Chameleon Boy - Blue October

[sykess3]

This band helped me to understand alcoholic and drug addict stepdad and kept me from running away and leaving my brother and sister.

[JuggaloKittie13]

Blue October. How i love thee. I went through a bad addiction among many other life fuckz and thiz band pulld me through it all. Best band ever. Period.

[LeviWood5]

@Deathbydsm

Serious question.take all that away. Take away the girlfriend, maybe she found a guy better then you, maybe she just decides it's not working. Take away the loving family. You just don't seem to feel close to them anymore, or maybe they just don't feel the same about you. Mix that with living in shadows and going nowhere.is it still worth it?Are the drugs really that bad when all we do is live in pain and hurt others? You have a lot, but because of that you have reason. Some do not.

[diabolicallycursed]

Fuck man this song hits home hard. I think I posted some time ago stating I was clean. I guess everyone fucks up though some just dont admit it. This time was bad, death was real close, lost my job. Now im back to square one. Blue October helps to know im not the only one. Its been two weeks on methadone pills fuckin sux

[kmarie566]

I'm glad I made it out of that lifestyle! Its hard but worth it!

[sbranham34]

I can't watch this without crying. I am not an addict but have spent the last 2 1/2 years going through hells people cannot imagine, trying to stay strong when all I want to do is give up as I try to do my best supporting my wife searching for recovery. I'm doing a poor job of it I know, the stress is too much to handle so often. Day after day I live on nothing more than weakening hope that it'll get better

[MrRotarychild13]

if you have nothing better to do in your life than troll on peoples pain, than blow your head off. i would rather live my life around abunch of people trying to better there life asopposed to one minute around people like you. to every one who posted true feelings stay strong and positive and all will work out for you.

[KagoeNG]

Is it weird that this song reminds me of Amy Winehouse? RIP x

[dubbemiah]

@Deathbydsm Screw the people flaming you, man. I know people like them personally, who think it's their job to try to make people feel like shit. They just hide behind the security of the internet. Congrats to you for making the choice of becoming clean. Some of us grow up with stupid shit to deal with, unlike these d-bags.

[Quiteseriously]

For joeysmalls123 I read your post and it touched my heart. Hang in there my friend. May you find a wonderful connection and peace with sobriety. Remember do something great for yourself whenever you can. Explore hobbies and your surroundings. My very best wishes to everyone who is searching or lost.

[Deathbydsm]

@darkflamer23 No...... sober. Much clearer thoughts. It looks like I said most of what I said at the same time, however it was al over the course of a year. That's all I was saying.

[sanders9194]

to those of you who watch this video and talk shit about the people commenting and trying to help others, go fuck yourself. if you dont want to see it, its because you're insecure. get over yourself. Deathbydsm, you're amazing. dont let the assholes bring you down.

[diabolicallycursed]

400mgs oxy a day clean now fuck'n eh

RIP nick james

[SecretSecretStuff]

Too all the people sharing your stories, I just wanted to say I love you. To all the people who came for the music, I love you, too. The point is, I want you... whoever is reading this... to know that you are loved.

[DGB20071]

I realize that this song is mostly about drug use, but it helped me with my alcoholism. Thank you Blue October

[cheerloveification1]

luv them



[ItsSuperBadass]

@Deathbydsm stop bein a bitch

[milk4kittie]

Awesome song.. I know exactly what it feels like.. I've been sober for 8 months now. I was on acid, heroin, coke, ice and I'm still a recovering alcoholic. I've been sober from alcohol since New Years.

[coffeecoffee25]

hard to watch but very, very honest.

[JuggaloKittie13]

6 yearz klean. and blue october helped me thro it all. if not for their music i would have lost it. i may have had alot of help from some other music but justin inspires me!!!

[joeysmalls123]

Ive been clean 2years and i dont know what is worst. For me i guess it all sucks. I feel so alone. I know im not the only one out there that feels like this but that doesnt help. I just cant connect to anyone and it sucks. I wish i could find some kind of meaning or purpose but its just not there. Im stuck, i dont fear relapse i guess i just fear living.

[DogbitE6661]

I went 3 months being sober and then slipped up and used and now im back to week 3. It's been a struggle, if not some substance then depression and self mutilation. It's been thanks to my Girlfreind Jessica that my one relapse stayed at one. Right now, out future together is the only thing that holds me together. She recently introduced this band to me. I have to thank her again and agin and again. It's not always roses with me, but id be dead without her. I love you Jessi Sunshine :)

[energize95]

This song really helped me through my drug and alcohol addiction. I am proud to say that I am now thirteen days sober after almost four years of usage.

