Even though we have never met, never talked, never laughed together and never comforted each other, I want to say stay strong. I was diagnosed with Major Depression Disorder 13 years ago, and I'm still here. I didn't think I would be. So remember, I give a damn whether you live or die, and I love you.
i am 15 years old... i have had a incredibly crap life...my dad is dead, i also dont live with my mum any more :(....... i cant read or write probably and i got picked on for that... 7 years later im told by the doctor i am manically depressed... waking up with cuts on my arms, i cant sleep coz im scared that ill wake up with cuts i dont eat coz i dont feel the need to.. i cant look at the sky without it being weird. i dont remember anything that i do and i dont really want to live any more :/
I knew a few people like this. Super great people. When they start to follow Jesus and we went to church and youth meetings, i saw how they changed. Fear left them, sometimes depression creeps up, they're not always happy but they have joy, they know everything is okay. We had wonderful people in the youth that did not judge, they just give love. It took them about 3 years to get used to all the new belief things. It was as if I could see how God breaks the claws of satan of from these people.
@RadioactivePoet1 there is no answer,some think we ("the so called sick") should stay away not to hurt anybody, some think we need to ask for help...and we scream inside. I suffer it but also have friends who do too,and it socks not to be available to help them.... sometimes there is nothing you can do
Thank you for your video. I love the words you express about "Love me in my world" because it is exactly how I do not feel at present "Loved and accepted in my world". I feel that I have to constantly explain or say sorry and I am so very tired of it. I have lost all my relationships because of this disconnect and with each loss my loneliness and hopelessness burn deeper. Hang in there, you are not alone, I understand, share your world.
why is life so hard, everywhere i go i get labelled as being emo nobody understands me i feel so lonely i feel nobody sees the box i hide in teachers ask me if im ok i say yes buti just want to scream
i read everyone's comments and I can relate..I'm a 29 year old man who thinks himself as worthless and useless at times...believing the world would be a better place without me. But I don't give up..life is tough but it is also great if we as people just take a step back and sink in its beauty. i understand for some that is difficult but I believe that is the test of our existence. To overcome the obstacles that are thrown at us and the obstacles that we create for ourselves.
I used to be hapy but now the only thing i feel is my Manic Depression which is really tough to beat. Some day tough i will beat you so all hope is not lost .
Its good to have other ppl who feel the way I feel. Im just so tired of being tired. Ive missed out on so much of life because of my depression that sometimes I dont even feel like Im living at all and I just feel dead inside. And that gets very lonely.
@Anaprince i feel like life is passing me by, and i cant catch up because it wont wait for me. none of my friends know about it. they think i'm 'lazy' it makes me so angry like no one believes me
people who dont have a mental illness cant understand what its like to have one but those that do find it easier to relate to people and are much more empathic so while it sucks to have bipolar disorder (I have type 2) you're still in some ways a better person and more human because of it.
I have a bipolar disorder. I wouldn't say that your damaged. This feeds the depression. I would say that bipolar is a issue of taking in too much information or taking life too seriously. Different thinkers, people on the social fringe can't relate too well to most people. I know I don't. The cure, who knows the cure but I listen to the cure ( the band). I just diagnose myself human with a highly sensitive and excitable nature.
I think I have commented on this before. You did an awesome job, from one bipolar to another. My family has never understood ... they never will so I stopped trying to tell them. I don't care what they think anymore.
love is a weakness like any other emotion. emotions are illogical. but unfortunately we have to put up with them which is not easy for some people....people like me
Maybe this will be the message that will get through to my loved ones. Thank you for the lovely video and the accompanying explanation. May your prayers be answered.
Came across this video by accident but glad I watched it..how deeply moving and a real insight into how people with mental health problems are feeling and how their loved ones really should reach out to them however hard it can be. I think most of us know at least one person with MH problems so this is a wonderfully moving post, thank you.
Most, unfortunately, think it is a serious weakness in someone that they will never recover from? They, family as well, shy away unable to understand - sometime unwilling to understand - the two very different worlds that we are living in..
its slowley getting better i should be ok in a couple of weeks if nothing changes for the worse
ive found put that (i duno if it will work for other ppl) ive been helpin this person who is goin through nrly the exact same thing as me and its made me feel better and less depressed
@MySouthernHeart jesus i havnt been on this account for a while O.O, and dont worry mate everything turns out for the better sooner or later trust me ;)
these comments alone show that you are not alone in this life...noone has to be alone...i use to be but 5 months ago things changed and i'm slowly drifting away from my depressed mind...though i go back sometimes..it is never for long..you dont have to be alone..i know it's hard..but do not make the mistake i almost did..remmber where there r others you are never alone..if you look with an open mind you can see there are more people around with the same thoughts as you..embrace eachother's life
yhea death and suicide is part of my everyday mess of ideas and random thoughts of sadness that my mania drops me in. hells seems like a comfort because living behind these eyes sure makes u wanna die everyday x10 . you know it turns into a morbid comfort for some reason to wanna die. the walls in my room really give me great company even somewhat of attention.
