Um. The only thing I have been doing that actually helps is thinking "Well, I still used to be bigger than I am now." hahha I'm sorry. That's all I've got. :P
I don't even know how I found your videos but I can't stop watching! I guess is hard some some of us to even imagine what you been through.... With all the respect, most of us just see a beautiful, intelligent, fun, energetic, amazing girl (which I'm sure you have heard a lot) and can't comprehend anorexia at all.
All I can say is that I wish you continue sharing your live experience and be able help others in the same situation.
I know that the Lord has lead me today to watch this video and others, you have a gift courtney the gift of talking, you are funny, infectious, charismatic, childlike, innocent, and absolutely beautiful, Jesus paid a huuuge price for you and you are sooo valuable and chosen and He is the source of your self esteem see you on GOD channel or even mainstream tv coz the world is waiting for ya!!! Lisa xx
considering this video is super old and u havent made any new ones in forever i doubt u'll get this cmnt but , wat keeps me going is my friends and how much they love me for what reasons i have yet to understand , because when i look at myself i cant even begin to think of good things because it takes me all day just to name off all the bad things
also lifting weights helps cause then you feel buff and ... im not sure exactly but something about it is reasruing...
good luck you look wonderful
i think the little ana voice is always in the background but you have the strenght and power to shut her up and feel beaufiul and powerful in the perfect healthy body you wehre born with
f anarexia world was when i realized i was all by my self... shut out family, freinds (sex ), all gone and al time only devoted to food .. not being in my body...
i guess i wanted to start living... and you have to look at other girls who are normal weights and start finding that beautiufl and insprining... t
hey courtney, in "recovering" it takes a hell of alot of time to adjust and really just get rid of your old wardrobe or you will be tempted to try to fit back into the size of death... i think what snaped me out of
What the hell are you on? Speed? Shiiit. Eating or not is a choice. That's for anorexic, normal, and overweight people. I've never met ANYONE who is perfectly happy with their body. Have you? Hmm.
sweetheart we are all miracles in one way or another you are beautiful and if you dont think so i will tell you as much as you need me to!! i think you are doin great even tho you havent posted in a while! but anyway youre beautiful, sexy gorgeous,and you should feel great
I love how crazy you are! If I didn't subscribe to you, I would have to favorite all of your videos lol. and even though you posted this like two years ago, what helps me is knowing that I'm a masterpiece( as corny as that sounds) It's the truth. everyone is made unique and we all have out own individual struggles. God created us in his own image. You just have to know that you're beautiful and are a glorious creation! hope this helps someone:)
i was anorexic for 4 years and what helped me the most was a) taking walks with my brother and trying to reason with him how much sense anorexia makes and how i was indeed fat. he shot down my baloney and mentioned the whole women need fat to have babies thing and eventually logic prevailed. also b) dropping my resentments.
every morning when you wake up, look yourself in the mirror and say "I like myself. I like myself. I like myself." try it for a minute or so. smile. then go on to say "I LOVE myself. I love myself. I love myself."
the 20th century, post-modern times if you will, has created a society of self obsession, vanity, so as every day females spend every hour hour analising their body. We fought for the right to show our brains, but now it has turned into a society of self obsession, obsession with ones self and the body and brain as two seperate entities. eat to live, dont live to eat, or live to starve. Once we manage to reverse this brain washing that has been shoved down our throuts we will live again.
You are way to pretty to leave this world...Remind yourself about that everyday and that you are beautiful inside and outside. There is nothing wrong with you...Write that onto your mirror and say it to yourself everyday...I hope this helps a little
My mom did her research , and told me that the only way I would recover is if i got help, i went to one session, never went again. Cause I was convinced that only I could help my self. I was right, it took years, but i was right! I am health now, and I dont feel like i am going to faint all the time. I the strength that you have in yourself that will heal you...
We like jiggle in women! You'll understand that when you get a little more mature. Those who are 2 thin R NOT attractive!! Find you're happy medium. You're cute & look pretty good from where I sit.
But,
Calm down & GET ON WITH IT! Leave the bottle alone. Talk a bit more calmly and straight to the point. Too much crap in your message.
Just saw this,
Spit out the gum! Geez! Take some public speaking. You'll learn some things about how others see you in front of an audience. Good luck.
well i feel horrible every morning, i used to look in the mirror and think wow i look great! but that cant be me! now i look in th mirror and look like my old fat self and think ah! yep! i knew that was too good to last...but i keep thinking of how ive got better things to do then think about fat that (hopefully) only i can see, and how i can be beautifull anyway, and actually compared to every1 else (though i hate comparing myself to non stick ppl) im still OK,and if all else fails ill starve!
you have an amazing vocabulaire, it's very impressive..and I also think you are a beautiful individual, and you WILL battle this disorder!! you can do it <3
you have to try to train your mind to be positive. when you think of your body in a negative way, try to think of something positive, something that you really do like about your body.
i think of all the poor kids that have no life, no food, the 15 year old child with no parents that has to look after 6 younger children with no income
and then oh i have to face a mirror . . (as written below) and think mmm i have to FREAKING DANCE!! ALL DAY, yes such a hardship
this coment is for mueller... who the fuck are you to tell her she has a shitty existance... she already feels bad about herself HANCE shes anerexic.. people like you shouldnt exist.. if all your gonna do is bring people down... people like you are probly the reason why ALOT of girls/boys are like this so FUCK OFF GET A LIFE and if you think something KEEP IT TO YOUR SELF!!!!
Just wait till you're my age and no amount of excercise will get rid of all the 'jigglies'. You learn to live with it or be miserable 24/7. I don't like being miserable myself, so I've finally accepted it as a fact of life. Besides, men don't really like 'hard' bodies on women, it often scares them away...been there, done that.