[5150lovehate]

to everyone on here suffereing from addiction i hope that you find the strength to put it down and find real happiness again. Its not as easy as it seems.........................­... im still trying

[TiTo020188]

i went thru drug addiction for a year thanx to my best friend who didnt even know the reason at the time why i was doing it he helped me no matter how many times i listen to this song i still cry cuz it was me now its me my wife n my baby on the way man i love this song with a pasion!

[XTaelorsAngelX]

And I say this from experiance. My dearest love committed suicide, may she rest in peace.

[XTaelorsAngelX]

@Scarekrow522 bastard. It's a real sickness. Good, honest people suffer from it all around the world. It's not because they are weak or pathetic attention hounds. Schizophrenia and bipolar are real illnesses. To the people who have posted with their personal experiances, I applaud your bravery in facing your experiances. I also hope that the godess blesses you with recovery and helps your loved ones.

[jonman45]

shit, all these comments made me realize im glad i quit the drugs

[scarekrowe522]

all of you people make me sick. how weak and pitiful you all are. is society so damaged? people lack pride, and honor. everybody spills emotions for the world to see, hoping to be coddled. but all you will find is that you are more alone than you really think. best to learn to be independant and smart. look. even i am getting dragged into this online BS. damn.

[DeniseAzrielZen]

@scarekrowe522 Weak and pitiful?! Are people with cancer weak and pitiful? It's a disease you heartless, judgemental fuk. You make me sick.

[bam2thebamable]

@scarekrowe522 you are a complete dumbass. you accuse others of being weak and pitiful, but only a complete marshmallow could post such a heartless, thoughtless comment. you have NO pride and NO honor. But don't worry guys, Karma knows what to do with things like scarekrowe522.

[1Pantikian]

@scarekrowe522 lol, this coming from a guy who post videos of himself dressed up as a ninja calling himself a master assassin. what a waist. i'd love to fight this ninja

[Deathbydsm]

@scarekrowe522 Someone needs a hug :(

[lespaul3826]

@scarekrowe522 how could you say they are weak and pitiful? they battled addiction and WON. that seems pretty strong to me.

[sammi20221]

i had a friend pass away from an overdose. he was only 14. he passed away four days before his 15th birthday.

James im sorry we never saw the signs...

sometimes it amazes me to how fucked up our world is...

[bam2thebamable]

@sammi20221 my condolences...i am going through a similar situation. Thank Earth for Blue October.

[smooglegoogification]

God Bless you Justin, Jeremy, Ryan, C.B.......you are so very special to me. xoxox

[Deathbydsm]

@Deathbydsm Damn already seven months sober. Went and saw Blue October in Boise here a week AGO and I decided to hit this song back up again because he didnt have time to play it. Thank you guys for putting that comment up, it means a lot to me and hopefully others looking for help. Its a tough road but what doesnt kill you makes you much stronger. I promise.

[Jodyholt902]

I love 22 seconds in. The first note, the picture. I like it. :)

[deathlyhollow2014]

this is a powerfull song agreed :) my dad is now 3 years sober from methanfetamine and he told me and my older sister that he will never stop wanting it but he wants us 1 billion times more he said we saved his life Love U DAD !!!!!!!!!!!!

-save the victims

[shellyk411]

My sister died August 23, 2009 from an overdose of Methadone. She was 34 years old and had 3 children. My life nor her childrens' lives will ever be the same.

[SweeneysDevil]

Love this song but it makes me sad cuz my brother is just like that :/ Really pretty song though! :))

[MrShizPoo]

omg finally i found the song!!! it makes me sad

[marguritia]

I always liked this song but had never really listened to it. It brought tears to my eyes.

[FurryKing19]

the pictures gave this song a whole new strength that just listning to it just does not have I thought it was strong before I was wrong

[fallenforgc]

I listen to this song all the time.. it has so much meaning ... we had a family friend pass away earlier this year from a heroine overdose. I listen to this and wonder sometimes if these were some of the thoughts going through his head....

[fastwritename]

enjoyment is never worth the pain

[aysonator]

justin is so brave you can kind of hear his voice is going through the song from sadness. i could never sing something so deep. well done justin love the song!

[pumarunner88]

I can relate to this song better than I want to... but it is really helping me out right now.

