I have the same... i understand how it feels... but i'm to afraid to show my thougths and feelings..so i also keep lying at first... right now each in a bit i talk a bit more, everyday is another fight.
I'm 15, my doctor diagnosed bipolar disorder about 2 years ago. I was doing pretty good with the medication and at my moms. Then, I moved across the country to live with my dad. He thinks he's smarter than the doctor. He doesn't think I need any help. I do. I really do. He took all my medication away. It's gotten so worse since then. I began cutting. I'm so desperate for help...I even told him about the cuts. He still won't help me...:'(
It is a frightening and lonely life. A sense of humor helps. I was sent to a psychiatrist long ago after a suicide attempt. He told me that writing was the best therapy for me and it certainly helps when I am not too severly depressed. I once knew a few years of mental stability when I received Divine assistance but I got selfish and lost somehow. Alan Watts videos here on youtube are helpful. I find him more honest than many religious leaders when it comes to spiritual truths. Peace to you all.
i am sory to feel your pain i am going thre simmilar stuff but they cant seem to find the right meds i hate this life and hope that yours gets better but i dont have much for mine
Sometimes i go around the house jumping around kickind doors and anoying the sit out of my mother im reckless then an hour later im low and always thinking
its hard to deal with these illness espcially when you have people agsint you its soo hard to be postive and stay in school but i cant fucking take it i need to stop my mind from playing tricks on me!!!!
while there are only a few classifications of bipolar disorder, its effects and how it effects each individual can differ hugely, and there are a lot of variables that can effect each person so to those who are currently conquering there symptoms stop belittling those who are struggling in there battle... but great video mate.and great choice of music, id forgotten how much i like limp bizkit,i didnt know of angels and airwaves till seeing this video.there song suits the mood of the video
theres someting wrong with me... Im like fucked up...some days i feel helpless, hopeless,everyting seems pointless and getting out of bed is hard of fuck... then i get freak outs... i go crazy i lock myself into the bathroom and scream cry and cut my arm... the pain is so real and it wont go away it just wont! other days im hyper and super happy for no reason... i talk too much and too fast i do stupid things without thinking... im 15... idk wtf is wrong with me.... i just wanna b normal... :(
It's ironic that I feel as though my medication is the main source of my stress, my anxiety, my depression... I don't get manic episodes. I'm either neutral or down. I'm sure if I wasn't on all of this medication that I would be normal, like I was before everything went wrong. I know why I felt suicidal at that time -I know myself now. I know I wont let it go that far again. But with medication I feel like I cant trust myself, cant control myself -like the medication is working against me. I
@KayTeeDolly I had a fight with my psychiatrist recently, told her that I was tired of drinking so many meds -she told me to leave them and go kill myself, that I either do what she says or there's no hope for me. I don't want to go back to her. She was supposedly the best. My meds make me feel sick, always. I never know whether what I am feeling is merely a side effect of one of the many pills I have to take. I'm on: Edronax; Concerta; Lamictam; Serlife; Seroquel; Wellbutrin...
I have tried to get help and I am doing my best to communicate all that is going on with me. But for some reason I give out the impression I am playing games and lying and I end up leaving with the impression that none of these medical people take me seriously at all. How can I really help mylelf when I have taken the steps to do so and just get "stonewalled"?
more power to you for creating & posting this. i too have bipolar & also boderline personality disorder & identify with soo much of what uv written. am about to watch ur second video & hope things r improving for u. xxx
life is what you make it. But sometimes however this thing works, it takes over the body and you lose control of rational thought. I like to think that I'm just an average normal person. But I have times, days of not being able to keep up with my thoughts and feeling so confident that anythjing is possible. but then other weeks where I feel so low for no reason, that I feel like I've never been happy and nothing can snap me out of it. I am so lucky to have an understanding partner who loves me
I found this video whilst researching for my art project im doing and i find it amazing. i was nearly crying watching it and the music you chose to go with it was stunning. never feel alone because your not, so many people in the world know how your feeling. thankyou for a stunning video and helping me understand what its really like.
OMG OMG OMG im 15 and have bi polar just been diagnosed!!! but u guys are all stupid u al thinkl oh im bi polar my lfie is shit.. im bi polar and dotn give fucking crap ya sumtimes i get depressed.. but when im manic i get so hyped up its amazing!!!!!!!!111
@Octophobia If you really WANT to go on living a normal/awesome life, you first have to admit to yourself that THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU. (That's the biggest part, the KEY: you have to WANT it.) I don't give a shit if you've been medically classified as having "bipolar disorder," ask yourself a simple question: Are there other bipolar people who've gotten over it? (more SPOLIERZ: the answer is yes.) There, you have no excuse to not be awesome. Go do it or I'll slap you upside the head.
@Octophobia ...real answer is so stupid you probably won't believe me. And that's fine, don't believe me and go on feeling like shit and like "there's something with me" forever. (SPOLIERS: there's nothing wrong with you.)
1. EXERCISE 2. NUTRITION 3. SLEEP. Physical activity and proper nutrition are the best mood-stabilizers out there, because its your body doing it and not some drug. (Psst!: drugs only fuck up your emotions more) The best cure for depression? WALKING, I kid you not. Look it up
@Octophobia You are the biggest little bitch I have ever seen. You honestly believe that EVERY example of that shit (except for TBI) is not a normal part of growing up? I went through the EXACT same shit you did: depression/mania cycles, isolating from friends, cutting, acting out, AND eating. You think I still have those "problems"? No. Because I've GROWN UP. I'm 19 now, and I don't sympathize with you at all, because I remember clearly feeling the exact way you do now. Honestly, the...
thank u 4 this video it hit home with me 4 sure theyve been doing the same thing with my meds 4 over 10 years now n luckily i havent done anything 2 harm myself but i mean idk somtimes ya lifes hard n its not made 4 people with out problems so we gotta get help i guess and i am 2morrow so wish me luck n i wish u the best n the future as well and im glad theres others out there that arent ashamed of there flaws this helped me feel a lil better but ill crash soon errrrrr thanx again best wishes 4u
Omg it's like reading my life story that was never told to anyone before. I have been in a manic episode for almost a week now. It gets worse each day. Thank you for sharing this with us. It means a lot to know I am not alone. I cried through the whole thing. It kills me that there is no cure for people with our disorder. Thanks again for sharing.
@sunshinefairy33 there is a cure... but it is not a desirable one... it makes you mellow in general forever.. some lithium treatment that my uncle was considering.
Thanks for the video and sharing your thoughts with us! I know it is hard, I have gone through it too! It does help to hear someone elses story. Please take care of yourself my friend ,perhaps one day I can have the courage to share mine. Take care..Cathy
I was beginning to think I was the worst one because I rapid cycle every week sometimes hours, days, seconds, hell I don't even bother to keep track anymore. I recently came out of the crisis unit after giving my family plans for death and was perfectly fine with it because this sux trying to fix, very frustrating! I am now doing somewhat better, I don't think it will ever be normal and the only reason I even care to live is for my family, otherwise it would be done. Take care of yourself!
bipolar is a scientific fact but jesus is not, go ahead and wait around for jesus but i will go where i can get "real" help. if god is out there then its his fault we are this way anyway.
@jrreasons Thank you for making that point. I'm bipolar 1 and if someone walked up to me and told me to drop the meds and seek god I would tell them to take meds. "Failing liver? No need for a transplant just pray about it! Need a quadruple bypass? No need for surgery just pray about it!"
This sounds so familiar to me. I always have to "control' something.
If life is hard for a while i try to find a way to cope, by cleaning excessively, or i will drink alcohol wich makes things worse. And also i recognize the eating pattern.
Even suiside comes to mind frequently, wich scares me so bad! Prozac .... they cave it to me for 9 years! I stopped taking them when i read on the i-net what it really does to your already messed up mind. Next thing is EMDR therapy. I don't know. ill try
The creator has blessed us with intelligence. For example, the ability to educate ourselves, do research upon, and invent medications for mental illness.
