I've been watching every one of ur videos and I'll watch all of them!!! u r my hero! I hace an anxiety disorder and a panic disorder too, I've developed agoraphobia too and I know exactly how u feel, and listening to u really calms me down
again thanks for making these videos it takes a lot of courage...i know how helpless it feels, being agoraphobic myself i know that anything anyone says wont make this disorder better...just know you arent alone in this struggle friend
aw, it's ok, hopefully your doing alright now days, it sucks living the way we ' agoraphobics ' live, & your video wouldn't go viral because no one wants to make fun of someone with a serious condition, cheer up friend :)
I hope you get feeling better, love. Things get better, the sunshine will keep shining and you need to keep smiling so you can help everyone with this phobia.
(I don't have this phobia, I have another but I still find this inspirational. Thank you.)
I love all your videos and I truly understand exactly how you feel, being house bound, the lack of education on this and everything you say makes sense, is inspirational and makes me feel that I'm not just some lone freak, that others, real people are dealing with it too and that is very comforting.
Almost made me cry but the other posters who commented were right, your a very brave guy, I wish you could make a doco on this, it might open some peoples eyes to what is a near ignored problem.
Its hard for the other party in a relationship to understand truly what we go through with this condition. So many days I feel lonely, afraid, and unsure. I'm here if you ever need a friend. Marie~
THE SAME THING HAPPEN TO ME CAUSE OF THIS SELFISH CONDITON, I WAS GOING TO MOVE TO SAN FRANCISCO, BUT IT WAS TOO MUCH FOR ME AND I WASNT READY TO BE IN A BUSY CITY LIKE THAT. SO HE LEFT FIRST I WAS GOING TO GO AFTER BUT MY ANXIETY BECAME WORSE AND SO HE DECIDED TO END IT. I HAVE LOST MANY OPORTUNITIES CAUSE OF THIS CONDITION. I HATE IT
gonna just book myself into an agoraphobia clinic somewhere away from home, as last time having to do work training in London for a fortnight was the only thing that got me out of it and confident enough to go outside. I really feel for you with this video though, I think my biggest fear is losing my current partner due to my issues. I know it's hard for them as simple everyday circumstances that they wouldn't think twice about seem completely out of the question to us. Glad yours is ok now :)
This made me tear up. I really admire all of your videos. You're inspiring the way you will actually tell the world how it's really like to go through this. I'm working on a novel about my life and agoraphobia/anxiety/panic attack, but I don't know if I'll have the guts to share it to everyone.
Such a cute/sad video. Good you did not remove it. Good you guys got back together and I hope you're happy for many years to come. And hey! 33 is NOT old in the gay world :)
spot on with the start over part, i can relate... im not gay but i know what that feels like and man it took me a long long time to get over it... but when you do get over it the surprising thing is you realize you are better off without them (even if it doesnt feel like that now) they never deserve you if they dont stick like glue
So you're back together, I really hope you're doing great, at least the "great" in how we feel mostly. Anyway, thanks for sharing your feelings and stories on your blog,
Aww i Happy ending! I was sad to see u all upset here so im glad i read the followup comments! Hope u are happy and staying positive.. I have a couple of questions i never had the urge to ask anyone until now because it didn't dawn on me but i stopped going out as much lately and i can't really pinpoint the cause but i realised its a fear of running into an uncomfortable situation, and I don't let it run my life, but it is something i think about constantly, . I am scared it would get worse...
Thank you for sharing. I am in utter fear because my 6.5 year relationship with my partner is progressively getting worse. I have Agoraphobia with Panice Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, and I am a recovering Alcoholic. I don't know what to do anymore. I go to counseling 3 times/week and I am on several medications, but I still feel like I am not improving. I am hating myself right now because I want to be able to do things with him, but I can't right yet.
I know this was a while back now, but I know that being agoraphobic and maintaining relationships and friendships is a particularly difficult thing, but keep focussed on the positive. Good luck!
this video really spoke to me, I cried watching this because I know how you feel I am almost 19 and I have suffered from agoraphobia since I was 15. Hearing someone going through the same thing as me help thank you maybe one day I will be brave enough to make my own video. I really admire you for being brave enough to speak out.
