man.... i wish you were in my family.... i mean where do you go from now? im medicated and i've always felt i wasnt crazy because all my breakdowns orignated while attending church..i mean if you dont have any family to support you where do you go from there? they all think i'm crazy and have alienated me..
I can tell you when I do hear voices its God and I have a true one on one relationship with Jesus and he helps me out and is my guide . I never stop trying to stop walking in Jesus foot steps trying to be as Christ like that I can be like. There are people in my church who see me as a evil devil. That hurts my feeling I dunno what to do but forgive them.
I also got "visions" of the creation of male and female, in it's deepest, and in every sense. Things along the lines of the female side of creation being the form, and the male side being the energy or power that holds up, and shapes the form. That male in physical colours is red, and blue is female. That everything created can be seen as male and female, and humans are the most complex and beautiful expressions of these principles. Have you or anyone experienced this at a really profound level?
Hi Sean, Thanks very much for this video. It is practically an exact resumé of what I experienced for the first time 25 years ago, and repeatedly after that. The imagery is brilliant - so helpful to describe such a profoundly vivid happening.
Because of actual evidence I eventually got myself a genuine Bible education. I've been studying it for about 9 years now. It confirmed some things, like the possibilty of everlasting life on earth, and most importantly, love.
everytime i go into my "Jesus State . my right hand automatically goes up , the same way Jesus's hand goes up in pictures of him. i dont think about it, it just happens, plus when it happens anyone i believe isn't on my side immediately comes to me and starts asking me random things or telling me random things. they can even be in another room and they automatically come to me. i give up once i get scared and let my "ego" take over again. anyone else have anything close to this??????
I appreciate your vision, always have. I find it incredible that the experiences are so simular to so many. It speaks to a very human consciousness. (or simply cponsciounsess itself.)
Anyway, it is a shame/sickness when your ego belives it concretely.Thereafter you ware yourself crazy by trying to constantly redefine all in light of your self important dream. Which itself was only a reflection,do not marvel,its all unreal.
But i still really wish there where nice aleins to take me home.
@insanezenmistress That point about the 'concrete' interpretaion is SO important. It was my main reason for making 2 videos on 'tribal level' consciousness...so that I could explain concrete thinking and where it comes from! Happy someone out there gets it!
depression is the holding on to old joy. two people that help me out are the hugging saint (amma) and paramahansa nithyananda both on youtube. amma for colors and emotions, nithy for anwers.
Thank You SO MUCH for posting this,I finally can feel at peace after 11yrs of researching my own diagnosis of Bipolar type I,and feel like I'm not alone!! you have explained evrything that has happened to me,just about. its amazing! I always thought it was called hyper religious experience. Thank you thank you thank you!!
I had a nervous breakdown 1 mo before i graduated college- said i was Jesus! I took some anti-psychotics for a short while, then stopped. I feel 'right' now- don't think I'm Jesus or anything, but the world makes sense now.
Also, they let me come back after a year and graduate- YAY! I majored in Mathematics and Philosophy- and smoked a LOT of pot: i suggest staying away from all three, unless you like questioning the fundamentals of why you exist. I regret noting- I'm at peace.
@wonderhappyness Well, in this case, with this video, I am focusing on why so many people think that they are Jesus or like some sort of messiah. It is a very common occurence. My other videos tend to have less religious imagery, however, it can't be ignored as its so present. I use buddha a lot as well, and talk about shamanism at length in video #16.
I had this happen a year ago. It included a big serving of hyper sexuality. I'm thinking because I was so emotionally shut down. Passion was the word. Now I have fluxing contraction in my head whenever I'm awake. It feels real good. Really. It's not effecting my sexuality like it did last May. Do I get to keep it? Does anyone know what I'm talking about? My pupils dilate slightly with the fluxes.
true every word. there is only one "syntom" of psychosis missing, one that i had. that everyone in the world is just a proyection, that they don't exist. that everything is unreal.
Ppl hav a habit of associating the moments of their own reawakening to their full potential,as spiritual beings,with what be the religion of their day (even when its not defined as religion)
As apposed to allowing their reawakening to simply be,their brain tells them to imprint it over a concept they find/found,they intellectualize it into a construct
The flaw here is that the mind can't conceive infinity whilst the heart is infinite
@bipolarorwakingup Yea of coarse:) Your meditation was great too, I did it last night:) But seriously man, I want you to know how amazing and immensely helpful you vids are. People are lost in the changes. Your vids show a path out of that confusion. I seen a comment about you and Oprah, we're you on Oprah? Got a link?
@energetically1 I had a few people comment that "I should be on Oprah", but I haven't done any interviews anywhere yet. I have a book which should be for sale on Amazon.com (self-published) in about 6 months or so.
When that happens, I'll start trying to do interviews, but I doubt Oprah will be calling!
First off your vids changed my life over 1 yr ago:) Thank you so much for that. You do great work! I revisited this particular one cos all of the "psychosis" in this vid happened recently, All of them:) I didn't attach myself to any of it and remained as subjective as I possibly could, even though the world got really weird. For 2 months it lasted and it felt like I was being shown something. So I simply observed it while keeping one eye on my ego's version of reality. I feel blessed for it:)
But his writing used to be phenomenal and ingenious. I mean, it really gets deeper and deeper with each listen. The band is called Say Anything, and their best stuff is mainly on "Is a Real Boy" and "In Defense of the Genre". Just in case you want to look into them :) and BTW, "This is Fucking Ecstasy" is about his psychotic episode. Not their best song though.
Holy shit! This was so validating for me. I have never been able to articulate what happened to me when I went into psychosis. Thank you for understanding me and breaking it down. The "all knowing" was the world made perfect sense and everything was happening just as it should. It is truly a sprirtual experience and thanks for putting it to me that way. I have always seen was just how sick I was. Not anymore. THANK YOU!!!!!
Wow, this is very interesting; I've had all the described symptoms after reading James Redfield's "The Celestine Prophecy", and more importantly his "The Tenth Insight". I was diagnosed with acute psychosis, admitted in a mental hospital and medicated with neuroleptics. I never felt ill though, but enlightened. Thanks for the video.
Wow, this is very interesting; I've had all the symptoms described after reading James Redfield's "The Celestine Prophecy", and more importantly Redfiled's "The Tenth Insight". I was diagnosed with acute psychosis, admitted in a mental hospital and medicated with neuroleptics. I never felt ill though, but enlightened. Thank you so much for this.
thank you thank you thank you! I have bipolar and a few years ago i had a vision of being in a desert at the magic hour with many people sitting around listening to me telling stories. I have tried to run away from these feelings until recently...they just wouldn't let me go! I have had Jesus delusions (not that I am, but that he walked with me.) Thank you so much.
I have gone through 3 episodes of Psychotic Bipolar etc etc. This video describes EXACTLY what I have gone through. I became Jesus etc. One thing I have always found strange is communicating telepathically with loved ones through photos, and the acting going on all around you. Also, magazines and TV can be fun when the people on TV are watching you and interacting with you on your couch!
@nathanheathdavies Yup, Oprah had all kinds of things to say to me! Even though I`d touched on the spiritual experiences of BD in earlier vids, I put this one together because this group of `symptoms` is the most common group of spiritual experiences which happen to people, and usually all come together. Glad you enjoyed it!
This only happened to me once, but I had all of these, especially the "tested by god" one. I remember talking to my husband on and on about the physical plane and the spiritual plane
Cool Vid again Sean. You are well educated and grounded.
My question is how will all of your research get recognised by the AMA?
The way I see it is : Up until now the field of psyche has not actually included the subtle aspects of the human being. How would a psychiatrist respond to me if I say that there is a part of me everywhere all at once and that part interacts with me via high frequency radiation is received and transmitted via my DNA.
@kundalinikrew My whole plan when I started these videos was based on one assumption...that eventually, people would start to gravitate to these ideas on their own, because they reflect their life experience. Trying to convince people is of no use. People only think what they are ready to think....that´s the one thing I can´t control.
@kundalinikrew I do not care what the doctors have told me. I have been through more than I care to describe in such a medium and quite honestly, this makes so much more sense to me than any ambiguous explanation psychiatrists (multiple) have provided me.
