I watched a show today on Trinidad, Colorado and upon looking up the Marci Bower, I came across from hormone videos and yours. I am a straight married 30's female, and a Jew. I completely support you and what you are doing. This can not be easy to do for you or anyone, but I commend you on your efforts to fight for who you really are. Society is cruel and people are assholes, but ignore the negativity and keep going. The changes are great from what I have viewed and you look wonderful.
I think that you should honestly take this day by day. I imagine the change is quite gradual but I can see a HUGE difference in you from when you started to the present video. If you change your mind and you decide it is not what you want to do then so be it, but you can wear yourself out worrying about surgeries and money to pay for breasts and skin care. Try to complete one thing at a time. Set small goals. Don't give up. Keep up the good work and stay in therapy regardless.
Yeah don't read that woman's website. She is a very bitter bitter bitter bitter woman. Literally every other girl I talked too (both pre and post op) disagrees heavily with that person who wrote "So you want to be a tgirl."
The author of that website is very very destructive. Don'y listen to her. Take other people's advice :)
This is an honest vlog, i can't beleive it doesn't have more views, it makes me sad to hear about your depression, my sister/brother is ftm transgender person and he is always depressed and has yet to find work, we don't talk much, i dont really understand it all, that is the main reason why i watch your vids. But i also want you to have a happy ending. If you want to talk, let me know. If not then i won't be offended.
One step at a time my friend. And I know the envy of the older transitioner- it's hard not to think why didn't I start sooner...but we just have to go with what we've got!
That book is an old, very bitter person's view of transition. She has a sordid past that anyone would want to hide.
The life she advocates for transwomen is basically a self-imposed witness protection program, but we all know that in the internet era it's not that hard to dig up a person's past. Really she's just a coward who believes society will never see Transsexualism as a correctable medical condition. Tell that to Amanda Simpson, Obama's Senior Technical Adviser to the Commerce Department
Her attitude is that unless you're 100% stealth, you're nothing but a "tranny fetishist", yet she admitted to me she prostituted herself just to "prove" she could do it. She said the "average" transition takes 5-10 years (lol), & that she'll never complete hers. This person should NOT be advising others on how to transition.
I asked her if she would she rescue a crying baby from a burning building, if it meant she'd be outed as trans. She basically wouldn't answer me.
@Erica2Lives, sounds like a crappy book. My own experience involves being in the closet crossdresser, wanting to be a girl since I'm awkward around the opposite sex (I feel expected to lead in a relationship, when I wanna be asked out). But as for the actual transition? It's like this: I'm so awkward in my own skin I come across as lacking self confidence and don't get hired, and as result lack the funds to transition (that, and I live with my conservative, traditionalist parents).
@thooker144 - The book probably scares a lot of people off transition, and it's filled with a lot of misinformation. I think she (Miss Fiorella) probably wrote it as a form of therapy for her own crappy transition.
If you are truly suffering from Transsexualism, you will reach a breaking point. We all do. Transition can be affordable, but you have to do it much slower. A good, secure job is crucial. You should find a gender therapist and start exploring your problems.
Hey, a new vid. Nice, thank you for keeping us up to date, but you should not force yourself to make one just to make the comm happy. You got enough to handle already so do not feel pushed by people who ask for an update. Its YOUR life after all so we should be thankful that you have the courage to share so much with us.
Now I wish you the best of luck and as some others already said: The longest journey can still be done with small steps. Do not look to far ahead, enjoy what is now.
it's been a while ! I'm always glad to see a new video .. You look really good here .. You're disappointed about having large neck, shoulders and stuff, but hey I know some beautiful girls who have quite large/thick bones structure, it's really not a problem. The most important is your face and you are very lucky on this side.
it's awesome how much help you can get there in Australia, in Europe (at least France) we are so old-fashioned it's a shame.
You mustn't make this so traumatic. You are very young, and everything seems so difficult, but it needn't be. Take your time. Think about what you want to do, and work out a plan for SMALL steps. The big picture is making you fret, because it is seems a long journey, but it isn't. You'll see! You are young enough to make the trip, and still have a long and happy life. You'll get there. Value each step. Place one foot there, and another there. Be deliberate. Be happy with your mission, dear.
Hey there. I know exactly what you're talking about. I would love to live is a girl full time, but it's difficult without the money and sorts to talk with a psychiatris, but sooner or later I will get there, I have those days where I don't want to live anymore as well just because I'm tired of lookin at myself as a guy, I want to be a woman, a full woman, although, I know I can't be "fully" I can come pretty damned close
Please don't let the hope of being happy fly away from you. Only fools never doubts themselves. If you don't already know what's right for you, time is going to tell. In the meantime, just focus on living your life to the fullest! Hang with your friends, do what you like and don't let doubts keep you from acting the way you want to act and just being yourself.
