when i told my mom, i was crying cause i thought she was going to hate me.. and she just said " i know, i made a bet with ur dad and aunt about how long it would take you to know"
Damn, I thought you were a guy until I heard your voice and I was scratching my head thinking, this kid has a very feminine voice lol talk about C-3PO having a strange voice hahahahaa. Not hating on you, I am just saying.
That's really crappy that you have to deal with people staring at you and making comments. I'm sure we've all experienced unwanted attention when we are with a girl, but that you have to experience that sort of discrimination every day is really sad. I'm sorry to hear you have to deal with that so often. :(
Man, some people are like, morons! Sorry - I had to like, put a 'like' in there somewhere! ;) Love ya!
i feel you on the super easy my mom knew before i did. She told me thats why she lived in hillcrest when i was kid so she could better understand me when i was older
I think it is equally difficult for femenine or masculine girls, because of the people. They treat you differently from the rest. If you somehow look feminine and don't have a boyfriend they look for a boyfriend for you without asking!!! :S I'm half way between masculine and feminine anyway.
I counted 105 "like"s. Is that like a west coast like thing...like. Love ya AJ. You never cease to entertain with the cuteness (it a butch sort of way of course). Ha! Ha!.
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You forgot that when you came to Texas that although you didn't use your box of condoms. You did provide a much needed blowjob. Which reminds me of another time........ :) BTW isn't it time for us to get married aleady?
"... Or they think I'm a hot guy." Way to be modest there, AJ, lol. JK, you ARE hot. Please please take some video of you and Jess frolicking at San Diego pride!
OMG! I met my first GF on IRC! (And we're still good friends, almost 14 years later!)Love you for mentioning that, AJ. Thanks for sharing your story with us, too. I can relate to a lot of what you said at the end.. glad I'm not the only one. I love the way you are so don't ever change! Peace. -J.
I was kinda forced out of the closet. I didnt want to come out to my mom until after I turned 18 but she saw me and another girl holding hands. Living with my mom has been Hell ever since. I think both butches and femmes have it equally hard. I am some where in between butch and femme. I hate it most when guys say,"You havent found the right guy" or "How do you know if you've never tried it."
Yes it is because I am a professional lesbian that enjoys feminine clothes...love shoes, make up, all sort of girly stuff and am still single. I never get noticed by other gay women and that is so frustating. I don't go out much because I am working all the time... That's bad!
Haha I'm loving the Christmas music in the background. It'll be here before we know it! =]
P.S. I know what you mean by the stares and the coming-out-ness every time ppl see you. Sometimes I wish I could be more feminine, but that's just not me, so I have to be true to myself. And so do you! =]
I totally get what you mean about the staring thing. Except I had never noticed it before until my friend pointed it out to me and I began to watch out of the corner of my eye and saw so many people looking at me and cocking heads/eyebrows and whispering to whomever was beside them or full on nasty looks. Sure it sucked but I don't give a fuck. That's MORE than made up for when I notice the hot girl giving me the up and down and smiling. ;-)
Condom coupons priceless! I do agreed femmes do have it a little easier when they walk out the door but I feel in the Lesbian community they have it harder.
this year was a coming out in away. i brought my gf (now ex-bitch was nuts) to my gmas house and we didnt touch or anything but she was mega butch and then later in the night my gma called and told me "if youre gay dont tell me, spare me that" so i knew that she knew she just didnt want to hear it. my mom new and was really cool but my cousins are still getting used to it but cool and my aunt is ok - sorta she just says "i love you but dont forget the god" so as for me im half in and half out
I wonder if any of you get that one stupid question from guys: "Why are you gay?" Right now I am working as a topless dancer.... yeah.... and I get to break it o creepy old men just about every night. I get that stupid question all the time. Have you gotten that question before? have any of the other girls?
I agree with you about being stared at and called dyke all the time and yes like u everybody knew i was so it was like im gay ok pass the chicken leg...lol not really like that but might aswell have been like that
You should have shown us the back of your haircut.
I'm kind of tomboyish so my look varies but when guys figure out I'm a lesbian (which depends on what I'm wearing) they can get physically hostile. So, I have nothing but mad respect for Butch's because I know it's not easy to walk in the world as a Butch.