[kattdogg1966]

I love this band and their music. But the lady at 4:07 is Carole King and she isn't dead... She's 68 years old and alive ... Just a little FYI

[mulroasted]

Carole King is singing at Madison Square Garden New York with James Taylor on June 15th this year

[e13e7]

Rest in peace, victims of drugs..

[bobwatters]

drug addiction is so sick i lost so many friends to it i cant bealive that i made it through addiction free while my friends dropped like flyies

[Deathbydsm]

Honestly....... When I wrote I know I am strong enough to change.... I was shooting up Oc about 4-5 times a day. I am 23 and am at my 6th day of recovery. I am still attending school and working, however it is this that made me realize that because I was a functional drug addict at that moment, that if I continued I would OD. If this song was intended to wake anyone up or save anyone...... it has. Not a joke.... drug dependancy sucks. I just went through the five worst days of my life.

[jeepie36]

@Deathbydsm this is a really powerful song!! totally agree....

Good Luck on your recovery

Peace and God Bless =D

[jonman45]

this song brings me tears sometimes

[Deathbydsm]

"I know I am strong enough to change, watch me change."

[Rikuji20]

Favorite song by them. I interpret it differently, and thus i relate to it in the way that i see it. Keep preaching, Justin

[grayzbeardz]

is that his bro at 1:01?

[jonman45]

@grayzbeardz the drummer bro

[oyeaibike23]

a few of my friends overdosed however most of them survived and are okay, but they continue to do these drugs </3

[Theflyingpickles]

i love this, its so beautiful and touching

[BlueOctoberAppNormal]

no comparison

[sweepy1020]

This song is so strange to me. As I have never been a drug user. but i can relate to the feelings in the music and lyrics. Everyone has different sides of them. Everyone has things they struggle with. NOONE in this world is perfect. With more understanding and honesty then maybe the world would be a better place. I do know about the struggles that an Addict goes through. Remember you are NEVER alone. you just need to know where 2 go for the help and understanding that you need.

YOU ROC

[SoldierSide77]

I would HIGHLY recommend to any Blue October fan that they check out Justin's book, Crazy Making. It is just incredible. Basically, it's Justin's description and meaning of what every single song from every Blue October album means to him. They sell it on Blue October's website for about 20 bucks. Very highly recommended.

[RebeliousButterfly]

got it, my boyfriend got it me for our two year anniversary ^^ it's frickin' awesome. Went to see them live a week ago too....they're so amazing!

[TheJoshuaaa]

drugs are bad mmkay?

[ffafdaly]

PERFECT!!!

I LOVE IT!

[nuclearnate]

Did he used to be a meth addict? I know he was Bipolar but in one of his songs (Overweight -foiled) he says something about meth.

[MsEffervescent]

1: 57 ?

[DoomDragon611]

I was gonna do this song for my school talent show. But i just couldnt do it without crying. I'm doing Still Broken instead.

[FromWantToNeed]

My mom is in love with this song. Lol, my mom makes me smile.

[gangsterzombie]

fucking great song

[FatLunaNeedsThin]

Oh, dear Pustin is so lovely<3 (and yes, he is PUSTIN to me).

This song just breaks my heart and it's so beautiful and ugh, can't explain it. I can so realte to this song.

[SoldierSide77]

Pustin? Why do you call him Pustin?

[demonicangel12]

I love this song.

I reminds me of myself.

The first verse does more than the rest though.

[Warrior172]

substance abuse...claimsso many lives.well,im 14 and almost lost my dad to meth and coke.i know its not as deadly as heroine.not nearly.but its bad enough...why did man create drugs?other than easy money,what else to they retrieve?

[pogocapmaster1]

nothing.. pain and regret is all that mounts up after wards.. it may feel good at the time but it only does harmful things, be thankful you had your father to set that example so you would no better like i didn't

[xxaznhoboxx]

well... drugs are also good for us. its just supposed to be used sparingly in small portions. morphine is a good example. and too much of just about anything is deadly. you can even die off of a water overdose.

[maroonkangaroo]

people should give him thumbs down some drugs are suppose to be for medicine that is what he is saying not that its good to get high or whatever.

true you can die of water overdose but it has to be a lot of gallons

[nuclearnate]

Dont be a fucktard please. Do people like you just go on youtube videos to cause problems and disagree with people?

[maroonkangaroo]

im sorry if my comment seem rude i didnt want to create any problem i just thought the guy had a point, i know drugs are bad but some are a necessity someone asked a question and i thought i should answer it.

i rarely post comments

[Skycrusher]

Are you kidding? Do you know the sheer bobbling percentage of people that actually, sincerely do just that?

