These are really lovely pictures. You had the merriest, funniest little face, and it looks as if your childhood was happy and innocent, and I hope it was and that you're still just the same.
i have worked on a lot of the bad things about aspergers syndrome, but i love having it. it makes me who i am. i dont like to think of it as a syndrome. its me. if i didnt have it, i wouldn't be the kind of person everyone wants to know. it has made me more sensitive to peoples feelings, and i can tell when other people have it. i still have times when i hide my eyes from people when they talk to me, but its usually because i feel like they can see how i feel by looking in my eyes.
I don't get on here very much, and haven't looked at my email for a few days. My lack of response is not lack of concern. I'm sure I'm don't understand everything about your condition, but I do understand the the temptations and oppression of the devil. I believe you are experiencing his harrassment, especially with the thoughts of suicide!
Now, I'm learning to trust and wait patiently for His answers. And when I don't get an answer when I expect it, just trust. An answer will come. (part 3)
Phooey with what other people think or say. The one who loves you the most and cares about you more than any other wants you to be happy. He is God, and I hope you find peace in a true relationship with Him. He'll fill the void in your life. I've thought about suicide, but I not only don't want to hurt God, I want to live with His Son someday, following Him around the universe, discovering all the whys and wherefores of everything. (part 2)
I understand depression. Had it off and on all my life. Often life seemed confusing and frustrating (I don't have aspergers or autism). Lately, I've been questioning what I'm supposed to do with my life after some troubling events I've been through recently. I'm 58 and you'd think I had it all figured out by now. But I feel like a kid inside. One thing I do know is life IS worth living. Your life is precious; you should find something to do that's fun and makes you happy. (part 1)
Your comments are great, I really know what you mean. I'm not officially diagnosed with Asperger's (it's documented as "provisional" for now; people seem afraid to pigeon-hole and don't understand the need for a sense of closure on your own mental and physical state...) but I experience all the non-family-associated things you've mentioned here. Thankfully, my mother is a lot like me so she's understanding. The rest of my family seems to think I just need to be pulled out of my shell though...
I don't have poor eye contact, I have NO eye contact. The floor is much more inviting than people's eyeballs...people's eyes creep me out. I don't socialize because it bores me. The thoughts in my own head entertain me...and I'm "normal".
you made it sound a little tragic with the title, there, cos, youre still the same person that you were, arent you? I mean, u could have just put "pics of me when i was little" or something like that, instead of "before being diagnosed with AS". Anyways you seem like a cool person.
For me being the same person I was when I was little, I'd say, in some ways, yes. In others, no. The reason I picked the song "Built this way", is because I sometimes if I'm just built the way I am today, and I thought some of the stuff that was being said in the song, sounds I think, kind of like stuff that people with Asperger's Syndrome might either say, or wonder about themselves. As for my seeming like a cool person, thank you.:)
oh, i see. i hadn't payed much attention to the song so i was like "it all seems pretty normal here"... hehe. But the song def. gives it another meaning. Good video.
..., and 4 some reason my parents didnt pursue the matter further. Still looking back its obvious I had social anxiety disorder. Its gone now but social anxiety disorder is one of the most common mental health issues yet for some reason psychologists jump on the aspergers bandwagon & like to stamp everybody with that disorder.
Dont get me wrong. Aspergers is real. I just think its often considered 4 diagnosis whereas the more likely social anxiety disorder is ignored.
...these thoughts might be about me and might be bad caused me to be very self-conscious and always worried about what others thought. I dont feel this way anymore & am doing a lot better socially.
Anyways in spite of my strong social awareness I was almost diagnosed w/Aspergers back then. The counselor never thought to ask key questions to see if I really fit the criteria & jumped 2 that conclusion solely based on social awkwardness. Still wasnt formally diagnosed as he wasnt a psychiatrist,
Couldn't a person be socially awkward in spite or even because of a strong awareness of social cues & social norms & theory of mind(the awareness that others have their own minds that are distinct and dont necessarily know or feel everything you do)?
As an adolescent I remember always worrying about doing things wrong. My awareness of social norms(esp contradictory ones that often come up between society as a whole & school cliques) & awareness that others had their own thoughts & fear that..
