Madness of My Mind - Stream of Consciousness Project

[henceqed]

I would sell everything I have to be able to give you a money shot.

ok on a less creepy note (not much less) I REALLY wish I could see you in that bra, because it was apparently skin cream colored from the strap showing, and I bet you would look incredible in it!

[starsiegeplayer]

YIKES.... my head is spinning trying to keep up....

[MP3gateway]

i like bouncy balls!

[joshuanewtonracing]

whip it out and show it on youtube lol

[Xan3200GT]

may i have a kiss like on 0:02

[JonBenet6]

No, we won't come down on you for mocking the defectives. Someday when you're old and gray (or just a head floating in a jar with some wires hooked up to it) the youth will mock your slowness or inability to absorb nutrients because of wrinkling of the skin of the neck where the portal is located. Then you will remember your cruel, heartless rendering of those less fortunate. Or are they really? If you can never know it all, is there any sense in knowing part?

[wesselbindt]

Not exactly James Joyce.

[lightbluegunshots]

your wearing a transparent plastic bra strap... uh thats all i got.

[Chaos7703]

She should start another channel just for videos like this. She's gorgeous. But I'm a nerd. Why did she have to go to Cali, that's the wrong way. I had to learn about Ubuntu from one of my Math professors -- he's not cute or very helpful -- but he's a computer geek and likes to talk with me about all manner of random nerdy stuff. Multiple types of infinity is gibberish. I should model ADHD. Automatons are fun. I wish coffee still effected me. Bouncing is fun.I only have thirty characters l

[shaiqshah]

DT PORN?

[adarov]

kiss me. thats not weird

[samhobson1]

You were hot.. Then you opened your mouth...

[boinkboink1968]

a) She either is the first victim of a mutated cordyceps that is slowly eating her brain.

b) She did the same thing my nephew did (8 energy drinks in a row made him flip his lid and he started seeing ghosts).

.....

Feel free to add to this for other perceived causes of random ranting.

Oops,somebody put too much current trough this nixie-tube and it blew.

Time to go LED, I guess.

[Patronique0107]

Are u on weedxD?

[SevenfoldProject]

Damn girl your fine....

[DobeDobyDo]

love the intensity of your ramble. I bet you are just as intense in other things... gigggidy

[Cuauhtli47]

Motor boat ;)

[eohymuoy]

Im scared

[Dreammask700]

I'm confused.

Struggling to keep up with you.

[DemonEyesDara]

I thought this was a Dream Theater cover o.o

[PR0T0TYP3MKII]

@DemonEyesDara HA! that's EXACTLY what i was wondering when i saw the title.

[PR0T0TYP3MKII]

@DemonEyesDara whoa :P thinkin about that comment made me forget about the video, and when she said train of thought i was like "wha Dream Theater what?"

[ueli1998]

Oh my lord, you speak so fast I don't understand anything! O.o

[Knicksoulja]

Thnx... you really helped me with my sound course project for uni!

[Pioneer78]

Bollocks, utter bollocks, like all the random show off's, you just put me off watching you. For you're "gigantic brain" though, and future reference.... The film was was Caddyshack.

[jdortiz86]

Your ridiculous. how many cups of coffee did you have this morning?

[delph117]

Damn this is exactly why should NOT try drugs....

[jakemario5]

i like your personality. how you make your videos..good job.! i hope your still single. maybe, just maybe..:) .. 

[Grayhatt]

lol, I talk like this normally, I didn't know you had to put effort XD

[superspectator123]

She is ill. But what is the name of the disease? Ah, yes I remember. It is called: woman. lol.

[TheEpicTechnology]

why can't you take off your top

[funnybunnyrex]

I have ADHD to, or is it ADD. I forget

[elcravo]

i didn't get what the hell you were saying but nether the less i was pretty amused :)

[supashot1990]

o.o *brain farts* omg my brain couldn't get all that info in it -.-

[omsigbug]

yo Nixie pass dat shit ovah heah

[killroy71]

Decaf? 

[bluesmoke21]

Hey Nixie, I don't really think you have ADHD, majority of people have wrong diagnostics on that... I have the same symptoms, except the hyperactivity. I really think you are a genius girl! Most genius children are diagnosticated with ADHD and given treatment for that, and because of that treatment, all that genius goes away...

[gjgoingsolo]

I just came out of dream theather there... Was just awesome... Though i want some beer now, yeah beer! Thats the correct answer on any question, though you shouldn't put a tampon in it, thats grose when i had to clean smoking basement of the bar i work at. 6 weeks ago i quit smoking, playing baseball again is gonna be awesome. Though that girl in my class is so hot, well she's blonde but wish she was red for the final touch. almost limit reached. Mmm ms nixie should wear a corset. heu ERRORLIMIT

[donhusty]

poor girl...

