@KimberlyR4U I wish I could say that I spent much time in the "normal" range. I have spent a majority of the last 14 years depressed. I do have hypomanic episodes, but they are very short, 4-7 days. Since I have the episodes once every 1-2 months, I am rapid-cycling. My new psych has told me this has been uncontrolled for some time. Starting over again is extremely hard. Luckily I have great friends supporting me. The worst part is knowing I have failed at life. I feel like it is never-ending.
You seem like a very loving nice lady. I understand what you mean about phone calls. You should only talk someone you trust or when you're ready to deal with the stress. I vaporize medicinal marijuana and take Lamictal for my Bipolar II and it works wonders. I definitely recommend it-but I'm not a doctor. Don't drink if you have depression. It might seem like it helps, but it's not worth the burnout.
I hope you feel better! I don't have bipolar, actually I have diagnosed OCD and GAD, but learning about bipolar disorder really intrigues me. I know it's a horrible thing and I would not want to have it but I'm really curious about. Again, feel better soon:) Try to hang in there! <3
I understand completely were your coming from, i'm 18 and just got diagnosed in may, have been in hospital twice. Its been awful, its still not much better but i'm trying. I've gone through the same thing, lost all my friends bar one or two people who would talk to me the odd time, so i've left school. Thank you for your video, it makes me feel less alone.
Thanks for taking the time to share your experience. I know when I went through my two weeks of depression I isolated like wildfire, calling into work and everything. I skipped work so much I was afraid I would lose my job, but so far so good. You're not alone. I was just recently diagnosed with Bipolar II, and the doc is trying me on meds.
Kimberly I'm 21 years old and I feel like I have Bi Polar type II also but haven't been properly diagnosed. Everything you said I've felt throughout my life and sometimes my depression gets so bad that I have fits of uncontrollable rage. Not just a temper tantrum but pure hatred. Have you ever felt anything like this before?
I have Schizoaffective Disorder - a mix of Schizophrenia and Bi Polar Disorder - in my case Bi Polar II. I have been in a major Depression for the last two months and am now shifting into a Hypomanic phase. For me that includes restlessness, hypersexuality, racing thoughts, decreased need for sleep, lack of concentration and euphoria. My family abandoned me when I revealed my illness and I've lost many friends and isolate & generally hate being on the phone. I also have Social Anxiety. Thnx
I understand completely what you are going through I know we all hear that all the time from other people. I'm curious - in the video you say you have times where you just don't want to leave the house. Has your Bipolar II manifested itself into Agoraphobia? I've developed severe Agoraphobia. It's July 5 &(except for my Oncology & Psychiatrist visits), I've only left my house 5 times since January - completely opposite of my old personality of having been a social butterly. Just curious. Thx.
@Smurphyturf I don't think it's agoraphobia, just part of my depression. Because usually, once I am out it's not that bad. Although, I do have some anxiety around people when I have to be out alone. Whenever someone is with me, I'm fine. I'm sorry to hear your having problems going out of the house too. The only thing we can do it push ourselves to go out and surround ourselves with other people who keeps us moving.
AAwwww, Honey, i know just how you feel. I have struggled with bipolar for years. Just know you are not alone and always hang in there, as your mood will lift again. I have alot of the same problems with friends, It is so hard, because you feel like shit and so alone. Just be careful about not talking to friends, because it could isolate you more and make your illness worse. Love and huggs xxxx
wish you all the best...the same happens to me and I feel it hard to explain to people...but I am finding joy in doing yoga and other physical exercises along with meditation which I LOVE...being by myself doing meditation is the best thing...hope it might work for someone else suffering from BP II. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you so much for sharing I am also going thru a depressive mood ! It kind of started a few days ago but it got worse when I received bad news my worker has taken another job and I have to see another new one !!! She has come to see me in home now for 3 years !!! this is not a good month to leave me !!! You are right kimberlyR4U even day to day things tear us apart !!! I'm glad I found you today !!!
You a texan? you sound like it.
423musicfan 3 weeks ago
@KimberlyR4U I wish I could say that I spent much time in the "normal" range. I have spent a majority of the last 14 years depressed. I do have hypomanic episodes, but they are very short, 4-7 days. Since I have the episodes once every 1-2 months, I am rapid-cycling. My new psych has told me this has been uncontrolled for some time. Starting over again is extremely hard. Luckily I have great friends supporting me. The worst part is knowing I have failed at life. I feel like it is never-ending.
Eliwritesnovels 1 month ago
You seem like a very loving nice lady. I understand what you mean about phone calls. You should only talk someone you trust or when you're ready to deal with the stress. I vaporize medicinal marijuana and take Lamictal for my Bipolar II and it works wonders. I definitely recommend it-but I'm not a doctor. Don't drink if you have depression. It might seem like it helps, but it's not worth the burnout.