THIS VIDEO IS SO AWESOME I REALLY UNDERSTAND IT I LIVED FELLING LIKE THAT YEARS AGO GOD BLESS YOU FOR YOUR INSIGHT AND GIFT OF BI POLAR .FOR ITS NOT A BURDEN WE ARE JUST VERY INTUITED!
When I get manic I can answer many questions on Sale of the Century, sometimes half way through the question being asked. When reading a book I can predict what will happen in the next chapter with such clarity that I have to convince myself that I have NOT read the book before. I sometimes dream in maths and will talk with Math professors from Universities about the content only to find the math is correct, sometimes brilliantly so. Then Dr's medicate me and the knowledge stops. Then I sleep:)
I am bipolar and everything you say in your videos seems very true. When I was on like a 4 month manic episode I thought I was God and was on top of the world. When I was in the hospital I thought I was shooting a movie everytime. It is a very interesting feeling, I thought/did predict everything that was going to happen. I wonder sometimes if so called delusions gives us a hint of what the afterlife is like? I also stopped taking all medicine and seem normal again...hmmm
yeah, many experiences that are described in religions make people want to say something most extremely positive about them, and i would not blame them.
however, i would rather find it beneficial to avoid attributing metaphysical, mystical and spiritual meanings, because it is easy to start stroking ego that way.
and if ego can be stroked, there is motivation to throw common sense out of the window and start dramatizing.
what about a healthy degree of skepticism instead?
@orkishiswithk That's a good one. And you are correct, as I stated in the video, some people have the spiritual experience and it simply 'sticks' to their ego, leaving them stuck in the disorder. However, skepticism of the spiritual validity of the experience will only invalidate what is experienced by the person going through it. And once invalidation occurs, depression and a lifetime of meds is usually not far behind. cont....
@bipolarorwakingup for my own practical reasons, i am currently concerned with people attributing metaphysical meaning to insignificant minor details that they have not experienced or just not noticed before.
so, it is about minor details causing confusion along the way before the interesting experience (not after).
and usually the goal of the dramatization is to reach the 'how terrible' type of ego-stroking.
minor detail with metaphysical meaning can cause big panic.
@orkishiswithk Cont'd....the key is to validate the spiritual aspects, accepting them as they appear to your own experience, but then continuing the non-ordinary state process in a supportive environment. If that can happen, the person in psychosis will reach a point where he must make in inner decision involving the death of his current ego.
@bipolarorwakingup here we seem to have clarified the differences in our preferences.
i am not saying that the experiences should be invalidated, i am saying that without attributing metaphysical meanings, getting to those experiences can be much less confusing.
if a metaphysical or spiritual meaning is attributed to something, it very quickly becomes a colossal pseudo-rational construct where the original experience 'as it is' becomes somewhat lost in my opinion.
@orkishiswithk For many people in the experiences, they are inherently mystical as direct experience. It is a sensation of 'death' or 'god', or 'evil' etc...that overwhelms you. However, for those who don't see it that way (or entirely that way) I agree...no need to lay on a layer of spiritual interpretation if that does not reflect your direct experience. Many people see their psychosis as having some spiritual aspects, but not a totally spiritual experience.
@bipolarorwakingup is it really that the main purpose of the series of videos was just to contradict the 'chemical imbalance' attitude?
i never watched the videos from that point of view (maybe because no one has ever tried to medicate me), and i would say the videos are still interesting for several other points that you make.
@orkishiswithk No, that's not the main purpose at all. I haven't gone after psychiatry much. Instead, I've chosen to present another model and I'll let those who gravitate to it, do so. Fighting takes too much energy...
@orkishiswithk Cont'd....#3 As I mentioned in the video..the ego-death feels like a real death, you will not know the difference. If that ego-death occurs, the disorder should be able to heal, and any ego inflation will dissipate.
@spaceage614 I use 'delusions' because that's what most people know them as, that's all. I'm not being judgemental about it. Mind you, many of these experiences (like me thinking I was dead) are not factually true, but reflect a deeper truth that is happening within us, like the awakeing of our Christ consciousness.
I thought I was the messais in my first psychosis. In my last I thought I was a secret agent. Everytime I think I am something special and I have special meaning to the world. That something special is about to happen if I just follow my intuition. This way I was wandering in citys without any direction. Just walking and cycling to nowhere till eventually I did something crazy and the police got me. What does this mean?
I also discovered that in those states you cannot question the expereince - looking back I realise that is because the spirit is beyond doubt and question.
under a rock and I am there - or whatever it was he said. I also thought I was a bhudda, and a reincarnation of Jesus. I understand what it all means now for when it happens next time - don't try and explain the indescripable because people will think you are bonkers - well they did with me.
I had an up episode last year and got locked away by the police! Bastards! I was laughing alot - I dont think they are used to happy people. I would of appeared to be delusional - when they asked me my name I said I was Thor! And that I lived on Penny Lane! I really didn't understand. I think when you are in that state your brain doesnt see labels - everything is basically the same. You dont see that you are different than other beings - hence the mix ups. Its like what Jesus says - find me
When I was experiencing psychosis, I was in jail, and I thought I was dead, and the jail was some sort of purgatory. I went through many of these steps you describe. Luckily I have found your videos and am better able to understand what I went through. Thank You!!!
@daddymocean I had the same purgatory psychosis when I was ill with Pneumonia, sleep deprived and with drawl from drugs. It was so real and lasted for weeks and after I felt really better and renewed
amazing how he knows this the first time i went thru psychosis i thought i was dead and that i was walking around ant that nobody could see me and then i heard the voice of god telling me to go outside wow
Had to watch this for the "Upteenth" time- I hope you get some big time media coverage soon. Keeping you and your mission in my thoughts always! Much Love to you and yours.
bipolar is due to the shift of the north and south poles causing a vibrational shift in our nuerotransmitters. we enter a amazing higher demension its a sort of spiritual emergency. people who have mania episodes are usually full of stress (demons). the psychology department (illuminati) have fed us the delusions that were chemically imbalanced and need fatal destructive psycotropic drugs. we reach the god level the highest demension we possess all knowledge and can do anything. god bless
The references to trying to save the world and moving to a higher dimension really struck a chord with me. I never heard anyone describe these bipolar delusions before and have experienced both of these. They are very good explanations of bipolar disorder. I dont buy into the spiritual enlightenment theory though, to me its just a chemical inbalance. Excellent video none the less. Well worth watching.
and when the false self collapses at age four ... and mania doesn't set in with the aha moment until age 43,
but the knowledge that you are the embodiment of GOD,
"for such a time as this", begin going public at 52 and can't rest until you are believed; what then ??? When at 55 you know you're as awake as you'll ever be ???
I think this is a wonderful and enlightened way to look at Christ consciousness... I believe it is an awakening.. I have never had it but am close to someone who has.. it makes sense to me.. If it didnt most in the Bible would have suffered from mental illness... Thankyou for a great post
Also, I'd like to mention that the experience you describe sounds similar to what I would call "Christ consciousness," but not exactly. It's more like the experience resulting from too many psychedelic drugs or a too fast kundalini awakening; a glimpse at the nature of mind is glimpsed beyond ego, but it is a flood of confusion rather than a true "awakening." It is certainly eye-opening and significant, but the term "awakening" is not accurate since it leads to further confusion and delusion.
Well, even for me, the confusion and delusion you talk about is actually part of the awakening process. That is why this process is so deeply misunderstood. Spiritual awakenings are supposed to be calm, peaceful experiences. In truth, the biographies of most mystics are filled with experiences of apparent madness. The peace comes once the storm is over.
I think it's up to the individual and the process. You seem to be dealing with the shock of it pretty well. Gradual awakening is easier w/o apparent madness, but we don't all get that option.
It sounds like you've researched the great mystery traditions and also practice some of the methods, such as meditation. Others have a completely different set of ideas about reality and don't come out of psychosis for the better, unfortunately, such as the case with 2 of my 3 bipolar friends.
maybe they just need more time, but 1 is going on at least a decade now and he's just getting more obsessed with Nietzsche and Hitler. The other one is going on 20 years and he's just really fragile and totally dependent on Catholicism to even get through the day.