Wow, life is a journey; ups and downs! We suffer at times, but in Christ there is Joy and Peace for us! Jesus loves you, and you are a overcomer and a brave person! Freedom for YOU was Jesus's passion when he died on the cross!
A very touching video, the emotions really come through. I've been through a very similar situation-suffering in silence since I was about 12, 13, and at 18 developed first anorexia then bulimia... Now it's mostly under control, just recently started on Lamictal, but I've been feeling a lot more stable, not falling into depressions for the last 3 weeks (I'm very very rapid cycling) the last 6 months, therapy and meds are How is it going for you now? Wish you the best!! And keep going!!
I feel you all this disease has barley left me able to leave my house. I'm just so afraid i'm going to jump in front of a car or something . NO joke i just can't cope and medicines make it worse.
omgoodness this is so sad! I have bipolar II with psychotic features. I stay depressed. I rarely have a manic episode unless I'm very mad then i do or say things I shouldn't. I LOVE this video, it's informational and shows people what it's like to be bipolar, adjusting meds, and cutting (I'm an ex-cutter, 2 years!). You keep on and stay alive. I hate to sound like a "Jesus freak" but pray to GOD and HE can help you. With HIM, nothing is impossible. I'll pray for you too.
wow there was a part there were I thought you were taking about me no wonder I was sent to a shrink like thrice and I guess this time I won't say I don't need that guy cause maybe I do
Psychotherapy my friend, is most importat thing, drugs ARE necessary, but just to make you stable in place, psychoterapy is needed for any progress toward functional normal state and feeling of wellbeing.
Robbie - tell that to your Doctor, not youtube people. Cutting isn't limited to BPD - it could be a problem with expressing emotions. Have a chat with someone that knows about the problem.
I have Hypomania and I used to cut . That was only a symptom. Hell, I nearly killed myself by taking the car out for a fly when I was on a hyper...
its as though you shared my life and experiences when you shared yours. i was crying by the end of it- things that i hadnt even considered as being "abnormal" - like when i beat up a friend at age 13 with little reason, the anger, cutting, obsession with food and exercise, and how my grades declined around the same time as yours and i move from one extreme to another, one hobby to another, one partner to another, optimistic to suicidal in a heartbeat. thank u for sharing i hope u find peace xxx
this video is absolutely brilliant and i truely admire your courage. Don't stop trying... This is helpful information and you are helping a lot of people feel less crazy. All the best.
hey i gots a question when u said u first tried to kill yourself what did u do? :( and im 13 and i saw stuff about bipolar disorder and i have like all the symptoms?
This is so sad, I have been told that I was "drinking" or high on drugs and knowing that I was not! Miss-information by family members, and friends, the most destructive, even more so than the dissorder it's self.
thank you for this video, now i feel in some way not that alone in my illness. its hard for people who dont have it to understand why your moods can change in an instant. my bi polar illness is a constant struggle for me. i dont know what mood i will be in tommorrow or even an hour from now. its a lifelong struggle....
Your life sounds so like mine... although i've never been diagnised as bipolar or anything... the one time i asked for help, i was just told i was attention seeking
i dont think i have bipolar, but i definitely have depressive symptoms every other two years, it goes on mildly (depressed) for two years, then i usually have elevated mood for a year after that, mixed with elevated mood and normal mood, and then mildly depressed again. im prety sure i have dysthimia. (mild depression)... the cycles are close to this, but milder. so it doesnt effect my functioning but it is as bad as this :(
I am sure I am bipolar its just that people dont believe me. They keep telling me its the teenage stuff when I know its NOT teenage stuff. Ive had the symptoms since I was 9. People are idiots who live in denial...
This is a very serious disorder and killing yourself will cause you to lose the battle. Show people and this disorder that it is achievable and you can strive to help calm some of the symptoms. Please whatever you do, DON'T GIVE UP! There are people all around you who care and want the best and are willing to help. Stay strong!
I have irrational ideas about my future aswell, but those irrational thoughts stick with me as if I want those things to actually come true just how I think them in my mind and if I forget how I wanted those events to be I become extremely enraged with myself. ohwell theres nothing I can do or any therapist can do for me because my whole mind is sick and twisted.
i think i have bipolar disorder. my mother is bipolar but it isn't severe enough to mess up relationships with family and friends. But I fear that if i have bipolar it is way worse than hers.
I've talked her about it but for some reason she won't let me get checked out
Im 15 and im more emotional then ever. im losing my friends
Im 41/s/w/m i can relate, I have everything,,swings,,,brilliant ideas,,,HA! il talk meds w/ you just get me on here and talk im VERY cool. Peter ex-stockbroker
I have lived with Bipolar for 38 years, it was hard. I just thought I was crazy for years. It wasnt until I was given a diagnosis and accepted it that I could control most of it and tolerate myself. I was told I was opressed by the devil before, but that is not so. It is an illness just as any other. Dont ever give up, remember there are people out here that are going through the same thing.
Enjoy your mania and depressive states as best you can. If that happens, then you gain a certain control over them. I've had slight cases of hypomania and depressive states since as long as I can remember -- though not this bad.. but i always enjoyed when I got mania. And the amazing thoughts and consciousness I perceived when I had mania and elevation of thoughts and mind, helped me to control the other part.
I remember when i had this problem i was 11 ... i needed help , i couldnt help but self cut myself .... I felt as if it was the only way to get over my feelings ... but once i got help it changed my life , back then i would cut , wear black all the time, hurt people and animals.. but now im a whole different person im happy , im a happy child , i wear colors , colorful one's , i like my life , i stopped cutting :] .if anyone has this problem of hurting yourself anyway please get help fast
Been there.. I carved the word " Pain" into my arm.. That's my type of humor.. very sarcastic and ironic. Anyways it sucks to be bipolar but it's not impossible to deal with it. But it takes a strong person to keep going.
Hah your worse than me im 23 i use drugs alcohol and mix sometimes too. Sometimes I feel bad that i sit with a blade to my wrist trying to sink it but get disturbed and lukily not seen. I was told I seem to suffer from Moderate depression, this is just as bad as I can cycle quite fast through it and i never really feel myself.... ONly once a month i might get hints of normality feeling at one and happy and as I used to... I know my time isnt long for this world.
Don't kill yourself! Jesus christ bro! The best revenge against people that have hurt you is to be happy. Fuck ignorant people. And if you kill yourself you'll hurt alot of people. Have you tried meds? A good natural med is working out. It HELPS ME alot.. seriously.. plus if you keep at it your self esteem will improve.
I'm in the UK. Contact me on my page if you need help - I know hwo to get it. I'm bipolar, my friend has schizoaffective disorder. We've figured out how to get attention.
@FoxxNightingale you can mail me if u like ...all I can offer is support and my experiences through life. I am a 38 year old mother of 5 and it took me many years to come to grips with it. You will be fine, hang in there.
@FoxxNightingale hey foxx cherr up i have the same thing i alwayz get in trouble for sleeping and i am hyper also depressed at times and i feel sex drive ( self ejaculation) but it waz so wierd when i saw this becuz it waz all me but u can change by bieliving in yourself that you can do it good luck =D
Nice to meet you. I have bipolar type I with psychosis. your story resonated with me. I am a recovering cutter. Have not cut in years, you can recover from this but it takes time, be patient. sometimes relapses happen. Your video is wonderful, I hope it helps million of people! Meds and therapy are useful. I am sorry for what you have been through, been there. I got sick at 23 in the Navy. But the signs were there much earlier but like you nobody saw them. hang in there. hugs.
your story is almost exactly like mine. But as I sit here and type I am in a depression, last month I was going to be a CEO and a huge financial success, then I was mixed and now at a low. I used to get help but the strain of this has pushed everyone away. This includes my Mother and Father it will soon ruin my relationship. I don't know where to turn but even worse I am not sure if I want to turn to anyone to get help this time. It just might be the end. But tomorrow might be a manic saturday
to spamtard: wow what an asshole: I hope nobody you love comes down with this dreaded illness: at least it made me feel something for the person experiencing what this child went though: spam tard get a grip on relitity go and visit a mental faculity it will change you mind : watch the homeless people around you and see how many are talking to themselves; you are a real tard
Abdall- People like you cause the deaths of many people like us. Tell a diabetic they need Jesus and not insulin and see if you don't kill them too. If you have an imbalance you usually need Lithium IT SAVED ME. Jesus helps too of course, but when I am angry and question him, lithium is there to catch me.