I really think you should get into ministry work of some kind...maybe even start your own group at church or something. You really know how to catch peoples attention and keep it. Reminds me of a lot of really good teachers I have had.
im 5'5" 120 lbs... sophmore i some time have spurts of self consciousness (spelling error)go a few weeks w/o eating but ive been good for a awhle now i have my prorities in line... i discovered i only have one life so why not make the most of it... just do what you want.. what ever makes you happy i wake up in the morning what the hell lets go to school... be happy
be a tree, not a flower. i flower is a pretty flash that lasts a couple days a year, a tree grows stronger every minute and holds it's beauty in the fact that it stands at all. the older the tree the more wonder and TRUE beauty it holds. a tree knows that the cold of winter is followed by a never ending spring. you may not bloom everyday but you can stand tall.
I'm not completely recovered but I feel as though I'm getting there.
I refuse to feel bad about myself when I put on clothes. To do so I buy clothes that look good but fit somewhat loose in order to not make the tight/uncomfortable/thigh touching feeling.
i like ur videos they kool ur a real nice person and i think ur pretty i love ur energy ur very bubbly ha ha well c ya i wish i could help ya but sorry the only thing i can say is dont give up u got the right mind frame just keep it up
try to pick a couple body parts that you like, and focus on those when you look in the mirror. Like, man my boobs/hips/butt/arms/glowy skin are lookin goooood mama! Stay positive, muah!
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lol sorry i posted this b4 i read the whole thing and noticed she had anorexia and she was trying to gain. sorry courtney. u look gorgrous... and lik i said i will pray4u hun!!!
im glad your back! you look goregously healthy by the way. i can relate completely with the thigh rubbing. i know it seems like thats all you hear and thats all people are looking at but its not true. stick thru it dear. you will get use to your legs =)
hun you are doing great w/ realizing things while you recover. Many times we feel that what we see or feel is truth when it really isn't. I can totally relate to the size thing. I just had my baby and during the pregnancy gained 73 lbs. Could you imagine?
i'm friends with you on facebook. in your pics, you don't look like you did when you were like 87 lbs, but you are still borderline bad skinny. you just don't so sickly :). that's a good thing, so smile!
I have a question. If you (being a healthy size) look in the mirror and see a whale-sized person, what do you see in people that are your same size or larger?
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Are you a Childhood victim of drunken parents that beat you and your siblings? is that why you need help and want to hurt others to make yourself feel better? Are you an adult that hasnt had a chance or reason to figure out why you are like you are? Have you gotten by on having a slightly attractive body and using it to make money? What will happen when you get older and your still an ignorant blonde with saggy booby and a bunch of freinds in jail ;)
hey hon! hope you found your wisdom!! i too am looking for mine!!! the Bible does say that "wisdom makes us smile, and makes our frowns disappear" ecclesiaties 8:1 i believe... =)
u look fab, ive been watching you this whole time and ive gota say rite now u look sooo amazing! ino its hard to get ovr but u will, i promise!! my friend was anoxeric and she has got ovr it and is now betr than evr so keep at it!! =) =) gd luck! il pray for u =)
I have watched all of your videos, though I have never said anything.I felt the need to comment on this one, after ~14 years of fighting, everyday is still an uphill battle. I think for some it is just so ingrained in who are you are as a person, that to be completely recovered would be absolutely devastating. PS- i hate the jigglies too, and I don't know how tall you are, but I'm dead on 5'0 (small-med frame) and as soon as the 100s start even getting in view, things start moving, and it sucks.
Just to let you know, there are certain parts of your body that are SUPPOSED to juggle. Best way to deal with this....go get fitted for a pretty new bra, buy a nice top and have a good laugh at the intelligent things men will be doing while trying (and failing) not to be too obvious about staring at your great cleavage and sexy shape, i.e. things like staring, drooling and walking into lamp posts and walls ;)
I randomly came across this video and you have such a great personality that I had to go watch all your videos. I just wanted to tell you that you are an amazingly beautiful person inside and out.I hope you are doing well!
you should maybe go to Overeaters Anonymous.Anoxerics go there as well and they have a very high recovery rate. Seek help. That's for sure. Your body is your temple and thats all you have. Good luck girl.
it's ironic to me that you talk about the thighs rubbing together. i recently went on vacation did nothing but eat and drink and about 2 weeks in noticed that my thighs were touching and i couldn't remember when they stopped touching in the first place. it did exactly what you said though, my skin crawled and i wrestle with myself still because part of me knows how ridiculous i am but that part tends to get buried away. thanks for your videos though. you remind me that i'm not alone.
I've just watched ALL your videos from start to finish. I swear you are just about the most inspiring person I have ever heard speaking about Eating Disorders. Have you ever considered doing talks to younger girls (teen and pre-teen maybe) about Eating Disorders? You'd make it relatable and easy to take in while maintaining the message that this life is hell and torture.
I am so in awe of you. I am bouncing up and down, relapsing every other moment. It's hell. You are my idol right now.
the thing i think of every morning is how God loves me no matter what and he created me to be just the way i am, he created me beautifuly. listen to the song "fingerprints of God" by steven curtis chapman. its really encouraging. and...i remember "Luke 1:37 - For NOTHING is impossible with God." HOW AWESOME IS THAT!?!?!
I cant help but feel your pain since I suffer through the exact same thing every morning. I am currently going to a counselor to try and help solve it. I know it's nothing that can be fixed by simply feeling 'grateful' for the things that you have, that doesn't take the feeling away. For every negative thought you have, list two positives things that you feel about yourself. And you have to know that NO ONE thinks as negatively about you as yourself! You have to learn to accept imperfection.
do you not know that your body is a temple of the holy spirit within you, which you have form God, and that you are not your own for you were bought with a price; therefore glorify God in your body.
The negative voices gradually become quieted as you insist upon being nothing but indignant to these "voices" & arguing against them and REALIZING truly how much self worth you have. When I wake up, I have to remind myself how blessed I am & how God didnt put me on this earth for my body.Even when I still want them, I aspire towards higher callings--by spreading positive influence--which is what you do. You have over 17 THOUSAND views of this video in 3weeks! Embrace your honesty and strength.
It sounds crazy, but getting the thoughts and voices out of your head, and bringing it out into the open helps. Because Satan loves to be in our heads. And if you talk loud enough where you can't hear him anymore, what's he gonna do? He might try shouting the lies at you, but you just shout right back;) Spiritual warfare is a bi-atch.
