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I had a couple of brief experiences which I interpreted as mania during the course of about 8 months. Then I had a mystical experience. I had no framework for understanding what a mystical experience was then, but it made me think of Jesus, and I was sure I was experiencing what he did. All these experiences followed cessation of heavy prolonged cannabis use. The manic experiences were nothing compared to the mystical experience, but I guess they were inextricably connected.
The fact that this guy has experienced "enlightenment" doesn't mean everyone with bipolar considers the mania that way. It does not happen because of breakdown of this socalled ego, it a biological condition which needs medication, not alluded beliefs of touching the soul or breakin down your ego. However great this state of mania feels, as I have experienced myself, it is followed by periods of crippling depression, so this is a biological condition which needs the right medication
BiPolar is an amazing gift, if you learn how to tame the beast and use your spiritual powers to the good. If you look back in history, to the myth of Hercules. The characteristics of Hercules would coincide to those that someone would now be classed as 'bi-polar'. So you are now classed as having some form of problem. In Ancient times, you would have been described as a god trapped inside a human body.
Yes, yes. It is very spiritual. I am experiencing the world and myself in a way I never have before. And I've never done drugs, but I feel as if I am drugging myself from my brain. Sometimes I just stay in bed because I feel addicted to the sensations of falling asleep and waking up. Also, I just love the feel of the bed and everything I touch. Sometimes I look at an object a few feet away from me but feel connected to it; like we're all swimming in the same soup.
Hi Bipolar Guy, while I appreciate the need to 'update' creative endeavors, I don't see what the need was here. I have listened to them both repeatedly and find, IMHO, that I prefer the original. I understand that familiarity could be a factor as I have listened to it repeatedly. But I also find that the recording on the original feels a bit more natural? genuine? I don't know but I find listening to the original one more soothing and comforting. I enjoy it & have downloaded it for myself.
@kozychik I´ll confess, I was a bit more carefree about my subject matter back then. Maybe that´s what comes through. I just needed to update the first three videos to let people know that I was aware of the dark side of these disorders and that being manic didn´t equal a permanent state of nirvana. In a sense, all the updates were mostly defensive manouevers as my material starts to reach a broader audience. I needed to prevent critics from claiming that I was naiive.
@replytoomyass Yup, once you know that god truly exists, beyond any religion, and he's actually playing a direct role in your life, sometimes its hard to beleive that he would dump this kind of shit on us. But he does, and I believe its for a reason. don't give up on HIM/HER yet. From what I understand, He's a pretty smart dude.
@bipolarorwakingup I beleive in God but I don't beleive in religion. I think that if life is some sort of test then he should at least have the decency to let us know that we're playing a game.
I've experienced various stages of enlightenment but it was never an ecstatic mania instead it was more of a contentment and knowing. Bipolar disorder seems to be either manic or depressive and extremes are something to be avoided on the path to enlightenment. It'd be a real shame if people watch this and think their spiritual awakening is a disorder that requires medication. (Also: Zen is Buddhism)
@Phranky - Grof distinguishes the 'spiritual emergence' (which sounds like what you have experienced - and I had in 1995) from the 'spiritual emergency', (which I had in 1997). The emergence is an awakening or knowing experience which is is fairly easy to manage and integrate. The Spiritual emergecy can involve an entire loss of grounding and usually appears to others as insanity. They are always extreme states, but rarely entered into voluntarily.
Thank you so much. i feel so much better. i'm deeply into mysticism and what u said is so true, and what i find to be really wrong about these "scientists" is their insistence that these "delusions" are chemical imbalances but i had, as a small example, very psychic and intuitive experiences that were not limited to being internal but external as in people around me have seen my psychic moments shockingly accurate and numerous, which means what i feel is right by their own standard of evidence
our spiritual energy we feel very eager to share our feelings, emotions and thoughts with the world. It's a very difficult condition especially because people don't know how to react to what you say. They just think you're crazy and you need pills.
What they don't get is that you need love, attention and someone to share your ideas with. I still have a hard time shutting my eyes but I'm becoming more able to control myself. It's true that we are more attracted to social and global issues.
This is probably the best video about Bipolar Mania on the internet.
The psychiatrists don't understand that it's more of a spiritual experience or enlightment than just a sudden burst of insanity lol.
Therefore, bipolar persons need spiritual guidance, love, affection, someone to share their ideas with and not bottles of medicine. The good thing about this video is that you clarifies the idea that we ARE SPIRITS evolving, whether you want to believe it or not and when we feel...
You know how to put your ideas together and the delivery is awesome.
Also, the collection of images on the video are very interesting and according to what you are saying.
You really understand the subject haha...just like me. And now that I'm starting to cure myself I can remember when it all began.When my ego collapsed. Some sort of depression, some sort of feeling that you need to do something good to the world.I'm sure these videos will help many ppl
Everyone came to Earth with a specific purpose, a specific reason to be here and live interacting with others. During adolescence some teenagers may experience this "Enlightment", this connection with everything. Whether you call it bipolar disorder or expansion of your consciousness, repressing the affected persons' thoughts and feelings only make it worse. I'm going through this "Enlightment thing" and I feel more connected with God, the spirits and the spiritual world. I'm sure God exists.
recently I've thought i might be bipolar but before it was this bad, like feeling suicidal then feeling like "god" i was looking into spiritual stuff like the law of attraction and quantum physics...don't know tho maybe im just a bit depressed.
I think whether it is enlightenment or not is a lot determined by your knowledge of spirituality, how you handle it, what you learn etc. I think it's a great time to study.
Obviously an altered state of consciousness. Some good and some bad to it. I find that too high all the time isn't too good for normal functioning. Neither is too low (mostly a fiction). Going to high too long gets me too low too long. Now I can go where I want emotionally, no drugs except what the brain produces, and I like that. I think the idea in life is to go where you want, when you want or when you need to.
now you need to wake the fuck up and snap out of your psychosis and get your head straight. If us bipolar persons really had special gifts or special insights wich normal ppl dont have, i would already have psychicly removed all your nonsense from youtube.
@Euwnt come on bro the rabbit hole is deep being bipolar is special it must happen for one to find himself. its the introduction into the spirit world.
heya all!!! actually i need help!!! so hereiz my story i fell in love wiv a girl living away of me and she start being strange toward me so she's always thinking im with other and she's crying most of tym :( so i did notice that she's bipolar coz she can't sleep at all maybe 2 or 3 hours and she call me verry late at night bla bla bla? so my question : will i succeed to share lyf wiv her??
@idono12 It has to be fixed or nix. Too don't get married and have kids. You'll probably wear out sooner or later, but who knows how bad she has it and if she is one in a million. Times are sure changing so there may be a cure out there not everyone knows about or on the way. There is so much new stuff, I would check it out, maybe there's a brand or two of spirituality that has some solutions. Have you looked into Cognitive Therapy. Some docs are usually much better than the rest.
I had the same experience three years ago. Everybody talks about the dark side of bipolar disorder but is good to know someone who had felt the same as me in a spiritual way speaking. Very interesting video.
To those who are spiritually dead, for lack of a better term, they tend to block the experience or reality by using or over using western medicine and practices. It's amazing to me how many are so out of touch and not even a little bit open to something outside of a scientific explanation for everything. For those people I feel sorry because, at least once in their lives they will go through this process and be so lost. Ive seen people actually get physically ill and die when the crisis occurs.
wow! i am 22 and am bipolar this stuff REALLY strikes a chord with me , especially with the spiritual/ broading world view! would be cool to speak to others going through it.
