I came across your video as I think i suffer from anorexia but at 31 you kind of think its just extreme dieting. I am currently in the middle of writing my dissertation on anorexia and the Beauty Myth and you have given me a lot to think about, especially with your misconception video. Very clever girl you are and I hope you keep on the way you are, informing people of your experiences and helping people for a long time. You are a gorgeous young women, i wish you well xxxx
Your honesty and your open kindness is refreshing. This is what I needed, not just to help me with my eating problems, but with everything that I have been struggling with and have been struggling with for years. I felt a long moment of clarity while watching this, and I feel that I will be revisiting this video again.
... that just appears to be the same old one because it was crafted by the same old known enemy. We've fallen into similar traps before, and we've learned how to get out. We must always remind ourselves to cherish this knowledge, because it's something anorexia may try to make us forget, but she will never take away from us. I want to thank you for your bravery, for you persistance and for your generosity, and wish you all the strength, joy and support you surely deserve.
I don't know if you remember me, I'm that nosy brazilian anthropologist working with EDs...
I'm so glad you're back. Very few people I know would be brave enough to speak so openly and honestly about recovery as you've done in this video. I don't think "relapse" is a good word, though, because it can trick us into thinking that all our efforts and struggles were in vain, while we're been drawn into a new trap...
When I just watched ur video it made me think of a friend who has ones came up with a sentence during her recovery. People with this illness are more afraid of life than death. I'm not saying this to bring you down but to show that indeed during recovery you'll love life so much more !! I also have to make the choice every day over and over again... but I know I feel a lot better now then I did the past 5 years of my battle :-)
Hey Kat.... i just started watching your videos yesterday. I really wish I knew how to email you ... I am one of those "over 15%" never to have been diagnosed however i have been dealing with this for 20 years. So i feel like I am on my own once again. Your videos enlighten me somehow into feeling maybe im not quite so alone. I have 3 children and I don't want to choose this but I feel so tired of trying. You are inspiring.. thank you!
THANK YOU so much for all these wonderful videos. i wish i could somehow tell you how much you have helped me. in fact, as cheesy as this may sound, there have been times where i really think you've saved me.
i needed to hear this right now. i'm really struggling- especially with guilt when i feel i must be close to relapsing. i'm constantly wondering, am i being too easy on myself? or too hard? where is the right balance? but when you describe it like a learning experience, it just makes a lot more sense.
Hi Kat, I'm so glad you're back on YT. The more pro-recovery people the better. You are correct that recovery is probably a lifelong commitment. I suffered badly from anorexia for 28yrs before starting to recover when my body was finally failing. Three years into recovery I still face triggers/stresses on a daily basis, and sometimes it takes a lot of concentration to fight my inclination to turn to anorexic behaviours to try to 'cope'. I wish you all the best with your studies. Take care!
You have said amazing things about recovery in this video.You made an important revelation about clinging to recovery as if it were a religion. It has to be that way since the thoughts don't magically go away. You have to work hard to reinstate a hopeful view constantly, you found a brilliant way--videos. Many people have videos on here, what makes your's is providing a gift to see someone on here committed to life through the tough times. It's informative just to observe how you cope.
Thanks so much for this video I know how hard it is. I feel the same way I have struggled with ED's for over 9 years and have been in recovery for the last 3years. We all have those days that a very hard and the important part is to take them one day at a time. Your life is so worth it.
I think you are amazing! I really like your videos, but I specially apreciate this one and what you say about the recovery. This is THIS and it is very interesting. I worked with people with ED and your videos help me to understand them better...thank you!
I am so happy to see another video from you. What you said is very real and I think this was a great message for everyone. Even though I have been better with my eating habits I will always have those voices in my head. Everyone thinks I am alright when I have a good day, but I am still going crazy on the inside. You really help me see in a different light about it though, thank you. Can't wait to see more stuff from you. <3
Kat, it's so good to have you back making videos! You may feel like you have nothing to say, but the everyday of recovery is more important than the big events because that's what we all face all the time. And hearing someone else's story helps, a lot.
Keep praying! That's the best thing you can do! I have been where you are and there are days that I have slips, too. I've been "recovered" for almost 9 years now and somedays it's everything that I've got just to get by.
