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  • I live in Utah its really not bad Mormons can be judgemental sometimes though

  • Thanks SO MUCH for sharing, glad to see you're so happy and you followed your dreams! Congratulations!

  • No way, I lived in Utah also. That's not exactly a trans friendly place is it?

  • You are so insanely brave! My respect for you knows nobounds!

  • @LightningAndHarold

    Certainly, you just spoke the females.

  • I love you for what you're doing, I think you are so so brave. thank you for being yourself and making this world a better, more honest one. I truly admire you and wish I will one day have a girlfriend like you: ) or at least a friend !

  • Disgrace to the male race.

  • @SonyFan4 so i suppose me being a gay tran girl makes me a disgrace to the female race?

  • Dahhh! Needle! *spaz*

  • why ????????????

  • @Littlefoot3559 go fuck yourself with a fork and say that to a womans face, see if your precious balls dont get kicked into a fucking vag..

  • LGBT or hetero, we're all the same! Love is love!

  • wow...you are SO BRAVE!!!!!!! Putting that needle in your leg really made me realize how much you want this. I mean, everything you've been through pretty much made me realize how much you want it, but that needle bit....yeowch!!!

    You go girl!!!!

  • Grishno: All I can say is thank you for being the precious person you so truly are. It made me cry to see you with your girlfriend. I mean, how wonderful she must be to recognize the miricle you are. I'm mtf trans, with a fantastic girl as well. Maybe someday we'll cross paths. Keep the vids comin'.

  • this may be old, but i love them all ^^

    always got annoyed by those who didnt understand that gender doesnt make your sexuality 8/

  • Honestly don't remember if I've commented before on this but know I've watched it before...anyway point is major props for doing this...i think it helps show the reality and hopefully breaks down some walls of hatred/discrimination (hey a girl can dream). :)

  • you inspire sooo muc... you have no idea <3

  • you are wrong. you should have explored where you would like to live before you had your package amputated. you may have found more acceptance elsewhere.

    I don't think you should have had it done.

  • I really like your doku, you are such a nice and sensible person. wish you all the best :-)

    ... and your girlfriend and you are very sweet together...

  • Does it hurt when u inject? sorry for spamming.. it looks painful.. i faint when i see the needle .. omg...

  • Do u hve to take injection ??!! or juz take pills ?

  • Ur dad is soo good ... i talk to my parents and sis abt LGBT , they say they hated it :( i didnt tell them :( and when i was young i love being a girl and my dad says if i didnt change he will dump me and cut off my ... u noe.. :(

  • do you have to take hormones forever? sorry if it´s a dumb question i don´t know this stuff about the body how hormones work more than the usual stuff. i like your videos. you´re so brave. thanks again

  • I had a long distance girl friend from utah once, GOD SHE WAS WERIED!

    Not saying this guy (girl?) has anything wrong with him/her, but fuck Utah people and their religious cult style bullshit!

  • @MrTrixter311 Another word (which isn't an acronym) comes to mind: ignorant.

  • This guy sounds like a midget on acid.

  • Great vid - must be so hard living in a religious state - & some talk about stamping out extremism

  • u looked better than boy

  • Thanks for making this documentary and sharing your personal experiences with us :) We don't learn stuff like this in high school. While in university, only taking certain courses would bring us to the topic of transgender. Sad to say that only today, I finally learn what cissexism and cisgende is in class.

  • I totally relate to what he's saying you you dont have to be in to guys to be a women.you can become a girl and like girls not all transgenered men like men many have always liked girls and like them so much that they are one inside them selves and want to be with a girl as a lover (just imagine your a boy who likes girls at the same time you want top be a girl now just because your becomeing a girl doesnt mean you nolonger are attracted to girls understand?)

  • thanks for tell it is like it is i too am going though therpy and i am glad my mom and dad are helping me and my gf sarah

  • You have such pretty legs!

    I'm so jealous! :]

  • All these perverted transgenders, gays are unahppy or componsate by being overly happy. They are possesed by demons.

  • @Pandemic43 Nice reasoned argument, there, Professor.

  • @Pandemic43 your mother has a demon in her pussy :)

  • This video made me cry...

  • why is that man dressed like a woman?

  • why is that man dressed like a woman?

  • @woo2fly21 your obviously a retard.

  • Courageous.