@Valalacra do i need a prescription to get lithium? I have bipolar epsidoes and its getting worse, i am unhappy with whatever i am doing and have to change everything. It is a pattern i cannot stop. I dont get angry as much at people as myself for not having the ability to control it when i know it is coming and can''t avoid it.
@Valalacra What a response! Yes, who ever read and reply should be careful about what they say... Unfortunately for some "d'un ane on en fera pas un cheval de course"...
Which translates like "From a Monkey one cannot become a racing horse"....
@Valalacra I was on lithium and prozac 7 yrs. D/Cd to have baby. research said lithium may not work 2nd X around as well w/ yrs of use it can poison your body so I've been on Lamictal my "miracle pill" w/o needing prozac too for 9 yrs! Gram almost died 3 yrs ago from poisoning! the dr turned his nose to my suggestion of lithium poisoning until I DEMANDED! Dr said my knowledge+ spit fire spirit (not backing down) saved her life! check your lithium levels monthly + talk to Dr about changing meds
@noooblover What a load of crap. I bet you've never even experienced what a manic depressive episode. You have no idea what its like. How dare you claim that Jesus will heal and solve it. Jesus wasn't there when I was born with the capability of developing this mental illness- and neither will he be there when science finds a cure for it through therapy and drugs. Go back to your fairytale land of make-believe men in the sky looking out for you.
@noooblover Feeling sorry for myself isn't what causes my depression. Its caused by a psychological condition which causes a sudden major rise and fall of serotonin. Its chemical and something I have no control or will over. Its debilitating and effects me every day of my life, but praying for some entity to suddenly heal me and make me better is going to fix nothing.
Telling someone just to believe in Jesus and that will fix them, whatever affliction they have is really dangerous.
@Alltheroadrunning that is not what i said.. i do use and trust in modern medicine, ive also seen cancer and the deaf hear again thru prayer... so i have reason to believe.. he also healed my nmind. in total i have around 5 people in my family suffering from manic depression bi polar disorder. I know a lil somthing ok... all im saying is it possible
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blah blah blah, I got 4 minutes and I can not read anymore. Everybody is bipolar now a days. Well, shit happens and we are emotional human beings. This is a good thing, not a bad thing. The best thing to do is grow some testicles, even if you are a woman, and face up and fight for life. This, oh I am so sick I have a disease, pity party crap is the very reason you sissy's are truly sick. Only, its not bipolar disease, its called being a coward. Love to live life or roll over and die. Simple.
I think whatever you feel the person posting this post is... bipolar isnt what 'everyone' has.. and its hugely ignorant of you to say so. My dad had to be admited to hospital for being bipolar... and if you could meet someone bipolar you would know it is a mentally ill condition- it has various degrees. and bipolar- if you do have it.. is not a a light 'sadness' that you get balls and get over. it is something that starts controlling a persons life.
My dad isnt the same as this girl. but he is manic.. and bipolar sumtimes verges on schizofrenic. now if you dont believe that exists either and u just get over something that you cant control ur dillusional. infact sometimes they can find that you have a chemical imbalance in the brain that triggers it. so it can be 'scientific' get your facts right before making ignorant posts
I know there are crazy people that have all sorts of mental problems. My problem is the band wagon. We get a new term to describe something and next thing ya know, everybody has the disease and everybody has to take medication, when it may be nothing more than a simple human response to a particular situations. For example, if a guy loses his job and goes home and throws something against the wall, this is normal to me, pretty much. Not an imbalance. It is a reaction to events we all deal with.
no body knows...i dont have support...i cant even find a decent chat room...i just wish i could fucking find some one who fucking understands and will take the time to talk with me about how to deal...
My husband has bipolar two and he takes lamictal and calonapam and amblifiy and it has been working great for him! It also helps to have support people! Make sure that your closest family members get well educated on bi polar and how to deal with it. Good luck to you, and keep trying till you find what works for you.
holy shit i can't believe u had the diet thing I HAD!!!!! I couldn't stop working out or eating extremely healthy!!!!! i was obsessed about being perfect and better than everyone else!!!! it sucks
You're friend committed suicide? DAMN that sucks. I have bipolar disorder, and im 16. My mom has it as well, and I got put on accutane which has many risks for depresssion... I had no idea what i was getting into. Now, im violent, suicidal, all hope is lost, impatient, not happy about anything.
This video was posted a long time ago how are you doing now? I had two sicide attempts and several overdoses. My husband doesn't understand. A few months ago I was so depressed that I should have gone to hospital but my husband said that it wasn't a good time for me to go and leave him with our three kids.
thank you BUT what do you do when someone denies they are Manic. says they are fine.. they can be violent, compulsive, domineering, lying constantly, turning on those closest.they want full control.. cleaning house is manic.. you cant move an ornament or your screamed at.. they make up terrible lies.. they say I AM FINE, ITS YE HAVE PROBLEM.. I have had this for 13 years...i still have kids but they are to frightened to speak to her. i need ADVICE PLEASE.
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Quit trying to find a scientific term to label what it is you describe. The person is simply what is called an asshole. Its a personality problem, not a disease. Sounds to me like she wears the pants in the family and you wear the panties. Either fix her, and she does not want to be fixed, so no one can fix her, not that she really broken mind you, she is simply an asshole, leave her, or learn to live with it and do the best you can to make peace. Best way to treat an asshole is to ignore them.
maybe the best thing is to remind our selves that we are ok and that it is just a metabolic disorder that is making us believe that we are too happy or too said.
when we believe we are ill than the illness becomes less agonising automaticly.
Mouse. I have bi-polar 2 rapid cycling as it seems to me this girl is in the same place. Lithium DOES NOT work for our Bi polar at all! I just got full boby rashes and lost hair.
You should try marijuana u can get dependent on it but its better than all medications out there only if it were legal cause when i run out i just get irratable
I'v tried mrijuana, it helps whilst I'm on it but you cannot stay on it for ever. I have had a stroke probably because of the eating disorder. As of Oct '09 I am Totally depressed, oh and one more thing I am 45 yr's old in less than a week. Get it sorted as soon as possible, because it doesn't go away on its own. I'v been on mood stabilisers for over 5 yrs now.
I'm proud to be bipolar. Bipolar disorder give me a sense of reality that only a few people can achieve. OFC healthy persons will oppose this fact. We have the ability to look around from 2 very different perspectives so we can get a better idea of what is really going on. Although to achieve this perception you have to master the gift that has been given to you.
people with bipolar including me are destined to be alone i hate my illness its by far the worst thing that could ever happen to anyone. i have never felt so alone and scared. my girlfriend of 2 years just left me because she could no longer take the rapid mood changes i hate my life
i feel your pain, my girlfriend last year left me cause she couldnt take my mood swings as well... she said that i used bi polar as an excuse for everything, she said that she couldnt take me anymore... being bi polar is hard.... your not alone out there 8)
My god that must have been tough i dont have bipolar disorder ( i have enough to cope with with asperger syndrome ) but the video look so depressing and sad but you have to look by all of that and focus on somthing...good? or anything becase suicide (crossed my mind beleive it or not ..hope i wasnt seirious) shoudnt be the answer to it all.
Being bipolar is hard, and when you are not bipolar it is hard to get someone to research or care to research it in order to see what you see. I admire you for putting this out to the world. Just remember, one day you will have children and they will ask you what the scares are from. Stop cutting yourself. You are beautiful, and bipolar or not- life happends, and you can stop yourself from cutting.