What I dont understand is how can someone who doesn't understand social norms or social skills by anxious or feel awkward in social situations? It would seem like not realizing there are right and wrong ways to interact(or only a theoretical understanding of this with no intuitive gut feeling) and not realizing people's reactions and feelings would make a person fearless in dealing with people altho theyd probably put a lot of ppl off with unintentionally violating social norms.
Difficulty with handwriting and learning how to write, taking some of the things being said literally, and sometimes I'd even have violent tantrums when people were teasing me in a joking way, difficulty making friends, difficulty understanding directions in school work, I also felt uncomfortable being around a whole bunch of people at once, before getting to know everyone.
If I could get rid of my AS, yes. Then I'd have more of a social life. When I see pics of people I went to high school with, all I can think of is how they'd gang up on me, and I know when looking back, that if I didn't say one mean thing about them, or do this to them, we could have avoided any social problems we had in JR high.
If I had the chance I'd say no. I wouldn't be able to connect with my friends who also have AS in the way that I can. And my friends who don't have it have learned to cope with me when I have my more autistic days and help me cope with my disorder.
If I didn't have AS i would not be the person that I am. And everyone I've ever asked has told me that they like me the way I am and could not imagine me in any other way.
you're lucky that your peers help you cope with it. I didn't have that support system when I was still living in Iowa. And my peers there, well, I'd say stuff or do stuff, and not really realize that all I was doing was opening a can of worms with them where they'd gang on me for it. But I was just diagnosed at the time, and was afraid of how people would have reacted if they had known I had AS.
I have Aspergers and I agree 100% that it can be hard to socialise. I found it especially difficult until I was 8, when I was diagnosed. I had to go to a psychyatrist for a while until I learned methods to cope. By then I was 12.
He's terrified of answering the phone, even when he knows it's someone from his immediate family and he's terrified of fixing things up at school, like paying for things and such
I'm from argentina and with my husband we work with kids with asperger.. I love them very very much.. I'm very pride of you!! If all people could see the world like you do.. the world will change...
What a wonderful journey. Dont worry, you are everything you were ment to be. I am a mom with AS and I have a son with it also. Just keep being what I saw in this vidio, and everything will be fine.
:59 hahaha!! cute :)
JazyGirl26 10 months ago
Lovely...
7504Marisa 11 months ago
..Uhm...Y-you look like me.... O_o
xXXREapERCHiLD216XXx 1 year ago
You are beautiful.
MichaelKing 1 year ago
@MichaelKing -hey, thanks.
Christinafan2002 1 year ago
@Christinafan2002
No problem. Keep your eye on the prize and never stray from that. No one burden you, but yourself.
MichaelKing 1 year ago
@MichaelKing
*can
MichaelKing 1 year ago
These are really lovely pictures. You had the merriest, funniest little face, and it looks as if your childhood was happy and innocent, and I hope it was and that you're still just the same.
Ilovecats112233 1 year ago
i have worked on a lot of the bad things about aspergers syndrome, but i love having it. it makes me who i am. i dont like to think of it as a syndrome. its me. if i didnt have it, i wouldn't be the kind of person everyone wants to know. it has made me more sensitive to peoples feelings, and i can tell when other people have it. i still have times when i hide my eyes from people when they talk to me, but its usually because i feel like they can see how i feel by looking in my eyes.
girwaffles2661 1 year ago
Strange, the title, I would see, gives the empression that before you were diagnosed with aspergers, you didn't have it... joke. I have aspergers.
cpmc1 1 year ago
i am just like her i have it to lol and i was 1 1/2 when i was diagnose but i was able to get through it and so will she
16skylarks 1 year ago
i have mild asperges but don't find this offensive at all because when i was 3 the doctor said i have autism and they changed it when i was 6
videogames321 1 year ago
I love this!!!! I have AS too!!!!
Amadeus1066 1 year ago
wonderfull , im going through this with my son .its hard work getting heard.
