I must assume hon you are self medicating, you never mentioned therapy which is a requirement and emotional stability is a requirement for HRT too. I am glad you are finding your way but please let people know you are doing something dangerous that no one else should do.
Really, you are NOT FAT! Seriously... I am 15 and transgender too (boy body,female mind) I have to w8 2 years till I can start HRT. Believe me you are a very pretty woman, stop thinking about suicide please! I thought about it too, but it's never the answer. You have to fight this world, make it better for other transpeople. I will, once I grow older, not hide my identity. I will fight this shitty world! Christina DON'T GIVE UP!
Coming from a girl ( who likes girls so I guess you could count me as a guy) I think you're absolutely beautiful. Both inside and out. Seriously, I saw all of your pictures and thought " wow she's really pretty."
It is simply appalling how such horrible things can and will be done to human beings from the actions of another human being. It disgusts me. I'm sorry that you had to experience so much evil in the past, but you are strong and were able to get through it all. You are beautiful, and do not let anyone tell you otherwise. I admire your strength and your ability to not be afraid to be yourself.
i too am trans and while i have not yet started hormones i feel so empty ,lost, and incomplete. i think i know how you felt at first and i anticipate the rest. im so sorry you had to endure such hardships during what i can only imagine to be the hardest part of your life. i hope things get so much better for you. you are beautiful and i admire your courage. send me an email if you would like. i would love to exchange support through our transitions.
You are an incredibly beautiful woman. Just give it time and things will get better I promise. A wise person once told me that once you hit rock bottom you cant get any lower all you can do is go up. I wish you the best in all life offers you.
your story is something that makes me want to hug you, even though im not the type to do such things at all... its just really sad, how people can behave sometimes
You tell an amazing story. I am currently working on a film about transsexualism that is designed to defeat rumors and spread love for transsexuals. Check out my channel for a pitch video and my project page on IndieGoGo. It is titled Born in the Wrong Body.
You have been through something fierce and still are dealing with it as you heal and learn to be ok with yourself. Let me tell you, you are ok. There is nothing wrong with you and your parents rejection of you is their ugliness, not yours. The rapes and abuse you have suffered were not a result of your being bad, ugly, wrong or of low value. You are of high value and you have a life ahead of you that will allow your struggles and pain to empower you to help others like you. It's all about love.
Please don't hurt yourself, you really don't deserve that. I wish you all the best for your future and that you can love yourself. You are beautiful :)
What do your parents do or think now?? How could anyone turn away such a beautiful individual when you needed them? I can't believe they were so unsupportive of the real you...
@ChristinaDream it must have been hard to go through all of that but still pull through and show the world that Being transsexual really isn't bad at all. I'm a transgender male but I don't really know where to start , i mean , transitioning that is, may I ask you a question or two on the subject if you don't mind me asking ? uuhm would u prefer I don't ask it , ask here or inbox u , thank u so much ~
@jayskova i know ALOT about rape and yeah its a shity thing but honistly noone get raped 3 times in there life time unless there puting them selfs in the situation just think about it she was goin around to random ppls house and drinking and ultimatly gettnig drunk.
@SoapMacTavishism I walk a path of Buddhism called the Bodhisattva path. Although I would say I follow doctrines of Buddhism, Taoism, Gnosticism, and Christianity. In the end all religions serve the same purpose, that is to develop unconditional love, and equanimity and to birth the soul.
@ChristinaDream "In the end all religions serve the same purpose, that is to develop unconditional love, and equanimity and to birth the soul." Beautiful, I agree with this. I am trans too (have not started hrt) but I adopted spirituality when i was young teenager. I was so lost. thanks to spirituality I learned how to go within and discover who I am. who we all are. and then I developed unconditional love for the entirety of existence. Thus, I found the end to my suffering.
I really like the story of your life on your vid, thanks for share these things. By the way I love the song, can you give me the name? please. (sorry for my english I speak spanish).
Thank you very much for sharing your amazing story - a very, very brave thing to do. I admire your reslience through abuse, neglect and loneliness. It has touched me and I'm sure as it will many others (if not already). I want to wish you all the best of your journey (& you look gorgeous btw) X
@Kanoki989 You know at one point, I wished death upon my parents. But now 2 years later my view on this has reversed entirely. I love them and they love me. :)
im 16 i came out to my mother and my aunt(i was very drunk) my family is very accepting i love them alot i haven't come out to my dad yet i know he wont be affected by it but i think i should keep it of a little bit longer i want to go to my doctor since their is no one else to go to but i cant get the courage i feel like im sick to my stomach all the time because im the cowardly lion i just want to i dont know what to do sorry for going on about it and thanks
@nholt haha! Yeah, I wouldn't have had any problems, but it was through these problems that I am now making something of my life, we shall see what I am up to when I am able to get access to a camera to make a video.
@nholt You know I put MFs like you down for breakfast. I am also a mtf and have been in transition for a couple months. I am a former US Air Force Major with lots of combat experience in Iraq and Afghanistan. If someone attacks me I will kill them just from survival instinct.
ChristinaDream keep going! You're a strong woman and have a strong spirit. You found your inner strength which is great! Stories like yours inspire me.
You're a beautiful woman. I hope one day to be as beautiful as you. There is no difference between ftm and mtf when it comes to beauty, but you, ma'am, are a beautiful woman, and I hope for one day the world to see that and be as beautiful as you.
Im a 3 month FtM and my first week I came.out to my friends I lost several, week 6 I came out to my family and was disowned. But your story...made me cry. And I have fallen down the road I wish I hadnt in these 3 months...
I appreciate that you have posted your story up here for others to see (especially those going through similar stories) and I wish only the best for you. Thank you. Namaste.