Fool how can you say that, you wasn't there, also tell that to the doctors I have seen, becuase all the things that happen to me was in the bible, but they call it Bipolar Manic attack, been about 110 days with no Medications and I feel great, also info on my page that can help others, what are you doing to help? Other then being annoying and insulting me.
I didn't go to churchs, or read the Bible, but now I do and I am teaching poeple all ready...
i was diagnosed bipolar at a really young age and ive been all sorts of drugs since then. i dont think these drugs do much its all bullshit. ive never gone to do anything suicidal but i have been very depressed at times. but hey, look at the bright side. listen to some peaceful music, like zeppelin or bob dylan. its all in your mind and i find it not to hard to over come if you just think logically
how the fuck does one "attempt" a suicide, its not hard killing yourself... sry but it just pisses me off when i hear or see this, one must be very retarded if he cant kill himself...
Really? It's not really possible to do this, unless it is by some miracle. It's a life-long illness that one must live, manage, and learn to cope with.
I tell you the truth, you can call some of what happen to me a miracle...I tell you what angels feel like, also Jesus love thats called faith.Faith in side me changed my life and cured me...details on my page..I am not the only one...
Ide like to say Biolar has a cure but it dosent! Whatver you said cured you is just temperary.I dont mean to billitle your faith or belieif but jesus dident exsist.We are all on are own in this world of shit,I think people sometimes trick themselves into beliving in religion becasuse they cant cope anymore!
LOL look at my name do you realy think I had a religion or fiath in the lord before this happen? don't be foolish like I was, Look at my pass on youtube...
Bipolar disorder is a permanent illness. You might have a few "normal" years, but it will rear it's ugly head again sometime in the future. I went through the whole religious delusion experience, and even walked in to a church and got "saved" by Jesus. It made me feel good, but I still have Bipolar disorder. Jesus did not heal your Bipolar disorder either. The church wants you to believe that because they manipulate people, or don't know any better.
I don't doubt for a second you had religious dellusions. Please stop telling people that Jesus healed you because in essense, you're telling people that he loves you more than them, otherwise they would have been healed too.
I have the same... i understand how it feels... but i'm to afraid to show my thougths and feelings..so i also keep lying at first... right now each in a bit i talk a bit more, everyday is another fight.
xXAzusaChan 9 months ago
I can definitely relate to some parts of this.
ShotokanTigress 9 months ago
I hope you are better now. Thanks for sharing. Please keep fighting to get and stay well.
bernetta88 9 months ago
I feel as if I'm reading my life story in a way.
I'm 15, my doctor diagnosed bipolar disorder about 2 years ago. I was doing pretty good with the medication and at my moms. Then, I moved across the country to live with my dad. He thinks he's smarter than the doctor. He doesn't think I need any help. I do. I really do. He took all my medication away. It's gotten so worse since then. I began cutting. I'm so desperate for help...I even told him about the cuts. He still won't help me...:'(
OMGitsTaylorB 9 months ago
i hate my bi-polar. it sucks.
kittygobark1 9 months ago
It is a frightening and lonely life. A sense of humor helps. I was sent to a psychiatrist long ago after a suicide attempt. He told me that writing was the best therapy for me and it certainly helps when I am not too severly depressed. I once knew a few years of mental stability when I received Divine assistance but I got selfish and lost somehow. Alan Watts videos here on youtube are helpful. I find him more honest than many religious leaders when it comes to spiritual truths. Peace to you all.
handsaflame 10 months ago
i am sory to feel your pain i am going thre simmilar stuff but they cant seem to find the right meds i hate this life and hope that yours gets better but i dont have much for mine
djm63401 10 months ago
Sometimes i go around the house jumping around kickind doors and anoying the sit out of my mother im reckless then an hour later im low and always thinking
QstickMadness 10 months ago
its hard to deal with these illness espcially when you have people agsint you its soo hard to be postive and stay in school but i cant fucking take it i need to stop my mind from playing tricks on me!!!!
ipod2304 10 months ago
while there are only a few classifications of bipolar disorder, its effects and how it effects each individual can differ hugely, and there are a lot of variables that can effect each person so to those who are currently conquering there symptoms stop belittling those who are struggling in there battle... but great video mate.and great choice of music, id forgotten how much i like limp bizkit,i didnt know of angels and airwaves till seeing this video.there song suits the mood of the video
markofkaos 10 months ago
theres someting wrong with me... Im like fucked up...some days i feel helpless, hopeless,everyting seems pointless and getting out of bed is hard of fuck... then i get freak outs... i go crazy i lock myself into the bathroom and scream cry and cut my arm... the pain is so real and it wont go away it just wont! other days im hyper and super happy for no reason... i talk too much and too fast i do stupid things without thinking... im 15... idk wtf is wrong with me.... i just wanna b normal... :(
amandanoer1990 10 months ago
@amandanoer1990 you might be bipolar. have you asked your parents for help?
oneadamtwelve86 10 months ago
@oneadamtwelve86 nah... idk i dont think theyd listen... u think i should?
amandanoer1990 10 months ago
@amandanoer1990 if what your saying is true then maybe you should, you dont want to end up like the person in the video.
but it must be hard in your place because your probably basically normal.
ive been strapped down to the bed in a mental hospital on two seperate occasions
oneadamtwelve86 10 months ago
It's ironic that I feel as though my medication is the main source of my stress, my anxiety, my depression... I don't get manic episodes. I'm either neutral or down. I'm sure if I wasn't on all of this medication that I would be normal, like I was before everything went wrong. I know why I felt suicidal at that time -I know myself now. I know I wont let it go that far again. But with medication I feel like I cant trust myself, cant control myself -like the medication is working against me. I
KayTeeDolly 10 months ago
@KayTeeDolly I had a fight with my psychiatrist recently, told her that I was tired of drinking so many meds -she told me to leave them and go kill myself, that I either do what she says or there's no hope for me. I don't want to go back to her. She was supposedly the best. My meds make me feel sick, always. I never know whether what I am feeling is merely a side effect of one of the many pills I have to take. I'm on: Edronax; Concerta; Lamictam; Serlife; Seroquel; Wellbutrin...
KayTeeDolly 10 months ago
I have tried to get help and I am doing my best to communicate all that is going on with me. But for some reason I give out the impression I am playing games and lying and I end up leaving with the impression that none of these medical people take me seriously at all. How can I really help mylelf when I have taken the steps to do so and just get "stonewalled"?
Divinechaos1985 11 months ago
more power to you for creating & posting this. i too have bipolar & also boderline personality disorder & identify with soo much of what uv written. am about to watch ur second video & hope things r improving for u. xxx
samtymms 11 months ago
Almost like watching my own life through someone elses eyes
MissSezyB 11 months ago
life is what you make it. But sometimes however this thing works, it takes over the body and you lose control of rational thought. I like to think that I'm just an average normal person. But I have times, days of not being able to keep up with my thoughts and feeling so confident that anythjing is possible. but then other weeks where I feel so low for no reason, that I feel like I've never been happy and nothing can snap me out of it. I am so lucky to have an understanding partner who loves me
tipsybunny 11 months ago
I found this video whilst researching for my art project im doing and i find it amazing. i was nearly crying watching it and the music you chose to go with it was stunning. never feel alone because your not, so many people in the world know how your feeling. thankyou for a stunning video and helping me understand what its really like.
TheLostGirl93 11 months ago
You fucking idiot.