I think if you transition, then focus on living your life you will be fine. Once you complete your transition, return to school or get a job and try to focus on what will make you content. Let transition be a phase that you complete then live the rest of your life. I feel, while living your life, you will find love, loss, contentment and disappointment like everyone but only as Lucy, not a transsexual. I believe you can be content and have what you want; go for it. PS - remember your writing.
i like to much your Journey!!cause you look cute as you are!!! keep your way, always safe!! and I love you!! i always do it!! nice hear you!! KSS!! you´re so cute!!!!-.o!!MIAU!!
I want to let you know that I don't care, I like Vala and if you insult her or anyone else on this channel again then I'll block you. Keep your thoughts and opinions to yourself in the future.
Although you havent started transition during puberty, there is still plenty of time to focus on a new job, either as a guy or a girl... and save money to fully dedicate yourself to the process. Its only a matter of priorities and persistence. obs- You look gorgeous with your short hair.
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regenboogjeful 11 months ago
hhmmmmmmm nicee
i love shemales(L)
regenboogjeful 11 months ago
It has been a year since you made this video.
How do you feel about it now?
MAc0ck 11 months ago
I watched a show today on Trinidad, Colorado and upon looking up the Marci Bower, I came across from hormone videos and yours. I am a straight married 30's female, and a Jew. I completely support you and what you are doing. This can not be easy to do for you or anyone, but I commend you on your efforts to fight for who you really are. Society is cruel and people are assholes, but ignore the negativity and keep going. The changes are great from what I have viewed and you look wonderful.
abluehalo 1 year ago
I think that you should honestly take this day by day. I imagine the change is quite gradual but I can see a HUGE difference in you from when you started to the present video. If you change your mind and you decide it is not what you want to do then so be it, but you can wear yourself out worrying about surgeries and money to pay for breasts and skin care. Try to complete one thing at a time. Set small goals. Don't give up. Keep up the good work and stay in therapy regardless.
abluehalo 1 year ago
Yeah don't read that woman's website. She is a very bitter bitter bitter bitter woman. Literally every other girl I talked too (both pre and post op) disagrees heavily with that person who wrote "So you want to be a tgirl."
The author of that website is very very destructive. Don'y listen to her. Take other people's advice :)
~Annah
AnnahHinman 1 year ago
This is an honest vlog, i can't beleive it doesn't have more views, it makes me sad to hear about your depression, my sister/brother is ftm transgender person and he is always depressed and has yet to find work, we don't talk much, i dont really understand it all, that is the main reason why i watch your vids. But i also want you to have a happy ending. If you want to talk, let me know. If not then i won't be offended.
bewareoftheleapard 1 year ago
hello gorgeous! You're looking fabulous as always!
And, as always, I wish you well in your transition.
No two cases are ever the same, you are your own blue-print and deserve to be happy without pressure from yourself or anyone else.
It's all about being happy in the end.
Hold on to that sweet-spot of life.
Lots of love,
prosopopia.
prosopopia 1 year ago
Be who you are!!!! I imagine its not easy, do it for all of us that can't.
Mark.
RNmerritt 2 years ago
One step at a time my friend. And I know the envy of the older transitioner- it's hard not to think why didn't I start sooner...but we just have to go with what we've got!
Filifloats 2 years ago
That book is an old, very bitter person's view of transition. She has a sordid past that anyone would want to hide.
The life she advocates for transwomen is basically a self-imposed witness protection program, but we all know that in the internet era it's not that hard to dig up a person's past. Really she's just a coward who believes society will never see Transsexualism as a correctable medical condition. Tell that to Amanda Simpson, Obama's Senior Technical Adviser to the Commerce Department
Erica2Lives 2 years ago
Her attitude is that unless you're 100% stealth, you're nothing but a "tranny fetishist", yet she admitted to me she prostituted herself just to "prove" she could do it. She said the "average" transition takes 5-10 years (lol), & that she'll never complete hers. This person should NOT be advising others on how to transition.
I asked her if she would she rescue a crying baby from a burning building, if it meant she'd be outed as trans. She basically wouldn't answer me.
'nuff said.
