Cooooouurtney you are sooooo funnnnnnnyyyyyyy hahahahahahaha talk show talk show is your portion in JESUS NAME wooooow i pray God orders your footsteps to amazing contacts ...you are goin thru this to help others out...your wilderness ...but there is a land flowing with milk n honey xxx
Courtney, Ho my God! I am internally clicking w.u!!! You are soooo amazing! I just watched your clips 4 the first time for a few hours. I am truly amazed at your personality, energy, forwardness and spiritual being. You hang in there and keep us continuously posted. We truly need to hear from you...you help us viewers more than you feel that we inspire you. By the way, did you ever find that husband you desired??? If not, I desire 4 us 2 get 2 know each other.
sorry that was like a year ago, lol just realized but if you are feeling that way ever again just look back at this commena dn I hope it will help you feel betta!
lol "I hop does it right!" Yeah! well don't worry about what you eat any more just be yourself, you're a cool chick. I'm 5'1' 140 ten pounds heavier than I have been since I was 18 112 pounds I wish! Don't feel so bad you're not fat be just keep being yourself. Perk up!
tell me about it, I'm currently earning 3,533.95 USD a YEAR - unemployed in a little town with a population of 8120 and like 12 jobs... it fuckin sucks, can't buy my fiance and son the things I feel they deserve for just having to put up with me...
fuckin love ur sense of humor. or jus the way u explain things ha..even when ur pissed off or talkign about your struggles (which i also struggle with)
If you are going to get your Master's couldn't you teach at a university? I am sure you could find something making good money, I could see you as a journalist, or getting your own talk show...?
maybe drinking soft drinks and chewing gum fuels your constant hunger. obviously not the only reason, but i know i feel more hungry when i chew gum and drink things like that.... just a suggestion.
I really feel your pain...I have no clue on what I'm supposed to do either and when I think I do its like poof its gone and I get this feeling of discouragement...I'm in college now and I feel so frustrated about my career choice:/ I have the choice of swichting my major and only this year to do this and idk what I want to do yet:(
well hello there... I was just wondering how tall you are?? if you could please answer that then thank you;) I love your videos and love you love you love you! God bless you!
Courtney, you are one special talented girl! I marvel in your wack-itude or wacky-tude, which ever way you want to put it, because not many people are like that, even when they're happy! Anyway, I hope you've been feeling better, and fuck the weight, remember, it doesn't control your life.
I feel your pain!!! You have NOOOO idea how much I feel your pain! I am in my 5th year of university doing a BA in psychology and found out I'll need to do a 6th year to finish! I'll never get my masters because my brain can't do it anymore..but I feel your pain hun! more then you know!!!!
DURING UR VIDS I PAUSE IT AND TALK TO U......WHEN YOUR DOING YOUR VIDEO I FEEL LIKE IM TALKING TO MY SELF IN THE MIRROR
SOME1 MUSTVE CLONED US COURTNEY BECUASE I LOVE YOU
U R LIKE SOOO FUNNY, GOSH I JUST WANNA MEET U AND TALK TO U 4 OURS ON END. THERS SO MANY THINGS (so many) THAT I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW AND I HOPE THAT YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY ABOUT ME AS I DO 4 U
Hi Courtney. I just wanted to ask how you were doing. We would really like to hear what's going on, good or bad. I hope it's good, though. Take care, lovely! :)
u look great And Im sure people tell you :) I envy how smart you are and how you are actually doing something in your life . Yay for smart independant girls outhere !!!
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You can eat nearly non stop stay healthy and loose weight its everything you need. Check out the Atkins diet. Your beautiful get over it and by the way if you can post a video of yourself in a bikini after a heavy meal that bloats your belly, then you are over your problem. And btw I lost over 100 lbs on Atkins so I know what you are going through. When you are on Atkins you NEVER GET HUNGRY EVER. Lindsey Lohan like you looks better with a little more. A good example is the new playboy bunny.
i send comfort and joy to you. just know that you are touching many peoples' lives with your videos. you always bring hope and a smile to my face. :-)
I thought we were bad off here in NC, our district start Pre School teachers at $30.000 then it goes up 5% every year and there are a 7% bonus each year.
Giiiiirl, I don't know about the pre-school teacher thing, because I make just over $20,000 a year and let me tell you I am BROKE. But, have you ever considered maybe running your own daycare? At least out here in SoCal, people pay tons of money to put their kids in daycare. And that's nearly the same as a preschool teacher? Sort of?
there's no reason to be hungry. stay away from processed foods. cravings aren't natural, and you shouldn't be hungry all the time like i was. when i started eating unprocessed foods, that incredible hunger went away. then i didn't have to constantly think about eating. what a huge relief!
You are one of the most intelligent speakers I know. Seriously, you've got a great vocabulary, you're clever, sarcastic, funny . . . you should seriously look into something with public speaking or just working with people. Like public relations with a huge firm to make your millions!!! And if I had a company, I would hire you in an INSTANT. You always speak what's in my mind. You really know how to connect with people.
I wrote that last comment when I had only watched the first few minutes.
I just finished, and here's what I have to say now:
You seem so full of energy and fire, so full of life, and I don't even know you and I've picked that up. It broke my heart that you are having a difficult time and think that that is possibly going away. Don't let the fire burn out. You have too much personality and potential to waste. Let the world know you.
You need to be a psychiatric nurse or mental health counselor. You have a great way with words and could help so many people (specifically with eating disorders) who are struggling with what you have/are struggling with. In turn, it's also good money..think about.
Where's that girl with all the faith? don't let the enemy take you down. You have so much to be thankful for. God has kept you here and confirmed your purpose to you. Serve Him, not world. God challenges us, life doesn't always go in our favor but we can learn from every experience. Money is money but God is God. He is transforming your life, move with it and accept change as God has it planned for you. Reach out in faith right now and leave your problems and needs at the cross. XOXO to you dear
A Communications degree:My daughter's girlfriends, who have this degree, are now doing these things:working for Revlon,Victoria Secret mgmt,San Diego Chargers office,Nordstrom mgmt,Staples Center office(where the Lakers play),NBC offices,IHOP Corporate office(the CEO is my neighbor!),and the rest are in event planning for country clubs,hotels and corporations.I can tell you are a bright young lady.Take internships through your career center at school.That's how ALL these girls got their jobs .
This comment was spot on until you ended it with "get over yourself" God is a God of love and compassion, not cruel judgement. Was that really approperiate? was that last comment really that crucial to help you articulate your point? did it feel good to do so? was it really what God wanted or what "reaction" wanted? I think there are more healing ways to get a point across, especially when GOD is involved in it. I mean really, would He want to be a part of that kind of attitude? Blessings to you
which god are you refering to? the god of the old testament or the new testament? because the one in hte old testament is most certainly cruely judgemental. and i do feel the last comment was crucial to solidly make my point. as far as what god wantedm i dint ask him so i would have to say my post was reactionary, which i do not see as a bad thing. i was not trying to effect a "healing" of any kind. i was simply pointing out a believers hypocracy.
Well, I am talking about God - as I see Him so that's my point of view. You are entitled to your own beliefs and opinions, don't get me wrong. However, I, as an outsider, did not find your comment approperiate or encouraging - therefore felt it served no purpose here especially when this woman is in crisis.
well, i am not talking about god, because i dont see him. and thats my point of view. but thanks so much for allowing me to have a point of view. thats very spiritual of you. my comments were not meant to encourage. i dont care about her or you, or anyone else, for that matter, outsider or insider. and she is not in crisis. she is a self centered, self pitying bubble headed female looking for attention and sympathy. the best place to find sympathy is in the dictionary between shit and syphillus.