Ima cut you.
xxUnfaithfulTruthxx 11 months ago
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tkathryyn 11 months ago
OMG OMG OMG im 15 and have bi polar just been diagnosed!!! but u guys are all stupid u al thinkl oh im bi polar my lfie is shit.. im bi polar and dotn give fucking crap ya sumtimes i get depressed.. but when im manic i get so hyped up its amazing!!!!!!!!111
july20thclanchat 11 months ago
there is probably NO GOD, so stop worrying and enjoy your life
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incubus990 1 year ago
@Octophobia ....bitch.
jackshit54942 1 year ago
@Octophobia If you really WANT to go on living a normal/awesome life, you first have to admit to yourself that THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU. (That's the biggest part, the KEY: you have to WANT it.) I don't give a shit if you've been medically classified as having "bipolar disorder," ask yourself a simple question: Are there other bipolar people who've gotten over it? (more SPOLIERZ: the answer is yes.) There, you have no excuse to not be awesome. Go do it or I'll slap you upside the head.
jackshit54942 1 year ago
@Octophobia ...real answer is so stupid you probably won't believe me. And that's fine, don't believe me and go on feeling like shit and like "there's something with me" forever. (SPOLIERS: there's nothing wrong with you.)
1. EXERCISE 2. NUTRITION 3. SLEEP. Physical activity and proper nutrition are the best mood-stabilizers out there, because its your body doing it and not some drug. (Psst!: drugs only fuck up your emotions more) The best cure for depression? WALKING, I kid you not. Look it up
jackshit54942 1 year ago
@Octophobia You are the biggest little bitch I have ever seen. You honestly believe that EVERY example of that shit (except for TBI) is not a normal part of growing up? I went through the EXACT same shit you did: depression/mania cycles, isolating from friends, cutting, acting out, AND eating. You think I still have those "problems"? No. Because I've GROWN UP. I'm 19 now, and I don't sympathize with you at all, because I remember clearly feeling the exact way you do now. Honestly, the...
jackshit54942 1 year ago
thank u 4 this video it hit home with me 4 sure theyve been doing the same thing with my meds 4 over 10 years now n luckily i havent done anything 2 harm myself but i mean idk somtimes ya lifes hard n its not made 4 people with out problems so we gotta get help i guess and i am 2morrow so wish me luck n i wish u the best n the future as well and im glad theres others out there that arent ashamed of there flaws this helped me feel a lil better but ill crash soon errrrrr thanx again best wishes 4u
miketubbs333 1 year ago
emh you're saying that you had depression episodes, but you can't be bipolar on the age of 11. you have to be 15 -.^
Ashelsb 1 year ago
umm this is a kind of stupid question but what does trigger mean?
Claire91496 1 year ago
Omg it's like reading my life story that was never told to anyone before. I have been in a manic episode for almost a week now. It gets worse each day. Thank you for sharing this with us. It means a lot to know I am not alone. I cried through the whole thing. It kills me that there is no cure for people with our disorder. Thanks again for sharing.
sunshinefairy33 1 year ago 7
@sunshinefairy33 i agree completly it seems like alot of people expierence this now im glad to know im not the only one
crazytalented9710 11 months ago
@sunshinefairy33 I agree I can never stop crying from this video because its like seeing my own reflection...it sucks to be us..
EmoLover4511 11 months ago
@sunshinefairy33
There is no cure but there is help. If you don't have a Dr then go to your community mental health department. Please seek help.
brutusmother 10 months ago
@sunshinefairy33 there is a cure... but it is not a desirable one... it makes you mellow in general forever.. some lithium treatment that my uncle was considering.
JamesIsDumbAlot 10 months ago
Thanks for the video and sharing your thoughts with us! I know it is hard, I have gone through it too! It does help to hear someone elses story. Please take care of yourself my friend ,perhaps one day I can have the courage to share mine. Take care..Cathy
cathyscats 1 year ago
Dear you. Please take care. I suffered from anorexia and cutting 2. I know how everything hurts so bad. But stay healthy. Be strong!!! xx loves
beautifulinspace 1 year ago
I was beginning to think I was the worst one because I rapid cycle every week sometimes hours, days, seconds, hell I don't even bother to keep track anymore. I recently came out of the crisis unit after giving my family plans for death and was perfectly fine with it because this sux trying to fix, very frustrating! I am now doing somewhat better, I don't think it will ever be normal and the only reason I even care to live is for my family, otherwise it would be done. Take care of yourself!
MrRapidcyclerforever 1 year ago
bipolar is a scientific fact but jesus is not, go ahead and wait around for jesus but i will go where i can get "real" help. if god is out there then its his fault we are this way anyway.
jrreasons 1 year ago 4
@jrreasons Thank you for making that point. I'm bipolar 1 and if someone walked up to me and told me to drop the meds and seek god I would tell them to take meds. "Failing liver? No need for a transplant just pray about it! Need a quadruple bypass? No need for surgery just pray about it!"
kappapi560 1 year ago
This sounds so familiar to me. I always have to "control' something.
If life is hard for a while i try to find a way to cope, by cleaning excessively, or i will drink alcohol wich makes things worse. And also i recognize the eating pattern.
Even suiside comes to mind frequently, wich scares me so bad! Prozac .... they cave it to me for 9 years! I stopped taking them when i read on the i-net what it really does to your already messed up mind. Next thing is EMDR therapy. I don't know. ill try
huisvrouwtjuh 1 year ago
The creator has blessed us with intelligence. For example, the ability to educate ourselves, do research upon, and invent medications for mental illness.
SisterRags 1 year ago
Wow, life is a journey; ups and downs! We suffer at times, but in Christ there is Joy and Peace for us! Jesus loves you, and you are a overcomer and a brave person! Freedom for YOU was Jesus's passion when he died on the cross!
princesswarrior78 1 year ago
A very touching video, the emotions really come through. I've been through a very similar situation-suffering in silence since I was about 12, 13, and at 18 developed first anorexia then bulimia... Now it's mostly under control, just recently started on Lamictal, but I've been feeling a lot more stable, not falling into depressions for the last 3 weeks (I'm very very rapid cycling) the last 6 months, therapy and meds are How is it going for you now? Wish you the best!! And keep going!!
Painnnnful 1 year ago
Sounds more like bipolor 1 to me
johnsondkf 1 year ago
I relate to this 100%, hanging with sheeple doesn't help. Finding open minded friends is essential for recovery.
JonB20 1 year ago
I feel you all this disease has barley left me able to leave my house. I'm just so afraid i'm going to jump in front of a car or something . NO joke i just can't cope and medicines make it worse.
brandoncipelle 1 year ago
may trigger what?
MyLoveForCanada 1 year ago
You are Awesome flaw and all!!!!! xoxoxo ;D
kennyz6979 1 year ago
omgoodness this is so sad! I have bipolar II with psychotic features. I stay depressed. I rarely have a manic episode unless I'm very mad then i do or say things I shouldn't. I LOVE this video, it's informational and shows people what it's like to be bipolar, adjusting meds, and cutting (I'm an ex-cutter, 2 years!). You keep on and stay alive. I hate to sound like a "Jesus freak" but pray to GOD and HE can help you. With HIM, nothing is impossible. I'll pray for you too.
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RenaRyuguuChan 1 year ago
The main thing that's helped me is talking about it, but I still get bad anxiety and other things, it just really sucks.
infernadrumer 1 year ago
wow there was a part there were I thought you were taking about me no wonder I was sent to a shrink like thrice and I guess this time I won't say I don't need that guy cause maybe I do
Zangetseu 1 year ago
Psychotherapy my friend, is most importat thing, drugs ARE necessary, but just to make you stable in place, psychoterapy is needed for any progress toward functional normal state and feeling of wellbeing.
Best luck!.
Rosendrache 1 year ago
Im Bipolar, its hard for anyone to understand unless someone has the same dissorder...and us with it are sometimes get miss understood...
EmoLover4511 1 year ago
i don't know whats wrong with me.
it's almost bilpolar.
but.. i go from extreme depression, i take overdose in and cut. then go to hypomania and feel creative and super energetic all in one day.
my moods change each day.
any know what's wrong? ://
robbiekaaay 1 year ago
@robbiekaaay
Robbie - tell that to your Doctor, not youtube people. Cutting isn't limited to BPD - it could be a problem with expressing emotions. Have a chat with someone that knows about the problem.