I used to chat on AOL in the mid 90's. No girl/girl action but I remember the days. I realte to your story a lot because I was never in in the closet. I live in a really liberal area and have never had to worry about being harrassed for being gay. I am not as butch as you, AJ, not as femme as Tina or Michelle so I guess I manage to pass for straight. I'm out at work which is really nice. Are all the Beavers out at work?
Yeah, so I see what friends of mine go through on a regular basis as a butch, and I can imagine it ishard. My girlfriend is in the army and keeps her hair short and everything, and gets called sir all the time which pisses her off and me too, because while she has short hair, she's really quite feminine. However as a femme, I have to say it sucks because I am constantly having to convincing men that I don't want their penis'. Oh, and the kicker, as a femme, I'm apparently just in a phase.
Oh, holy shit. I totally get people yelling 'dyke' at me! Oh, do you get rednecks in nasty dirty trucks throwing cans/bottles/other at you? Kinda sucks. I agree, though. Femmes have it easier.
Bout the coming out to your mum thing, my mum did nearly the same thing. I was like, 'mum, I dig chicks.' And she goes, 'Are you sure?' and I go, 'Um, pretty much, yeah.' So she says, 'Okay.'
I don't think you could make a bad video. It's just too funny.
There is this show called Peter Perfect and he always says, "I'm not gay, I'm English!" and it always cracks me and my gf up. Then she says, "I'm not Engligh, I'm GAY!" Hmm...maybe that's funny only to us...
Or getting hit on and then having the guys run off when they realize you're trans...though that makes it easier for me then because I don't have to be the one making the escape. lol
yea my mom was totally cool about it too...my family accepts me and is so proud....However is wasnt that easy at first but once i came out is was so easy to tell people who didnt know...
I totally know what you are talking about and agree. When you say that you come out ever day. I was so excited that I had finally come out to everybody and then I started dressing more butch and ...
Just about everywhere I go people turn and look and watch me pass, talk about me, and it never fails that little kids stare.
I never thought that I would have to come out everyday.
But I am glad to hear somebody else express those feelings.
I think the grass is always greener on the other side. My gf is femme and she feels invisible. But I'm with you better than being called names on the street, etc. And I live in a small city in the Bible Belt so you can imagine I'm sure lol.
AJ!!!!!! OMG... You are so right... so right... completely true.
I say the same thing to my femme friends about how I come out everyday ... it's a daily process and how people are always staring . Right on the money.
but then my femme-feminist friends always batter me with how I have butch privilege. :-/
It's this idea that butch womyn have this privilege because they present themselves as "manly" or "one of the guys." So men usually speak to them in a different tone... kind of like with more respect so to speak. And also that butch womyn are less sexually harassed because they tend to look more "manly." Don't ask me. This is just what I've been told. An ex went bananas at me over this conversation.
i'm pretty in the middle, appearance/mannerism-wise... (passing for straight 4x out of 10... until i open my mouth?)
and i still get 'are you a boy?' from kiddies under the age of about 10, despite that my hair is really long. and that's the most amusing thing ever sometimes... except for this one about 8yr old who was, like, 'are you a dyke?' which was just depressing.
well... i wore a coat and tie to my elementary school observation last fall... and the kid was in the violin class and his teacher sent him to the counselor because he was on an IEP for who knows what. (I'm guessing some sort of emotional problem, because he was not physically disabled... but I'm no doctor)
btw, my user name comes from my huge addiction to the x-files.
How often do you have your hair cut please ?
DomBarber 6 months ago in playlist aj's videos
@DomBarber once a month
beaverbunch 6 months ago
@beaverbunch Thanks for your prompt reply and what do you "ask" for ?
DomBarber 5 months ago
For al u haters go fuck ur selfs and fuck off with the stupid comments
soccerkarla1996 6 months ago
I thought this was gonna be a bout C3PO! You ruined my life!!
FlamingBat 6 months ago
@sl33pyed you fuckin retard,,,
IrishBoy00900 7 months ago
r u serious man? i wish i could smash ur face along with ur glasses get off youtube
dmanuch23 8 months ago
you dyke bitch
thaPrimus 10 months ago
Is this a guy or a girl?
ljw2979 10 months ago
nice voice.
blackleejack 10 months ago
your name is beaverbunch because you eat a bunch a beaver
Foilsdown 11 months ago
how culd he be gay. he is a robot. so how can robot have sexual prefrence.
gooddarkjedi 1 year ago
Your the worst person ever.
