final days before suicide from PTSD and TBI

[derglegnartertar]

This is not your fault soldier you just need help getting back to a civilian thought process. I hope you didn't really take your own life because you deserve better than that. You are an american hero and deserve the help you need.

[sass225]

one of the hardest things for me to deal with was being 36 and sudenly being told that im obsolete. was verry angry for along time gave 8 years of my life protecting my gov. being willing to kill others so that gov workers stayed alive. being a woldhound protecting the sheep.

going from being authorized to execute with extreme predudice and then being out and not allowed to solve problems that way any more unless you been there you just wont understand but if you have you do

[sass225]

hang in there brother your not alone. I understand you brother got thrown 23ft myself into concreate spent 6 months fighting to put myself back together again. I lost cousin to suicide after he lost foot in afganistian to be a powerful athlete and then not know what to do to loose your wife and the job you love is alot to deal with

[mioumiou25]

Are you still there? This video is from 2009. I hope you are still alive! Keep your head up!

[enough1962]

fk any of you self sentered weak cowards who think this Marine is weak. He is a good man who had o come back to sheeple and cowards who will lie and cheat to get a pay check. we died for you cowards and you think your better. fk you. If we were crazy you all would be dead. he is a good man that has the balls to tell the truth..

[enough1962]

This is his reality. I have ptsd and live with this pain.If you listen to him you can see he has suffered a social death as well. Sociaty reacts from fear of his truth and pain. We view the world in a completly different light than the culture we came back too. Have compation and educate yourself before you call him a baby or weak.

[savemyplaylist]

faggot bitch. Stop whining and man up.

[14ALL41OK]

@savemyplaylist You better pray you are never in his position. It is easy to judge people when you are not in their shoes.

[Seanmurdoch66]

@14ALL41OK I'm glad I'm not going through this.

[fvckndiego]

@savemyplaylist Wow

[SuperLaneproductions]

@savemyplaylist fuck you

[savemyplaylist]

@SuperLaneproductions boo hoo, baby bitch.

[mioumiou25]

@savemyplaylist WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU???? HERE IS A MAN WHO IS TALKING ABOUT HIS PROBLEMS AND YOU HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO AS TO ARGUE WITH SOMEONELSE ON THIS SITE? BEHAVE AND LEAVE!

[sass225]

@savemyplaylist You obviously never served to be trained to kill and put in position to have to do that to save your own lives or thouse of your buddies. they train you how to kill. you train and get a strong powerful body and everythings going good it dont take much to injure you to the point that the government wont let you do what your trained to do anymore and then you dont know what your supposed to do if not be a marine

[savemyplaylist]

@sass225 Kinda hard to take someone serious when they misspell "those" and misuse the proper form of "you're". 1st or 2nd grade?

[mioumiou25]

@savemyplaylist STOP WRITING SHIT!

[stupiddeep]

@NeutralExistence Why aren't you capable of thinking for yourself? You just take whatever you hear as the truth and you don't question anything. Who said anything about him being a mercenary? He fought for his fucking country! He fought so that dickheads like you can come on free sites like these and spread your useless comments and opinions. Why don't you stop taking everything you see on the internet and in the media as fact? Think for yourself and you might not be such an asshole.

[hippyable]

You just touched a part of me that nobody has. I can relate. I used to wonder why I can no longer handle stress and what the hell is wrong with me. The one thing you said here on your video is how I feel. I will leave it at that. It brought tears to my eyes, I am back to just being numb again!

[bamabudweiser]

I got the same kind of problems. Hang in there Bro! We gonna be alright! Someday and somehow. OOHRAH!

[rubynadine1]

this man is opening up here and its clearly painful for him. why does colour matter? or whether or not the war was in vain? the fact is this guy is hurting. hold your head up. you're strong enough to get through what you're going through. we support you

[tulfelhun]

I hope this devil dog didn't -

[joe80dman]

This man wouldn't be feeling the emotional pain he has now if he hadn't been forced overseas to fight an alleged enemy he had no qualms with in the first place. This is sad.