I have Hypomania and I used to cut . That was only a symptom. Hell, I nearly killed myself by taking the car out for a fly when I was on a hyper...
Talk to a professional. Please.
AlchemicalDavid 1 year ago
@robbiekaaay
Research Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder, but be careful not to misdiagnose.
B4gle 1 year ago
nicely made video! I have bipolar also.
prisonshadows 1 year ago
its as though you shared my life and experiences when you shared yours. i was crying by the end of it- things that i hadnt even considered as being "abnormal" - like when i beat up a friend at age 13 with little reason, the anger, cutting, obsession with food and exercise, and how my grades declined around the same time as yours and i move from one extreme to another, one hobby to another, one partner to another, optimistic to suicidal in a heartbeat. thank u for sharing i hope u find peace xxx
little0boots 1 year ago
this video is absolutely brilliant and i truely admire your courage. Don't stop trying... This is helpful information and you are helping a lot of people feel less crazy. All the best.
Thank you.
MsRena68 1 year ago
hey i gots a question when u said u first tried to kill yourself what did u do? :( and im 13 and i saw stuff about bipolar disorder and i have like all the symptoms?
cameron42060 1 year ago
This is so sad, I have been told that I was "drinking" or high on drugs and knowing that I was not! Miss-information by family members, and friends, the most destructive, even more so than the dissorder it's self.
TOMAN4EVER 1 year ago
thank you for this video, now i feel in some way not that alone in my illness. its hard for people who dont have it to understand why your moods can change in an instant. my bi polar illness is a constant struggle for me. i dont know what mood i will be in tommorrow or even an hour from now. its a lifelong struggle....
chicanalv 1 year ago
How does one REMEMBER so many details,and go back there,??
charliejazz64 1 year ago
Your life sounds so like mine... although i've never been diagnised as bipolar or anything... the one time i asked for help, i was just told i was attention seeking
b7oken 1 year ago
i dont think i have bipolar, but i definitely have depressive symptoms every other two years, it goes on mildly (depressed) for two years, then i usually have elevated mood for a year after that, mixed with elevated mood and normal mood, and then mildly depressed again. im prety sure i have dysthimia. (mild depression)... the cycles are close to this, but milder. so it doesnt effect my functioning but it is as bad as this :(
captainoats112 1 year ago
For whatever it's worth, I love you. xo
gloss26 1 year ago
i love you guyys and im bi-polar
brownedoggg 1 year ago
I am sure I am bipolar its just that people dont believe me. They keep telling me its the teenage stuff when I know its NOT teenage stuff. Ive had the symptoms since I was 9. People are idiots who live in denial...
Klindza 1 year ago
hope you are doing ok xo
kelaid21 1 year ago
i want to see some of your artwork
amyystoberr 1 year ago
stewart swerdlow
PantsThatDontFit 1 year ago
im the same way.....
HaHaHaHa556743 1 year ago
thats not bipolar sorry let your doctors parents and other white folks fill your head with that b.s.
spaceage614 1 year ago
This is a very serious disorder and killing yourself will cause you to lose the battle. Show people and this disorder that it is achievable and you can strive to help calm some of the symptoms. Please whatever you do, DON'T GIVE UP! There are people all around you who care and want the best and are willing to help. Stay strong!
mittzelplik 1 year ago
I have irrational ideas about my future aswell, but those irrational thoughts stick with me as if I want those things to actually come true just how I think them in my mind and if I forget how I wanted those events to be I become extremely enraged with myself. ohwell theres nothing I can do or any therapist can do for me because my whole mind is sick and twisted.
AmericanFascist11 1 year ago
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AmericanFascist11 1 year ago
I've been looking into finding more about this disorder since my best friend was diagnosed thanks
MrDoomAid 1 year ago
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XXemmz101XX 1 year ago
i think i have bipolar disorder. my mother is bipolar but it isn't severe enough to mess up relationships with family and friends. But I fear that if i have bipolar it is way worse than hers.
I've talked her about it but for some reason she won't let me get checked out
Im 15 and im more emotional then ever. im losing my friends
Any advice for me?
immortalwriter13 1 year ago
watching this scares me. I don't know why
B4gle 1 year ago
Im 41/s/w/m i can relate, I have everything,,swings,,,brilliant ideas,,,HA! il talk meds w/ you just get me on here and talk im VERY cool. Peter ex-stockbroker
stox500 1 year ago
zoloft has many negatives to me as well.
Topomax is the same.
Now im on Seroquel.
I stop cutting myself and committing suicide. 4times suicide..
After i practice meditation, the symptoms are all gone. You should try. Good luck.
jomjedai 1 year ago
OMG...life is fighting...pom pom
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ScenexAnime 1 year ago
im so glad someone else understands. mine started at 10
sulupacouhohoreo27 2 years ago
I have lived with Bipolar for 38 years, it was hard. I just thought I was crazy for years. It wasnt until I was given a diagnosis and accepted it that I could control most of it and tolerate myself. I was told I was opressed by the devil before, but that is not so. It is an illness just as any other. Dont ever give up, remember there are people out here that are going through the same thing.
jynn0629 2 years ago
Enjoy your mania and depressive states as best you can. If that happens, then you gain a certain control over them. I've had slight cases of hypomania and depressive states since as long as I can remember -- though not this bad.. but i always enjoyed when I got mania. And the amazing thoughts and consciousness I perceived when I had mania and elevation of thoughts and mind, helped me to control the other part.
AllWalksofLife 2 years ago
I remember when i had this problem i was 11 ... i needed help , i couldnt help but self cut myself .... I felt as if it was the only way to get over my feelings ... but once i got help it changed my life , back then i would cut , wear black all the time, hurt people and animals.. but now im a whole different person im happy , im a happy child , i wear colors , colorful one's , i like my life , i stopped cutting :] .if anyone has this problem of hurting yourself anyway please get help fast
2candy4u2 2 years ago
@2candy4u2 great advice....hope others get this message
jynn0629 2 years ago
@jynn0629 thanks :] i just really hope people get the message too , it's a serious matter
2candy4u2 2 years ago
Been there.. I carved the word " Pain" into my arm.. That's my type of humor.. very sarcastic and ironic. Anyways it sucks to be bipolar but it's not impossible to deal with it. But it takes a strong person to keep going.
NAllen828 1 year ago
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FoxxNightingale 2 years ago
Hah your worse than me im 23 i use drugs alcohol and mix sometimes too. Sometimes I feel bad that i sit with a blade to my wrist trying to sink it but get disturbed and lukily not seen. I was told I seem to suffer from Moderate depression, this is just as bad as I can cycle quite fast through it and i never really feel myself.... ONly once a month i might get hints of normality feeling at one and happy and as I used to... I know my time isnt long for this world.
tomkkkkk 2 years ago
Don't kill yourself! Jesus christ bro! The best revenge against people that have hurt you is to be happy. Fuck ignorant people. And if you kill yourself you'll hurt alot of people. Have you tried meds? A good natural med is working out. It HELPS ME alot.. seriously.. plus if you keep at it your self esteem will improve.