What your friend need is 'lama'-like support. Without good support (See #11) its almost impossible for most people to come through, and even then there is no guarantee.
Thanks for this. It's interesting to hear from the perspective of someone who's been through it.
What I would love to know is WHY it doesn't "click" in the delusional person's head that this is a delusion. I have a friend currently going through this. Well, he used to be a friend, now of course I'm his arch enemy, I guess. The "demon" thing you described fits to a T. But, here you are and you know you're bipolar, you know delusion is part of that, so why isn't the delusion seen for what it is?
Good question. The Christ experience gets attached to the Ego's desire for POWER. In order to heal and move though the process, the person must allow the ego to die, opening themselves up to the true Christ coinsciousness of love and connection with others. But it takes courage, because an Ego death feels like you are actually dying. Without experienced support, that death is too much for most people to face.
upon listening to this i kept hearing myself story over and over. i had no idea that all those thoughts were related to my bipolar. i have always thought that i was truman like even befor i heard of the movie. or wondred if people really lived if i hadnt met them or they were just stories or brought to life to be part of mine. i finally realized that you were all real. but i also think sometimes that i am jesus but that leads me to think that even though i was a miraculous birth it was not
I truly believe another reason we feel we are Jesus is because the christ conciousness in each of us is allowed to breathe - and in that essence we are Jesus - not the person but the one in perfect communication with God, empowerd, charged, loved, safe, protected and determined to save the world - I personally cannot think of a time when the world needed "jesus' in human form more - never forget time is nothing but timing is everything - diagnosed 5 years ago - no meds- all is well - love Ren
hey man thanks for this video. i can very much relate to it. i have gone through most of the delusions you mentioned, and they all presented a different sort of trial for me. i thoroughly agree with your suggestion of relating to others' Christ consciousness in order to create a better world. i have worked on this a bit and it is amazing the amount of respect you receive from another human when you give them your utmost respect, attention, and compassion-- even if you must do it in a subtle way.
It finally feels like someone understands. I have been on meds now for 5 years after experiencing two awakenings that I was unable to emerge from before the doctors put me on medication. I had a couple instances during these episodes that were life threatening. The doc has me afraid of recurrent episodes. Hopefully with this faith I will be able to emerge with the knowledge that I am only dying to my ego and I won't encounter a physical death. So scary, but the med alternative sucks.
ya man your videos 'hit the nail on the head', couple things i disagree with in your other videos but youve done the best job articulating and validating my experience so far, i went the no meds route myself and pulled Carl Jung and healed myself, i knew it was a cognitive/spiritual issue not a chemical one, especially if you cant test my blood for it.
its been one year, ive had an episode 5 years ago and an episode one year ago. the last one was more voluntarily as I new what it was when it hit, the trouble is the world that mans ego has created doesn't directly translate to the world created for should consciousness and this makes it easier for someone to surcome to deluded thoughts and ideas about the world. At one point i thought i was going to die and i had to call the ambulance on myself because my heart was pounding so hard.
it only takes me a day to come out of it though , but the thing is, is when im in that state im very accurate about the dynamics of what going on around me , and when i come out of the state im super smart and articulate, its like everything that my subconscious has stored up is available for me to use every word concept faculty everything and as i slowly force myself to conform back which i only do so im not physically incarcerated, but spiritually i am a captive.
im slowly working on having that state of mind to be my default state of mind if not the most influential, because it is the way we are meant to be its just not compatible with an ego driven personality but im slowly figuring out ways around it, i have a lot of cool experiences from it as well as some really neat / accurate perspectives of each experience
the crappy thing is though is that no one understads the real world so i can talk about it or explain it, there so caught up i this matrix of doctors degrees and drugs and science, that they done understand they re far too left brained, so it makes me feel alone, and it cause me to purposely let my ego take over so i can relate to other, ive learned how to activate or call on either consciousness just through understanding how each one is stimulated and i alwase keep the other close
Fantastic. You have described it perfectly and with utmost respect to the spirituality involved. I believe that for us, bipolar may not be adaptive, but if you look at evolution as a whole, it is certainly adaptive to have people who believe they can take on anything, and want to better humanity and the world. One can see themselves as part of the bigger picture of human evolution rather than an outcast in society.
Love your videos! I've been diagnosed 'bipolar' ( I feel all my three episodes were profound, inner, spiritual experiences). Presently, I am on meds (no bad side effects, thankfully); but I choose not to quit my meds yet; as I have a family to take care of, with two small children - but maybe one day when my kids have grown up. Can't wait to see your next video. Thanks again for your valuable, helpful, information.
Kudos to you, sir, for helping other through your great awareness and understanding of the human psyche. The message is well presented, with clarity and insight that surpasses a mere intellectual understanding of the subject.
life,death,cycle. We know what we have experienced, we know how we feel, it is a shame most of the scientist, hospitals etc want to control us rather then listen to us. never lose hope help is here. thanks sean. onelove
Everything you listed as a delusion in this video are the delusions that I have. This is the best video I've seen in a while. I just got out of the hospital recently and am on injectable medication for the time being, but if history repeats itself I will try to find a natural way to overcome my disorder.
Your videos are truly inspirational to me. No one has been able to simplify this complex and indescribable experience as well as you. Thank you so much for your work, and I hope you continue to provide excellent videos.
Excellent video. I would recommend it to others who are still trying to make sense of their manic psychosis. I experienced everything you talked about here and I feel like I have finally found some answers to questions I've had for years. I take medication, but would prefer to live naturally and just be protected FROM society. Unfortunately, that is not possible in my case. The one thing that would stop me from skipping the meds is the depression that follows the manic episode.
Ive been medicated for 7 years, and started to come off meds. I dont think i will relapse. Could you tell me, how would it be possible to heal without going through psychosis?
Or is, the only way to heal , would be to go through full psychosis?
Well, some people come off and do OK, but after 7 years, I´s say the chance of relapse is likely and would need to be supported. For now, my advice is to watch ALL of my videos, especially #1-17. Then watch the meditation videos. If you are ever going to heal, meditation will help a lot!
Thank you! I have been of meds almost 3 months now. The only thing they did was to make me be satisfied with the materialism, after my psichosis i can´t go back to that "satisfaction" cause I now know that medicine can´t fill up the emptiness I´ve allways felt. I now meditate and search for the "things" that truly feels that emtiness. But I have a long way to go... Trying to reach the truth. Thanks again, your videos are a good part of the help to not give up :)
I don't really know about that, I'm not saying it is so but you seem to imply that deep down we are all wonderful people. During my Jesus experience I wanted to end the world. I still kind of do, just not in the messy way we may do by accident
thank you thank you thank you.... so grateful for this... I thought I was Mary Magdelene.... having the child who would change the world... just two years ago...lol
don't take meds, see the whole process, which began in 2002 as an Awakening, devastating at first... Enlightening as time went on and Continues to Bee...
Glad you watched the videos! Right now, its difficult to find people to help you through psychosis in the way I'm suggesting, due to a lack of education and consciousness.
And no hospital will ever help you do this, you will always be medicated. My suggestion is to watch all of my numbered videos (1-17!) take your time, and check out the Healing Stories on my blog. The first story there, from Jeremy, sounds similar to your situation. If you take the healing process slowly, you'll be OK
I hear BiPolar disorder eases up as one gets older. I wonder what's a good time
to ease up on meds. I've seen and heard people thinking their alright for years and
then boom, it hits them again. Then it's the slow climb out of another life disaster. Even with support one can't predict a fall when there feeling just fine if you understand me. Does it really just come down to trial and error for each personal situation?
To come off meds, people need a total re-education to what is happening to them.
That is why I have posted 17 video solely focusing on acute psychosis. Any time you come off meds, chances are very high that you will relapse. The trick is that you need to allow the relapse to happen and engage the process.
You have said that your psychosis was only 1 time and it never repeated. But is it possible for a someone to have multiple episodes? For example 2-3 or more episodes every year.
Thats what the doctors say, the cycle keeps repeating itself.