[jtstanely]

@joe80dman

You are right. I feel bad for the solders, but they made the choice to follow unlawful orders. Now they will pay for the rest of their life.

[dqueen40]

Lord help our soldiers, sailors, airmen, and marines as they transition back to what they once called home. As a soldier, I know the pain of waking up to the horror of our new reality. Can't say which is worst... Being awake seeing images of the dead in the faces of strangers as they walk by or begging for the power to will yourself to sleep, but fearing the ghosts that hide right behind your eyes. I'm not angry at those who say such hateful things...

Ironically quoting the commandments when

[UNJUSTIFICATION1]

stupid nigga fighting a white mans war.. u got punked kid.. ur ancestors got punked and now ur punked.. now after u did what they made u do like a little bitch slave , u wanna cry about ur mental health and how u feeling the blues.. well fuck you .

[sensihezi]

@UNJUSTIFICATION1 wow.. mommy or daddy never hugged you too much did they sweetheart? shuuuttt. uppppp.

[UNJUSTIFICATION1]

@sensihezi ... DON'T TRY TO SHUT ME UP BECAUSE I AM SPEAKING THE TRUTH.. NIGGA GOT USED AND ABUSED LIKE A LITTLE SLAVE.. HE SHOULD OF LISTENED TO MALCOLM X.. THIS GOES OUT TO ALL U BLACK PEOPLE ... STOP FIGHTING WHITE MAN'S WARS.... UR A DISGRACE TO BLACK PEOPLE.

[tbhunter129]

@UNJUSTIFICATION1 OMG. shut the hell up. black people have just as much a right to fight for this country as anyone else who lives here. GOD BLESS this man for fighting for his country!! he is one of the many reasons why ANY of us even have the right to use youtube, comment on videos, or even to be on the internet. he is a hero. u can stfu about the "white man's war". this has nothing at ALL to do with race, color, or religion. this has everything to do with fighting for the country you live in.

[UNJUSTIFICATION1]

@tbhunter129 , fighting for the country??? dats the biggest bullshit i have heard so far on youtube.. its more like stealing for the white elite corporatations.. so hence, white man's wars... and also Zionist wars.. so yes, it has everything to do with religion, race, and color.... now this young black man is mentally scared for life, also he will go to straight to hell for the blood that is on his hands of innocent civilians. he lost his peace of mind and afterlife success..

[sarahloveex3]

@UNJUSTIFICATION1 Are you serious? You have to be the most ignorant person I've come across here.It's honestly disgusting that you can sit here and comment this man's video telling him he basically deserved to die for fighting a "white man's war" Perhaps you forgot the race of Abraham Lincoln- YOU should've listened to your history teacher. Educate yourself before you disrespect this man who helped YOU be FREE today.

[NeutralExistence]

@sarahloveex3

While I agree with the majority of your comment, how did this man help anyone's freedoms?

The fallacy that "American" soldiers actually help protect anyone's freedoms is comical at best.

[HUMPTYNUGGET]

@NeutralExistence i served in bosnia and kosovo in 1995 and 2000 respectivly with the british army alongside the vast american military as part of nato , we helped to save thousands of muslims from annihalation from the serbs who raped and pilaged through the balkans , there was no oil interest, we were sent to save lives and to protect thier freedoms that is no fallacy and not comical , so you think that saddam ran a free country or the taliban are happy go lucky hippies.......fuck off !

[NeutralExistence]

@HUMPTYNUGGET

You mean you helped the Muslims commit genocide to the Serbians? Everyone knows its a bad idea to get involved with one side of a civil war involving many sides. The bombing of Kosovo by N.A.T.O. killed hundreds of innocent civilians, and was against the U.N. charter since it was decided upon by the United Nations Security Council.

You can pretend like you were there to save lives if it makes you feel any better, but the fact stands you were a mercenary.

[stupiddeep]

@NeutralExistence Hey so why don't you stop being a fucken asshole to a man or woman who served their country? What the fuck is wrong with you. I don't insult your career and everything you live for. Stop being such a dick on this mans video.