(Oh, and I don't encourage swearing in general.. just at the devil.)
I struggle with other things, but here's what I do. When the devil starts telling me lies, I say out loud (usually when I'm by myself:) to the devil:
"Shut up. Shut the *uck up.When I listen to YOU, you destroy me. I hate you, God hates you, and you don't have any real friends. I am not your friend, you loser. You are an ass. So shut the *uck up."
wow you updated! girl you owe us some serious updates for braking that pinky promise unhun.
Anyway I'm sorry to say I don't have any advice because I'm still in my losing weight phase therefor the troubles of gaining weight I am unaware of. Keep us updated hun its summer meaning more videos!! ... right? right?
so I try to remind myself of how lucky I am that i have the option to eat and that God thinks Im beautiful, and that life is much to short to not be able to taste all the wonderful foods! we are so blessed to be as lucky as we are in America and I try to be thankful for that!I know its hard but everyday when you wake up remind yourself thay God loves you and thinks your perfect the way you are and that u have a family and frineds that loves you for you, not for how thin you are!!
okay well, ive struggled w/ my weight for the past couple of years, well my whole life really, but i didnt become Anorexic/Bulimic till i was 16...and I am at constant war w/ myself over what i eat and hate my body...but i try to remind myself, that there are people in Africa and all around the world who dont deprive themselves of food like we do they just dont have the option to eat b/c they dont have food!!
hey girly where are you????? i gotta tell u your fun,lively, videos are just awesome i dont know how anyone could be sad or depressed or angry after watching the courtney show...i hope your doing well... i know your strong update soon!!!
hi, i understand very goood american english but i think that you are the best!you are so strong and ironic when do you speack about anorexia... bye bye kisses :) ;)
Well.. this morning i found somethin comfy to wear, liked how soft my legs felt, thought they needed more toning up.. and then put makeup on to compensate for gaining an ugly 2kg. I think u feel out of place .. bt u need to realise that healthy thighs and bodies jiggle so next time u feel the jiggle remember ur human with a beautifully healthy bod. I also think u will be part of that 30% (the living kind) cos ur strong minded but u do need to break away from an unhealthy perspective of control;)
wow- apparently there are actually beings out there, mutants would be the formal term, that look up "jigglies" in hopes that they will see jiggling breasts. and the first thought that comes to mind, why wouldn't you just look up broadband speed internet porn or some smutty magazine with a couple of lesbians and a horse? kudos to you court for putting up with that crap.
the jigglies is so very true, every morning rain or shine. guilt because the night before i consumed food, food that in turn is going to turn to fat (becuase naturally i assume everything i eat turns to fat) therefore one bowl of anything equals cranky morning and self loathing... personally im worse with my stomach which is supposed to be stress wieght...now this is the part thats ironic you get fat from being stressed out and being fat stresses you out.... its a vicious never ending cycle
well let me tell you how i semi got over it, for i was ana when i was 14 to 16 and for three yrs ate normal felt normal and liked myself, because my sister took up the disorder, i felt like it wasnt mine anymore, but then i moved out and am on my own and havent eaten for 7 days straight. so i really dont know.
Baby if you think you are fat call me the chubby chaser. If only you lived in Michigan I'd love to get a taste of your happy meal. For fuck's sakes woman you are just my type an out of control goofball looney tune!
i looked back at your intro video and i must say i like the new and improved courtney. you have more energy, you still have struggles but seem happier overall, and you honestly look great. i am in no way recovered, but i've made steps as well, and what helps me is my man. you may not be in a relationship now, but one day you will be and your man will appreciate your curves, ass boobs and all, plus having something to hold on to other than bones.
Okay, now, what does this have to do with Unicorns? I mean, I would like to see a real one caught on youtube, but if you don't have real footage, then dont lie to me,nobody likes a faker...just kidding, seriously, stop being so...bitchy!Why is your body doing the jiggles?well, when you move, or shake, certain parts or ligaments on your body...move about freely, this is known as within the field concerning the laws of gravity...however, I never studied law :P seriously, maybe lay off the Chicken?
{i was going past the "limit"} 3rd, being without a disorder but not being comfortable with my weight,i try to tell myself every morning "you are beautiful, you're curvy, be happy you have boobs and an ass that some would kill for." it is partly my friends and family, but not much. i like your mirror thats a really good idea,and if you look at Marilyn Monroe, Bettie page, or any renaissance type art robust women are beautiful, the modeling industry is to blame for everyones body issues.
1st of all, you're beautiful!! the jiggilies you get are cause you have boobs. i see no jiggling, you're arms dont wiggle around when you move them.
2nd being a size 2 you should be thrilled, and everyone gets that thigh rubbing unnless they ARE annorexic and have nothing but bone on their legs what you see on models it air brushing and the way they stand.
Courtney, I don't know what it was exactly that put me in the 30%. For months after inpatient treatment at the Renfrew Center, I was still in that 70%.
I've got this philosophy now, though, that there's no reason in being anything but happy and excited. It took me a while, but I truly look in the mirror and say--"Wow, I'm cute."
Jigglies, though, will always be uncomfortable. I hate them.
Aaww you are so charizmatic and inspirational, i love you girl :)
AliGabriella 10 months ago
Um. The only thing I have been doing that actually helps is thinking "Well, I still used to be bigger than I am now." hahha I'm sorry. That's all I've got. :P
zombieeatslollipop 11 months ago
You are old as fuck grandma.
normandyeurope 1 year ago
Hey Courtney,
I don't even know how I found your videos but I can't stop watching! I guess is hard some some of us to even imagine what you been through.... With all the respect, most of us just see a beautiful, intelligent, fun, energetic, amazing girl (which I'm sure you have heard a lot) and can't comprehend anorexia at all.
All I can say is that I wish you continue sharing your live experience and be able help others in the same situation.