NAllen828 1 year ago 8
@NAllen828 I totally agree on this
MartialArtsSuperStar 1 year ago
I'm in the UK. Contact me on my page if you need help - I know hwo to get it. I'm bipolar, my friend has schizoaffective disorder. We've figured out how to get attention.
chelliroo 2 years ago
@FoxxNightingale you can mail me if u like ...all I can offer is support and my experiences through life. I am a 38 year old mother of 5 and it took me many years to come to grips with it. You will be fine, hang in there.
jynn0629 2 years ago
@FoxxNightingale hey foxx cherr up i have the same thing i alwayz get in trouble for sleeping and i am hyper also depressed at times and i feel sex drive ( self ejaculation) but it waz so wierd when i saw this becuz it waz all me but u can change by bieliving in yourself that you can do it good luck =D
xF1R3xkLuTcHx 1 year ago
@FoxxNightingale FoxI hope life is better for you
Calynn39 1 year ago
Hi Octophobia,
Nice to meet you. I have bipolar type I with psychosis. your story resonated with me. I am a recovering cutter. Have not cut in years, you can recover from this but it takes time, be patient. sometimes relapses happen. Your video is wonderful, I hope it helps million of people! Meds and therapy are useful. I am sorry for what you have been through, been there. I got sick at 23 in the Navy. But the signs were there much earlier but like you nobody saw them. hang in there. hugs.
crystalclear807 2 years ago 2
your story is almost exactly like mine. But as I sit here and type I am in a depression, last month I was going to be a CEO and a huge financial success, then I was mixed and now at a low. I used to get help but the strain of this has pushed everyone away. This includes my Mother and Father it will soon ruin my relationship. I don't know where to turn but even worse I am not sure if I want to turn to anyone to get help this time. It just might be the end. But tomorrow might be a manic saturday
EverdayLuv 2 years ago
to spamtard: wow what an asshole: I hope nobody you love comes down with this dreaded illness: at least it made me feel something for the person experiencing what this child went though: spam tard get a grip on relitity go and visit a mental faculity it will change you mind : watch the homeless people around you and see how many are talking to themselves; you are a real tard
itstime4thetruthnow 2 years ago
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Those are demons, You need to desperately call on the name of Jesus, and go to the Demon buster sight, you can be free, i promise!
Abdallaview 2 years ago
Abdall- People like you cause the deaths of many people like us. Tell a diabetic they need Jesus and not insulin and see if you don't kill them too. If you have an imbalance you usually need Lithium IT SAVED ME. Jesus helps too of course, but when I am angry and question him, lithium is there to catch me.
Valalacra 2 years ago 17
@Valalacra do i need a prescription to get lithium? I have bipolar epsidoes and its getting worse, i am unhappy with whatever i am doing and have to change everything. It is a pattern i cannot stop. I dont get angry as much at people as myself for not having the ability to control it when i know it is coming and can''t avoid it.
2012rurede 1 year ago
@Valalacra im on seroquel 400 is lithium bettre?
blondie147123 1 year ago
@Valalacra What a response! Yes, who ever read and reply should be careful about what they say... Unfortunately for some "d'un ane on en fera pas un cheval de course"...
Which translates like "From a Monkey one cannot become a racing horse"....
larsouille858 1 year ago
@Valalacra I was on lithium and prozac 7 yrs. D/Cd to have baby. research said lithium may not work 2nd X around as well w/ yrs of use it can poison your body so I've been on Lamictal my "miracle pill" w/o needing prozac too for 9 yrs! Gram almost died 3 yrs ago from poisoning! the dr turned his nose to my suggestion of lithium poisoning until I DEMANDED! Dr said my knowledge+ spit fire spirit (not backing down) saved her life! check your lithium levels monthly + talk to Dr about changing meds
kristiannflannery 1 year ago
@kristiannflannery may i ask the dosage of lamictal your on?
imnotsmartbutimtryin 1 year ago
@Valalacra havent you noticed these pills made her worse? cry out to jesus!!! that is wat i did. he can heal you from this illness
noooblover 1 year ago
@noooblover yeah? i am waiting
jrreasons 1 year ago
@noooblover What a load of crap. I bet you've never even experienced what a manic depressive episode. You have no idea what its like. How dare you claim that Jesus will heal and solve it. Jesus wasn't there when I was born with the capability of developing this mental illness- and neither will he be there when science finds a cure for it through therapy and drugs. Go back to your fairytale land of make-believe men in the sky looking out for you.
Alltheroadrunning 1 year ago
@Alltheroadrunning HOW WOULD YOU KNOW WHAT I HAVE BEEN THRU??? QUIT FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF
noooblover 1 year ago
@noooblover Feeling sorry for myself isn't what causes my depression. Its caused by a psychological condition which causes a sudden major rise and fall of serotonin. Its chemical and something I have no control or will over. Its debilitating and effects me every day of my life, but praying for some entity to suddenly heal me and make me better is going to fix nothing.
Telling someone just to believe in Jesus and that will fix them, whatever affliction they have is really dangerous.
Alltheroadrunning 1 year ago
@noooblover Its like saying to someone- don't worry about finding and using medication- Jesus will fix it. Just give him a prayer.
Don't worry about that organ transplant- no need for the immuno-suppressive drugs- just pray! It'll magically be okay.
Alltheroadrunning 1 year ago
@Alltheroadrunning that is not what i said.. i do use and trust in modern medicine, ive also seen cancer and the deaf hear again thru prayer... so i have reason to believe.. he also healed my nmind. in total i have around 5 people in my family suffering from manic depression bi polar disorder. I know a lil somthing ok... all im saying is it possible
noooblover 1 year ago
who are demons?
fatimahkhanom07 2 years ago
FUCK OFF!!!!!
IGNORANT PIECE OF SHIT!
sackgirl78 2 years ago
who sings the first song??? I LOVE IT
fatimahkhanom07 2 years ago
The first song is " A Little's Enough' by Angels And Airwaves. :]
xNeverxShoutxNeverx3 2 years ago
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blah blah blah, I got 4 minutes and I can not read anymore. Everybody is bipolar now a days. Well, shit happens and we are emotional human beings. This is a good thing, not a bad thing. The best thing to do is grow some testicles, even if you are a woman, and face up and fight for life. This, oh I am so sick I have a disease, pity party crap is the very reason you sissy's are truly sick. Only, its not bipolar disease, its called being a coward. Love to live life or roll over and die. Simple.
YouSpamTard 2 years ago
I think whatever you feel the person posting this post is... bipolar isnt what 'everyone' has.. and its hugely ignorant of you to say so. My dad had to be admited to hospital for being bipolar... and if you could meet someone bipolar you would know it is a mentally ill condition- it has various degrees. and bipolar- if you do have it.. is not a a light 'sadness' that you get balls and get over. it is something that starts controlling a persons life.
astrobabe5 2 years ago
My dad isnt the same as this girl. but he is manic.. and bipolar sumtimes verges on schizofrenic. now if you dont believe that exists either and u just get over something that you cant control ur dillusional. infact sometimes they can find that you have a chemical imbalance in the brain that triggers it. so it can be 'scientific' get your facts right before making ignorant posts
astrobabe5 2 years ago
I know there are crazy people that have all sorts of mental problems. My problem is the band wagon. We get a new term to describe something and next thing ya know, everybody has the disease and everybody has to take medication, when it may be nothing more than a simple human response to a particular situations. For example, if a guy loses his job and goes home and throws something against the wall, this is normal to me, pretty much. Not an imbalance. It is a reaction to events we all deal with.
YouSpamTard 2 years ago
no body knows...i dont have support...i cant even find a decent chat room...i just wish i could fucking find some one who fucking understands and will take the time to talk with me about how to deal...
LifeofaWriter 2 years ago
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stillgamin71 2 years ago
My husband has bipolar two and he takes lamictal and calonapam and amblifiy and it has been working great for him! It also helps to have support people! Make sure that your closest family members get well educated on bi polar and how to deal with it. Good luck to you, and keep trying till you find what works for you.
misty030380 2 years ago
holy shit i can't believe u had the diet thing I HAD!!!!! I couldn't stop working out or eating extremely healthy!!!!! i was obsessed about being perfect and better than everyone else!!!! it sucks
xboxbenny 2 years ago
You're friend committed suicide? DAMN that sucks. I have bipolar disorder, and im 16. My mom has it as well, and I got put on accutane which has many risks for depresssion... I had no idea what i was getting into. Now, im violent, suicidal, all hope is lost, impatient, not happy about anything.
xboxbenny 2 years ago
This video was posted a long time ago how are you doing now? I had two sicide attempts and several overdoses. My husband doesn't understand. A few months ago I was so depressed that I should have gone to hospital but my husband said that it wasn't a good time for me to go and leave him with our three kids.