HI Christina! Thank you so much for sharing your life with me! You truly are an inspiration!!! you are soooo pretty<3<3 Im 21 and just told my therapist and thats the biggest step ive taken and I cant wait to see what is in store for me in my future and I know if you can go thru all those hardships I know I can make me, me. Much love Jessica<3
I hope you only get get stronger, you're beautiful. And I have so much respect and admiration for the transgender community. You're a perfect example of strength. No matter what obstacles and discouraging encounters you face, you continue to triumph.
Wow, this person below is messed up, nomatter what, no one deserves ill things to happen to them. If your really religeous, youd realize you need to reread the bible a few times, and not twist it to be used for hate
Omg this is so sad :(! The music, the pictures & your story almost made me cry ):! I feel so sorry for what you have gone through, and that your parents threw you out >:O!
But in the end of the video, you sorted your life out, got a nice friend, and I am so happy for you :D!!!!!!!!
I still haven't told my parents anything, but I think my mother knows.. I kinda didn't get my mascara off once, and another time i didn't properly take off lipstick, and she asked why my lips were so red. IRanToMyRoom
really stupid, If you think your Fat Then Go to the Gym & get some physical Excercise. Its just so stupid when People complain they are fat but all they do is Sit down All day. Nothing IS FOR FREE, Everything is Work. That is the reality of life, the weak get eaten.
well. I just cant get it...Until 18 you were a boy, u had a girlfriend and suddenly - baaam,something happened...and u get all the time "raped"... Don't get me, i respect you , you must be very brave to do this. What changed ? I mean...yeah....
Ive always been a girl inside but im stuck in a boys body I told my mum but then i chickend out of going to a counceler and said i was over it.. :/ Please reply someone
@TheConnor990 honey, im exactly like you. im a girl trapped in a male body, and i hate it. I just started high school, i found some friends that encouraged me enough to finally tell my mother about being transgendered. we never talk about it, unfortunately, but i keep going on and on through good friends and people like ChristianDream who put their story on youtube. of course, im not very open about being a trans because my father doesnt know and id be ridiculed more so than i am now....
@TheConnor990 since i live in a very narrowminded town. anyways, i went to a counselor and was able to tell her about everything, and she sat there and listened, and smiled. She somehow knew what i was going through. do you wanna know how helpful a counselor is? i went there ONCE and i havent been depressed in more than half a year. i encourage you to go, and if not, then go to a website called Laura's Playground. theres a chat room where you can talk to people just like us...
Just stay strong and your strength will guide you through all hard and unlucky situations! If you really belive you are a valuable and beautiful girl (that is so ;)) then you can go on much easier! Have fun and try to forget all the bad things happened, just remember the happy memories! Cheers, Endre
Christina, don't let people get you down. When things are hard, or easy for that matter, please don't forget that you are a very beautiful girl. Thank you for sharing your transition with me.
I have watched this video and I admire your story -- however I was alarmed to see you substitute the word RAPE with REGRETTABLE SEX. How does someone get YOU drunk anyway? Aren't you the one drinking?
@TheGreatToopi Yes. I had never touched a drop of alcohol in my life before, and it turns out that I have alcoholism problems that seem to be genetic. I liked the buzz and so he bought more liquor for me to drink up. And then I got so drunk, since I had never been before I didn't know what to expect. I did not substitute the word RAPE. I WAS raped. I did not consent I blacked out.
I am so sad when I see a comment which is derogatory due to the reader missing what you say and write in the video; I guessed most of what you had to explain explicitly in th long comment 5months back. I have seen most of your videos and now this again. It is deeply touching. I cannot say but repeat tucker129: After watching this, I just want to give you a hug.
Sweet little princess, you ARE special to me, are special to God, and special to many other people, whatever happen, wherever you go, dont forget about this, even when we think we are alone, we arent. Every new morning is a blessing, every day we have 86.400 seconds, are 86.400 chances to do something good, to make good decisions, to see someone we love smiling, to smell a rose, to taste a cake, to kiss someone, to do what we want. Dont spend any precious second because all they are special
props to you u are a inspiration . hi all im transgender to funny story i was walking down the street and this hell religious dude over herd me and my best friends conversation and he went off so fuuny then my best friend sed witch i thort was funny there is no god there is only CHUCK NORIS. XD LOVE U PAIGE SISTER FOR LIFE
this story wanted me to give you a hug crying it must have been realy had in the down times but im glad you over came it ^-^ I LOVE YOU FOR THAT & ile sub :) cuz ur amazing
hi Christina, im not a transperson, but i have to say i know where your comming from! on the rape issue, i was raped myself. many people dont know what its like until it happens to them. you are definitly a soilder making it this far! much credit to you.
I can't even picture what that must have been like to go through, but I'm glad that you are doing better, Christina...stay strong; things WILL only get better from here!! =)
I see youve been through so much in your life, makes mine look like cake walk :/ for what its worth im sorry. But the measure of your strength is not what you go through, its how you grow from it. I am at the very beginning of my transition, im seeing a coucelor but I havent started hrt yet. I cant wait!!!! Im literally climbing the walls. Please write me if you can, I would love to have a friend whose been there. Jpfeatherston82@gmail.com
Im sorry you had to go through so much abuse. What you went through is what I feared my whole life until now. You show amazing strength to be who you are in spite of all that has happened. And that is inspiration to all us who didn't have the strength... before. :)
Ok I'm not hating but... Why in the world did u wanna become a girl? I mean, iv always wanted to try for a day, but still... God made a Male. He loved you as a male. Why'd u change?
Oh, and grats to 11 months on hormones. Seems like we share the same month time for the 1-year on hormones part :o (On October 20th, 1 year on hormones).
