I've been very close to this .. but not for many years... somehow, being a mom changed that for me -- and it hurts to know that for some, even that is not enough ....
Truly scary shit isn't it? Not even the act but.. that that though crosses your mind.
Come to think of it THAT is the scary bit. Those thoughts floating around in your head. What actually happens isn't scary at all. At least not THAT scary.
Should be a lesson in there to not be so scared by the thoughts. The can not make good anyway. Somehow that isn't very helpfull.
I s'pose it all depends on your philosophy... until a thought is born, it cannot take reality -- but once it has been dreamed up by your imagination, well, then its no holds barred! who knows what your subconscious mind might be working up to have you bring about that which you so fear....
I'm so glad I know how he looks. I take just enough meds to keep him at bay but never so much that he can hide in the shadows.
He's like that old 'friend' from years ago but we grew apart. He sends me a card around Christmas telling me I still think about him. Just so I know he will always be there.
I take comfort in that. Just a card at Christmas is all the reasurance I need.
I think thats what poetry is for me -- its never been about a story -- its always been about raw emotion and using a very short delivery method to cut it across.....
Very moving, Shiloh. One of my dearest friends came so close to this...
tjkoz22 3 years ago
I've been very close to this .. but not for many years... somehow, being a mom changed that for me -- and it hurts to know that for some, even that is not enough ....
shilohisms 3 years ago
"not you, it can't happen to you" -- how many times I had thought exactly that while listening to a horrible story ... 5* + favorited.
liz1060 3 years ago
sometimes I fear that if I even think "thank goodness this isn't happening to me!" then I'm tempting fate to MAKE it happen to me..... :(
shilohisms 3 years ago
Truly scary shit isn't it? Not even the act but.. that that though crosses your mind.
Come to think of it THAT is the scary bit. Those thoughts floating around in your head. What actually happens isn't scary at all. At least not THAT scary.
Should be a lesson in there to not be so scared by the thoughts. The can not make good anyway. Somehow that isn't very helpfull.
PuppyZwolle 3 years ago
I s'pose it all depends on your philosophy... until a thought is born, it cannot take reality -- but once it has been dreamed up by your imagination, well, then its no holds barred! who knows what your subconscious mind might be working up to have you bring about that which you so fear....
shilohisms 3 years ago
Horror.
I'm so glad I know how he looks. I take just enough meds to keep him at bay but never so much that he can hide in the shadows.
He's like that old 'friend' from years ago but we grew apart. He sends me a card around Christmas telling me I still think about him. Just so I know he will always be there.
I take comfort in that. Just a card at Christmas is all the reasurance I need.
PuppyZwolle 3 years ago
omg :) thats exactly how I feel .. a card at xmas! what a perfect allegory!!
shilohisms 3 years ago
awesome
sandieblack 3 years ago
Thanks hun :)
I think thats what poetry is for me -- its never been about a story -- its always been about raw emotion and using a very short delivery method to cut it across.....
shilohisms 3 years ago