Thanks for this. I am a living example of one who made it through. I have mastered both polarities, now I am ONE ! It feels amazing being all in the same place at once. I send anyone having a rough time with this Love and Strength.If you are suffering try to eat fresh organic fruits/veggies as much as possible and cut out sugar. It will help a lot mentally. And try your best to get off the meds when you're ready, they are nothing but a crutch and won't "cure" you. You Are The Cure!.
i have had a collapse of the ego twice, both were extremely spiritual experiences...i try and explain this to my girlfriend and doctor but the fact that i couldn't speak made them think otherwise. i would give anything to stay like that, i did feel extreme love and oneness with everything...i felt everything you described, it took 3 shots of ativan in the ass to stop it
I went through a total ego collapse earlier this year. Which led me through an amazing soul enlightening journey. I lost my job, my friends and most importantly my ego. All this time since then, which i would say has been 6 months from now. People have always told me im a psycho and that i have bi-polar disorder. I always knew that it wasnt a bad thing to have bi-polar, i just never really formulated why. Now that i see your videos, it really makes me so excited knowing im not alone. Thank you.
i started crying after you said something about encountering death because the last couple of days all i can think about is what song whould be played at my funeral how would it look and i would have visions of it ...i dont really get this yet this is the second vid i have watched on bipolar i know that i have symptoms of it
Just remember, if you are thinking suicidal thoughts, don't kill yourself, kill the part of your life that wants to die. What I mean is end the relationship that is draining you, stand up for your inner spirit - not through any violence to you are anyone else, but simplly by walking away. End the drama. The less drama in our lives, the better. That is the gentlest, yet scariest, way to die.
I used this as a quote for my Schizophrenia and Bipolar project, I mentioned this quote and I mentioned your Youtube account if they need more questions from you. :P Sorry if that was wrong, you just seem like you're helping a lot of people.
I had the fear of death too and I think it was because I was living in ignorance and cut off from my spiritual side. I felt like something was wrong all my life and rebelled, but couldn't figure it out.Through meditation and chakra activation, I finally figured out that I'M NORMAL and society is SICK!!! Now I love myself, life, nature. All the hippie type stuff I used to make fun of. I'm Cured of all my anxieties too. I feel like I'm 5yrs old. Suicidal thoughts aren't yours. They go away.
hmm...what if you still have the feeling or think you feel one with all and deep understanding of the univers... like you need to set your true self free and become really...get rid of your skin becouse you feel and think your real self is inside and is rebelling and wants to get out...
If you feel like you need to break out, chances are you are not in what is usually called an `acute psychosis`. Its your ego that makes you feel trapped, and if you feel trapped, that means that your ego has not collapsed.
This video reflects my expereince clsely but I also had the sensory experience of God condemning me to hell. I live with this every waking moment and I seek someone's insight. Thank you.
You mention the idea of timelessness. Well, as Einstein displayed, time is only a construct we use to demarcate the passing of moments, like a ruler for the fourth dimension. In a "manic" state constructs are of no importance, and therefore we see things as they truly are. Because our neurons are firing so rapidly our perceptual time is moving much faster than ordinary time. Since time is relative and perception is reality our time actually speeds up.
Now I disagree with you here. I'm not saying you don't experience these euphoric and sacred feelings; I'm suggesting, as one who has a Mix of manic and Major depressive disorders, it is these feelings that are False and lead one to continue into a delusional life.
Well, that's what the doctors want you to believe. I'm not stopping you. But if you want to heal, you need to validate what is happening to you as somehow real, spiritual and important for your development. Otherwise, its meds for life.
I agree with you, and think the video isn't very good, but however, raises something interesting. The delusional life is lead to yes, but does not origionate with your disorders. Just to offer advice or suggestive thought; allow yourself not to fit yourself into reality - the 'main society view' I believe in trying to explain yourself in terms of other people, as in even saying you have a disorder, the negativity comes about. Just 'be', purely, that's all you can do.
does anyone know the name of the artist of the first picture in the #3 video on enlightenment? It reminds me of breaking through into the spiritual realm at the start of mania.
its not very fun being arrested and assaulted all because your aunt and family say your "acting strange" and that you "hit your head" meanwhile all you did when the officers were theyre were yelling at them why are you here i want my lawyer and themnot telling your under arest for mental health act or theyre are any charges and stupidly you fight back and get tazered 5 times because you think they are hear to guide you on your mission..
So they fight me punching me in the head repeatly (still have ringing in my head from that day) they only stopped because i finally cooperated because I was told by a voice in my head that I had completed that part of my mission..I had expereinced the ego loss prior day to this incident that sean was talking about and many other things.. from this point I was proceededly strapped to a bed and injected with some sort of tranquilizers without my permission I was raped basically even sexually
as a female officer as i was getting brought to the hospital and my clothes ripped off and put medical patch thingies all over my body she had grabbed my dick and said something like wow you are big mm i love this part of my job like wtf? I was continued to be raped in the hospital tied to a bed like sean cept i think a lil worse as my hips were strapped to for 2 days they proceeded to rape me with tranquilizers i remember the walls melting and being asleep I would had gladly sat still for
a mri had they asked but no they drugged and raped me instead. I remember seeing some people i knew from highschool and public school that I went to i was tripping hardcore because of this and it only put me into trance deeper
Anyways after that and talking to doctors i was drugged and tranquilized I was like your not putting that in me i do not consent stop why are you doing this?
they just ignored me and the cops around me were laughing and staring. 2 needles tranquilized i was put under the walls were melting it scared me I had never been put under or tranquilized ever this scene caused great emotional pain for some time and still does a little. I finallly came too and was talking to a phsychiatrist altho i wanted to know his name he only told me his last I didnt feel comfortable talking with him
. I remember him asking me questions and I answearing incredibly normally and even peraphrasing and makeing him the interveiwee he was baffled. After this I spent overnight and most of the next day still locked down on the bed It was rediculous except I was transferred to the Police station or the jail I dont quite remember But needless to say it wasnt the best place for me I needed to be srorounded by my loved ones or people that could understand me like the doctors sean cites.
They put me in general population first at the highest level where they keep all the most violent offenders (great place for me eh?) instnatly they eyeballed me when I came and some short black dude thought he could boss me around I was still hearing voices at this point he told me to get in the shower I was like I will shower when I want. get in the shower bitch I told him you and what fucking army he pushed me theyre were no guards around what so ever. I took a shower nothing happend after tha
anyways long story short I ended up in court I got bail I was sposed to stay at the salvation army I didnt. People wernt giveing me my belongings so i could survive i was halucinating again couldnt sleep i thought i was on a mission some kind old lady ended up going with her to a steak house that i didnt know and talking politics this only served to deepen my psychosis and i ended up at tim hortins after and being picked up by police cause the workers were scared of me cause i kept running to
bathroom i thought i was a cia agent no shitting they never asked me to leave but they called the cops on me. Oh yeah before i even got the bail i was in jail after the hospital for about 3 days they held me for the maximum 72 the cops come they ask my name i thought i was going to be inducted well instead I was thrown in segregation unit (isolation/the hole) tiny 6 by 5 room with no windows and they can shut the window in the door and a food slot and make it totally dark on you.
well on about 72 hours again after being in the hole for three days I was told that i could get out but i stupidly choose to stay in and awat sentencing ( I was outta my mind i knew i assaulted the police but outta defense) Long story short I was in the hole for 2 MOUNTHS! this greatly increased my trips and voices and everything I only got out to shower didnt get cantine until the last two weeks didnt have any reading material nothing I was left to my own devices and abused by the guards.
they withheld meals from me on a few ocasions (u only get 3 small meals some couldnt even be considered a meal) and half the time I didnt get my necessities (soap tooth brush tooth paste) the food was terrible and high and sugar for the most part the only way i kept sain was the visits which made things worse as i was handcuffed and sometimes leg braced and behind a glass wall from my family . i only got 3 visits the entire time i was theyre and i was lucky to get to use the phone maybe 10 time
they allso raped me with another needle without my permission a tb test and i am deadly afraid of needles now (after being raped twice) It makes me trip out even more. Finally last 3 weeks or so i get a room that has a window it was nice but the guards still liked to fuck with me by turning off my water and the only water was in the toilet bowl the last week they turn it on. most of the cops at the jail were pigs but theyre were a few good ones that gave me extra blankets near the end and my
dignity and cantine. the only way i kept sane mostly was by meditating jogging on the spot (meditating standing up) streching and the meals and listening to the voices in my head...Well i got out later and let me say i havent been quite the same i dont hear voices anymore it was a spirtual expereince but i am on probation for 12 mounths
Thank you!! You speak for the many who are too medicated to explain their thought process and spiritual connection.those living inside their heads stuck in a world of old school Doctors that want give up on you even when they say they are helping. Drug you just to make it easier on them and have you shut up. So its a long road to living with this and I applaud you for telling our version of what its like to be "bipolar" schizophrenic" I wish you peace and love
First of all THANK YOU! you speak for millions of people who don't have a voice because they are so flat lined by medication and like you said are just told to shut up. I Have been up,down, inside and out of this rollercoaster and path for years. first started at a young age and now being 34 still living the "bipolar schizophrenic" world.I can't tell you how happy and sad this mad me feel. I have been strong for so long, holding in the tears ,but by you sharing your video released those tears.
THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!! Your videos found me and I found them at just the exact right time...I've been having a lot of unusual experiences lately, that can be described as trance like events where the memory of past hurts from early childhood have come bubbling to the forefront of my conciousness, and allowed me to understand some of my insecurities and fears like abandonment and rejection...once they've passed, I've felt more connected to my soul...
I plan on using this video to try and help my friends and family understand where i am coming from, and how i would like to go about dealing with my situation. The thing that sucks is my parents are very un-open to the idea of any kind of "mystical" experience. My dad has been a Pastor for over 20 years and he is SO on the side of the doctors. This past episode i decided i was going to stop taking my a-psychotic and he threatened that if i didnt take it he was taking me to the hospital.
A little heads up....when a person is closed, that´s it....closed. If you want to show my videos to someone, I would start with a friend that may be a little more open to your perspective. In general parents are usually impossible to convince otherwise. Either way, good luck with whatever you choose to do!
in conclusion as he stated they keep you on drugs for the rest of your life. I would not recommend taking any prescription drugs, for any reason in that matter. For every natural disease there is a natural cure.
this is defenatly what im going through everything u have said is happening with me i swear it thank me and finaly understand what the fulk is going on THANK SO SO MUCH FOR UR VIDEO THIS IS GOING TO HELP ME BIGTIME peace and light be with u my brother iam u and u are me we are all 1 and we are free lol
holly shit i think and feel like ive found enlightenment so many times man haha sooooooo true sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo true brother WOW
Thanks so much for making this video! That is my theory too, after my personal "mania" -- I hope we "manics" can support each other in our modern society... to keep the spiritual awakening open and to keep grounded in the everyday reality... both are equally valid and equally sacred. It's just that when we get out of touch with one or the other we get depressed or frustrated... so let's all give each other support love and understanding.
Think mtlsoul has a point - even if you are 100% correct in equating the bipolar experience with phenomena such as Sartori, the 'no meds' route just has too many casualties.
Hey Edd, I´ll reply to you because I like your tuxedo. Have you ever thought that the ´no meds´ route has causualites because of how we think about BD, as a society? From my research, I believe that the leading cause of suicide for Bipolar people is how they are treated by psychiatry, their family, friends and society. I did a video on it called Aggression, Suicide and the healing of BD. You might want to check it out.
OK, you are a which doctor, a snakeoil salesman, con artist, you are going to post this up here, and someone is going to stop taking their meds, and die. You believe in a soul, that persons death lay on your soul. See you hell.
Hi, i was wondering wether you had any advice about mixed episodes and what you think goes on when a person experiences a mixed episode because thats all i ever seem to go through anymore and i dont have any idea about what the spiritual side or ego backstory is on it, so if you could give me your opinion it would be much appreciated, thankyou
I´ll be talking about mixed episodes in future videos. There, the territory gets a little more complex, so I need some time to set it up! But check out my video on Trauma and Repressions. A lot of the sources for the 'mixed' experiences are there.
I read an article in the New York Times about neuroscientist and psychiatrist, Nancy C. Andreasen, who discovered through 20 years of research that antipsychotic drugs shrink the prefrontal cortex of human brains. They block basal ganglia activity, so the frontal cortex doesn't get the input it needs and is shut down. The prefrontal cortex is responsible for executive functioning and is known as the region of the brain that seperates humans from other animals in the kingdom.
Hey, I found that research...great stuff, thanks for the tip. Finally proof that the shrinks are B.S.ing when they say schizophrenia causes brain damage!
Yeah, so know we know the cost of taking antipsychotics- whether you're bipolar or schizophrenic or whatever. Similar research with antipsychotics on macaque monkeys showed a reduction in brain volume. Since monkeys can't have schizophrenia, it must be the drugs causing the shrinkage. I think psychiatrist will continue to prescribe antipsychotics until they develop a better drug.....
I´ve seen it. Stan Grof is pretty critical of Wilber´s view of pscyhosis and I agree with him. It sounds nice and neat to categorize mystics in one place and those with mental illness in another, but the reality is that many people labelled mentally ill are having deeply spiritual experiences, they just don´t have the skills to cope with the experience and fight an ignorant culture at the same time. I was one of the lucky ones.
if I take my personal experience, psychosis is always triggered by the following scheme:
mania > extreme or tendencious behaviour > followed by extreme sense of guilt and shame > synchronicity acceleration > fear of imminent divine retribution > paranoid delusions...
a typical experiment is to play with spiritism during a manic episode, this artificially raises attention and synchronicity, fear, dopamine and adrenaline mix up with christian guilt...a classic...
Sorry Ruth, I deleted your last comment by accident. However, my new video is on aggression and suicide. It will be up next week. I think you will appreciate it.
Cont... The experience may be a 'side-effect' of the chemical imbalance - but the experience had very real effects on my beliefs, perceptions, creativity and well-being. It was the most fantastic and most scary experience of my life. I don't regret it for a second but its pretty dangerous so best not let it happen again. I made some incredible observations about the world which I wish I could share, this video is the closest I have to describing it so far. Thanks again.
Wow, thanks! I had a full "episode" about 4 years ago and I experienced almost all of the things you described.I did not sleep for over 3 days until sent to hospital. I stayed for 2 weeks and then another 2 months at home before getting back to my life.Since then I have been feeling fine after finding the right meds and I understand the physiology of what was happening - but I havent been able to speak to anyone about the actual experience and what it meant to me without confusing them...
i like to think of my bipolar disorder as timothy leary's 6th circuit being activated on its own.
i have the same thoughts in manic states that i have while on mushrooms but without the visuals. (dont take these types of drugs during any type of episode, even then accept that it could very well propel you to one, or intensify the disorder). i know that from even smoking pot in my late teens/ early 20's that any type of drugs will fuck your brain royally.
Wow! Maybe my entire family is right about me. Thankfully, my therapist has been the one to help me get through this change, WITHOUT MEDS! Everything applies to me except suicide. Although, I did recently experience me as a child screaming and clawing to break free from my chest. I am misunderstood by most but fortunately the only person that needs to understand me is me. Although my road is bumpy, I wouldn't change a thing. I am becoming whatever I may be and I love it!
If anything I believe there is a 'middle place' that is closer to our spiritual possibilities than either side of a manic state. A bird cannot fly if it's muscles are too loose, or too tight. I believe that bipolar mania takes the mind to either side of that 'right place' where where we can simply live or transcend to better life. I even have a symbol that reminds me to remember the balance...when I am not in it.
I am bipolar and I think you are WAY off on this. I have had deep spiritual experiences and they have never been the same or confusable with the depressions and 'overcharged' states I have known. The depression of BPM robs one of even their basic spiritual knowing I think(it can)whereas the overly charged 'positive' or energised states can also be spiritually misleading even though one is mentally/physically over involved.
wow. that's all i can say lol. you pretty much hit the nail on the head, i just got out of one of these things, that lasted like 7 months - hell i might still be in it lol. thank you man, it's good to know i'm not the only one who's felt somethin like this. Bipolar should stop being labelled a "disorder". It is no more a "disorder" than your own ethnicity or gender. It's a personality type that is vastly misunderstood...
Im 24 and pretty much just coming to the realization that i could be Bipolar. Ive had this feeling all my life and experienced ups and downs mentally, emotionally etc.I had many friends growing up and girls always liked me, thus felt normal. Rich family,so i lived comfortable, travel alot, well educated.