  • Just to explain what you're doing with the shot in case others that self medicate watch this it's very important what you did before injecting, pulling back on the syringe to make sure you're not in a vein. Great video and my whole family is mormon so I totally understand about that, rumors spread like wild fire and way too many people are in other's business they shouldn't be in.

  • @wild84child

    They don't have their penis cut off, nothing gets cut off.

  • you have inspired me.

  • I had a trans friend, he operated aswell, i saw him the other night giving head to a boy in the forrest lol, she´ll never change I guess, anyway what I dont understand and it doesnt really matter, when u mean girlfriend, it means  ur friend right, not ur partner? otherwise u ´d become a lesbian lol and that ´d be weird if u like girls sorry! cheers!!!

  • No, when I say girlfriend I mean my partner, who is now actually my life.

    I've explained this a lot of times before, but one more time doesn't hurt. Bring Transgender isn't about who I want to be in bed with, it's about who I want to be in bed as. If I wanted to just sleep with men then I would have been a gay man.

    The fact is that gender and sexuality are two very different things that are all too often confused with eachother.

    Best,

    ~E

  • I didnt know this!! thanks for replying on my comment!!!!! I sincerely wish u all the best! I ve learnt something today THANK YOU!!! KISSES from Buenos Aires , Argentina-

  • omg ! i was just about to ask how you know the needles in far enough,then WHAM! that looks scarier than the dentist instruments!

  • you know what it is. we all see a true person with so much truth to give.

  • You are a lovely girl! I hope you're doing well, you deserve it. I'm a trans boi and I haven't transitioned yet, that's why I was watching your vid.

    xoxo!

  • What a beautiful young woman and a wonderful example of being true to self! Love you!

  • NICE! Beautiful documentary

  • i thought the info that you said about, not getting help in UTAH and then in NY was GREAT, its incredible that it depends where one lives that they get the help they need. oh and your relationship, wonderful, my gf is awesome also she really loves me and i her

  • Hello im kevin grove in sc i love your post on you tube you are a very good help to the trans people i would like to know where online did you get you hormones i to livie in the small town on seneca sc and i would like to start taking my hormones what kind should i get and where would i order them online

  • LOL.....

  • She's so pretty :/

  • i love your videos, i have had similair feedback. I make horrible videos but it's just breaking the stereotypes in society that we become inspirations to others :-)

  • lol at 6:00 you make such a hilariously insensitive remark about your girlfriend that proves, incontrovertibly, that you are, in fact, a man. sry, but i calls em like i sees em, brotha.

  • It's people like you that hate crimes legislation is aimed at. Thank god for that.

  • jebus, arent you controlling.

  • @ ellenas33

    if u hate transgendered people so much then why are you watching a transgender documentary? your an uneducated hairy butt ugly baffoon

    go fuck yourself

  • @Ellenas33

    No. I'm a FTM and I like straight girls so just because you're afraid the person you date is a MTF or FTM doesn't give you a right to be an ass and tell people what to do.

  • sending my love and support.

  • You're definitely not alone. My mum's accepted that I'm trans-gender, she's not told the rest of the family, she plans to eventually, but only when I'm more ahead in what I need to do.

    Needles...I'm terrified of needles, I guess that's something I'll be trying my best not to think of. And for those wondering, TG can be fond of men and women, I'm bi-sexual and quite happy with that, though not interested in anyone.

  • Jennifer Jane (also called Guinevere) and can be ... I don't know why my replies don't get recorded -- but if you do find this --- you are a wonderful and brave lady.

  • i was always against transgendered people... being a straight female.

    but erin, you have opened up my eyes to this issue, and i know that i will never be judgmental or ignorant whenever im exposed to this from now.

    i know i will never truly understand, but with this documentary, i have become much more accepting of trans people.

    thanks for your time in talking about such a sensitive issue with the world

    :)

  • Mission Accomplished! =)

  • Do all lesbians really just want to be men? No... that's because gender and sexuality are different. Same thing here. Just because I'm a girl doesn't mean i'm in to guys or girls by default.

  • You could've been a girl by simply saying you were one with the operation, yet you saw the need to do said operation because it probably solidifed your feminity. If that is true, then why would you not want to further solidify your feminity by developing, or already having as the case may be, an attraction to men? That is the norm for females, being a lesbian is not. Idealistic females are never lesbians in the fairy tales.

  • Oh and btw, I'm completely supportive of what you've done and you've opened my eyes. Thank you for that. =).

