[2/2/09] Binge Eating Disorder-love yourself more.

[supbabys530]

i would consider 8 tacos most definitely a binge and i would cry and freak the fuck out if i did that, regardless of whether i could go to the gym the next day.

[VanChange]

For some reason I can never stop eating oreos. I never really thought about why they make me "happy".

Though how can people learn to love themself when they have such a huge negative feeling about their body? How did you soul search and come to love yourself?

[aminanana1]

Well, I don't consider myself a religious person but I am very spiritual but due to 'character count' I'll leave all those confusing 'spiritual' factors out. I came to a place in my life where i felt comepletley abandoned no one was there for me financially or emotionally. I laid in bed missed classes and did NOTHING but eat and the internet for 9 days. no showering either. it was all a big dramatic story but I looked in the mirror (not just the saying i actually did it) and asked myself

[aminanana1]

(cont)...asked myself "are you really THIS weak?" I was in a completely pathetic self loathing state of mind and came to the conclusion that no exterior person/circumstance will come along and get me out of this shlump. I'm sick of waiting for the next exciting thing to happen for me or new people to come into my life I've GOT to make it happen. I realized and came to the understanding that ALL love and ALL happiness already lies within us. Certain people bring it out and certain accomplishments

[aminanana1]

(cont pt2)....accomplishments reveal out ability but it is in us the entire time. I'm still trying to reach complete spiritual revelation that is "all things are possible" but I've found the belief that it is true. NO strength or love can be full given from you unless it is discovered within you. BTW my definition of happy is more so being content. That is ultimately what I strive for. I embrace ALL of my emotions not just happiness but to always be content underneath it all is my goal.

[aminanana1]

(cont pt 4) Getting to a place where nothing someone says to you can make you question your character or belief system you've reached a place of understanding your self worth and loving yourself. SO much of this is beyond losing weight...health is just a result of coming to these understandings. I hope that helped. -amina

[VanChange]

It did help, thanks a lot for taking your time to type all of that out. I've got a sister, who surprisingly enough is the only member in my family who isn't overweight yet the image she has of herself is that of an extremely overweight person. It worries me that she doesn't love herself and judges herself harshly, though your reply has definately given me some things to think about the next time I talk to her, thank you! - Van

[aminanana1]

hey anytime. Beauty is always only an internal concept. Let her know how loved she is.

Good luck :)

[MississippiDevL]

church till one 30!?!?!.... you guys are beasts

[aminanana1]

no church was till 1030 then a bunch of hungout till 1:30 lol

[ladyworpledinker]

This is a very good video, thanks for sharing.

[TheNeed2change]

chex party mix....i will eat the whole freaking bag...i cant have it anywhere near me

[rachiebaby24]

great video and something we all need to hear!

[supergirlnancy1]

greta video and i totally agree!

[cashpath]

Wrong channel though huh?

[OneStepCloserTV]

I'm an idiot. It's compressing and uploading to OSC now take foreverrrr

[cashpath]

You are not an idiot.. simple mistake.. happens..

[cashpath]

well done.  this is good.

[14beads2goal]

This is a very good video Amina!!! And I agree with everything you said <3