What you need to stop it is medication and counseling. I'm a Christian, and I believe in prayer, but I also believe God gave doctors the ability to find medications that will help. Prayer is not enough without action. Do what's best for yourself. I know how scary it is. I have schizoaffective disorder- bipolar type.
OMG. Been there, done that. This is one of the most incredible pieces I have seen on the subject of depression. Thank you for the beautiful, eloquent way in which you describe our disease. I hope you will check out my little clip called "h e a l i n g".
my girlfriend and i have both had terrible head injuries and i had trauma before or early after i was born. through our love for each other, we lost each other in some problem, we have both talked to psychologists. Her's said it might be bipolar, mine is going farther into it, and might even be schizophrenia. she is everything to me. i suffer everyday terribly, and she is getting different personalities like i do, and has lost her love for me almost completely. i just want her to be happy again.
I have felt dark moments...I do not share your disorder... I will not share in pain, but I will try my best to show others love and share in happiness when they and I are able... Much Love!!! ;)
I feel your pain and I know the dark corners that you hide in. For so long noone has understood it or wanted to talk about it. I commend you for telling the truth. The more we talk to people about it, the more lives we save. Thank you from my heart.
Poignant as usual Deedra. I want you to know that I would be there for you if I could. I would visit you if I could, and I wouldn't shy away regardless of what world you inhabit.
I know from dealing with my own disorder some of what you are going through, especially the depression, loneliness, and isolation.. I wish I could say more, and do more for you.
This is both beautiful and heartbreaking. You are so artistic. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make your pain go away forever. ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))
Even though we have never met, never talked, never laughed together and never comforted each other, I want to say stay strong. I was diagnosed with Major Depression Disorder 13 years ago, and I'm still here. I didn't think I would be. So remember, I give a damn whether you live or die, and I love you.
rolanddarktower1 2 weeks ago in playlist complexity
this is absolutely amazng!!! thank you for sharing
hizsunshine01 1 month ago
Maria? Was that the one woman who gave birth to a baby without having sex??
chiangmai700 1 month ago
know that somebody is always loving U!!!!!! Dont forget!!!
youtub23410 3 months ago
We need to end the stigma, mental health does matter.
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i am 15 years old... i have had a incredibly crap life...my dad is dead, i also dont live with my mum any more :(....... i cant read or write probably and i got picked on for that... 7 years later im told by the doctor i am manically depressed... waking up with cuts on my arms, i cant sleep coz im scared that ill wake up with cuts i dont eat coz i dont feel the need to.. i cant look at the sky without it being weird. i dont remember anything that i do and i dont really want to live any more :/
kaulitz885 5 months ago
You have made a very nice video...I wish you all the best
ElLuz6 6 months ago
I feel I must cut to feel happiness. I am so alone. I am so sad. Please help me.
FourCornersOfReality 6 months ago
I knew a few people like this. Super great people. When they start to follow Jesus and we went to church and youth meetings, i saw how they changed. Fear left them, sometimes depression creeps up, they're not always happy but they have joy, they know everything is okay. We had wonderful people in the youth that did not judge, they just give love. It took them about 3 years to get used to all the new belief things. It was as if I could see how God breaks the claws of satan of from these people.
GodlyDinamix 8 months ago
@RadioactivePoet1 there is no answer,some think we ("the so called sick") should stay away not to hurt anybody, some think we need to ask for help...and we scream inside. I suffer it but also have friends who do too,and it socks not to be available to help them.... sometimes there is nothing you can do
MicaelaLelli 10 months ago
Thank you for your video. I love the words you express about "Love me in my world" because it is exactly how I do not feel at present "Loved and accepted in my world". I feel that I have to constantly explain or say sorry and I am so very tired of it. I have lost all my relationships because of this disconnect and with each loss my loneliness and hopelessness burn deeper. Hang in there, you are not alone, I understand, share your world.