  • @grishno if ur a girl then you should be into guys......

  • @Rawrlor Did you really ask that question? If you are on youtube that means you can do some research and really find out what is going on and not ask stupid questions.

  • @Rawrlor Gender is a social aspect of life that is thought as separate from sexual orientation but like it, based upon how people feel emotionally. Some people think of gender as an absolute concept of reproduction; which if true, will create problems when technology in fertility progresses to the point of making the distinction completely interchangeable with medical surgery.

  • you are really awsome. i wish i could be as open as you

  • Erin, I think it is so amazing that you are sharing your experiences with the world. I think you are incredibly brave, and I believe that if more people in your shoes did what you do, there would be more understanding. Understanding crushes hate. Keep it up. You rock, Erin. And you are beautiful.

    -Modias

  • Thank you for the documentary grishno. I think it is important to try and help people gain some understanding of what it is like to be trans. It is so easy for people who identify with their biological gender to be disparaging; but they have never had to wake up everyday trapped in a body that they don't feel reflects who they are on the inside. I can't imagine what that feels like, but I have a great deal of respect for what trans people go through.

  • it's just simply amazing video. I do like it a lot. I am also MtF so your videos helps me to get more informations and so.

    Wish you all the best..

    Nikola

  • I also hate needles. That looked horrifying. Just thinking about it makes me cringe. I hope I can manage to do that someday.

  • You are so pretty

  • i'm a perfectly straight guy, but i can't stand the amount of hate that the transgender community faces. you'd really think we'd be more accepting, but society is completely closed-minded

  • @blazdone I agree. The world is so narrow-minded and fears what they do not understand. Anything out of the comfort zone. I often one how is America the land of the free when we can't even accept people who are Homosexual or Bisexual or Transgenders. It's very sad truly.

  • Wow, lesbians don't hate transgirls, and MtF of gay or bi- sexuality aren't that uncommon.

    Here simple: gender identity, sexuality, and gender expression are individual attributes, they may reflect one another, but do not dictate each other. These traits are mutually exclusive and work on an individual basis.

    Also subscribed.

  • I SOOOOOOOOO wanted to see a kiss :P

  • I'm in support of the Trans community but what I find a little unusual is that she is a MTF trans but considers herself to be a lesbian????? Doesn't anyone else sort of have curiosity about that

  • well your a man and sex is always on the brain soooo maybe for her she cares about the intimacy of a women. Understandable. Im a TS and wish i could be lesbian men are far too tough to deal with.

  • i think its wrong because what if i see you on the streets thinking yourf a chick and check you out that would piss me off but if it makes you happy who the F am i to tell you what to do but i can understand some of the things you do like wear tight pants and shirts and i do that to and i'm 100% straight but to go fully over and wear ladys dresses and w/e also the makeup and your straight cause you have a gf or bi idk i just dont get.

  • Trans isn't something you can 'get'. It's very hard for a non-trans person to understand it. I have several trans friends, and I don't completely 'get' it. How could I? I have never experienced what they have experienced, to say that I completely understand would be to denigrate what they have been through. I can't 'understand' completely; but I CAN empathise.

  • I'm transsexual on hormones and still much prefer the company and intimacy of a girl and I always will.

  • she are trangeder too??

  • so she was a boy who wanted to be a girl but likes girls and not boys damn it cocmplicated

  • it's not really that hard to understand, he wanted to be gay but have the female gender instead.

  • most lesbians have T-girls!

  • ok ur confusing me. In one comment you said lesbians hate t-girls and the other one you said lesbians mostly have t-girls. That's weird plus it's not true. Lesbians don not hate t-girls and the majority of lesbians do not date transsexuals anyway. IT'S AGAINST THEIR RELIGION HA HA!!!!!!!!

  • Google: Transexualism and Julie Bindel, in my experience Lesbians generally dislike transwomen but don't mind transmen so much, funny that.

  • "wanted to be gay"

    Um, no.

  • oops

    PS. be  happpy

  • um wow all i have to realy says is if u realy are that way go all the way lolie s old video why be you whun u can be you evey one who thinks u are a freak are insacure about them selves and polbley have gay moments have fun thats all its about

  • Go to where your heart takes you dude & ignore the haters O.o

    Im subscribing to show support & respect for you btw :)

    Good luck :D

  • oh, you're THAT insecure?

    how sad :'(

  • Don't ya just hate roadblocks? I am sorry you had to leave home but it was probably in your best interest to do so.