[michael616joaquin]

This isnt a true stream of conciousness, and saying "like" a million times makes you look stupid as fk

[starsiegeplayer]

yikes... now that's stream of consciousness...

[SSandSproductions]

This encourages me to hit women and tell them to shut the hell up.

[nikolajea]

cat fish salat dressing FTW

[AndroidAndr3w]

Iam abit drunk so I did not get if this story was a dream or a real story. So which one was it?

[TheHornet79]

lol I just came out of dream theatre

[BIILYBOB999]

lol this is my mind all the time... but most of the time its all different topics lol

[XTYNoLuck]

Focus is the main word...think about it...he he. You with your Bill and your gofer, and train crossing and all that shit...

[rockoutdudepro]

Cute

[ultramegajon]

I would moneyshot you. lol. jk. but seriously, cute vid.

[punkofdeath]

I have Insomnia and its not because I stay up playing games I lied in bed last night from 11:00pm to 5:20am tossing and turning with my mind going nuts just like yours did in this vid. so i just gave up on sleeping. worst problem is sleep deprivation makes me brain dead. so its no thinking or massive amounts thoughts colliding in chaos trampling each other. so Im almost never thinking straight or i forget what i was thinking

[lost4soul]

@punkofdeath

I have Insomnia too. It sucks. I'm always brain dead and a little tired and lucid dreamig all the time.

[monsieurhassan]

I do the same thing but try to make the words rhyme,

No one can understand coz the thoughts are mine,

I enjoy it a lot, I think its all fine

I counted all the sheep in my dream, as far as nine

[Zompac]

@monsieurhassan u lose

[Darkseany]

You are awesomely creative. :]

[ghoraxlot]

stay off drugs!



[yzdit]

Fuck you?

[TheGuitarMetalhead]

Well guess what? Once i was a pirate and i was looking for the treasure map to the treasure map to find where waldo was and i found it and then we all went to panda express to get some pizza and then we flew over the moon to find the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow xP

[FrankMarval]

Very, very nice, Yeaaah Baby....!!! You are my Beautiful Dream...!!! Love You ..,, Love You....Kiss, Kiss, Kisssssssssss..:!!!!

[GoldenbanjoDJ]

i participated in a real fart... does that count

[oneillam1990]

I spent more time watching her bra strap slowly slide off than I did actually listening... XD XD

[TheDeedzman]

damn your beautiful.

[xjames118]

Have to disobey & judge you -intriguing. Nixie, you're the real deal. I always thought poetry is the artform for people who don't have the stamina to write short stories. If so, replace all poetry with Steams of Consciousness. The coolest thing in the world is when a subtle noise wakes in the night, & you catch your mind in the middle of this very involved, high-concept dancing. I think the spods call it 'hypnogogic'. We need to intigrate it into our consciousness minds. Smite the Buddhists.

[ILFZ2]

fuck how come girls love video games?...

I want a gamegirl too =))

LOL.

[AmunTheGreat]

i wish i was her bra

[NoaOno]

I got here from the Dream Theater video -.- This was... Um.. Less impressing...

[Charsyndrome2]

@NoaOno

I got here from the DT video too. What the heck?

[NoaOno]

@Charsyndrome2 The title lol.

[dangel6667]

I wonder how many perverts posted comments on this?

[Wayavas1337]

Well you see love is something you feel inside you, but it is provoked by an external agent, or so they say, because in the end its all about how we react to external things, it's hard to live only internal, you would need to be blind and deaf and not be aware that there is a world outside the world of your head, but it would make no sense to live like that anyway, actually the way a brain like that would work would be something very interesting and i would like to study something like that.

[VFM89]

wow...you've got beautiful eyes

[Freak810]

uuh.. ok... thank you...

[GerolfFoxclaw]

Hehehe, another adhd? *Fistbump* Pretty much being high 24/7 if you give in to it.

[cubanbomb777]

I wish theyre were nerds like her in my school...

[DatafoxStudios]

Damn you're too cute..

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[LuffyG9]

Pute

[kuapo]

You can delete all this crap.

Isn't humor a way of dealing with the madness of it all?

What if we can just change the madness into something true?

Ok... back to being one of The Goonies again.

Back to feeling real.

[biplav32]

@kuapo YOURE MAD.