TheAndr00e 2 months ago
I hope you're okay!
coaxialflutter 2 months ago
I hope you feel better! I don't have bipolar, actually I have diagnosed OCD and GAD, but learning about bipolar disorder really intrigues me. I know it's a horrible thing and I would not want to have it but I'm really curious about. Again, feel better soon:) Try to hang in there! <3
woodwinked14 2 months ago
only a complete moron would tell someone with an Axis 1 or 2 disorder to cheer up.
trixielamour1 2 months ago
cheer up!! car breakdown! are you kidding???
OzTerri 3 months ago
I understand completely were your coming from, i'm 18 and just got diagnosed in may, have been in hospital twice. Its been awful, its still not much better but i'm trying. I've gone through the same thing, lost all my friends bar one or two people who would talk to me the odd time, so i've left school. Thank you for your video, it makes me feel less alone.
Deirdreb93 3 months ago
yr so brave and so heipfull to others who can not talk i also have bi polar and its a living nightmare many thanks for posting yr video xx
lucyholly99 3 months ago
Thanks for taking the time to share your experience. I know when I went through my two weeks of depression I isolated like wildfire, calling into work and everything. I skipped work so much I was afraid I would lose my job, but so far so good. You're not alone. I was just recently diagnosed with Bipolar II, and the doc is trying me on meds.
witchalan 3 months ago
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sarrishaa 4 months ago
Thank-u for sharing your experience.There is nothing worse then feeling alone.Your video helps;)
TheSasha1111 4 months ago
Kimberly I'm 21 years old and I feel like I have Bi Polar type II also but haven't been properly diagnosed. Everything you said I've felt throughout my life and sometimes my depression gets so bad that I have fits of uncontrollable rage. Not just a temper tantrum but pure hatred. Have you ever felt anything like this before?
Baylorchick20 5 months ago
I feel your pain...................
thundersteve1566 5 months ago
I have Schizoaffective Disorder - a mix of Schizophrenia and Bi Polar Disorder - in my case Bi Polar II. I have been in a major Depression for the last two months and am now shifting into a Hypomanic phase. For me that includes restlessness, hypersexuality, racing thoughts, decreased need for sleep, lack of concentration and euphoria. My family abandoned me when I revealed my illness and I've lost many friends and isolate & generally hate being on the phone. I also have Social Anxiety. Thnx
soymiguelalejandro23 6 months ago
I don't know why, but some comments will let me respond and others won't. So sorry if I didn't respond to your comment.
KimberlyR4U 8 months ago
@ichill69 Yes, I take meds, thank god. The meds help some, at least they keep me from being suicidal. They take the edge off a little.
KimberlyR4U 8 months ago
I understand completely what you are going through I know we all hear that all the time from other people. I'm curious - in the video you say you have times where you just don't want to leave the house. Has your Bipolar II manifested itself into Agoraphobia? I've developed severe Agoraphobia. It's July 5 &(except for my Oncology & Psychiatrist visits), I've only left my house 5 times since January - completely opposite of my old personality of having been a social butterly. Just curious. Thx.
Smurphyturf 8 months ago
@Smurphyturf I don't think it's agoraphobia, just part of my depression. Because usually, once I am out it's not that bad. Although, I do have some anxiety around people when I have to be out alone. Whenever someone is with me, I'm fine. I'm sorry to hear your having problems going out of the house too. The only thing we can do it push ourselves to go out and surround ourselves with other people who keeps us moving.
KimberlyR4U 8 months ago
AAwwww, Honey, i know just how you feel. I have struggled with bipolar for years. Just know you are not alone and always hang in there, as your mood will lift again. I have alot of the same problems with friends, It is so hard, because you feel like shit and so alone. Just be careful about not talking to friends, because it could isolate you more and make your illness worse. Love and huggs xxxx
brucinda01 9 months ago
I can relate to this video especiayll the phone thing
Bestrong4 9 months ago
wish you all the best...the same happens to me and I feel it hard to explain to people...but I am finding joy in doing yoga and other physical exercises along with meditation which I LOVE...being by myself doing meditation is the best thing...hope it might work for someone else suffering from BP II. Thank you for sharing.
MsSainaba 10 months ago
I have been Dx with bipolar 2. I am currently in a depressed state as well, I do not answer my phone calls (incl work calls) when I am depressed.
I told some friends that I have bipolar and they don't beleive it.
It's comforting to know that there are otheres out there like myself. Thanks for your video
KatieISrockin 1 year ago
Thank you so much for sharing I am also going thru a depressive mood ! It kind of started a few days ago but it got worse when I received bad news my worker has taken another job and I have to see another new one !!! She has come to see me in home now for 3 years !!! this is not a good month to leave me !!! You are right kimberlyR4U even day to day things tear us apart !!! I'm glad I found you today !!!
MsMommasue 1 year ago
@MsMommasue Yes, sometimes even the smallest setbacks can be huge to us. I just try to take things one day at a time.
KimberlyR4U 8 months ago