Maybe you should get a life and stop looking at peoples youtubes who have eating disorders. Do you have nothing better to do? Get a job and stop taking my Tax money! God never judges, he loves everyone and will want everyone to pray for everyone no matter what, keep your hurtful "point of views" to yourself and watch some christian youtubes, maybe that will change your "point of view" :) may god bless you with gratitude and appreciation for others:)
maybe you and those like you should shoul stop making excuses for people with wanna be victim mentalities. and no, at this time of day i have nothing better to do than call out hypocrites. and before you say god does not judge i recommend you read your bible. christianity has changed my point of view. i used to believe then i read the book. i no longer believe. you tell me to keep my hurtfull opinions to myself: how do you plan to enforce that dictate?
i started watching you right when i started recovering, so i really feel like "we've" come a long way over the past 2 years...
i'm really bummed to hear you upset about 112 pounds...i celebrated when i hit 115! i love my new shape, i look like a woman now, not a little stick figure. please enjoy it!
You forgot about the Legos! It's not 1% as bad as you think it is.
You don't have to know what you're going to do right now. I feel sorry for anyone who already knows what they are going to do for the rest of their life before they are 50.
Life is an adventure. If you know how the story ends, why read the book? On the other hand, if you're not happy with the way things are now, then quit and do something different. You're young and single in America. Who are you going to hurt?
Hey! I know how you feel. I just graduated because I needed to have my degree to keep my job as a lead preschool teacher. CRAZY! I finnished and now I have to pay back the loans, but my degree didn't raise my pay at all. As to weight you look great. I was 105 and have ballooned to 142.8. the scale makes me cry. It is suppose to be stress that has made me really fat. Your perfect!
OMG, all this advice you are getting little girl! Wow, everyone has the answer - lift weights, more school, work out, do this, do that! I don't ask for advice anymore. I am in the middle of a bad ana relapse for 18 months & if I asked for advice - they would love it. Then, they proceed to hurt my feelings & make me starve more! be yourself - you are beautiful. You are also tiny - so, no fear! It's what's inside that counts! We need to enjoy food! (me, too)
Let me tell you - I know this crap you're going through, everyone who's ever graduated from college knows it.
I named this part in every college grad's life Post University Misery.
you just gotta get through it. a thinking person can't avoid being anxious.
you just get on a horse - don't worry if it's the right one just yet - and see where it goes. your first job won't be your last. everything you do now will be a learning experience, and a step towards the right path. trust the horse! xx
I just wanted to say that I can totally relate to how you're feeling with the whole college thing right now. I am currently a 22 year old college student still working towards her BA, but you know, as a very good friend of mine always tells me when I feel down about it, there are no set rules for how or when we get through this to reach our goals. We will get there in our own way. :)
lol. 20,000 is barely enough for even the least materialistic person in america. even if they're homeless.
i hear ya. i'm gonna be a "super senior" next year, and then once i graduate i still have to go to grad school for a phd (in physical therapy)and spend more moolah for the extra edumacation, before i can make bank!
ihop is the shit. during the summer they had these carrot cake pancakes. they had cream cheese icing and they were effing delicious.
The mysteries in life are nothing to get down about. Let life come at you as it will. You will tackle them and be just fine. Have you ever thought of going on missions? Perhaps that'd help you find more of yourself.
Girl, thats what I have always said. A masters is minimum. The bachelors degree is considered equivalent to a high school diploma these days, pretty much. :/
i love you Courtney. Im sitting here at 8:30am still havent slept and i think you are such an inspiration. My parayers are with you. Right now and always will be.
Keep on Smiling and Remember you are Gorgeous and God Loves You and Will Set you on the right path xxxxxx
anyway, the point of my rambling comment is that i dont think you are alone. i dont think MOST college students know what they want. i think communication is a good major for you, you are a very enteraining, amazing speaker. you could do a lot of communications, not many people are good speakers or know how to communicate effectively. i think you are gorgeous. 112 lbs is NOT very much. ive never commented, i dont think but ive been watching your videos since 07. take care, merry christmas
courtney, i love you. i love your videos. i can completely relate to this one. i'm a journalism and mass communication major and outlook = not good for journalists right now. my GPA is crap, idk how i'll get into grad school. my days at good, i have lots of good stuff in my life now too, but like you said, at the end of the day i just hurt. it will take me 5.5 years to get my BA too (i'm currently half way through year 4). i transfered once, i think you said in a previous video you transfered to
Merry Christmas Courtney!!! I'm a junior in college and I'm stressing out about the future too! but no worries I am praying for you. I only wish I could find one girl like you at my college to be friends with, you are such a joy!
i relate in a way. i'm hopefully going to graduate (on time) with a BS in Psych but i'm relapsing horribly so i'm going to take time from school. and you need at least a masters for decent job in the field, not that i can't really be too good at it when i'm this sick.
RE 7:01 - Hurting about tomorrow is becoming more common since our once great, freedom loving, capitalist society is now unfortunately leaning towards socialism. It's very depressing. Our freedoms and OPPORTUNITIES are diminishing. These are the kind of blues that can go far beyond the holidays. Stay strong. I love your charisma. Keep it up. You're doing great. Thanks for another terrific video. Life's a balancing act. Follow the Lord's word in the Bible. Merry Christmas Courtney. God Bless You.
Don't worry Courtney! You're getting older, putting on weight, etc. Soon you'll have hot flashes and be talking about menopause. JK, cheer up, you could still be back here with us in Michigan. If that were the case you certainly would be out a job and freezing your tiny little 112-pound boobies off!! You're a lucky girl!
IF I was a babe. LIFT WEIGHTS a few times a week. the other days, light cardio or HIT cardio.
THIS WILL CHANGE how the body uses energy....which bring the changes you want. once this happens you can eat like a fat kid occasionally and stay super lean in the process. chicks are irrational when it comes to food. they are hopeless for figuring this shit out on their own.
Today is my 64th birthday. In my 20s I worked as an assembler in a parts factory with college not even in my future. Now I'm retired after 25 years as a successful attorney. Since childhood I asked God for his will in my life, and was disappointed in the number of obvious doors that shut in my face,
but I was directed through other doors,
doors that led to far better places for me.
Places of usefulness as well as much personal reward. My advice: Just do the next indiciated thing and be led.
Hey Girl. I know its hard not to worry. I'm in the same situation. The only way im going to make any money is by putting my ass in grad school. But keep this verse in mind.. it helps me. Proverbs 19:21 Many are the plans in a mans heart, but it is the Lords purpose that prevails.
Girl the Lord is going to take care of you. He plans to give you hope and a future!
courtney! you will be OK! OMG! harvest grain and nut pancakes are like heaven on a plate!
I seriously was kinda bummed tonight when i got home...and i saw i had a subscription..and got all excited to see you were my new subscription...I know ur bummed...but you are still awesome and were able to perk me up. Everything happens for a REASON! and i am sorry you are sad. but time will make you feel better!
Many wishes of tidings and joy for you this holiday season Courtney!! And hang in there... you're one tough cookie, I'm sure these down feelings will eventually pass. *hugs*
Keep up all you're hard work!! It will pay off in the end no matter what. And like you said, it's all about family and friends, the people you love and the people who love you.. surround yourself with that love and things will be much more graceful all around. Bless you and happy holidays... be safe!