It's remarkably sad.

[stanada08]

morphine is almost as damaging heroine, they figured that out after the civil war when all the veterans were junkies... bad example

[homedogphil]

afraid its not as simple as that sorry.

[wigunsmith]

No fault to your father- I know what its like. Life just seems to painfull without it. But there is hope. Keep your head up kid- keep talking it may save your sanity and his life.

[thiefelent]

I can barely read the comments, it's that amazing.

[guitarxxx86]

This song helped me ,alongside the one I love, make a decision never to harm myself with substances again. Amy I love you and we will have a great future.

[Dissonant1975]

@guitarxxx86 Good for you brotha..Best wishes and strength in your recovery

[Fullcircle12]

this is my favorite song, no matter how many times i hear it i always end up being ripped apart, its so sad <3

[RainbowCowsxx]

So so sad. I feel like this is actual music straight from his soul. Sounds weird but that's I think.

<3

[mancooper1234]

in the beginning hes talking about how his friends died on substance abuse and the crowd is like "WOOOOOOOO!!! YEAH!!!!" lol

[BURNASAQ]

that should not be funny, but lol, your right...

[BBfurteamedward]

wow i think im gonna cry!

this song is so sad

ive always loved this band

what does it say at 2:49 ?

i only got "where is my love..... where is my reason 2 live "

but i didnt get the 2nd " where is"

[SoldierSide77]

It's "Where is my hope"

[charlie1232123212321]

it says where is my hope (Y)

[gottlosesheidenkind]

what does (Y) mean?

[charlie1232123212321]

thumbs up lol

[cubbers66]

i can't stop thinking of him...the meaning behind this song, is so touching. whats happening!

[gennyv1979]

Blue October is the best band that ever walked the face of the Earth. Its such a shame that so many people are missing out on their talent. I listen to them EVERY day. I rarely listen to ANYTHING else. <3

[norway1516]

very true, I cycle through all six albums just depends on what im feeling for the day.

[apprentice58]

Right blue october only had 5 albums, not six. If you're including live albums then they have 7 still not six.

[norway1516]

not sure how you got 7 but ive only seen 6 and even though you can find currently everything on Argue with a tree on just about every Blue October album its still the only live album they have done. Im very interested though in where this seventh album is though.

[apprentice58]

Their Studio Albums:

The answers

Consent to treatment

History for sale

Foiled

Approaching Normal <- released this past march

Live albums:

Argue with a tree

Foiled for the last time <- Don't know how you forgot about this one, but it does have live tracks.

[norway1516]

yea thats what I thought no Foiled for the last time is not a whole new album there genius its got a few of the same tracks from foiled, just dj version so its not a whole new album thanks for trying though bub

[apprentice58]

Uh by that definition, Argue with a tree doesn't count as an album either, it too doesn't have any new tracks, rather it contains live versions of tracks from their first three studio albums only done live. Foiled for the last time is the same case, except with songs that are from mostly foiled, and some from history for sale, again live versions (not dj mind you).

So they have 5 albums not 6 if you don't count live albums.

[norway1516]

*sigh* The key word here "FULL" live album they have by definition its a different album. But not only is it a compilation of EVERY cd they have ever done including a track from approaching normal ;) that was never released until there new album but thanks for playing bub, its been fun again your argument is not legit foiled for the last time is the essentially the same as foiled I dont think it matters which version you buy its the same thing a few extras which are really irrelevant

[apprentice58]

Well I still really fail to understand how if you consider Argue with a tree an album, then why you at the same time considered Foiled for the last time to not be an album as well..

w/e we're debating over a moot point anyways.

[idontlikemakingthis]

argue with a tree had weight of the world

which was a new track at the time

[apprentice58]

Yeah... but it general it was just a compilation disc with live tracks (same exact thing for Foiled For the Last Time)

I don't understand where you (well I'm assuming you agree with norway by this comment) and norway are getting this distinction that 1 new track + live reduxes -> New album, but only live track and reduxes -> not a counted album)

I still think that they have 5 studio, and 2 live, I don't know where you guys are getting this distinguishment of them from.

[idontlikemakingthis]

I simply pointed out your mistake

Argue with a Tree had a new track

I wasn't taking a side, I just said it had a new track

[XXawesome3XX]

awesome song so sad though

[SoldierSide77]

Wow, akg...that is quite a weird video you put together. But a fucking incredible song nonetheless. I wish they still played this live...I would have died to hear them play this when I saw them in Denver on Thursday night.