I've experienced nearly all of these at one point or another, and it was even my theory that all this was leading to christ conciousness as well, because I had been reading alot on the subject... but it seems I lost it somehow and feel worse than before. What about the probability of depression?.. I can handle a psychosis, but without meds it is possible to slip into one of those, and by all means they are more frequent and less pleasant. Either way, I love the theories.
If you continue with meds, anytime you come off of them, the probability of relapse are very high. In order to heal, you need to be able to work through the psychosis in a supported, protected way.
Hi, I ratifie whats stated with my own experience, although I cant agree too quickly to what the sensation of all-knowing or dying means, I experienced it.
Every new video brings back a few memories from my own experiences. During the first few that happened to me in high school, I do in fact, remember writing a kind of lengthy "sacred text"...I wish I kept it!
Healing work involves processing such memories, you know that's what's supposed to happen :) . Maybe it will do me good to recall some of those deep ones.
Thanks for this video! The experience labeled bipolar is really the soul speaking to the individual trying to wake them up to what this life is really all about.
Very good direct video and as usual the images are AMAZING!! The only critique I have on first view is your tem 'christ consciousness' which is a disturbing new age term I am personally not mad about.
I would prefer direct consciousness. Ie., yes its true that we have limited egos, BUT when we 'die' to those masks we still then have an ego but it is more expansive and we are always learning, etc
Point taken. I´m gonna be sellin my ideas a little more in the next series of videos, so you might find my language a little more provocative. But to me, there is no difference between Christ consciousness and living free of fear.
great sean. all the stuff about truman show was spot on. wished i contributed more on that site, but you guys seemed to get it all covered.
i was wondering if you had read chapter 17 of Ken Wilber's 'The Atman Project'? I feel like it is relevant and could shed some more light on how regressive some of these episodes can be, rather than all spurts of christ-consciousness..
anyhow i'm slowly but surely makin my way off of meds and only have 100mg of lamictal to go.
Good to hear it! And I have the e-book of Atman project and still need to read that chapter. My next video will be on the 'dark side' of mania, the paranoia, etc...I will read Wilber´s chapter before I start it. Thanks!
Excellent question. Not exactly. The ego-death is usually a longer process, which starts with the first ego-collapse. However, it may take a few episodes for the full ego-death to take place. In the end, the person simply feels like, 'I give up, God, do with me what you will. I surrender.' Once that is complete, the Ego-death should be over and the person can begin to piece their life (and new ego!) back together.
oh my god. this describes my life exactly. i've always felt like i was some kind of prodigy, like i've figured out the entire workings of the world's societies. inspired by people like john lennon, i try and influence the world, but can never get my ideas out right.
What you're feeling is just solipsism, megalomania and narcissism all together. A lot of people experiences the same feeling, but it's not what this guy is talking about.
What he's talking about has no evidence, and are of personal opinion.
Well so far as science is concerned, the mind comes from the brain. We don't know how this works, but I don't think adding the "Soul" to the equation will make it much simpler.
And about psychiatry, I think their diagnostic manual needs improvement; but for now it's what we have.
During the Civil War, Americans amputated legs because of a bullet wound; A Bullet Wound!
psychiatry knows nothing try asking people that have been through it i dont think it has much to do with soul but i can attest to it being a ego breakdown
it does hurt
GenX1971 2 weeks ago
man.... i wish you were in my family.... i mean where do you go from now? im medicated and i've always felt i wasnt crazy because all my breakdowns orignated while attending church..i mean if you dont have any family to support you where do you go from there? they all think i'm crazy and have alienated me..
mastercleanseme2012 3 weeks ago
I can tell you when I do hear voices its God and I have a true one on one relationship with Jesus and he helps me out and is my guide . I never stop trying to stop walking in Jesus foot steps trying to be as Christ like that I can be like. There are people in my church who see me as a evil devil. That hurts my feeling I dunno what to do but forgive them.
kansasjamiemcmurray 2 months ago
I also got "visions" of the creation of male and female, in it's deepest, and in every sense. Things along the lines of the female side of creation being the form, and the male side being the energy or power that holds up, and shapes the form. That male in physical colours is red, and blue is female. That everything created can be seen as male and female, and humans are the most complex and beautiful expressions of these principles. Have you or anyone experienced this at a really profound level?
ReddishOfRed 3 months ago
Hi Sean, Thanks very much for this video. It is practically an exact resumé of what I experienced for the first time 25 years ago, and repeatedly after that. The imagery is brilliant - so helpful to describe such a profoundly vivid happening.
Because of actual evidence I eventually got myself a genuine Bible education. I've been studying it for about 9 years now. It confirmed some things, like the possibilty of everlasting life on earth, and most importantly, love.
ReddishOfRed 3 months ago
everytime i go into my "Jesus State . my right hand automatically goes up , the same way Jesus's hand goes up in pictures of him. i dont think about it, it just happens, plus when it happens anyone i believe isn't on my side immediately comes to me and starts asking me random things or telling me random things. they can even be in another room and they automatically come to me. i give up once i get scared and let my "ego" take over again. anyone else have anything close to this??????
williamandrew21 3 months ago
Thank you I am now 100% sure that I am either manic depressent or just plain manic.
duces02 4 months ago
INCREDIBLE VIDEO ~ Wonderful Graphics ~ Excellent Message.
Depression is at epidermic proportions around the Planet. Nearly everyone I know is on an Anti-depressant. Except myself.
It is a Crippling Disease that can Hold us from our Purpose toward Spiritual Growth. Many Thanks for Posting this Important Message.
HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE ....... I have Learned.
I Choose to be Happy not Sad. Peace to all ~ Angel Eyes ❤¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪♥
JuliaLeigh7111 4 months ago
holy... it's like you predicted me.... I feel these things...
TheUndertakerSaysRIP 5 months ago
@TheUndertakerSaysRIP Nothing psychic here - this group of 'symptoms' is very very common.
bipolarorwakingup 5 months ago
@TheUndertakerSaysRIP hey me too!! i feel like ima resurruction of buddha or jesus sometimes ahaha
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I have went through severe depression and I'm a spiritual person..
TheUndertakerSaysRIP 5 months ago
I appreciate your vision, always have. I find it incredible that the experiences are so simular to so many. It speaks to a very human consciousness. (or simply cponsciounsess itself.)
Anyway, it is a shame/sickness when your ego belives it concretely.Thereafter you ware yourself crazy by trying to constantly redefine all in light of your self important dream. Which itself was only a reflection,do not marvel,its all unreal.
But i still really wish there where nice aleins to take me home.
insanezenmistress 5 months ago
@insanezenmistress That point about the 'concrete' interpretaion is SO important. It was my main reason for making 2 videos on 'tribal level' consciousness...so that I could explain concrete thinking and where it comes from! Happy someone out there gets it!
bipolarorwakingup 5 months ago
depression is the holding on to old joy. two people that help me out are the hugging saint (amma) and paramahansa nithyananda both on youtube. amma for colors and emotions, nithy for anwers.
werspansio 5 months ago
Thank You SO MUCH for posting this,I finally can feel at peace after 11yrs of researching my own diagnosis of Bipolar type I,and feel like I'm not alone!! you have explained evrything that has happened to me,just about. its amazing! I always thought it was called hyper religious experience. Thank you thank you thank you!!
julesathon 5 months ago
@julesathon UR welcome!
bipolarorwakingup 5 months ago
I had a nervous breakdown 1 mo before i graduated college- said i was Jesus! I took some anti-psychotics for a short while, then stopped. I feel 'right' now- don't think I'm Jesus or anything, but the world makes sense now.
