You are extremely brave to be sharing your fear right out here on your sleeve...I am hoping this provides a way to break through. Whatever support you need, don't hesitate to ask...
It was terrifying. I cried every night, too, when I went back to school to finish my BA. I had been away for three years studying yoga & meditation arts which was the only way I could cope with the pain at the time. I still use them to manage pain and the emotional wake of living in constant torture. There were no pain clinics back then. And no one would treat me. I looked like a normal, healthy man.
Jackie thanks for posting. Your post is my favorite, Fibro is relentless and I think the best way to describe is diabolical. I have had it for over 20 years. The flare ups are the worst, the pain and confusion and "fog", and I work full time. No help from anybody. I am "dependent" on pain killers because I want to kill the pain and nothing really does that. It is indeed scary. I work at a nursing home where I see people deteriorate and try to tell myself "I'm better off" but it's hard.
I can totally relate. I have chronic pain too. In my arms, neck & legs. I feel your fear, because not a single day passes when I don't ask myself what if this is Cancer or MS etc...Just keep on getting along the best you can. I keep a pain log.
Oh Jackie, I completely understand where you're coming from with the fear. I recently went back to work (4hrs/day) after being off recovering from surgeries. Going back was one of THE scariest things for me. Truly it is a 'one day at a time' life for me now. Every day when i get off of work my entire back is in spasms. I *hope* it'll get better but at times I just have to wonder.
You'll make it thru, Jackie. just keep using the mantra 'one day at a time' :-D
You are extremely brave to be sharing your fear right out here on your sleeve...I am hoping this provides a way to break through. Whatever support you need, don't hesitate to ask...
Dr. D
FibromyalgiaAnswers 1 year ago
It was terrifying. I cried every night, too, when I went back to school to finish my BA. I had been away for three years studying yoga & meditation arts which was the only way I could cope with the pain at the time. I still use them to manage pain and the emotional wake of living in constant torture. There were no pain clinics back then. And no one would treat me. I looked like a normal, healthy man.
longlakeshore 1 year ago
Jackie thanks for posting. Your post is my favorite, Fibro is relentless and I think the best way to describe is diabolical. I have had it for over 20 years. The flare ups are the worst, the pain and confusion and "fog", and I work full time. No help from anybody. I am "dependent" on pain killers because I want to kill the pain and nothing really does that. It is indeed scary. I work at a nursing home where I see people deteriorate and try to tell myself "I'm better off" but it's hard.
karenofbethany 2 years ago
I can totally relate. I have chronic pain too. In my arms, neck & legs. I feel your fear, because not a single day passes when I don't ask myself what if this is Cancer or MS etc...Just keep on getting along the best you can. I keep a pain log.
knutse1 3 years ago
Oh Jackie, I completely understand where you're coming from with the fear. I recently went back to work (4hrs/day) after being off recovering from surgeries. Going back was one of THE scariest things for me. Truly it is a 'one day at a time' life for me now. Every day when i get off of work my entire back is in spasms. I *hope* it'll get better but at times I just have to wonder.
You'll make it thru, Jackie. just keep using the mantra 'one day at a time' :-D
~Jenni
Jayelsea 3 years ago