[MissSoCal28]

wow..*crying*....sooo sad and true for so many ppl, it doesnt relate to me personally but just thinkin bout ppl who feel tht they hav to hide wht theyre really feelin, its sad and to any1 who thinks tht they dont hav any1, or needs to hide wht theyre feeling, or even just feels alone, ur NEVER alone, there is ALWAYS SOME1, whether its a neighbor, or a friend, or family member, u may not even no tht they care, but NO ONE IS EVER ALONE

[caitlinbear]

I love this song. It was the first one i listend too. Thanks to my friend who says its LITTERALLY his song...i called him a chameleon the before i herd this song too.

[pepijn499]

Chameleon boy.

I can totally relate with these lyrics.. Perfect song

[FridayNiteFruitcakes]

my dada actually showed me this song a while ago and i fell in love with it cuz i think everyone can relate to it.

[HarmonyShai]

aw that's so sad, but true alot of times. :-(

Chameleon Boy...<3

[jamyjamj]

I love this song so much!  I can relate to how he feels in it so well.

[mereaubmomma]

i love this song... I think it speaks to everyone showing how sometimes you have to hide your true self with others

[MASK0130]

This is my favorite song by Blue October. I love the way you sum up this song. It's kinda my life...

[beetle209er]

*tears fall*

[ninjaxkagexsaiyuri]

hands down my favorite song. i dont do drugs, but its like my unwillingness to show people how i am inside. this song used to make me cry all the time, now i love it, and share it with everyone i can. so beautiful. i hope i can find someone like justin in my life

[dragoonsic]

I agree. with the unwillingness aspect of what you said. I suffer the same fate where I dont chose to let people see the inner side of me so I put on the happy face while I lead my life truely in a depression.

[ninjaxkagexsaiyuri]

exactly. i self harmed, had an eating disorder for over four years and still struggle, i've been so depressed for no reason....and i hid it from everyone. sometimes i feel invisible, but i do call myself the chameleon girl.

[barney6323]

aww this song hits home!

come to the UK Blue October, PLEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASE!!!!

[kkendrick96]

this is a great song.you can tell it came from the heart!iLOVEblueOctober!

ey are just..wonderful!

[cheesewhizz50]

this song makes me think of my father who abused drugs and lost his life because of it. the part that gets me is towards the end when he says "i try to think of all the people i look up to or growing up who would i be

now the twisted part whered all my idols end up they all passed away". i love blue october, their music is simply amazing.

[Friiikey]

this is so damn beautiful, it makes me cry

[ShadowCat258]

does anyone know why this is the most personal song for him?

does the song reference his friends?

its truly a beautiful song but i thought it was about himself.

[kellysmith94]

this song is so deep. absolutely wonderful.

[Tpaoldskool]

Wow! Right On!  Nuf said.

[linuxgirl123]

it mannages to reduce me to tears every single time..

[Kilowhaat]

me too.

[SiIentDarkness]

@linuxgirl123

blue october does that...

[Slaveofthebeast666]

Oh my god this live version has so much emotion in it i cried..

[alecto31]

i love this song blue october rocks and this song is sad

[83starbuck]

Love blue october, if you want to see the real version of this song, meaning the live version go by Argue with a tree, i personally think that that is better than any rendition we could come up with.

[munuto]

i luv this song i have an odd connection with this song even tho im a girl and ive never abused any substances. idk i just always am moved and get chill bumps when i hear it.

[tracdog69]

This video was very nicely put together. Blue October has one of the most honestly talented frontmen in quite some time. And he ain't hard to look at, either. YUMMY!!! I LOVE the band, and I think you did a good job on the video.

[omgzzgmo]

I forgot to say! Nice job with the pictures :D I really like that moving colors one, it's all... technocolor... tehe

[omgzzgmo]

5 friends in a year? wow that really sucks. I know how he feels, I've had 6 in 8 months as well as problems with my friends (they pretty much hate me) I really like this song though, it has a diffrent meaning to me but it's great non the less. That's why I love blue october, the writer/singer wrote the songs from what he himself has gone through, not some group who writes to be great and famous. :D

[tracdog69]

How are you doing with that? Are ur friends mad @ you cuz you don't do it anymore? I hope so. Keep ur head up, and just look toward the future. If Justin can clean himself up, anyone can! He is brutally honest about what he's gone through, and look @ him now. Stay clean! God Bless!

[Jessica7Ann7Meier]

nice video! one of my favorite songs by my absolute favorite band!

[mustangfreak]

Same here. I love this damn song!