Also, they let me come back after a year and graduate- YAY! I majored in Mathematics and Philosophy- and smoked a LOT of pot: i suggest staying away from all three, unless you like questioning the fundamentals of why you exist. I regret noting- I'm at peace.
xXspacecowboy2011Xx 6 months ago
@xXspacecowboy2011Xx Math, pot and philosophy....that will do it!
bipolarorwakingup 5 months ago
i dont know how you explain this so well
AbductedGamer 6 months ago
@supervanscott This was a cover from the Pink Floyd I think I recall :)
rakabir1 6 months ago
@supervanscott all my images are through a google search....no idea where that one came from specifically.
bipolarorwakingup 6 months ago
do you really need to use so much pictures with the jesus guy and etc?
wonderhappyness 6 months ago
@wonderhappyness Well, in this case, with this video, I am focusing on why so many people think that they are Jesus or like some sort of messiah. It is a very common occurence. My other videos tend to have less religious imagery, however, it can't be ignored as its so present. I use buddha a lot as well, and talk about shamanism at length in video #16.
bipolarorwakingup 6 months ago
I had this happen a year ago. It included a big serving of hyper sexuality. I'm thinking because I was so emotionally shut down. Passion was the word. Now I have fluxing contraction in my head whenever I'm awake. It feels real good. Really. It's not effecting my sexuality like it did last May. Do I get to keep it? Does anyone know what I'm talking about? My pupils dilate slightly with the fluxes.
seastorm12 8 months ago
true every word. there is only one "syntom" of psychosis missing, one that i had. that everyone in the world is just a proyection, that they don't exist. that everything is unreal.
diegolabrada 8 months ago
It's so true, every word! It? ! :)
I have experienced the same thing! :)
YaliGATLIN 10 months ago
That book says we'll surpass JC
Ppl hav a habit of associating the moments of their own reawakening to their full potential,as spiritual beings,with what be the religion of their day (even when its not defined as religion)
As apposed to allowing their reawakening to simply be,their brain tells them to imprint it over a concept they find/found,they intellectualize it into a construct
The flaw here is that the mind can't conceive infinity whilst the heart is infinite
In equality observe,not judge
the26thhour 10 months ago
I now refuse to use the label Bi-polar to describe myself:)
energetically1 10 months ago
@energetically1 That's great. I need to use the word or nobody will watch my videos.
bipolarorwakingup 10 months ago
@bipolarorwakingup Yea of coarse:) Your meditation was great too, I did it last night:) But seriously man, I want you to know how amazing and immensely helpful you vids are. People are lost in the changes. Your vids show a path out of that confusion. I seen a comment about you and Oprah, we're you on Oprah? Got a link?
energetically1 10 months ago
@energetically1 I had a few people comment that "I should be on Oprah", but I haven't done any interviews anywhere yet. I have a book which should be for sale on Amazon.com (self-published) in about 6 months or so.
When that happens, I'll start trying to do interviews, but I doubt Oprah will be calling!
bipolarorwakingup 10 months ago
@bipolarorwakingup Your to good for Oprah man lol
energetically1 10 months ago
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energetically1 10 months ago
First off your vids changed my life over 1 yr ago:) Thank you so much for that. You do great work! I revisited this particular one cos all of the "psychosis" in this vid happened recently, All of them:) I didn't attach myself to any of it and remained as subjective as I possibly could, even though the world got really weird. For 2 months it lasted and it felt like I was being shown something. So I simply observed it while keeping one eye on my ego's version of reality. I feel blessed for it:)
energetically1 10 months ago
What do you think about this guy? /watch?v=oRoSc8P3kPg&feature=related
He's from my favorite band, but his writing isn't that great now that he's medicated and "happy" :(
McScreenName 11 months ago
But his writing used to be phenomenal and ingenious. I mean, it really gets deeper and deeper with each listen. The band is called Say Anything, and their best stuff is mainly on "Is a Real Boy" and "In Defense of the Genre". Just in case you want to look into them :) and BTW, "This is Fucking Ecstasy" is about his psychotic episode. Not their best song though.
McScreenName 11 months ago
Jesus was afflicted with mania.
sgm9700 11 months ago
Holy shit! This was so validating for me. I have never been able to articulate what happened to me when I went into psychosis. Thank you for understanding me and breaking it down. The "all knowing" was the world made perfect sense and everything was happening just as it should. It is truly a sprirtual experience and thanks for putting it to me that way. I have always seen was just how sick I was. Not anymore. THANK YOU!!!!!
Frenchie932 11 months ago
What's the point?
KanoKazuma94 1 year ago
Wow, this is very interesting; I've had all the described symptoms after reading James Redfield's "The Celestine Prophecy", and more importantly his "The Tenth Insight". I was diagnosed with acute psychosis, admitted in a mental hospital and medicated with neuroleptics. I never felt ill though, but enlightened. Thanks for the video.
pashernate22 1 year ago
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Wow, this is very interesting; I've had all the symptoms described after reading James Redfield's "The Celestine Prophecy", and more importantly Redfiled's "The Tenth Insight". I was diagnosed with acute psychosis, admitted in a mental hospital and medicated with neuroleptics. I never felt ill though, but enlightened. Thank you so much for this.
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pashernate22 1 year ago
thank you thank you thank you! I have bipolar and a few years ago i had a vision of being in a desert at the magic hour with many people sitting around listening to me telling stories. I have tried to run away from these feelings until recently...they just wouldn't let me go! I have had Jesus delusions (not that I am, but that he walked with me.) Thank you so much.
bmbenblog 1 year ago
I have gone through 3 episodes of Psychotic Bipolar etc etc. This video describes EXACTLY what I have gone through. I became Jesus etc. One thing I have always found strange is communicating telepathically with loved ones through photos, and the acting going on all around you. Also, magazines and TV can be fun when the people on TV are watching you and interacting with you on your couch!
nathanheathdavies 1 year ago
@nathanheathdavies Yup, Oprah had all kinds of things to say to me! Even though I`d touched on the spiritual experiences of BD in earlier vids, I put this one together because this group of `symptoms` is the most common group of spiritual experiences which happen to people, and usually all come together. Glad you enjoyed it!
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
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pashernate22 1 year ago
This only happened to me once, but I had all of these, especially the "tested by god" one. I remember talking to my husband on and on about the physical plane and the spiritual plane
adinahwithkaden 1 year ago
YES! I actually questioned myself too. Am I even alive? Am I dead?
aprilmalone1 1 year ago
You're videos are too amazing; they always keep me "sane". Thank you!
:D God bless.
ganjaaa333 1 year ago
Ah, the light switch thing!! I had to smile. I called turning off lights a "countdown sequence." I won't tell the whole story.
aBigHairySpider 1 year ago
The band Tool helped me some.
maybe it will help you .
rubintax 1 year ago
The band Tool helped me some.
rubintax 1 year ago
Cool Vid again Sean. You are well educated and grounded.
My question is how will all of your research get recognised by the AMA?
The way I see it is : Up until now the field of psyche has not actually included the subtle aspects of the human being. How would a psychiatrist respond to me if I say that there is a part of me everywhere all at once and that part interacts with me via high frequency radiation is received and transmitted via my DNA.
kundalinikrew 1 year ago
@kundalinikrew My whole plan when I started these videos was based on one assumption...that eventually, people would start to gravitate to these ideas on their own, because they reflect their life experience. Trying to convince people is of no use. People only think what they are ready to think....that´s the one thing I can´t control.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@kundalinikrew I do not care what the doctors have told me. I have been through more than I care to describe in such a medium and quite honestly, this makes so much more sense to me than any ambiguous explanation psychiatrists (multiple) have provided me.
Nicool333 1 year ago
For the Dutch viewers who are interested in the translation of this video, just google: 'Waarom jij denkt dat je Jezus bent'.
Thanks again, Sean, for your permission to translate your great work!
