxiety but not at the level you are talking about. Truth be told, I had a bit of anxiety myself.
Big Ol Brother Hugs!
1DRock37167 2 years ago
It is such a helpless feeling. It makes me feel like my body and mind are attacking me or something. I dunno how to express it.
BOB hugs right back atcha! MWAH!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
You expressed it beautifully:-)
1DRock37167 2 years ago
Do you realize just how STRONG you really are??
I could listen to this part about you forever...It's very interesting and I sooo appreciate you sharing something so personal.
(think I'm gonna cry again..*sniff!*)
YOU are amazing, Lori!
((Hugs))
~Tammi~
RockyWhyNot 2 years ago
Oh I feel so far from strong! But I really appreciate you saying that, it makes me feel good! It is hard to talk about, just hoping to help someone feel better about themselves like I felt when Jessie talked about it. Thank you so much!
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
I wanted to rate this 5 stars, but since ratings are disabled, I'm doing it here. Panic attacks are so scary. Thank you for being open and honest about your experiences.
goldilocks829 2 years ago
Thank you so much!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
You are great! I am happy that you shared your story because some people may not know what is going on with other people or even themselves. I commend you for being brave! Much Love and Aloha, Jason
P.S. Jessie is amazing!
COOLIKEDATAZIAN 2 years ago
Thanks so much. It isn't easy to talk about, but hoping it will help.
I adore Jessie! :)
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
Bless your heart Lori. You described panic attacks perfectly and it sounds like you really know yourself now, and have come to terms with how the sub-conscious works. Good for you at going to SouthTube! There are so many of us panic survivors out there. .. hugs, Chris
bugsinrug 2 years ago
It is hard to talk about Chris, but it is kind of nice. Makes me feel less alone. I hope it makes others feel that way too!
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago
You do very well with coping Lori, you hide it very well. I was thrilled when Roc offered to travel with me, I was having major anxiety about travelling alone. Not that I was scared, but I was worried I'd screw up in an airport and get stuck there.
yoyomax12 2 years ago
Exactly! I don't fear the flying itself, it is making the connections and getting to my final destination that give me anxiety. Once I'm on the plane I relax...until the next connection, hehe. Traveling alone sucks, but I've done it a lot. Much better with someone. It made me feel good when Jessie talked about it, less alone. So I am hoping this can make someone else feel better.
Hugs!
AmethystButterflyGrl 2 years ago