Good luck!
ericpr0278 1 year ago
hahaha i love you. you talk like a news woman on crack. but i love it! haha
kkjenee 1 year ago
I know that the Lord has lead me today to watch this video and others, you have a gift courtney the gift of talking, you are funny, infectious, charismatic, childlike, innocent, and absolutely beautiful, Jesus paid a huuuge price for you and you are sooo valuable and chosen and He is the source of your self esteem see you on GOD channel or even mainstream tv coz the world is waiting for ya!!! Lisa xx
lisaleonardmusic 1 year ago
considering this video is super old and u havent made any new ones in forever i doubt u'll get this cmnt but , wat keeps me going is my friends and how much they love me for what reasons i have yet to understand , because when i look at myself i cant even begin to think of good things because it takes me all day just to name off all the bad things
darkwatervamp 1 year ago
Lay off the speed girly, it'll make you nuts.
lucaschrist 1 year ago
by the way i had to "chunk the comment in 3 becasue i blabbed too much
starburstkiz 1 year ago
also lifting weights helps cause then you feel buff and ... im not sure exactly but something about it is reasruing...
good luck you look wonderful
i think the little ana voice is always in the background but you have the strenght and power to shut her up and feel beaufiul and powerful in the perfect healthy body you wehre born with
cheers
~Starkiz
starburstkiz 1 year ago
f anarexia world was when i realized i was all by my self... shut out family, freinds (sex ), all gone and al time only devoted to food .. not being in my body...
i guess i wanted to start living... and you have to look at other girls who are normal weights and start finding that beautiufl and insprining... t
starburstkiz 1 year ago
hey courtney, in "recovering" it takes a hell of alot of time to adjust and really just get rid of your old wardrobe or you will be tempted to try to fit back into the size of death... i think what snaped me out of
starburstkiz 1 year ago
What the hell are you on? Speed? Shiiit. Eating or not is a choice. That's for anorexic, normal, and overweight people. I've never met ANYONE who is perfectly happy with their body. Have you? Hmm.
brokenbabe1 1 year ago
sweetheart we are all miracles in one way or another you are beautiful and if you dont think so i will tell you as much as you need me to!! i think you are doin great even tho you havent posted in a while! but anyway youre beautiful, sexy gorgeous,and you should feel great
jerryp6876 1 year ago
I love how crazy you are! If I didn't subscribe to you, I would have to favorite all of your videos lol. and even though you posted this like two years ago, what helps me is knowing that I'm a masterpiece( as corny as that sounds) It's the truth. everyone is made unique and we all have out own individual struggles. God created us in his own image. You just have to know that you're beautiful and are a glorious creation! hope this helps someone:)
KaNdiiTakeOver 1 year ago
Ugh. The thigh rubbing.
rawolives 1 year ago
Show tits
gragg1st 1 year ago
ASK MOMMY TO SUCK YOUR NUTS
MRGOODHOOD 1 year ago
Cortney, we like it when you jiggle.
ifV1was1X 1 year ago
wow you are crazy, in a bad, annoying way.
wootman8888 2 years ago
it almost annoys me how you keep picking up and putting down the water bottle..
wickedarch 2 years ago
i was anorexic for 4 years and what helped me the most was a) taking walks with my brother and trying to reason with him how much sense anorexia makes and how i was indeed fat. he shot down my baloney and mentioned the whole women need fat to have babies thing and eventually logic prevailed. also b) dropping my resentments.
brighteyes235 2 years ago
every morning when you wake up, look yourself in the mirror and say "I like myself. I like myself. I like myself." try it for a minute or so. smile. then go on to say "I LOVE myself. I love myself. I love myself."
God Bless you Courtney :)
psychedelie 2 years ago
the 20th century, post-modern times if you will, has created a society of self obsession, vanity, so as every day females spend every hour hour analising their body. We fought for the right to show our brains, but now it has turned into a society of self obsession, obsession with ones self and the body and brain as two seperate entities. eat to live, dont live to eat, or live to starve. Once we manage to reverse this brain washing that has been shoved down our throuts we will live again.
angelaskathryn89 2 years ago
You are SUCH an insperation! you need to write a book, your amazing!
Vincentclub 2 years ago
Yes! Please write a book!
NobodyTossesADwarf91 1 year ago
wow u must really hate fatt ppl if u talk so bad about them
andrelin1991 2 years ago
You are way to pretty to leave this world...Remind yourself about that everyday and that you are beautiful inside and outside. There is nothing wrong with you...Write that onto your mirror and say it to yourself everyday...I hope this helps a little
jortiz67 2 years ago
My mom did her research , and told me that the only way I would recover is if i got help, i went to one session, never went again. Cause I was convinced that only I could help my self. I was right, it took years, but i was right! I am health now, and I dont feel like i am going to faint all the time. I the strength that you have in yourself that will heal you...
jenny5461 2 years ago
We like jiggle in women! You'll understand that when you get a little more mature. Those who are 2 thin R NOT attractive!! Find you're happy medium. You're cute & look pretty good from where I sit.
But,
Calm down & GET ON WITH IT! Leave the bottle alone. Talk a bit more calmly and straight to the point. Too much crap in your message.
Just saw this,
Spit out the gum! Geez! Take some public speaking. You'll learn some things about how others see you in front of an audience. Good luck.
smsouthard 2 years ago 4
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What is this fat slapper on about?
Tony07UK 2 years ago
well i feel horrible every morning, i used to look in the mirror and think wow i look great! but that cant be me! now i look in th mirror and look like my old fat self and think ah! yep! i knew that was too good to last...but i keep thinking of how ive got better things to do then think about fat that (hopefully) only i can see, and how i can be beautifull anyway, and actually compared to every1 else (though i hate comparing myself to non stick ppl) im still OK,and if all else fails ill starve!
Cherinbrook 2 years ago
stop messing with that water bottle! thats so annoying
blickblick123 2 years ago
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you really suck at this
pls stop
TruBlueRepublicanSue 2 years ago
No she doesn't.
And your attempt to ask her to stop is poor. You could at least spell 'please' properly.
xGobbinsx 2 years ago
it makes my skin crawl too. anyways, you are hilarious :)
jyggyhobyt 2 years ago 2
Why are there so many negative comments??