I know this is old, but I've just found your channel. I'm glad you left this up. I know these days. We all do. I've had a couple this month myself, but like you/we do most times, I didn't share/blog about them. Once again you are more brave then me in showing your "human-ness." And in doing so, you/we help others know it's okay to Be Human.
I have always found you're videos comforting, knowing that I'm not alone with my agoraphobia. I,ve developed stupid little coping techniques ( like having my spouse do the grocery shopping, Not getting my hair cut, etc. ) Going to my psychiatrist is about all I,m capable of doing right now. Just wanted to let you know I appreciate your videos. Beat wishes to you.
I'm new to youtube so I don't know how long ago this video was made or if I can even tell but I just wanted to say I'm very sorry. I'm married and can't imagine my husband leaving me. I really hope you are a lot better now and that you have some friends and someone to take you where you need to go. You're a very smart, caring, handsome guy and you deserve someone who will treat you well.
all i can say after watching this is.. i realize u have are very strong and brave ! u really are jus that unfortunately some things in life kept ur emotions inconsistent.... but look u still did it !! u confess to us.. if u can..use ur determination ... will power ... bravery to overcome agoraphobia.. i know its easy to say but try !! try ur very best.. keep pushing urself to the limits... never stop unless u really are at ur limits .. u can do it... im here fighting too.. so gogogog !!!
This pisses me up! Why don't people understand its true nature!? I mean that nature can keep the symptoms down even if it cannot cure it. This is my experience! Have you ever made it clear at the beginning of your relationship that you had this terrible condition? I too live on small income here in Sweden since I never worked with anything and this pisses me off. Being retired this early in life is not good at all when you surely get handicapped by it. You cannot by a house alone etc.
Man, I am so sorry you lost someone important to you.
I've been phobic for years and so many friends and family members have dropped out of my life.....I know what you were feeling ( I see your video was posted some time ago) . I sincerely hope that you are in a stronger place now BUT if you are not... just be gentle with yourself.... the heart heals at its own pace.
i didnt know what agoraphobia was- so i looked it up- and i so have this phobia! Didnt know there was a name for it! lol that might sound really dumb but i really didnt know what it ment till now. I know what its like and It really sucks! My old counselor taught me alot of cognitive therapy- it really does help.
Omg I wish I could give you a hug. Please don't take down this video, your bravery, warm heart and openess to share this is so amazing! I'm tearing up watching. You are not alone. I know how it feels too.
1. Learn and master deep relaxation by making a tape in your own voice, taking 3 deep breaths from the abdomen and relaxation head to toe. Put positive affirmations at end of tape.
3. When catastrophic thoughts come up change them to realistic thoughts, not positive thinking, but realistic thoughts.
4. Expose yourself to your fears.
5. Keep a journal and self-analyze
If you can find a therapist who has been through this and was cured or mostly cured, utilize them. Ask questions. Take notes
awwe *hugs* im sorry for your pain. I dont have that many 'real' friends either anymore. but i can be a real good friend online if you need one. let me know :-)
Devastating to watch. I feel your pain! I went through so much of this when I was in my mid twenties. Brought back many memories. You in my thoughts! You don't know me, but you do have at least one friend here! :-)
Don't worry and try to keep calm. You are a very nice guy and everything is going to be just fine with you! Be a man and I'm sure you will find a new relatonship, a better one this time. Things like these did happen to me more than once as well but I managed to survive.
good luck to you. i know during times like these, words of encouragement and hope from others do not seem all too realistic right now. My relationship recently ended and it's getting less difficult to deal with every day, but still quite hard. sometimes it's good to know that you're not completely alone. Take care
this too shall pass. talk about it as much as you can. write about it as much as you can. work it out as unbiasedly in your own mind as you can. then let it go. realize that we all view others and the world uniquely. there is not one reality... there are over 6 billion realities; a different universe in each one of us. unfortunately, universes are created to collide with each other and within themselves.
live, love and learn. you'll be fine. good luck sweetie!
hang in there guy, i know exactly how you feel, six months ago my girlfriend and i broke up, and my anxiety was a great contributor to the end of it. Its so hard when you have anxiety disorders, and i wish you the best of luck, and keep your head up...