Best wishes,
Sharon (from the Netherlands ;-))
SharonvanH 1 year ago
THIS VIDEO IS SO AWESOME I REALLY UNDERSTAND IT I LIVED FELLING LIKE THAT YEARS AGO GOD BLESS YOU FOR YOUR INSIGHT AND GIFT OF BI POLAR .FOR ITS NOT A BURDEN WE ARE JUST VERY INTUITED!
dissdick209 1 year ago
Love your videos and good to hear that what happened to me has happened to others.
christl301 1 year ago
When I get manic I can answer many questions on Sale of the Century, sometimes half way through the question being asked. When reading a book I can predict what will happen in the next chapter with such clarity that I have to convince myself that I have NOT read the book before. I sometimes dream in maths and will talk with Math professors from Universities about the content only to find the math is correct, sometimes brilliantly so. Then Dr's medicate me and the knowledge stops. Then I sleep:)
alexleitch37 1 year ago
Sounds like when I too mushrooms.
shockolanu 1 year ago
I am bipolar and everything you say in your videos seems very true. When I was on like a 4 month manic episode I thought I was God and was on top of the world. When I was in the hospital I thought I was shooting a movie everytime. It is a very interesting feeling, I thought/did predict everything that was going to happen. I wonder sometimes if so called delusions gives us a hint of what the afterlife is like? I also stopped taking all medicine and seem normal again...hmmm
thejonholsteinshow 1 year ago
yeah, many experiences that are described in religions make people want to say something most extremely positive about them, and i would not blame them.
however, i would rather find it beneficial to avoid attributing metaphysical, mystical and spiritual meanings, because it is easy to start stroking ego that way.
and if ego can be stroked, there is motivation to throw common sense out of the window and start dramatizing.
what about a healthy degree of skepticism instead?
orkishiswithk 1 year ago
@orkishiswithk That's a good one. And you are correct, as I stated in the video, some people have the spiritual experience and it simply 'sticks' to their ego, leaving them stuck in the disorder. However, skepticism of the spiritual validity of the experience will only invalidate what is experienced by the person going through it. And once invalidation occurs, depression and a lifetime of meds is usually not far behind. cont....
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup for my own practical reasons, i am currently concerned with people attributing metaphysical meaning to insignificant minor details that they have not experienced or just not noticed before.
so, it is about minor details causing confusion along the way before the interesting experience (not after).
and usually the goal of the dramatization is to reach the 'how terrible' type of ego-stroking.
minor detail with metaphysical meaning can cause big panic.
orkishiswithk 1 year ago
@orkishiswithk Cont'd....the key is to validate the spiritual aspects, accepting them as they appear to your own experience, but then continuing the non-ordinary state process in a supportive environment. If that can happen, the person in psychosis will reach a point where he must make in inner decision involving the death of his current ego.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup here we seem to have clarified the differences in our preferences.
i am not saying that the experiences should be invalidated, i am saying that without attributing metaphysical meanings, getting to those experiences can be much less confusing.
if a metaphysical or spiritual meaning is attributed to something, it very quickly becomes a colossal pseudo-rational construct where the original experience 'as it is' becomes somewhat lost in my opinion.
orkishiswithk 1 year ago
@orkishiswithk For many people in the experiences, they are inherently mystical as direct experience. It is a sensation of 'death' or 'god', or 'evil' etc...that overwhelms you. However, for those who don't see it that way (or entirely that way) I agree...no need to lay on a layer of spiritual interpretation if that does not reflect your direct experience. Many people see their psychosis as having some spiritual aspects, but not a totally spiritual experience.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup lol, amazing that you seem to understand precisely what i was trying to say, even no matter if you agree or not.
i also seem to understand it more clearly myself now, and i think i could put it much shorter.
lack of attributed spiritual meaning does not make the experience disappear.
orkishiswithk 1 year ago
@orkishiswithk And if you are looking for a pseudo rational construct, dismissing the whole thing as a ´chemical imbalance´ is just that.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup is it really that the main purpose of the series of videos was just to contradict the 'chemical imbalance' attitude?
i never watched the videos from that point of view (maybe because no one has ever tried to medicate me), and i would say the videos are still interesting for several other points that you make.
orkishiswithk 1 year ago
@orkishiswithk No, that's not the main purpose at all. I haven't gone after psychiatry much. Instead, I've chosen to present another model and I'll let those who gravitate to it, do so. Fighting takes too much energy...
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@orkishiswithk Cont'd....#3 As I mentioned in the video..the ego-death feels like a real death, you will not know the difference. If that ego-death occurs, the disorder should be able to heal, and any ego inflation will dissipate.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
thank you
TheStormwater8888 1 year ago
im not sure why hes calling all of these delusions if it happened it happened
spaceage614 1 year ago
@spaceage614 I use 'delusions' because that's what most people know them as, that's all. I'm not being judgemental about it. Mind you, many of these experiences (like me thinking I was dead) are not factually true, but reflect a deeper truth that is happening within us, like the awakeing of our Christ consciousness.
Man, you are watching EVERYTHING today! Thanks.
Sean
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
I thought I was the messais in my first psychosis. In my last I thought I was a secret agent. Everytime I think I am something special and I have special meaning to the world. That something special is about to happen if I just follow my intuition. This way I was wandering in citys without any direction. Just walking and cycling to nowhere till eventually I did something crazy and the police got me. What does this mean?
EMPschizophrenia 1 year ago
psychiatry is another self chosen scam
ExposeZionistCrimes 1 year ago
I also discovered that in those states you cannot question the expereince - looking back I realise that is because the spirit is beyond doubt and question.
Youmukranda 1 year ago
under a rock and I am there - or whatever it was he said. I also thought I was a bhudda, and a reincarnation of Jesus. I understand what it all means now for when it happens next time - don't try and explain the indescripable because people will think you are bonkers - well they did with me.
Youmukranda 1 year ago
I had an up episode last year and got locked away by the police! Bastards! I was laughing alot - I dont think they are used to happy people. I would of appeared to be delusional - when they asked me my name I said I was Thor! And that I lived on Penny Lane! I really didn't understand. I think when you are in that state your brain doesnt see labels - everything is basically the same. You dont see that you are different than other beings - hence the mix ups. Its like what Jesus says - find me
Youmukranda 1 year ago
When I was experiencing psychosis, I was in jail, and I thought I was dead, and the jail was some sort of purgatory. I went through many of these steps you describe. Luckily I have found your videos and am better able to understand what I went through. Thank You!!!
daddymocean 2 years ago
Yes, this group of experiences seems to come together for a lot of people!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
@daddymocean I had the same purgatory psychosis when I was ill with Pneumonia, sleep deprived and with drawl from drugs. It was so real and lasted for weeks and after I felt really better and renewed
carolshewolf 1 year ago
amazing how he knows this the first time i went thru psychosis i thought i was dead and that i was walking around ant that nobody could see me and then i heard the voice of god telling me to go outside wow
Lryuzaki46 2 years ago
Had to watch this for the "Upteenth" time- I hope you get some big time media coverage soon. Keeping you and your mission in my thoughts always! Much Love to you and yours.
occultpriestess 2 years ago
Thanks! Well, now that my series is ALMOST done, maybe the time for media will arrive as well.
I have 3 videos to go up within the next few weeks, then that will be it for a while.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
bipolar is due to the shift of the north and south poles causing a vibrational shift in our nuerotransmitters. we enter a amazing higher demension its a sort of spiritual emergency. people who have mania episodes are usually full of stress (demons). the psychology department (illuminati) have fed us the delusions that were chemically imbalanced and need fatal destructive psycotropic drugs. we reach the god level the highest demension we possess all knowledge and can do anything. god bless
spaceage614 2 years ago
The references to trying to save the world and moving to a higher dimension really struck a chord with me. I never heard anyone describe these bipolar delusions before and have experienced both of these. They are very good explanations of bipolar disorder. I dont buy into the spiritual enlightenment theory though, to me its just a chemical inbalance. Excellent video none the less. Well worth watching.
TheSockMonsterIsHere 2 years ago
and when the false self collapses at age four ... and mania doesn't set in with the aha moment until age 43,
but the knowledge that you are the embodiment of GOD,
"for such a time as this", begin going public at 52 and can't rest until you are believed; what then ??? When at 55 you know you're as awake as you'll ever be ???
Is it not written that ye are "gods"
ADONAI888HASHEM 2 years ago
i wrote a script not so long ago about me being in the true man show movie and also convoy.
Coolika2 2 years ago
I think this is a wonderful and enlightened way to look at Christ consciousness... I believe it is an awakening.. I have never had it but am close to someone who has.. it makes sense to me.. If it didnt most in the Bible would have suffered from mental illness... Thankyou for a great post
MsSunclouds1 2 years ago
U R Welcome! Happy Holidays!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Also, I'd like to mention that the experience you describe sounds similar to what I would call "Christ consciousness," but not exactly. It's more like the experience resulting from too many psychedelic drugs or a too fast kundalini awakening; a glimpse at the nature of mind is glimpsed beyond ego, but it is a flood of confusion rather than a true "awakening." It is certainly eye-opening and significant, but the term "awakening" is not accurate since it leads to further confusion and delusion.