Seem like a weak person. Who cares what people say about you, you need to get thicker skin.. and you keep getting raped.. what the fuck... grow a pair and fight back.
One of my personal "theme songs" is (Never Let The Bastards)"Grind Ya Down" by Motorhead. Take it to heart sweety.Just remember,anyone who is not for you,is AGAINST YOU. You have to make YOU HAPPY. Forget everyone else.It's too late for me,but,great luck in your transition. Blessed Be+Merry Meet. Much love from Ohio.
@nlspe Does it really matter to anyone else what makes sense to you? And what right do you have to ask for an explaination -- really, who are you? I am certain the person in this video is so many million times stronger and braver than . If you just want to be an jerk, go away.
Amazing video, the most emotive one I've seen about transitions... let me tell u, ur so beautiful... even more than most of my naturally-female friends. Cheer up!! u really deserve to be happy!!
the things you have endured, ti amo, Benedetto, may the goddess watch you on your path, and may light and fortune find you in all things, know you are loved by many, and that love shields from all forms of hate, Blessed Be.
@ChristinaDream I can see you have been through a lot, but you are amazingly beautiful. Keep up the GOOD work and forget about the BAD things. YOU CA DO IT!
If I could, I would be by your side to help you be a great person and beautiful girl.
@ChristinaDream man u need some deliverance,heard abt our body is a temple for God before? Jesus loves u dont sell your soul to satan by apostasy. ..female genital has 2 holes, the one u missing is the one to the womb u can't deny the truth u feel u are a man within. if not for prostitution, why would a man become a woman? hence the answer to your 'rape'.
@pastorkwameasare Take your preaching somewhere else. Why do people have to be so god damn pushy? If you don't like what's in the video, go somewhere else. If you have nothing positive to say, DON'T SAY IT.
@YouGoGlenCoc0 look,man, i'm here to help u out.sometimes life can be very confusing which makes us do things way extreme but God still loves sinners(for all have sinned) and there is help for us.we can have private talk thru' email which will restore your inner man. people get too busy ignoring God which makes them lose their guard against death and make their hell certain. u are not condemned, there is hope!
@pastorkwameasare Look, would you like it if a bunch of people from another religion busted into your church and told you everything you believed in was wrong, and you were going to hell if you didn't change your mind? No? Yeah. Go away. Stop pushing your shitty religious speak down other people's throats. You're so ignorant. Put down your bible and read something more educational. Thanks x
@YouGoGlenCoc0 Dear one, when we use angry words to try to put someone in their place, we escalate hate. Since we as human beings have the same core essence thus meaning that aside from personality and ego we are essentially equal (equanimity) we are creating dis-virtue that does will only perpetuate the cycle's strength. Lets take a breath and calm our minds. And find bliss in loving kindness and compassion.
@YouGoGlenCoc0 I appreciate the kindness behind your action, the intention to try to end the suffering... however, dear one, I have grown up significantly from when all these videos were posted and I don't want to see you suffer by creating bad karma :)
Idiot! Did u get your fingers done?look @ them! Still male. Oh, your ass hole is still higher than a woman.shame u cant admit u r STILL a man, your will ever be a man, loser.
Ill see if I can answer you all in one post. Song is called "Medicine Buddha Mantra" ... I never identified as "gay" I was never a gay male. I am "pansexual" meaning gender and sex does not matter to me. I thought I was fat because perception is distorted by an eating disorder. I will not discuss my relationship with my girlfriend sorry, boundaries. And to adequately answer the rest of the questions I need to make a new video. Keep your eyes peeled. There answered you all in one post. xD
I dont like transexuality, but im not a hater, but your determination has amazed me and reminds me how much willpower and determination the human race has as a whole. you my friend have a lot of determination in you.
It is very moving to see the change from the beginning of the video to the woman you are now. The story of how you got there was even moreso, and I actually feel really happy for you and where you've reached. Seeing your transition has given me hope for my future.
This video brought tears to my eyes as it's something that's quite close to me, being transgender myself. I've only recently come out to it and luckily, I have a friend who understands and supports me, although I'm only in a cross-dressing phase at the moment. What's upsetting though is that even though my mother is heavily under the impression that I'm gay, she seemed to think it was a joke when I mentioned transgender. I haven't said anything since then, and won't until I gain confidence.
@Jimmy31428 I'm confused why is it when someone come says that they are transgender, people fall under the impression that that person is gay. I mean no disrespect towards you or your mother, I'm just curious.
@DemonicRayquaza Perhaps because gay men come off as far more effeminate than straight ones, so the mix-up is rather easy to make without clarification. Particularly as there is far more awareness for homosexuality than there is transexuality.
@Jimmy31428 Thanks for the explanation, it sad that some can just up and assume a person's sexuality just because they dress a certain way. I hope you be able to find the confidence to talk about it with your mom.
Your sooooo beautiful... Disney princess!!!xoxoxxo!
hopefulkylee 7 hours ago
You are beautiful! Love yourself.
lakerhart2011 2 days ago
I must assume hon you are self medicating, you never mentioned therapy which is a requirement and emotional stability is a requirement for HRT too. I am glad you are finding your way but please let people know you are doing something dangerous that no one else should do.
SophiaAphrodite 3 days ago
Thanks so much for telling your story! What does progesterone do?
bluetooth333123 3 days ago
Hope you can talk things out with a therapist, really helped me a lot!
It was hard for me to talk to someone because in our home, everything you say will be used against you later. Certainly made it hard to open up.
