really raw thoughts.

[JrmOwns]

Your face has narrowed out alot compared to your videos from Feb. 08. You look wayyy more masculine bro; it's awesome.

I feel you about that whole "gay people thing" too; it's a pain in the ass. Don't trip dude, not everyone can understand how us transguys can be so unsatisfied or unhappy with our natural bodies. You get it and that's all that really counts anyways.

[CVenewhaa]

this was amazing. i feel the same way now.

im a senior in high school and have never met anyone like me except my cousin, but vids like these really reach out.

thanks for it

[agnostichaos]

#1 you're adorable

#2 i completely 100% get it. i always felt like the boy of the girls.....even though i always was comfortable being around girls. still do. a lot of ftm's would hate me for saying it but i still sometimes just think of myself as the boy lesbian.

[christov70]

oh man i know EXACTLY what you mean !!!!

thanks for this.

christov

[nickrezz]

thanks for watching!

[KrisES46]

I definitely experienced myself almost identically to what you are describing in this video....thanks for sharing this. What a relief to hear!

[supershrub]

I so agree. Thank you for voicing it.

[laydown]

oh yeah, "different category" is right- and still is for me to some extent. whether it was as a sidekick or a wierdo (affectionately, of course) or something else, I always felt that my female friends understood me as something different. and in the relative freedom of childhood i had a strong sense of self, especially with a tomboy identity- i felt almost favored by society at times. it is really shameful that the flip side (sissy or girly identity for "boys") is so punished.

[Shannon0805]

Hey man thanks for Sharing and I truly feel ya!! I just knew I was "Different" well take care and your lookin awesome! :) I thought I was a butch but felt Male all the way!! Peace

[charlesasher]

nick, you look great! i totally get what you mean about seeing "feminine" pictures of yourself but still seeing the male self.

i'll be in sf tomorrow through december 5th, so i'd love to see you!

[nickrezz]

hommie, where you been yo? let's chillllll.

[33Aydin]

First, you are looking amazing. Super handsome! Second, I am definitely coming back to SF. I just left Charlie a comment about SF next week. If it works out, maybe we all get together? Regarding this video I totally get what you are saying. I feel as if I experienced myself in much the same way.

[charlesasher]

I didn't see the comment (weird), but I'd love to get together with you both!

[You2Lew]

ur in san fran now...awesome...pride next year.!!!! lol

[RebShai]

You are awesome! :)

[kadeclark]

nick-

i totally feel you man.

i lived as a lesbian for a long time before i began transition, and i always thought i was just in a different category.

looking back its still kind of surreal.

[nickrezz]

hey kade,

i should have responded way back when this was, but thank you for the validation.

i hope you're doing well, buddy.

[rockerdood74]

I can totally relate to what you are saying as well. Thank you for posting this video!

[transcenderJR]

I know exactly what you mean about being another entity.