I completely understand about standing in the kitchen for hours trying to figure out what to eat. I thought I was the only one who did that!!! You're looking good. Thanks for the updates!
The beauty is within you and I see it in your vlogs. Keep doing what you're doing and don't worry about us. You and your family are the most important people in your life. I wish you blissful days of recovery ahead.
Well, this is the first video of yours, eniwekwe, that i have watched and i was surprised at just how much about your described condition i could relate to. I do not suffer from anorexia but i have been fighting off depression since my mid-teens and all the off-shoots that it can create. It is always a weight off anyone's shoulders who suffers from anything like this to hear someone like you openly talking about it. The realization to know that you are not alone cannot be underestimated.
Thank you for this video. you remind me that recovery is worth fighting for.I'm struggleing with not wanting recovery, and days I choose recovery. thank you for saying that it ok to take one meal at a time.. your a true inspirtion and beautiful strong women who I look up too.. Thank you for the bottom of my heart
Kat, thanks for your update. I've been in recovery for a year now but am still frustrated by the bad days. Thanks for reminding me (us) that relapses don't mean that recovery isn't worth it. Keep up the good work!
thank you for updating us on how you're doing and still gives us words of hope and courage. im glad you're doing better now and that your videos are still up. *hugs*
hey kat! i missed your vidos, im glad you didnt take them down. i love how you are so honest, hon. its such an inspiration, and i know right now u may be thinking 'how can i be an inspiration?' but thatas the ED voice which i know ur strong enough to block out. you are sooo brave girl, stay strong.
You should write a book about your honest experience! There are so many sugar coated fiction about this, and well, that won't help anyone. Truth, will set you free. It might also act as therapy for you, a way to vent and get things off your mind that are bothering you from day to day. :) Glad your back!
It is a great relief to hear someone admit that it's unlikely you can kick these disorders for good. I can't imagine living without the thoughts that go with disordered eating, but it's definitely realistic to imagine being able to cope with them, whilst it isn't realistic to imagine never having them again. Thank you so much for the video! Mary x
I'm sooo glad that you are back and I appreciate that you want to make more videos.
It's so good to hear a update of you and hey, you are an inspiration like you'd used to be.
I'm sorry that you relapsed but I guess it is hard to "recover for good" and I guess the most important thing is not to blame and punish you for slip ups but go on fighting against your problems.
Thanks so much, you give such great advice and I can tell its from the heart. I resonated with everything you said, taking it one meal and one day at a time. I've had my ups and downs in recovery and right now I'm trying to get out of my recent fall, but I know as you said, recovery is worth it! I look forward to watching your videos in the future! Keep working hard and stay strong!
You just described the same ups and downs of recovery that I'm going through. There are days when i don't think about it much, and there are days when every minute is a painful struggle. But, I keep fighting it.
I completely understand. Recovery will probably always consist of going back and forth. I really can relate to what you say. The whole being nice to yourself thing too, is exactly what I've been learning in my recovery. It really makes it easier.
Thank you. I'm trying to quit purging and restricting and counting, but it seems so impossible to forget all the numbers I've memorized...but thank you for this. I miss the honeymoon period of my recovery, when I was totally into it and could just feel good for eating well. That time coincided with finding your videos. I guess now it's time to rekindle the old flame and fall in love with myself again. Thank you for being my catalyst. <3
thank you for making this video. Nobody expects you to be perfect - that is not the picture of recovery. Humility and understanding is also a part of it. So thank you for talking about your good AND bad moments. it makes you real, it makes the ones who are sick have hope.
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bigbadbec30 4 months ago
I came across your video as I think i suffer from anorexia but at 31 you kind of think its just extreme dieting. I am currently in the middle of writing my dissertation on anorexia and the Beauty Myth and you have given me a lot to think about, especially with your misconception video. Very clever girl you are and I hope you keep on the way you are, informing people of your experiences and helping people for a long time. You are a gorgeous young women, i wish you well xxxx
bigbadbec30 4 months ago
Good luck you will WIN ! Are your dentures working good for you ?
