Life is screwed up, thanks bulimia, thanks anxiety.. thanks.

[2blecros]

You know yourself which is good, but you need to trust in people who will help you significantly with yourself and realize that as an individual you can only have the power that you draw your relations with others and knowledge in yourself.

"Don't hold on to what pulls you back"

[flownder28]

Hope your feeling better these days. Keep your chin up^

[what13521]

down with bulimia

[Blacksabbath211]

you sound like hermione from harry potter :)

[LauraJayyEss]

@Blacksabbath211 hehe, she does!

[ClosetTwilightRoadie]

can i like, hug u through the computer?! (: but oh gosh, i do understand how u feel partially. i have anxiety disorder, ADHD, and slight depression. I've always felt messed up ever since i can remember. no one knows except for me and my mom. I dont want my friends to think im a psycho. therapy does help tho. its just hard to be honest because u care too much what they'll think about u. isnt it funny tho how i cant tell my friends but i can tell a bunch of random people on youtube?! ha

[H03f0LyF3]

you seem like a very verry sweet person. and i bet you are. you are beautiful. you may not be able to see it. but you are. and i understand hearing people say it isnt enough.. cause all you want is to see this beauty too. i wish you the best of luck getting through this..a nd beleive me you will. i ahd bulimia and anorexia. and im just recovering. be strong. cry if you need to cry. scream if you need to scream. people dont understand how HARD this is. goodluck girl[:<3

[lovingmeganmullally]

you seem so lovely and you look really gorgeus and i think its all in your head and like you said you need to distract yourself

maybe you should find a hobby like and instrument or an artistic thing and try to stop excersising

and i know what i say maybe doesnt matter to you :

im so sorry about what happend with your brothers wedding but you should try to focus on positivity in life and not the negitive things

also maybe you and your brother should plan a whole fun day together :)

[redeemer7568]

u cant keep telling ur self ur a screw up u need to know god put u on earth for a reason so u need to find what it is and gyms get ur endorphines goin so its ok if u can eat and keep it i know i do it tooo but u have to take the car distract urself with soemthing find a new habit it takes 21 days for a new one to start keep ur spirits up bulemiai find out now is a form of suicide it will kill me its not failure its a mental illness that u an get help for just have to look it will get better

[justagirl166]

I want to hug you! x

[julesifyTV]

I totally understand what you are going through. I fear all these things too.

<3

[BabieEeyore]

you are so sweet and pretty, look if you need to talk drop me a message and i will get back to you asap, stay strong ok !! ok the gym os not a good idea but it is aslong as you dont over do it that is the worst thing, recovery is not easy no but it has to be done to get better, i wont say it was a ramble you needed to talk and you have, *hugs* look i really wont to help you, please get in contact, suicide is not the answer it is a short term solution to a long term problem,

[Noyjeetut]

The greatest thing to always remember in times of suffering is this too shall pass, and if you've hit rock bottom than things can only improve.

[LCbabyxO]

i wish i could give you a hug too :( i hope you see what i see & what everyone else see's one day. God bless beautiful girl :)

[YakatoriConektshuns]

hey, im bulimic too, hang in there. ur not alone, i know exactly how u feel

[katykaay]

My heart is just breaking listening to you.

I wish so much that you will get through this. You are such a really likeable, very brave girl and you are deserving of every happiness. I wish I could take your ED away and take away all your pain :( xo

[poshdelux]

hey babe, ur on my dailyplate friend list . Controlgodess .

all the love n light ur way.

[damianbranica]

im here...for now...cheers

[damianbranica]

life gets harder as you get older and the ed becomes harder to hide and much more of a burden..the ed will point your life into paths that will leave you lost, alone, broke, hopeless, pathetic and un attractive to others. if you dont believe me...bookmark his and write me back...i have no reason to lie to you. this is my reality. i wish you fresh air, life, hope and love. Eat raw veg and even egg whts. drink water, take vitamins. get outside, enjoy the life that lives around you. U are important

[littlebunnylulu]

"recovery is a journey, not a destination."

hope you're doing well ^_^ i admire the courage you had to post your honesty.

keep it up buttercup.

[Iamalwaysgodschild]

i appreciate what you said in this video, and i can relate to the frustration, tiredness, anxiety, etc. God bless you. Freedom from ed's is possible.