Wow, you've done well to stick in College for 6 years! If I knew I was gonna be there that long, I would be a child psychologist. Have you done psychology as a minor subject at all? Maybe you could work hard at that if you have and find some way to use it in the future :)
Courtney! first off, 112 is not bad..as for the jiggling, it would help tons if you lifted weights at the gym..with my ED, i went up and down with the weight, but at times i would look better at a heavier weight (i.e. 112) because my muscles were toned. also, i really believe that you should aim to be a broadcast journalist. you'd be perfect for it! :) hang in there! something miraculous will happen and you'll know what to do.
Sometimes (most of the time) im discouraged about what im going to do but i think everyone does and it will pass, like everything else best of luck figuring it out, but i will tell you, you're very good at speaking lol u should do something with that haha
You could be a Counsoller & Therapist for children. That way you can see them for a bit, help them, tell their parents waht a bad job they are doing and still walk away with a bigger pay check. Or do child rearing seminars or something like Tony Robbins does. You have the gift of getting people excited. You have so much energy. Look at how many if us thrive on your videos. Your awesome Courtney.
You are truly amazing! I have watched all of your videos for the past... I think few years now. I am begining to realize yes make goals for the future but you really have to live in the moment take life as it comes because no matter how well you have things planned there are always going to be curve balls and reagardless of anything if God wants something for you he is going to send it your way.
The constant craving for food is totally normal for people recovering from eating disorders, just so you know... for like, years after. I've been pretty much recovered for three years and I'm still slightly obsessed with food. That's just the way it goes.
Also, there's nothing wrong with a little materialism. Don't feel guilty. You're only human :).
I know a lil how you feel, I completed my degree in May - I work 16 hours a week on minimum wage. I can't get a job. I am trying to recover, & ended up clinically overweight. I feel abanded but I remember the Lord has plans to prosper and not to harm you. Acknowledge Him in all your ways and He will make your paths straight.
Remember He is prepareing you for what Has has already has prepared for you.
love you. Merry Christmas, may you be truely blessed.xx
Marry someone who is really smart and/or rich and you'll never have to worry about it! lol. Honestly though... I am going to pursue my career, but I figure if I marry someone who is really successful, you are set.
You should go into broadcast journalism. You'd be FANTASTIC at it. I'm going to major in print journalism, but if I wasn't, I'd go for broadcast... although it is pretty competitive.
I've thought about being a teacher as well-but I also dont want to settle for less.
Poor court! For college - you are nearly there, just hang in. For the masters... that's up to you. If you would rather not do it then don't... it's something you could come back to in a couple of years if you feel you need one.
For the cravings and eating... I'd say it's a combination of feeling down & winter. People do tend to eat more during winter... and feeling down doesn't help. It'll balance out, don't freak out about it just yet! You just need to pick up ur spirits!
Courtney ... I just asked my tiny little conversion widget what 112 pounds would be in metric kilograms. And let me tell you - it is like I expected: It's anything else, but it's not too much. Full stop.
And in contrast to your pregnant friend - her cravings are the those or her body, but your cravings are those of your soul. The stuff you mentioned is propably extremely good for your soul. You shouldn't follow them all, but do it now and then, and try to feel good about it while you do.
You should be a broadcast journalist, you have the personality for it. Grad school for journalism is like a year and a half. I'm pursuing print journalism myself.
Marry rich! And do what you like on the side..Sorry..I'm just living in the real world. You are pretty, smart, have a great persoanlity, but, trust me..marry rich and do what you like on the side. I did and I've never been happier! lol
You are definitely a "personality". I see you as a standard household television personality. Put one foot in front of the other on the path to broadcasting. Go for what you want. It may take time, but you'll get there. You didn't major in communications for nothing. I ditched my plans for communications at age 20. I so regret it. Life is short. Kids are great - done the teaching thing too. Go for your dream and stop stressing. You are more than your weight.And 112 pounds is still underweight.
let me tell you...I have applied to 50 (read that again...FIFTY) jobs and I do not have a job yet. I dont know where you are, but I am in Virginia..I jusr graduated with a B.S. in Human Services, and nothing. soooo....You're not alone with the whole 'I don't know what to do with my life because I don't want to make 20,000 a year!' Cheers for being materialistic aka realistic!!!
Well my comment probably won't make a difference because i feel like i'll be repeting myself from everyone else here, but hummmmm YOU ARE STRONG and INTELLIGENT! Don't worry about it. Keep having faith. I love, we all love you, you are great, a great discovery blog that makes me want to recover!
112 lbs is seriously not that much. I mean, I know it's a lot to you because you've been so much lower, but you were also a lot more unhealthy at your low weights. Besides, you look great! What's there to worry about? :)
Anyway, I will keep you in my thoughts, dear. I hope your life starts to make more sense to you as time goes on. *hugs*
courtney- i will lift you up in my prayers hon!!! i hope you find your spirit again, and truly- you ARE an amazing example of what recovery is like. i know we all have our up's and down's..but you stay so optimistic! and you know, a number on a scale is just a number on a scale. it holds no judgment. thats all what we want to believe. Peace and Love and Good Tidings! <33
i live in california which is super expensive and i live off of less then 20,000 a year. i spend most of my money on UC- if i didn't have to do that, i'd be so set with 20,000 a year.
I'm sorry Courtney, I think we all have these times. It's not about not eating all those great foods, it's just about eating some not all the food. I'm having a hard time too!
Working with kids has sadly been regarded as babysitting when in fact, it is so much more. If you're interested I can share a bit about what I do and what my plans are...I am currently applying for a doctorate and I work with kids now and will be doing the same in the future. I will pray that you find your way and receive some much needed comfort. I'm not sure if you realize how much of an impact you already have on so many people...it is possible your journey has already begun.
Courtney, all these fears and wants and concerns are ridiculously normal. Nearly every 21 - 26 year old is in the same boat. Seriously, all my friends say the same shit and think they're the only ones freaking out about this stuff, but we all are!
Hey, maybe you should work in PR or fundraising, like maybe for school. If you did something admin/support-related for a school, then you could be around kids but not have to deal with them.
i think you are so cool and you definitely have not lost your fire!!! keep on talking about your internal battles, because that always helps to get it out. i love your vids and you're so pretty and tidy and a majority of people doesn't know what he or she wants either, me included... but it's not about that...
Shame on those IHOP people. False advertising at its CRUELEST! Did you know that IHOP stands for INTERNATIONAL house of pancakes. The people of Canada demand PANCAKES. Write your local legislator. Thank you for your encouragement! Hope, hope, hope. Oh, I need it!
Courney, I gotta tell you, every time I watch a video of yours I always think, "How could anyone not love this chick?" You're hilarious and awesome.
And as for your bachelor's: I did a bachelor's in communications, thinking I would just get a job for a little while after and then go on to get a masters. Turns out I'm so good at my job now that that's more valuable than if I had a masters anyway. See what I mean? You just need to get your foot in the door, make a name for yourself that way...
Hey, What are you so down about. I mean all you have to do in life is make millions and marry me. Thats not to hard is it. hehe... I hope you have a Merry Christmas Courtney and you get to cheering up soon.
Hmmm... Ill have to get back to you on that one. But if I win the lottery Ill call ya. HEHE. Oh and make more videos dang it. I dont see you enough anymore. Your supposed to chear me up.
take the place of kelly ripa on regis and kelly!! you would be so much fun to watch on one of those shows and it goes with your major!!! do it!! and your scale is most likely broken cause you still look so tiny!!