Trixie3314 6 months ago
wonderull, beautifull - thank you - WE ARE WATCHING YOU
Yngland 1 year ago
Your honesty and your open kindness is refreshing. This is what I needed, not just to help me with my eating problems, but with everything that I have been struggling with and have been struggling with for years. I felt a long moment of clarity while watching this, and I feel that I will be revisiting this video again.
Thank you.
RAPISTNEAR 1 year ago
do you still have false teeth or you have a implant?
Mikelino5 1 year ago
your videos mean alot to me.
i have only just began recovery, and i can easily say your videos have helped with that. thank you. x
anasscottishgurl 2 years ago
... that just appears to be the same old one because it was crafted by the same old known enemy. We've fallen into similar traps before, and we've learned how to get out. We must always remind ourselves to cherish this knowledge, because it's something anorexia may try to make us forget, but she will never take away from us. I want to thank you for your bravery, for you persistance and for your generosity, and wish you all the strength, joy and support you surely deserve.
danieferreiraasilva 3 years ago
Hi, Kat.
I don't know if you remember me, I'm that nosy brazilian anthropologist working with EDs...
I'm so glad you're back. Very few people I know would be brave enough to speak so openly and honestly about recovery as you've done in this video. I don't think "relapse" is a good word, though, because it can trick us into thinking that all our efforts and struggles were in vain, while we're been drawn into a new trap...
danieferreiraasilva 3 years ago
You're a beautiful person and it's a process, You are still trying and that is an inspiration.
uteraldecay 3 years ago 3
Hey Cat,
When I just watched ur video it made me think of a friend who has ones came up with a sentence during her recovery. People with this illness are more afraid of life than death. I'm not saying this to bring you down but to show that indeed during recovery you'll love life so much more !! I also have to make the choice every day over and over again... but I know I feel a lot better now then I did the past 5 years of my battle :-)
Keep up the good work!!
greetings from the Netherlands
B3rn4dett3 3 years ago
Your courage to be honest is an inspiration, it does not make you a hypocrite or weak!
lubicalengenova 3 years ago 7
Hey Kat.... i just started watching your videos yesterday. I really wish I knew how to email you ... I am one of those "over 15%" never to have been diagnosed however i have been dealing with this for 20 years. So i feel like I am on my own once again. Your videos enlighten me somehow into feeling maybe im not quite so alone. I have 3 children and I don't want to choose this but I feel so tired of trying. You are inspiring.. thank you!
lamarsyankeerose 3 years ago
It's a bit of a late comment... but good luck with everything.
Aradia16 3 years ago
Thanks for making this video. I am sorry for the trauma. Hugs once again
blessed923 3 years ago
you are such an inspiration
thank you
ScarlettBlaze 3 years ago
Thank you thank you thank you!!!!!!!!!!
FlowersbloomforHim 3 years ago
THANK YOU so much for all these wonderful videos. i wish i could somehow tell you how much you have helped me. in fact, as cheesy as this may sound, there have been times where i really think you've saved me.
you're such an amazing person.
HUGS
pinkishchicaa 3 years ago
My first subscription is posting again. You've brightened my day. Thank you Kat!
magicpet 3 years ago 3
thank you so much for returning!
i needed to hear this right now. i'm really struggling- especially with guilt when i feel i must be close to relapsing. i'm constantly wondering, am i being too easy on myself? or too hard? where is the right balance? but when you describe it like a learning experience, it just makes a lot more sense.
mothwingss 3 years ago
Hi Kat, I'm so glad you're back on YT. The more pro-recovery people the better. You are correct that recovery is probably a lifelong commitment. I suffered badly from anorexia for 28yrs before starting to recover when my body was finally failing. Three years into recovery I still face triggers/stresses on a daily basis, and sometimes it takes a lot of concentration to fight my inclination to turn to anorexic behaviours to try to 'cope'. I wish you all the best with your studies. Take care!
misstiggykins 3 years ago
You have said amazing things about recovery in this video.You made an important revelation about clinging to recovery as if it were a religion. It has to be that way since the thoughts don't magically go away. You have to work hard to reinstate a hopeful view constantly, you found a brilliant way--videos. Many people have videos on here, what makes your's is providing a gift to see someone on here committed to life through the tough times. It's informative just to observe how you cope.
gypsyrose713 3 years ago
Thanks so much for this video I know how hard it is. I feel the same way I have struggled with ED's for over 9 years and have been in recovery for the last 3years. We all have those days that a very hard and the important part is to take them one day at a time. Your life is so worth it.