I've been watching every one of ur videos and I'll watch all of them!!! u r my hero! I hace an anxiety disorder and a panic disorder too, I've developed agoraphobia too and I know exactly how u feel, and listening to u really calms me down
Elfavzla 3 weeks ago in playlist Uploaded videos
again thanks for making these videos it takes a lot of courage...i know how helpless it feels, being agoraphobic myself i know that anything anyone says wont make this disorder better...just know you arent alone in this struggle friend
tonyyy789 2 months ago
I suffer from that too :/
TheGalaxyStars 3 months ago
aw, it's ok, hopefully your doing alright now days, it sucks living the way we ' agoraphobics ' live, & your video wouldn't go viral because no one wants to make fun of someone with a serious condition, cheer up friend :)
MikerzJunior 6 months ago
You're very inspirational <3
I hope you get feeling better, love. Things get better, the sunshine will keep shining and you need to keep smiling so you can help everyone with this phobia.
(I don't have this phobia, I have another but I still find this inspirational. Thank you.)
GraceyDavey 6 months ago
I love all your videos and I truly understand exactly how you feel, being house bound, the lack of education on this and everything you say makes sense, is inspirational and makes me feel that I'm not just some lone freak, that others, real people are dealing with it too and that is very comforting.
Almost made me cry but the other posters who commented were right, your a very brave guy, I wish you could make a doco on this, it might open some peoples eyes to what is a near ignored problem.
GirlInterupted28 6 months ago
Its hard for the other party in a relationship to understand truly what we go through with this condition. So many days I feel lonely, afraid, and unsure. I'm here if you ever need a friend. Marie~
signaturew 9 months ago
Man, thats some raw ass emotion! Mucho Cajones for posting that one!
ruiner79 9 months ago
my sister saw this video and she showed it to me and i have been following your videos from a very long time ago you have helped me so much.
microphone53 11 months ago
You have been so much help to me... Don't be sad u r a strong man!!
MsInvincible83 11 months ago
I totaly understand you! If you feel the need to talk contact me....
bulk74 1 year ago
THE SAME THING HAPPEN TO ME CAUSE OF THIS SELFISH CONDITON, I WAS GOING TO MOVE TO SAN FRANCISCO, BUT IT WAS TOO MUCH FOR ME AND I WASNT READY TO BE IN A BUSY CITY LIKE THAT. SO HE LEFT FIRST I WAS GOING TO GO AFTER BUT MY ANXIETY BECAME WORSE AND SO HE DECIDED TO END IT. I HAVE LOST MANY OPORTUNITIES CAUSE OF THIS CONDITION. I HATE IT
carlos25az 1 year ago
gonna just book myself into an agoraphobia clinic somewhere away from home, as last time having to do work training in London for a fortnight was the only thing that got me out of it and confident enough to go outside. I really feel for you with this video though, I think my biggest fear is losing my current partner due to my issues. I know it's hard for them as simple everyday circumstances that they wouldn't think twice about seem completely out of the question to us. Glad yours is ok now :)
0gami1tto 1 year ago
This made me tear up. I really admire all of your videos. You're inspiring the way you will actually tell the world how it's really like to go through this. I'm working on a novel about my life and agoraphobia/anxiety/panic attack, but I don't know if I'll have the guts to share it to everyone.