Courtney, you ROCK!!! :)
triathlonqueen 2 years ago
You have a really powerful voice and intelligent humor. You should try writing Slam Poetry, I think you'd be amazing at it!
tranifer 2 years ago
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She suffers from sucking nigger dicks
oneeyedwhale 2 years ago
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eat sperm not speed
oneeyedwhale 2 years ago
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She's getting fatter.
onebrandofdemocracy 2 years ago
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She has sucked so many nigger dicks.....omg
Spanky85281 2 years ago
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No many people know this but apparently her videos are played to prisoners in Guantanamo Bay.
OutOnBailNow 2 years ago
where are you from? or...what kind of accent is that?
psychedelie 2 years ago
i wanna know too
i think Texas
pickacho4ever 2 years ago
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You look really strong; you wanna wrestle?
haszK 2 years ago
you have an amazing vocabulaire, it's very impressive..and I also think you are a beautiful individual, and you WILL battle this disorder!! you can do it <3
XcupcakeXhorrorshowX 2 years ago 9
you have to try to train your mind to be positive. when you think of your body in a negative way, try to think of something positive, something that you really do like about your body.
sidney858585 2 years ago 2
lolololol
renee1000 2 years ago
this is a little random but you have the most beautiful skin coloring! you look so beautiful in your skin. like perfect shade. im quite jealous.
snyddy 2 years ago 2
that ant story made my skin crawl..
and now I'm scratching myself all over the place because of that XD
XcupcakeXhorrorshowX 2 years ago
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What would make these videos so much better is if she did them topless.
RuffertoLux069 2 years ago
it's a shame you're so pretty because you are nuttier than squirrel shit.
noodle360 2 years ago
i have just been waching red nose day
im from england its a charity fund raising show
i think of all the poor kids that have no life, no food, the 15 year old child with no parents that has to look after 6 younger children with no income
and then oh i have to face a mirror . . (as written below) and think mmm i have to FREAKING DANCE!! ALL DAY, yes such a hardship
angelaskathryn89 2 years ago
think yourself lucky, try feeling like that and then pulling on white tghts, leotard and facing the mirror for 8 straight ours everyday, 7 days a week
then dancing in the jiggly body
mmm fun
really enough to giveu a mental breakdown
angelaskathryn89 2 years ago
this coment is for mueller... who the fuck are you to tell her she has a shitty existance... she already feels bad about herself HANCE shes anerexic.. people like you shouldnt exist.. if all your gonna do is bring people down... people like you are probly the reason why ALOT of girls/boys are like this so FUCK OFF GET A LIFE and if you think something KEEP IT TO YOUR SELF!!!!
imfake2009 2 years ago 5
Most girls who think they're fat are beautiful just the way they are...
dave2288 2 years ago
You are describing Body Dysmorphic Disorder.
ninaandnally 2 years ago
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god ur one of those ppl that try be get famous on here with ur shitty video depicting ur shitty existence
Mueller4m 3 years ago
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yeah i hate all of them
majorbb100 2 years ago
Just wait till you're my age and no amount of excercise will get rid of all the 'jigglies'. You learn to live with it or be miserable 24/7. I don't like being miserable myself, so I've finally accepted it as a fact of life. Besides, men don't really like 'hard' bodies on women, it often scares them away...been there, done that.
2hotinaz 3 years ago
I hate the thigh thing.
ThinXxXxSkeleton 3 years ago 3
you are amazing :]
EveryEffort 3 years ago
I really think you should get into ministry work of some kind...maybe even start your own group at church or something. You really know how to catch peoples attention and keep it. Reminds me of a lot of really good teachers I have had.
danellew03 3 years ago 3
what you need is a larger friend who is confident in his or her body....that confidence will rub off on you :) you are fantastic by the way
pixie0687 3 years ago 2
im 5'5" 120 lbs... sophmore i some time have spurts of self consciousness (spelling error)go a few weeks w/o eating but ive been good for a awhle now i have my prorities in line... i discovered i only have one life so why not make the most of it... just do what you want.. what ever makes you happy i wake up in the morning what the hell lets go to school... be happy
baniejo 3 years ago
i love your videos. they give me hope that i can recover as well
iluvlife579 3 years ago
Wow...
Just seeing you talk about this makes me break inside.
Size 2? Wow... God, I WISH I was a size 2.
Be thankful.
You're beautiful.
lordnorton 3 years ago 3
be a tree, not a flower. i flower is a pretty flash that lasts a couple days a year, a tree grows stronger every minute and holds it's beauty in the fact that it stands at all. the older the tree the more wonder and TRUE beauty it holds. a tree knows that the cold of winter is followed by a never ending spring. you may not bloom everyday but you can stand tall.
wurdulak34 3 years ago
I'm not completely recovered but I feel as though I'm getting there.
I refuse to feel bad about myself when I put on clothes. To do so I buy clothes that look good but fit somewhat loose in order to not make the tight/uncomfortable/thigh touching feeling.
If that helps?
stephaniedersch 3 years ago
i like ur videos they kool ur a real nice person and i think ur pretty i love ur energy ur very bubbly ha ha well c ya i wish i could help ya but sorry the only thing i can say is dont give up u got the right mind frame just keep it up
JAYDANC3 3 years ago
I like to listen to happy music =]
really upbeat stuff that i can dance around to when i do my hair. People get sickened by it...lol...
but it works.
when you look in the mirror
say "hello perfect"
=]]
ohxhotxdayum 3 years ago
try to pick a couple body parts that you like, and focus on those when you look in the mirror. Like, man my boobs/hips/butt/arms/glowy skin are lookin goooood mama! Stay positive, muah!
gth216a 3 years ago 2
oh god just put the bottle down and leave it...
BlackeyedAlex 3 years ago
I have a words of wisdom mirror! Yey, cool.
montypija1 3 years ago
You are highly entertaining!