Brandongetme 1 year ago
Actually he was a raging homo and Im british and most of us dont talk like that so go eat dick bitch
eljaysmith 1 year ago
What does this have to do with C3PO?
slongo702 1 year ago
I like this (geddit?)
You have to be the difference that you want to make in the world, keep it up
irkibby 1 year ago
when i told my mom, i was crying cause i thought she was going to hate me.. and she just said " i know, i made a bet with ur dad and aunt about how long it would take you to know"
sam18popular 1 year ago
Damn, I thought you were a guy until I heard your voice and I was scratching my head thinking, this kid has a very feminine voice lol talk about C-3PO having a strange voice hahahahaa. Not hating on you, I am just saying.
BoxingChaos1 2 years ago
So I heard the title on Will and Grace and flipped out.... haha.
lindseyclark08 2 years ago
That's really crappy that you have to deal with people staring at you and making comments. I'm sure we've all experienced unwanted attention when we are with a girl, but that you have to experience that sort of discrimination every day is really sad. I'm sorry to hear you have to deal with that so often. :(
Man, some people are like, morons! Sorry - I had to like, put a 'like' in there somewhere! ;) Love ya!
mysslauren 2 years ago
you are AWESOME! thats all i have to say.
carbon4807 2 years ago
Like.. Like.. Like.. Like.. Like.. Like.. Lol.
Jayda0114 2 years ago 9
hehe, its a really cute vid, i have to catch up on the BB's older videos...
u rock
elelenkaFC 2 years ago
Right outside the closet hurray for symbolism.
rayriddleroc 2 years ago
i get called a dike alot but i dress like a guy but i have kind of long hair not to long (wish i had short hair) im lesben/genderqueer
fatemoana 2 years ago
"Peace out, high school senior. Fly to Texas." LOLZ.
obennett91 2 years ago
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Im srry BUT GET A FUCKIN LIFE!!!
KyleAP38 2 years ago
pretty boys. hell yea! free condoms...oh not to be mean, but from my thoughts, no one cared because they were relived...
rhoggard76 2 years ago
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you sound like a girl.....
chriscos123 2 years ago
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oh, you are a girl, well you look like a guy, other way around......
chriscos123 2 years ago
No shit
adri92239 2 years ago
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wat the fuck this is the stupidest video.. i cant believ im watchn this..
pickleconqueso 2 years ago
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wat de fuck are you??brits are always wierd lukn!!! PRODS
IrishBoy00900 2 years ago
i feel you on the super easy my mom knew before i did. She told me thats why she lived in hillcrest when i was kid so she could better understand me when i was older
lesbianmobdon 2 years ago
i am laughing so hard...hahahahhaa
"if i say like one more time..."
JordmanKNOWS 2 years ago
so you never checked out chicks like be4 the whole 30 year oldchick?
Maria259 2 years ago
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its true what is that a tranny or something up in that video dam
azmontanna 2 years ago
noone cares about the closet. get to the point
just kidding...seriously what about C3p0...my rommate told me he had a boner on set.
kpsychwave 2 years ago
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is that piece of crap in the video a man or woman
azmontanna 2 years ago
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wat de fuck is dat
IrishBoy00900 2 years ago
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_YOURFREEGAYWEBSITE...C0M_ you're truely an inspiration.
marthaqt99 3 years ago
Haha, I clicked on your video because the title caught my eye. Good video.
SmileNow2 3 years ago 7
Hello from Spain,
thanks for sharing!!!!! :)
I think it is equally difficult for femenine or masculine girls, because of the people. They treat you differently from the rest. If you somehow look feminine and don't have a boyfriend they look for a boyfriend for you without asking!!! :S I'm half way between masculine and feminine anyway.
funny the title about C-3PO
moiragranada 3 years ago
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I don't get the title of this video. Gay and British are exactly the same thing.
Yankeedoowop 3 years ago
stfu
mufcgirl93 3 years ago 2
I counted 105 "like"s. Is that like a west coast like thing...like. Love ya AJ. You never cease to entertain with the cuteness (it a butch sort of way of course). Ha! Ha!.