[kuapo]

@biplav32 Thanks for noticing... but aren't we all, when nobody is watching us and we have our masks off? :) The people who claim to be normal the most are probably the craziest of them all when nobody's looking.

[biplav32]

@kuapo You're like v and I loved that movie.I am mad too and everyone is mad too. I was just making a pun.

[kuapo]

@biplav32 Don't explain. Don't make sense. We're better off that way. ;)

Ouch... that was a wink. Winks are pretty manipulative too. ;)

Ouch... and again. Just can't help myself. I'm Pavlov's dog.

[kuapo]

Tomorrow, I'll be back in 'reality' again.

The reality with which you can make a living.

I think that's the most depressing thing... shutting down your feelings again. Playing being a grown up.

But for now, I'm free. It'll all be over with soon enough.

We're so much more than the roles we play out every day.

The objectifying...

No wonder we're going crazy.

It's fucking sad.

Why don't people see. We are taught this madness, and we voluntarily keep it up.

Sorry I'm ending up in the dark.

[kuapo]

And I'm trying to find solace in language. How can I?

Language is secondary. Life is primary.

[kuapo]

We're all alone on this earth. Surrounded by other people.

Alone in mind though. And makes me cry. It really does.

Where's that soul redemption? Like coming home to the place you belong?

What if there's no place you belong? Is there only freedom in death?

This is getting pretty dark.

There's more to this life than just all this pretense. All this labeling.

All this making sense out of nonsense.

It's meant to be nonsense. It's meant to just be.

Not commercialized. We're moving backward.

[kuapo]

So do I want to be loved? Do I want to be understood? Do I want to do what everyone is doing? I guess not... my heart tells me not too, but then again... my heart will also go on, says Celine. Or were it icy people who did. I can't remember.

I I I I.... let's talk about someone else for a change. How bout you?

How are YOU doin?

[kuapo]

Oooh... I hate gnats. They keep me awake. Thought I just had one one my knee, but it might've been a little gush of wind too. Crazy. This world is built on sense. I hate it. I don't want it to. I want everything to be as it really is. Feelings are always true. But then we think about them, and how we should tweak them so they are 'understood' by other people. And we want to be loved. Oh... there I go again with the we-thing... the Wii-thing... thinking everyone is like me. They aren't. Nope.

[kuapo]

The hoedown throedown is damn brilliant though. Especially that li'l "lah" or "nah" at the end. How did you come up with that? Oh that's right... you didn't... your unconscious mind (as Freud would say) did. I would like to put down in writing everything that goes on in my mind all day, but it would be bothersome. Aren't there secretaries available for this? just had to think of "The Science of Sleep" but I don't know why. Do you? Secretaries? Science of Sleep? You should see that movie though.

[kuapo]

Didn't you ever want to be one of The Goonies though?

I did. Damn, I did!

Why didn't I grew up to be one.

O... I guess you can't. It's an imaginary thing. Sloth's cute though.

Don't we all want to love someone like Sloth? Someone who's heavily deformed... spit out by the world... feared... kicked about by the Fratellis.

Anyway... I'm still alive and kicking.... but don't you forget about me.

Two words: Breakfast Club... ah well... you're probably too young for that one.

Judd Nelson's char.

[kuapo]

O man... I should really listen to Arcade Fire's "Suburbs" again.. it's such a great song. Brings me somewhere else. Why can't we all just get along?

This is just crazy.

I'm gonna kill myself now. Bye.

[kuapo]

Did you wash that pumpkin before you kissed it? Because it might turn into something nasty if you didn't. Like a fucked up tangerine. A tangerine dream actually. Ever saw that movie with Tom Cruise? You know the one with Rebecca the Mornay. I mean DE Mornay, of course, because, let's face it... how can she be THE Mornay? I'm sure there are Mornay's out there. Anyway... they made love on the train... accompanied by a beautiful piece of music by Tangerine Dream. Love a Real Train it was called?

[kuapo]

Don't you just hate the world when it gets in your face, like RRRhhhGG!

It does, and you know it. the sad thing is that everyone wants to rule the other one. Not so much as the world, but just the one they're talking to. Can't help themselves. It's an ego thing. Almost gone ballistic over that one. Can't live in peace, unless you're by yourself. Solitude is a great thing, isn't it. But not always. you wouldn't want to become a hermit. I mean, hermits are freaks. They don't shower, and... and...

[kuapo]

dON'T WE all just try to make sense. We all want to be understood. Oh no... I mean I. I can't speak for everyone. I can only speak for myselves. Poor little lonesome me. Pretty pretentious to try to speak for everyone and think you represent everyone's though. So I won't. Or at least try not to. But it's harrrrrd. So is the life of a pirate. No, that's actually yarrrrrd. What the fuck am I saying anyway, and why is Youtube preventing me to type many many characters in one entry. I want MORE!