Glad I did though, really helps to have someone who can help you navigate the crazy of your own life and other people's nuttiness.
bynddrvn5 3 days ago
I feel for you and wish you luck in your journey through life. You are beautiful and you must never forget how much your life is worth(a lot).
livfoster33 1 week ago
pure attention seeking shite sorry
connaught15 1 week ago
i'm sure you get this a lot, but you are so beautiful, especially for being very broad-minded!
GalacticEgg 1 week ago
You are very beautiful :)
aidenjace 1 week ago
Really, you are NOT FAT! Seriously... I am 15 and transgender too (boy body,female mind) I have to w8 2 years till I can start HRT. Believe me you are a very pretty woman, stop thinking about suicide please! I thought about it too, but it's never the answer. You have to fight this world, make it better for other transpeople. I will, once I grow older, not hide my identity. I will fight this shitty world! Christina DON'T GIVE UP!
TankyTeemo 1 week ago
Coming from a girl ( who likes girls so I guess you could count me as a guy) I think you're absolutely beautiful. Both inside and out. Seriously, I saw all of your pictures and thought " wow she's really pretty."
cheerios0are0forever 2 weeks ago
It is simply appalling how such horrible things can and will be done to human beings from the actions of another human being. It disgusts me. I'm sorry that you had to experience so much evil in the past, but you are strong and were able to get through it all. You are beautiful, and do not let anyone tell you otherwise. I admire your strength and your ability to not be afraid to be yourself.
Cilye 2 weeks ago
Suicide takes a temporary problem and changes it in to an eternal one.
JohnMGilbert 2 weeks ago
i too am trans and while i have not yet started hormones i feel so empty ,lost, and incomplete. i think i know how you felt at first and i anticipate the rest. im so sorry you had to endure such hardships during what i can only imagine to be the hardest part of your life. i hope things get so much better for you. you are beautiful and i admire your courage. send me an email if you would like. i would love to exchange support through our transitions.
lifeofpeace79 2 weeks ago
its so sad and unfair that some have to change their sex and go through all this to be able to live like a normal person.
SinaArtism 2 weeks ago
You are an incredibly beautiful woman. Just give it time and things will get better I promise. A wise person once told me that once you hit rock bottom you cant get any lower all you can do is go up. I wish you the best in all life offers you.
funguy8308 3 weeks ago
You are very beautyfull
MsBASSEMAND 3 weeks ago
your story is something that makes me want to hug you, even though im not the type to do such things at all... its just really sad, how people can behave sometimes
animemacs 3 weeks ago
your story brings me to tears, i want to say i think you are beautifull young lady, you have so much to be proud of.
Segnet37451172 3 weeks ago
You tell an amazing story. I am currently working on a film about transsexualism that is designed to defeat rumors and spread love for transsexuals. Check out my channel for a pitch video and my project page on IndieGoGo. It is titled Born in the Wrong Body.
jrn1994 3 weeks ago
You have been through something fierce and still are dealing with it as you heal and learn to be ok with yourself. Let me tell you, you are ok. There is nothing wrong with you and your parents rejection of you is their ugliness, not yours. The rapes and abuse you have suffered were not a result of your being bad, ugly, wrong or of low value. You are of high value and you have a life ahead of you that will allow your struggles and pain to empower you to help others like you. It's all about love.
ProGayAgenda 3 weeks ago
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kawaiikes 3 weeks ago
Stay strong. You are a beautiful woman. People should wake up and look at the beautiful person you are. Blessed be.
yesiaminhell 1 month ago
way to go on recovering, keep it up (:---and don't let people's negative comments and or actions get to you that's just ignorance on their part.
619marcog 1 month ago
you are beautiful honey stay strong :)
ErinRosamondBlack 1 month ago
You are inspiring. I hope my transition goes as well as yours is! Much love from southern california :D
LANmineTFC 1 month ago
Please don't hurt yourself, you really don't deserve that. I wish you all the best for your future and that you can love yourself. You are beautiful :)
TheSaintMatt 1 month ago
I admire you, believe me, God bless you...=')!
Alfontanas 1 month ago 2
things will get better with time an ur so kute hehehe...kisses girl keep ur head up k??
kaylee932 1 month ago
Whenever I chant it, it makes me so peaceful.
Absolutelylovely326 1 month ago
Tayatha om bekandze, bekandze maha bekandze, randze samu gate soha. I love this mantra. :)
Absolutelylovely326 1 month ago
What do your parents do or think now?? How could anyone turn away such a beautiful individual when you needed them? I can't believe they were so unsupportive of the real you...
1122ares 1 month ago
@ChristinaDream it must have been hard to go through all of that but still pull through and show the world that Being transsexual really isn't bad at all. I'm a transgender male but I don't really know where to start , i mean , transitioning that is, may I ask you a question or two on the subject if you don't mind me asking ? uuhm would u prefer I don't ask it , ask here or inbox u , thank u so much ~
4ester44 1 month ago
Good luck!
GiantPetRat 1 month ago
I am also tranz > I was suicidal for 12 years! How are you now?
pozzimystic 1 month ago
You are so beautiful. I hope you find true strength in yourself. You are on the right path =)
semiserioussam 1 month ago
from one female to another female I'd like to say you are beautiful grrl :)
noxtzu 1 month ago
Keep on smiling every day hone ,your very beautiful girl, theres more up in our life ,glade your happy now xxx...
d1da5a 1 month ago
How did you have $ for a motorcycle, alchohol and hormons...but not $ for a motel room?
thamazingrach 1 month ago
it is amazing how meeting one nice person can change ones life. try to make someone smile today :)
scotiagurl19 1 month ago
@scotiagurl19 always.
ChristinaDream 1 month ago
@jayskova i know ALOT about rape and yeah its a shity thing but honistly noone get raped 3 times in there life time unless there puting them selfs in the situation just think about it she was goin around to random ppls house and drinking and ultimatly gettnig drunk.