TranManT 3 years ago
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You forgot that when you came to Texas that although you didn't use your box of condoms. You did provide a much needed blowjob. Which reminds me of another time........ :) BTW isn't it time for us to get married aleady?
BLAIRB21620 3 years ago
you are so caca, TONY...the exboyfriend mentioned in this video--- you're so stupid! I'm never showing you my videos again!! THUMBS DOWN, LMAO.
AskAJanything 3 years ago
"... Or they think I'm a hot guy." Way to be modest there, AJ, lol. JK, you ARE hot. Please please take some video of you and Jess frolicking at San Diego pride!
boredgurl24 3 years ago
that would be up to Jess since I didnt make it. I suck. But from what Jess told me she had fun minus me...
AskAJanything 3 years ago
lol i come out EVERYDAY too!!! either that or i get looked at like im a little boy. hahaha. i know how you feel.
btownfilmmakers 3 years ago
OMG! I met my first GF on IRC! (And we're still good friends, almost 14 years later!)Love you for mentioning that, AJ. Thanks for sharing your story with us, too. I can relate to a lot of what you said at the end.. glad I'm not the only one. I love the way you are so don't ever change! Peace. -J.
JulieMoon131 3 years ago
I was kinda forced out of the closet. I didnt want to come out to my mom until after I turned 18 but she saw me and another girl holding hands. Living with my mom has been Hell ever since. I think both butches and femmes have it equally hard. I am some where in between butch and femme. I hate it most when guys say,"You havent found the right guy" or "How do you know if you've never tried it."
Muffins776 3 years ago
Fem lesbians have it harder because we never get noticed by other lesbian women!
Supermiranda78 3 years ago
is that so bad?
AskAJanything 3 years ago
Yes it is because I am a professional lesbian that enjoys feminine clothes...love shoes, make up, all sort of girly stuff and am still single. I never get noticed by other gay women and that is so frustating. I don't go out much because I am working all the time... That's bad!
Supermiranda78 3 years ago
It's cool that you dress how you want and not let people change you. Being femme isn't so great either. Dudes hit on me. Eww.
Oh yeah, that condom story was priceless. XD
queenOFtheHILL 3 years ago
yeah that story was kind of crazy, but you cant make that stuff up!
AskAJanything 3 years ago
Haha I'm loving the Christmas music in the background. It'll be here before we know it! =]
P.S. I know what you mean by the stares and the coming-out-ness every time ppl see you. Sometimes I wish I could be more feminine, but that's just not me, so I have to be true to myself. And so do you! =]
Bourne2bwild1989 3 years ago
"Ok whatever, you wanna go get dinner?" ROFL!
I totally get what you mean about the staring thing. Except I had never noticed it before until my friend pointed it out to me and I began to watch out of the corner of my eye and saw so many people looking at me and cocking heads/eyebrows and whispering to whomever was beside them or full on nasty looks. Sure it sucked but I don't give a fuck. That's MORE than made up for when I notice the hot girl giving me the up and down and smiling. ;-)
Aciliveth 3 years ago
Condom coupons priceless! I do agreed femmes do have it a little easier when they walk out the door but I feel in the Lesbian community they have it harder.
iwinthetoasteroven 3 years ago
my family is hispanic (think Carmen's family on the L word, i'm not telling them (extended family) I'll let them figure it out
winec00ler 3 years ago
AJ, you're such a damn cutie...
Angieanything 3 years ago
oh stopppp!
AskAJanything 3 years ago
Noooooooooo you have to be at pride on Sunday, that's my day, dang it!! You and your saturdays, lol!
ClosetCaseLez 3 years ago
what do you mean "_remember_ irc"? I'm on irc every day. I feel old now :(
pete275 3 years ago
this year was a coming out in away. i brought my gf (now ex-bitch was nuts) to my gmas house and we didnt touch or anything but she was mega butch and then later in the night my gma called and told me "if youre gay dont tell me, spare me that" so i knew that she knew she just didnt want to hear it. my mom new and was really cool but my cousins are still getting used to it but cool and my aunt is ok - sorta she just says "i love you but dont forget the god" so as for me im half in and half out
amybaina 3 years ago
like yeah
ld1985 3 years ago
HAHAHAHAH! :']
that was actually hilarious :'D
and the tags :'] lmao
AJ YR THE BEST :D
omg I get the dyke thing :| lol
HAHAHA@ the femme hot lover :'D
Emblarr 3 years ago
oh stop, you flatter me every week!