Hugs,
Danieal
sanzo5 3 years ago
kat, you're awesome
you've been great help
untitledxwords 3 years ago
you are s o fucking awesome!!
SuperHeroZZ 3 years ago
AND you are so clever!!
tsintsinitoula 3 years ago
you are so beautiful and true,thank you
tsintsinitoula 3 years ago
I think you are amazing! I really like your videos, but I specially apreciate this one and what you say about the recovery. This is THIS and it is very interesting. I worked with people with ED and your videos help me to understand them better...thank you!
Niglo4 3 years ago
I am so happy to see another video from you. What you said is very real and I think this was a great message for everyone. Even though I have been better with my eating habits I will always have those voices in my head. Everyone thinks I am alright when I have a good day, but I am still going crazy on the inside. You really help me see in a different light about it though, thank you. Can't wait to see more stuff from you. <3
nightsh4yd3 3 years ago
Kat, it's so good to have you back making videos! You may feel like you have nothing to say, but the everyday of recovery is more important than the big events because that's what we all face all the time. And hearing someone else's story helps, a lot.
*hugs*
imjoy393 3 years ago
you and your videos are a great help for everyone, tks for not deleting your vids
Krammerbiliar 3 years ago
Keep praying! That's the best thing you can do! I have been where you are and there are days that I have slips, too. I've been "recovered" for almost 9 years now and somedays it's everything that I've got just to get by.
I completely understand about standing in the kitchen for hours trying to figure out what to eat. I thought I was the only one who did that!!! You're looking good. Thanks for the updates!
tiggerbear3 3 years ago
Thank you Kat. Just... thank you.
tundrah 3 years ago
Kat, I've been a silent subscriber for a long time. I just want to say how much your honesty helps.
wisetara 3 years ago
The beauty is within you and I see it in your vlogs. Keep doing what you're doing and don't worry about us. You and your family are the most important people in your life. I wish you blissful days of recovery ahead.
hungerhurtsme 3 years ago
I'm sure that there are plenty of people who will appreciate your videos. I wish you the best and good luck with everything, Bye. :-)
DragonsTooth 3 years ago
Well, this is the first video of yours, eniwekwe, that i have watched and i was surprised at just how much about your described condition i could relate to. I do not suffer from anorexia but i have been fighting off depression since my mid-teens and all the off-shoots that it can create. It is always a weight off anyone's shoulders who suffers from anything like this to hear someone like you openly talking about it. The realization to know that you are not alone cannot be underestimated.
DragonsTooth 3 years ago
Thank you for this video. you remind me that recovery is worth fighting for.I'm struggleing with not wanting recovery, and days I choose recovery. thank you for saying that it ok to take one meal at a time.. your a true inspirtion and beautiful strong women who I look up too.. Thank you for the bottom of my heart
hope164 3 years ago
Yay, glad to see you're back! I can't believe it was almost a year.
Switchbldekitten 3 years ago
Thank you so much for making these videos Kat...and welcome back! I missed you!
welcometothejungle21 3 years ago
Kat, thanks for your update. I've been in recovery for a year now but am still frustrated by the bad days. Thanks for reminding me (us) that relapses don't mean that recovery isn't worth it. Keep up the good work!
bburney06 3 years ago
Thank you so much for posting this and talking about how you don't have to let the bad moments rule :-) your videos help so much.
girleatbadger 3 years ago
thank you for updating us on how you're doing and still gives us words of hope and courage. im glad you're doing better now and that your videos are still up. *hugs*
catcarmelo 3 years ago
I agree that you are a wonderfully eloquent speaker. I wonder what you're studying? Thanks for making my day more hopeful.
fraulein40 3 years ago 2
thank you fraulein.
i am studying social work. :) i figure helping people is where i should be
eniwekwe 3 years ago 2
I think you are so, so wonderful.
kayteeee99 3 years ago
hey kat! i missed your vidos, im glad you didnt take them down. i love how you are so honest, hon. its such an inspiration, and i know right now u may be thinking 'how can i be an inspiration?' but thatas the ED voice which i know ur strong enough to block out. you are sooo brave girl, stay strong.