JMEvengeance 1 month ago
theres something i don't get, what happend to your dick ?:O
Malganify 1 month ago
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4ester44 1 month ago
i honistly dont believe that someone gets raped 3 times in there life.. ur putting ur self in that situation.
JMEvengeance 1 month ago
@JMEvengeance don't say that. you don't know her story, okay? you don't know the FULL story. rape is terrible.
jayskova 1 month ago
What a difficult life..! I support you from italy honey.. :')
SesyNespa 1 month ago 2
prejudice everywhere. so sad. why can't we all just be who we want to be?!
sycomagnet 1 month ago
I don't comment much, but I just wanted to say that you really are beautiful. Your eyes are stunning. Thank you for telling your story.
NausiMouse 2 months ago
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I Think That You are absolutely beautiful.
shermanowney1971 2 months ago
Are you Buddhist?
SoapMacTavishism 2 months ago
@SoapMacTavishism I walk a path of Buddhism called the Bodhisattva path. Although I would say I follow doctrines of Buddhism, Taoism, Gnosticism, and Christianity. In the end all religions serve the same purpose, that is to develop unconditional love, and equanimity and to birth the soul.
ChristinaDream 2 months ago 2
@ChristinaDream "In the end all religions serve the same purpose, that is to develop unconditional love, and equanimity and to birth the soul." Beautiful, I agree with this. I am trans too (have not started hrt) but I adopted spirituality when i was young teenager. I was so lost. thanks to spirituality I learned how to go within and discover who I am. who we all are. and then I developed unconditional love for the entirety of existence. Thus, I found the end to my suffering.
enlightenmentation 3 weeks ago
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SoapMacTavishism 2 months ago
Wtf did you change... You were fckin hot at 18 as a boy. Now your a ugly girl. And you ain't fat
justinbsgirl1 2 months ago
hey beautiful girl.... it's sad too see how things get worse....
do not feel sad.... you are perfect on the outside, and you can work on the inside of you!
i'm at the start of your story..... i hope to look as good as you!
ferrarigirl666 2 months ago
You are absolutely beautiful... thank you for sharing your incredibly journey... what an incredibly strong woman you are - I have only admiration!
MetalManatee 2 months ago
you are beautiful
leesh924 2 months ago
I really like the story of your life on your vid, thanks for share these things. By the way I love the song, can you give me the name? please. (sorry for my english I speak spanish).
rogasan1 2 months ago
Thank you very much for sharing your amazing story - a very, very brave thing to do. I admire your reslience through abuse, neglect and loneliness. It has touched me and I'm sure as it will many others (if not already). I want to wish you all the best of your journey (& you look gorgeous btw) X
Crezism 2 months ago
Can't believe your parents kicked you out, I hope they die...
Kanoki989 2 months ago 3
@Kanoki989 You know at one point, I wished death upon my parents. But now 2 years later my view on this has reversed entirely. I love them and they love me. :)
ChristinaDream 2 months ago 7
@ChristinaDream I hope they die too. A slow and painful death for putting you through that! Good luck and best wishes for the future.
Tanzanite800 2 weeks ago
im 16 i came out to my mother and my aunt(i was very drunk) my family is very accepting i love them alot i haven't come out to my dad yet i know he wont be affected by it but i think i should keep it of a little bit longer i want to go to my doctor since their is no one else to go to but i cant get the courage i feel like im sick to my stomach all the time because im the cowardly lion i just want to i dont know what to do sorry for going on about it and thanks
type2moo 2 months ago
Thats cool but why did you decide to transition?
nholt 2 months ago
Maybe if you wouldhave just stayed a man you wouldn't have had all that sh*t,
nholt 2 months ago
@nholt haha! Yeah, I wouldn't have had any problems, but it was through these problems that I am now making something of my life, we shall see what I am up to when I am able to get access to a camera to make a video.
ChristinaDream 2 months ago
@nholt You know I put MFs like you down for breakfast. I am also a mtf and have been in transition for a couple months. I am a former US Air Force Major with lots of combat experience in Iraq and Afghanistan. If someone attacks me I will kill them just from survival instinct.
ChristinaDream keep going! You're a strong woman and have a strong spirit. You found your inner strength which is great! Stories like yours inspire me.
Afaye03 2 months ago
@nholt you do know that not transitioning leads a lot of trans people to suicide right? That's like trying to force a gay person to be straight.
Chris188228 1 month ago
You're a beautiful woman. I hope one day to be as beautiful as you. There is no difference between ftm and mtf when it comes to beauty, but you, ma'am, are a beautiful woman, and I hope for one day the world to see that and be as beautiful as you.
SuperJohnwall1 2 months ago
You are a beautiful girl and more importantly a beautiful person no matter what others say or do. Remain strong and know you are loved...
mdcausey 2 months ago
I feel woried for you now even though I dont know you!!! Please stay out of the gutter :( its hard to get out of.
Hannahyoung1666 2 months ago
Im a 3 month FtM and my first week I came.out to my friends I lost several, week 6 I came out to my family and was disowned. But your story...made me cry. And I have fallen down the road I wish I hadnt in these 3 months...
xxkaigejudasxx 2 months ago
plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz song name
besho587 3 months ago
@besho587 it is the Medicine Buddha Mantra. Tayatha om Bekanze Bekanze maha Bekanze Randa samugathe soha
ChristinaDream 3 months ago
what is the song name ?
besho587 3 months ago
I appreciate that you have posted your story up here for others to see (especially those going through similar stories) and I wish only the best for you. Thank you. Namaste.
hippyxwoman 3 months ago
Hey, how are you? I hope you are doing fine. Find peace and light as what it was stated on the last slide! Take care! :D
metoo1018 3 months ago
HI Christina! Thank you so much for sharing your life with me! You truly are an inspiration!!! you are soooo pretty<3<3 Im 21 and just told my therapist and thats the biggest step ive taken and I cant wait to see what is in store for me in my future and I know if you can go thru all those hardships I know I can make me, me. Much love Jessica<3
backdraftl49 3 months ago
I hope you only get get stronger, you're beautiful. And I have so much respect and admiration for the transgender community. You're a perfect example of strength. No matter what obstacles and discouraging encounters you face, you continue to triumph.