SueBuck123 2 years ago
thank you BUT what do you do when someone denies they are Manic. says they are fine.. they can be violent, compulsive, domineering, lying constantly, turning on those closest.they want full control.. cleaning house is manic.. you cant move an ornament or your screamed at.. they make up terrible lies.. they say I AM FINE, ITS YE HAVE PROBLEM.. I have had this for 13 years...i still have kids but they are to frightened to speak to her. i need ADVICE PLEASE.
fairhillnorrie 2 years ago
This comment has received too many negative votes show
Quit trying to find a scientific term to label what it is you describe. The person is simply what is called an asshole. Its a personality problem, not a disease. Sounds to me like she wears the pants in the family and you wear the panties. Either fix her, and she does not want to be fixed, so no one can fix her, not that she really broken mind you, she is simply an asshole, leave her, or learn to live with it and do the best you can to make peace. Best way to treat an asshole is to ignore them.
YouSpamTard 2 years ago
thanks...
vdmilan 2 years ago
what should we do ?
maybe the best thing is to remind our selves that we are ok and that it is just a metabolic disorder that is making us believe that we are too happy or too said.
when we believe we are ill than the illness becomes less agonising automaticly.
sofianbelhedi 2 years ago
If you are losing hair on lithium, it may be the dose;
because the lithium lowers the thyroid hormone-- a
symptom of hypothyroidism is hair loss, lethargy,
weight gain, a lot of sleep, low heart rate, low
metabolism. If that's it you should get thyroxine,
Mmmousemaid
Mmmousemaid 2 years ago
sat here in tears.. wish this words wear real , but all they are is on my comp!! im still sat here alone going tru it!!!!!!!!
corezy456 2 years ago
When will they learn that lithium is the gold
standard for mania and depression.
Mmmousemaid
Mmmousemaid 2 years ago
Mouse. I have bi-polar 2 rapid cycling as it seems to me this girl is in the same place. Lithium DOES NOT work for our Bi polar at all! I just got full boby rashes and lost hair.
Gloomfairie 2 years ago
living with bipolar is very hard for me too :( the feeling of not knowing who you are? the depressing one or the happy one?
DevaSavant 2 years ago
You should try marijuana u can get dependent on it but its better than all medications out there only if it were legal cause when i run out i just get irratable
luvsix 2 years ago
I'v tried mrijuana, it helps whilst I'm on it but you cannot stay on it for ever. I have had a stroke probably because of the eating disorder. As of Oct '09 I am Totally depressed, oh and one more thing I am 45 yr's old in less than a week. Get it sorted as soon as possible, because it doesn't go away on its own. I'v been on mood stabilisers for over 5 yrs now.
triumphoverevil 2 years ago
wait so iam i bipolar bc all the thing that u said in this video happen to me too. but they keep telling me its teenager stuff like stress
jesselovelyred 2 years ago
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whats the name of the second song
maninder2007 2 years ago
I'm proud to be bipolar. Bipolar disorder give me a sense of reality that only a few people can achieve. OFC healthy persons will oppose this fact. We have the ability to look around from 2 very different perspectives so we can get a better idea of what is really going on. Although to achieve this perception you have to master the gift that has been given to you.
I know it's hard but it's possible to master it.
You are not alone!
RubInatube 2 years ago 2
These are one of the most beautiful 7 sentences I have ever read in my whole life.
Thank you very much.
terry1979 2 years ago
I'm glad this means something for you :). I cannot deny my ego is pumping. I'm also glad i've learned to put my ego aside when it happens :)
Cheers!
RubInatube 2 years ago
people with bipolar including me are destined to be alone i hate my illness its by far the worst thing that could ever happen to anyone. i have never felt so alone and scared. my girlfriend of 2 years just left me because she could no longer take the rapid mood changes i hate my life
roxymumbles 2 years ago
i feel your pain, my girlfriend last year left me cause she couldnt take my mood swings as well... she said that i used bi polar as an excuse for everything, she said that she couldnt take me anymore... being bi polar is hard.... your not alone out there 8)
MrMinsanity 2 years ago
My god that must have been tough i dont have bipolar disorder ( i have enough to cope with with asperger syndrome ) but the video look so depressing and sad but you have to look by all of that and focus on somthing...good? or anything becase suicide (crossed my mind beleive it or not ..hope i wasnt seirious) shoudnt be the answer to it all.
MouldyProductions 2 years ago
Being bipolar is hard, and when you are not bipolar it is hard to get someone to research or care to research it in order to see what you see. I admire you for putting this out to the world. Just remember, one day you will have children and they will ask you what the scares are from. Stop cutting yourself. You are beautiful, and bipolar or not- life happends, and you can stop yourself from cutting.
PuccaDear 2 years ago 3
Thank you for your concern, I have stopped cutting myself. I'm 123 days free! That's 1/3 of a year!
Octophobia 2 years ago 5
....and that my dear is annoying and an insult to people who are actively trying to get better.
Winter077 2 years ago
Fool how can you say that, you wasn't there, also tell that to the doctors I have seen, becuase all the things that happen to me was in the bible, but they call it Bipolar Manic attack, been about 110 days with no Medications and I feel great, also info on my page that can help others, what are you doing to help? Other then being annoying and insulting me.
I didn't go to churchs, or read the Bible, but now I do and I am teaching poeple all ready...
Darkfoster22 2 years ago
super cool story bro
nicpapageo 2 years ago
It's a girl.
Winter077 2 years ago
i was diagnosed bipolar at a really young age and ive been all sorts of drugs since then. i dont think these drugs do much its all bullshit. ive never gone to do anything suicidal but i have been very depressed at times. but hey, look at the bright side. listen to some peaceful music, like zeppelin or bob dylan. its all in your mind and i find it not to hard to over come if you just think logically
ilovemetall94 2 years ago 2
how the fuck does one "attempt" a suicide, its not hard killing yourself... sry but it just pisses me off when i hear or see this, one must be very retarded if he cant kill himself...
daniellos333 2 years ago
It's actually hard to kill yourself. With all the medical technology they have they can go to extreme measures to save people.
Anyway, how would you know how easy it is to kill yourself? You obviously aren't experienced in that area being that you're still alive.
Octophobia 2 years ago
I over came bipolar
Darkfoster22 2 years ago
Really? It's not really possible to do this, unless it is by some miracle. It's a life-long illness that one must live, manage, and learn to cope with.
Octophobia 2 years ago 2
I tell you the truth, you can call some of what happen to me a miracle...I tell you what angels feel like, also Jesus love thats called faith.Faith in side me changed my life and cured me...details on my page..I am not the only one...
Darkfoster22 2 years ago
so are you basically saying that jesus saved you? or am i misunderstanding this comment..
daniellos333 2 years ago
Ide like to say Biolar has a cure but it dosent! Whatver you said cured you is just temperary.I dont mean to billitle your faith or belieif but jesus dident exsist.We are all on are own in this world of shit,I think people sometimes trick themselves into beliving in religion becasuse they cant cope anymore!
primeribs1 2 years ago
LOL look at my name do you realy think I had a religion or fiath in the lord before this happen? don't be foolish like I was, Look at my pass on youtube...
Darkfoster22 2 years ago
Bipolar disorder is a permanent illness. You might have a few "normal" years, but it will rear it's ugly head again sometime in the future. I went through the whole religious delusion experience, and even walked in to a church and got "saved" by Jesus. It made me feel good, but I still have Bipolar disorder. Jesus did not heal your Bipolar disorder either. The church wants you to believe that because they manipulate people, or don't know any better.
Winter077 2 years ago
I don't doubt for a second you had religious dellusions. Please stop telling people that Jesus healed you because in essense, you're telling people that he loves you more than them, otherwise they would have been healed too.
Winter077 2 years ago
his healing has to do with his faith not how much Jesus loves him. That is what the bible teaches anyway.
Riverfrog72 2 years ago
wow, I really relate to this and recently was told I had bipolar and so I ha