[NeutralExistence]

@stupiddeep

Why don't these men, and women, not participate in the occupation of sovereign nations? Did I force them to work as a mercenary for an oil company, or a nation builder like Halliburton? What is their excuse, were they just "doing their job"? Kinda like the Nazi's? I sure think your foreign torture prisons paint a pretty clear picture of what kind of what kind of "job" you guys are doing over there.

Stop killing innocent people, and occupying sovereign nations.

[Annum2023]

America NEEDs you living and working, right alongside us! We are your brothers and sisters! Don't lose hope; have courage to REACH OUT! We're here, Soldiers and Marines... and we're strong enough to cry, laugh, hope and share your losses and your aspirations with you!! Killing or dying isn't the answer... Faith & Hope will get you through to the other side! REACH OUT!!

[phxhaze707]

Send me a message. Im goin through this same shit man. I'm still tryin to deal with my drinking problem because I dont take any of the meds the VA says I should and if i'm not drunk I'm not sleeping. Stay Strong brother! USMC 0311 3/7

[phxhaze707]

Hey brother, I hope you are doing all right. I was with 3/7 in Iraq. I feel your pain man. Your not alone. Have you tried medical marijuana? Thats what saved my life and I never smoked before the Corps. Semper Fi 05-09

[v8americanpower1]

your symptoms could be related to the concussion you sustained. post concussion syndrome also causes depression and anxiety. it definitely gets better over time even though it may take years, but your brain definitely heals. i wish you the best

[boydazzz]

i graduated from fort benning the week of 9/11 and was in country a month later with the 10th mountain 1/87 infantry and served 2 tours in afghan , my last tour i lost 2 of my buddys on a mission and after getting out in sept 04 i have since lost more then 20 , i totally feel what this guy is saying! but the answer i have found is getting with other vets and struggle together. my buddys were only 18,19 , .

[thickblkpa]

PTSD is very real and disturbing. War leaves physical scars and mental ones too. I wonder if this person still living since This clip was posted in 2009.

[THSurvivalGear]

Brother please message me man! I too am a US Marine and OIF combat vet who suffers with PTSD, everything you said, I have thought at one time or another.... I want you to be able to talk to another Marine who knows what you're going through. I list everything bc of PTSD... Had to stop school, my fiancé, my home, finances... The while deal. If it weren't for my family I'd be another homeless vet.. Don't go at this alone brother... Semper Fidelis.

[Awanixak]

you need to use medical marijuana brother... for real!

[KungFuSnuggles]

Thank you for your service Marine. Once a Marine ALWAYS a Marine. Your family are friendly's. =0) God bless ya!

[adrian6491]

you got my respect 

[suwopinyohood]

damn bro ....watching this is like looking in the mirror....didnt have hope till someone told me about this ptsd program in cali.

[regardingme1]

The govt inserted something in this man that made him a killer. They made him a killer without conscience. This is a known fact. God, this man is in such torture! I hope he is out of pain now. Thanks to the almighty ffreaking Illuminati Satan worhshippers.  They are trying to make us them! I would rather die too!

[truckingman73]

Wow! Untill science and all these other "proffessional" branches accept the fact that there is in fact a real, unseen enemy that we battle in our minds just like the bible says, there will sadly always be situations like this one. May God have mercy on those that have the leverage and "power" to help millions, but choose to obey the unseen evil forces and hide the truth! May his mercy still be upon us all.

[ShinobiKuroiOkami]

basically i should say seek out for help! we who understand you know it´s probably easier and better to leave this world, but before you do that you should go find and kill the real enemy!

hint: US Govenment

[ShinobiKuroiOkami]

u want to kill them bcuz they dont and dont want to undertand u(especially women) and your feeling! bcuz they live in lala land! stay strong

[kampesten]

Im sorry you have to go through this.

[alegoricha]

I am sorry as well. Try Hyberbaric Oxygen Therapy, it sounds dumb, but oxygen is one of the most important nutrients to the brain and when under severe stress your brain becomes damaged (not destroyed), oxygen is the main relaxant of the central nervous system. They have free sessions for veterans (there is a doctor in Louisinana look at Hyperbaric Oxygen Therapy here in Youtube).