    You have my support anytime you need it

  • Erin you're so beautiful.

    And you too Morgan; this is so touching.

    Thanks, and Erin, just now you sounded a little like Patti Smith, whom i just LOVE.

    Hugs to you guys, Rickie

  • Oh my God, you're from Utah! I didn't realize! Well, many people are, it's the luck of the draw, but I'm sorry that you had to work through that. I lived there for a while and I just had to leave. Yes, your parents were simply too afraid to be good parents to you, and that is very, very hard. But, you've moved on to be so important to so many who find themselves facing similar obstacles and that is all you, girl!

  • I had a little tear in my eye after watching this. A touching video which came from the heart.

  • <3 callen-lorde

  • and you're a dumbass, so?

  • @woo2fly21

    No she's not.

  • You are such a brave girl Erin,

    its amazing how you show so many people, what we as transgenders have to go through everyday to just be what we truly are in the inside but its not seen in the outside.

    You are a great representative of our community, a true inspiration.

    thank you.

  • I really do love your videoblogs. I am on the same way as you because I've found myself as TS as well and I've been sorting this 'problem' out. I wish you all the best and keep making such a lovely videos.. 8-)

  • You and Morgan are adorable together. Thank you for posting so many parts thus far.

    Not too dissimilarly, I've been banned from having contact from my Grandmother, her hometown, etc. All of my mother's family - WSSSHT! Gone. 'Grammamma cain't know nothin!'

    ...Can't head out that way without dire consequences. ;;rolls eyes;;

    Seeing you inject yourself in that old vlog again has brought back memories. You've come so far Erin! I hope you and Morgan have the happiest life together.

  • Thank you. I really enjoyed your postive message.

  • u are so cool thank u for doing this

  • I like Morgans comments and I DO see Erin as just a GIRL rather than the way the media portrays trans girls.

  • Dear Erin, Much love to you! You have such inspiring videos and I'm sure that you've influenced many lifes for the better. Keep it up! Love, Kelsey

  • Hi Erin,

    I have only this to say about part two. Excellent, well done in every respect, you do the community proud.

  • Hi Erin, it must have been hard for you as a Mormon. I can relate, as I was a Jehovah's witness and was fearful of being seen as any kind of LGBTQ until I had well and truly moved out. Thank you for all your wonderful videos so far darling :)

    xo

    Jazzi

  • I never thought this was going to come out! It's well worth the wait..

    looking forward to the other parts.

    Loves and Kisses.

    TJ

  • you have definitely broadened my worldview in the time i've been following your blog. i'd never understood just how much sexuality and body are two separate things until i saw a video blog of a trans who was identifying as lesbian. you've helped me understand my sister (who is considering a FtM transition) and my own sexuality much more clearly. thank you!! <3 and lots of love!!

  • to say I respect you and thank you for putting yourself out there is such an understatement. Thank you thank you thank you!!

  • Wow! It looks like a TV documentary. Your skills about making movie have been improving.

  • Stay the course you are sooooo on the right track. Family sure can make things hard on us. It sure doesnt make it easy though.

  • you should talk to wolfe video. they manufacture their own dvds and sell them on their website. all their movies are LGBT oriented and i would totally buy this on dvd!

  • You're such a beautiful person and you and Morgan are adorable!

  • Good so far, your story is compelling even though I already know some of it (from virtually all the previous videos).

  • You have a very interesting life story to tell. I wish you the best of luck as you find yourself and transition to your new life in your 'real body'.

  • ouch, morgan with the classism and ableism. ouch. I thought better of her.

  • lmao

  • Amazing!

    I'm looking forward to the next part!

  • I love Morgan! She's so absurdly adorable. I just want to squeeze and pet her. That sounds so creepy. You're so fortunate to have a partner as supportive as Morgan.

    Another wonderful video, Erin! Great work! Can't wait to see the rest of this documentary.

  • Your parents are not ashamed of you. Its really hard as a parent to have a child make this type of position. A parent is view very negatively like they have done something wrong along the way or that somehow its thier fault. people throw out the nature vs nurture theory and atuomatically its the parents fault. They are just as torn as you are I'm sure of it. You never really seem happy at all in any of your video's not even there with your girlfriend. You carry saddness with you.

