PT 1 OF 6 Denial: A Reality Of Addiction Part 1

[junerose621]

Is there a major reason why thing "whatever it is" has such a need to get so in your face? I've got the volume almost all the way off and it's still killing my ears. What a douche.

[yemekoom]

omg thats a puff, is he denial of being a puff hahahahaha

[BloodyThriller]

What can I say, Your videos are really powerful.

You have a good way of explaining things and yea x_x I dont really know what I mean xD Sorry.

Anyway I love your videos.

Off to part 2!

-Lindsay

[lactogenius]

I watched this last night. I couldn't comment then--your words really hit me like a ton of bricks. I realized that ED has wanted to be alone with ME since I was twelve years old! Why, in twenty years I haven't figured that out on my own, I don't know. But, holy crap I about fell off my chair when you said "your addiction wants to be alone with you". It's true! I've seen it in some of my loved ones, too. Thank you for sharing this. I might have gone another twenty years being alone with ED.

[bubblegumbead]

(Part two of comment): What baloney! Nobody wants to be alone with this insanity.

A wolf in sheep's clothing is right!

[bubblegumbead]

"I just want to be alone."

"No, your addiction just wants to be alone with you."

Johnny, you never cease to amaze me. At three this morning as I was going nuts and screaming "Leave me alone!" and thinking "I just want to be alone. I want to be by myself", I was able to gather my composure momentarily and thought about this video. In all reality I DIDN'T want to be alone, I wanted HELP, but the eating disorder mindset is always pulling and nagging, telling me that I want and need to be on my own

[MyOwnStickFigure]

hugs, you are strong my dear.

[kirksbabygirl2007]

Very true.

[peppernme]

Johnny, I am already impressed by the first in this series. I like your film work and editing too. SO good! The part about night time and wanting FOOD like that - was me last night. I WANT FOOD! I would have screamed it if I hadn't been afraid to. ...And I ATE.

[joyisaware]

very clearly described, thank you for sharing experience, and making it all transparent.

[colormethin]

Thank you so much for your videos, they've really opened my eyes to the affects of my anorexia.

[YsabellaTheGoddess]

Exactly.

[AudioGeek89]

Thank you so much for the amazing videos! I'm suffering on anorexia nervosa too, and I'm fighting against this horrible illness. You are helping me a lot with your videos, thank you!

[lilkel86]

Anorexia sux... i never binged but anorexia use to speak to me like that even if i ate some grapes. Stupid thing. I'm so glad i'v fought past that stange. It still screams but its getting weaker.

Well done for this blog *goes to watch next one*

[wearestardust0]

This is a really great video, thank you for putting out your time to make it!

[theskinnypig]

Brilliant!!!!!!!!!

I love this, I love your different camera angles, Johnny, thank you so much for all of the work you have put into this.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

You will be pleased to know that I took our random flip to the hot tub with a shake and protein bar and it was by far the most brilliant reading ever Stacey... I practice all this stuff in and out of therapy. I want to read it on cam soon. It will really help others. I love our book!!! I also opened the cutest lemon drop heart beet card!!! You need to sell cards and art in your chocolate shop!!!

[theskinnypig]

fantastic!!!! I agree, I think those readings will help others. My chocolate shop.... in my dreams. It will happen one day.

[Sjappelientje]

This is exactly what it makes you do, how it makes you feel and how it's taking years and years of your life. You are just hitting it the way it is here. I never heard someone explain it better then you just did. Thank you