There are so many people that look up to you, me being one of them! I have the same problems and its good to know that someone else is getting through them just fine....
You're beautiful. keep your head up we'll get through these hard times you help me out when i feel like shit so hopefully i can help you a little...let's eat pancakes!!! Lova ya
it'll get better, christmas sometimes has the weird side effect of making you kinda reflect on the year or something, thereby making you freak out / get down, when in theory, we should be happy!
you have done so awesome it sounds like, with recovering, i can COMPLETELY relate, and it makes me so happy to see you, i know that sometimes every single day can seem like a food battle, but you are doing awesome. Your belly button is just letting you know its there
i hope she aint an emotional vampire
kingklick77 5 months ago
that call just came at the right time in the video!! lol
EaRthYLuV 1 year ago
'..its about getting phone calls in the middle of your youtube video!' hahaa
InspireYOURS3LF 1 year ago
you need to tutor kids over the net! You can make a bundle and do what you love!
glitchyt 1 year ago
Cooooouurtney you are sooooo funnnnnnnyyyyyyy hahahahahahaha talk show talk show is your portion in JESUS NAME wooooow i pray God orders your footsteps to amazing contacts ...you are goin thru this to help others out...your wilderness ...but there is a land flowing with milk n honey xxx
lisaleonardmusic 1 year ago
Funny, Intelligent and Beautiful. Great Vids.
dsalvat1 2 years ago
Courtney, Ho my God! I am internally clicking w.u!!! You are soooo amazing! I just watched your clips 4 the first time for a few hours. I am truly amazed at your personality, energy, forwardness and spiritual being. You hang in there and keep us continuously posted. We truly need to hear from you...you help us viewers more than you feel that we inspire you. By the way, did you ever find that husband you desired??? If not, I desire 4 us 2 get 2 know each other.
07smoothy 2 years ago
Sounds like you have a quarter-life crisis. You'll make it through. Here's a bit of advice that did me good:
Stop living the life you've planned and start living the one waiting for you.
Hope that helps. Merry Christmas.
TheFaustianMan 2 years ago
You talk to the chamber
TheZZzDooMzZz 2 years ago
sorry that was like a year ago, lol just realized but if you are feeling that way ever again just look back at this commena dn I hope it will help you feel betta!
KristinaRose86 2 years ago
lol "I hop does it right!" Yeah! well don't worry about what you eat any more just be yourself, you're a cool chick. I'm 5'1' 140 ten pounds heavier than I have been since I was 18 112 pounds I wish! Don't feel so bad you're not fat be just keep being yourself. Perk up!
KristinaRose86 2 years ago
funniest person on youtube!
pennamb 2 years ago
Debbie3251 stop being so ignorant. If u dont have anything nice to say dont say anything at all!
And i know EXACTLY how u feel! Ur posts r so funny and inspirational to me, youd make a great preacher LoL but seriosly :P
carmensita2332 2 years ago
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Take a breath for God's sake, why do you do this, you are embarrassing yourself, go away.
Debbie3251 2 years ago
I'm feeling the same way :(
MonicaSquarePantsx3 2 years ago
youre very funny and lively, youd be good on SNL or something.
rungirl05 2 years ago
Aww i have these days all the time too! Dont give up Courntey!
xoxo
sourgirl99 2 years ago
courtney you touch my heart i belive your a super smart woman who on the right track
houmabayou 2 years ago
i LOVE your videos!!
ledgebox 2 years ago
tell me about it, I'm currently earning 3,533.95 USD a YEAR - unemployed in a little town with a population of 8120 and like 12 jobs... it fuckin sucks, can't buy my fiance and son the things I feel they deserve for just having to put up with me...
random comment, nevermind.
Potts2k8 2 years ago
fall back on stand up comedy....serious...go to an arts school understand the ends and outs of the biz.
Aslanspal 2 years ago 6
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Alcoholics Anonymous
hakkerxxx 2 years ago
ffs xD
U remind me of J.D from Scrubs, in a scary way xD
Safro90 2 years ago
and i love iHop.
shibbyMFspoons 2 years ago
fuckin love ur sense of humor. or jus the way u explain things ha..even when ur pissed off or talkign about your struggles (which i also struggle with)
lol. if it makes u feel any better u crack me up
shibbyMFspoons 2 years ago
If you are going to get your Master's couldn't you teach at a university? I am sure you could find something making good money, I could see you as a journalist, or getting your own talk show...?
lovesnhugs 2 years ago 5
OMG...you are too cute! You should have your own talk show for real!
javonnismom2007 2 years ago 3
A hundred twelve pounds?
A HUNDRED TWELVE POUNDS!
Congratulations Courtney. You look great. Keep the faith!!
sparkythejack 2 years ago
maybe drinking soft drinks and chewing gum fuels your constant hunger. obviously not the only reason, but i know i feel more hungry when i chew gum and drink things like that.... just a suggestion.
weird8twiggy 2 years ago
when you say "fuck you" to fruit and vegetables, you remind me of louis ck hehe
14icedtambourines 2 years ago
I can totally relate to you...& I love your videos, they are so funny, but so true as well. love it!
bandcamplover09 2 years ago
i feel the same way i was 79 pound
now iam 108 pounds
iam like dame
ayucatATONOMIplasma1 2 years ago
The fight never ends, sweetie!
Your purpose is NEVER what you think it should be!
No warrior can choose his/her battles.
QuartuvLarry 2 years ago
courtney where are you? I know no one offered you your million dollar job, but we miss you!
nelliliciousluv 2 years ago
that's not what you say to someone who had an eating disorder...i am saying this in a nice way in case you just didn't know
aprilpackard 2 years ago
great vid... not cuz you are sad, but cuz you remain optimistic and energetic when your down and out.... good luck girl, prayers are with ya.
gothlizard 2 years ago 2
great vid
gothlizard 2 years ago
lol you're really funny. I can totally tell you'd be such a fun friend to hang out with.
DreamMyLife7 2 years ago
You should be a radio broadcaster!
kulixc 2 years ago 2
Plethora of foodwantingness =)
Webarton 2 years ago
PLEASES for the love of this EARTH - post!!! Where and HOW are you?
s2macdon 2 years ago
I 2nd this!! Please girl! Doesnt even have to be a video just let us know that you are ok! =)
Lindsayandkenny 2 years ago
I really feel your pain...I have no clue on what I'm supposed to do either and when I think I do its like poof its gone and I get this feeling of discouragement...I'm in college now and I feel so frustrated about my career choice:/ I have the choice of swichting my major and only this year to do this and idk what I want to do yet:(
leebird1809 2 years ago
well hello there... I was just wondering how tall you are?? if you could please answer that then thank you;) I love your videos and love you love you love you! God bless you!
xolovejojo 2 years ago
she has said in past videos shes 5'2 or 5'3
crayolasky 2 years ago
Courtney, you are one special talented girl! I marvel in your wack-itude or wacky-tude, which ever way you want to put it, because not many people are like that, even when they're happy! Anyway, I hope you've been feeling better, and fuck the weight, remember, it doesn't control your life.