LaMarchesa2010 11 months ago
why is life so hard, everywhere i go i get labelled as being emo nobody understands me i feel so lonely i feel nobody sees the box i hide in teachers ask me if im ok i say yes buti just want to scream
111lonelygirl 1 year ago
i read everyone's comments and I can relate..I'm a 29 year old man who thinks himself as worthless and useless at times...believing the world would be a better place without me. But I don't give up..life is tough but it is also great if we as people just take a step back and sink in its beauty. i understand for some that is difficult but I believe that is the test of our existence. To overcome the obstacles that are thrown at us and the obstacles that we create for ourselves.
defroach 1 year ago
I used to be hapy but now the only thing i feel is my Manic Depression which is really tough to beat. Some day tough i will beat you so all hope is not lost .
brandoncipelle 1 year ago
i am bipolar too T.T cry cry
sometime i cut myself and commit suicide just because i feel lonely and unwanted.
jomjedai 1 year ago
Makes me think of the hitman series
Pwnzarr 1 year ago
Thanks for putting this together.
RacerE7773 1 year ago
Its good to have other ppl who feel the way I feel. Im just so tired of being tired. Ive missed out on so much of life because of my depression that sometimes I dont even feel like Im living at all and I just feel dead inside. And that gets very lonely.
Anaprince 2 years ago 11
@Anaprince I know exactly how you feel. I'm with you.
RacerE7773 1 year ago
@Anaprince i feel like life is passing me by, and i cant catch up because it wont wait for me. none of my friends know about it. they think i'm 'lazy' it makes me so angry like no one believes me
daisypoojo100 1 year ago
people who dont have a mental illness cant understand what its like to have one but those that do find it easier to relate to people and are much more empathic so while it sucks to have bipolar disorder (I have type 2) you're still in some ways a better person and more human because of it.
unrulyierulli1 2 years ago 3
I have a bipolar disorder. I wouldn't say that your damaged. This feeds the depression. I would say that bipolar is a issue of taking in too much information or taking life too seriously. Different thinkers, people on the social fringe can't relate too well to most people. I know I don't. The cure, who knows the cure but I listen to the cure ( the band). I just diagnose myself human with a highly sensitive and excitable nature.
muzeam 2 years ago
I think I have commented on this before. You did an awesome job, from one bipolar to another. My family has never understood ... they never will so I stopped trying to tell them. I don't care what they think anymore.
muse54 2 years ago
yeah im in the same boat. people who dont have it will never understand it and us that do well im hear if anyone wants to vent.
ravenkenshin18 2 years ago 3
Love is likely the best medicine but also knows no bounds! Nicely done video, can't say I agree with everything though, seems I rarely do =)
Left my personal & professional opinions & comments for BPD on LifeStarMedics video.
JamDaddyJoe 2 years ago
Check that, Lifestarmedic1
JamDaddyJoe 2 years ago
love is a weakness like any other emotion. emotions are illogical. but unfortunately we have to put up with them which is not easy for some people....people like me
EmiN3ntFaT3 2 years ago
they will never understand.
IKilledLauraPalmer 2 years ago
Maybe this will be the message that will get through to my loved ones. Thank you for the lovely video and the accompanying explanation. May your prayers be answered.
dihicobra 2 years ago
OH MY GOSH that was so incredibly beautiful, thank you for making or uploading it for us!
Bruce00j,
I lost the love of my daughter - she wrote me the most scathing email you could imagine.
My email to her to apologize for all the hurt her over the years (I was misdiagnosed for 45 yrs)....
AND, the love of my life couldn't take anymore, & left me September 23rd, last year.
I had a 72 hr hold on me, once I was out of the er, anyway. The good part is, I had an awesome week of restful sleep.
sigh
Research0digo 2 years ago 3
Came across this video by accident but glad I watched it..how deeply moving and a real insight into how people with mental health problems are feeling and how their loved ones really should reach out to them however hard it can be. I think most of us know at least one person with MH problems so this is a wonderfully moving post, thank you.
nickymace 2 years ago
Wow...this gave me goose bumps! Good video!
TheNielsenFamily 3 years ago
Powerful video--thanks!!
icegirl152 3 years ago 2
Most, unfortunately, think it is a serious weakness in someone that they will never recover from? They, family as well, shy away unable to understand - sometime unwilling to understand - the two very different worlds that we are living in..
avonrangemaster 3 years ago 2
ive got major depresion it rly sux and some ppl think im fakein it to make ppl feel sorry for me
the only things i ever think about is my ex, suiced, lonleynes and uselesness
and im in my gcse years at skwl now and its just makin things worse:(
bruce00j 3 years ago 8
I'm sorry that you are going through a bad time right now. I hope that things will get better for you soon.
bipolarsmith 3 years ago 2
its slowley getting better i should be ok in a couple of weeks if nothing changes for the worse
ive found put that (i duno if it will work for other ppl) ive been helpin this person who is goin through nrly the exact same thing as me and its made me feel better and less depressed
bruce00j 3 years ago
@bruce00j buddy Thats all I think about to it fucking sucks....