Wish I had some pearl of wisdom to offer you but unfortunately I am one of the 70%
EmbracingLife 3 years ago
I dont think anyone has the courage to feel good about the gaining of ana recovery weight.
dishcatastrophe 3 years ago
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YOUVE GAINED WEIGHT
juicycouturegrl101 3 years ago
juicycouture...
you are an idiot.
carpeDiem4321 3 years ago 5
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lol sorry i posted this b4 i read the whole thing and noticed she had anorexia and she was trying to gain. sorry courtney. u look gorgrous... and lik i said i will pray4u hun!!!
juicycouturegrl101 3 years ago
I love you. =D
lilbunnyfufu27 3 years ago
ebonne shut the fuck up. mattter of fact you can just get off these forums. you flaming faggot
ANYWAY i wake up every day and repeat these words
"TODAY WILL BE A GOOD DAY"
DIRECTIONS; USE AS OFTEN AS POSSIBLE <3
freakoffherleash06 3 years ago
On my mirror- "You are beautiful and you're a star." Ridiculous, but it works. You're at that tricky stage. But you got it. I know you do. XoXo
CaffeinatedPrincess 3 years ago
ive watched some videos of yours and your fucking funny. make more lol. btw i am trying to loose weight any ideas??
theakins 3 years ago
i love you.
omg.
littlesyd33 3 years ago
You have obviously never seen my pagan panties video. It's not for the faint of heart.
Grimli 3 years ago
HaHaHaHaHa... Cheesey Poof eatin lol....
I love you... You make me laugh so much...
MONKEYJUDO 3 years ago
im glad your back! you look goregously healthy by the way. i can relate completely with the thigh rubbing. i know it seems like thats all you hear and thats all people are looking at but its not true. stick thru it dear. you will get use to your legs =)
stay healthy!
-Rach
xnightxtokerx 3 years ago
I pretty much think the same thing as you and feel the same way but somehow i cant seem to lose the rest of my "over" weight .. :(
DarlingKaya 3 years ago
OMG your back !!!!!! yayyyy!!!!!
DarlingKaya 3 years ago
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GO EAT YOU ANOREXIC BITCH
ebonne222 3 years ago
stupid person
xBrendonurieluveRx 3 years ago
You are my new hero.
xD
xthecolorofmyenvy 3 years ago
hun you are doing great w/ realizing things while you recover. Many times we feel that what we see or feel is truth when it really isn't. I can totally relate to the size thing. I just had my baby and during the pregnancy gained 73 lbs. Could you imagine?
saraana101 3 years ago
lmao I love how many times you pick that bottle up and put it back down :P
Such a habit eh? I'm the same.
bogusbutterfly 3 years ago
i'm friends with you on facebook. in your pics, you don't look like you did when you were like 87 lbs, but you are still borderline bad skinny. you just don't so sickly :). that's a good thing, so smile!
waterguns15 3 years ago
geesh, I relate so much to you.
deathinvisible1 3 years ago
may i ask?, how old r u? o.o
MandyManner123321 3 years ago
I have a question. If you (being a healthy size) look in the mirror and see a whale-sized person, what do you see in people that are your same size or larger?
cweetXpeez 3 years ago
I have those same feelings, but I've never been Anorexic. I eat way too much, and I try to diet and exercise, but I'm SO lazy. lol
cweetXpeez 3 years ago
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Are you a Childhood victim of drunken parents that beat you and your siblings? is that why you need help and want to hurt others to make yourself feel better? Are you an adult that hasnt had a chance or reason to figure out why you are like you are? Have you gotten by on having a slightly attractive body and using it to make money? What will happen when you get older and your still an ignorant blonde with saggy booby and a bunch of freinds in jail ;)
StrangeDays25 3 years ago
hey hon! hope you found your wisdom!! i too am looking for mine!!! the Bible does say that "wisdom makes us smile, and makes our frowns disappear" ecclesiaties 8:1 i believe... =)
chanohman06 3 years ago
Oh yes, I like to watch them jiggle, oh my, me rikey!
WongDuckDong 3 years ago
youre too... blahblahblah.
xrainbowkendix 3 years ago
u look fab, ive been watching you this whole time and ive gota say rite now u look sooo amazing! ino its hard to get ovr but u will, i promise!! my friend was anoxeric and she has got ovr it and is now betr than evr so keep at it!! =) =) gd luck! il pray for u =)
smilier14 3 years ago
I have watched all of your videos, though I have never said anything.I felt the need to comment on this one, after ~14 years of fighting, everyday is still an uphill battle. I think for some it is just so ingrained in who are you are as a person, that to be completely recovered would be absolutely devastating. PS- i hate the jigglies too, and I don't know how tall you are, but I'm dead on 5'0 (small-med frame) and as soon as the 100s start even getting in view, things start moving, and it sucks.
Perfectionlost1 3 years ago
It made me sad reading this.
Im not a fan of the jiggles.
daniellepayton16 3 years ago
you have to to tell yourself that what you see in the mirror is not real. you just have to learn to believe what everyone else says.
it's hard, but good luck. you can do it, girl.
<3
emptinessofday 3 years ago
What are you on girl :D
Rottation 3 years ago
Just to let you know, there are certain parts of your body that are SUPPOSED to juggle. Best way to deal with this....go get fitted for a pretty new bra, buy a nice top and have a good laugh at the intelligent things men will be doing while trying (and failing) not to be too obvious about staring at your great cleavage and sexy shape, i.e. things like staring, drooling and walking into lamp posts and walls ;)
zariel09 3 years ago 2
I randomly came across this video and you have such a great personality that I had to go watch all your videos. I just wanted to tell you that you are an amazingly beautiful person inside and out.I hope you are doing well!
TiffanieC85 3 years ago 2
I Love her. =)
Kandiefulz 3 years ago
you should maybe go to Overeaters Anonymous.Anoxerics go there as well and they have a very high recovery rate. Seek help. That's for sure. Your body is your temple and thats all you have. Good luck girl.
BaNaNNiE925 3 years ago 2
your 105 your fucking skinny
laberinth23 3 years ago
ive been watching you for such a long time.
you are gorgeous.