Pipsqueak40 3 months ago
Wow, this person below is messed up, nomatter what, no one deserves ill things to happen to them. If your really religeous, youd realize you need to reread the bible a few times, and not twist it to be used for hate
sinl0rd 3 months ago
Omg this is so sad :(! The music, the pictures & your story almost made me cry ):! I feel so sorry for what you have gone through, and that your parents threw you out >:O!
But in the end of the video, you sorted your life out, got a nice friend, and I am so happy for you :D!!!!!!!!
I still haven't told my parents anything, but I think my mother knows.. I kinda didn't get my mascara off once, and another time i didn't properly take off lipstick, and she asked why my lips were so red. IRanToMyRoom
FasStudio 3 months ago
really stupid, If you think your Fat Then Go to the Gym & get some physical Excercise. Its just so stupid when People complain they are fat but all they do is Sit down All day. Nothing IS FOR FREE, Everything is Work. That is the reality of life, the weak get eaten.
animalkindness 3 months ago
you are so beautiful and strong don't let anyone tell you otherwise :) sky sounds like an awesome friend wish you both all the best
butterflygirl619 3 months ago
You're freaking gorgeous. Just saying :)
Don't let people take that from you with shallow words.
DominicMLuciano 3 months ago
I wish the best of luck to you and may u live long and prosper.
TrojanGuy2010 3 months ago
Wow sounds like you had a bad life in the begining :(
il0vep0neys 3 months ago
Was she playing runescape at 1:05?!
il0vep0neys 3 months ago
well. I just cant get it...Until 18 you were a boy, u had a girlfriend and suddenly - baaam,something happened...and u get all the time "raped"... Don't get me, i respect you , you must be very brave to do this. What changed ? I mean...yeah....
smokcho 3 months ago
You are so beautiful..People like you inspired me...
javilazos09 3 months ago
Ive always been a girl inside but im stuck in a boys body I told my mum but then i chickend out of going to a counceler and said i was over it.. :/ Please reply someone
TheConnor990 3 months ago
@TheConnor990 honey, im exactly like you. im a girl trapped in a male body, and i hate it. I just started high school, i found some friends that encouraged me enough to finally tell my mother about being transgendered. we never talk about it, unfortunately, but i keep going on and on through good friends and people like ChristianDream who put their story on youtube. of course, im not very open about being a trans because my father doesnt know and id be ridiculed more so than i am now....
Kibibobo57101 3 months ago
@TheConnor990 since i live in a very narrowminded town. anyways, i went to a counselor and was able to tell her about everything, and she sat there and listened, and smiled. She somehow knew what i was going through. do you wanna know how helpful a counselor is? i went there ONCE and i havent been depressed in more than half a year. i encourage you to go, and if not, then go to a website called Laura's Playground. theres a chat room where you can talk to people just like us...
Kibibobo57101 3 months ago
@TheConnor990 and, of course, you can message me anytime if you ever need to talk :)
Kibibobo57101 3 months ago
@Kibibobo57101 :) Awh Thanx :33
TheConnor990 3 months ago
There is beauty in everything. The perfection of nature is its imperfection.
overcominginertia 4 months ago 8
Just stay strong and your strength will guide you through all hard and unlucky situations! If you really belive you are a valuable and beautiful girl (that is so ;)) then you can go on much easier! Have fun and try to forget all the bad things happened, just remember the happy memories! Cheers, Endre
HrWargoblin 4 months ago
Christina, don't let people get you down. When things are hard, or easy for that matter, please don't forget that you are a very beautiful girl. Thank you for sharing your transition with me.
stephaniecline222 4 months ago
I have watched this video and I admire your story -- however I was alarmed to see you substitute the word RAPE with REGRETTABLE SEX. How does someone get YOU drunk anyway? Aren't you the one drinking?
TheGreatToopi 4 months ago
@TheGreatToopi Yes. I had never touched a drop of alcohol in my life before, and it turns out that I have alcoholism problems that seem to be genetic. I liked the buzz and so he bought more liquor for me to drink up. And then I got so drunk, since I had never been before I didn't know what to expect. I did not substitute the word RAPE. I WAS raped. I did not consent I blacked out.
ChristinaDream 4 months ago 5
Subscribe superdrag101 love yahoo :)
Fam0usAlm0st 4 months ago
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I am so sad when I see a comment which is derogatory due to the reader missing what you say and write in the video; I guessed most of what you had to explain explicitly in th long comment 5months back. I have seen most of your videos and now this again. It is deeply touching. I cannot say but repeat tucker129: After watching this, I just want to give you a hug.
lexadlanod 4 months ago
You have one of the prettiest eyes i've ever seen
LostInTransitionx84 4 months ago
Dam you look nice :D
1612greek 4 months ago
this vid made me sad *HUGS* @ ChristinaDream
saffron99 4 months ago
Girl, you are fucking perfect. I wish all still be improving.