MySouthernHeart 5 months ago
@MySouthernHeart jesus i havnt been on this account for a while O.O, and dont worry mate everything turns out for the better sooner or later trust me ;)
bruce00j 3 months ago
these comments alone show that you are not alone in this life...noone has to be alone...i use to be but 5 months ago things changed and i'm slowly drifting away from my depressed mind...though i go back sometimes..it is never for long..you dont have to be alone..i know it's hard..but do not make the mistake i almost did..remmber where there r others you are never alone..if you look with an open mind you can see there are more people around with the same thoughts as you..embrace eachother's life
SythKohore 3 years ago 2
yhea death and suicide is part of my everyday mess of ideas and random thoughts of sadness that my mania drops me in. hells seems like a comfort because living behind these eyes sure makes u wanna die everyday x10 . you know it turns into a morbid comfort for some reason to wanna die. the walls in my room really give me great company even somewhat of attention.
colombian1987 3 years ago
I am sorry that you are feeling this way right now. I hope that it will all pass soon and you will be happy again.
bipolarsmith 3 years ago
Heh. My parents dont care.
Im bi polar 2
and have manic depression
TokyoInvasion 3 years ago
Thank you. I am going through the depression part now. I am crying now because someone out there understands what it is like
WayDownUnder57 3 years ago
5 stars this video is so true, you cannot fight it with your will power. good job.
bminternet43 3 years ago
This is one you had sent to me...I forwarded it my mom and sister so they would try and understand. Not sure whether they did or not, but I tried.
jnweeks 3 years ago
well not ALL of them but most ='( what should I do?
ILovesMcr 3 years ago
You should talk to your parents about this. Maybe even see a psychiatrist.
bipolarsmith 3 years ago
ty, thnx 4 advice is good to kno that other people have the same problem, thanks so much
ILovesMcr 3 years ago
I have all the symptoms at the end :( im only 14 is that possible? how do you stop it? :'(
ILovesMcr 3 years ago
What you need to stop it is medication and counseling. I'm a Christian, and I believe in prayer, but I also believe God gave doctors the ability to find medications that will help. Prayer is not enough without action. Do what's best for yourself. I know how scary it is. I have schizoaffective disorder- bipolar type.
atrublazer 3 years ago
OMG. Been there, done that. This is one of the most incredible pieces I have seen on the subject of depression. Thank you for the beautiful, eloquent way in which you describe our disease. I hope you will check out my little clip called "h e a l i n g".
gracefullj 3 years ago
My heart goes out to you both. I hope you both find peace and happiness.
bipolarsmith 3 years ago
my girlfriend and i have both had terrible head injuries and i had trauma before or early after i was born. through our love for each other, we lost each other in some problem, we have both talked to psychologists. Her's said it might be bipolar, mine is going farther into it, and might even be schizophrenia. she is everything to me. i suffer everyday terribly, and she is getting different personalities like i do, and has lost her love for me almost completely. i just want her to be happy again.
maniabeans156 3 years ago
Great moving video,you are so talented,keep well.
bluenose40 3 years ago
I have felt dark moments...I do not share your disorder... I will not share in pain, but I will try my best to show others love and share in happiness when they and I are able... Much Love!!! ;)
enlightenment4me 3 years ago
I feel your pain and I know the dark corners that you hide in. For so long noone has understood it or wanted to talk about it. I commend you for telling the truth. The more we talk to people about it, the more lives we save. Thank you from my heart.
mstarmantle 3 years ago
Thank you.
bipolarsmith 3 years ago
Poignant as usual Deedra. I want you to know that I would be there for you if I could. I would visit you if I could, and I wouldn't shy away regardless of what world you inhabit.
I know from dealing with my own disorder some of what you are going through, especially the depression, loneliness, and isolation.. I wish I could say more, and do more for you.
noesis48 3 years ago
Thank you.
bipolarsmith 3 years ago
You are very welcome!
bipolarsmith 3 years ago
This is a wonderful video... hauntingly beautiful. It does a terrific job of capturing the mood of bipolar disorder.
FundamentallyFlawed 3 years ago
Thank you for this very profound video and for bringing your world to me. Thank you for showing me your pain. You're in my heart.
Macmadgram 3 years ago
This is both beautiful and heartbreaking. You are so artistic. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make your pain go away forever. ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))
shellknob 3 years ago