PunchinTheMunchkin 2 years ago
Well, even for me, the confusion and delusion you talk about is actually part of the awakening process. That is why this process is so deeply misunderstood. Spiritual awakenings are supposed to be calm, peaceful experiences. In truth, the biographies of most mystics are filled with experiences of apparent madness. The peace comes once the storm is over.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
I think it's up to the individual and the process. You seem to be dealing with the shock of it pretty well. Gradual awakening is easier w/o apparent madness, but we don't all get that option.
It sounds like you've researched the great mystery traditions and also practice some of the methods, such as meditation. Others have a completely different set of ideas about reality and don't come out of psychosis for the better, unfortunately, such as the case with 2 of my 3 bipolar friends.
PunchinTheMunchkin 2 years ago
maybe they just need more time, but 1 is going on at least a decade now and he's just getting more obsessed with Nietzsche and Hitler. The other one is going on 20 years and he's just really fragile and totally dependent on Catholicism to even get through the day.
PunchinTheMunchkin 2 years ago
What your friend need is 'lama'-like support. Without good support (See #11) its almost impossible for most people to come through, and even then there is no guarantee.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Thanks for this. It's interesting to hear from the perspective of someone who's been through it.
What I would love to know is WHY it doesn't "click" in the delusional person's head that this is a delusion. I have a friend currently going through this. Well, he used to be a friend, now of course I'm his arch enemy, I guess. The "demon" thing you described fits to a T. But, here you are and you know you're bipolar, you know delusion is part of that, so why isn't the delusion seen for what it is?
PunchinTheMunchkin 2 years ago
Good question. The Christ experience gets attached to the Ego's desire for POWER. In order to heal and move though the process, the person must allow the ego to die, opening themselves up to the true Christ coinsciousness of love and connection with others. But it takes courage, because an Ego death feels like you are actually dying. Without experienced support, that death is too much for most people to face.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
upon listening to this i kept hearing myself story over and over. i had no idea that all those thoughts were related to my bipolar. i have always thought that i was truman like even befor i heard of the movie. or wondred if people really lived if i hadnt met them or they were just stories or brought to life to be part of mine. i finally realized that you were all real. but i also think sometimes that i am jesus but that leads me to think that even though i was a miraculous birth it was not
stillgamin71 2 years ago
I truly believe another reason we feel we are Jesus is because the christ conciousness in each of us is allowed to breathe - and in that essence we are Jesus - not the person but the one in perfect communication with God, empowerd, charged, loved, safe, protected and determined to save the world - I personally cannot think of a time when the world needed "jesus' in human form more - never forget time is nothing but timing is everything - diagnosed 5 years ago - no meds- all is well - love Ren
renzworld67 2 years ago
hey man thanks for this video. i can very much relate to it. i have gone through most of the delusions you mentioned, and they all presented a different sort of trial for me. i thoroughly agree with your suggestion of relating to others' Christ consciousness in order to create a better world. i have worked on this a bit and it is amazing the amount of respect you receive from another human when you give them your utmost respect, attention, and compassion-- even if you must do it in a subtle way.
bloodpollen 2 years ago
It finally feels like someone understands. I have been on meds now for 5 years after experiencing two awakenings that I was unable to emerge from before the doctors put me on medication. I had a couple instances during these episodes that were life threatening. The doc has me afraid of recurrent episodes. Hopefully with this faith I will be able to emerge with the knowledge that I am only dying to my ego and I won't encounter a physical death. So scary, but the med alternative sucks.
faeryfunk 2 years ago
ya man your videos 'hit the nail on the head', couple things i disagree with in your other videos but youve done the best job articulating and validating my experience so far, i went the no meds route myself and pulled Carl Jung and healed myself, i knew it was a cognitive/spiritual issue not a chemical one, especially if you cant test my blood for it.
keepsitreals 2 years ago
How long have you been without meds and without relapse?
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
its been one year, ive had an episode 5 years ago and an episode one year ago. the last one was more voluntarily as I new what it was when it hit, the trouble is the world that mans ego has created doesn't directly translate to the world created for should consciousness and this makes it easier for someone to surcome to deluded thoughts and ideas about the world. At one point i thought i was going to die and i had to call the ambulance on myself because my heart was pounding so hard.
keepsitreals 2 years ago
it only takes me a day to come out of it though , but the thing is, is when im in that state im very accurate about the dynamics of what going on around me , and when i come out of the state im super smart and articulate, its like everything that my subconscious has stored up is available for me to use every word concept faculty everything and as i slowly force myself to conform back which i only do so im not physically incarcerated, but spiritually i am a captive.
keepsitreals 2 years ago
im slowly working on having that state of mind to be my default state of mind if not the most influential, because it is the way we are meant to be its just not compatible with an ego driven personality but im slowly figuring out ways around it, i have a lot of cool experiences from it as well as some really neat / accurate perspectives of each experience
keepsitreals 2 years ago
the crappy thing is though is that no one understads the real world so i can talk about it or explain it, there so caught up i this matrix of doctors degrees and drugs and science, that they done understand they re far too left brained, so it makes me feel alone, and it cause me to purposely let my ego take over so i can relate to other, ive learned how to activate or call on either consciousness just through understanding how each one is stimulated and i alwase keep the other close
keepsitreals 2 years ago
Fantastic. You have described it perfectly and with utmost respect to the spirituality involved. I believe that for us, bipolar may not be adaptive, but if you look at evolution as a whole, it is certainly adaptive to have people who believe they can take on anything, and want to better humanity and the world. One can see themselves as part of the bigger picture of human evolution rather than an outcast in society.
notartnow 2 years ago
Love your videos! I've been diagnosed 'bipolar' ( I feel all my three episodes were profound, inner, spiritual experiences). Presently, I am on meds (no bad side effects, thankfully); but I choose not to quit my meds yet; as I have a family to take care of, with two small children - but maybe one day when my kids have grown up. Can't wait to see your next video. Thanks again for your valuable, helpful, information.
Calibus71 2 years ago
Kudos to you, sir, for helping other through your great awareness and understanding of the human psyche. The message is well presented, with clarity and insight that surpasses a mere intellectual understanding of the subject.
Well done!
alchemistra 2 years ago 4
science: observations, evaluations, conclusions, dissections,assumptions,opinions,tests,experimental.experiments,practicals,
theory.
spirituality: truth,light,peace,acceptance,compassion,empathy,understanding,patient,knowing,feeling,love,elevation,fearless,free,one,all,unity.
life,death,cycle. We know what we have experienced, we know how we feel, it is a shame most of the scientist, hospitals etc want to control us rather then listen to us. never lose hope help is here. thanks sean. onelove
mysterioso360 2 years ago
and misdiagnose us
kchomer1 2 years ago
Thank your, for this vid. So great! Will start out to watch the others.
Salute you.
Namaste,
Lisa
Sundrumify 2 years ago
The more I research Bipolar Disorder from a non-medical aspect, the more I wonder if it's NOT a disorder at all...
roryboryalice 2 years ago 7
I agree it has power, but like a todler with a machine gun...its not always well placed
LostMente 2 years ago
as predicted, i was booted from my job for staying true to myself.
Regal1800 2 years ago
Everything you listed as a delusion in this video are the delusions that I have. This is the best video I've seen in a while. I just got out of the hospital recently and am on injectable medication for the time being, but if history repeats itself I will try to find a natural way to overcome my disorder.
schizoaffectivebear 2 years ago
Got some new inspiring thoughts out of this as always, thanx Sean.
waldegg 2 years ago
Your videos are truly inspirational to me. No one has been able to simplify this complex and indescribable experience as well as you. Thank you so much for your work, and I hope you continue to provide excellent videos.
GeeOhDee22 2 years ago
=D look what happen to me, on my page
Darkfoster22 2 years ago
Excellent video. I would recommend it to others who are still trying to make sense of their manic psychosis. I experienced everything you talked about here and I feel like I have finally found some answers to questions I've had for years. I take medication, but would prefer to live naturally and just be protected FROM society. Unfortunately, that is not possible in my case. The one thing that would stop me from skipping the meds is the depression that follows the manic episode.
glovzz 2 years ago
Ive been medicated for 7 years, and started to come off meds. I dont think i will relapse. Could you tell me, how would it be possible to heal without going through psychosis?