HEEMQUA 4 months ago
Sweet little princess, you ARE special to me, are special to God, and special to many other people, whatever happen, wherever you go, dont forget about this, even when we think we are alone, we arent. Every new morning is a blessing, every day we have 86.400 seconds, are 86.400 chances to do something good, to make good decisions, to see someone we love smiling, to smell a rose, to taste a cake, to kiss someone, to do what we want. Dont spend any precious second because all they are special
DanniOliveira28 4 months ago
you are so beautiful :) i hope you find love and happiness after all you've been through, you definitely deserve it.
ButtMonger801 4 months ago
hey......i dont have eny friends to talk to about this but your vidio really helpt me and wonderd if you had eny advise cus im clueless
xxFULLMETALLxAPOLLOx 4 months ago
props to you u are a inspiration . hi all im transgender to funny story i was walking down the street and this hell religious dude over herd me and my best friends conversation and he went off so fuuny then my best friend sed witch i thort was funny there is no god there is only CHUCK NORIS. XD LOVE U PAIGE SISTER FOR LIFE
TGtaylor17 4 months ago
I don't understand why anyone would change their gender. I mean if I were born a female I would just be a lesbian.
XSoulStormX 4 months ago
@XSoulStormX
Its way deeper than that
KTevolved 4 months ago
This is the most emotive transition video I've ever seen. Thanks for sharing. :)
AWinterDemise 4 months ago
this story wanted me to give you a hug crying it must have been realy had in the down times but im glad you over came it ^-^ I LOVE YOU FOR THAT & ile sub :) cuz ur amazing
MTFAmyLee 4 months ago
your story is very touching.
UtimateGuyver 4 months ago
hi Christina, im not a transperson, but i have to say i know where your comming from! on the rape issue, i was raped myself. many people dont know what its like until it happens to them. you are definitly a soilder making it this far! much credit to you.
MsSMSgirl 5 months ago
I can't even picture what that must have been like to go through, but I'm glad that you are doing better, Christina...stay strong; things WILL only get better from here!! =)
jengirrl 5 months ago
Amazing, ^_^
wabuuic 5 months ago
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I see youve been through so much in your life, makes mine look like cake walk :/ for what its worth im sorry. But the measure of your strength is not what you go through, its how you grow from it. I am at the very beginning of my transition, im seeing a coucelor but I havent started hrt yet. I cant wait!!!! Im literally climbing the walls. Please write me if you can, I would love to have a friend whose been there. Jpfeatherston82@gmail.com
jpfeatherston83 5 months ago
So you got raped like 4-5 times :l and you're still not using a weapon on yourself ?
MrKalec3000 5 months ago
you should always have your hair up, you look much much better
roggy12345 5 months ago
Im sorry you had to go through so much abuse. What you went through is what I feared my whole life until now. You show amazing strength to be who you are in spite of all that has happened. And that is inspiration to all us who didn't have the strength... before. :)
g8rain 5 months ago
I just watched your sad video! A. you are not fat!
B. Seattle is tranzfriendly. Have a nice day
Thanks Lia
pozzimystic 5 months ago
transition sucks until you compare it to a coffin!
pozzimystic 5 months ago
Never give up I was wair you where and worse if you ever need a friend to talk to let me know, never forget you are beautiful
akm5683 5 months ago
Both you and your story are beautiful. i only wish i could have as much courage as you.
overlordcacius 5 months ago
Ok I'm not hating but... Why in the world did u wanna become a girl? I mean, iv always wanted to try for a day, but still... God made a Male. He loved you as a male. Why'd u change?
cn4hokies 5 months ago
You are so beautiful, keep doing things right, you look amazing
tgirllauraandrea 5 months ago
Oh, and grats to 11 months on hormones. Seems like we share the same month time for the 1-year on hormones part :o (On October 20th, 1 year on hormones).
Zeithri 5 months ago
Seem like a weak person. Who cares what people say about you, you need to get thicker skin.. and you keep getting raped.. what the fuck... grow a pair and fight back.
631Whatsgood 5 months ago
One of my personal "theme songs" is (Never Let The Bastards)"Grind Ya Down" by Motorhead. Take it to heart sweety.Just remember,anyone who is not for you,is AGAINST YOU. You have to make YOU HAPPY. Forget everyone else.It's too late for me,but,great luck in your transition. Blessed Be+Merry Meet. Much love from Ohio.
Vampirebear13 5 months ago
You are so strong -- keep your head up!
ocnitemare 5 months ago
@nlspe Does it really matter to anyone else what makes sense to you? And what right do you have to ask for an explaination -- really, who are you? I am certain the person in this video is so many million times stronger and braver than . If you just want to be an jerk, go away.
ocnitemare 5 months ago
THINGS GONE GET WORSE HUNNY IF U TAKE THAT PROGESTERONE...OOOOO GIRL THAT SHIT HAS ME CRYING LIKE CRAZY
jamielivefree 5 months ago
Amazing video, the most emotive one I've seen about transitions... let me tell u, ur so beautiful... even more than most of my naturally-female friends. Cheer up!! u really deserve to be happy!!
alastorskye 5 months ago
@nlspe pansexual means that you don't care about the gender of your couple, not yourself's
alastorskye 5 months ago
0:12 Oh my fucking god those eyes. <3
Conchobhar 6 months ago
You look gorgeous and you are perfect. Do not let anyone tell you any different. xo
paganpixieprincess 6 months ago
you've had a real rough time- much love to you
MrSkinnycrab 6 months ago
Love that song.
Annie4Bandit 6 months ago
Soothing~ what song?
kerayzey 6 months ago
the things you have endured, ti amo, Benedetto, may the goddess watch you on your path, and may light and fortune find you in all things, know you are loved by many, and that love shields from all forms of hate, Blessed Be.
kelrosenovel 6 months ago
Yuo are so pryty
leo15890 6 months ago
Wow me and my wife watched this video and we both though you r really one of the most beautiful women we have ever seen .... U should be a model
kokomaks 6 months ago
Omg you're a beautiful......I'm glad you're doing better :)
93luv2sing 6 months ago
@pastorkwameasare: You're an idiot and sadly no amount of worshiping your imaginary deity will change that!