AskAJanything 3 years ago
HAHA :'] like thats a bad thing. lol
Emblarr 3 years ago
I wonder if any of you get that one stupid question from guys: "Why are you gay?" Right now I am working as a topless dancer.... yeah.... and I get to break it o creepy old men just about every night. I get that stupid question all the time. Have you gotten that question before? have any of the other girls?
TheOtherMuskateer 3 years ago
merrroooowp meerrrooowwp
Shinobi04 3 years ago
i'm glad it's actually a sound that can be spelled...
AskAJanything 3 years ago
coolest coming out story i've ever heard!
crazymariamlr 3 years ago
Hey AJ, thanks for warning me about the volume, I was ready to turn it down at certain points. Great vlog - as usual. X
littlemonster333 3 years ago
are you playing deck the halls in the background?
heartsinmyeyesforyou 3 years ago
i am. i'm doing christmas in july. my last weeks video had christmas music too....
AskAJanything 3 years ago
I agree with you about being stared at and called dyke all the time and yes like u everybody knew i was so it was like im gay ok pass the chicken leg...lol not really like that but might aswell have been like that
JayNice3 3 years ago
You should have shown us the back of your haircut.
I'm kind of tomboyish so my look varies but when guys figure out I'm a lesbian (which depends on what I'm wearing) they can get physically hostile. So, I have nothing but mad respect for Butch's because I know it's not easy to walk in the world as a Butch.
sungoldshine 3 years ago
I used to chat on AOL in the mid 90's. No girl/girl action but I remember the days. I realte to your story a lot because I was never in in the closet. I live in a really liberal area and have never had to worry about being harrassed for being gay. I am not as butch as you, AJ, not as femme as Tina or Michelle so I guess I manage to pass for straight. I'm out at work which is really nice. Are all the Beavers out at work?
malloryspiderwick 3 years ago
I remember IRC! There's still a few out there for the uber-nerds to live in. =P
VolitionSky 3 years ago
that is awesome! i would chat on #dalnet - i think that's the geek symbol for it. i forgot, it was like 56 years ago.
AskAJanything 3 years ago
Meow :)
kappaktv2 3 years ago
I really love how diverse this group is.
All of you are incredibly charming, also.
MistressTracy 3 years ago
cool story....totally can relate on the coming out all the time bit.
LaterZ,
Lydia
exzentriker420 3 years ago
Yeah, so I see what friends of mine go through on a regular basis as a butch, and I can imagine it ishard. My girlfriend is in the army and keeps her hair short and everything, and gets called sir all the time which pisses her off and me too, because while she has short hair, she's really quite feminine. However as a femme, I have to say it sucks because I am constantly having to convincing men that I don't want their penis'. Oh, and the kicker, as a femme, I'm apparently just in a phase.
felicity75211 3 years ago
are you serious your mom bought you condoms with a coupon?? LMAO!!! Way to go AJ - you're amazing!
trikstah 3 years ago
Oh, holy shit. I totally get people yelling 'dyke' at me! Oh, do you get rednecks in nasty dirty trucks throwing cans/bottles/other at you? Kinda sucks. I agree, though. Femmes have it easier.
Bout the coming out to your mum thing, my mum did nearly the same thing. I was like, 'mum, I dig chicks.' And she goes, 'Are you sure?' and I go, 'Um, pretty much, yeah.' So she says, 'Okay.'
DarknessWhispers 3 years ago
I don't think you could make a bad video. It's just too funny.
There is this show called Peter Perfect and he always says, "I'm not gay, I'm English!" and it always cracks me and my gf up. Then she says, "I'm not Engligh, I'm GAY!" Hmm...maybe that's funny only to us...
RainbowGlitter 3 years ago
never seen the show maybe - i can find a clip on youtube.
AskAJanything 3 years ago
thank you for the story- i admire you and you rock!
Jill
xgobobeanx 3 years ago
and I admire you too for watching this bad, bad video.
AskAJanything 3 years ago
hey i wish i got comments like "dyke!", its better than being hit on by perverted dudes and having to verbally come out to random people every week.
if i told my mom, she'd shoot me in the head. its depressing...