DisneyDancer05 2 years ago
I feel your pain!!! You have NOOOO idea how much I feel your pain! I am in my 5th year of university doing a BA in psychology and found out I'll need to do a 6th year to finish! I'll never get my masters because my brain can't do it anymore..but I feel your pain hun! more then you know!!!!
xxoo
AdriiStarr 2 years ago
i'm pretty sure she said 112
miasprisoner 2 years ago 2
wow
DURING UR VIDS I PAUSE IT AND TALK TO U......WHEN YOUR DOING YOUR VIDEO I FEEL LIKE IM TALKING TO MY SELF IN THE MIRROR
SOME1 MUSTVE CLONED US COURTNEY BECUASE I LOVE YOU
U R LIKE SOOO FUNNY, GOSH I JUST WANNA MEET U AND TALK TO U 4 OURS ON END. THERS SO MANY THINGS (so many) THAT I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW AND I HOPE THAT YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY ABOUT ME AS I DO 4 U
U ROCK
I LIKE ...LOVE YOU
I HOPE THAT DOESNT CREEP YOU OUT OR ANYTHING
BUT SERIOUSLY....
WOW UR AH-MAY-ZING
HOPE 2 MEETU
melzio69 2 years ago
Hi Courtney. I just wanted to ask how you were doing. We would really like to hear what's going on, good or bad. I hope it's good, though. Take care, lovely! :)
FreddieMercuryRising 2 years ago
i love you! your awesome!
connielove1111 2 years ago
time for a new video, dear :)
mason12obyn 2 years ago
Iknow I hate winter it makes me moody and depressed . I f I had to pick where to live it would be texas its always warm :) oh yeah I hate christmas
laberinth23 2 years ago
u look great And Im sure people tell you :) I envy how smart you are and how you are actually doing something in your life . Yay for smart independant girls outhere !!!
laberinth23 2 years ago
i felt just like you for a long time!
PLEASE its all the unhealthy food. Not the amount. Switch to healthy...you will feel so much better TRUST MEE
liplylips 2 years ago
Happy Valentine's Day Courtney!
Thinking of you, Hope all is well love Margaret X ♥ X ♥ X♥ X ♥
NunaFeedTheDucks 3 years ago
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You can eat nearly non stop stay healthy and loose weight its everything you need. Check out the Atkins diet. Your beautiful get over it and by the way if you can post a video of yourself in a bikini after a heavy meal that bloats your belly, then you are over your problem. And btw I lost over 100 lbs on Atkins so I know what you are going through. When you are on Atkins you NEVER GET HUNGRY EVER. Lindsey Lohan like you looks better with a little more. A good example is the new playboy bunny.
WhatIsGod 3 years ago
TIME FOR NEW VIDEO!!! SEND THE VALENTINE'S LOVE!!! Hope you're ok Court!
s2macdon 3 years ago
i send comfort and joy to you. just know that you are touching many peoples' lives with your videos. you always bring hope and a smile to my face. :-)
pureuncertainty 3 years ago
I thought we were bad off here in NC, our district start Pre School teachers at $30.000 then it goes up 5% every year and there are a 7% bonus each year.
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VampiroDeLaFrontera 3 years ago
Giiiiirl, I don't know about the pre-school teacher thing, because I make just over $20,000 a year and let me tell you I am BROKE. But, have you ever considered maybe running your own daycare? At least out here in SoCal, people pay tons of money to put their kids in daycare. And that's nearly the same as a preschool teacher? Sort of?
twistrsfinalplea 3 years ago
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girl shut up and drink your sorrow away
kwalaws 3 years ago
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hey what is ur current weight and height
cmmiller0 3 years ago
there's no reason to be hungry. stay away from processed foods. cravings aren't natural, and you shouldn't be hungry all the time like i was. when i started eating unprocessed foods, that incredible hunger went away. then i didn't have to constantly think about eating. what a huge relief!
faithm 3 years ago
wow, you remind me so much of patty duke
deltabean 3 years ago
Comfort and joy to you *hugs*
Haplo2006 3 years ago 2
You are one of the most intelligent speakers I know. Seriously, you've got a great vocabulary, you're clever, sarcastic, funny . . . you should seriously look into something with public speaking or just working with people. Like public relations with a huge firm to make your millions!!! And if I had a company, I would hire you in an INSTANT. You always speak what's in my mind. You really know how to connect with people.
You're in my thoughts. Be well! <3
mariathepirate 3 years ago
comfort and joy to u :)
GirlyChibi 3 years ago
I wrote that last comment when I had only watched the first few minutes.
I just finished, and here's what I have to say now:
You seem so full of energy and fire, so full of life, and I don't even know you and I've picked that up. It broke my heart that you are having a difficult time and think that that is possibly going away. Don't let the fire burn out. You have too much personality and potential to waste. Let the world know you.
emptyelevators 3 years ago
Although I'm sure you were being completely serious, your sarcasm humored me.
I didn't have a very good holiday either, I hope yours was better than you were expecting.
I'm Ashley. :)
emptyelevators 3 years ago
You need to be a psychiatric nurse or mental health counselor. You have a great way with words and could help so many people (specifically with eating disorders) who are struggling with what you have/are struggling with. In turn, it's also good money..think about.
babyjules10 3 years ago
Where's that girl with all the faith? don't let the enemy take you down. You have so much to be thankful for. God has kept you here and confirmed your purpose to you. Serve Him, not world. God challenges us, life doesn't always go in our favor but we can learn from every experience. Money is money but God is God. He is transforming your life, move with it and accept change as God has it planned for you. Reach out in faith right now and leave your problems and needs at the cross. XOXO to you dear
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
come to ENGLAND!! train as a profession.. 3-5 years!
oO0xXxprincessxXx0Oo 3 years ago
Harvest grain and nut...omgosh...LOVE. Pure love!
lastingoptions 3 years ago
A Communications degree:My daughter's girlfriends, who have this degree, are now doing these things:working for Revlon,Victoria Secret mgmt,San Diego Chargers office,Nordstrom mgmt,Staples Center office(where the Lakers play),NBC offices,IHOP Corporate office(the CEO is my neighbor!),and the rest are in event planning for country clubs,hotels and corporations.I can tell you are a bright young lady.Take internships through your career center at school.That's how ALL these girls got their jobs .
pasadenaprincess 3 years ago
Oh my gosh..I love you! you always make me laugh...I will pray for you! get better :)
ohyou86 3 years ago
you are seeking comfort and joy from you tubers??? where is your faith in your god? the great comforter? the auther of your joy?
is that a whiff of hypocracy? and you are suffering? how does your suffering comppare to that of jesus? it doesnt. get over your self.
tapesquare 3 years ago
This comment was spot on until you ended it with "get over yourself" God is a God of love and compassion, not cruel judgement. Was that really approperiate? was that last comment really that crucial to help you articulate your point? did it feel good to do so? was it really what God wanted or what "reaction" wanted? I think there are more healing ways to get a point across, especially when GOD is involved in it. I mean really, would He want to be a part of that kind of attitude? Blessings to you
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
which god are you refering to? the god of the old testament or the new testament? because the one in hte old testament is most certainly cruely judgemental. and i do feel the last comment was crucial to solidly make my point. as far as what god wantedm i dint ask him so i would have to say my post was reactionary, which i do not see as a bad thing. i was not trying to effect a "healing" of any kind. i was simply pointing out a believers hypocracy.
tapesquare 3 years ago
Well, I am talking about God - as I see Him so that's my point of view. You are entitled to your own beliefs and opinions, don't get me wrong. However, I, as an outsider, did not find your comment approperiate or encouraging - therefore felt it served no purpose here especially when this woman is in crisis.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
well, i am not talking about god, because i dont see him. and thats my point of view. but thanks so much for allowing me to have a point of view. thats very spiritual of you. my comments were not meant to encourage. i dont care about her or you, or anyone else, for that matter, outsider or insider. and she is not in crisis. she is a self centered, self pitying bubble headed female looking for attention and sympathy. the best place to find sympathy is in the dictionary between shit and syphillus.