@ChristinaDream: You're a beautiful girl ... don't let the morons tell you otherwise
Lilifer666 9 months ago
I meant your soul didnt get' trans'.
pastorkwameasare 9 months ago
@pastorkwameasare You are right, it didn't "get trans" my soul has always been female :)
ChristinaDream 6 months ago 11
@ChristinaDream I can see you have been through a lot, but you are amazingly beautiful. Keep up the GOOD work and forget about the BAD things. YOU CA DO IT!
If I could, I would be by your side to help you be a great person and beautiful girl.
peace and love
luiztobu 5 months ago
@ChristinaDream what now ? is everything better for you ? I really hope sun is finally shining for you Cheers from France :)
cotelette73 4 months ago
@ChristinaDream man u need some deliverance,heard abt our body is a temple for God before? Jesus loves u dont sell your soul to satan by apostasy. ..female genital has 2 holes, the one u missing is the one to the womb u can't deny the truth u feel u are a man within. if not for prostitution, why would a man become a woman? hence the answer to your 'rape'.
pastorkwameasare 3 months ago
@pastorkwameasare Take your preaching somewhere else. Why do people have to be so god damn pushy? If you don't like what's in the video, go somewhere else. If you have nothing positive to say, DON'T SAY IT.
YouGoGlenCoc0 3 months ago
@YouGoGlenCoc0 look,man, i'm here to help u out.sometimes life can be very confusing which makes us do things way extreme but God still loves sinners(for all have sinned) and there is help for us.we can have private talk thru' email which will restore your inner man. people get too busy ignoring God which makes them lose their guard against death and make their hell certain. u are not condemned, there is hope!
pastorkwameasare 3 months ago
@pastorkwameasare Look, would you like it if a bunch of people from another religion busted into your church and told you everything you believed in was wrong, and you were going to hell if you didn't change your mind? No? Yeah. Go away. Stop pushing your shitty religious speak down other people's throats. You're so ignorant. Put down your bible and read something more educational. Thanks x
YouGoGlenCoc0 3 months ago
@YouGoGlenCoc0 Dear one, when we use angry words to try to put someone in their place, we escalate hate. Since we as human beings have the same core essence thus meaning that aside from personality and ego we are essentially equal (equanimity) we are creating dis-virtue that does will only perpetuate the cycle's strength. Lets take a breath and calm our minds. And find bliss in loving kindness and compassion.
ChristinaDream 3 months ago
@ChristinaDream Ahhh, it's just so frustrating. >___<
YouGoGlenCoc0 3 months ago
@YouGoGlenCoc0 I appreciate the kindness behind your action, the intention to try to end the suffering... however, dear one, I have grown up significantly from when all these videos were posted and I don't want to see you suffer by creating bad karma :)
ChristinaDream 3 months ago
Idiot! Did u get your fingers done?look @ them! Still male. Oh, your ass hole is still higher than a woman.shame u cant admit u r STILL a man, your will ever be a man, loser.
pastorkwameasare 9 months ago
Ill see if I can answer you all in one post. Song is called "Medicine Buddha Mantra" ... I never identified as "gay" I was never a gay male. I am "pansexual" meaning gender and sex does not matter to me. I thought I was fat because perception is distorted by an eating disorder. I will not discuss my relationship with my girlfriend sorry, boundaries. And to adequately answer the rest of the questions I need to make a new video. Keep your eyes peeled. There answered you all in one post. xD
ChristinaDream 9 months ago
I dont like transexuality, but im not a hater, but your determination has amazed me and reminds me how much willpower and determination the human race has as a whole. you my friend have a lot of determination in you.
MinecraftCreeperFTW 9 months ago
tears running over my face!
skulliemullie1234567 9 months ago
wow! thanks for sharing your amazing story! peace and light!
belovedi24 9 months ago
wtf how the Hll does people think she is fat!?!?!?
DarkAngels1600 9 months ago
do u have sex with ur gf before the transition
skorbox 9 months ago
Such a moving video. Can anyone tell me the name of the song playing in the video?
JustineHayx 9 months ago
It is very moving to see the change from the beginning of the video to the woman you are now. The story of how you got there was even moreso, and I actually feel really happy for you and where you've reached. Seeing your transition has given me hope for my future.
Jimmy31428 9 months ago
This video brought tears to my eyes as it's something that's quite close to me, being transgender myself. I've only recently come out to it and luckily, I have a friend who understands and supports me, although I'm only in a cross-dressing phase at the moment. What's upsetting though is that even though my mother is heavily under the impression that I'm gay, she seemed to think it was a joke when I mentioned transgender. I haven't said anything since then, and won't until I gain confidence.
Jimmy31428 9 months ago
@Jimmy31428 I'm confused why is it when someone come says that they are transgender, people fall under the impression that that person is gay. I mean no disrespect towards you or your mother, I'm just curious.
DemonicRayquaza 9 months ago
@DemonicRayquaza Perhaps because gay men come off as far more effeminate than straight ones, so the mix-up is rather easy to make without clarification. Particularly as there is far more awareness for homosexuality than there is transexuality.
Jimmy31428 9 months ago
@Jimmy31428 Thanks for the explanation, it sad that some can just up and assume a person's sexuality just because they dress a certain way. I hope you be able to find the confidence to talk about it with your mom.
DemonicRayquaza 9 months ago
Wow.. You're not fat Christina. Stay strong.
xSkullCandYx1 9 months ago