Erica2Lives 2 years ago
@Erica2Lives, sounds like a crappy book. My own experience involves being in the closet crossdresser, wanting to be a girl since I'm awkward around the opposite sex (I feel expected to lead in a relationship, when I wanna be asked out). But as for the actual transition? It's like this: I'm so awkward in my own skin I come across as lacking self confidence and don't get hired, and as result lack the funds to transition (that, and I live with my conservative, traditionalist parents).
thooker144 2 years ago
@thooker144 - The book probably scares a lot of people off transition, and it's filled with a lot of misinformation. I think she (Miss Fiorella) probably wrote it as a form of therapy for her own crappy transition.
If you are truly suffering from Transsexualism, you will reach a breaking point. We all do. Transition can be affordable, but you have to do it much slower. A good, secure job is crucial. You should find a gender therapist and start exploring your problems.
Erica2Lives 2 years ago
Ina addition to all psichological perparedness try to eat healthy
A balanced dieta help to impriove everything, looks, inner health and proper nutirents
h5t6ca 2 years ago
Hey, a new vid. Nice, thank you for keeping us up to date, but you should not force yourself to make one just to make the comm happy. You got enough to handle already so do not feel pushed by people who ask for an update. Its YOUR life after all so we should be thankful that you have the courage to share so much with us.
Now I wish you the best of luck and as some others already said: The longest journey can still be done with small steps. Do not look to far ahead, enjoy what is now.
Regards!
OldPeete 2 years ago
hi,
it's been a while ! I'm always glad to see a new video .. You look really good here .. You're disappointed about having large neck, shoulders and stuff, but hey I know some beautiful girls who have quite large/thick bones structure, it's really not a problem. The most important is your face and you are very lucky on this side.
it's awesome how much help you can get there in Australia, in Europe (at least France) we are so old-fashioned it's a shame.
good luck ..
utilisateurSpabien 2 years ago
You mustn't make this so traumatic. You are very young, and everything seems so difficult, but it needn't be. Take your time. Think about what you want to do, and work out a plan for SMALL steps. The big picture is making you fret, because it is seems a long journey, but it isn't. You'll see! You are young enough to make the trip, and still have a long and happy life. You'll get there. Value each step. Place one foot there, and another there. Be deliberate. Be happy with your mission, dear.
Leona1950 2 years ago
WooW.. even without the H-D you look lovely! ..;))
soepkip666 2 years ago
Hey there. I know exactly what you're talking about. I would love to live is a girl full time, but it's difficult without the money and sorts to talk with a psychiatris, but sooner or later I will get there, I have those days where I don't want to live anymore as well just because I'm tired of lookin at myself as a guy, I want to be a woman, a full woman, although, I know I can't be "fully" I can come pretty damned close
arg110587 2 years ago
Please don't let the hope of being happy fly away from you. Only fools never doubts themselves. If you don't already know what's right for you, time is going to tell. In the meantime, just focus on living your life to the fullest! Hang with your friends, do what you like and don't let doubts keep you from acting the way you want to act and just being yourself.
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babykittenful 2 years ago
I think if you transition, then focus on living your life you will be fine. Once you complete your transition, return to school or get a job and try to focus on what will make you content. Let transition be a phase that you complete then live the rest of your life. I feel, while living your life, you will find love, loss, contentment and disappointment like everyone but only as Lucy, not a transsexual. I believe you can be content and have what you want; go for it. PS - remember your writing.
writerdamien 2 years ago
Hi, thanks for your update, you are more beautiful, I like your new hair
galo52 2 years ago
i like to much your Journey!!cause you look cute as you are!!! keep your way, always safe!! and I love you!! i always do it!! nice hear you!! KSS!! you´re so cute!!!!-.o!!MIAU!!
am4jrk 2 years ago
Good to hear your voice! ^_^
GlaubenInGod 2 years ago
Yes, get a job and save up for what you want to do.
kenh1242 2 years ago
Hello Julie
I want to let you know that I don't care, I like Vala and if you insult her or anyone else on this channel again then I'll block you. Keep your thoughts and opinions to yourself in the future.
LainWest 2 years ago
Hang in there, sweets.
Although you havent started transition during puberty, there is still plenty of time to focus on a new job, either as a guy or a girl... and save money to fully dedicate yourself to the process. Its only a matter of priorities and persistence. obs- You look gorgeous with your short hair.
marvincontendo 2 years ago
Well the good news is, you look good even when your not trying.^_-
Aluenvey 2 years ago
Well its like a second chance for can make things better than the first try =)
newkie2008 2 years ago
Thanks for your update.
wendy11372 2 years ago