tapesquare 3 years ago
Maybe you should get a life and stop looking at peoples youtubes who have eating disorders. Do you have nothing better to do? Get a job and stop taking my Tax money! God never judges, he loves everyone and will want everyone to pray for everyone no matter what, keep your hurtful "point of views" to yourself and watch some christian youtubes, maybe that will change your "point of view" :) may god bless you with gratitude and appreciation for others:)
ohyou86 3 years ago
maybe you and those like you should shoul stop making excuses for people with wanna be victim mentalities. and no, at this time of day i have nothing better to do than call out hypocrites. and before you say god does not judge i recommend you read your bible. christianity has changed my point of view. i used to believe then i read the book. i no longer believe. you tell me to keep my hurtfull opinions to myself: how do you plan to enforce that dictate?
tapesquare 3 years ago
i started watching you right when i started recovering, so i really feel like "we've" come a long way over the past 2 years...
i'm really bummed to hear you upset about 112 pounds...i celebrated when i hit 115! i love my new shape, i look like a woman now, not a little stick figure. please enjoy it!
misterjoanna 3 years ago
wow girl....112! i would give anything to be back DOWN to 112!! dont be so hard on yourself. youre amazing!!
scarletmist00 3 years ago
Courtney,
You forgot about the Legos! It's not 1% as bad as you think it is.
You don't have to know what you're going to do right now. I feel sorry for anyone who already knows what they are going to do for the rest of their life before they are 50.
Life is an adventure. If you know how the story ends, why read the book? On the other hand, if you're not happy with the way things are now, then quit and do something different. You're young and single in America. Who are you going to hurt?
ewetoob1962 3 years ago
congratulations.
sbaldwinus 3 years ago
Hey! I know how you feel. I just graduated because I needed to have my degree to keep my job as a lead preschool teacher. CRAZY! I finnished and now I have to pay back the loans, but my degree didn't raise my pay at all. As to weight you look great. I was 105 and have ballooned to 142.8. the scale makes me cry. It is suppose to be stress that has made me really fat. Your perfect!
tokiekookie 3 years ago
OMG, all this advice you are getting little girl! Wow, everyone has the answer - lift weights, more school, work out, do this, do that! I don't ask for advice anymore. I am in the middle of a bad ana relapse for 18 months & if I asked for advice - they would love it. Then, they proceed to hurt my feelings & make me starve more! be yourself - you are beautiful. You are also tiny - so, no fear! It's what's inside that counts! We need to enjoy food! (me, too)
PeaceChick07 3 years ago
Let me tell you - I know this crap you're going through, everyone who's ever graduated from college knows it.
I named this part in every college grad's life Post University Misery.
you just gotta get through it. a thinking person can't avoid being anxious.
you just get on a horse - don't worry if it's the right one just yet - and see where it goes. your first job won't be your last. everything you do now will be a learning experience, and a step towards the right path. trust the horse! xx
jetblack 3 years ago
Hi, Courtney!
I just wanted to say that I can totally relate to how you're feeling with the whole college thing right now. I am currently a 22 year old college student still working towards her BA, but you know, as a very good friend of mine always tells me when I feel down about it, there are no set rules for how or when we get through this to reach our goals. We will get there in our own way. :)
You're a strong person. I have faith in you!
~H
Spookula 3 years ago
damn, how did i not catch this vid?
lol. 20,000 is barely enough for even the least materialistic person in america. even if they're homeless.
i hear ya. i'm gonna be a "super senior" next year, and then once i graduate i still have to go to grad school for a phd (in physical therapy)and spend more moolah for the extra edumacation, before i can make bank!
ihop is the shit. during the summer they had these carrot cake pancakes. they had cream cheese icing and they were effing delicious.
insidethemusicbox11 3 years ago
you should do somthing with public speaking
Zoinkies321 3 years ago
The mysteries in life are nothing to get down about. Let life come at you as it will. You will tackle them and be just fine. Have you ever thought of going on missions? Perhaps that'd help you find more of yourself.
mitathehermita 3 years ago
Girl, thats what I have always said. A masters is minimum. The bachelors degree is considered equivalent to a high school diploma these days, pretty much. :/
melaniestevens 3 years ago
Courtney is crunk people =)
In my prayers love, keep your pretty little head up.
amberfersure 3 years ago
i love you Courtney. Im sitting here at 8:30am still havent slept and i think you are such an inspiration. My parayers are with you. Right now and always will be.
Keep on Smiling and Remember you are Gorgeous and God Loves You and Will Set you on the right path xxxxxx
ambida 3 years ago
anyway, the point of my rambling comment is that i dont think you are alone. i dont think MOST college students know what they want. i think communication is a good major for you, you are a very enteraining, amazing speaker. you could do a lot of communications, not many people are good speakers or know how to communicate effectively. i think you are gorgeous. 112 lbs is NOT very much. ive never commented, i dont think but ive been watching your videos since 07. take care, merry christmas
elfinsox 3 years ago
courtney, i love you. i love your videos. i can completely relate to this one. i'm a journalism and mass communication major and outlook = not good for journalists right now. my GPA is crap, idk how i'll get into grad school. my days at good, i have lots of good stuff in my life now too, but like you said, at the end of the day i just hurt. it will take me 5.5 years to get my BA too (i'm currently half way through year 4). i transfered once, i think you said in a previous video you transfered to
elfinsox 3 years ago
Merry Christmas Courtney!!! I'm a junior in college and I'm stressing out about the future too! but no worries I am praying for you. I only wish I could find one girl like you at my college to be friends with, you are such a joy!
sarahcanbbeautiful 3 years ago
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eat a big mac you anorexic bitch
kill animals bitch
qwertythecomputer 3 years ago
Go be an ass hole elsewhere
JiGsAwMoFo 3 years ago
you should be a comedian!
love the accent ;)
buffgirl1986 3 years ago 2
i relate in a way. i'm hopefully going to graduate (on time) with a BS in Psych but i'm relapsing horribly so i'm going to take time from school. and you need at least a masters for decent job in the field, not that i can't really be too good at it when i'm this sick.
good luck! you'll find a way!
allyson87 3 years ago
Do broadcasting,become a reporter
bncooltina 3 years ago
RE 7:01 - Hurting about tomorrow is becoming more common since our once great, freedom loving, capitalist society is now unfortunately leaning towards socialism. It's very depressing. Our freedoms and OPPORTUNITIES are diminishing. These are the kind of blues that can go far beyond the holidays. Stay strong. I love your charisma. Keep it up. You're doing great. Thanks for another terrific video. Life's a balancing act. Follow the Lord's word in the Bible. Merry Christmas Courtney. God Bless You.
gfp163 3 years ago
Don't worry Courtney! You're getting older, putting on weight, etc. Soon you'll have hot flashes and be talking about menopause. JK, cheer up, you could still be back here with us in Michigan. If that were the case you certainly would be out a job and freezing your tiny little 112-pound boobies off!! You're a lucky girl!
webcompanion 3 years ago
I wish I was 112 lb ::Sobs, jealous:: hope things get better for you babe!
-Lochness
ShaeAogiri 3 years ago
I've lost the fire too.
AleeIsCool 3 years ago
you need to work in Television,you got a great personality,its never boring watching your vids,Peace
TexarkanaBraveheart 3 years ago
You talk about the things i feel every day! Happy Hlidays! Stay happy and safe!