My father passed away a couple yrs ago, which started this "journey" to my mind/soul. Ive always had a strong memory, intelligence etc. I just want to help myself and others better understand
I never had mania like ANY of that, and(, now eighteen,) I was born with Bipolar; all my extreme periods of mania had shown themselves to me by my realization of a second mindset, a second voice, a second personality, which I had then shown signs of learning to keep in check before I started taking the zombie pills, which I pretended didn't all along but did not only kill it but kill my humanity so I'm now a shell of a human now.. although I've always felt happy to a degree, though that's proof
Thanks for sharing the other side of 'bipolar disorder'. Usually, from what I understand, most people with split-personality symptoms get diagnosed as having either acute schizophrenia or split-personality disorder.
it's totally a collapse of ego, i was put on a pedastal as a kid told i was a genious + hugely better tha every1 then through life i get told im shit + all these responsibilities and labels got 2 me + i was at my friends house then felt like sunshine in my heart like god was licking my soul lol but yeah + my friend went through a similar process although not at the same time. can it b stimulated by alchohol cos i had a more mad than average experience then tooo
ive had 4 xperiences. i went through all of the criteria u mentioned and had some amazing occurances & revelations, look n foward to the next one. but, i thought i was alone n my Xs now i know that i am not, mayb the world is about to go through a conscience shift who knows (the future). i definately would recommend a "psychotic episode" for everyone. although ive never had drugs im quite sure pe s are 10x better, so good, n fact they give u drugs to try & bring u down.
Hey there!I just wanted to let you know,that YOU have totally changed the way I used to see myself and the world around me.For soo many years I have"struggled" with BPD.I wasnt taking meds anymore basically flying without a parachute..Some strange reason,I always felt,obviously different from others....Thinking....man I AM a good person,a little strange but was always seeking a spiritual truth.You got the ball rolling for me,and for that I THANK YOU soo much.Keep it up my brother much LOVE!
Yeah yeah yeah - this guy talks like all this is a mind-numbing revelation, all i had to do was think deeply about the question "Who am I?" on a fuckin schoolbus and i obtained momentary enlightenment - been there, done that!
Thank you for sharing this! I've experienced most of the things you've mentioned, but not all of it. I experienced this oneness a year ago, and it hasn't left my mind or will it ever. I just wish I had the artistic talent to paint the perspective of the world through that experience on paper to share with everyone as the ones you've posted up. I assume everyone's experience is quite different from one another, though we can relate to each other. Thanks again. Hope to keep in touch.
thank you for this bipolarwakingup..my wife is biploar and everything you say makes sense..she is very "4th density" her compassion and unconditional love is an example to us all, yet she struggles greatly with daily "3rd density" living..thanks again.
It´s great that she has an understanding husband! I think you will learn something from all of my videos. Each of them has something to add to my perspective on this. You may also want to check out the information I provide on my blog.
on the other hand, once i took a high dose of DXM (dextromethorphan) - an ingredient in cough syrup - and i felt i was becoming god. the world was spiraling in to me. it was like i was in a video game. it was an amazing feeling i'll never forget. totally life changing.
Hey, at least I´ve got you thinking...I think you are partially right about religion...but when we turn to athiesm (which we all eventually do) we through the baby (God) out with the bathwater (false beleifs, superstition. But that´s cool. For the true seeker, HE always comes back...just when you least expect it.
Wow..... imma suscribe, we share lots of ideas :s
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CarlaCoblenzkm 11 months ago
I had a couple of brief experiences which I interpreted as mania during the course of about 8 months. Then I had a mystical experience. I had no framework for understanding what a mystical experience was then, but it made me think of Jesus, and I was sure I was experiencing what he did. All these experiences followed cessation of heavy prolonged cannabis use. The manic experiences were nothing compared to the mystical experience, but I guess they were inextricably connected.
winstono75 1 year ago
@winstono75 That was interesting! Thanks!
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
The fact that this guy has experienced "enlightenment" doesn't mean everyone with bipolar considers the mania that way. It does not happen because of breakdown of this socalled ego, it a biological condition which needs medication, not alluded beliefs of touching the soul or breakin down your ego. However great this state of mania feels, as I have experienced myself, it is followed by periods of crippling depression, so this is a biological condition which needs the right medication
patelanshul2000 1 year ago
This is 100 percent what happend to me. and it left me happy every min of the day. best things in life are free
garryhunter180 1 year ago
BiPolar is an amazing gift, if you learn how to tame the beast and use your spiritual powers to the good. If you look back in history, to the myth of Hercules. The characteristics of Hercules would coincide to those that someone would now be classed as 'bi-polar'. So you are now classed as having some form of problem. In Ancient times, you would have been described as a god trapped inside a human body.
JonB20 1 year ago
i want to say THANK YOU for this video everything u say is true .i know that im not the only one that has things like that happened to them .
90greeneyes 1 year ago
wow...just wow.
AlexTheMusicPhene 1 year ago
Yes, yes. It is very spiritual. I am experiencing the world and myself in a way I never have before. And I've never done drugs, but I feel as if I am drugging myself from my brain. Sometimes I just stay in bed because I feel addicted to the sensations of falling asleep and waking up. Also, I just love the feel of the bed and everything I touch. Sometimes I look at an object a few feet away from me but feel connected to it; like we're all swimming in the same soup.
kozychik 1 year ago
Hi Bipolar Guy, while I appreciate the need to 'update' creative endeavors, I don't see what the need was here. I have listened to them both repeatedly and find, IMHO, that I prefer the original. I understand that familiarity could be a factor as I have listened to it repeatedly. But I also find that the recording on the original feels a bit more natural? genuine? I don't know but I find listening to the original one more soothing and comforting. I enjoy it & have downloaded it for myself.
kozychik 1 year ago
@kozychik I´ll confess, I was a bit more carefree about my subject matter back then. Maybe that´s what comes through. I just needed to update the first three videos to let people know that I was aware of the dark side of these disorders and that being manic didn´t equal a permanent state of nirvana. In a sense, all the updates were mostly defensive manouevers as my material starts to reach a broader audience. I needed to prevent critics from claiming that I was naiive.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
God is a prick that's all I have to say.
replytoomyass 1 year ago
@replytoomyass Yup, once you know that god truly exists, beyond any religion, and he's actually playing a direct role in your life, sometimes its hard to beleive that he would dump this kind of shit on us. But he does, and I believe its for a reason. don't give up on HIM/HER yet. From what I understand, He's a pretty smart dude.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup I beleive in God but I don't beleive in religion. I think that if life is some sort of test then he should at least have the decency to let us know that we're playing a game.
replytoomyass 1 year ago
finally.. i've been going through this for years
TheWizzardOfRandom 1 year ago
Thank you for posting! You have hit the "nail" right on the head. :)
olijass 1 year ago
Hey i have had this!
So this is what it's called? I had no idea.
You know "Enlightenment" has become such a bastardized and vague word nowadays. I refrain from using it if I can.
Weather this is enlightenment or not I don't know. But i certainly have grown from the experience itself. I'll never forget it.
poopoop121212 1 year ago
I've experienced various stages of enlightenment but it was never an ecstatic mania instead it was more of a contentment and knowing. Bipolar disorder seems to be either manic or depressive and extremes are something to be avoided on the path to enlightenment. It'd be a real shame if people watch this and think their spiritual awakening is a disorder that requires medication. (Also: Zen is Buddhism)
Phranky 1 year ago
@Phranky - Grof distinguishes the 'spiritual emergence' (which sounds like what you have experienced - and I had in 1995) from the 'spiritual emergency', (which I had in 1997). The emergence is an awakening or knowing experience which is is fairly easy to manage and integrate. The Spiritual emergecy can involve an entire loss of grounding and usually appears to others as insanity. They are always extreme states, but rarely entered into voluntarily.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
Thank you so much. i feel so much better. i'm deeply into mysticism and what u said is so true, and what i find to be really wrong about these "scientists" is their insistence that these "delusions" are chemical imbalances but i had, as a small example, very psychic and intuitive experiences that were not limited to being internal but external as in people around me have seen my psychic moments shockingly accurate and numerous, which means what i feel is right by their own standard of evidence
kathrynrain 1 year ago
Bipolar people suffer from delusions, too..