3r1c4h 3 years ago 5
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r u drunk or sumthing?
sk8terchic998 3 years ago
You're awesome and look great :D
StephFL07 3 years ago
u look great courtney =]
AtarisGrl89 3 years ago
Eaten by ants... Hmm...
Could you perhaps provide an additional demonstration of the parts jiggling? :)
jofpee 3 years ago
it's ironic to me that you talk about the thighs rubbing together. i recently went on vacation did nothing but eat and drink and about 2 weeks in noticed that my thighs were touching and i couldn't remember when they stopped touching in the first place. it did exactly what you said though, my skin crawled and i wrestle with myself still because part of me knows how ridiculous i am but that part tends to get buried away. thanks for your videos though. you remind me that i'm not alone.
tofallbelow 3 years ago
I've just watched ALL your videos from start to finish. I swear you are just about the most inspiring person I have ever heard speaking about Eating Disorders. Have you ever considered doing talks to younger girls (teen and pre-teen maybe) about Eating Disorders? You'd make it relatable and easy to take in while maintaining the message that this life is hell and torture.
I am so in awe of you. I am bouncing up and down, relapsing every other moment. It's hell. You are my idol right now.
xxxxx
PlobyR 3 years ago 2
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Put the fucking bottle down and leave it alone. Or hold onto it. One or the other. That is obnoxious and annoying and distracting.
michatti89 3 years ago
the thing i think of every morning is how God loves me no matter what and he created me to be just the way i am, he created me beautifuly. listen to the song "fingerprints of God" by steven curtis chapman. its really encouraging. and...i remember "Luke 1:37 - For NOTHING is impossible with God." HOW AWESOME IS THAT!?!?!
God Bless and ::hugs::
cheerleader1931 3 years ago
Excuses = Fancier lies
=]
ily
<333
xXLolaLovesYouXx 3 years ago
In relation to eating disorders (or drug addiction and other such things), I find it really irritating when people talk about being "all better".
SuseM 3 years ago
I cant help but feel your pain since I suffer through the exact same thing every morning. I am currently going to a counselor to try and help solve it. I know it's nothing that can be fixed by simply feeling 'grateful' for the things that you have, that doesn't take the feeling away. For every negative thought you have, list two positives things that you feel about yourself. And you have to know that NO ONE thinks as negatively about you as yourself! You have to learn to accept imperfection.
LilWhiteBunnyRabbit 3 years ago
Your awesome :)
zetumopbaby 3 years ago
the statistic about recovery, how do they mean recovery? managing it, or full 100% like it never happened?
giggleslovesu46952 3 years ago
do you not know that your body is a temple of the holy spirit within you, which you have form God, and that you are not your own for you were bought with a price; therefore glorify God in your body.
1corinthians 6:19-20
when i think about hurting myslef or starving myself i think about this verse, because it shows that by hurting myself i am hurting god.
Zoinkies321 3 years ago
I'm so glad you're back!!! I thought you had died!!! hahahahaha
triathlonqueen 3 years ago
6:02 < made me laugh my ass off.
idk why. but i could watch that like 100 more times..lol
that was so awkward which made it so funny..hah
i think that was your most awkward video yet actually.
(dont get me wrong i love your videos!)
imafuknzombie 3 years ago
OMG WARN A GIRL BEFORE TO BUST HER EARDRUMS. but glad to see your back:D
RicePudden 3 years ago
Your way of speaking reminds me of Rachel Green's from "friends" :)
canica85 3 years ago
The negative voices gradually become quieted as you insist upon being nothing but indignant to these "voices" & arguing against them and REALIZING truly how much self worth you have. When I wake up, I have to remind myself how blessed I am & how God didnt put me on this earth for my body.Even when I still want them, I aspire towards higher callings--by spreading positive influence--which is what you do. You have over 17 THOUSAND views of this video in 3weeks! Embrace your honesty and strength.
skelly222 3 years ago
do you chew gum in every video?
This kind of made me feel like crap since I am bigger than you and certainly jiggle much more. lol.
Hope you feel better soon because I doubt your legs are rubbing together, you look great.
xsullengirlx 3 years ago
It sounds crazy, but getting the thoughts and voices out of your head, and bringing it out into the open helps. Because Satan loves to be in our heads. And if you talk loud enough where you can't hear him anymore, what's he gonna do? He might try shouting the lies at you, but you just shout right back;) Spiritual warfare is a bi-atch.
(Oh, and I don't encourage swearing in general.. just at the devil.)
Izzit13 3 years ago
I struggle with other things, but here's what I do. When the devil starts telling me lies, I say out loud (usually when I'm by myself:) to the devil:
"Shut up. Shut the *uck up.When I listen to YOU, you destroy me. I hate you, God hates you, and you don't have any real friends. I am not your friend, you loser. You are an ass. So shut the *uck up."
Izzit13 3 years ago
Hey Courtney!
wow you updated! girl you owe us some serious updates for braking that pinky promise unhun.
Anyway I'm sorry to say I don't have any advice because I'm still in my losing weight phase therefor the troubles of gaining weight I am unaware of. Keep us updated hun its summer meaning more videos!! ... right? right?
sleepwalking73 3 years ago
so I try to remind myself of how lucky I am that i have the option to eat and that God thinks Im beautiful, and that life is much to short to not be able to taste all the wonderful foods! we are so blessed to be as lucky as we are in America and I try to be thankful for that!I know its hard but everyday when you wake up remind yourself thay God loves you and thinks your perfect the way you are and that u have a family and frineds that loves you for you, not for how thin you are!!
Twiggy1108 3 years ago
okay well, ive struggled w/ my weight for the past couple of years, well my whole life really, but i didnt become Anorexic/Bulimic till i was 16...and I am at constant war w/ myself over what i eat and hate my body...but i try to remind myself, that there are people in Africa and all around the world who dont deprive themselves of food like we do they just dont have the option to eat b/c they dont have food!!