[kuapo]

The Sloth-issue got me going though. So a brain dump, right? Right.

How's to dump your brain while not trying to be witty at the same time. It's hard. Everyone tries to be witty... me too. I almost looked up if I spelled witty right, but I guess I did. I don't guess, I actually assume I did. But you'll understand anyway because your perty smaaaaart to begin with. Which makes me think of that guy from Poltergeist who says he's "Smaaaaart". The creepy demonic guy. Not to be mistaken for an emoguy.

[kuapo]

I just thought of this video, which I saw while a quite ago.

Brainfart. I guess that's what it is exactly. Just what my brain just did. It farted your video out of itself. Sort of.

I want everyone to brainfart every day!

Let's all stop making sense. It's boring.

Love ya.

[jerrellthadude1]

what a deuch

[MrPandaDork]

I love her enthousiasm! She is a real role model, sincere! I don't believe there is something like adhd or add, I think she is just high iq, you know what works to stop adhd symptoms, try becoming ambidextrous en you are probably right handed, use your left hand you will exercise you right brain. works perfectly. love this video!

[H43N]

i was typing on my keyboard and i thought of the dumb guy from of mice and men and then i realized i am talking as if it was in the past but im typing so it kinda is and now i feel dumb for not knowing the correct word i think it should involve 'post' god im a slow typer i can type without looking but i over think it and i screw up, i hate windows but and really liking ubuntu free soft ware is the way to go and command line is cool i subscribed to her i am running out of charachters 12 left now

[superawesom3]

Its great to have a girl that express themselves.

[WorthyFail]

Boom right in the face!

[MentalHygienist]

Okay - officially in love now. <3

[JETP1L0T]

hahhaha your crazy, in a good way :P

[fullyfroston46]

babyeeeeeeeee  ruth! You are fucking hilarious.

[acardworld1]

When you learn to high frequency resonate your pineal gland in the endocrine system then you will be able to inter & hyper dimensionally space travel and find out why you even exist!

[nigelcharlee]

hmm

[nigelcharlee]

hmmm

[angusangus82]

when do we talk to the wolves who scream into the eye of the moon when we tell them to quiet down, we're trying to sleep in the woods and dream about obscurity. I finally closed my eyes and when I awoke the sun was drenching me. It was hot and probably noon, judging by the sun's position in the sky. Damn, I had another food coma. No more fourth meal for me.

[normal6969]

My dear, you are an UFO too! ;)

[omgtkseth]

omg petrucci, what happened to you?

[Bryfry12]

It seems I miss some cool, whacky things in California...I need to get out and explore it alot more!!

[nyuu818]

and i thought im gonna hear some DT...

[pwn00bz]

I wish I was that pumpkin.

[PsychoTray]

@pwn00bz HAHA!

[jafarian2]

@pwn00bz MEE TOOOOO

[jdortiz86]

@pwn00bz I wish I was that blouse

[Renkay141]

I have HD brain 2!...

[josetrevinokoak]

this is a pretty good vid. you should watch my vid

youtube user name josetrevinokoak

[Dontyouevertouchme]

i went on for at least  10 mins

[666xXxSLAYERxXx666]

I would... :D

[smellslikevin]

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[neorecharge]

boom! right in the face... haha.. i can't count how many times i've said that.. also not referring to the "money shot..." haha

[TheJewelWonder]

I loved this video, it was amazing :)

[JZblogvideo]

Too sexy than nerdy for halloween :D

[demob7]

i have ADHD too lol and OCD and ODD so my train of thought is like the maglev train in a vacuum tunnel lol and my attention span is so short.....um...yeah cant think of anything funny to say there so i'll just say NEHH lol and i probably would make a video response if i had a cam and summore self esteem and a lack of complete and utter abhorrance for the sound of my voice and look of my face on video lol wow this is long haha um yeah...jesus christ on a space hopper im bored...MW2 time!!!!!123=D

[sjg2]

kiss me punkin

[M0rganstudios]

Exactly the dream I had last night!

[renaisanc9]

Yes, well lolll what else is new? Do you also talk incessantly when you're lolll ALONE? It becomes tiring after loll not sleeping for a few days, so I find myself saying "SHUT UP!"

[SunTzu1983]

Level 55 Frozen Orb!

[DosDog]

@juniwilliams ...um you dont think of them as helpmates

?