Or is, the only way to heal , would be to go through full psychosis?
vad333 2 years ago
Well, some people come off and do OK, but after 7 years, I´s say the chance of relapse is likely and would need to be supported. For now, my advice is to watch ALL of my videos, especially #1-17. Then watch the meditation videos. If you are ever going to heal, meditation will help a lot!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Thank you! I have been of meds almost 3 months now. The only thing they did was to make me be satisfied with the materialism, after my psichosis i can´t go back to that "satisfaction" cause I now know that medicine can´t fill up the emptiness I´ve allways felt. I now meditate and search for the "things" that truly feels that emtiness. But I have a long way to go... Trying to reach the truth. Thanks again, your videos are a good part of the help to not give up :)
whatismadness 2 years ago
I think if all the bipolar people out there follow your model of trying to stay true to yourself, we'll be alright!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
I don't really know about that, I'm not saying it is so but you seem to imply that deep down we are all wonderful people. During my Jesus experience I wanted to end the world. I still kind of do, just not in the messy way we may do by accident
LostMente 2 years ago
Thank you! I hope so too, much love
whatismadness 2 years ago
thank you thank you thank you.... so grateful for this... I thought I was Mary Magdelene.... having the child who would change the world... just two years ago...lol
don't take meds, see the whole process, which began in 2002 as an Awakening, devastating at first... Enlightening as time went on and Continues to Bee...
Love N Peace
openedmieyez 2 years ago
I dont think i will relapse if i come off meds, and thinking if it would be possible to heal without going through psychosis.
Im beginning to understand about the spirituality and how i can lead to a better life.
vad333 2 years ago
Cool Vad, like I said, take your time and get educated because there is not a lot of support for this way of doing things right now.
You may also want to see my videos on meditation. they are easy to do and can help a lot.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
There isnt anyone who can help me get through acute psychosis. If i decide to go to hospital, would it be possible to get through it
there? Since its much safer environment. (without meds.)
vad333 2 years ago
Glad you watched the videos! Right now, its difficult to find people to help you through psychosis in the way I'm suggesting, due to a lack of education and consciousness.
And no hospital will ever help you do this, you will always be medicated. My suggestion is to watch all of my numbered videos (1-17!) take your time, and check out the Healing Stories on my blog. The first story there, from Jeremy, sounds similar to your situation. If you take the healing process slowly, you'll be OK
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
I watched vid 4-5, great information. im slowly coming off meds. My mania started after i smoked weed , lots of it.
Then 3 years later i started smoking again and even on meds i went into mania again.
vad333 2 years ago
I hear BiPolar disorder eases up as one gets older. I wonder what's a good time
to ease up on meds. I've seen and heard people thinking their alright for years and
then boom, it hits them again. Then it's the slow climb out of another life disaster. Even with support one can't predict a fall when there feeling just fine if you understand me. Does it really just come down to trial and error for each personal situation?
muzeam 2 years ago
To come off meds, people need a total re-education to what is happening to them.
That is why I have posted 17 video solely focusing on acute psychosis. Any time you come off meds, chances are very high that you will relapse. The trick is that you need to allow the relapse to happen and engage the process.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
thank you for taking the time to answer my questions.
vad333 2 years ago
If you are interested in a more detailed answer, please see videos 4 and 5. I talk about cycling there.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
You have said that your psychosis was only 1 time and it never repeated. But is it possible for a someone to have multiple episodes? For example 2-3 or more episodes every year.
Thats what the doctors say, the cycle keeps repeating itself.
True or False??
vad333 2 years ago
Goosebumps.
I've experienced nearly all of these at one point or another, and it was even my theory that all this was leading to christ conciousness as well, because I had been reading alot on the subject... but it seems I lost it somehow and feel worse than before. What about the probability of depression?.. I can handle a psychosis, but without meds it is possible to slip into one of those, and by all means they are more frequent and less pleasant. Either way, I love the theories.
thebassline57 2 years ago
whats the probability of psychosis repeating over and over again where you have no choice but to take those , full of side effects, meds.
vad333 2 years ago
If you continue with meds, anytime you come off of them, the probability of relapse are very high. In order to heal, you need to be able to work through the psychosis in a supported, protected way.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Hi, I ratifie whats stated with my own experience, although I cant agree too quickly to what the sensation of all-knowing or dying means, I experienced it.
pd. the images are very expressive
josemanuelsalgado 2 years ago
Thank you jose!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
ho ho.....spot on..as usual :)
createrainbowz 2 years ago
Good topic, Sean!
Every new video brings back a few memories from my own experiences. During the first few that happened to me in high school, I do in fact, remember writing a kind of lengthy "sacred text"...I wish I kept it!
imstillpurple 2 years ago
You too? Next video will be on the dark side. I hope that doesn´t bring too many memories! ;D
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Healing work involves processing such memories, you know that's what's supposed to happen :) . Maybe it will do me good to recall some of those deep ones.
imstillpurple 2 years ago
Its sometimes painful work, but that´s the only way to heal it.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
genius ... as always!
decidetobehappy 2 years ago
Thanks for this video! The experience labeled bipolar is really the soul speaking to the individual trying to wake them up to what this life is really all about.
CreateUrTruth 2 years ago
Very good direct video and as usual the images are AMAZING!! The only critique I have on first view is your tem 'christ consciousness' which is a disturbing new age term I am personally not mad about.
I would prefer direct consciousness. Ie., yes its true that we have limited egos, BUT when we 'die' to those masks we still then have an ego but it is more expansive and we are always learning, etc
zezt 2 years ago
totally this was all good until he said christ conciousness. That should be put on the list of delusions.
Iseeyoursoul 2 years ago
Point taken. I´m gonna be sellin my ideas a little more in the next series of videos, so you might find my language a little more provocative. But to me, there is no difference between Christ consciousness and living free of fear.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
great sean. all the stuff about truman show was spot on. wished i contributed more on that site, but you guys seemed to get it all covered.
i was wondering if you had read chapter 17 of Ken Wilber's 'The Atman Project'? I feel like it is relevant and could shed some more light on how regressive some of these episodes can be, rather than all spurts of christ-consciousness..
anyhow i'm slowly but surely makin my way off of meds and only have 100mg of lamictal to go.
ttymore about this later
dianeticstu 2 years ago
Good to hear it! And I have the e-book of Atman project and still need to read that chapter. My next video will be on the 'dark side' of mania, the paranoia, etc...I will read Wilber´s chapter before I start it. Thanks!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Ego collapse the same as ego death?
SirLaker 2 years ago 2
Excellent question. Not exactly. The ego-death is usually a longer process, which starts with the first ego-collapse. However, it may take a few episodes for the full ego-death to take place. In the end, the person simply feels like, 'I give up, God, do with me what you will. I surrender.' Once that is complete, the Ego-death should be over and the person can begin to piece their life (and new ego!) back together.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
oh my god. this describes my life exactly. i've always felt like i was some kind of prodigy, like i've figured out the entire workings of the world's societies. inspired by people like john lennon, i try and influence the world, but can never get my ideas out right.
rampagesk8a 2 years ago
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Nades129 2 years ago
What you're feeling is just solipsism, megalomania and narcissism all together. A lot of people experiences the same feeling, but it's not what this guy is talking about.
What he's talking about has no evidence, and are of personal opinion.
Nades129 2 years ago
so whats your opinion?
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
My opinion?
Well so far as science is concerned, the mind comes from the brain. We don't know how this works, but I don't think adding the "Soul" to the equation will make it much simpler.
And about psychiatry, I think their diagnostic manual needs improvement; but for now it's what we have.
During the Civil War, Americans amputated legs because of a bullet wound; A Bullet Wound!
Nades129 2 years ago
psychiatry knows nothing try asking people that have been through it i dont think it has much to do with soul but i can attest to it being a ego breakdown
gjljhjb1 2 years ago