Erich745 1 year ago
our spiritual energy we feel very eager to share our feelings, emotions and thoughts with the world. It's a very difficult condition especially because people don't know how to react to what you say. They just think you're crazy and you need pills.
What they don't get is that you need love, attention and someone to share your ideas with. I still have a hard time shutting my eyes but I'm becoming more able to control myself. It's true that we are more attracted to social and global issues.
lost4soul 1 year ago
This is probably the best video about Bipolar Mania on the internet.
The psychiatrists don't understand that it's more of a spiritual experience or enlightment than just a sudden burst of insanity lol.
Therefore, bipolar persons need spiritual guidance, love, affection, someone to share their ideas with and not bottles of medicine. The good thing about this video is that you clarifies the idea that we ARE SPIRITS evolving, whether you want to believe it or not and when we feel...
lost4soul 1 year ago
Thank you so much for both videos, man!
You know how to put your ideas together and the delivery is awesome.
Also, the collection of images on the video are very interesting and according to what you are saying.
You really understand the subject haha...just like me. And now that I'm starting to cure myself I can remember when it all began.When my ego collapsed. Some sort of depression, some sort of feeling that you need to do something good to the world.I'm sure these videos will help many ppl
lost4soul 1 year ago
Everyone came to Earth with a specific purpose, a specific reason to be here and live interacting with others. During adolescence some teenagers may experience this "Enlightment", this connection with everything. Whether you call it bipolar disorder or expansion of your consciousness, repressing the affected persons' thoughts and feelings only make it worse. I'm going through this "Enlightment thing" and I feel more connected with God, the spirits and the spiritual world. I'm sure God exists.
lost4soul 1 year ago
recently I've thought i might be bipolar but before it was this bad, like feeling suicidal then feeling like "god" i was looking into spiritual stuff like the law of attraction and quantum physics...don't know tho maybe im just a bit depressed.
leajo47 1 year ago
I think whether it is enlightenment or not is a lot determined by your knowledge of spirituality, how you handle it, what you learn etc. I think it's a great time to study.
hbar1212 1 year ago
Obviously an altered state of consciousness. Some good and some bad to it. I find that too high all the time isn't too good for normal functioning. Neither is too low (mostly a fiction). Going to high too long gets me too low too long. Now I can go where I want emotionally, no drugs except what the brain produces, and I like that. I think the idea in life is to go where you want, when you want or when you need to.
hbar1212 1 year ago
now you need to wake the fuck up and snap out of your psychosis and get your head straight. If us bipolar persons really had special gifts or special insights wich normal ppl dont have, i would already have psychicly removed all your nonsense from youtube.
Euwnt 1 year ago
@Euwnt come on bro the rabbit hole is deep being bipolar is special it must happen for one to find himself. its the introduction into the spirit world.
spaceage614 1 year ago
h-ol-y shit. I finally found out what the fuck just happened to me
Killerclownmeat 1 year ago
Happy to be of service!
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup Thanks man your vids answered alot of question
Killerclownmeat 1 year ago
Thank u
Sometimes i feel like job or the prodigal son or jonah I must find my purpose God wants me to be.
Williehutch2 1 year ago 2
Nothing wrong with that. It's what makes life fun. Trust me, I'm 43, and the people my age who don't look for their purpose are boring as shit.
bipolarorwakingup 1 year ago
@bipolarorwakingup That is the most honest true statement about people who just don't get it BORING!!!
carolshewolf 1 year ago
heya all!!! actually i need help!!! so hereiz my story i fell in love wiv a girl living away of me and she start being strange toward me so she's always thinking im with other and she's crying most of tym :( so i did notice that she's bipolar coz she can't sleep at all maybe 2 or 3 hours and she call me verry late at night bla bla bla? so my question : will i succeed to share lyf wiv her??
idono12 1 year ago
@idono12 It has to be fixed or nix. Too don't get married and have kids. You'll probably wear out sooner or later, but who knows how bad she has it and if she is one in a million. Times are sure changing so there may be a cure out there not everyone knows about or on the way. There is so much new stuff, I would check it out, maybe there's a brand or two of spirituality that has some solutions. Have you looked into Cognitive Therapy. Some docs are usually much better than the rest.
hbar1212 1 year ago
I had the same experience three years ago. Everybody talks about the dark side of bipolar disorder but is good to know someone who had felt the same as me in a spiritual way speaking. Very interesting video.
RRLaBlonde 1 year ago
ummm... shrooms anyone?
nice theories i see lots of logic to them and can relate to a lot of it too. ima watch some more of the videos before i say anything else tho
jebise003 1 year ago
bipolar has always existed it's nice to keep that in mind. many *geniuses* of the past have been creators under this disease.
I suffer from this disease but I'm hoping with the right meaning and treatment I can make something of myself.
scout6686 2 years ago
To those who are spiritually dead, for lack of a better term, they tend to block the experience or reality by using or over using western medicine and practices. It's amazing to me how many are so out of touch and not even a little bit open to something outside of a scientific explanation for everything. For those people I feel sorry because, at least once in their lives they will go through this process and be so lost. Ive seen people actually get physically ill and die when the crisis occurs.
t4ac3y1 2 years ago
I have to agree. Great job and thank you.
No thanks to lithium and effexor
pimaggot 2 years ago
Thank you so much for your work and information.
Figm0 2 years ago
If bipolar MANIA is "enlightenment", then just what the hell is bipolar DEPRESSION?
blahblahblahman 2 years ago 3
@blahblahblahman suicide man, damn have a little consideration.
cnotemorello 1 year ago
wow! i am 22 and am bipolar this stuff REALLY strikes a chord with me , especially with the spiritual/ broading world view! would be cool to speak to others going through it.
bellmotherwell 2 years ago
bipolar and atheist...this is then useless.
brownaleguru 2 years ago
@brownaleguru
hhaha I guess
planes3333 1 year ago
chemistry.
krftwrk77 2 years ago
Thanks for this. I am a living example of one who made it through. I have mastered both polarities, now I am ONE ! It feels amazing being all in the same place at once. I send anyone having a rough time with this Love and Strength.If you are suffering try to eat fresh organic fruits/veggies as much as possible and cut out sugar. It will help a lot mentally. And try your best to get off the meds when you're ready, they are nothing but a crutch and won't "cure" you. You Are The Cure!.
saltycreefer 2 years ago
i have had a collapse of the ego twice, both were extremely spiritual experiences...i try and explain this to my girlfriend and doctor but the fact that i couldn't speak made them think otherwise. i would give anything to stay like that, i did feel extreme love and oneness with everything...i felt everything you described, it took 3 shots of ativan in the ass to stop it
Altershock 2 years ago
@Altershock took 9 shots for me, but i flash my A hole in protest XD (they were disturbed)
BioJoker47 2 years ago
I went through a total ego collapse earlier this year. Which led me through an amazing soul enlightening journey. I lost my job, my friends and most importantly my ego. All this time since then, which i would say has been 6 months from now. People have always told me im a psycho and that i have bi-polar disorder. I always knew that it wasnt a bad thing to have bi-polar, i just never really formulated why. Now that i see your videos, it really makes me so excited knowing im not alone. Thank you.
ethanlj14 2 years ago
i started crying after you said something about encountering death because the last couple of days all i can think about is what song whould be played at my funeral how would it look and i would have visions of it ...i dont really get this yet this is the second vid i have watched on bipolar i know that i have symptoms of it
jdmk20guy 2 years ago
Just remember, if you are thinking suicidal thoughts, don't kill yourself, kill the part of your life that wants to die. What I mean is end the relationship that is draining you, stand up for your inner spirit - not through any violence to you are anyone else, but simplly by walking away. End the drama. The less drama in our lives, the better. That is the gentlest, yet scariest, way to die.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
I used this as a quote for my Schizophrenia and Bipolar project, I mentioned this quote and I mentioned your Youtube account if they need more questions from you. :P Sorry if that was wrong, you just seem like you're helping a lot of people.