LynnM86 3 years ago
5:00
IF I was a babe. LIFT WEIGHTS a few times a week. the other days, light cardio or HIT cardio.
THIS WILL CHANGE how the body uses energy....which bring the changes you want. once this happens you can eat like a fat kid occasionally and stay super lean in the process. chicks are irrational when it comes to food. they are hopeless for figuring this shit out on their own.
EATPROTEINgetHUGeRus 3 years ago
Today is my 64th birthday. In my 20s I worked as an assembler in a parts factory with college not even in my future. Now I'm retired after 25 years as a successful attorney. Since childhood I asked God for his will in my life, and was disappointed in the number of obvious doors that shut in my face,
but I was directed through other doors,
doors that led to far better places for me.
Places of usefulness as well as much personal reward. My advice: Just do the next indiciated thing and be led.
BrightestAngel 3 years ago
Hey Girl. I know its hard not to worry. I'm in the same situation. The only way im going to make any money is by putting my ass in grad school. But keep this verse in mind.. it helps me. Proverbs 19:21 Many are the plans in a mans heart, but it is the Lords purpose that prevails.
Girl the Lord is going to take care of you. He plans to give you hope and a future!
avm5027 3 years ago
Hang in there Courtney. Lots of us are going through the same thing. We'll find our way someday. Don't give up. Enjoy the holidays. Merry Christmas.
Pridonian 3 years ago
have you ever thought of being a childcare specialist?? look it up.
musikroxmysox13 3 years ago
courtney! you will be OK! OMG! harvest grain and nut pancakes are like heaven on a plate!
I seriously was kinda bummed tonight when i got home...and i saw i had a subscription..and got all excited to see you were my new subscription...I know ur bummed...but you are still awesome and were able to perk me up. Everything happens for a REASON! and i am sorry you are sad. but time will make you feel better!
lukeygirl21 3 years ago
Many wishes of tidings and joy for you this holiday season Courtney!! And hang in there... you're one tough cookie, I'm sure these down feelings will eventually pass. *hugs*
rsvpceline 3 years ago
You're awesome. And a HUGE inspiration to me.
KeepDancingThrough 3 years ago
courtey! it'll all get better in time. im lookin for a job too! have a woderful crhistmas ang i pray things get better
sonotyou 3 years ago
Keep up all you're hard work!! It will pay off in the end no matter what. And like you said, it's all about family and friends, the people you love and the people who love you.. surround yourself with that love and things will be much more graceful all around. Bless you and happy holidays... be safe!
nicreil 3 years ago
hey, glad to see your back, I was getting worried! x
blossomingrosesophie 3 years ago
your are beautiful wounderful, and so smart.
I love your videos and i hate to see you this way.
Keep your head up your amazing and you can do anything.
suzy1987q 3 years ago
read a couple chapters of ecclesiastes baby girl! it will level out things a little bit.
ps- 3 months ago i was 99 pounds....
i am now 118. KILL ME! but life is much more peaceful so i cant deny that. im right there with ya ;)
oddreyrose 3 years ago
here is some comfort and joy from sugar the dog. ;-)
girlonlaptop 3 years ago
P.s. 112 is my goal lol ... depressed now :( haha ;]
you're amazing inside and out, merry christmas courtney.
REBARBATIVEbec 3 years ago
Wow, you've done well to stick in College for 6 years! If I knew I was gonna be there that long, I would be a child psychologist. Have you done psychology as a minor subject at all? Maybe you could work hard at that if you have and find some way to use it in the future :)
REBARBATIVEbec 3 years ago
Communications degrees are a great base for a career in Journalism.
CatchFlipsidE 3 years ago
Courtney! first off, 112 is not bad..as for the jiggling, it would help tons if you lifted weights at the gym..with my ED, i went up and down with the weight, but at times i would look better at a heavier weight (i.e. 112) because my muscles were toned. also, i really believe that you should aim to be a broadcast journalist. you'd be perfect for it! :) hang in there! something miraculous will happen and you'll know what to do.
lavinadat 3 years ago
Sometimes (most of the time) im discouraged about what im going to do but i think everyone does and it will pass, like everything else best of luck figuring it out, but i will tell you, you're very good at speaking lol u should do something with that haha
potgoddessx420x 3 years ago
harvest grain and nut pancakes are my favvv!!
watchoutimblonde 3 years ago
You could be a Counsoller & Therapist for children. That way you can see them for a bit, help them, tell their parents waht a bad job they are doing and still walk away with a bigger pay check. Or do child rearing seminars or something like Tony Robbins does. You have the gift of getting people excited. You have so much energy. Look at how many if us thrive on your videos. Your awesome Courtney.
DamienSteel 3 years ago
You are truly amazing! I have watched all of your videos for the past... I think few years now. I am begining to realize yes make goals for the future but you really have to live in the moment take life as it comes because no matter how well you have things planned there are always going to be curve balls and reagardless of anything if God wants something for you he is going to send it your way.
rmgarc5 3 years ago
The constant craving for food is totally normal for people recovering from eating disorders, just so you know... for like, years after. I've been pretty much recovered for three years and I'm still slightly obsessed with food. That's just the way it goes.
Also, there's nothing wrong with a little materialism. Don't feel guilty. You're only human :).
CsixHtwelve0six 3 years ago
I am going to pray for you hun.
I know a lil how you feel, I completed my degree in May - I work 16 hours a week on minimum wage. I can't get a job. I am trying to recover, & ended up clinically overweight. I feel abanded but I remember the Lord has plans to prosper and not to harm you. Acknowledge Him in all your ways and He will make your paths straight.
Remember He is prepareing you for what Has has already has prepared for you.
love you. Merry Christmas, may you be truely blessed.xx
Taradastara 3 years ago
Marry someone who is really smart and/or rich and you'll never have to worry about it! lol. Honestly though... I am going to pursue my career, but I figure if I marry someone who is really successful, you are set.
You should go into broadcast journalism. You'd be FANTASTIC at it. I'm going to major in print journalism, but if I wasn't, I'd go for broadcast... although it is pretty competitive.
I've thought about being a teacher as well-but I also dont want to settle for less.
crayolasky 3 years ago
Poor court! For college - you are nearly there, just hang in. For the masters... that's up to you. If you would rather not do it then don't... it's something you could come back to in a couple of years if you feel you need one.
For the cravings and eating... I'd say it's a combination of feeling down & winter. People do tend to eat more during winter... and feeling down doesn't help. It'll balance out, don't freak out about it just yet! You just need to pick up ur spirits!
Happy Christmas x
shadofsunshine 3 years ago
Courtney ... I just asked my tiny little conversion widget what 112 pounds would be in metric kilograms. And let me tell you - it is like I expected: It's anything else, but it's not too much. Full stop.