Twiggy1108 3 years ago
ur voice is very annoying.
jaquitamama 3 years ago
hey girly where are you????? i gotta tell u your fun,lively, videos are just awesome i dont know how anyone could be sad or depressed or angry after watching the courtney show...i hope your doing well... i know your strong update soon!!!
sassyelnumerouno 3 years ago
you look older in this video
how old are you if you dont mind answering
leyrewapa 3 years ago
i want to marry you
8000dollar 3 years ago 2
hi, i understand very goood american english but i think that you are the best!you are so strong and ironic when do you speack about anorexia... bye bye kisses :) ;)
bl4ckm4mb485 3 years ago
it's a good thing the pioneers didn't have
anorexia further complicating their lives.
plutoplatters 3 years ago
Well.. this morning i found somethin comfy to wear, liked how soft my legs felt, thought they needed more toning up.. and then put makeup on to compensate for gaining an ugly 2kg. I think u feel out of place .. bt u need to realise that healthy thighs and bodies jiggle so next time u feel the jiggle remember ur human with a beautifully healthy bod. I also think u will be part of that 30% (the living kind) cos ur strong minded but u do need to break away from an unhealthy perspective of control;)
babiewho 3 years ago 2
wow- apparently there are actually beings out there, mutants would be the formal term, that look up "jigglies" in hopes that they will see jiggling breasts. and the first thought that comes to mind, why wouldn't you just look up broadband speed internet porn or some smutty magazine with a couple of lesbians and a horse? kudos to you court for putting up with that crap.
love
L.
carterlu 3 years ago
the jigglies is so very true, every morning rain or shine. guilt because the night before i consumed food, food that in turn is going to turn to fat (becuase naturally i assume everything i eat turns to fat) therefore one bowl of anything equals cranky morning and self loathing... personally im worse with my stomach which is supposed to be stress wieght...now this is the part thats ironic you get fat from being stressed out and being fat stresses you out.... its a vicious never ending cycle
fistmeetface 3 years ago
well let me tell you how i semi got over it, for i was ana when i was 14 to 16 and for three yrs ate normal felt normal and liked myself, because my sister took up the disorder, i felt like it wasnt mine anymore, but then i moved out and am on my own and havent eaten for 7 days straight. so i really dont know.
requiem64 3 years ago
Nice tits girl. BTW you look like a female Kurt Russel lmfao. Don't worry uh its a compliment...er if you like Kurt Russel!
darkpassengerx 3 years ago
Shoooooot. You're right, son. The Kurt Russel part, not the tits. Well, okay. Maybe the tits too. Kidding.
Never expected to have a male "celebrity look alike" but hell, I'll take what I can get.
You dick. :)
courtneyblaircameron 3 years ago
Baby if you think you are fat call me the chubby chaser. If only you lived in Michigan I'd love to get a taste of your happy meal. For fuck's sakes woman you are just my type an out of control goofball looney tune!
CrunkChipmunk 3 years ago
OMG. That was exhausting.
ColevanFilms 3 years ago
i looked back at your intro video and i must say i like the new and improved courtney. you have more energy, you still have struggles but seem happier overall, and you honestly look great. i am in no way recovered, but i've made steps as well, and what helps me is my man. you may not be in a relationship now, but one day you will be and your man will appreciate your curves, ass boobs and all, plus having something to hold on to other than bones.
onlyanoption 3 years ago 2
ok ... take the gum out == don't want you to choke.
TsuyuCL 3 years ago
wtf is this chick on?
MajinMason13 3 years ago
Okay, now, what does this have to do with Unicorns? I mean, I would like to see a real one caught on youtube, but if you don't have real footage, then dont lie to me,nobody likes a faker...just kidding, seriously, stop being so...bitchy!Why is your body doing the jiggles?well, when you move, or shake, certain parts or ligaments on your body...move about freely, this is known as within the field concerning the laws of gravity...however, I never studied law :P seriously, maybe lay off the Chicken?
CodenameLegacy 3 years ago
you got chops.
lubba0 3 years ago
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eww. you are weird. sorry, lol.
koolmagicguy 3 years ago
Courtney,
Girl u need to tan your face too.....and sorry u think u r fat.
sheywey 3 years ago
Do your next show topless. Your hot!
saddy78 3 years ago
thanks 4 telling her!
seanman1234567 3 years ago
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drink the water or leave it alone, weird-o!!
sheywey 3 years ago
{i was going past the "limit"} 3rd, being without a disorder but not being comfortable with my weight,i try to tell myself every morning "you are beautiful, you're curvy, be happy you have boobs and an ass that some would kill for." it is partly my friends and family, but not much. i like your mirror thats a really good idea,and if you look at Marilyn Monroe, Bettie page, or any renaissance type art robust women are beautiful, the modeling industry is to blame for everyones body issues.
Xzoezealouslyx 3 years ago
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damn that sucks i thought THE JIGGLIES ment she was gona move her boobs around lol.
sleepyone909 3 years ago
me too, what a bummer
MOUNTAINOUS 3 years ago
okay.
1st of all, you're beautiful!! the jiggilies you get are cause you have boobs. i see no jiggling, you're arms dont wiggle around when you move them.
2nd being a size 2 you should be thrilled, and everyone gets that thigh rubbing unnless they ARE annorexic and have nothing but bone on their legs what you see on models it air brushing and the way they stand.
Xzoezealouslyx 3 years ago
HaveYouHeard12432160 3 years ago
i hate this
adhesiveD32 3 years ago
haha. then dont watch it dumb ass
Xzoezealouslyx 3 years ago 2
Courtney, I don't know what it was exactly that put me in the 30%. For months after inpatient treatment at the Renfrew Center, I was still in that 70%.
I've got this philosophy now, though, that there's no reason in being anything but happy and excited. It took me a while, but I truly look in the mirror and say--"Wow, I'm cute."
Jigglies, though, will always be uncomfortable. I hate them.
Puhmazing 3 years ago
yikes.
barfarter 3 years ago
Quit bitching.
ChanceCorruption 3 years ago
make more vids!
IHeartOrangeCow 3 years ago
PPS, ants are fucking gross. :( Glad to see you survived that terrible ordeal.
kelichkax 3 years ago