RageConProductions 2 years ago
Wrong? Dude, that's an honor. All the best to you and your project!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
I had the fear of death too and I think it was because I was living in ignorance and cut off from my spiritual side. I felt like something was wrong all my life and rebelled, but couldn't figure it out.Through meditation and chakra activation, I finally figured out that I'M NORMAL and society is SICK!!! Now I love myself, life, nature. All the hippie type stuff I used to make fun of. I'm Cured of all my anxieties too. I feel like I'm 5yrs old. Suicidal thoughts aren't yours. They go away.
saltycreefer 2 years ago
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WashingtonMilitia 2 years ago
#1.See a transpersonal psychologist I have few resources on my blog.
#2 Like most, it was impossible. Only a decade later do they get it a little.
#3 You aren't the only one!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
forgot a word"and"..my thoughts are going in to many directions at the same time..
Heimdall1999 2 years ago
hmm...what if you still have the feeling or think you feel one with all and deep understanding of the univers... like you need to set your true self free and become really...get rid of your skin becouse you feel and think your real self is inside and is rebelling and wants to get out...
Heimdall1999 2 years ago
If you feel like you need to break out, chances are you are not in what is usually called an `acute psychosis`. Its your ego that makes you feel trapped, and if you feel trapped, that means that your ego has not collapsed.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
how do i make my ego collapse i am ready for this ...i want a better life
jdmk20guy 2 years ago
I'm glad it resonated so deeply with you Mikee, but the way you put it.....creeepyyy!!!
These experiences happen to MANY people. Me, you and a ton of others. In a way, we are all divine.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
This video reflects my expereince clsely but I also had the sensory experience of God condemning me to hell. I live with this every waking moment and I seek someone's insight. Thank you.
anthonygeorgev 2 years ago
you are very intelligent! did u study this in college?
awaicker 2 years ago
You don´t get this stuff in college!
They are miles behind the curve.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
You mention the idea of timelessness. Well, as Einstein displayed, time is only a construct we use to demarcate the passing of moments, like a ruler for the fourth dimension. In a "manic" state constructs are of no importance, and therefore we see things as they truly are. Because our neurons are firing so rapidly our perceptual time is moving much faster than ordinary time. Since time is relative and perception is reality our time actually speeds up.
notartnow 2 years ago
I love YouTubers who are one step ahead of me!!!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Now I disagree with you here. I'm not saying you don't experience these euphoric and sacred feelings; I'm suggesting, as one who has a Mix of manic and Major depressive disorders, it is these feelings that are False and lead one to continue into a delusional life.
InocentPatsyXploited 2 years ago
Well, that's what the doctors want you to believe. I'm not stopping you. But if you want to heal, you need to validate what is happening to you as somehow real, spiritual and important for your development. Otherwise, its meds for life.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
I agree with you, and think the video isn't very good, but however, raises something interesting. The delusional life is lead to yes, but does not origionate with your disorders. Just to offer advice or suggestive thought; allow yourself not to fit yourself into reality - the 'main society view' I believe in trying to explain yourself in terms of other people, as in even saying you have a disorder, the negativity comes about. Just 'be', purely, that's all you can do.
infinateregress 2 years ago
does anyone know the name of the artist of the first picture in the #3 video on enlightenment? It reminds me of breaking through into the spiritual realm at the start of mania.
bryandoconnor 2 years ago
you are my hero thank you for puting my voice out theyrfe
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
Your welcome....keep watching, I have many more videos after this one!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
i m happy not to be the only person to have experienced this enlightening ... it changed my life!
xavier from belgium
xaviermatrix 2 years ago
its not very fun being arrested and assaulted all because your aunt and family say your "acting strange" and that you "hit your head" meanwhile all you did when the officers were theyre were yelling at them why are you here i want my lawyer and themnot telling your under arest for mental health act or theyre are any charges and stupidly you fight back and get tazered 5 times because you think they are hear to guide you on your mission..
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
So they fight me punching me in the head repeatly (still have ringing in my head from that day) they only stopped because i finally cooperated because I was told by a voice in my head that I had completed that part of my mission..I had expereinced the ego loss prior day to this incident that sean was talking about and many other things.. from this point I was proceededly strapped to a bed and injected with some sort of tranquilizers without my permission I was raped basically even sexually
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
as a female officer as i was getting brought to the hospital and my clothes ripped off and put medical patch thingies all over my body she had grabbed my dick and said something like wow you are big mm i love this part of my job like wtf? I was continued to be raped in the hospital tied to a bed like sean cept i think a lil worse as my hips were strapped to for 2 days they proceeded to rape me with tranquilizers i remember the walls melting and being asleep I would had gladly sat still for
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
a mri had they asked but no they drugged and raped me instead. I remember seeing some people i knew from highschool and public school that I went to i was tripping hardcore because of this and it only put me into trance deeper
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
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gjljhjb1 2 years ago
Anyways after that and talking to doctors i was drugged and tranquilized I was like your not putting that in me i do not consent stop why are you doing this?
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
they just ignored me and the cops around me were laughing and staring. 2 needles tranquilized i was put under the walls were melting it scared me I had never been put under or tranquilized ever this scene caused great emotional pain for some time and still does a little. I finallly came too and was talking to a phsychiatrist altho i wanted to know his name he only told me his last I didnt feel comfortable talking with him
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
. I remember him asking me questions and I answearing incredibly normally and even peraphrasing and makeing him the interveiwee he was baffled. After this I spent overnight and most of the next day still locked down on the bed It was rediculous except I was transferred to the Police station or the jail I dont quite remember But needless to say it wasnt the best place for me I needed to be srorounded by my loved ones or people that could understand me like the doctors sean cites.
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
They put me in general population first at the highest level where they keep all the most violent offenders (great place for me eh?) instnatly they eyeballed me when I came and some short black dude thought he could boss me around I was still hearing voices at this point he told me to get in the shower I was like I will shower when I want. get in the shower bitch I told him you and what fucking army he pushed me theyre were no guards around what so ever. I took a shower nothing happend after tha
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
anyways long story short I ended up in court I got bail I was sposed to stay at the salvation army I didnt. People wernt giveing me my belongings so i could survive i was halucinating again couldnt sleep i thought i was on a mission some kind old lady ended up going with her to a steak house that i didnt know and talking politics this only served to deepen my psychosis and i ended up at tim hortins after and being picked up by police cause the workers were scared of me cause i kept running to
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
bathroom i thought i was a cia agent no shitting they never asked me to leave but they called the cops on me. Oh yeah before i even got the bail i was in jail after the hospital for about 3 days they held me for the maximum 72 the cops come they ask my name i thought i was going to be inducted well instead I was thrown in segregation unit (isolation/the hole) tiny 6 by 5 room with no windows and they can shut the window in the door and a food slot and make it totally dark on you.
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
well on about 72 hours again after being in the hole for three days I was told that i could get out but i stupidly choose to stay in and awat sentencing ( I was outta my mind i knew i assaulted the police but outta defense) Long story short I was in the hole for 2 MOUNTHS! this greatly increased my trips and voices and everything I only got out to shower didnt get cantine until the last two weeks didnt have any reading material nothing I was left to my own devices and abused by the guards.
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
they withheld meals from me on a few ocasions (u only get 3 small meals some couldnt even be considered a meal) and half the time I didnt get my necessities (soap tooth brush tooth paste) the food was terrible and high and sugar for the most part the only way i kept sain was the visits which made things worse as i was handcuffed and sometimes leg braced and behind a glass wall from my family . i only got 3 visits the entire time i was theyre and i was lucky to get to use the phone maybe 10 time
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
they allso raped me with another needle without my permission a tb test and i am deadly afraid of needles now (after being raped twice) It makes me trip out even more. Finally last 3 weeks or so i get a room that has a window it was nice but the guards still liked to fuck with me by turning off my water and the only water was in the toilet bowl the last week they turn it on. most of the cops at the jail were pigs but theyre were a few good ones that gave me extra blankets near the end and my
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
dignity and cantine. the only way i kept sane mostly was by meditating jogging on the spot (meditating standing up) streching and the meals and listening to the voices in my head...Well i got out later and let me say i havent been quite the same i dont hear voices anymore it was a spirtual expereince but i am on probation for 12 mounths
gjljhjb1 2 years ago
Thank you!! You speak for the many who are too medicated to explain their thought process and spiritual connection.those living inside their heads stuck in a world of old school Doctors that want give up on you even when they say they are helping. Drug you just to make it easier on them and have you shut up. So its a long road to living with this and I applaud you for telling our version of what its like to be "bipolar" schizophrenic" I wish you peace and love
I would like to talk more!