[DosDog]

@DosDog well, that bombed.....

[FredFan8]

baby,i can make you squirt i promice.you should come over some time.

[smellslikevin]

@FredFan8 wow ur a dick

[Louistx210]

your really cute

[EmmaThePrincess]

Nixie. I think I'm in love with you.

Question: Do all geeky persons have some sort of ADHD/ADD/some other fun letters combined?

[jstewart0420]

@timshapiro it was a joke, moron.

[jstewart0420]

@timshapiro you misspelled "retarded and annoying"

[AiWJ1216]

Wow,  Caddyshack on your mind?

[CuddleNuts]

nice ending. that was awesome

[DaMostEnigmatic]

get an ADHD TV

[joebrueske]

It's gotta be a chipmunk. The voice sounds better.

Randomness:

If Quantum theory is true that there is 10xs more energy in the empty spaces between a nucleus and its electrons than there was during the big bang, how did that extra energy get there?

And if, in theory, thought processes can change how matter behaves, then how did the big bang create neutrons to be able to behave as matter OR energy since the big bang has no consciousness?

[syrensounds]

..............i like your style, rudeabayga

[123adrianramirez]

damn your beautiful (too bold)

[alfazha]

@123adrianramirez Too soon!

[MysticalWheel]

Wow...I totally hate it when someone's cheekbone to cheekbone width is wider than their forehead width.

[fireicer]

wip it out lol now that could be taken the wrong way pmsl its all good hehe

[JoshyNapalm]

Paused at 1:25, laughing too hard, lol.

[LordAlii]

Your making everyone with ADHD sound like a fucking retard.

I have it, as does my dad, and we dont run around fucking screaming.

Do you even kow the meaning or is it just for show? Attention Defisite Hyperactive Disability. Not Retarded Woman Trying To Get Views.

[JoshyNapalm]

@LordAlii The last D stands for Disorder.....

[LordAlii]

@JoshyNapalm In britian it stands for Disability.

[nitsua96]

@LordAlii Durr? Disability?

[jaksajak]

nope

[MAGICDRAGONPETE]

The ultimate raw fish!

[biosam232]

OMG!!!!!!!!!!! thats a lovely cabinet in the background...

[StraightShooter01]

LOL - lovin it!

[TacticalDiegs]

stupido video cursi de mierda, que no tiene tiempo para hacer otras pendejadas?

[allanonmage]

Hoe down throw down? PRICELESS!!!

[allanonmage]

You have HD (High Def) ADHD? hahaha lmao

[michielturmel]

some perferts here i sey, Greait video's Nixie greatings from the netherlands

[XenogeneGray]

I suspected you couldn't be perfect Nixie, still what's a little harmless insanity when you're clearly intelligent, nerdy and attractive :) Looks and brains are hard enough to find individually, but getting the two in the same package clearly is going to cause some problems :P

[urmomiscool100]

ADHD seems to make u more attractive in a way O_O

[stopthrm]

I wish it worked for me that way. It tends to repel woman...

[zeroskater529613]

i will this weekend when i dont take my MEDS

[firefly4322]

Its a gopher

[toddhawley]

Every video you make is like falling in love all over again.

Definatly doable. Nice tits.

xxoo 5 stars

[MrGodDamnImGood]

Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, I have met many people with it and you seem to deal with it very well. Keep making great videos.

[smartone432]

your "invisible" bra isnt so invisible. just wear a strapless. oh, and also-dont to the hoe down throw down

you just look stupid

not in a funny/cute/creative person

like a dipshit

[flobbadobb3000]

i would adhd you OH YEAH!!!!

[MasaruGamer]

do you partake of the Ganja

[itsmefergal]

I'd distance myself from this one guys. She really should take her TABLETS EVERY DAY!!!

[blackpack2003]

wonder if one day soon u will accidently give us ur phone number Jk... : )

[Savaril]

okay

[CHORIZIOisGOOD]

if tacos didnt have meat will it still be called a taco or is it just meat......these are important questions.......i have a adHD tv or something.....DING FRIES ARE DONE

[MusicIan423]

so this is my first try of many when it happened they really didn't know what hit them unless they were cold in the handball court but regardless of whether or not they grew a pair they still made love to the wind in the last instant of death before they were born don't ask me how I'm not sure what time it came to a peak because nothing. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOsays the beast but he still rocks the caz as well as the bah, you only knew the bah dammit make a pansy a king and you will see what I mean O!!

[henik9]

Reminds me of Dennis Hopper in Apocalypse Now.

[paradoxdesigns]

listen to some buck 65.