5myson 1 year ago
Great job on video--thinking come on this blog should seek medical attention-for medications that maybe very helpful..good luck to all
gkingstock 1 year ago
I don't get on here very much, and haven't looked at my email for a few days. My lack of response is not lack of concern. I'm sure I'm don't understand everything about your condition, but I do understand the the temptations and oppression of the devil. I believe you are experiencing his harrassment, especially with the thoughts of suicide!
marilynakamom 2 years ago
Now, I'm learning to trust and wait patiently for His answers. And when I don't get an answer when I expect it, just trust. An answer will come. (part 3)
marilynakamom 2 years ago
Phooey with what other people think or say. The one who loves you the most and cares about you more than any other wants you to be happy. He is God, and I hope you find peace in a true relationship with Him. He'll fill the void in your life. I've thought about suicide, but I not only don't want to hurt God, I want to live with His Son someday, following Him around the universe, discovering all the whys and wherefores of everything. (part 2)
marilynakamom 2 years ago
@marilynakamom wherefore actually means why.
LandTravelz 1 year ago
I understand depression. Had it off and on all my life. Often life seemed confusing and frustrating (I don't have aspergers or autism). Lately, I've been questioning what I'm supposed to do with my life after some troubling events I've been through recently. I'm 58 and you'd think I had it all figured out by now. But I feel like a kid inside. One thing I do know is life IS worth living. Your life is precious; you should find something to do that's fun and makes you happy. (part 1)
marilynakamom 2 years ago
I love your outstanding video and the music you chose to use with this.. absolutely perfect!
Thank you so much for sharing this.
CindyPDX 2 years ago
hey thanks, it was no problem really. :)
Christinafan2002 2 years ago
Loved the video-my nephew is an Aspie too!!!
stormeygirl73 2 years ago
Your comments are great, I really know what you mean. I'm not officially diagnosed with Asperger's (it's documented as "provisional" for now; people seem afraid to pigeon-hole and don't understand the need for a sense of closure on your own mental and physical state...) but I experience all the non-family-associated things you've mentioned here. Thankfully, my mother is a lot like me so she's understanding. The rest of my family seems to think I just need to be pulled out of my shell though...
mbncd 2 years ago
I hear yeah :-)
Winter077 2 years ago
I don't have poor eye contact, I have NO eye contact. The floor is much more inviting than people's eyeballs...people's eyes creep me out. I don't socialize because it bores me. The thoughts in my own head entertain me...and I'm "normal".
Winter077 2 years ago
Home decore from the 70s was hidious! lol
Winter077 2 years ago
What a cute baby! What is the first song playing? Built this way? Nice.
gregsandyas2006 2 years ago
you made it sound a little tragic with the title, there, cos, youre still the same person that you were, arent you? I mean, u could have just put "pics of me when i was little" or something like that, instead of "before being diagnosed with AS". Anyways you seem like a cool person.
wonkerman4 2 years ago
For me being the same person I was when I was little, I'd say, in some ways, yes. In others, no. The reason I picked the song "Built this way", is because I sometimes if I'm just built the way I am today, and I thought some of the stuff that was being said in the song, sounds I think, kind of like stuff that people with Asperger's Syndrome might either say, or wonder about themselves. As for my seeming like a cool person, thank you.:)
Christinafan2002 2 years ago
oh, i see. i hadn't payed much attention to the song so i was like "it all seems pretty normal here"... hehe. But the song def. gives it another meaning. Good video.
wonkerman4 2 years ago
yeah, thanks.
Christinafan2002 2 years ago
wat is
Asperger's Syndrome
cmpunk577 2 years ago
Your mom is SO pretty!!
pixie1310 2 years ago
Thanks.
Christinafan2002 2 years ago
..., and 4 some reason my parents didnt pursue the matter further. Still looking back its obvious I had social anxiety disorder. Its gone now but social anxiety disorder is one of the most common mental health issues yet for some reason psychologists jump on the aspergers bandwagon & like to stamp everybody with that disorder.
Dont get me wrong. Aspergers is real. I just think its often considered 4 diagnosis whereas the more likely social anxiety disorder is ignored.
sicktoaster 2 years ago
...these thoughts might be about me and might be bad caused me to be very self-conscious and always worried about what others thought. I dont feel this way anymore & am doing a lot better socially.