dreamweaver332008 2 years ago
First of all THANK YOU! you speak for millions of people who don't have a voice because they are so flat lined by medication and like you said are just told to shut up. I Have been up,down, inside and out of this rollercoaster and path for years. first started at a young age and now being 34 still living the "bipolar schizophrenic" world.I can't tell you how happy and sad this mad me feel. I have been strong for so long, holding in the tears ,but by you sharing your video released those tears.
dreamweaver332008 2 years ago
I agree with U.
kalkeikuu 2 years ago
could i have been bi-polar and never actually known it?
mcmjr405 2 years ago
THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!! Your videos found me and I found them at just the exact right time...I've been having a lot of unusual experiences lately, that can be described as trance like events where the memory of past hurts from early childhood have come bubbling to the forefront of my conciousness, and allowed me to understand some of my insecurities and fears like abandonment and rejection...once they've passed, I've felt more connected to my soul...
mcmjr405 2 years ago
YES YES YES!
eternus8 2 years ago
so weird to have something crazy!!!!! confirmed in such detail by someone I've never met
is what I would have said Before. Thanks brother for this.
emdtb2001 2 years ago
THANK YOU!! The relation between bipolar disorder and enlightenment has been a huge mystery to myself these days.
Cant wait to watch the next part!
Shr3dMast3r 2 years ago
You are fucking nuts dude, but you have a point....
xXxAquariusxGirlxXx 2 years ago 2
Props for an insulting, but highly original comment.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
I plan on using this video to try and help my friends and family understand where i am coming from, and how i would like to go about dealing with my situation. The thing that sucks is my parents are very un-open to the idea of any kind of "mystical" experience. My dad has been a Pastor for over 20 years and he is SO on the side of the doctors. This past episode i decided i was going to stop taking my a-psychotic and he threatened that if i didnt take it he was taking me to the hospital.
N1NJ4lVl4573l2 2 years ago
A little heads up....when a person is closed, that´s it....closed. If you want to show my videos to someone, I would start with a friend that may be a little more open to your perspective. In general parents are usually impossible to convince otherwise. Either way, good luck with whatever you choose to do!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
that's really true
omidkev 2 years ago
Dali is my fav too, closely followed by Da Vinci
Peace
dreamdanni 2 years ago
Nice Video
MrCautious 2 years ago
in conclusion as he stated they keep you on drugs for the rest of your life. I would not recommend taking any prescription drugs, for any reason in that matter. For every natural disease there is a natural cure.
truthseekingmirror 2 years ago
exactly.
KindVapour 2 years ago
this is defenatly what im going through everything u have said is happening with me i swear it thank me and finaly understand what the fulk is going on THANK SO SO MUCH FOR UR VIDEO THIS IS GOING TO HELP ME BIGTIME peace and light be with u my brother iam u and u are me we are all 1 and we are free lol
cashfan123 2 years ago
holly shit i think and feel like ive found enlightenment so many times man haha sooooooo true sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo true brother WOW
cashfan123 2 years ago
this was great bipolarorwakingup. i have never been diagnosed but this explanation is very close to my cognition.
themichaelplaster 2 years ago
ooops i meant i believe i have angels protecting me
hypomaniac19 2 years ago
I got it! And yes, we are sacred people. All of us.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
THIS IS SO CORRECT!!!!! I actually i have angels protecting me and that im invincible. i refuse to beleive anything else. we are sacred people.
hypomaniac19 2 years ago
Thanks so much for making this video! That is my theory too, after my personal "mania" -- I hope we "manics" can support each other in our modern society... to keep the spiritual awakening open and to keep grounded in the everyday reality... both are equally valid and equally sacred. It's just that when we get out of touch with one or the other we get depressed or frustrated... so let's all give each other support love and understanding.
heymabes 2 years ago
Hey, Integration! You are way ahead of me. I have another 5 videos before I even get there. Slow down!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
IM WITH U MY BROTHER
cashfan123 2 years ago
Hi, Bipolarwakingup.
Think mtlsoul has a point - even if you are 100% correct in equating the bipolar experience with phenomena such as Sartori, the 'no meds' route just has too many casualties.
EvilEddtheRed 2 years ago
Hey Edd, I´ll reply to you because I like your tuxedo. Have you ever thought that the ´no meds´ route has causualites because of how we think about BD, as a society? From my research, I believe that the leading cause of suicide for Bipolar people is how they are treated by psychiatry, their family, friends and society. I did a video on it called Aggression, Suicide and the healing of BD. You might want to check it out.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
OK, you are a which doctor, a snakeoil salesman, con artist, you are going to post this up here, and someone is going to stop taking their meds, and die. You believe in a soul, that persons death lay on your soul. See you hell.
mtlsoul 2 years ago
Crucify the Visionary. Nothing new for me.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Hi, i was wondering wether you had any advice about mixed episodes and what you think goes on when a person experiences a mixed episode because thats all i ever seem to go through anymore and i dont have any idea about what the spiritual side or ego backstory is on it, so if you could give me your opinion it would be much appreciated, thankyou
wessiesmessie 2 years ago
I´ll be talking about mixed episodes in future videos. There, the territory gets a little more complex, so I need some time to set it up! But check out my video on Trauma and Repressions. A lot of the sources for the 'mixed' experiences are there.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
its all very well said! and much needed to be said
gofindyoursaint 2 years ago
hey i LOVE your channel i love your videos. your doing the world a service!! nobody should be on anti-depressants!
gofindyoursaint 2 years ago
Thank You gofindyoursaint! I see you´ve seen a lot of them in the past 24 hours!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
yeah. just enjoying!
gofindyoursaint 2 years ago
I read an article in the New York Times about neuroscientist and psychiatrist, Nancy C. Andreasen, who discovered through 20 years of research that antipsychotic drugs shrink the prefrontal cortex of human brains. They block basal ganglia activity, so the frontal cortex doesn't get the input it needs and is shut down. The prefrontal cortex is responsible for executive functioning and is known as the region of the brain that seperates humans from other animals in the kingdom.
SteveSlaughter1 2 years ago
Thanks, I´ll look for the article!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Hey, I found that research...great stuff, thanks for the tip. Finally proof that the shrinks are B.S.ing when they say schizophrenia causes brain damage!
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Yeah, so know we know the cost of taking antipsychotics- whether you're bipolar or schizophrenic or whatever. Similar research with antipsychotics on macaque monkeys showed a reduction in brain volume. Since monkeys can't have schizophrenia, it must be the drugs causing the shrinkage. I think psychiatrist will continue to prescribe antipsychotics until they develop a better drug.....
SteveSlaughter1 2 years ago
Do you have a link to that monkey research?
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Very good description of a neurological phenomenon. See V.S. Ramachandran, A Brief Tour of Human Consciousness.
daleshankins 2 years ago
I´ve seen it. Stan Grof is pretty critical of Wilber´s view of pscyhosis and I agree with him. It sounds nice and neat to categorize mystics in one place and those with mental illness in another, but the reality is that many people labelled mentally ill are having deeply spiritual experiences, they just don´t have the skills to cope with the experience and fight an ignorant culture at the same time. I was one of the lucky ones.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Watch this youtubevideo:
The Mystic Heart - Part 5 - Psychosis or Mystical State?
tellyontellyon 2 years ago
if I take my personal experience, psychosis is always triggered by the following scheme:
mania > extreme or tendencious behaviour > followed by extreme sense of guilt and shame > synchronicity acceleration > fear of imminent divine retribution > paranoid delusions...
a typical experiment is to play with spiritism during a manic episode, this artificially raises attention and synchronicity, fear, dopamine and adrenaline mix up with christian guilt...a classic...
kaltenbach16 2 years ago
what if you have urges to kill people and yourself sometimes..is it part of enlightment?
ill wait for your reply.thanks
ruthcanal 2 years ago
Of course not. Did you want to kill people and yourself?
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
yes...:C
ruthcanal 2 years ago
Before, during or after you were medicated?