[weaveamyweave08]

I hope that after a year, you are feeling much better!:-) Your Kitty is adorable! (got 3 of my own...they're all "fixed" though.)LOL Hope you are OK. xo~a

[Lottielouu]

you seem like SUCH a lovley girl, and i know this video was posted over a year ago but i really hope you've picked yourself back up and put that beautiful smile of yours back on your face :) x

your so brave, and even more brave for sharing this with everyone, I hope its opened people's eyes and made the more fortunate people just how lucky they are :)

keep smiling xx

c/b xx

[LaurenBabess123]

see all this support!

people do care.

don't forget we are all important and all serve a purpose even if there is bumps on the way.

hang in there.

it will all be worth it! :)

good luck (Y)

[sweetpee2007]

y iS she smilEing

[msmetad]

There is a point in trying! and the fact that you are shows that you have the capacity to recover. I went through anorexia as well as depression (i actually tried bulimia but found i dont have a gag reflex; ironic, huh?). i am now at a healthy weight and much happier."better"is achievable! As to your family ,tell them your feelings in a diplomatic calm way. Chances are they didnt mean to hurt you, they just made an honest clueless mistake. Best of luck with your troubles, stay strong

[aleemoralees]

recovery is absolutely possible, and is talking a recovered girl, but you can't do it alone, i tried it just SO MANY times and I did it when I looked for help, go to a clinic, there are so many.. remember this is a disease, nobody can heal without the correct medicine, good luck girl

[freemontforever]

i feel like i'm looking in a mirror. you are so not alone

[sargientcupcake]

anxiety is a low kick to the groin im also bipolar. a couple of years ago my life went to hell. i disapeered from school life. lost most of my friends failed 2 grades. and lay in bed all day, miserable, depressed, angry at myself and the world around me. i felt truely alone and watched the world forget about me as it passed by. The road to a happier life is long and difficult. but if you endure it, fight it. Never give up on yourself. you will rise above it if you just fight a little longer.

[GogatsuGirl]

It was messed up that no one told you about your bro's wedding as if you "didn't matter". But although families should care & demonstrate better love, it's sometimes up to U to SHOW OTHERS and PROVE TO URSELF that u do matter. No need to hav social anxiety. ;-) We often think ppl r looking at us or judging us, when they really don't give a damn. No need to cry over ur bro's wedding: HE must choose who he wants to spend his life with, & u have to accept that. U MATTER to Jesus Christ & to us.

[biangelboy21]

you are such a brave girl i couldent bare my soul like you have in this vidio

your great

huggs x

[linatina123]

God! you are incredibley brave for sharing this. Remember, your your number one priority. Don't look after other peoples feelings at this stage, look after your own, and do the things which get you feeling proud of yourself. Because you damn well deserve to feel on top of the world. talk away, it really helps other people in similar situations, believe me! lol god i love you for doing this, so brave.

[absterz00]

I know, I want them to take mine too. see how it feels. only a second would be enough. good luck with your ed, I hope you make it out.

[izumozorc]

i wanted to go bulimic, but I went vegetarian instead, i lost an unnatural amount of weight so i'm really worried

[missy585858]

i have had an ed for 6 years....i am in college full time and work over full time....i have failed classes due to not being able to oncentrate....and i have been basically ostracized from my family...i dont really have a relationship with my parents anymore....if u need to talk im here

[kissingpointRd]

i have social anxiety and suffer with bulimia as well i completely understand how it "saves" you. while i'm bingeing i'm numb and then the anxiety from it is released in the purging process.. its a really bad combination. dw tho hun, ppl get through they do =] and we will. because it feels helpless but you're capable! i know it because your ability to express yourself in words and deeply understand and connect with yourself is a gift. GOOD LUCK AND DON'T GIVE UP!!!!!!

[igloo778]

Darling, please have faith in the fact that you will get better. I've been through it and Inever thought I would get better but I did. Find small thngs to make you happy to start with take it day by day.

[tohwir08]

I really hope you are doing much better now. I see how much pain you are/were in in this video. Someday you will figure it all out, where your life is going etc. It's not that easy or simple. Eating disorders can really rob you of a lot, and not knowing about your brother's wedding was awful. Take care.

[SilverPoppy]

maybe they wanted to spare you any anxiety that would come with knowing about the wedding... i can't think of why else they'd keep it from you.

don't join a gym. that is so NOT a good idea

[thesoothingsurf]

Wow-I'm so sorry they waited til the last minute to tell you about the wedding, and that you're having a hard time.

I've been dealing with a lot of anxiety the past few months myself.

*big hugs* I care.....

[favea]

*gives you a hug*

get well soon, hun! if you want to talk, just contact me, I'll be there

xXx

[dreadxxx]

im sorry you have it so rough, btw karosakiichigo is right you are really pretty:)

[emmaw35]

Hey hun, sorry you are having such a hard time right now. Sure you've heard this phrase "one day at a time". I'm sure they didn't mean to leave you out til the last minute for your brothers wedding. Eating disorders truely suck and so does depression. Struggeling myself with the depression and ED myself right now. I'm here if you want to vent, anytime. just add me...stay strong.