And in contrast to your pregnant friend - her cravings are the those or her body, but your cravings are those of your soul. The stuff you mentioned is propably extremely good for your soul. You shouldn't follow them all, but do it now and then, and try to feel good about it while you do.
xOREGx 3 years ago
You should be a broadcast journalist, you have the personality for it. Grad school for journalism is like a year and a half. I'm pursuing print journalism myself.
vintagenarcissa 3 years ago
Marry rich! And do what you like on the side..Sorry..I'm just living in the real world. You are pretty, smart, have a great persoanlity, but, trust me..marry rich and do what you like on the side. I did and I've never been happier! lol
LilPea29 3 years ago
You are definitely a "personality". I see you as a standard household television personality. Put one foot in front of the other on the path to broadcasting. Go for what you want. It may take time, but you'll get there. You didn't major in communications for nothing. I ditched my plans for communications at age 20. I so regret it. Life is short. Kids are great - done the teaching thing too. Go for your dream and stop stressing. You are more than your weight.And 112 pounds is still underweight.
kokema1 3 years ago
let me tell you...I have applied to 50 (read that again...FIFTY) jobs and I do not have a job yet. I dont know where you are, but I am in Virginia..I jusr graduated with a B.S. in Human Services, and nothing. soooo....You're not alone with the whole 'I don't know what to do with my life because I don't want to make 20,000 a year!' Cheers for being materialistic aka realistic!!!
emilyohemily 3 years ago
Well my comment probably won't make a difference because i feel like i'll be repeting myself from everyone else here, but hummmmm YOU ARE STRONG and INTELLIGENT! Don't worry about it. Keep having faith. I love, we all love you, you are great, a great discovery blog that makes me want to recover!
chixalove 3 years ago
112 lbs is seriously not that much. I mean, I know it's a lot to you because you've been so much lower, but you were also a lot more unhealthy at your low weights. Besides, you look great! What's there to worry about? :)
Anyway, I will keep you in my thoughts, dear. I hope your life starts to make more sense to you as time goes on. *hugs*
shrinerspark 3 years ago
112 lbs is so much better than a 90/100 lb starving girl. You're looking great Courtney, for real. & things will work out for you ;)
Lagellys 3 years ago 2
courtney- i will lift you up in my prayers hon!!! i hope you find your spirit again, and truly- you ARE an amazing example of what recovery is like. i know we all have our up's and down's..but you stay so optimistic! and you know, a number on a scale is just a number on a scale. it holds no judgment. thats all what we want to believe. Peace and Love and Good Tidings! <33
chanohman06 3 years ago
i live in california which is super expensive and i live off of less then 20,000 a year. i spend most of my money on UC- if i didn't have to do that, i'd be so set with 20,000 a year.
aliyahcline 3 years ago
I'm sorry Courtney, I think we all have these times. It's not about not eating all those great foods, it's just about eating some not all the food. I'm having a hard time too!
Lauradool 3 years ago
Working with kids has sadly been regarded as babysitting when in fact, it is so much more. If you're interested I can share a bit about what I do and what my plans are...I am currently applying for a doctorate and I work with kids now and will be doing the same in the future. I will pray that you find your way and receive some much needed comfort. I'm not sure if you realize how much of an impact you already have on so many people...it is possible your journey has already begun.
CookieDolly 3 years ago
It's always a pleasure to see you :] I feel your pain, really I do. Hope you figure it all out.
missburn 3 years ago
Courtney, all these fears and wants and concerns are ridiculously normal. Nearly every 21 - 26 year old is in the same boat. Seriously, all my friends say the same shit and think they're the only ones freaking out about this stuff, but we all are!
Hey, maybe you should work in PR or fundraising, like maybe for school. If you did something admin/support-related for a school, then you could be around kids but not have to deal with them.
sarahwinsagain 3 years ago
i think you are so cool and you definitely have not lost your fire!!! keep on talking about your internal battles, because that always helps to get it out. i love your vids and you're so pretty and tidy and a majority of people doesn't know what he or she wants either, me included... but it's not about that...
cheeseandbread 3 years ago
...and then things will fall into place. Most things in life are that way.
And we don't have IHOP in Canada! :(
Stetthat 3 years ago
Shame on those IHOP people. False advertising at its CRUELEST! Did you know that IHOP stands for INTERNATIONAL house of pancakes. The people of Canada demand PANCAKES. Write your local legislator. Thank you for your encouragement! Hope, hope, hope. Oh, I need it!
courtneyblaircameron 3 years ago
.... Yes we do. Where in Canada are you?
poshhotel 3 years ago
Courney, I gotta tell you, every time I watch a video of yours I always think, "How could anyone not love this chick?" You're hilarious and awesome.
And as for your bachelor's: I did a bachelor's in communications, thinking I would just get a job for a little while after and then go on to get a masters. Turns out I'm so good at my job now that that's more valuable than if I had a masters anyway. See what I mean? You just need to get your foot in the door, make a name for yourself that way...
Stetthat 3 years ago
Hey, What are you so down about. I mean all you have to do in life is make millions and marry me. Thats not to hard is it. hehe... I hope you have a Merry Christmas Courtney and you get to cheering up soon.
RedWhiteandBetrayed 3 years ago
Clue me in on how to go about making those millions, baby.
courtneyblaircameron 3 years ago
Hmmm... Ill have to get back to you on that one. But if I win the lottery Ill call ya. HEHE. Oh and make more videos dang it. I dont see you enough anymore. Your supposed to chear me up.
RedWhiteandBetrayed 3 years ago
You look amazinnng. You are my inspiration to get well :)
skinnyybeotch 3 years ago
take the place of kelly ripa on regis and kelly!! you would be so much fun to watch on one of those shows and it goes with your major!!! do it!! and your scale is most likely broken cause you still look so tiny!!
seanandkris7 3 years ago
I'm 34 and have been in college longer than I care to admit. This is currently my 6th attempt at graduating. WOO! Christmas Sucks Ass.
You HAVE recovered well. Every day IS a battle. And you're winning.
kakera 3 years ago
There are so many people that look up to you, me being one of them! I have the same problems and its good to know that someone else is getting through them just fine....
HSTHOMPSON22 3 years ago
Cortney! You've come so far!
You know what? That scale is broken because you look great!
*sends tiding for comfort and joy*
goldendragonbringer 3 years ago
Keep your chin up!
navvellines15 3 years ago
I had choco chip pancakes todayy!!! :]
They were amazing! && get some sushi, girl! You are beautiful & such an inspiration! :] :]
mlove1307 3 years ago
You're beautiful. keep your head up we'll get through these hard times you help me out when i feel like shit so hopefully i can help you a little...let's eat pancakes!!! Lova ya
Vannabanana46 3 years ago
Girl add me as a friend!
Live in the now, not the past or the future xxxx
lilkel86 3 years ago
and alive and well! :) *cartoon voice* "hi courtney! thanks for feeding me today!! im just popping up to say hi!
you are so pretty, and so funny, and i really am just proud to see you keep going through recovery. EAT THOSE PANCAKES GIRL!! :D
<3
blondieafgirl 3 years ago
ill say a prayer for you!!! :D
it'll get better, christmas sometimes has the weird side effect of making you kinda reflect on the year or something, thereby making you freak out / get down, when in theory, we should be happy!
you have done so awesome it sounds like, with recovering, i can COMPLETELY relate, and it makes me so happy to see you, i know that sometimes every single day can seem like a food battle, but you are doing awesome. Your belly button is just letting you know its there
blondieafgirl 3 years ago
COURTNEY! TAKE A DRINK FROM THE SODA CAN! AHHHHHH *rips hair out*
WifeOfTheBeast 3 years ago
i'm 27yr and have no clue what career to have!
i have no life and no direction.
i have no idea how to find my career path.
although this is my 3rd ED xmas i can honestly say it's the 1st xmas when i don't feel festive at all!
maybe it's cause i know i want live until next xmas. :/
geriann1981 3 years ago
Keep on fighting Courtney!
I know that you can do it. I'm praying for you :)
shizzle4444 3 years ago
nannys can make 65k a year...u should check that out too! i almost nannied in NYC and i would have made a grand for 5 days of work...its insane
jlftrackstar 3 years ago