1. shes a homophobe
2. my mom is asian
3. my mom is asian
4. can you just guess what this is gunna say?
shesawinner 3 years ago
Or getting hit on and then having the guys run off when they realize you're trans...though that makes it easier for me then because I don't have to be the one making the escape. lol
blickblocks 3 years ago
that she likes the beaver bunch too? ;)
AskAJanything 3 years ago
When you are recording you can turn off your monitor. It will get rid of the glare.
Zed2six 3 years ago
its actually my bedroom windows.
AskAJanything 3 years ago
Small redneck town?? You have no idea AJ!
I still love you tho!
pinkcorsetfemme 3 years ago
I hope you have a fantastic time at Pride with Jess!!!
wolviesgirl310 3 years ago
thank you! we will have fun for all of you who wont be there!
AskAJanything 3 years ago
yea my mom was totally cool about it too...my family accepts me and is so proud....However is wasnt that easy at first but once i came out is was so easy to tell people who didnt know...
way2cute2bstr821 3 years ago
ya family is always the hardest.
AskAJanything 3 years ago
I totally know what you are talking about and agree. When you say that you come out ever day. I was so excited that I had finally come out to everybody and then I started dressing more butch and ...
Just about everywhere I go people turn and look and watch me pass, talk about me, and it never fails that little kids stare.
I never thought that I would have to come out everyday.
But I am glad to hear somebody else express those feelings.
Thanks.
Have a great day :]
kritter488 3 years ago
thanks for watching this train wreck of a video...have a good week too!
AJ
AskAJanything 3 years ago
I think the grass is always greener on the other side. My gf is femme and she feels invisible. But I'm with you better than being called names on the street, etc. And I live in a small city in the Bible Belt so you can imagine I'm sure lol.
gentlebutch 3 years ago
AJ!!!!!! OMG... You are so right... so right... completely true.
I say the same thing to my femme friends about how I come out everyday ... it's a daily process and how people are always staring . Right on the money.
but then my femme-feminist friends always batter me with how I have butch privilege. :-/
thanks for the vid!
iamakinkychicken 3 years ago
what privilege? someone tell me what that means!
AskAJanything 3 years ago
It's this idea that butch womyn have this privilege because they present themselves as "manly" or "one of the guys." So men usually speak to them in a different tone... kind of like with more respect so to speak. And also that butch womyn are less sexually harassed because they tend to look more "manly." Don't ask me. This is just what I've been told. An ex went bananas at me over this conversation.
iamakinkychicken 3 years ago
Oh AJ Your amazing.
Don't worry I say 'like' a lot too but we are from the same area so that would make sense lol.
boredncali 3 years ago
ok good i feel a lot better.
AskAJanything 3 years ago
i'm pretty in the middle, appearance/mannerism-wise... (passing for straight 4x out of 10... until i open my mouth?)
and i still get 'are you a boy?' from kiddies under the age of about 10, despite that my hair is really long. and that's the most amusing thing ever sometimes... except for this one about 8yr old who was, like, 'are you a dyke?' which was just depressing.
spookythebando 3 years ago
that's totally my life too.
AskAJanything 3 years ago
no way, that's amazing! I would be so happy if some little boy asked me if I was a dyke!
And Spooky is the name of the protagonist of a music video I just made. just sayin'.
teensypeep 3 years ago
:-)
well... i wore a coat and tie to my elementary school observation last fall... and the kid was in the violin class and his teacher sent him to the counselor because he was on an IEP for who knows what. (I'm guessing some sort of emotional problem, because he was not physically disabled... but I'm no doctor)
btw, my user name comes from my huge addiction to the x-files.
ps: i'd so like to see your video lol :-)
spookythebando 3 years ago
haha, you gender deviant!
Hey go on my channel if you wanna see it, I warn you though, it's incredibly sad.
teensypeep 3 years ago
My coming out was like a lifetime movie. hahah
Sometimes I see hot butch girls that really turn out being cute young boys... and then it's awkward because I'm staring at them.
teensypeep 3 years ago
i kinda wish i had drama of a lifetime movie but i guess sometimes you get lucky.
XO
AJ
AskAJanything 3 years ago