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Sorry Ruth, I deleted your last comment by accident. However, my new video is on aggression and suicide. It will be up next week. I think you will appreciate it.
bipolarorwakingup 2 years ago
Cont... The experience may be a 'side-effect' of the chemical imbalance - but the experience had very real effects on my beliefs, perceptions, creativity and well-being. It was the most fantastic and most scary experience of my life. I don't regret it for a second but its pretty dangerous so best not let it happen again. I made some incredible observations about the world which I wish I could share, this video is the closest I have to describing it so far. Thanks again.
BboyWorthington 3 years ago
Wow, thanks! I had a full "episode" about 4 years ago and I experienced almost all of the things you described.I did not sleep for over 3 days until sent to hospital. I stayed for 2 weeks and then another 2 months at home before getting back to my life.Since then I have been feeling fine after finding the right meds and I understand the physiology of what was happening - but I havent been able to speak to anyone about the actual experience and what it meant to me without confusing them...
BboyWorthington 3 years ago
i like to think of my bipolar disorder as timothy leary's 6th circuit being activated on its own.
i have the same thoughts in manic states that i have while on mushrooms but without the visuals. (dont take these types of drugs during any type of episode, even then accept that it could very well propel you to one, or intensify the disorder). i know that from even smoking pot in my late teens/ early 20's that any type of drugs will fuck your brain royally.
obelisk1077 3 years ago
Wow! Maybe my entire family is right about me. Thankfully, my therapist has been the one to help me get through this change, WITHOUT MEDS! Everything applies to me except suicide. Although, I did recently experience me as a child screaming and clawing to break free from my chest. I am misunderstood by most but fortunately the only person that needs to understand me is me. Although my road is bumpy, I wouldn't change a thing. I am becoming whatever I may be and I love it!
StellaRose1111 3 years ago
If anything I believe there is a 'middle place' that is closer to our spiritual possibilities than either side of a manic state. A bird cannot fly if it's muscles are too loose, or too tight. I believe that bipolar mania takes the mind to either side of that 'right place' where where we can simply live or transcend to better life. I even have a symbol that reminds me to remember the balance...when I am not in it.
shoegooguru 3 years ago
I am bipolar and I think you are WAY off on this. I have had deep spiritual experiences and they have never been the same or confusable with the depressions and 'overcharged' states I have known. The depression of BPM robs one of even their basic spiritual knowing I think(it can)whereas the overly charged 'positive' or energised states can also be spiritually misleading even though one is mentally/physically over involved.
shoegooguru 3 years ago 2
r u kidding me?????
LwDncr 3 years ago
wow. that's all i can say lol. you pretty much hit the nail on the head, i just got out of one of these things, that lasted like 7 months - hell i might still be in it lol. thank you man, it's good to know i'm not the only one who's felt somethin like this. Bipolar should stop being labelled a "disorder". It is no more a "disorder" than your own ethnicity or gender. It's a personality type that is vastly misunderstood...
guitlo1989 3 years ago
7 months is a long time. Are you medicated? How are you right now?
bipolarorwakingup 3 years ago
The same with ADHD.
brad213 3 years ago
Im 24 and pretty much just coming to the realization that i could be Bipolar. Ive had this feeling all my life and experienced ups and downs mentally, emotionally etc.I had many friends growing up and girls always liked me, thus felt normal. Rich family,so i lived comfortable, travel alot, well educated.
My father passed away a couple yrs ago, which started this "journey" to my mind/soul. Ive always had a strong memory, intelligence etc. I just want to help myself and others better understand
Invinciblez1 3 years ago
I never had mania like ANY of that, and(, now eighteen,) I was born with Bipolar; all my extreme periods of mania had shown themselves to me by my realization of a second mindset, a second voice, a second personality, which I had then shown signs of learning to keep in check before I started taking the zombie pills, which I pretended didn't all along but did not only kill it but kill my humanity so I'm now a shell of a human now.. although I've always felt happy to a degree, though that's proof
MentalSelfMutilation 3 years ago
that's proof of Bipolar in itself. I envy those who have "enlightening" experiences when, all my life, I've never had anything remotely like that.
MentalSelfMutilation 3 years ago
Thanks for sharing the other side of 'bipolar disorder'. Usually, from what I understand, most people with split-personality symptoms get diagnosed as having either acute schizophrenia or split-personality disorder.
Did you have a lot of truama growing up?
bipolarorwakingup 3 years ago
Hah, I don't remember.. maybe, maybe not
MentalSelfMutilation 2 years ago
it's totally a collapse of ego, i was put on a pedastal as a kid told i was a genious + hugely better tha every1 then through life i get told im shit + all these responsibilities and labels got 2 me + i was at my friends house then felt like sunshine in my heart like god was licking my soul lol but yeah + my friend went through a similar process although not at the same time. can it b stimulated by alchohol cos i had a more mad than average experience then tooo
TuRdSandwitch18 3 years ago
How strange. I experience this. Maybe on a lower scale, but I do.
LittleMissScary14 3 years ago
I want to get very drunk when I'm in a mania phase.
JungleListSoldier 3 years ago
Why? I love mania phase (sort of..)
When I'm depressed, I always want to....take a drug that *cough* speeds me up again.
2fcd 3 years ago
I don't know. When I'm in mania I want party and drink. Being maniac is a high in itself.
JungleListSoldier 3 years ago
ive had 4 xperiences. i went through all of the criteria u mentioned and had some amazing occurances & revelations, look n foward to the next one. but, i thought i was alone n my Xs now i know that i am not, mayb the world is about to go through a conscience shift who knows (the future). i definately would recommend a "psychotic episode" for everyone. although ive never had drugs im quite sure pe s are 10x better, so good, n fact they give u drugs to try & bring u down.
derrickshair 3 years ago
Hey there!I just wanted to let you know,that YOU have totally changed the way I used to see myself and the world around me.For soo many years I have"struggled" with BPD.I wasnt taking meds anymore basically flying without a parachute..Some strange reason,I always felt,obviously different from others....Thinking....man I AM a good person,a little strange but was always seeking a spiritual truth.You got the ball rolling for me,and for that I THANK YOU soo much.Keep it up my brother much LOVE!
masseuse1969 3 years ago
Glad I could help! I think you could learn a lot from my other vids as well. Keep it up!
bipolarorwakingup 3 years ago
Yeah yeah yeah - this guy talks like all this is a mind-numbing revelation, all i had to do was think deeply about the question "Who am I?" on a fuckin schoolbus and i obtained momentary enlightenment - been there, done that!
hmspinaforethisisspa 3 years ago
Thank you for sharing this! I've experienced most of the things you've mentioned, but not all of it. I experienced this oneness a year ago, and it hasn't left my mind or will it ever. I just wish I had the artistic talent to paint the perspective of the world through that experience on paper to share with everyone as the ones you've posted up. I assume everyone's experience is quite different from one another, though we can relate to each other. Thanks again. Hope to keep in touch.
DiamondCrystal8 3 years ago
thank you for this bipolarwakingup..my wife is biploar and everything you say makes sense..she is very "4th density" her compassion and unconditional love is an example to us all, yet she struggles greatly with daily "3rd density" living..thanks again.
mattdbell 3 years ago
It´s great that she has an understanding husband! I think you will learn something from all of my videos. Each of them has something to add to my perspective on this. You may also want to check out the information I provide on my blog.
bipolarorwakingup 3 years ago
on the other hand, once i took a high dose of DXM (dextromethorphan) - an ingredient in cough syrup - and i felt i was becoming god. the world was spiraling in to me. it was like i was in a video game. it was an amazing feeling i'll never forget. totally life changing.
NUMBER4940 3 years ago
Hey, at least I´ve got you thinking...I think you are partially right about religion...but when we turn to athiesm (which we all eventually do) we through the baby (God) out with the bathwater (false beleifs, superstition. But that´s cool. For the true seeker, HE always comes back...just when you least expect it.
bipolarorwakingup 3 years ago
i became hyperreligious and delusional when i was manic and diagnosed bipolar years ago. there's nothing spiritual about it. it's called going nuts.
NUMBER4940 3 years ago