  • very true

  • hi its me again go girl

  • Aww... you and Morgan are so cute together... I can't wait for the rest! This whole thing so far has been really touching and I'm really enjoying it. OUCH @ the needle thing... I'm looking forward to and dreading this part of my own transition at the same time... I hate shots Hate them... not afraid of needles exactly... I have tattoo's and peircings.. but tattoo's are fairly topical the puncturing is minimal... but shots. that shit goes in deep and it always hurts like hell...! Luv U grishno

  • Why would you even say something like that to someone? It reeks of insecurity.

  • It is very hard as a transgendered person to judge a person's passability subjectively. I know I personally have no issues picking out a transperson from a crowd however that does not make them any less passable to the public. Furthermore it is up to her and her experiences to determine the success of her transition NOT by others who feel as though they need to make comments that are far from constructive. It has nothing to do with ignorance and more to do with common sense.

  • you might think you are being real, but truth be told you are buying into the bs that is crammed down out throats as to what beauty is, there are many physically born females in the world that also have the same body structure as Erin's, as well as there being guys with long hair, her as you put it "boyish" body doesn't make her less beautiful and a guy with long hair doesn't make him less of a man. Stop picking people apart!

  • that's true to an extent, but look at my comment below about the american idol thing. and it's the same thing with heavier weight ppl. they aren't going to be desired by as many ppl as a 20 something year old girl that has a great body etc.....i'm not harsh , it is the world that is harsh!

    u're basically trying to deny that things such as "fat" exist. i think they exist, but i don't think we should treat ppl bad because of it. but we shouldn't deny it's existence!

  • but we don't as have to rip people apart especially within our own community, I'm Fat, I'm Trans, I also have to wear a wig, do I think I'm beautiful, no not at all even when others tell me I don't believe it, but other than working my ass off to try to loose the weight which I've struggled with all my life including as early as I can remember when having to shop in the husky section, I've accepted it, and don't need others to remind me did Erin ask how you thought she looked?

  • hun, i really do feel for you, i have alot of things i don't like about myself either too! and i'm sure there is someone out there for u too!

    i once had a conversation with a gay friend of mine i used to know and he said it is better to find pockets of acceptance in the world instead of having to fight against ppl. and that's hot i see things too.

    ur a beautiful woman lindsay, i don't judge totally on appearance

    the reason why i commented on erin was bcuz in one vid she said she was passable

  • You kind of look like Chris Tucker in the 5th element. Are we green? I think it's a little bit bitchy to rip someone apart on their own comment section. Grishno is awesome, if you have something "constructive" to say about her, why not tell her instead of posting it and starting a cat fight on her video.

    Oh, and Rodman called - he wants his look back.

  • why are you being such an ass? you could be more polite and keep the comments to yourself, it isn't bout passing or not passing. if anything is your insensitive speech that make people take offense to you as a whole.

  • i DO believe in conventional beauty, that's the thing. it doesn't mean i have to hate myself if i don't have it . but i do believ ein it

  • Charlotte, thank you so much for saying the things I wanted to say after reading devaloki. I so don't still to this day get the selfish, evil, backhanded comments so many girls say about others. This has no sense of community only destruction. And we are, anyone of us no matter how "passable" we are, are going to be "read" at some point by somebody even if it's not vocalized, but we have to stop pinning ourselves up against each other in this bullshit game of what qualifies success.

  • well, yeah, i agree to an extent, but you have to realize society isn't going to be as nice. what is so bad about pointing out objective reality? ur friend winter is more cool about that then alot of these other ppl on here

  • What because my friend believes different than me that is suppose to make me want to change my believe so not a solid reason

  • what we see ourselves as, isn't what necessarily is physical reality.

  • devaloki please read my response posted below karmatic1110, cause truth be told I don't think she is the one that needs to realize this

  • haha, wtf are u talking about

  • Troll

  • I guess trolls come in all colors.

  • very classy

  • devolki-Screw yourself! And the above poster is right trolls DO come in all colors! HAHAHAHAHA!

  • @devaloki what makes you say that? what is with you intolerant people? if you have nothing nice to say, shut the fuck up..

  • oh my gosh...i can't wait for part three!

    YOU ROCK ERIN!!!

  • Incredible video :) Can't wait for part 3 :)

    All love from me Jasmíne.

  • Jasmine*

  • this looks FANTASTIC. can't wait for the rest.

  • You and Morgan just make me melt. I hope you two have an incredible Valentine's Day together! =) XoX