I'm glad you two got back together though :)
TipTheBootyOnDuty 1 year ago
This is called being real. It takes a LOT OF GUTS to be able to make a video such as this. You're a brave guy.
tmleafs75 1 year ago
Such a cute/sad video. Good you did not remove it. Good you guys got back together and I hope you're happy for many years to come. And hey! 33 is NOT old in the gay world :)
outterspaces 1 year ago
spot on with the start over part, i can relate... im not gay but i know what that feels like and man it took me a long long time to get over it... but when you do get over it the surprising thing is you realize you are better off without them (even if it doesnt feel like that now) they never deserve you if they dont stick like glue
themaniusedtob 1 year ago
Sorry, I didn't read the previous comments.
So you're back together, I really hope you're doing great, at least the "great" in how we feel mostly. Anyway, thanks for sharing your feelings and stories on your blog,
I hope I was man enough to do this too.
Anyway, all the best man.
WimDeVolder 1 year ago
Aww i Happy ending! I was sad to see u all upset here so im glad i read the followup comments! Hope u are happy and staying positive.. I have a couple of questions i never had the urge to ask anyone until now because it didn't dawn on me but i stopped going out as much lately and i can't really pinpoint the cause but i realised its a fear of running into an uncomfortable situation, and I don't let it run my life, but it is something i think about constantly, . I am scared it would get worse...
Locdown777 1 year ago
Thank you for sharing. I am in utter fear because my 6.5 year relationship with my partner is progressively getting worse. I have Agoraphobia with Panice Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, and I am a recovering Alcoholic. I don't know what to do anymore. I go to counseling 3 times/week and I am on several medications, but I still feel like I am not improving. I am hating myself right now because I want to be able to do things with him, but I can't right yet.
derivxinteg314 1 year ago
I know this was a while back now, but I know that being agoraphobic and maintaining relationships and friendships is a particularly difficult thing, but keep focussed on the positive. Good luck!
rainskater 1 year ago
@rainskater Thanks, thankfully 9 months later we got back together.
silentjealousy77 1 year ago
I'm really sorry for your loss. I know this video is old so I hope your doing better now. Again thank you so much for these videos.
inglettservices 1 year ago
this video really spoke to me, I cried watching this because I know how you feel I am almost 19 and I have suffered from agoraphobia since I was 15. Hearing someone going through the same thing as me help thank you maybe one day I will be brave enough to make my own video. I really admire you for being brave enough to speak out.
emziiepop1991 1 year ago
Hi Bri,
I know this is old, but I've just found your channel. I'm glad you left this up. I know these days. We all do. I've had a couple this month myself, but like you/we do most times, I didn't share/blog about them. Once again you are more brave then me in showing your "human-ness." And in doing so, you/we help others know it's okay to Be Human.
Love you. :-)
LoveSpeakes 2 years ago
I have always found you're videos comforting, knowing that I'm not alone with my agoraphobia. I,ve developed stupid little coping techniques ( like having my spouse do the grocery shopping, Not getting my hair cut, etc. ) Going to my psychiatrist is about all I,m capable of doing right now. Just wanted to let you know I appreciate your videos. Beat wishes to you.
luv2knit61 2 years ago
I'm new to youtube so I don't know how long ago this video was made or if I can even tell but I just wanted to say I'm very sorry. I'm married and can't imagine my husband leaving me. I really hope you are a lot better now and that you have some friends and someone to take you where you need to go. You're a very smart, caring, handsome guy and you deserve someone who will treat you well.
rhyden74 2 years ago
all i can say after watching this is.. i realize u have are very strong and brave ! u really are jus that unfortunately some things in life kept ur emotions inconsistent.... but look u still did it !! u confess to us.. if u can..use ur determination ... will power ... bravery to overcome agoraphobia.. i know its easy to say but try !! try ur very best.. keep pushing urself to the limits... never stop unless u really are at ur limits .. u can do it... im here fighting too.. so gogogog !!!
indolentnature 2 years ago
you are do strong. stronger then you know
Gbreezy26 2 years ago
This pisses me up! Why don't people understand its true nature!? I mean that nature can keep the symptoms down even if it cannot cure it. This is my experience! Have you ever made it clear at the beginning of your relationship that you had this terrible condition? I too live on small income here in Sweden since I never worked with anything and this pisses me off. Being retired this early in life is not good at all when you surely get handicapped by it. You cannot by a house alone etc.