Anyways in spite of my strong social awareness I was almost diagnosed w/Aspergers back then. The counselor never thought to ask key questions to see if I really fit the criteria & jumped 2 that conclusion solely based on social awkwardness. Still wasnt formally diagnosed as he wasnt a psychiatrist,
sicktoaster 2 years ago
Couldn't a person be socially awkward in spite or even because of a strong awareness of social cues & social norms & theory of mind(the awareness that others have their own minds that are distinct and dont necessarily know or feel everything you do)?
As an adolescent I remember always worrying about doing things wrong. My awareness of social norms(esp contradictory ones that often come up between society as a whole & school cliques) & awareness that others had their own thoughts & fear that..
sicktoaster 2 years ago
2 parts
What I dont understand is how can someone who doesn't understand social norms or social skills by anxious or feel awkward in social situations? It would seem like not realizing there are right and wrong ways to interact(or only a theoretical understanding of this with no intuitive gut feeling) and not realizing people's reactions and feelings would make a person fearless in dealing with people altho theyd probably put a lot of ppl off with unintentionally violating social norms.
sicktoaster 2 years ago
I have AS. What were your symptoms?
englishfrenchgerman 2 years ago
Difficulty with handwriting and learning how to write, taking some of the things being said literally, and sometimes I'd even have violent tantrums when people were teasing me in a joking way, difficulty making friends, difficulty understanding directions in school work, I also felt uncomfortable being around a whole bunch of people at once, before getting to know everyone.
Christinafan2002 2 years ago
Mine were very much the same save for the difficulty with writing. I have never struggled with writing, something I am told can be another symptom.
If you were given the choice would you get rid of your AS?
englishfrenchgerman 2 years ago
If I could get rid of my AS, yes. Then I'd have more of a social life. When I see pics of people I went to high school with, all I can think of is how they'd gang up on me, and I know when looking back, that if I didn't say one mean thing about them, or do this to them, we could have avoided any social problems we had in JR high.
Christinafan2002 2 years ago
If I had the chance I'd say no. I wouldn't be able to connect with my friends who also have AS in the way that I can. And my friends who don't have it have learned to cope with me when I have my more autistic days and help me cope with my disorder.
If I didn't have AS i would not be the person that I am. And everyone I've ever asked has told me that they like me the way I am and could not imagine me in any other way.
englishfrenchgerman 2 years ago 4
you're lucky that your peers help you cope with it. I didn't have that support system when I was still living in Iowa. And my peers there, well, I'd say stuff or do stuff, and not really realize that all I was doing was opening a can of worms with them where they'd gang on me for it. But I was just diagnosed at the time, and was afraid of how people would have reacted if they had known I had AS.
Christinafan2002 2 years ago
cute video!!
LYNXVAL 2 years ago
I do too. I know how you feel. AS can suck :(
Asaski09 2 years ago
I have Aspergers and I agree 100% that it can be hard to socialise. I found it especially difficult until I was 8, when I was diagnosed. I had to go to a psychyatrist for a while until I learned methods to cope. By then I was 12.
englishfrenchgerman 2 years ago
I was 13 when i got told i had it by my doctor, two years later i got some help at school now5years later i get money support but that's all..
toyy7675 2 years ago
Yeah, me too. I just feel awkward about just going up and talking to people if I don't know them. So, join the club.;)
Christinafan2002 2 years ago
So cute happy and special!
Sagodocka 3 years ago
My bro has AS
He's terrified of answering the phone, even when he knows it's someone from his immediate family and he's terrified of fixing things up at school, like paying for things and such
flashley630 3 years ago 2
great video made, what is the song you used in the video?
scottishmind 3 years ago
it should be mentioned at the end of the slideshow that I made.
Christinafan2002 3 years ago
no worries i found it anyways, video is well made, have AS myself.
scottishmind 3 years ago
I'm from argentina and with my husband we work with kids with asperger.. I love them very very much.. I'm very pride of you!! If all people could see the world like you do.. the world will change...
danielledieser 3 years ago
What a wonderful journey. Dont worry, you are everything you were ment to be. I am a mom with AS and I have a son with it also. Just keep being what I saw in this vidio, and everything will be fine.
dinosaursarelame 4 years ago 4