OSnapski 3 years ago
missed you!!
not2stoopid 3 years ago
Good 2 see ur back n that things are better! :)
diva05876534 3 years ago
kat my precious...come here *gives her a nose kiss*
*rub rub rub*
acurx 3 years ago
your trying thats the important thing......
mindyslove 3 years ago
thank you for the update!! *huggles* Hope to see you on the site soon!
GodsGirlManda 3 years ago
You should write a book about your honest experience! There are so many sugar coated fiction about this, and well, that won't help anyone. Truth, will set you free. It might also act as therapy for you, a way to vent and get things off your mind that are bothering you from day to day. :) Glad your back!
deviantgirl86 3 years ago 3
I agree, you should write a book :) I know I'd read it
mexicanmayhem07 3 years ago 2
You are such an amazing eloquent speaker. You would seriously make an excellent educator therapist.
psychetruth 3 years ago 2
Kat, you are such an inspiration to all of us!!
Thanks for being so honest.
FranFromBrazil 3 years ago 3
This is such an honest and therefore amazing video. Please dont delete you videos, they are amazing and so helpful to me and im sure others. x
thisismyspacebugoff 3 years ago 3
OOPs!!!! I apologize! That darn WMC! That friggin loud Scooby Doo was on my end!
happyquails 3 years ago
Please turn down the TV :)
happyquails 3 years ago
It is a great relief to hear someone admit that it's unlikely you can kick these disorders for good. I can't imagine living without the thoughts that go with disordered eating, but it's definitely realistic to imagine being able to cope with them, whilst it isn't realistic to imagine never having them again. Thank you so much for the video! Mary x
marykeniger 3 years ago 3
Kat I am glad to see you again. You have helped us soo much. I love wtaching ur documentaries. Very informative! God bless you
genieshanu 3 years ago
Kat you are a blessing
shaundraivy 3 years ago
Welcome back lovely Kat!
I'm sooo glad that you are back and I appreciate that you want to make more videos.
It's so good to hear a update of you and hey, you are an inspiration like you'd used to be.
I'm sorry that you relapsed but I guess it is hard to "recover for good" and I guess the most important thing is not to blame and punish you for slip ups but go on fighting against your problems.
Hugs,
Judith
crazymadonna 3 years ago
Thanks so much, you give such great advice and I can tell its from the heart. I resonated with everything you said, taking it one meal and one day at a time. I've had my ups and downs in recovery and right now I'm trying to get out of my recent fall, but I know as you said, recovery is worth it! I look forward to watching your videos in the future! Keep working hard and stay strong!
elbie1230 3 years ago
Thanks so much for posting again! Welcome back!
You just described the same ups and downs of recovery that I'm going through. There are days when i don't think about it much, and there are days when every minute is a painful struggle. But, I keep fighting it.
changingone77 3 years ago 2
I completely understand. Recovery will probably always consist of going back and forth. I really can relate to what you say. The whole being nice to yourself thing too, is exactly what I've been learning in my recovery. It really makes it easier.
justagurl23 3 years ago
Thank you. I'm trying to quit purging and restricting and counting, but it seems so impossible to forget all the numbers I've memorized...but thank you for this. I miss the honeymoon period of my recovery, when I was totally into it and could just feel good for eating well. That time coincided with finding your videos. I guess now it's time to rekindle the old flame and fall in love with myself again. Thank you for being my catalyst. <3
amortussique 3 years ago 2
Keep on fighting, life is strong! We will always be here and wait for you the periods you're feeling down^^
athiria 3 years ago
thank you for making this video. Nobody expects you to be perfect - that is not the picture of recovery. Humility and understanding is also a part of it. So thank you for talking about your good AND bad moments. it makes you real, it makes the ones who are sick have hope.
jennfriedman 3 years ago 8