ShahMashya 2 years ago
Man, I am so sorry you lost someone important to you.
I've been phobic for years and so many friends and family members have dropped out of my life.....I know what you were feeling ( I see your video was posted some time ago) . I sincerely hope that you are in a stronger place now BUT if you are not... just be gentle with yourself.... the heart heals at its own pace.
55luna 2 years ago
i didnt know what agoraphobia was- so i looked it up- and i so have this phobia! Didnt know there was a name for it! lol that might sound really dumb but i really didnt know what it ment till now. I know what its like and It really sucks! My old counselor taught me alot of cognitive therapy- it really does help.
Rach113 3 years ago
Omg I wish I could give you a hug. Please don't take down this video, your bravery, warm heart and openess to share this is so amazing! I'm tearing up watching. You are not alone. I know how it feels too.
yumyumbubbletime 3 years ago
1. Learn and master deep relaxation by making a tape in your own voice, taking 3 deep breaths from the abdomen and relaxation head to toe. Put positive affirmations at end of tape.
3. When catastrophic thoughts come up change them to realistic thoughts, not positive thinking, but realistic thoughts.
4. Expose yourself to your fears.
5. Keep a journal and self-analyze
If you can find a therapist who has been through this and was cured or mostly cured, utilize them. Ask questions. Take notes
Prettygirl77733 3 years ago
You look so young, and 33 is old? :)
This is going to be a great opportunity to grow. A great journey is ahead.
helmivach 3 years ago
awwe *hugs* im sorry for your pain. I dont have that many 'real' friends either anymore. but i can be a real good friend online if you need one. let me know :-)
1SunKissedAngel 3 years ago
Devastating to watch. I feel your pain! I went through so much of this when I was in my mid twenties. Brought back many memories. You in my thoughts! You don't know me, but you do have at least one friend here! :-)
CheekyTikiMonkey 3 years ago
Its ok, this is life. you will be good,trust me.
AdrianXue 3 years ago
Stay strong. This too, shall pass.
68160 3 years ago
Don't worry and try to keep calm. You are a very nice guy and everything is going to be just fine with you! Be a man and I'm sure you will find a new relatonship, a better one this time. Things like these did happen to me more than once as well but I managed to survive.
Take care, guy!
behaveUA 3 years ago
good luck to you. i know during times like these, words of encouragement and hope from others do not seem all too realistic right now. My relationship recently ended and it's getting less difficult to deal with every day, but still quite hard. sometimes it's good to know that you're not completely alone. Take care
zwalker287 3 years ago
IT WILL PASS. Its another battle in your life that you Overcome.
Best Wishes.
stephen3398 3 years ago
Brian..This is Chris on JTV. E-mail me (I think you should still have it)
fldoughboy72 3 years ago
Live well, laugh often, and love with all of your heart!
videojaxx 3 years ago
Hang in there. You have my blessings!
melancholyguy 3 years ago
You do have a friend. I have the same rotten agoraphobia. I'm 43 and suffered most of my life. Hang in there.
sixstring1965 3 years ago
I can 100% relate to what you're going through (and i have no friends either!), sadly for me, agoraphobia and panic DID ruin my relationship.
beingsarahc 3 years ago
this too shall pass. talk about it as much as you can. write about it as much as you can. work it out as unbiasedly in your own mind as you can. then let it go. realize that we all view others and the world uniquely. there is not one reality... there are over 6 billion realities; a different universe in each one of us. unfortunately, universes are created to collide with each other and within themselves.
live, love and learn. you'll be fine. good luck sweetie!
sllabnkcoc 3 years ago
hang in there guy, i know exactly how you feel, six months ago my girlfriend and i broke up, and my anxiety was a great contributor to the end of it. Its so hard when you have anxiety disorders, and i wish you the best of luck, and keep your head up...
yumniet 3 years ago
I'm glad you made the video. Thank you. We are very similiar in appearance and vulnerability.
kiveat 3 years ago